text: Seems like you are blaming everything on yourself girl, and you have gotten into a pattern of apologising everytime, if he thinks you are going to keep doing this he will keep pushing itto see how far he can go with it.  If your away and you are going to be back in two months have fun for yourself, tell him you will see him when you get back and see where it will go from there.  maybe he will realise after no communication for a while just how much he wants you.  I know you love him and it will be hard but give it a go.