Belief is just that, a belief. I made a conscious choice in believing, and in Whom I believe. The next step for you is to accept that what you believe, is just your belief, nothing more, and certainly not superior in any way to anyone else's.
Life is full of risks, often necessitating that we make choices to turn this way or that way. To chose to believe in any Superior Being is a risky venture. To chose to not believe in any Superior Being is also a risky venture.
It takes courage to make that choice, because if we chose wrong, the outcome may prove to be costly. Even if there is no after-life, our choice could cost us dearly in this life.
And if, in the long run, it doesn't really matter, that we live an ultimately futile existence, just as any other critter, then our present choices serve to make us take stock of matters greater than ourselves ... it makes us human. Perhaps a small step, but definitely a step above "mud-puppies".