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These are amazing times of great transformation for the earth and for humanity. People everywhere are graciously stepping out of the darkness of separation and disconnection from the divine. With each passing day, ever more are realising their interconnectedness and at-one-ment with all life. It is a breath taking liberation! But as souls emerge, there are still many traps and fixations. We must not settle in fixed reality constructs. The soul is a continually inquiring, exploring and unwinding 'creature', at the core of our experience. It's expression is intimately interrelated with Enlightenment.
That's why we must be careful not to slip into the uniformity of the 'non-duality' trap...

In non-duality you cease to exist

When you step out of identification with the lower three densities, the expansion into the 4D is utterly amazing, practically beyond words. Initially you may feel light, expanded and free. It can be so liberating, it's quite often the case, that people feel they've already attained the mystical state of "Enlightenment" of which many are now speaking. Crucially, the contrast between the disconnect of unawakened living, and the interconnection of the higher density, can be so poignant, that you feel at-one with everything. And the realisation may then dawn, that at some place, you and everything around you are indeed one. BUT, if you contemplate it deeply, that condition can only exist at the level of the absolute, where everything does indeed merge back into pure presence - that which precedes the manifest.

Consider it carefully: as you - your soul - merges back into the absolute potential of presence, there can be no experience at all at this point; because there is no relativity, no "this" and "that". Hence when there really is the condition of "non-duality" of which the mainstream speaks, then experience has dissolved. You cease to exist.

How then, is it possible to be in an "Enlightened state" of presence, and still be in existence?

The last great attachment is to that of non-attachment!

To master this, you have to hold a duality - two apparently contrasting truths simultaneously: internally there is the state of presence at the core of your experience and through your experience, which is a non-experience in the background, like the canvas upon which the masterpiece is painted; and, AT THE SAME TIME, there is a flowing experience of coloufull soul, a brush stroke on the canvass, which is completely unique to you. Let's be clear, if a part you owns a particular state - if it fixates on a particular phenomenal experience, then in that moment, the risk is to build identity, which then disconnects from the flow of the soul, which in turn dissolves out the possibility of true presence - you may attain a bubble of peace, but not the real thing (which is a no-thing!). I witness many people on the path thinking they're in the 'non-dualistic' enlightened state, but are actually stuck in - attached to - an expanded 4D bubble. In many cases, the psyche has installed a 'trip switch', saying...."drop any feeling of separation, tightness or attachment". And this becomes a subtle inner identity doing so.

The last great attachment, is that of non-attachment!

Student: master, I have reached the state of oneness, all is perfect
Zen Master: tell me more...
Student: I am at one with the divine, there is no duality
Zen Master: what else?
Student: I am....
Student: I........
Student: no reply...dissolving into state of oneness
Zen Master: strikes the student hard across the face
Student: OOOUUUCCCHHHH!!!!!!!
Zen Master: well who felt that then!

Check out this Openhand Article on Unwinding Inner Identities

The One Hand clapping conundrum

Let's be clear, you cannot intentionally aim for pure presence and truly find it. Because in the very moment that you do, you've already subtly established the inner condition of separation. You've said to the Universe..."I'd like to let go now and become the One". But who is the "I"? You've already established, in your subconscious, the inner separation of the "I" from the absoluteness of the One.

It's a one hand clapping conundrum!

So, what I'm saying, is that the truly enlightened state, is where your consciousness has mastered the ability to hold a duality of apparently contrasting truths SIMULTANEOUSLY: the separation in you has surrendered into the unique flowing experience that is the soul; AND THIS intimately interconnects you with the sense of presence within, which in itself, is a non-experience. Which is the sense of presence.

So is there anything you can do to attain that state? Bearing in mind that to aim for the state itself, is to already prevent you attaining it.

