text: i have worked with adolescents and adults with ocd. you cannot get through this alone. you need to be on meds that help control your obsessions and compulsions. and you need to be under the care of a psychiatrist. there are very good behavioral modification techniques you can learn to help to keep your ocd under control. if you don't seek professional help, your ocd behaviors can branch out to many other behaviors, that will greatly reduce your ability to live a "normal" life. there are also great support groups where you can establish friendships with other ppl who have the same issues as you, and can help you in many different ways that will be beneficial in your daily functioning. it sounds like you are having a tough time and want to get better, so that in itself is a step in the right direction. be an active participant in your therapy. i hope you have friends and family who are empathetic and supportive for you, and who will encourage and help you through your process. best of luck to you.