text: You need professional help if you are going to save your relationship - and more importantly, save yourself.  You are definitely no longer in control of your depression or your drinking. \n\nGo to your pastor/priest and ask him to recommend a therapist and/or support group.  Go to your doctor and tell him/her about your depression.  Take action based upon their recommendations.  Then go to your fiancee and tell him about the steps you are taking, and ask him to attend couples/premarital counseling with you.\n\nDon't wait, don't make excuses, don't put this off.  Get help nnow and get yourself back on the right track.  Good luck!