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I wish I saw this about a week ago and maybe some choices just may have been a bit different. Who am I kidding, I doubt it would have.. You see I do know who I am and what I am doing makes sense. The problem is that there are times I think I know better then God. How many times do we all think we know better then God? I know I am not the only one.

How often are you involved in a situation, a decision, a cross road, etc... that instead of either Praying and asking God for input or listening to that inner voice, you think you can get the answer on your own or you got it all covered? For me that was the case last week. I thought that I was in control and ended up walking a line between a life I love and want to a past that was simple and easy. It was easy to forget who I was for that short time and even though I was still covering who I was by defending the Church and the Faith but that does not make things ok.

We do not punch a time clock with God. We do not get to punch out when we decide to take a “break” from this life. Everything we do is on God’s time. This life would be easier if we (I) would just stop trying to be in control of everything and think I know best at times. The times when I feel more at peace is when I am follow the path to God and of my Faith. That is who I am to be... That man that is able to walk that path with my head held high knowing it is right.

Lent is going to give me that time and strength to over come the mistakes and atone for my sins. God and I have to sit down and hash things out at times. Which really means that I do a lot of yelling and throwing my hands up and God just looking at me saying “What do you not understand, I want what is best for you?” There are times I know what is best for me and times of I want what I want and that does not always mean that it is the best for me. Those are the times I know God is trying to get my attention but I fail to listen. Then God says “Ok, you want to learn the hard way then.” Lessons are never easy to learn especially when they hurt you. Yet, sometimes it has to be because that is the way I learn.

How do you get the message? How do you learn? Think about those questions and pray about them as well. Then ask yourself, “Does it have to be this way?” I will go out on a limb and say, “It doesn’t have to be this way.” I know for me I know thats the truth. It doesn’t have to be so difficult as I make it. It is a slow slow slow process of change for me. The “Let Go and Let God” is hard.

This Lent I do hope that I am able to move forward and learn to be better with that power struggle between myself and God. After all I do know who I am and that what I am doing does make sense. I just need to let go and be at peace with Who I am and What I am doing make sense.

Until tomorrow, God Bless, and I pray that you know who you are and that what you are doing with that makes sense.

