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A little gummy bear

It was definitely an awkward first visit to the baby doctor...a freezing cold room, lots of questions about medical history, some invasive procedures, and finally the best part-we got to see the little gummy bear!  When the nurse put the picture up on the screen, everything got real.  I had known there was a baby growing in there for 5 weeks, but the nausea could be in my head and the pregnancy test could be the 1 in 3,000 that's wrong....but seeing the fuzzy little guy up on the screen and hearing the heartbeat made the pregnancy real.  It even wiggled a little as we watched.  Jared and I kept looking at each other in shock...we made that little person and we were going to be responsible for it.  I can't speak for him but my eyes definitely watered.  The nurse took some crown to rump measurements and set the due date for March 21...6 days before my mom's birthday and 9 days after Maesynne's.  Jared is still kind of hoping for it to be born on his birthday...March 6.  We'll see what happens.  It was definitely an amazing experience and I can't wait to see the little gummy bear again. It was real.  Yep, we made a person.  It's so exciting to be apart of this process. I have always wondered what being a father would feel like.  The last five weeks have consisted of me trying to slow down Caitlynne's cafeeine intake while trying to fully take in what's happening.  After we told everyone, it seemed liked nothing had changed.  Daily life for us didn't really seem to alter from our norm.  I knew that there was a human the size of a variety of fruits growing in Caitlynne, but other than that life was just work emails all day and watching our favorite TV shows all night.  But when that strawberry sized fetus showed up on the screen, it was like time stood still.  Nothing else mattered.  I could have stood there and watched it's heartbeat flicker as it squirmed around all day.  A lot of things will be changing for us.  We are starting our own family, and these two have no idea what's coming. Posted by Caitlynne and Jared at 12:14 AM 1 comment: