text: Being so far from where I want to be. I hate living in the UK, I don't have enough money to eat/pay the bills. I'm in and out of depression, i constantly feel like a failure, I miss the oputdoors, sunshine, fresh air and horses. I've totally fucked my life up and it's all a complete mess. While I'm whittering on probably 5 children in Africa have just died of starvation and I feel guilty for feeling sorry ofr myself when there are obviously far worse off people in teh world, but I can't help it, i'm as miserable as sin. I need to get out England now, I never see daylight and I don't think I can carry onlike this. help?!?!?!?!?!?\nI'm sick of feeling fat, and wishing my teeth were whiter, my hair less frizzy, my job more interesting, my bank balance more black than red, my clothes less holey and my house wasn't surrounded by 12 year old yobbos with a million asbo's to thier name everynight. I wish I could be a farmer, and grow vegetables and give jobs to homeless drug addicts, i wish i didn't live in a country like this one.