It's been a pretty difficult year so far.  My wife passed away in April and I'm still pretty lost.  I never thought I'd end up a widow.  Have you ever been married?
Widow
A widow is a woman whose spouse has died and a widower is a man whose spouse has died. The treatment of widows and widowers around the world varies.
Terminology.
A widow is a woman whose spouse has died, while a widower is a man whose spouse has died. The state of having lost one's spouse to death is termed "widowhood". These terms are not applied to a divorcé(e) following the death of an ex-spouse.
The term "widowhood" can be
his hand around my shoulder, and he said "I think we are together because we're both similar, like we're both really messed up" and I thought it was the saddest thing I'd ever heard. And I said, "I'm not sad, I didn't know that's why you thought you were relating to me on that level, I'm actually doing pretty good". And he was upset, and that's when I wrote the song. I thought, I had to do so