text: It Sounds like you already have part of the answer. Do your Seminary training on line and the next step is to "just do it." Get professionally trained (which is a relatively short time) so that you can excel at your obvious gift. Just think how far you could go by being licensed and making the professional connections while in school which will undoubtedly further your career.   It seems that you have found your passions in life, Most people never discover their true gifts. Now all you have to do is act on it and make a commitment and put the fear aside. Until you make a concerted effort toward what you really want to do, your life will continue to go in circles and you'll continue to feel unfulfilled and incomplete. Believe me I know from experience.  Time goes by all too quickly.