Silmarillion 1. Chapter 1

**~oOo~**

_Something moves beside him. A voice, soft words in the dark that wisp against his skin . . . if he had skin. It never ceases to amuse him how he can still hold on to the corporeal after all this time. But then time has no meaning here. Here there is no time, no substance. There is no pain. _

_Perhaps he continues to hold on to the idea of form in a vain attempt to continue to have some sort of feeling. To feel anything. But that is just not the case. Not here. Never again._

_The voice whispers near him again, soft and delicate, gentle touch from the nothing._

_It was silly for him to continue to think of himself as a being of matter. It is a foolish thing to hold on to and yet he could not stop himself. Perhaps out of habit. Perhaps out of stubbornness._

_**Stubborn**__, the voice caresses, __**like all your kin**__._

_Well, he supposed that was as good an answer as any._

_The wisp wound around him, almost like an embrace, if he could remember what that was like. He could almost imagine his physical form as it would recline back, his eyes closed. But he has no form. He has no eyes. For what did the dead need to see? He simply existed now. Shapeless. Formless. Much like the space in which he has chosen to exist. _

_And yet, there was something so familiar about the presence that moved about him, something so comforting. If only he could remember what comfort felt like. But he had forsaken such feelings a long time ago. They were meaningless without her after all._

_No! The memories! Always there, waiting. In the dark they implore, begging him to turn! Stars reflected in the water. Her face in the dim light. But he will not turn. Never again. He will never feel the pain again. But what is pain? Here there is no time, no substance. There is no pain. _

_He twists away from the force around him, but it does not recoil as he had hoped. He can feel the eyes are watching in case he loses himself again. Like a patient mother to her unruly child, it brushes against his being once more, surrounding him._

_**Aikanáro**__, the voice breathes, __**you have a choice before you**__._

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He stares out the window, the cool slate grey of the first morning light filling the sky.

It had been quite startling at first, returning after all those years, no, all those centuries. Hundreds of thousands of centuries. He was not sure it could really even be counted. The land was far different from what he remember of course. Námo had warned him that the world had much changed from when he had last held physical form. The dominion of man was upon the lands now and they would hold sway till the breaking.

Beleriand had been completely lost, along with so many other things. Replaced with the realm of middle earth which only faced its' own peril to be shaped and twisted and changed once more. His people had fled. Returning to the blessed lands across the sea. The few that remained disappearing into the shadows of lore or fading quietly away. Or perhaps some still held on for surely he could not be the only one.

He walked silently throughout the ages as this world turned. How curious men would become. There lust for conquest seemingly even more unquenchable as time continued on. Progress it was called. Progress. And he had progressed right along with them.

He swirled the hot liquid in his mug as he continued to look out the window lost in thought.

He had wandered for some time after his re-embodiment. He found that he could blend quite easily for one thing had not changed despite the long crawl of time, war still raged. Once all of the dark creatures and monsters had been driven out men, in their quest for power turned on each other. Waging wars over lands and religion, making the need for soldiers a constant through several lifetimes. And Aegnor was able to find a place throughout, all the while never truly finding peace. He served under Archelous I and Alexander the Great. He saw the fall of Troy and the battle of Thermopylae. He served under the rule of Hadrian and saw the rise of Christianity with Constantine. He followed the teachings of Faxian and witnessed the rule of the great Southern Dynasties of China.

It was sometime during his service to Philip III of France when he began to first feel it was an empty existence and although he had never been gifted with the foresight, he felt as if he could tell the future for every day was exactly the same.

There was a period of time when he found himself thinking more and more of ages past. And he began to wonder if perhaps there were others that roamed the world like him. It was during his time serving in the first Great War of men when he first began to believe there could be others. There was a cease fire, and as he sat huddled in the bitter cold down in the trenches, he heard it. A voice that rose up in sad song in the night. A clear voice. A strong voice. A beautiful voice, and when he heard it his startled eyes went wide and his own voice came out a hushed, shocked whisper.

"Makalaurë?"

The voice came to an immediate halt and the air seemed to become colder.

He began to question if he had made the right choice.

He could never return. That was a part of the choice laid before him. But he could fade, if he so wished. It would be simple enough to just let go. He would simply become one with the earth once more and become what he once was, formless and free from pain, from the gnawing loneliness that seemed to try to consume him from time to time. But what was the point? He would never see any of his family again, all having elected to become re-embodied and remain in Aman. And although all he felt throughout many of his days was loneliness and grief, at least he felt something. Only when even those feelings leave him would he begin to have some concern. But for now he would hold on to the pain. At least it was something.

He sighed and moved away from the window, his bare feet padding on the wood floors not even making a sound. He crossed the room and looked at himself in the mirror. He had been quite surprised to see his reflection again after so many years. Not much had changed. The old scars were gone of course, no burns. He winced and quickly pushed the memory from his mind. But they had been replaced with new scars. Minor ones that had accumulated from the many centuries of this new life. He had been reckless when he first returned. Plunging into battles with heedless abandon. But with the passage of time his temper had been . . . well, tempered somewhat as he settled into this new age.

He lived comfortably in the city. Having acquired many items and treasures through the years it seemed only logical that he would become a dealer in antiquities. There was no place for a soldier of his sort in this day and age, and this life style was far more peaceful anyway.

Aegnor set down his cup and walked to his bed room and began to dress. He preferred the casual style of today. Jeans and a clean black t-shirt, some work boots and a light jacket. He raked his fingers through his hair. He had kept it long in the early days, much as he had done in his youth. But now he kept it shorter. It was still long enough to curl over his ears in a shaggy sort of way, hanging loose about his face. He had to keep some length to conceal certain genetic traits. But in all, he preferred this shorter look. It was simple and easy to care for and helped him to blend. His hair tended to grow wild the longer it became and could be a bit conspicuous if he let it.

He walked out of the bed room and crossed back to the kitchen, picking up his coffee mug along the way and placing it in the sink. He gave another quick glance around the room as he grabbed his keys and headed out the door.

He had come to New York only recently, having spent most of his time in Europe and Asia. Europe had reminded him of Aman and so he spent the early years there. But as time wore on and mankind progressed and advanced, it began to become somewhat more difficult procuring a new identity when necessary. Changing continents made things slightly easier. This century it was the colonies turn.

He had to admit that he was quite fond of his little apartment in Soho. A two bedroom on King. He could afford something much bigger for he had acquired much wealth throughout the years and had become very adept at transferring it. But he preferred the smaller dwellings and it was not as if he frequently had company. It was a two minute walk to catch the express or the local and only a few blocks to the small antique shop he now did business with. But although it seemed to be working out well here, he did not think he would be staying for too long. His heart longed for the old countries. The Americas were just too new. He would more than likely stay only one century perhaps, maybe two.

He continued his walk onto Downing at a leisurely pace. He was meeting the shop owner Darshna. She had called him quite excited about some of the items he had brought in recently and had set up a meeting with some students from the department of anthropology from Columbia University to help her to estimate the value. Perhaps he would stop at Mazzas and get her an expresso.

The morning sun was bright when he finally approached the shop. The bell above the door rang out as he entered and Darshna looked up from the desk in the back of the shop and smiled.

"Agner," she called, "come! Come!" and waved him back.

He smiled in return and began to wind around the many tables and displays. He was known as Agner Aeluin here. He was from Norway. In this city, no one stood out.

As he drew closer to the table he saw that she was not alone. Two others were huddled around the table with her talking excitedly about the objects before them. He recognized them immediately as the items he had given to Darshna a few days prior. He smiled, these must be the students.

"Darshna," he says, offering the cup of expresso in greeting. "It is good to see you again so soon."

"Yes, yes," the little Indian woman answers grinning. She takes the cup with a little "ah!" in one hand and grabs his with the other. "Come, you have brought something very good! Very good! Very exciting."

He is still smiling as he allows her to pull him around the table. He liked Darshna. A friendly, kind woman with an open heart. He did not need to delve into her mind to know her purpose. In truth he did not need to delve into anyone's mind this day and age for this modern race of man runs around with minds open and buzzing. Most of the time he had to close his mind off to keep them from overrunning his thoughts with their own. And he could tell right now that she was quite excited.

As were the two other persons at the table. He spared them a quick glance. Two young women, one with light hair pulled back and the other with dark hair falling about her shoulders and onto the table as she leaned over to look at the pieces. He could not see the dark haired one's face but the lighter one was facing him as she spoke to her friend.

"What is this? Song dynasty? It's Song dynasty isn't it?! I knew it! And on this coin? Philip II! This must date back to what? 336 – 340 BC? I didn't even know this existed! And –"

The voice trailed off as he turned back to Darshna who was sipping at her cup.

"Mmm, good. You always bring the best. And perhaps even better this time yes? Quite a stir these pieces caused. May be a big collector for this, if they are real." Darshna grinned up at him.

"Why Darshna, what are you implying?" Aegnor replied playfully. "Have I ever led you astray before?"

"No no no! I never meant to say –"

Aegnor laughed and held up a hand to placate her concern. "Calm yourself Darshna, I jest."

Her relief was almost palpable. "Good, good," she smiled widely once more. "The pieces you brought could be quite valuable. If they are able to authenticate we could get much at an auction house. This could be very good."

Aegnor simply smiled and nodded. They were authentic of course. Given to him by the Emperor Qianfei himself. He was assassinated shortly after. Aegnor shook his hand at the memory. He was sick that one. He was pulled from his thoughts by Darshna who took him by the sleeve and called over to the table.

"Here. You will meet my little appraisers. They are going to help us, for a small fee of course," she said with a wink. Aegnor shook his head. Darshna would try to be as frugal as possible when it came to pay. He would have to make certain they were compensated properly.

"Girls, I would like to introduce you to the handsome owner of the items on the table. This is Mr. Aeluin."

Aegnor suppressed a grimace at Darshna's introduction as he turned to face the two young ladies at the table.

"This is Ms. Macey," the light haired one's mouth slowly became a little O as she looked up at Aegnor, "and this is . . . Ms. Bealor was it?" The dark haired gave a mumbled reply from where she remained hunched over the table, inspecting a small gold coin with a loupe magnifier.

"Oh, ah yeah, hey, hi," the blonde said, "Katherine. My name's Katherine." She gave Aegnor a lopsided and appraising grin. "And this is Andrea," when the other gave no response, Aegnor heard a thump from under the table and the dark head shot up with a shout, dropping the loupe.

"Hey! Yes! Hello. Nice to meet you." She cut her eyes at the fair one before looking at Aegnor. "Andrea." she said in greeting and then returned to her inspection of the coins.

"I was just telling Mr. Aeluin," Darshna began, "what you discovered about these pieces. That they could be very old and very profitable yes?"

"Yes Mrs. Patel they could be, but I really wish you would consider donating these to the school. This could be a very significant find. If you –"

"No no," Darshna interrupted, "we have been over this. Mr. Aeluin and I –"

"I am not sure you and Mr. Aeluin really understand what you have here. If I could –" Katherine interjected.

The small verbal battle between the two women trudged on, each one trying to top the other. But Aegnor did not notice. Aegnor could not move. His stomach had clenched and his heart pounded, causing a dull throbbing sound to drum in his ears.

Her eyes. Hazel eyes. Striking eyes. Eyes of blue green with a flash of brown in the center.

Andreth's eyes.

He could not speak. He could not hear. He could barely breathe. It was her! It had to be her! Standing before him, studying that small coin with the same intensity she had the many books he had given her those countless ages ago. Her face, the hair! It was all Andreth! But it couldn't be! Andreth was gone, long gone. Passed into whatever realm that mortal death takes. It could not be her . . . could it?

It took Aegnor several moments to realize that the conversation had ceased and now all three women were looking up at him expectantly.

"Ah, yes . . . what?"

A collective subliminal eye roll seemed to emanate from the three women.

"I said I am sure you would agree with me on this matter yes?" said Darshna.

The air seemed to become perilous to Aegnor.

"Yes? Yes. Of course," he agreed warily.

This caused Ms. Macey to make a tsk sound as she moved her arms across her chest and her weight shifted to one hip. Andreth – no, Andera – no, Ms. Bealor, set down the loupe and leveled a look at him.

Once again he forgot to breathe.

"I disagree. You don't really think that what you have here is nothing more than pure profit do you?"

Aegnor blinked. "What?"

"I mean, you can see that you have something of some historical significance here right? I seriously doubt you would have picked them up otherwise."

Aegnor blinked.

"Well, I-"

"And you don't really want to just cash this in without finding out just what they are before selling them off to the highest bidder right? Given that they aren't stolen of course -"

"Wait -"

"- and that we can't authenticate that these are real are you aren't just trying to scam people. These are or could be truly rare pieces of history. From a time that many know little about."

"Ms. Bea-"

"They need to be photographed -"

"Ms. -"

" – cataloged -"

" Andr- "

"and preserved for future -"

"Andreth!"

The young woman who looked and sounded and argued like Andreth stopped talking.

"Andrea," she said.

"What?"

"My name is Andrea."

"Ah, yes, of course. Forgive me. I . . . I just . . . Andrea." The name sounded strange to his ears. No her name was not Andrea, not for him. But then, her name was not Andreth either. "Of course we will do these things. And of course you may feel free to authenticate and record whatever you wish, for I will not allow anyone to accuse me of petty theft." This was true. He was gathering his senses again and for anyone to even suggest that he would have or could have stolen anything caused him to bristle.