Ride the wave of the soul

I believe there most definitely is. If you, as the separation, work to dissolve into the fullness of what you truly are - which is the expression of the soul - then you'll be riding the wave of the soul, and as such, this will deliver you onto the shores of the One inside of you; you'll discover it progressively, until one day, all the lights come on, and stay on...you're constantly sitting in the presence. Crucially, you don't have to aim or effort to get there. And neither do you have to dissolve the glorious story that is you - your soul.

What this means, is that you can have your apple and eat it too.
in fact, I would say, that's what the Universe is inviting of you:
to fully enjoy the apple of all experience, and yet not be attached to it.

How might we then attain this ever flowing state of truly enlightened experience?

It is to embrace everything that shows up on your path, not to deny or push anything away. Instead to bring the full light of awareness into it. Crucially you're looking for the doorways of tightness within those experiences - where you attach or close down or where you disconnect in aloofness. These are the places to identify and work within. Here's how to ride the wave of the Soul with the Openhand Approach

How might we best work in the places of tightness?

At Openhand we apply what we call the "Breakthrough Approach":

Honour the truth of the moment, exactly as it is
Express fully into the tightness
Become as-One with the tightness by completely accepting it
Unwind the natural feeling of soul that wants to emerge out.

Ultimately, you'll come to be able to unwind through all the various circumstances of your life, as they are happening, and this is true Enlightenment - there is nothing else going on. The One in you is constantly bringing the light into the Universe by unleashing soul through it, and where a soul is enlightened (fully self-realised, in other words....always realising of the One Self), where there is some density or darkness in the outer, then it's immediately turning into whatever inner tightness that generates and unwinding through. This then brings light into the outer to help realign the situation. That's how the inner and outer interrelate.

Meditation to Bring this Understanding into Your Life Right Now By Unwinding Through Density

Here's how to work with this understanding through anything that's challenging you right now...

- Take an experience that's causing you challenge or difficulty in your outer life.
- Sit quietly in meditation and reflect upon all the circumstances. See them in as much detail as possible.
- Breathe with them, but crucially, don't try to change them, simply honour them as they are.
- Now look for the tightness it generates. It'll be in the physical, emotional, mental or in your energy field.
- Notice what this feels like, honour and express the pain or challenge of it.
- Explore what particular outcome you think you need from that situation. What can you not accept?
- Work to completely accept the situation to the degree you don't need it to go away. Keep going deep in.
- Now work to open a doorway through it, with complete acceptance.
- You become simply present, with the movement all happening within you.
- Once you're settled into presence with the situation, you can start to unwind through it.
- Start to breathe and move with the contraction, but from the place of the presence.
- Feel yourself unwinding through any tightness you feel. Movement may also help.
- Finally, you're simply sitting in the presence, but gently breathing through your inner world.
- What you're now doing is bringing harmony from the inner, into life's outer circumstances.

This process becomes straightforward, but not always simple. Some of the inner layers on the journey back to the One are complex, based on past life karma, that can be subtly deceptive and limiting - like the non-duality trap for example. The essential key is profound self honesty and owning the manifestations that you create and draw to you in the outer world, because they reflect back to your inner movement of consciousness - the inner creates all the circumstances of the outer. So if there's disharmony in the 'mirror', that's why you create it - to reflect back to the inner convolution for you now to work through.

Mirrors to the Soul

Everything around you, all sentient life and people, are mirrors your soul draws, which reflect both the distortion and the new beingness that wants to emerge as soul. If you keep honouring what shows up and keep inquiring, the soul will break through, and you'll be delivered onto the welcome shores of the One inside. You'll progressively come home to presence, after which, you're constantly living in it, but with each moment shaping ever new relativistic experience.

