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o for fucks sake.

well, i'm back. i'm glad to be home, but i sure as hell miss the simplicity of being somewhere other than home. it was really nice to have someone else's shit to keep track of. it forced me to forget my own.

now i'm back & so is it. School is going terribly. I'm completely failing my sketching course. I haven't even done any work on it in weeks. I'm trying to drop out of it, but no one at the damn school will get back to me.
My other one is ok, but it's just, not something that I'm excited about. at all. which is weird, bc who isn't excited to learn about Fashion? (i guess... me?) (i feel so trapped.)

The only things that excite me are writing on my blog... looking at photographs... & day dreaming about a better life. (woah... that was depressing).

I need to get out of here. I need to meet new people. I met wonderful people in Georgia. All of the other bridesmaids are some of my favourite people in the world now. but, of course, they live on the bottom of the damn country... so i'll never get to see them.


I feel like everything is a test, everything is complicated, everything is unnecessary... nothing is... real... or maybe it's too real.

this can't be life. it just can't be. I don't know what to do. I need some damn direction. I need some damn inspiration. I need some damn exiliration.

i need...

a life. Advice? Help? Motivation? Anything?

not so much in the "luvs it" mood... (& i'm usually so chipper) while making the photos for this post, my mother informed me that we they (THEY) are moving in January... i guess that means that this little birdie is getting a violent shove out the nest.... who the fuck knows where i'll end up. shit.

this post just progressed down a dark, dark path.

i'm sorry luvs. i'm just in a shit-tastic place today...

thought by spanky* @ 1:23 PM marks Academy of Art University, depressed, Georgia, home, lost, moving, sad, School, trapped