Hazel eyes considered him only for a moment. For Aegnor, it seemed like an eternity.

"Cool. Can I take these with me?"

"Most certainly not!" Darshna exclaimed indignantly. "You may do what you need right here from my shop, under my supervision. Who are you to think we would trust you to take care of them? Or return them for that matter!"

Ms. Macey turned around. "Excuse me?!"

"Fine," said Andrea.

Ms. Macey turned around again. "Excuse me?"

Andrea shrugged. "It's fine. We can come back here as long as you leave me alone to do what I need to do."

"I will do no such thing in my own shop you have anotherthingcomingifyouthinkthatyoucanjust -"

Aegnor fought back the pounding in his chest and decided to diffuse the situation.

"That will be fine Darshna. I will supervise. I do not mind. In fact I insist."

Hazel eyes considered him once more.

"Okay then. We can come back on Wednesday maybe, after closing?"

Aegnor looked to Darshna, gave a huff and a nod. Aegnor smiled and extended his hand to her.

"I will see you then."

The corner of Andrea's mouth twitched in what Aegnor thought was amusement before she reached out to take his hand. But when she did it was like a lightening bolt through Aegnor's very being and he thought his fëa would leap from his chest. For a brief moment Aegnor thought that she had given pause, that perhaps she had felt it as well. But then she pulled her hand from his, leaving him feeling empty and alone.

"Yeah okay. See you then." And then she turned and left and Aegnor's world suddenly seemed very fragile.

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**~oOo~**

_Re-embodiment, Aikanáro thought. Life again. But what sort of life could he have? What could he hope to accomplish now? Was not all lost? She was gone. Forever. He had turned away from that path, never to know joy again. What would be the point of returning?_

_There was a time when he used to have a purpose._

_There was a time when he used to have a voice._

_It will be harsh. He will be vulnerable. He will feel. There will be pain out there. There is no pain here._

_But there is also no love._

_**You will not be able to return to Aman Aikanáro. **__The air swirled and two green eyes formed in front of him. __**You must remain till your life if taken or till you fade.**_

"_There is nothing in Aman for me."_

_The eyes gave him a slow blink. _

"_I accept."_

_The air swirled once more as the eyes dissipated and he found himself moving down a great hall and towards a bright light._

"_Why do you bring this to me?" he called out. "Why am I made this offer?" _

_**It was made to all who dwell here**__, the voice answered, __**save one**__._

_And with that, Ambaráto Aikanáro, Aegnor the sharp flame, the fourth son of Finarfin and Eäwen stepped out into the light and was reborn._


	2. Chapter 2

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5:30 am.

The alarm goes off.

A hand slowly snakes out from under a mound of blankets and struggles as it seeks out the source, knocking over several small items in the process. After several slapping attempts, success is finally achieved and silences falls once more as the hand slowly withdraws back into its cocoon.

She has time to lay just a few moments longer. She was so sleepy.

6:00 am.

The alarm goes off.

The hand comes out from beneath the shadows like a shot in the dark. Striking its target with all the precision of a heat seeking missile. Silence is swift.

_Just a few moments longer_ she thinks, _blankets so soft_. That was like what, two seconds maybe?

6:15 am.

The alarm goes off.

This time the alarm is taken to the floor with the force of the hand's rebuke. It kind of had it coming really. What with the level of rudeness it kept shouting at her.

7:25 am.

The sun light is peaking through the window next to her bed, coming across her pillow. Her arms reach out in a slow stretch as she rolls over onto her back. She rubs at her eyes and looks to her alarm clock. Wait . . . where the hell is it? She sits up slightly and looks around its' usual place next to her bed, finally finding it on the floor. She reaches down and looks at it. 7:27 am. 7:27 am? 7:27 am!

_Shit!_

She leaps out of the bed only to fall to the floor due to her feet becoming tangled with in the sheets. _Fuck! _She halfway crawls for a moment as she continues to propel her body forward towards the bathroom. No time to shower. She has to get to class by 8:00 am. Dr. Rainey's class too. Damn. She is not going to make it and this will be her third tardy. What the hell happened to the goddamn alarm clock?! Why the hell was it on the floor?!

_Shit shit shit!_

She stumbles into the bathroom stubbing her toe in the process, causing her to smack her knee on the sink when she jerked her leg up instinctively from the shooting pain. She plops down on the toilet squeezing her knee and toe simultaneously. After a few seconds she collects herself and stands up carefully. There is no time for a shower, but that really did not matter at this point. She was wide awake now. She quickly pulls her hair into a ponytail and swipes on some deodorant. She steps out of the bathroom and grabs some pants from the floor of her room and slips on a bra. Her shirt wasn't that dirty, she only slept in it.

She is able to move around her room in single steps due to the small size. She was pretty sure it used to be a closet but was listed as a room so the small 900 sq ft apartment could be considered two bedroom. Oh well, it did the trick. It was one of the many student housing co-ops offered by the school and a convenient and affordable way to live in the city and so close to campus.

She rushes into the kitchen/living area to see her roommate pouring a cup of coffee. She shouts a warning.

"What are you doing?! We have to go! I am not waiting for you!"

Kate just stares at her.

Whatever. She ran back in to her room and grabs her bag, shoving papers into it and shouting over her shoulder at her roommate.

"Just throw something on. We will get there faster if we just walk." Walk? Run is more like it.

"You should be okay but this will be my third late and he won't let me in the class. Where the hell are my keys?" She looked frantically around the room.

"Andrea," said Kate.

"Are they in there? It's cool outside right?"

"Andrea," Kate said again.

"Where are my keys! Screw it. You have yours right? Let's go." Kate does not move.

"Why the hell are you just sitting there?! What?! . . . Wait . . ." she gave her roommate a suspicious look, "did you do something to the clocks?"

Kate looked at her over her cup. Andrea's shoulders slumped a little.

"It's Sunday isn't it."

Kate sipped silently at her coffee. Andrea's shoulders slumped more and her head dropped back so that she looked up at the ceiling.

"It is Sunday isn't it."

"Yyyyyup," answered Kate. Andrea dropped her bag to the floor and her arms hung loosely at her sides as she continued to look up at the ceiling. She gave a long sigh of frustrated defeat. Sunday. No class on Sunday, what with it being the weekend and all. Which was why they were meeting the shop keeper in Soho this morning. Kate would often go to that little shop to date some of the items for the owner, to let her know what was worth something and what was not. It was just a little side job for her and a way to get some experience for a possible position at an auction house or museum and credits for her doctorate. She had asked Andrea if she would come with her this morning because of some pieces that she was unsure of. Andrea was working on finishing up her masters at Columbia for history and anthropology and was looking to apply for the doctorate program herself. She had agreed to go out of curiosity. Kate promised an amazing find and a chance to make a little extra cash. And since it was Sunday, and there are no classes on Sunday, she figured why not. Besides, a little extra cash never hurt.

"How long were you going to let me run around like that?"

"I wasn't going to let you leave," Kate said sweetly.

"Why didn't you stop me?"

"Why won't you buy a calendar?"

Andrea met her roommate's innocent gaze with a flat look.

"I hate you," she said.

"I know," her roommate answered.

She dropped her head down and rubbed her eyes as she slowly trudged back into her room. The adrenaline rush that had her moving earlier was spent and her energy was rapidly draining away along with her motivation. She fell on her back on the bed and listened as Kate shuffled around the tiny kitchen, refilling her cup.

"Look on the bright side," Kate called out, "you have time to take a shower now."

She considered coming back with her own witty and slightly vulgar retort but decided that expending the energy was just not worth it. Besides Kate was right, she did have time to take a shower.

She stood in the shower and let the hot water run down her body, taking away the chill in her bones. The small apartment the two girls rented always seemed to be ten degrees colder or hotter than what it was outside, depending on the season. Still, it was five minutes from campus and affordable with a roommate. She could layer up.

She sighed as the steam rose up around her. She suddenly felt very tired. She had to start going to bed sooner. The later she stayed up the harder it was to get going in the morning. Perhaps she should try placing the alarm clock across the room. This way she would actually have to get out of bed to shut it off. She doubted it would help. She could not even keep up with the days of the week any more. She had to come up with something though. This was becoming a frequent occurrence. Even on the nights she would get to bed at a reasonable hour, she would still wake the next morning feeling sluggish and worn, as if she had been up all night. She was not sure why. Kate would tell her that she talked in her sleep a lot. Maybe it was some strange dreams. But Andrea could never remember just what she was dreaming about when she would wake, and besides, dreams could not be what was making her lose sleep. You had to be asleep to dream in the first place. And so Andrea chalked it up to stress and her class load and kept on pushing through.

The hot water began to go, so she pulled herself from her thoughts and finished washing up. Andrea tried to ease her guilt about using all of the hot water with the thought that Kate had it coming by letting her panic this morning the way she did. But it did not really work and she made the mental note to tell her.

As she wrapped her hair in a towel and slipped on her robe she heard voices coming from the kitchen. Andrea made a face. Gabe . . . ugh. Gabriel, or Gabe as he liked to be called, was Kate's reoccurring love. Tall, dark, handsome and dumb as a box of rocks. Wait, that wasn't being fair to the rocks. Needless to say Andrea did not like him. It was not because he was dumb (maybe a little) but because they were just so wrong for each other. And just when Andrea thought that Kate had finally moved on he would always come leaching around again. Crashing at their apartment, eating their food, spending Kate's money.

Plus he always called her Andy. She hated that. He would call Kate Katie as well, but that was for Kate to deal with. Andrea hated cutesy poo little names that ended with ie or y. It drove her nuts to be called that. And she was pretty sure he knew. In fact she was positive he knew. Prick.

She made the quick dash from the bathroom to her room (which only consisted of a little jump) and shut the door. Maybe if she took long enough he would be gone by the time she was dressed.

Her morning routine was rather simplistic. A pair of jeans, a plain v-neck shirt and her boots. She rarely wore makeup and normally just pulled her hair back at the nape of her neck in a bun or ponytail. Today she would leave it loose. It was long and kind of thick and would take a while drying. She hated the blow dryer. She always had to unplug something else to run it. She gave herself a quick once over in the mirror.

She was not a plain girl. She had her fair share of random boyfriends and so on. And it wasn't that she was not interested, she just did not have the time. Or did not make the time, at least according to Kate anyway. Her roommate was always telling her how she wished she had Andrea's eyes or hair or pant size. Which Andrea did not understand because Kate was beautiful. But she supposed they all had their own insecurities to deal with. Kate dealt with hers by dating all the wrong men, Andrea dealt with hers by avoiding them.

Andrea straightened out the contents of her bag which were in quite the disarray due to her haste earlier. She grabbed her light cargo jacket and walked out of her room and into the kitchen.

Only to see that son of a bitch Gabe eating a bowl of her cereal.

"Andy!" he shouted through a mouthful of food.

_Ass_, she thought to herself.

"Gabe," she answered out loud while grabbing a mug and pouring some coffee. She then went to the fridge only to find the milk was gone. She stared into the fridge and squeezed the mug in her hand and listened to jerk boy behind her smack on her cereal that was swimming in the last of the milk.

"Ready?" Kate asked as she walked into the room.

"Yeah, let's go. I need coffee."

"I made a pot. We'll be back in a bit babe, are you going to stay?"

Gabe never turned around. "Maybe, gonna take a shower."

"Alright," Kate leaned over him and gave him a kiss. Andrea swallowed the bile in the back of her throat. She almost said that there was no hot water but she knew that when they got back those dishes he used would be just sitting on the counter so she said nothing. Let him find out on his own.

"I'll meet you downstairs," she called over her shoulder as she walked into the hall. If she looked at him any longer she would say something she would regret. No, that was a lie, she would not regret it at all. But it would cause drama for sure.

Kate was at her side before she got to the stairs.

They did not really say anything till they were seated on the subway. Andrea pulled out her phone and began to scroll.

"So," said Kate as she began to look at her phone.

"So," said Andrea without looking up.

"Soooo . . . ."

"Soooooo?"

"Oh, please don't be mad! It's just for one night. I ran into him while we were out and he had too much to drink and he couldn't afford a cab and it's not my fault he dicknatized me!"

Andrea had simply continued to look at her phone as her friend spoke but when Kate got to the part about the penile hypnosis she gave and exasperated laugh.

"Oh my God Kate."

"I know! I know! I am a horrible person!" Kate looked at her with big puppy dog eyes. "I will buy you some more cereal I swear."

Andrea looked at her friend for a moment before turning back to her phone with a shake of her head.

"Whatever."

Kate relaxed back in her seat. "He really is not so bad you know. If you would just give him a chance you would see that he is nice. He has some cute friends too. You should really consider coming out with us sometime. I don't know why you -"

Her friend went on about the pros of Gabe and his friends and the cons of Andrea abstaining from men for so long. Of course for Kate anything longer than a week is too long. Andrea could not figure out how Kate got any of her course work done with the amount of partying she liked to do. But somehow she always found away. That may be why Andrea liked her so much. Kate did not have a problem working her ass off to get where she wanted to go. Unlike Andrea, Kate's family did not help her at all with her school. Everything she did, she did on her own. This had always impressed Andrea.

