text: There is nothing to be guilty about. Its not to make you feel better but it is what I really think. You made a wise decision when you broke off a relationship that could have made your life a hell as long as you live. Sometimes, when we become committed to someone, we stick to them by force of habit. There was no reason that you needed to give him another chance after four years. He was already taking you for granted  and there was no reason that he could hit you or be abusive to you and perhaps it is more sort of his ego problem that is leading to his depression. Quit thinking about him and enjoy your life. You were lucky that you found a loving person who saved you from taking a wrong turn, while there are so many other girls who do not get this opportunity and sacrifice theri happiness just because they think that they were being virtuous. They bear ill-use for years and their children have to suffer too and then, finally they do have to divorce or run away but not always with a loving one to help them sort out things. You should instead be happy for yourself for God intervened and saved you from a life full of pain and from the shadow of an unpredictable person.