[null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-HgGNX_gpdZg/VabeoI25-JI/AAAAAAAAx3I/U7u8c2Tfpfc/s1600/family2-7882.jpg", "src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-HgGNX_gpdZg/VabeoI25-JI/AAAAAAAAx3I/U7u8c2Tfpfc/s1600/family2-7882.jpg", "formatted_filename": "family", "alt_text": "Family of 4", "rendered_width": 500, "rendered_height": 750}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-7NKZVn-nTTM/VabbXmTFxpI/AAAAAAAAx2k/GjQhkB3lxz4/s1600/vday-7483.jpg", "src": "http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-7NKZVn-nTTM/VabbXmTFxpI/AAAAAAAAx2k/GjQhkB3lxz4/s1600/vday-7483.jpg", "formatted_filename": "vday", "alt_text": "Brothers", "rendered_width": 205, "rendered_height": 122}, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2R29v9oMAI/AAAAAAAAASc/OIVKz_CJm5w/S226/NICU1.jpg", "src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2R29v9oMAI/AAAAAAAAASc/OIVKz_CJm5w/S226/NICU1.jpg", "formatted_filename": "NICU", "alt_text": "NICU", "rendered_width": 226, "rendered_height": 170}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDToBGFu75I/AAAAAAAAAbU/BDkMKUhDQFI/S150/PostOpday+2-First+Steps+(4).JPG", "src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDToBGFu75I/AAAAAAAAAbU/BDkMKUhDQFI/S150/PostOpday+2-First+Steps+(4).JPG", "formatted_filename": "PostOpday  First Steps ( )", "alt_text": "SDR Scar", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 113}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "//1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/SwFugnCfFhI/AAAAAAAAAQI/aGBxNbOMlpY/S220-s80/Christmas09-2.jpg", "src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/SwFugnCfFhI/AAAAAAAAAQI/aGBxNbOMlpY/S220-s80/Christmas09-2.jpg", "formatted_filename": "Christmas", "alt_text": "My photo", "rendered_width": 80, "rendered_height": 60}, null, null, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDTnwBr0IeI/AAAAAAAAAbM/fSJcbFCVz9I/S150/postop+13-+Tall+Kneel.JPG", "src": "http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDTnwBr0IeI/AAAAAAAAAbM/fSJcbFCVz9I/S150/postop+13-+Tall+Kneel.JPG", "formatted_filename": "postop   Tall Kneel", "alt_text": "Tall Kneel!", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 113}, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-zPSGoxfRYfo/VabcXVTlbXI/AAAAAAAAx2w/l7YQv1rxq-g/s1600/pollard-304.jpg", "src": "http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-zPSGoxfRYfo/VabcXVTlbXI/AAAAAAAAx2w/l7YQv1rxq-g/s1600/pollard-304.jpg", "formatted_filename": "pollard", "alt_text": "Loved", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 225}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-bmdvr6xKY3E/VabeRrtfglI/AAAAAAAAx28/_Pc2DS8J0dg/s1600/24x30Pollard-8293.jpg", "src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-bmdvr6xKY3E/VabeRrtfglI/AAAAAAAAx28/_Pc2DS8J0dg/s1600/24x30Pollard-8293.jpg", "formatted_filename": "Pollard", "alt_text": "Little Brother RJ", "rendered_width": 655, "rendered_height": 800}, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://i254.photobucket.com/albums/hh90/ellenstumbo/CP-connection.jpg", "src": "http://i254.photobucket.com/albums/hh90/ellenstumbo/CP-connection.jpg", "formatted_filename": "CP connection", "alt_text": "Stumbo Family Story"}, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2xqepRMnbI/AAAAAAAAATc/7VVWBf8UWC8/S150/Loving+James.jpg", "src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2xqepRMnbI/AAAAAAAAATc/7VVWBf8UWC8/S150/Loving+James.jpg", "formatted_filename": "Loving James", "alt_text": "Snuggles with GreatGrandmother", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 113}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDTnoI7f-FI/AAAAAAAAAbE/V-peVnhi2y4/S150/Post+op-13.JPG", "src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/TDTnoI7f-FI/AAAAAAAAAbE/V-peVnhi2y4/S150/Post+op-13.JPG", "formatted_filename": "Post op", "alt_text": "Tunnels are COOL!", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 113}, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S34j6PugIHI/AAAAAAAAAU8/PUHK-P41YFc/S150/100_0166.jpg", "src": "http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S34j6PugIHI/AAAAAAAAAU8/PUHK-P41YFc/S150/100_0166.jpg", "alt_text": "First Time Sitting! (18mo)", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 113}, null, null, {"document_url": "http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-anger-vent.html", "unformatted_src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2xrC7hwV9I/AAAAAAAAATs/kgYvFrnyHh8/S150/ShabbyBlogsDividerF.jpg", "src": "http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Tmk93YNTtwk/S2xrC7hwV9I/AAAAAAAAATs/kgYvFrnyHh8/S150/ShabbyBlogsDividerF.jpg", "formatted_filename": "ShabbyBlogsDividerF", "rendered_width": 150, "rendered_height": 36}, null, null]

My Anger Vent

I am angry that people just dont get it.

Tonight I am ANGRY! I luv my Life as a Wife and Mommy

Aww Mama!! I am so sorry!! I will pray for you!! HUGS!! You know why I stare at James? Because he is SO darn cute!!!! :)

25/10/10 19:04 Understanding your anger - and praying that your peace be restored (and your joy also!)

26/10/10 04:07 Sweet Baby James

Thanks ladies that means a lot to me

26/10/10 08:15 I had a similar meltdown on Friday, and i feel a bit relieved now. It is good to give it up to the Lord. I understand where you are coming from, i ask myself the same questions you did.
I feel like i am the one to blame for my sons' condition.

3/11/10 11:29 Oh MaryEllen... :(
You *will* get those milestones!! In fact, you get to have even more than other mothers!! You are going to be there when James walks by himself for the first time, just like other mothers. When he walks across the stage at graduation. When he walks his bride back up the church aisle.
And you know what? You will be able to appreciate them so much more than other mothers. You have the most wonderful, bright, and happy child I have ever known. A good 3/4 of the babysitting stories I tell people pretty much always involve James!
Both of you mean the world to me :)

21/11/10 00:47