Andrea on the other hand came from a very well off back ground. Her mother had passed away when she was young, leaving her father to raise her, her older brother and younger sister on his own. But they never wanted for anything. They went to some of the best schools upstate. Her sister was just about to graduate while her brother was working in her father's law office. Her father had hoped that Andrea would follow a career in law as well but was still supportive when she chose history and anthropology, bragging that he would have a daughter with a doctorate teaching at Harvard or Princeton soon enough. Andrea was lucky to have the family support that she did, she knew this.

She was pulled from her thoughts when Kate tugged at her arm. She stood up and they pushed their way off the train. They had taken the #1 down to the Houston Str stop and would walk over to Downing from there. Kate talked about the shop and the owner as they walked. It turned out that the shop owner, Mrs. Patel, did not actually own the pieces they would be looking at but was more of an intermediary for the man who did. Kate had never met him but she had been called in to look at some of his stuff before to give Mrs. Patel and idea of their worth.

Andrea never liked this kind of thing. She likened people like this to historical mercenaries. Holding priceless pieces of history hostage and dolling them out to the highest bidder. If these items were anything like what Kate described they not belong tucked away in some rich jerk's private collection but in a museum, to be admired in a museum. These were stories, valuable lessons from the past meant to be valued and learned from. Not horded and sold and bartered on the market after being pilfered from a dig somewhere.

The came upon the shop and a little woman met them at the door. She seemed friendly enough and greeted Kate warmly. As they made their way through to the back of the shop Kate leaned in to whisper in Andrea's ear.

"Don't let her fool you. She is nice until you start to talk money and then it is on."

They came up to a table that had several items laid out. Andrea suddenly started to become a little excited.

"See?" said Kate. "I told you. I don't know who this guy is or where he gets this stuff but some of it is just amazing!"

Kate went on about some of the finer pieces, some of the jewels and the jade combs but Andrea's eyes were pulled to some of the glass and quartz seals and amulets on the table. They were different themes with the spectrum ranging from geometric ornaments and astral symbols to elaborate depictions of animals and people. Some displayed praying men in front of divine symbols. Others had a hero fighting animals and hybrid creatures. They had to date to early 7th and 4th centuries BC. They were amazing. Andrea found herself digging through her bag for the jewelers loupe she carried to study them more closely.

Somewhere in the background of Andrea's mind she could still hear Kate talking. There were some sort of introductions going on but she could have cared less. Pieces like this were beyond rare. Andrea thought they may have been found in Turkey but she could not be sure. To put a price on them would be an insult for they were priceless as far as she was concerned. This was a thesis paper waiting to happen.

A stinging pain to her leg caused her to jump and she straightened up quickly and gave Kate a frustrated look.

"Hey! Yes! Hello. Nice to meet you." She spared a quick glance to the person she was being introduced to and then turned her attention back to the table and picked up a gold coin that had to be either Alexander or his father. She could have studied them all day if not for Kate and Mrs. Patel.

"No no no," Mrs. Patel was waving her hands and shaking her head, "that is not your concern. You simply do what you have been asked to do."

"But Mrs. Patel," Kate insisted, "you don't know what you have here. It is not that easy. You can't just put a price on this."

"Yes you can. You have done it before. You can do it again. This time is no different."

Andrea watched as Kate became more frustrated and felt herself becoming annoyed as well.

"Mrs. Patel," Andrea said carefully, maybe if she spoke slow, "what you have here could be very significant. This needs to be studied and -"

"So study," Mrs. Patel interrupted, "and then tell me the value."

Andrea concentrated on controlling her breathing.

"If you would just talk to the owner of these pieces I am sure he would understand my concern."

"Mr. Aeluin and I have spoken Ms. Bealor, extensively on the topic. And I can assure you that he agrees with me. Don't you Mr. Aeluin?"

Andrea turned to look at the man Mrs. Patel had been referring too and found him staring back at her.

"Ah, yes . . . what?" he stuttered.

Andrea fought the urge to roll her eyes at him as Mrs. Patel repeated her question.

"I said I am sure you would agree with me on this matter yes?"

"Yes? Yes. Of course," he agreed warily.

Kate took on her pouty stance that she does when a cute man does not do what she wants. Andrea just got pissed and she did not care if it came through in her tone.

"I disagree. You don't really think that what you have here is nothing more than pure profit do you?"

Mr. Aeluin blinked at her. "What?"

"I mean, you can see that you have something of some historical significance here right? I seriously doubt you would have picked them up otherwise."

He blinked again. "Well, I-"

"And you don't really want to just cash this in without finding out just what they are before selling them off to the highest bidder right? Given that they aren't stolen of course -"

"Wait -"

"- and that we can't authenticate that these are real are you aren't just trying to scam people. These are or could be truly rare pieces of history. From a time that many know little about."

"Ms. Bea-"

"They need to be photographed -"

"Ms. -"

" – cataloged -"

" Andr- "

"and preserved for future -"

"Andreth!"

Andrea stopped and stared at the man before her. What had he called her?

"Andrea," she said.

"What?"

"My name is Andrea."

"Ah, yes, of course. Forgive me. I . . . I just . . . Andrea. Of course we will do these things. And of course you may feel free to authenticate and record whatever you wish, for I will not allow anyone to accuse me of petty theft."

Andrea considered him for a moment. She had touched a nerve there, with her accusations. She thought it best not to push him any further otherwise he might take the pieces away and get someone else.

"Cool. Can I take these with me?"

"Most certainly not!" Mrs. Patel exclaimed. "You may do what you need right here from my shop, under my supervision. Who are you to think we would trust you to take care of them? Or return them for that matter!"

"Excuse me?!" Kate shot at Mrs. Patel with an indignant tone.

"Fine," said Andrea.

"Excuse me?" Kate shot at Andrea with a slightly shocked tone.

Andrea simply shrugged. "It's fine. We can come back here as long as you leave me alone to do what I need to do."

"I will do no such thing in my own shop you have anotherthingcomingifyouthinkthatyoucanjust -"

Andrea thought for sure that this was it. They were going to be thrown out for sure but then Mr. Aeluin stepped in and shut the situation down.

"That will be fine Darshna. I will supervise. I do not mind. In fact I insist."

Andrea considered him once more.

"Okay then. We can come back on Wednesday maybe, after closing?"

He looked to Mrs. Patel for approval and she gave it albeit somewhat reluctantly. He then turned back to Andrea and smiled, extending his hand to her.

"I will see you then."

Andrea almost laughed at his formality. Whatever Mr. Manners, she thought dismissively and reached out to take his hand, finding herself unprepared when she did.

His hand touched hers and her surroundings seemed to lurch, as if her mind suddenly spun and she found herself feeling dizzy as something within her clicked. She snatched her hand back, not wanting to fall over and embarrass herself in front of everyone.

"Yeah okay," she said, "see you then." She turned and headed quickly for the door, Kate scurrying to keep up behind her.

They talked about the pieces as they walked to the train. Kate thought one could date back pre-Iron age and another could be Babylonian. Andrea agreed and thought many could be even older. It was not till they were on the train and seated that Kate brought up the very tall blonde elephant in the room.

"Holy shitballs he was hot."

Andrea huffed out an unimpressed laugh.

"Oh don't even pretend that you didn't notice! That guy was drop your panties on the floor gorgeous and you can NOT deny that."

This time Andrea did laugh. "I am not denying anything. You are right, he is very good looking. I don't know about drop my pants good looking, but still very good looking."

"So you are saying that you are not interested in him," Kate said, somewhat disbelieving.

"Nope."

'Nope you are not interested in him or nope you are not saying that you aren't?"

"I am not interested Kate. I am only interested in his artifacts."

"Yeah, me too," said Kate, leaving no question as to which of his artifacts she was talking about. Andrea just shook her head.

"Jeez Kate, Gabe isn't even out of the door yet."

"Oh yeah, Gabe," she replied absently. Andrea almost felt sorry for him.

The feeling was fleeting though because when they got home the dishes were left on the counter, a trail of water had been dripped in the hallway and dirty towel discarded on the floor in front of her room. Andrea decided to let Kate clean up after her stray and kicked the towel out of her way as she flopped down on her bed.

Andrea felt excitement about the items they had seen today. This could be quite a find and could very well be the topic she needed for application thesis for her doctorate. She really hoped they were not stolen, although she did not think he had. It was not in his nature to steal. Just how she knew that she had no idea, but she did know it. Maybe she had met him before. If he is really such a big collector as Kate has said, they may have run into each other before at some site or conference. That must be it. Just some passing acquaintance is all. That was why he called her that name as if he knew her. What had he called her? What was it? She struggled to remember.

_Andreth_.

Yes, that was it. Some strange obscure name that he thought he had heard in passing.

But then why did it sound so familiar?

_Enough_, she thought, _time to get to work. You have a paper due in two weeks and a quiz Friday. Get to work._

Andrea got up, shrugged of her coat and pulled out her work, pushing the thoughts of Mr. Aeluin out of her mind and tried not to think about Wednesday, to little success.


	3. Chapter 3

**~oOo~**

_Aikanáro reigned in his horse to a stop once they crested the hill and waited as his brother rode up beside him. He arched an eyebrow as Angaráto's horse snorted and shook its head as if in a huff._

"_You know," said Angaráto, a bit in a huff himself, "it does not count when you take off without warning like that."_

"_And just what are you implying?" asked Aikanáro with mock indignation._

"_Play fair and I would not have to imply anything," answered Angaráto with honest annoyance._

_Aikanáro chuckled as he looked down at the sprawling settlement before them._

"_Who are we meeting this day?"_

"_Ah, Boromir I believe, and his kin."_

_Boromir, grandson to Bëor, Findaráto's mortal friend, thought Aikanáro. It seems the torch has been passed._

"_Is Ingoldo already here?"_

_Angaráto made a tsk sound. "Yes _Aegnor_, _Finrod_ is already here."_

_Aikanáro did not miss how Angaráto stressed the names._

"_Come now, you are not going to look to cause trouble are you?"_

_Aikanáro sighed and gave his brother a sideways glance. He loved his brothers dearly and would follow them into the black of the void itself, and indeed he may already have. But he could not help but be annoyed with them at times. What with their incessant need for formality and daily affirmations from their great-uncle. He did not understand the need. Their names were not even Noldorin they were Telerin in form. But anything remotely resembling Quenya had been banned and he and the rest of his family had respectfully acquiesced to keep the peace. Findaráto was quite fond of this tribe of Men and causing strife by trying to annoy his brothers by calling them by their epessë or speaking in a forbidden tongue would not be very appropriate nor appreciated._

_No, it would do no good to aggravate them, which was unfortunate since there would not be much to do period. Whatever kind of trouble his brother thought he would be looking for here was beyond him._

"_No Angrod, if there is trouble to be found, it shall not be found by me."_

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**~oOo~**

The sun's bright morning light began to break through the cold gray of morning, his skin as it rays shone through the window where he stood, staring down at the street. Life was beginning to buzz below. Men and women starting their morning commute. Traffic began to move and pick up, the rumble of cars and trucks increasing as more and more began to wake and settle in the familiar rhythm of routine. It was the one thing about Men that never seemed to change. Their need in their minds for purpose, for the routine and their strange resistance to change countered by their need for progress. And progress always brought about change.

Normally Aegnor was amused by this. Under normal circumstances, Aegnor would watch the small theatre unfold below and chuckle at how flustered the players would become if something shook up the routine, staggering the rhythm. Their frustration would come off in waves at any delay or change as they made their way to their destination. And oh how they hated delays.

Perhaps if they had not been so preoccupied with their own self perceived importance they would have taken the time to observe their surroundings. Perhaps they would have taken the time to notice that the figure in the fourth story window in the large apartment in King Street had not moved in three days. But then perhaps they did notice and took it for some mannequin or a play of shadows on the window from the sun, because certainly no human being could stand for three days, stock-still and motionless, frozen in place.

And they would be right. No human being could.

For three days he stood there looking out the window. For three days he stood inert, transfixed by what had transpired in that little shop. For three days hazel eyes haunted him, staring back at him in the reflection of the window. Was this some torment from the Valar? Some delay in punishment for his arrogance all those ages ago? Had she been sent back to remind of all that had been lost and all he could never have? And why now? Why here?

But then again, was it even truly her? Yes, she had Andreth's face and eyes, yes it was as if she had stepped out of some long lost dream, but this was not Andreth. At least not his Andreth. This was a mortal woman called Andrea. A student of anthropology and history. A young woman of this age and not from the past.

Or is she? Could she be some reincarnation of Andreth? Were there not ancient religions devoted to such beliefs? No one, not even Mandos knew what happened to a human soul once it left the halls, if they even came to his halls in the first place. Could their souls be re-embodied, recycled to walk the earth again and again for some higher purpose? Perhaps her soul had been walking alongside him all throughout the ages and he had never known. Reborn into some other body and life till she had finally come across him again, drawn together once more by fate? In that moment when he touched her hand he could have sworn he saw . . . something!

Not that it changed anything. She was still of Men and he Eldar. She would age and die while he remained.

Yes, this was most definitely some torment sent by the Valar.

And it changed nothing.

Aegnor snapped back to life and in what seemed like one smooth motion he grabbed a coat and snatched up his keys. Three days had passed and Wednesday was here. He left his apartment and walked brusquely down the street.

