text: Get a new outlook on things, I use to worry like that for 15 years..........Man life is to short. OK just say she is, what would you do???????? You would go on, cry for while, be miserable for a while, feel like you were gonna die for a while, but eventually you would go on. Maybe it would be even better next time. Surely you wouldn't consider suicide. Nothing is that bad!!!!!!! Now, say she is not or never did it was just your insecurities playing tricks on you.. I have those tricky monsters too. And every time I've listened to them I have been wrong, and ended up feeling really stupid it ruined my first marriage. I just started imagining stuff and it was a miserable life, after years I had messed it all  up and it was unrepairable we ended up divorced. I remarried and my new life is so much lighter and real. So that's probably the case now you are being paranoid. Go to sleep!!!!!!!! Just find out the facts tomorrow and stop jumping to conclusions it can ruin a good marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!