text: hunny materialistc things arent what holds your memories! he never read them anyway, instead of holding on to that so dearly, write him new ones. my best friend was murdered and thats what i do. i "send" him letters. i write them on paper and then burn them... thats my way of sending them. god doesnt give you more than you can handel. eveything that happens in life makes you stronger. suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems. i believe you go to hell if you take your own life, then you will never see him again... good luck and please be strong. my prayers are with you!