Andrea sat on the train and flipped through phone. She had her earbuds in but was not listening to any music. She just put on the appearance that she was to avoid unwanted conversation. She was not normally such an introvert but you never who you were going to meet on the train. She was too tired and way too irritated to be polite today anyway.

Kate had bailed on her at the last minute. At least according to Andrea she did. Kate on the other hand insisted that she was coming, just that she was going to be a little late and while Kate never gave Andrea a reason why, Andrea knew. Gabe, yet again. Andrea just could not understand what the allure was. Kate is so bright and smart and just has so many things going for her, Andrea could not understand why she would screw all that up for some meaningless moments with someone who had no real appreciation for her at all. Needless to say that Andrea did not hide her irritation with her roommate. This was her gig after all, Andrea was just helping her out. She should not even be here honestly. She had a paper due on Friday along with a dissertation to finish. She should be home studying. Damn Kate and her _peni_obsession. She refused to put the s at the end when referring to Gabe due to the fact that she did not believe his _peni_ warranted the full word.

But while it was easy to blame Gabe, it was really Kate she was upset with. Andrea hoped she would hurry up and get her priorities straight.

Andrea stood up as she heard Houston Street call over the speaker and made her way off the train. The sun was starting to set by the time she reached the little shop. She knocked as she slowly opened the door.

"Hello?" she called out. It was not dark inside but the light was dim and coming from the back. The owner Mrs. Patel was obviously closing up and must be in the back somewhere. Andrea closed the door behind her and continued inside.

"Helloooo, Mrs. Patel?"

Still no answer. Andrea wondered if Mrs. Patel would even be here. Didn't the norse god say he was going to come and babysit?

"Mr. Aeluin?"

Still no answer. Andrea stamped down the little flicker of disappointment in the back of her mind with an irritated eye roll. She did not give a damn who was here because she was here for the items, not him.

And yet, she could not help but notice how her thoughts had turned to him a quite a few times lately. It was getting embarrassing. Andrea tried to chalk it up to fact that she was sure she had met him or seen him somewhere before. Most likely a magazine cover or something. She found herself wanting to dislike him out of principle. She would get more done without him around anyway.

Andrea came up on the table in the back with several items laid out on it. A large lamp lit the table and couple more cast a dim light from behind. There was a large magnifying glass and some gloves set on the table. Andrea walked up and rested her hands on the table as she chewed on her lip absentmindedly and smiled down at the items. Yes this was why she was here after all. She pulled the gloves on and got to work.

Aegnor watched the young woman from the shadows. She never saw him as she entered the shop and went to the table. He was just some other obscure object lining the store and he was very good at blending into the shadows and right now he was as far back as he could get. His back against the wall, he watched her as she gazed down at the table, chewing at her lip and every so often tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. He thought his heart would seize in his chest. The back of his head pressed against the wall as he tore his eyes away from her to look up at the ceiling. He squeezed them shut as he took in a slow breath.

Yes this was undoubtedly some torment sent by the Valar.

She was Andreth in every way. From the way she immersed herself in the artifacts to the arch of her brow and curve of her lips. It was as if his stomach had folded in on itself as his blood rushed to his face, causing it to feel as if it burned. _Pull it together damn you_, he hissed at himself. His hands were clenched into tight fists at his side as the old pain threatened to pull him under again. _She only looks like Andreth is all! She is not her, not Andreth! Not your Andreth! Her name is Andrea damn you!_ He focused on his breathing and fought the tide of emotion that threatened to drown him.

Once his had regained some semblance of control he looked back to the table and the young women sitting there. Andrea was picking up pieces and taking pictures and notes on each with her ipad and phone. She muttered under breath about a particular piece and Aegnor realized she was uncertain of its origins. Aegnor exhaled slowly and stepped out of the shadows.

"Turkey."

To say he may have startled her would be a bit of an understatement. Andrea shot back from the table with a gasp, knocking over one of the lamps as she did. Aegnor moves swiftly to catch the item she had been holding before it hit the ground, the lamp though was not so lucky. It fell to the floor with a crash and Andrea gave a little yelp and jumped again. Aegnor could not help but feel guilty while Andrea felt furious.

"What is wrong with you?!" she shouted at him in flustered indignation. "You scare the holy shit out of me!"

"Forgive me I -"

"What, were you hiding back there or something?!"

"No, of course not. I -"

"What the hell man! I mean really!"

"Please, I am sorry. I did not mean to frighten you. Please."

Hazel eyes studied him and Aegnor found himself fighting for control once more.

"Whatever," Andrea said with a shrug and a shake of her head. "You didn't frighten me. I mean, you frightened me but didn't scare me you just, I mean I wasn't looking and, well, I mean . . . just whatever."

Aegnor watcher her now as she turned towards the floor and looked at the broken lamp in dismay.

"Ugh, that lady is going to kill me." She squatted down and began to collect the pieces of broken glass. "She will totally make me pay for this." Aegnor knelt down next to her.

"No, do not concern yourself with that, I will take care of it. I will compensate Mrs. Patel for the lamp as well."

Andrea gave him a sharp look.

"I can pay for it," she snapped, "just not today."

Aegnor suddenly felt as if he were walking a very treacherous line.

"Of course, I never meant -"

"It's not like I can't afford it."

"No, no, I simply -"

"It's just really expensive and I would never buy something like this."

"Yes I understand completely, ple-"

"So for you to imply that I can't afford it is just-"

"Miss Bealor please!"

That came out a little louder than Aegnor had intended, but it seemed to do the trick. Hazel eyes regarded him silently once more.

"Please," his said, his tone much softer this time around, "please, I never meant to imply anything. I was simply suggesting you let me handle this as I am far more accustomed to dealing with Darshna than you. And it was my fault anyway. Had I simply announced my presence then you would never had been startled in the first place and the lamp would still be here with us. Please, allow me to take care of this. Please. I really must insist."

Hazel eyes held his and it seemed to Aegnor that she stared into him. Does she know him at all? Could she know him at all?

"What did you say?"

Aegnor blinked. "I said to please allow me to -"

"No," she interrupted, "before that."

"I should have announced my presence?"

"No," she said again, a little exasperated this time, "before you jumped out of the dark."

"Ah," exclaimed Aegnor, "Turkey! I was saying that piece was from Turkey."

Aegnor went on to explain how the pieces came from the ancient city of Doliche, now the modern city of Dülük. He believed the pieces to be late Babylonian and Levantine. Andrea began to write information down and take more pictures while asking him a constant stream of questions at the same time.

The evening wore on like this and Aegnor found himself almost giddy at times. It was as if they were back in the library of Bëor the Old's great house, pouring over parchment after parchment and talking of the Valar and Eldar and the legacy of Men. They worked on well into the evening this way. Cataloging and discussing the various histories of the pieces. She seemed impressed with his knowledge of ancient history and Aegnor smiled at what he thought her reaction would be if he told her it was because he had been there. He would watch how she scrutinized each piece, pouring over them, dissecting his information and filling in the gaps. He could have easily lost himself, sitting there with her, it was as if he had been transported back in time and he found himself longing once more for the company of his brothers. He would have even settled for several of his cousins. But this moment right here was perfect, for in his heart he began to believe that on some level, she had begun to enjoy his company.

It was the string of swear words that pulled him from his reverie. It seemed that time did not stop for the hour had become late.

"I can't believe I did this damn it! And of course Kate never showed! Damn! It!" Andrea began to stuff her belongings into her bag furiously. "I am sorry but I have to go. I only have about three million things to finish before Friday and twice that much to get done by Monday. I can't believe how late it is. Time flies when you're having fun eh?"

"Yes," he said, "it was fun."

"I'm sorry Kate didn't make it. You shouldn't have to worry about paying her you know. She should have been here. I will start looking up the pieces we have and get back to Mrs. Patel about how much they are worth. Ugh, if I hurry I might be able to make the next train."

"Wait, no, let me get you a cab," Aegnor said as he turned off the lights and moved them towards the door. "We should be able to get one at the square. It is the least I can do for keeping you so late, when I am not terrifying you that is."

"Ha! Right?!" Andrea laughed. "A cab would be nice."

Aegnor smiled as he closed the door behind him and turned to lock it. "I insist."

"You do a lot of insisting. You must get your way a lot."

Aegnor paused for a moment. "Actually, no. I do not."

They walked in silence most of the way to Demo Square. She talked a little about her roommate and her lack of responsibility lately. Upon reaching the square Aegnor was able to flag down a cab relatively easily to his dismay. He opened the door for her to climb in. She paused before entering and turned to him.

"Do you have Mrs. Patel's information or do I just show up at the shop? I would call but I don't have her number. I guess I could look up the shop number though. I just thought that . . . I don't know, don't worry about it. Kate must have the info."

"Wait," he said, stopping her with a hand on her shoulder, "here." He reached in his pocket and pulled out a card and then grabbed a pen from the cab driver who was becoming annoyed. "This is my number. Just call me with when you find something. Or I could call you if you prefer?"

"Oh no this is fine. I will call you when I have something. Well, later."

He watched as she climbed in the cab and drove away.

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**~oOo~**

_Aegnor stood a step behind Angrod as their eldest brother walked over to greet them. Aegnor could not help but grin as he watched him. His long fair hair flowing behind him and in his fine silk clothes he cut quite the impressive figure. And while he may seem very formal, Aegnor could tell he was relaxed and at ease here. Finrod enjoyed spending time within this House. He truly believed in the valor and future of Men. While Aegnor agreed with some of Finrod's views, he still did not believe that the race of Men were key to the future of this land._

_After his brother finished greeting them, he turned and introduced their host and his family. Lord Boromir was a large man even by Aegnor's standards. His wife, the lady Eirian in contrast was tiny and fair, a seemingly delicate wisp of a woman heavy with child with two more young children at her feet._

_Aegnor could not help but be slightly annoyed at such impudent behavior. To bring children in to such dark times, to have ones family in harm's way, it was irresponsible and selfish to Aegnor. It was unacceptable._

_But, as Finrod had reminded him on many occasions, it was also no their customs. Men's lives were fleeting compared to theirs, and if they were to wait for times of peace then the race of Man would not survive. But no matter how many times Finrod would explain this, and he liked to explain things a lot, it was still something that Aegnor could simply not understand._

_He was greeted by his host graciously and thanked his hostess for her roof and board. As Angrod made his introductions Aegnor stepped aside to wait only to feel a small tug on his cloak. He looked down and saw one of the small children that had been at the lady Eirian's feet inspecting the embroidery on his cloak. Aegnor looked up and saw that the child's (a girl he believed) parents were still preoccupied with their guests. Aegnor looked back down at the small head at his feet._

"_Ahem," he cleared his throat gently. The little head at his feet continued her inspection of the cloak._

"_Ahem," he said again only slightly louder._

_This time the little head looked up at him with bright and curious eyes and Aegnor could not help but be struck by the color. They were a shade he had not seen before and seemed to be a mix of every eye color imaginable. They were set into a little round face framed by dark blonde hair, or perhaps light brown hair, or maybe somewhere in between. She could not be any older than two maybe three seasons of the sun. The little face looked up at him and unflinchingly stared into his eyes. Aegnor was impressed, there were not many of her kind who could do such a thing for very long._

_He knelt down in front of her, crouching so as to get as close to her level as he could. Her gaze never broke from his. Aegnor was very impressed._

_A little hand reached up and gently touched a lock of his hair and Aegnor watched as the child's bright gaze began to study the strands of hair in her hand. She was brave this one. Aegnor was curious to know what she thought but would never delve in to her mind uninvited, especially with one so young. Almost as if she could hear his thoughts her hand let go the lock of hair and she met his gaze once more._

"_You shine, like him," she said pointing to FInrod._

_Aegnor blinked and then smiled._

"_What is your name little one?"_

_But before she could answer her mother was there, sweeping her up and apologizing profusely._

"_Forgive me my lord, I hope she did not trouble you."_

"_No, no," soothed Aegnor, "she was no trouble, only curious."_

_The lady Eirian laughed. "Her curiosity will be the death of me I am afraid, for she has no fear."_

"_Traits that will serve her well I am sure. May I ask her name?"_

"_Yes of course, it is Andreth. Andreth, say hello to the lord Aegnor. He is a prince."_

_The child in the lady Eirian's arms said nothing, only laid her head on her mother's shoulder as she stared at him. Her mother laughed and shook her head._

"_Oh now she is shy! I am sure that will change soon enough. If you will excuse me my lord," the lady apologized once more. Aegnor bowed over her hand._

"_Of course my lady and thank you once again for you hospitality. Lady Andreth," he said with an incline of his head, "till we meet again."_

_The child said nothing as Aegnor turned to go but continued to stare at him, following him with bright eyes._


	4. Chapter 4

**Sorry it has taken so long. I am currently traveling overseas and writing has become a little difficult. Hopefully won't take so long next time. I would like to thank people for the messages and reviews. I simply ask that everyone remember that everyone has a story to tell and every character has a purpose. Please do not message me about how much you dislike a character. I would not put them in here without a reason. This is an AU so things are going to be different than canon. That said, I really do appreciate the reviews and respect everyone's opinion and I am grateful for the time you took to review and message me. **

**I own nothing.**

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**~oOo~**

Her fingers tapped against her phone impatiently. Just a soft clicking noise as her fingers swiped quickly through a series of photos and images that she was not really looking at. Her eyes were out of focus as she lost herself in her thoughts.