This inner journey is reflected miraculously into our outer world. Each moment delivers bounteous abundance of experience, both distorted and aligned, all of which are designed to continually bring you back to the abode of the One, AND to have a reflective experience of that, ALL AT THE SAME TIME. You're constantly manifesting new materiality and tasting it too. So beware the non-duality trap on the flowing path of Enlightenment. Because it limits the full unbridled emergence of soul, and delivers instead, only an expanded 4D bubble, which although initially may feel very harmonious and peaceful, ultimately becomes very limiting. Look deeper, into the truly expanded Universe - a veritable kaleidoscope of colour, change and transformation. Not only is it at times peaceful, but it's also crashing and smashing as entire world's come and go. Each has its unique story, just as you do. And when you truly discover the story of your soul and unleash it, then even in that incredible crucibal of transformation, you become immortal. Like the rainbow that emerges through the rain, your soul breathes colour through the all of it.
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How any tightness offers a doorway into complete liberation

Open Tue, 08/21/2018 - 06:41

I felt to draw attention to this article again today.... The Flowing Path of Enlightenment and the "Non-Duality" Bubble

Crucially, it offers a way of finding the state of deep presence within, by exploring into all those areas in your life that are currently generating difficulty, anxiety, challenge or tightness, for they are all doorways into the absoluteness of the One. Paradoxically, when you're most challenged, there lies the greatest opportunity. When you can really feel the tightness, then the lightness of presence is simply the other side of the coin.

If you can touch your tightness and accept it to the degree that you don't need it to go away, then you are already free. You can now expand through the eye of that needle - you literally open an inner doorway into the total acceptance of presence. From there, you can bring your consciousness to bear and uwind through the tightness.

Do give it a try and let me know how you get on. I'm happy to support your unwinding process. Expressions and tightness

Vimal V Tue, 08/21/2018 - 08:03

OK here goes my stuff. I find that when I'm in some particular kind of creative expression I tend to think how it will be reciecwd in the outer world. I'm also quick to compare when I see an authentic reflection. The tightness that creates is in the solar plexus. Honestly I feel sick and tired of having to confront the same tightness and same process over and over again. What can I not accept. I can't accept that I can't express freely and and that I'm stuck. The answer I got was that it's not the expression itself that matters but the process. I also have to say this particular expressions are the one that I believe that I'm good at. Good in the sense of how it appears as entertaining etc. Maybe also I'm holding a value of what is good and what is not. These expressions also has generated a particular response which I have valued in the past. I also wish to say I have expressed beyond the limited confines of my ego(who!) where there was a deeper purpose and flow supported by synchronicity.

Choice and freedom

Vimal V Wed, 08/22/2018 - 06:10

In reply to Expressions and tightness by Vimal V

Some of my realization regarding this. I also find I get the tightness in the solar plexus(intellectual plane) when I'm working out the mind to fix the problem, trying to figure out the best choice to make. But there is no choice. The soul is free to go in any direction and there is no fixed intention. The confusion is only there when the ego thinks it should move in a particular direction and there is some particular outcome to achieve. There is absolute freedom in getting out of the shoulds in life. So it's about surrendering into the need to make any choice at  all and not figuring out which choice to make.

The value of regressing into situations that cause tightness

Open Wed, 08/22/2018 - 06:11

Hi Vimal - maybe what you could explore is sitting in meditation and regressing into situations where you get tight because you're concerned how it will be received - visualise that all around you in your field. And then seek out the tightness in the field. Work through it by sitting in your own contentment simply at the expression. Explore what it feels like in the knowing that it's all developing you as a being - and deeply feel into the sense of how you've developed. I'd say that would be a useful inquiry.

Do let me know how that goes Unwinding on the plane of the Intellect

Open Wed, 08/22/2018 - 06:36

Hi Vimal - what I've often experienced whilst working on the plane of the intellect, is that when I close my eyes, it's kind of like seeing/feeling yourself surrounded by cloudy skies - if there's something to resolve. It's a bit like being in a storm. If you seek out the tight area and try to resolve an answer, then the storm will simply blow you around, it'll suck you in. You end up trying to figure out all the various machinations of what's going on.

