text: Go ahead and try experiencing these things you crave.  There is nothing morally wrong about naturism, the enjoyment of our God-given bodies in the natural environment can indeed be a spiritual experinece.  If you don't try these experiences, you will always feel you are missing out and deprived.  You need to be brave and throw off your background inhibitions.  You can always stop if you find the experience doesn't match up to the expectation.  But, it is the things that we lack the courage to try that we regret, not trying things and deciding from a position of knowledge that we don't like them.\nI had a similar dilemma to you (still working on it actually) but where I have confronted it and accepted my desires and embraced them I am much happier.  You can contact me directly if you want to discuss it further.