_Why am I here? What the hell am I doing? _

She knew very well what she was doing of course. She was there to meet him. Although she was still somewhat confused as to the why. She was almost certain it was her friend Kate's fault. The conversation replayed once more in her head.

"Wait, wait, waaaaaaaait," Kate had said looking at her as if in disbelief, "he gave you his number?"

"Yes." Andrea refused to look up from her laptop.

"He gave you his number and you haven't called him yet," the disbelief in Kate's tone now matched the look on her face.

"That's right," Andrea answered still not looking up.

"Wait, wait, ok just . . . ok wait . . ." Kate sat down across from Andrea, hands rubbing at her temples and her eyes squeezed shut as if she could not quite comprehend or process the conversation they were having. "Let me get this straight. We meet, what is, quite possibly, one of the most unbelievably beautiful men we have ever seen, in our entire lives . . ."

"If you say so – Hey!" Andrea grabbed at her arm where her friend flicked her.

"Oh I say so alright, and do NOT patronize me."

Andrea closed her laptop and rested her chin in her hand, giving her friend a very flat look. Kate was undeterred.

"Where was I before I was so rudely interrupted? Oh yeah, amazingly beautiful panty dropping boy."

Andrea suppressed a long sigh and the overwhelming urge to roll her eyes.

"So anyway, an unphotoshopped male super model materializes before us and gives you his number -"

"For work purposes."

"He gives you his number," Kate spoke over her interruption, "and you have not called him?!"

"I gave the info to Ms. Patel. I didn't see the need to -"

"HE GIVES YOU HIS NUMBER -"

"- bug him with things that someone else can -"

"- AND YOU HAVE NOT CALLED HIM."

"- can give him, OMG Kate really?!"

There was a face off at this point of who could have the more exasperated look. Kate leaned towards her roommate, hands extended in a pleading gesture.

"Andrea, he gave you his number. And not just a business number on a card but a number that he took the time to write down . . . TO. WRITE. DOWN. He knows he could have called Ms. Patel to get the info, he deals with her all the time. Don't you get it? He didn't have to do that! He could have just let you drive off but instead he gave you his number! He so obviously wants you to call."

The certainty in her roommate's tone of voice had begun to grate on her nerves a bit.

"No Kate, he does not "so obviously" want me to call. Furthermore I don't even want to call and even if I did, I wouldn't anyway because I have no idea who this guy is. I mean, have you even thought about if he was some sort of a perv or psycho or something? This guy could be a serial killer for all we know and you want me to drop everything and call this guy up because he is cute? It has been a while I will admit it but I am not that desperate. And just why would he be interested in me anyway? If he really is the beauty to end all beauties then he can probably get anyone he wants right? I really think you are reading a little too much into all this."

As Andrea spoke Kate crossed her arms across her chest and studied her friend briefly.

"You know," Kate said, her head cocking to one side, "we have been friends for like, what? Forever? And I still can't figure you out sometimes. I mean, do you really have such a low opinion of yourself or are you just playing at humility because you hate having to talk to people. You have to know that you are pretty. Do you not like guys anymore or something? Because that's cool. I am totally down with that. Just let me know so I don't keep introducing you to guys you have no interest in."

Andrea did sigh and roll her eyes at her roommate this time.

"Seriously Kate."

"I am being serious! Come on! Just call, just this once. If he doesn't pick up then I will never bug you about it again, but please just try. What is the worst that could happen? He picks up and you give him a bunch of info on ancient Babylonian artifacts? Just call. Pleeeeeeeeease? For me?"

In the end Andrea still refused to call. But she did agree to send a text. It was a wonderfully non-committal way to communicate. She did not have to actually talk to anyone and if she never heard from him, at least she had not left some awkward voice message of her rambling about giving a call back later and so on. But she had not anticipated him calling her back almost immediately.

She did not believe it was him at first when her phone began to buzz. She figured that someone else, her father or brother was giving her a call. And when she glanced at the number on the screen she froze for a moment, suddenly uncertain of what to do. Kate had just looked at her questioningly.

"It's him." Andrea had said with wide eyed shock and Kate mirrored her expression.

The phone buzzed again and before Andrea could register what to do, Kate had reach across and hit accept. Andrea gasped and hissed at her roommate.

"Goddammit Kate!" She brought the phone to her ear. "Hello?"

"Yes hello, Ms. Bealor?" His voice flowed like honey from the other end.

"Yeah?" Her voice flowed like a pile of rocks to her ears.

"Oh good. I received your text but I thought it would better to call. A text seems so impersonal when making plans to meet. I hope you do not mind."

"Meet?" her voice fumbled.

_Good God woman, get it together!_

"Yes. I was thinking for some coffee perhaps? I would be happy to host you at my dwelling if you would like. Or perhaps we could meet somewhere nearer to you, if that would make you more comfortable?"

_Dwelling? Who talks like that?!_

"Uh sure."

" . . . well?"

"Well what?"

"Which will it be? Near you or me?"

"Oh! Right! Sorry! Um, me? There's a place out this way that will do. On Amsterdam at 111th. The Hungarian. You heard of it?"

"I believe so. If not I will find it do not worry. Does 9:30 this Saturday work for you?"

"Yeah ok."

"Wonderful. I will see you then. Goodbye Ms. Bealor."

"Andrea."

"Pardon me?"

"It's Andrea. Ms. Bealor is my mom."

_Oh my God I am so lame_.

". . . yes . . . of course. Andrea. Goodbye Andrea."

"Bye."

Andrea hung up the phone and looked at her friend.

"Holy shit."

Kate on the other hand, literally screamed in delight.

"I told you!" she shouted in triumph. "I! Told! You!" she exclaimed as she jumped up and down.

Andrea did not pay her too much notice though. She was still trying to process what had just happened and was mortified that she had only been able to speak in single syllable words.

But happen it did and here she sat. Waiting on someone she hardly knew because her friend had some fantasy about her hooking up with some beautiful guy she hardly knew. Which brought her back around to her original thought.

_What the hell am I doing?_

She sat back in her seat and picked at the pastry in front of her. She had chosen this place on purpose. The staff were normally pretty rude but it was usually crowded and full of students. Lots of people around in case things began to get weird. And she just knew that things would get weird.

This was a mistake of course. There was no way this man was even remotely interested in her. It was stupid of her or Kate to even think otherwise. The only thing he wanted was the information she had been able to gather on the artifacts he wished to sell. That was it. Nothing else. It was best to only think of this in that way. Besides, it was not as if she were interested in him either anyway. He was not even her type, not that she really knew what her type was. But if she did she was certain he would not be it. More than likely he would not even show up. She almost hoped he wouldn't, although not really.

But show up he did and she could not help but become annoyed with herself as she felt a short quick tightening sensation in her chest when she saw him enter. He did a quick glance around the room and walked over to the counter. The barista, who had all but ignored her earlier, almost fell over the counter to serve him. Typical. He smiled and handed her some money as he took the cup she held out to him. And then, without even the slightest hesitation, turned and began to walk in her direction.

Andrea stopped herself from unconsciously reaching up and checking her appearance. He wore a simple v-neck shirt with jeans and a jacket. He had a toboggan cap pulled down over his ears and his hair curled out from under it, framing a well chiseled jaw line. He looked good and she annoyed that he did and angry that she noticed. This time she did reach up and brush back her hair.

He reached the table with cup in hand and smiled down at her. He may not have noticed how many of the people he walked passed had stopped to glance at him (men included) but she certainly did. What the hell was she doing here.

"Andrea," he said in greeting.

"Hey," she said back.

_I am such an idiot._

"May I?" he asked, gesturing to the chair across from her.

"Oh, um yeah! I mean yes. Of course. I mean, I'm here for you so yeah. I mean not specifically for you but to give you this stuff so . . . yeah."

_I am a big stupid mumble mouth idiot. What is wrong with me?!_

If he noticed her embarrassment, he gave no sign. He just lowered himself into the seat across from her and placed his cup between them.

"I must thank you for meeting me. I truly do appreciate it. I realize how busy you must be. I hope this is not an inconvenience."

"No. No problem really. I don't mind. Really. It's all good."

Every time she opened her mouth she could not help but feel more and more foolish.

"So this is what I have so far," she said, sliding a folder towards him. "Nothing really new from what I gave Ms. Patel. Did she show you any of it?"

"Yes she did," he said as he opened the folder and began to scan the papers in front of him. "Very detailed and mostly accurate. They should come in handy at auction."

Andrea's brow furrowed slightly.

"Wait, you mean Ms. Patel has already given you all of this? And what do you mean mostly accurate?"

Aegnor smiled as he continued to read the papers and answered her without looking up.

"I mean that much of the information you were able to collect was correct with only a few slight discrepancies. But nothing to be concerned over. I am certain the auction house will accept it as fact. And yes, Ms. Patel has already given me all of this."

Any fascination Andrea had over Mr. Aeluin slowly began to drain away as her blood began to slowly burn.

"Nothing to be concerned over? I can promise you that I am not concerned at all because everything in there is accurate and I would like to see you prove these slight discrepancies that you seem to think exist. I have carefully and thoroughly researched every artifact on that list Mr. Aeluin and I can assure you that there is absolutely no cause for concern for you or me or anyone else. If you like to check the references on this because there is a list of them that cover several pages. Is that why you wanted to meet me? To discuss discrepancies? If so then let's go. Ask away."

Andrea stopped and waited. As she spoke Aegnor leaned back in his chair and watched her intently and Andrea could not help but notice that there was something peculiar about his eyes. Something she could not quite put a finger on. Something about them made her feel as if he did not look at her as much as he looked into her. But she refused to look away and stared right back into their disconcerting light. After a moment he spoke.

"I have offended you. Forgive me, that was not my intent. The discrepancies I so thoughtlessly spoke of were from more of a personal experience standpoint and not one based on research of historical fact. I apologize. I should have been clearer. Please."

Andrea shrugged and pushed a lock of hair behind her ear.

"I'm not offended. I never said I was offended. But if you have some questions then just ask. I would be more than happy to tell you what I know. You said you were speaking from personal experience. Were you at the dig sites for some of these?"

Aegnor blinked.

"Yes. That is exactly what I meant. Perhaps I was misinformed of their origin."

"That could happen," Andrea said as she picked at a piece of the pastry in front of her, "a lot of artifacts have origins in one place but have found a final resting place in another. Whether from raids or trade or just the passing of time and sediment I suppose. Which ones do you have questions about?"

They would spend the rest of their time discussing individual pieces of particular value and interest. There were some that Andrea felt would hold no particular value to anyone except for museums and tried to persuade Aegnor to donate those and was please when he agreed. Others she felt he would not change his mind on and knew those would go to auction and so would only give him an approximate value. She found herself sneaking glances at him every so often as they spoke over the papers before them. There was something there that she recognized, something that seemed so familiar to her but just out of her reach. She could not place what it was. They were interrupted every so often by the barista who kept coming over to see if he needed a refill and Andrea found herself irritated at the woman's persistence and please that he never even noticed her. She really needed to get a grip on herself.

And so she focused on the topic at hand and tried to keep from noticing how close they were when he would lean in to look at something she was referencing. But she was in her element here, and could control the conversation easily. She also would also easily lose track of the time.

It was a text from Kate asking her where she was at that pulled her attention to the time. It was well after noon. She had been talking about this for hours.

"Oh my God look at the time!" she exclaimed and began to gather her things. "I had no idea what time it was. I can't believe how long I was at this! I am so sorry about that. I never meant to keep you so long."

"No, it is no problem really, I do not mind at all. I had not noticed the time either. Do you have somewhere you have to be?"

"Just lunch," she said, "with my roommate. She is going to give me so much grief. Usually she is the one who is late and I am the one waiting. She is never going to let this one go. She has been waiting a long time for this opportunity." Andrea reached into her bag and grabbed her wallet to leave some change for a tip but Aegnor stopped her.

"No, let me," he dropped a couple of dollars on the table before Andrea could object and stood up and waited. Andrea grabbed a dollar from her bag and set it on the table anyway and began to make her way for the door as Aegnor followed. Upon reaching the exit the girl behind the counter called out to come back soon. Andrea almost laughed out loud.

"I have to bring you here with me more often," she said with a smile as they walked outside and made their way down the side walk, "that was the best service ever."

"It would be my pleasure to join you anytime you want," he smiled back. This time Andrea did laugh.

"You liked the four dollar coffee that much?"

"I liked the company even more."

Andrea stopped laughing and stopped walking. They were only a few blocks from her apartment and although they had a relatively pleasant day together, she was not sure if she wanted him to know where she lived. They were standing in front of the train stop and he could either take the train or a cab to where ever he needed to go.

She stared at him again, at his eyes, and felt that same nagging feeling as she had before. Something tugged at the corners of her mind, something that moved in the peripheral of her memory, just out of her sight, vanishing at every attempt to grab it. Everything about him seemed so strange while at the same time seemed so familiar.

"Well, this is the last train station for another block or so unless you want to take a cab of course. I need to go this way so . . ."

"Oh," he said with a blink of those strange eyes of his, "yes. Thank you again for meeting me. If you should find anything else . . ."

"I will call you, yes, absolutely."

