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WHAT i need - WHEN i need

The past several days have been full of emotional highs and lows.  I must be hormonal, or something, because poor Aaron's probably walked into the room at least a dozen times the past 48 hours only to find me crying.  Nothing's really wrong.  It's just that for some reason even small things are hitting me wrong.  This isn't the Julia he knows (or married).  Julia is 90% logical and 10% emotional.  I guess the 10% has just decided to exhibit itself all at once.  Well, today I was reading (in between tear-fests), and my loving God made sure that I read what I needed to hear. "Happiness is a byproduct of something greater, not an end in itself.  Happiness cannot be pursued and caught, anymore than one can pursue a sunny day, put it in a bottle, and then bring it out on a rainy day to enjoy again.  True happiness comes from a different pursuit - the pursuit of God." (Billy Graham) "What does your song in the night sound like?  It could be a mournful dirge.  Or a staccato outburst.  Or a stirring song of praise.  But those nights when you can't sleep, when your mind spins out of control, rummaging through the problems and trials of your life, you can slow things down with a song of meditation.  Direct your mind toward God." (Peter Wallace) "You know what?  God personally cares about the things that worry us.  He cares more about them than we care about them; those things that hang in our minds as nagging, aching, worrisome thoughts. ... He cares.  You are his personal concern." (Charles Swindoll) .........  WHEN I turn to Him, God always provides me WHAT I need - WHEN I need it the most.
Posted by Julia Feitner at 5:36 PM Julia (Long) Feitner Alex - Christmas 2009 Harrison - March 2010