text: We live life in order to make the decision to follow God, through Jesus Christ.  That is my opinion as a Christian.  I feel that we are supposed to bring as many people as possible with us to Heaven and to live as good a life as possible.  We are called to strive for perfection, even though we can never attain it in this world.  We have no idea what we will know or remember when we die.  We will know our loved ones, but we will not cry.  It may be that just the bad memories are taken away.  I can't presume what Heaven will be like, but it is supposed to be better than this world can ever be.  It is perfect.  Blessings to you and good luck in your search.