He stood there for another moment before extending his hand out to her.

"Goodbye Andrea," he said.

Andrea reached out and took his hand and for a brief flashing moment almost had it. That pull of memory almost coming into the open only to retreat into the shadows just as quickly.

"Mr. Aeluin," she said still holding onto his hand.

"Yes," he answered, strange eyes trying to engulf her.

"If you had already gotten this information from Ms. Patel, why did you want to meet?"

He paused before he spoke and Andrea thought that his eyes seem to soften slightly.

"Agner," he said.

"What?"

"Call me Agner. Mr. Aeluin is my father."

"Right," she said with a small half smile. "Agner. Is there a reason you wanted to meet."

His mouth curved into a slow beautiful smile.

"Why to meet you of course." He let go of her hand and turned to leave. Andrea spoke before she even realized she had.

"Would you like to go get a drink sometime?"

He stopped and turned around to look at her, his smile widening.

"I would like that very much." He gave a little nod of his head and turned once more, making his way down the street.

_What the hell am I doing._


	5. Chapter 5

**~oOo~**

Andrea stood up as the train came up on the station for Bryant park. This was not an area of the city she normally came too but was making an exception tonight. They had agreed to meet somewhere in midtown as that would be half way between for the both of them to meet. Kate had recommended a bar called the Cellar located at one of the hotels down there. Andrea had never been before and hoped it would be a decent location. With Kate it could go either way.

Agner had offered to pick her up but Andrea just was not sure about letting him know where she lives yet. Kate thought she was being more than a little paranoid.

"Andrea, as impressive as your stranger danger skills are, there are times when you really need to chill . . . seriously."

Andrea got off the train and headed up the stairs to the street. She supposed that her roommate was right, she could take it down a notch or two. Upon reaching the street she stopped and checked her reflection in the window of a building. It has been a while since she had gone out on anything even resembling a date and was hesitant to even call tonight one. Kate, on the other hand, had no such qualms.

"Ok, let's see," she had said as she rummaged through Andrea's closet, "you want to be sexy but not slutty soooo . . ."

Andrea sat on her bed and wrapped her hair up in a towel after just getting out of the shower. Clothes had been spread out all over her bed and she had to push them out of the way just to sit down.

"You want to wear something that hugs the right curves but is easy to get off -"

Andrea sighed.

"I grabbed some cute underwear for you just in case things go really reeeeaaally well," Kate said with a grin. "I have a cute little skirt you can borrow."

"That won't be necessary," Andrea said as she tossed aside the black panties on the bed.

Kate turned around and gave Andrea a stern look.

"You didn't shave your legs did you."

"Nnnnnnope."

"AArgh!" Kate threw her hands up in the air and dropped dramatically down in the chair at Andrea's desk. "Really Andrea?! Really?!"

Andrea had always found that the best form of birth control out there was a couple days' worth of growth on your legs to keep you from doing something you might regret in the morning. And Andrea had no intention of regretting anything in the morning.

"Yes Kate, really," she answered as she picked up a top and placed it back on a hanger as she moved towards her closet. "I will be coming home and I will be coming home alone so just drop it."

Kate sulked in the corner for a moment before getting up to plop down on the bed and giving Andrea an imploring look.

"Andrea please," she said grabbing at her hand, "pleeeeeaase, just promise me you will try to have a good time ok? Don't try to ruin it, ok?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, don't go in there and sabotage yourself by talking yourself out of even the possibility of something happening. Just try to have fun you know? Have some drinks, laugh, flirt maybe even get laid! Or don't! I don't know! Just don't shut it down before anything can even get started as per usual."

Andrea looked at her friend like she was crazy. "What are you even talking about? I don't do that at all! I am not even planning on kissing this guy much less sleeping with him! I don't even know him."

"Are you going to get to know him?"

"I'm meeting him out aren't I?"

"Is that a yes?"

"No! I mean yes! I mean . . . ah! I don't know! What the hell Kate? I have a million things going on in my head right now you know? Are you trying to stress me out or what?!"

Andrea rubbed at the space between her eyes. She was not sure what was going on tonight with her. She had been thinking about this night so much that it had started to affect her sleep. She had been having weird dreams ever since that day they got coffee together. Strange dreams that consisted of her running, always running as hard as she can but getting nowhere. And in front of her is some light. She does not know what is in the light, just that she has to get to it because for some reason she knows that if she does not get to it then something terrible will happen. But the harder she tries the further it moves away. And so she becomes desperate and tries harder but still cannot go anywhere. It is as if she is running under water and she is reaching and reaching and getting no closer and then she wakes up, her face wet with tears and sweat and she does not know why.

Kate stared at her for a moment, her eyes going wide.

"Holy shit."

"What?"

"You like him don't you?"

Andrea rolled her eyes. "Oh God."

"You do! You actually like this one don't you!"

"Oh. My. God."

Kate jumped up in triumph.

"Holy shit, praise Mary and Baby Jesus you like this guy!"

Andrea pulled the towel off of her head and began to dry her hair.

"I am getting ready now and you are going to leave me alone. No black panties, no easy to take off tops. Just me, getting dressed, and going out. Got it?"

Kate just grinned stupidly up at Andrea from where she sat on the bed.

"You so totally should have shaved your legs."

Andrea had thrown Kate out of her room after that so she could get ready in peace. She kept it casual but nice. A loose fitting jersey top and scarf with a pencil skirt and booties. Make-up was kept minimal. A little foundation, blush and mascara and a lip gloss with just a hint of color. She was going for the 'looking nice without trying to look nice' look when in fact she was desperately trying to look nice. When she finally finished she walked out to see Kate on the sofa with Gabe. Which was perfect really because she was just starting to think the night could not get any worse. Kate smiled up at her.

"You look good! Doesn't she look good?"

"Yeah, she looks great," Gabe said without looking up from his phone.

_I hate you_, she thought to herself.

"Thanks," she said out loud and grabbed her keys and headed out the door.

She finally arrived at the hotel the bar was located in and went inside. She was early. She wanted to be there before he came in. She has never been one to do the whole fashionably late thing. She hated being late. She would rather get there early and give herself sometime to get settled. Upon entering the lobby she began to get nervous and upon descending the stairs that lead into the bar, she felt completely out of her element. She had a sinking feeling that she might be out of her price range here and decided to keep tonight to a two drink minimum. Not that she thought she would have done any more that that anyway but looking around the place seemed to cement the deal. That is what she gets for coming to a place in Bryant Park. It was kind of cool though. It had an old world gothic sort of feel, with high arching ceiling and wrought iron work details. Maybe they would not stay long. There was a festival in the park area and they could always head out after a drink.

She looked around for a place to sit and froze. Across the room, standing in one of the more private sitting areas was Mr. Aeluin. He had gotten here before her. That son of a –

She smiled and began to head in his direction only to have him meet her halfway. He smiled as she walked up and she felt that same quick tight feeling in her stomach from before.

"Mr. Aeluin -"

"Agner."

"Agner," she corrected herself, "You're early."

"As are you," he said with unmistakable amusement.

"Right," she said.

"I hope you do not mind but I took the liberty of getting us a table in one of the more private areas. They are setting up for a band tonight and I thought it might get loud."

"No, not at all. That's fine. Let's go."

Before Andrea could move he held his arm out for her to take and it suddenly became her turn to be amused. She linked her arm around his and allowed him to escort her to the table. She had to admit that she kind of liked it.

Once they reached the table and sat down a waiter came by to take their order. Andrea ordered a glass of the house red and Agner said he would do the same.

Andrea made herself comfortable in the large sofa-like chairs and looked over at her companion for the evening. She had to admit he looked quite handsome. But then she knew that already. He was not wearing a hat and his shaggy blonde hair kicked out in unruly little flips over his ears. Andrea thought there might be hints of red, but in this light it was hard to tell. His shirt was a pale blue button down and tapered to be fitted. _It brings out his eyes_, she thought and then felt foolish for thinking it.

"So," she said in an attempt to get a conversation started, "Aeluin sounds French. Is it? But then Agner sounds Norwegian."

He smiled and Andrea felt that little flutter again.

"Danish," he said, "Agner is actually Danish. But I suppose Aeluin could be French. Its origins are quite lost unfortunately."

"I thought I heard an accent. I couldn't quite place it though. Are you from Denmark?"

"I have traveled so much it is hard to say where I am from anymore to be honest but," he stopped as the waiter brought two glasses of wine and Agner turned to him and spoke as she took her glass and settled back. After the waiter left he turned back to Andrea. "I am sorry, where was I?"

"You don't know where you're from."

"Ah yes, I travel. I always have so I feel that I have many homes. Although I would have to say Europe has always been where I am most comfortable."

"Is that where your family's from?" she asked taking a sip of her wine.

"My family?"

"Yeah, you know, siblings, parents, extended family, do you have any?"

"Yes."

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Well how many," she asked with a laugh, "What do they do?"

"Ah yes," he replied and looked at his glass as he swirled the wine within it, "I have three elder brothers and a younger sister. As for what they do . . ."

He paused and Andrea looked up at him and began to think that maybe she should not have asked.

"I would have to say that I do not know any longer what it is they do. I do not see them anymore or any of my family for that matter."

Andrea felt she definitely should not have asked.

"I'm sorry."

"No, it is alright. It was my choice."

The waiter walked up again at that moment and Andrea had never been so happy to see another person before in her whole life. _I am an idiot. He must think I am the biggest idiot. And I am. I am an idiot_. The waiter refilled their glasses and set down the bottle on the table and left. Andrea silently wished he ground would open up and swallow her. How could she have known that there was some family drama that had caused him not to see any of them anymore?

"Family," she said trying to lighten the mood, "can be complicated."

He smiled again at that comment and she felt relieved.

"Yes they most certainly can. But enough about me. What of you? Tell me of your family."

Andrea gladly began talking about her family. In truth she would have talked about just about anything to get off the topic of his family.

"Well I guess I am just your typical middle child you know? I have an older brother and younger sister myself."

It may have been the wine but Andrea thought that perhaps he seemed to stare a little more intently as she spoke.

"My father has his own law firm and my brother will inherit the family throne no doubt," she said with a laugh.

"No doubt," he said, "and your sister?"

"Beth? Oh she is a free spirit. An amazing dancer. I could only dream to be as talented her."

"You do not believe you have any talent?"

"I guess that depends on your definition of talent," she laughed. "If you think spending every free moment pouring over old books studying and working on a masters on ancient civilizations and history to teach to a bunch of hung over undergrads a talent, well then . . ."

Agner smiled. "That is no talent, that is a gift."

Andrea found herself laughing again. "Good save," she giggled.

_Wow he has a nice smile, oh my God I'm giggling. _

She continued to speak of her family and her love for history. Her father had hoped that she would enter the family business as well but supported her choice and was proud of her nonetheless. She had lived upstate her whole life but had moved to the city about a year ago to pursue a Masters. He watched her as she spoke and she found she could not turn away from the intensity of his gaze and the strange way they reflected the light. She reached over to set down her glass and noticed that between the two of them they had almost finished the entire bottle. Had they really been talking that long? What all had she said about her family? She never talked like this with anyone she just met. It had to be the wine._ No more wine!_

They stopped talking for a moment to listen to the small band that had begun to play and Andrea found herself sneaking looks from the corner of her eye at him. There was something about this man that she just could not put her finger on. She could not shake the feeling that she had met him before. But surely one would remember a face like his and those eyes. Those strange grey eyes with their unsettling way that they reflect the light.

_No, not reflect, _she thought suddenly, _the light does not come from a reflection but from within! The light is coming from within his eyes as if there were a fire inside! _

Almost as if he had heard her thoughts he turned and looked at her and she found herself unable to move at all, frozen with fear that perhaps she had spoken out loud. _I have had way too much wine, _she thought.

"Would you like to get out of here," he said.

"Yes," she answered.

After Agner paid the tab he returned to the table and Andrea found herself on his arm once more except this time she leaned on him slightly more than earlier. The exited the building and they walked across the street to the park where there was a small art festival. There were street vendors and musicians and lights strung through the trees. They laughed as they walked and Andrea told him stories about how she used to go horseback riding while at home and a love of camping. She casually mentioned that he should come with her some time and when he said he would like that she felt that fluttery feeling in her stomach leap up into her chest, except this time she did not mind it so much.

By the time they finished walking through the park it was late and Agner offered to get a cab to take her home. They rode back in relative silence and Andrea could not help but feel disappointed at how quickly they got to her apartment. She got out of the cab and as Agner asked the cabby to wait for him so he could walk her to the door of her building, she checked her reflection in the mirror. The moment she had been dreading had come.

He walked over to where she stood by the door. _Ok, try not to sound lame,_ she thought.

"I had a really nice time tonight."

_Fail._

"As did I."

_Seriously, who talks like that?_

"Well, um . . . I guess I should go so . . ." and then suddenly without thinking she leaned up on her tiptoes and brushed a quick kiss across his cheek. She moved immediately to make a quick retreat but stopped when he took her hand. She turned and looked back up at him and waited. He stepped forward and leaned in very close but did nothing, his eyes searching hers. He stares so intently that she feels as if she is becoming wrapped up in the strange light from within his eyes and all coherent thought is lost to the wind. She pulls her mind together and smiles nervously and in an almost unconscious move, reaches up and brushes some of the unruly blonde mane out of his face.

