text: I know the pain, I did it myself.  Talk to someone, ANYONE to help you out.  It seems like life sucks, but you need to talk, and try and direct yourself, find something you enjoy and engross yourself in it.  Me, I love to play music and dance.  When I'm in my music mode, nothing can get me out of it unless I want them to.  Talk to someone, sweetie, life is GREAT, we all have our ups and downs, just need to have help when we're at the low points.  Talk to someone.  I'm praying for you.