- Instead, it is to allow the storm to be, just as it is, without trying to fix it.
- Then to surrender right into and through that (storm) dynamic.
- You first find the One in it - the sense of deep presence.
- Then from the sense of deep presence, start to seek out the tightness, but crucially, without leaving the feeling sense of the presence.
- Some people call this "being in your centre" - the centre of the storm. Although there is a risk to this, because there must come a point where the centre dissolves into and through everything - otherwise it fixes as a point identity, which is not pure presence. But you could begin by "being centred in it" as long as you realise that centre must at some point dissolve into presence
- seek out the tightness in the swirling sky, but within you. Then with sense of gentle but powerful will, work to unwind through it
- get the sense of the storm reordering and flowing more smoothly and harmoniously around you, as the torus, the toroidal flow
- watch how this then positively influences the external situation on the plane of the intellect.

Wishing you well with that Centre and presence

Vimal V Wed, 08/22/2018 - 14:53

Hi open,

Your reply were right on the button. There was an expectation in myself to come up with an answer soon. I recognize its my stuff.

I guess the issue has shifted from the outside more to the inside, something as separate to something within the flow. This is an improvement. I'm thinking if ego is something that attaches itself to the experience can or really exist as something separate from the flow. This is hard to see when one is running around fixing the problem. Contentment is the key word. I can feel it as you said when I see the expression as something that goes along with the process and thus helping me come into more of me. It's not something to be used to achieve in the outside world.

I did regress into the experience as you told and also a situation wanted to create that generated the tightness. The pain is near the heart chakra. I feel it has to do with the feeling of rejection, needing love and support from outside. I feel it is something deeply ingrained and I doubt if it can be unwound by breathing alone. Something funny that comes to mind is that I used to play in a metal band and was pretty serious about it at that time. It's ironical that all we were looking for by screaming and distorted guitars was love!

You said in the other post that centre is different from presence. Is centre the part of us that recognize that something deeper is in play here, we don't need nothing already have and the choice can go whichever way. And is presence that which lies in the other side of tightness and through which right action flows. So centre precedes presence.

Attachment to form

Vimal V Thu, 08/23/2018 - 04:38

Another important thing I missed was that of attachment to the form of expression - how it appears beautiful  appealing etc. One can't touch the free flowing soul and the formless by fixating on the appearance. The expression becomes very limited by efforting to meet a particular form. I had a nice little synchronicity that said Im becoming half blind by only looking through the 3D eyes. I have several memories were I was taught to judge myself by those half blind themselves.

Vimal <3

What is the rightness in this inquiry now?

Open Thu, 08/23/2018 - 07:17

Your inquiries are wonderfully revealing Vimal - keep going, keep uncovering and unfolding You asked...

I'd say in reality presence precedes everything, but coming back into that place, can happen by "finding your centre" as they say.

I think most often, there is first a connection to that which merges from presence - the sense of rightness that is the soul. That' when we feel at ease and interconnected with all. That's the feeling of unconditional love. But the soul is constantly flowing through the inner densities, so those feelings will come and go, as the inner landscape changes. Yet there is a 'place' from where the soul emerges, which is very close to the source, all around the source, like the edge of the pond, where everything is still, and interconnected. When you're in this place, it feels "centred". And the encouragement is to keep deepening this place - it feels like a steady anchor.

But there's a balancing act to play with awareness - if you fixate too much in this centredness, then it dims the experience of soul flowing through the landscape - a detachment can build. This is why I often speak of having 50% of your attention turned inwards and 50% turned outwards. The inner attention is inquiring into the centredness, whilst the outer one is aligning with the soul through the sense of rightness, signs and synchronicity.

As you keep connecting these 'circuits', these flows of synchronicity, and all the while coming from the centre, there will come a point when you burst through the boundary around the centre. That's when you touch presence and penetrate through all things, as pure existence.