"You should really consider getting this cut-" she stopped suddenly, her eyes going wide as he pulled back quickly and turned away, shaking his hair out.

"Yes I should," he said as he walked to the cab. "Good night Andrea," he called out and got in the cab and rode away.

Andrea stood there for a moment as she tried to figure out what happened. After a moment she turned and entered her building. When she got to her apartment she went in to find Kate waiting up for her.

"You're back!" she said brightly. "And you're back alone I see," she added a little less brightly. When Andrea only stood there without responding though, her roommate became concerned.

"Andrea are you ok? Andrea what is it? What happened?!" Kate said as she stood up.

Andrea looked at Kate with the same befuddled expression on her face since Agner left.

"His ears . . . are pointy."


	6. Chapter 6

**~oOo~**

He looked at his reflection in the window and wondered how he could possibly feel anything other than foolish. Mooning over this girl like some love stuck calf. He was making a fool of himself. So obsessed he was with this girl's resemblance to someone who has long since passed. How could he feel anything other than foolish?

He had not been surprised when she had sent him the message. He had known of her interest in him. He could sense it from both women without even having to delve into their thoughts. He had not been surprised when she had answered her phone either. He knew she was there. She had just sent him the text.

But he despised text. It was such an informal and cold way to communicate with another. And he refused to begin any sort of rapport in such a manner, much less any sort of relationship.

Relationship? He startled himself at the thought. Did he really believe that he could begin a relationship with this woman? While she is the exact reflection of Andreth, he must still remind himself that she is not the Andreth. Not his Andreth. No, this was a modern young woman of this age and her name was Andrea and she had her own thoughts and beliefs and a life that had no memory of him.

When he had met her at the coffee shop it was innocent enough. He just wanted to see her once more, out of some morbid curiosity he supposed. Pushed by some masochistic fascination in torturing himself with the past. He had spotted her sitting in the back almost immediately and had been amused at her nervousness. The way she fidgeted with her food and the rapid tapping of her fingers against her cup.

He could read her quite easily without even having to delve into her mind. Not that he would without invitation but her thoughts would come across in waves as was the way with all of her kind. She was infatuated with him, finding him a very attractive oddity almost as she would one of her artifacts. Something to be studied and admired and then safely put away for posterity's sake. He knew the affect he could have on the second born. His kind had always been some beautiful mystery of mythical proportions to them. Only realizing just how petty his people could be until it was too late. Which may be why Men had developed reservations about the eldar at an almost instinctive level. She was no different.

It was all quite charming of course. But she was not Andreth. Simply a young woman with an uncanny resemblance. He had resigned himself to this and was prepared to part until he had made the mistake of extending his hand to her. For it was in that moment, in that briefest most fleeting of moments that he saw it. Or perhaps he felt it, he was not certain. All he knew was that the moment their hands touched something had happened, some spark of recognition that flared inside of her and was gone and he could not help but shaken to the core of his very fëa as he stared into her, attempting to grab at the memory that eluded them both.

After he had agreed to join her for drinks, he could not help the feeling of elation that had come over him.

It was her. It had to be her.

It was not until they would meet again that he began to regret his actions.

He was euphoric that evening. He had arrived early, knowing that she would do the same. He became somewhat hesitant when she asked of his family. Of course she would, how could he think she would not? His answers remained vague and she took there meaning as something else and he was content to let her.

She, on the other hand, spoke freely of her family and the resemblance to Aegnor was intriguing. An older brother and younger sister. Little mention of the mother, primarily raised by the father. A love of education and history, of horses and the outdoors. All could be considered coincidence of course.

He could feel her sneaking looks at him from the corner of her eye and enjoyed her fascination. But he knew that the wine did not affect him as it did her and he thought that perhaps he should tread more carefully from here on.

It was at that moment that her thoughts had come across to him, searing across his conscience like a white hot flame, _the light does not come from a reflection but from within!_

It had startled him so much that he could not help but look over at her. And she stared right back at him, unflinching, unwavering, just as another had done once so many ages ago.

They had left and he began to feel the same intoxication that she had, but for different reasons. Or, maybe not so different, it was become hard to tell. All he could see was the way the corners of her eyes would crinkle when she would laugh, the way one corner of her mouth would curve up more than the other when she smiled, the way her body felt against his arm as she leaned against him. They walked along the park, under the trees with the sound of music and conversation floating along the air and when he looked at her it was hard for Aegnor to know where or when he was.

Perhaps that was why he become so careless. So caught up in whatever romantic illusions he had painted in his head that when her lips gently brushed across his cheek a grasped at her hand, desperately looking to find some hint of recognition within. It was in that moment, that pathetic, sad moment that he let his guard down and she had reached up to push back his hair and saw his ears.

It was the look on her face that had brought it all crashing down, his pretty little fantasy. The look of shock and surprise to see something that this day and age is considered a deformity. He had fled then, running back to the cab, his heart pounding in his chest.

She is not Andreth. A faint whisper of a memory from ages past perhaps, but she was not Andreth. And what if she were? Did he think that somehow this time would be different? That somehow he could still cheat death? It would come to this one as it does all her kind. Their lives are so quick, so fleeting. He will blink and she will be gone. She will grow old, she will fade, she will die. And he will remain to live with the loss. Alone. A fool to believe that somehow he could change her fate.

No she was not Andreth. Andreth was long dead. He left her to save her the pain of their inevitable parting. That was his truth. He was acting a fool.

Aegnor turned from the window only to halt midstep by the sound of his phone.

**~oOo~**

"You aren't taking a break already are you?"

Andrea looked up at the source of the voice and smiled. Her friend Hayley was a tiny little brunette with purple streaks in her hair, tattoos on her arm and built like a brick shit house. There was not an ounce of fat on her. It made Andrea sick. Still, she was a great gym partner.

While Kate was her friend in most of her life's misadventures, Hayley was the one she would talk to for a more balanced approach. It was easy to stereotype Hayley into the wrong category when first meeting her. Going off of her appearance one would never know she was studying social work and criminal justice at Columbia. She was also considered one of the best freestyle fighters. Andrea had seen her drop men twice her size before. They had become friends at the gym and bonded over losing their mothers at a young age. Of course, Hayley's story could be considered more tragic in that her father had died to when she was young and Hayley and her brother had been passed around foster care for the later part of their lives. Her experiences in her youth may explain her choice of careers.

Andrea grinned as she continued to tie her shoes.

"I am just trying to keep you from getting too tired. You're looking kind of out of shape lately."

Hayley smiled and shook her head, dropping her bag down by Andrea before she plopped down herself.

"You are too kind," she retorted as she began to take off her shoes as well.

They would stretch out and then get on the treadmill for some cardio for a bit before Hayley would take Andrea over to the bags to spar. Andrea could only guess that Hayley must love a challenge because she was terrible at this. She hated working out and only came to spend some time away from school and to be with her friend. She had a feeling Hayley knew this though.

As they warmed up they caught up for the week. Hayley had apparently met someone, and she seemed to really like him. This made Andrea happy, and maybe a little bit jealous, for her friend. The other thing that the two of them had in common besides the lack of a maternal presence was their choice in men. Which sucked.

But Hayley seemed happy. She even said she was sleeping better which really did make Andrea jealous. They both suffered from reoccurring nightmares that Andrea had always attributed to the similarities of their losses in life. Hayley's dreams had always sounded more frightening to Andrea, but then she had also been through more when she was a child.

But now her friend seemed truly happy. There was a lightness to her that Kate would probably attribute to being in love or having sex or something along those lines. Whatever it was Andrea hoped that it worked out and that he was not a total tool.

Hayley talking about the new man in her life turned her own thoughts to Agner and the strange turn that night had taken. She had not called him since then, getting the distinct impression from how quickly he had left that perhaps he did not want to see her again. And since he had made no attempt to contact her either, why should she think differently? It could just be because she had touched his ears. Although they were pretty strange . . . actually they were really strange. She had never seen anything like that before in her life.

"Watch your target. You're drifting," Hayley called from where she held the bag for Andrea to lamely attempt to hit.

"Sorry," Andrea answered, "sorry. You know I suck at this. Why do you keep trying to teach me?"

"I like a challenge."

Andrea knew it.

"Seriously though. Where's your head at because it sure ain't here."

"I'm sorry," Andrea sighed as her fist made a sad little swatting noise as it hit the bag. "Just thinking I guess."

"Really? About what?"

"Oh it's nothing really. It's kind of stupid actually. Just a bad date. Well not a completely bad date but a bad enough date that I may or may not have screwed up. I don't even know."

"Oh do tell. It couldn't have been half as bad as your form tonight, trust me."

"You have no idea."

Andrea proceeded to tell her of the evening and the buildup of events that led to it. By the time she had finished they had found a seat on the floor against the wall, sipping on a couple of bottles of water. Hayley listened intently as Andrea spoke, the occasional little sideways smile playing on her lips. Andrea paused once she came towards the part of her story that covered the end of the night. Hayley looked at her expectantly.

"Well?" Hayley asked.

"Well," Andrea replied, "well this is where it gets weird and yet so typical at the same time. We were saying goodnight and he took my hand right? And I thought he was going to kiss me for sure and I was all ready for it you know? I would not have complained at all. But instead he just stands there looking at me."

"Why didn't you just kiss him?" Hayley spoke as if she were stating the obvious.

"Well I actually considered it, and when I reached up to brush some of his hair out of his face that is when I saw it."

"Saw what?" Hayley's eyes were wide with anticipation.

"His ears were pointed."

". . . what?"

"His ears were pointed. And I don't mean that they were big or stuck out or curved in some sort of funny way. I mean there are pointed, like ninety degree angle point. Like, like . . . an elf or something."

"Pointed . . ."

"Yes."

"Like an elf . . ."

"Yes."

Hayley paused for a moment as if to process what Andrea had just told her. "You mean like Tinkerbell or something?"

"Tinkerbell isn't an elf," Andrea replied.

"Sure she is."

"No she isn't, she's a fairy."

"What's the difference?"

"Fairies have wings!"

"And pointy ears . . ."

"No they . . . look can we just focus for a second here please! Please?"

Hayley put her hands up in the air as if in surrender. "Okay, okay, he has pointy ears. So, is that a deal breaker?"

"What?" Andrea said looking confused.

"Is that a deal breaker? You know, something that you just can't get past."

"No . . . I mean," Andrea struggled, "I don't think . . . I guess I . . . I don't know! I mean, you don't think that is a little strange?"

"I dated a guy with webbed toes once," Hayley said with a shrug.

"That is not the same thing," Andreas said incredulously.

"You didn't see his feet," Hayley held her hand out flat on the floor, "like a duck."

Andrea leaned her head back against the wall and looked up at the ceiling. "I don't even know why I try," she sighed.

Hayley studied her for a moment. "You haven't been sleeping much again have you . . ."

"No," Andrea answered, closing her eyes. "It's the same thing again and again. Or at least it was. All of a sudden now, I am seeing his face! I am reaching for him and then there is fire everywhere and what the hell! I am not twelve anymore! This shouldn't be happening, should it? Why him? Why all of a sudden do I see his face there? I don't even know this guy, never seen him before in my life but now it is him I see! It's all stupid and weird and I just want to sleep."

She sighed her frustration. The dreams had always been sporadic. She has had them for as long as she could remember which was around the time that her mother passed away. They had always been the same. There were stars in water and a shadowy figure that Andrea had thought was a prince or something reaching for her and then turning away. And then there was fire and she is running. Running towards the fire and the figure but never getting anywhere. But now her shadowy prince had a face. Every time it was his face. Andrea would wake up almost in tears, gripping the sheets as if her life depended on it.

Hayley watched her intently as she spoke, eyes narrowing minutely.

"Maybe you do know him."

Andrea gave her friend a sideways glance but Hayley was not deterred.

"Maybe you do know him. It could happen you know. It's a big city, perhaps you have seen him before or something. I mean, you both seem to have an interest in history and artifacts. Is it so strange to assume that maybe, just maybe, the two of you were at a showing at the same time and didn't know it. Maybe you saw him in passing and thought he was cute and didn't really think about it again and now your subconscious is playing tricks on you. It could happen."

Andrea looked at her friend skeptically. While she supposed that could happen, he really did not have a face that one would forget.

"I don't know Hayley. If you were to see this guy you would understand why."

"So you like him then."

"What?"

"Do. You. Like. Him."

Andrea paused before speaking.

"I don't even know him," she said somewhat dismally.

"That is not what I asked," Hayley said disapprovingly.

Andrea rolled her eyes and pushed some wayward strands of hair from her face.

"Yeah, I kind of do. Or at least I did. After the ear thing I am not so sure he wants to see me anymore."

"Have you talked to him since?"

"No."

"How long has it been since eargate?"

Andrea gave an amused little snort. "Two days."

"Call him."

"I don't -"

"Just call him. What's the worst that could happen?"

"Um, he doesn't answer or call back or -"

"So he doesn't answer or call back. How different is that from right now. And if he does answer and doesn't want to see you then at least you have a definitive answer right? It is not like you have invested and time in this emotionally or anything. You can still walk away with your head held high and we will make fun of him freely!"

Andrea smiled and shook her head.

