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Post Disney CP Program - Re-United with Family I'm in a sunny lit room right now, and for the first time in six months, my whole family is within a ten foot radius of me. Dad's playing guitar, dancing up and down the fret boards, Jenni just found me a cell phone case that says "This could be a little more sonic..." which is proof that she's knows me and my favorite tv show all too well, and mom is just around the corner working on some stuff. Overall, it is good to have us all together again. We've been laughing like nobody's business, singing along to dad's music and watching the literal versions of Harry Potter commercials on youtube.

It's really good to be with my family again, here in Pensacola for a few days, still strange, still hard, but very good. I'm just trying to adjust to change overnight, jumping from one life to the next without getting a little period of acclimatizing in between them. It's alright, but I've discovered that I'm the worst person to deal with goodbyes. I just don't like them :]

But hearing the chords that I've missed hearing, laughing with Jenni and Mom, it's a good place to be in. It'll take time to swing to a new normal, but I'm okay with that. I'm okay with being sad for a while, I'm okay with admitting that I miss it all and I don't quite know how to adjust right now. It's bittersweet. I just moved. This is a big change to jump from. But for now, for this moment, I'm trying to put aside missing Orlando and just focus on listening to the music coming from those favorite 6 strings of mine. Posted by Mandy Jackson at 10:45 PM