text: Well I broke up with her ages ago. I loved her deeply but I was so insecure. She intimidated me because she was popular and beautiful and I felt not that way. I became bitter and jealous. I even mistreated her somewhat. The tension was always building in me. I guess I really wanted control. I decided to cut my losses and let her go. It was like the saddest moment in my life. I locked myself in my room and covered the windows in black for 3 days. At the end of 3 days, I heard a knock on the door. It was her, coming to bring some personal belongings of mine back. I can't even tell you the sadness in that moment. It is crystallized in my mind forever. I was moody and depressed for months afterwards. I thought about ending it all. I wrote a lot of poems to her. She sent me a card for my birthday, more agony. I had a one night stand to make myself feel better. I drank a lot. It was tough. Real tough. Eventually I moved on and met someone much better for me. But it was hard to trust and love again so freely. My ex is someone who touched me in a deep way becuase we met when I was feeling so vulnerable. Overall, though she probably wasn't as good a match for me as I wanted her to be. That's the honest part of the siutuation. We were just much too different in so many ways. I learned that even though I had these powerful feelings for this girl, she may not have been the one I was destined to be with. Still, my heart lingers on her at times. You just never get over some people. But I don't dwell or obsess anymore. I focus on my new love and make that the center of my life. That's the best and truest advice I can give you. Good luck and don't be shy to move on because when it's over, it's definetely over!