text: I guess.  because we are always thinking, we are always aware of everything and nothing at the same time, always wanting to make things better, and that makes living in a world of mediocrity an ongoing hell. most of the time Im thinking 2 or 3 things at the same time, its like watching 3 tvs at the same time different channels, so it gets complicated when someone else is talking to me sometimes coz im too distracted. Always aware, always my head saying things, it never shuts up, even when I sleep, I get lucid dreams at least 4 times a week, during that time im aware of been sleeping, my brain wont shut down and I wake up happy for been flying in my dreams but mad about controling them with my awareness, and I just need a rest of my brain but dont know how. This has isolated me from alot of people that get frustrated when they talk to me and I dont pay attention or I am but also thinking of 2 other things its hard. its hard to focuse, it takes me a long time to start reading because I just have to much in my mind, I need a brake!! from my head... I speak my mind and that gets my in trouble too.