text: NO WAY !!!  IF I HAD PUSH EITHER THE "STRAIGHT" BUTTON OR THE "DEAD" BUTTON, I'D BE DEAD.  Sorry, and no offense to straight folks.  I love myself and my gay life, as simple or fun or plain as it can be (like most anyone's) for a long time.  Do you get it?  Life is hard for everyone.  Be the BEST of YOU.  Gay is just one elememt of YOU and how your life has value to your family and society.