text: You cannot have a healthy, happy relationship with anyone else until you have one with yourself. Get help. Stop thinking happiness lies outside yourself. It does not. Be love and you will attract love. Focus on developing body, mind, and spirit. As desperate as you are, the only partner(s) you will attract will bring unhappiness. Take the focus off yourself. Get together with other folks your age and do a full range of activities like sports, dance, hiking, prayer, volunteering. Enjoy every day the way things are and guaranteed you will attract wonderful friends and, at just the right time,the love of your life.