text: You are 100% normal and (I presume) rather young.  This being the case, and you may not like my answer, forget him and move on!\n\n1.  You will have many more folk in your life that you will feelings for.\n\n2.  He's a Dweeb for not respecting YOUR feelings.  You don't need someone like this in your life!\n\n3.  While he is likely living some difficult moments due to the anniversary of his dad's death, he should still have told you outright that; the timing is bad; He's not interested; He's gay!  Whatever the reason.\n\nIMHO - You lucked out this time and maybe your gardian angel is keeping watch over you.\n\nRegards and Good Luck with Your Life!\n\nThe Ol' Sasquatch Ü