I think the key is to be committed to the journey and allowing the constant inquiry of what's unfolding. Then navigation through the inner world will tend to happen of its own accord. The key being not to fixate on any particular experience - it's always embracing what is now? What's happening now? What is the rightness in this inquiry now? Free flowing inquiry

Vimal V Thu, 08/23/2018 - 09:23

Open, I feel committed to the inquiry because I derive pleasure from connecting the dots, observing the synchronicties and realising the incredible freedom by letting go of what does not serve. Nowadays I feel centred simply by realising that I don't have to be anything that I'm not already is. Your reply reminded me the importance of allowing the inquiry to be in the mind without wanting to solve it. I remember I had an obsession of solving the problem and couldn't go on to the next one without finishing this one. I keep reminding myself the juggling metaphor. It's also kind of like when you are trying to remember something like a name for instance and the more you try the more it evades you. At one point you get tired and let go of it by which the name lands beautifully in the mind. I also see that I see synchronicties more often when I have an inquiry in mind. And the synchronicties support that by offering a reflection to which I resonates. 50% - 50% is also helpful. When you are holding onto an inquiry you are maybe 70% inside and 30% outside such that there's no room for answers and further inquiries to flow. I think it's because of lack of trust that realization wouldn't happen of its own accord and now you need to do something about it.
 Jennaya Thu, 08/23/2018 - 10:09

I really like the written meditation about "Right Now". I try it somewhat and I feel agitation about an interaction with a  friend - though its quite out of proportion - so I guess there's something beneath.

I have a friend with whom whenever I speak with - I get waves of agitation and even anger towards her [though she's lovely and I like her a lot] - so I'm struggling to understand these feelings. It doesn't feel like the usual OC input/hitting button in me.

I'm not sure entirely sure whether it's my own feelings or I am picking up how she's feeling about herself. I don't think it's a direct mirror.

There's a subtle pushiness [I think it's cultural] and a want to share misfortune [which comes with it's own energy]. Both of which I don't enjoy. I become quite agitated. The reaction in me is exaggerated and I don't really understand - though I am over-reactive to being pushed at the moment. I think from the amount of interference from OC and other energies . With these I feel can small and powerless.

When I write this, I'm being numbed - the frustration [fire] quelled and I'm kinda "dumbed down" and becoming submissive. I'm not sure what this mechanism is or how to interrupt it? It feels like something's hit in my brain. Though it may be what is stopping the Ray 1 coming in. I haven't felt the frustration with my situation in a while - so I guess its a good think.

Someone once mentioned the reaction people have when they are being overpowered - one to submit because it is less traumatic than fighting - like a survival mechanism.

As I write this I feel sadness under the frustration of wondering  why am I allowing this. The guidance I get is to "be gentle" - guess the true Ray 1 comes from a surrendered place.

I wonder why I am allowing still this - and then wonder there is still more sadness to be felt or maybe deeper.


Thank you for your vulnerable sharing

Aphroheidi Sun, 08/26/2018 - 23:18

Thank you for sharing your experience Jennaya.  I am always so filled with gratitude when someone allows themselves to express their deepest feelings and be vulnerable enough to know that someone else needs to feel like they are not alone in a similar experience that they are having, have had or may have in the future.  My belief is that those of us who love with our whole heart and soul and are sensitive to the needs of others (empathic/caring/conscientious) feel especially uncomfortable when negative feelings enter our field, especially when seemingly unfounded.  My partner in life always tells me "be gentle with yourself" and it reminds me to remember that intent is the most important of our thoughts and feelings.  From what you said it appears that your intent is not guiding your thoughts to a negative space towards this other individual, so most likely the feelings are present and beyond your control.  Surrender to the thoughts and feelings, experience them fully and then allow them to evolve.  There may be a very important journey that needs to be taken with these feelings in order for you to progress.  Remember that meditation is not about "zoning out", but is about "zoning in" and allowing experience to flow through you for whatever purpose it serves.  I am grateful for your sharing this because I needed to be reminded of elements of my journey that made me extremely uncomfortable and remember that those are the times that I grew the most.  I remain humble to the source and grateful for the lessons.



"This light of mine isn't so little..."