"But," Hayley started up again with her little sideways grin, "I think he will answer or call back. And when he does maybe we can plan something, or meet out somewhere and I can let you know what I really think."

"I don't know," said Andrea, "maybe. We'll see."

They got up from the floor and began to gather their belongings to head to the locker room to clean up. As they walked Andrea turned to her friend once more.

"You know, that thing about meeting him before might not be that far off. There was a couple of times when I was talking to him when I got this overwhelming feeling of déjávu, like I had seen him before."

"You probably have," Hayley shrugged, "I mean it could happen. Or," her friend winked mischievously and nudged Andrea with her elbow, "maybe you knew him in another life!"

"Whatever," Andrea laughed. "With my luck he probably left me at the alter."

It was Hayley's turn to roll her eyes.

"You really need to lighten up girl."

* * *

**~oOo~**

_Aegnor watched as his eldest brother gave his final condolences to Lord Boromir. It had been a solemn and yet beautiful affair, fitting of the lady Eirian for she deserved every honor. Aegnor had been fond of her. She was kind and gracious lady and it saddened him to think of her family having to continue on in this world with her no longer in it. How fleeting their lives were. So fragile and delicate. A simple illness after child birth and she was gone._

_He looked over at the children who stood behind Boromir. The infant that was being held in the nursemaid's arms gave soft mewling noises every now and then, while the oldest son and daughter stood silently off to the side. Aegnor and his brothers had offered to escort Boron's eldest daughter to stay at the home of his brother Belemir and his wife, Adanel. Boron feared that his daughter would not learn what a young lady needed to know with her mother now gone. And so he made arrangements for her to stay with the lady Adanel, where she could learn the proper etiquette befitting a lady of her station. The infant girl was to remain with her father till she was old enough to travel, or the elder daughter was old enough to return, whichever came first._

_It mattered little to Aegnor. It was wise to send the child away. In truth, he felt Boromir should send them all away, somewhere safe. Although where that would be Aegnor could not say. But he could not help but feel some displeasure at all of this. These children should not be put through such trying times. He found it irresponsible to bring ones so young into times so violent. There was just too much evil in this land for them to live the lives they deserve. It was not fair to them for they had no choice._

_But then Ingoldo would often say how different the Atani were from them. Aegnor could not agree more._

_Aegnor watched as the young girl said her farewells to her father and brother and made her way to the carriage that would carry her and her nanny. The lord Boromir turned to them once more._

_"My thanks again my lords. I will now know some peace with the knowledge that she is safe in your company. You do me a great honor."_

_"It is an honor escort such a precious cargo Boromir," Finrod replied, "you will have nothing to fear. We will protect her with our lives if need be. You have my word."_

_"May the gods watch over you little one," he called out to the little face that peaked out of the window of the carriage._

_Aegnor looked over at the girl. She must be frightened, he thought. She just lost her mother and now to be sent away from her family so young with strangers must be terrifying. But when he looked over at her, there were no tears, no trembling lips or gasping sobs. The eyes that stared back at him were bright and clear and her tiny chin held steady in the air._

_Aegnor was impressed and amused. She almost seemed to look at him in challenge, daring him to pity her circumstance. He found himself giving her a small approving smile._

_Perhaps she would make a fine lady after all._


	7. Chapter 7

**~oOo~**

"The word religion can find its roots from the Latin religio, meaning 'restraint', or relegere, according to Cicero, meaning 'to repeat, to read again', or, most likely, religionem, to show respect for what is sacred, and is consistently an organized system of beliefs and practices revolving around, or leading to, a transcendent spiritual experience. There is no culture recorded in human history which has not practiced some form of religion. In ancient times, religion is practically indistinguishable from mythology. Concerning itself with the spiritual aspect of the human condition, gods and goddesses, or maybe a single personal god or goddess, the creation of the world, a human being's place in the world, life after death and how to escape from suffering in this world or in the next. Almost every nation has created its own god in its own image and resemblance. This will be the main topic of research for this semester."

Andrea looked out at the sea of semi-conscious faces before her. It was a full class this semester. But then lectures usually did start out full at that the beginning of the year, only to thin out to the devoted few who managed to pass the exams or make it without to many absences. Andrea dimmed the lights and turned on the power point. This would be her first semester lecturing as an adjunct professor at the university. It was what she had been working towards since she had started school and should be excited at her accomplishment.

She should be.

But instead she allowed herself to be . . . preoccupied.

She did not know why she held on to this resentment for as long as she did. It was not as if she had never been blown off before. And she hardly even knew the guy. It was only one date. One date! Meaningless and insignificant in the grand scheme of her life. And while it was never a great feeling when one was brushed off, she had always bounced back, as dry and sardonic as ever. So why was this time so different?

She had tried to call him after that night and even, against her better judgement and usual cynical habits, left a message. What a horrible experience that had been.

"Hey, so um, I was just calling . . . this is Andrea, in case . . . anyway, I just wanted to see how you were. You left in a hurry so . . . Ihadagreattimeandhopetoseeyousoon."

Katherine had stood there shaking her head as the last part came out in a rush and jumble of words. Could she sink any lower?

She had not heard anything of course. Andrea was disappointed in her own disappointment at not being called back. Katherine, ever the optimist said that maybe he was one of those guys who waited three days before they called back, something Andrea detested. She wanted to write him off like so many others but some small, pathetic part of her still held out hope that he was simply preoccupied and unable to call. He did travel, perhaps something had happened and he was called off to some far off destination, unable to contact her before he left . . . or while he was gone because a week went by and she heard nothing. Katherine kept up with the list of various reasons as to why he would not call.

"Maybe he's really sensitive about his ears you know? Like, he didn't want to show you till the second date or something. Maybe he's just really embarrassed."

But then the second week passed and she jumped on the "what an asshole" train and worked on trying to make Andrea feel better. Andrea had simply laughed at the appropriate times, rolled her eyes at the appropriate moments and answered with the appropriate sardonic comments. This was nothing new. She was used to it. He was a pretty boy anyway. He talked like a bad renaissance festival performer. What a loser. She could care less.

But she did care, and it was eating her up. The events of that night played through her mind again and again. The night had seemed so wonderful, they were enjoying themselves. Other than that strange moment at the end when she had discovered his odd genetic trait. But surely that could not be the reason. He had to be used to reactions by now. Unless he really is hyper sensitive about them. Maybe she had offended him somehow. Well so what if she had. That was his problem not hers. The last thing she needed was more issues in her life and decided that she was better off without the pretty blonde who carried around baggage about his ears.

Now if only she could get the dreams to stop.

They had become intense as of late. At times she would find herself in some state of paralysis, unable to move or call out and yet aware. She would stand before some precipice, facing a sky filled with countless stars, railing against the wind and rain that battered her. She screamed till her lungs felt as if they burned, and perhaps they did because a great fire raged before her, engulfing everything, the sky, the stars, and a figure. This was the part that Andrea found most disturbing. In the past the figure had always been unknown, a faceless shadow that she seemed to have both anger and need for. But the figure had a face now, and instead of some shadowy ghost, Agner stood before her. His hair was long and wild and his eyes were filled with the pain of sadness and fear, reflecting the light as he stared at her. She could see what he was wearing now as well. It was as if now that he was given an identity, minor details that had been overlooked came to have more detail. He wore armor and a cloak or cape of some sort and the way he would shine! When she woke up she still had the dark spots in her eyes as if she had stared into the sun.

She would look at him and it was if he were a world away and yet next to her in that strange way that dreams do. Always she was trying to reach him but her movements were sluggish and heavy and the fire continued to roar between them. And then she would finally wake, feeling bitter and alone.

It did not make sense. Was it some sort of displacement due to Andrea's own feelings of bitterness at being rejected? It would make sense, she supposed, if she were bitter. But she was not bitter. And no one was going to tell her otherwise.

Besides, they were just dreams. Just a subconscious memory of her inner most insecurities. Meaningless really. She did not have the time to be bitter anyway. She was teaching now. Well kind of teaching. She was in charge of the lab for the religious theory and discourse. It basically was a way for future grad students to acquire research skills and so on through a series of "guided exercises". It was a lot of busy work really. For many this would be a filler course, something required to fill in credit hours or the like. And Andrea was pretty certain no one else wanted the position.

But there was still a class full of bright eyed college undergrads eager for knowledge. And who would not want to know about religion and the theories behind it? Andrea was not particularly religious herself. But she has always been interested with the study of religious traditions within a historical context. It was fascinating the influence that religion has held throughout the ages and the similarities and conflict that arose from its existence. Unfortunately, she was not so certain that fascination extended to the current class before her. It was not entirely their fault though. She had allowed her mind to wander as well.

She suppressed the urge to sigh and resolved herself to the lecture at hand. It was not fair for the class to suffer because she was distracted. She chided herself for mindlessly talking through her power point presentation and brought the lights back up as she scanned the room.

And froze.

For in the very back row, off to the far side near the exit, sat Agner.

When the hell had he come in here? It must have been during the power point because Andrea would have noticed him. He was kind of hard to miss. Even sitting he was a head taller than those around him and his shaggy blonde hair curling out from beneath the hat he wore indoors seemed to make him all the more conspicuous. And then of course, there were his eyes. Even from here she could see the way they would reflect the light, almost like a cats eyes.

A slight movement and the sound of someone clearing their throat in front of her snapped her back to attention. As she had stood there, her mouth agape, several students had begun to fidget and look at each other curiously. Andrea could hear a few soft snickers from somewhere in the room.

_Dammit,_ she thought, annoyed. What a perfect first day.

"Ah right, sorry. So," she turned and bumped into the table, "shit-," _ARG!_ "- ok, so check your syllabus and schedules. You will be responsible for a series of activities and will meet here once a week for discussion. If you miss, it will only hurt you, not me. That's all for today thank you."

The abruptness of her dismissal seemed to stun the class for only a few moments before they eagerly began to grab at their belongings and head out the door in the back.

She stood there at the front of the room, her arms crossed in front of her chest, leaning against the table and watched him as he walked down through the exiting throng. She began to feel the start of a slow burn inside of her.

She was angry at him of course. She was angry at him because she knew he had blown her off. Not bothering to contact her after she had messaged him at least three times, which for her was equal to about a dozen since she rarely messaged anyone other than family. She was outraged that he had the gall to turn up in her class room on her first day, surprising her with his presence and causing her to look a fool in front of her class. She was infuriated that he had somehow found a way to creep into her subconscious and start hanging around in her dreams, causing a serious lack of sleep for her.

Of course it could be argued that the last two were not entirely his fault and that perhaps Andrea was being somewhat unreasonable, but as far as she was concerned, reason had no place here at this moment in time.

But what she was the most upset about, the most resentful towards, is the fact that she felt excited to see him. Her emotions were trying to betray her now, because she could not help but feel some thrill at his being here. That deep inside she prayed that he had some legitimate reason for not answering her for so long. Sickness, work, death, she did not care, just let it be anything other than not interested. It was those feelings that truly rankled her. And she was furious at him for it.

He finally made it down to where Andrea stood. _Ok_, she thought to herself, _just be cool. You are not in the least bit bothered that he never called you. You could care less about his being here. This is no big deal._

"Can I help you."

_And fail_.

It did not come out as a question at all and Agner simply stood before her in all his golden glory with a small smile.

"I suppose that remains to be seen," he answered almost sheepishly.

Andrea looked him over, tilting her head slightly as she spoke.

"Are you a student here?"

"Pardon?"

"Are you a student? Did you sign up for this class?"

"Well -" he began.

"Because if you aren't you are not supposed to be here. Classes aren't free and you are taking up time that I could be giving to paying students."

It did not matter to Andrea that everyone had left and they were the only two in the room, she was trying to make a point.

"I was -"

"I would hate to think that you took a seat from a registered student who should have been here but could not."

Never mind that the lecture room can accommodate three hundred people and there were seats to spare. Agner considered her for a moment, his smile never faltering as he appraised the situation.

"I see," he finally said, "I have come at a bad time. I will try again later."

Andrea blinked in disbelief as he turned to leave and spoke before she realized.

"Wait, that's it?"

Agner turned partly around and looked at her curiously over his shoulder.

"What do you mean it's a bad time?"

Agner turned to face her, still looking confused.

"Well," he said, "it is just that you do not seem as if you really wish to see me right now so I –"

"Don't wish to see you right now?" Andrea interrupted. "What makes you think that I don't wish to see you right now? I am here talking to you aren't I? Taking time out of my schedule aren't I? All I did was ask if you're a student. That's it. How does that seem like I don't want to see you? Did I do something to make you think that?"

Agner watched Andrea as she spoke. She leaned back against the table, arms crossed protectively across her chest, her hands balled into tight little fists and her head would do some strange little side to side motion, causing her shoulders to hunch sporadically while speaking.

"No," he answered evenly, "of course not."

"Well, then what is it then? You had to come here for something."

"I was hoping to take you to lunch."

It was Andrea's turn to look confused. And she did. She looked at Agner in utter bewilderment.

"You . . . want to take me to lunch . . ."

"Yes."

"To lunch."

"Yes."

Andrea looked down at the floor. This was it she supposed. The moment she had been waiting for. She could tell him to get lost. She could tell him just what to do with his lunch. Or she could just blow him off much as he had done to her. Tell him that she had better things to do. Things that did not involve him. It was quite presumptuous on his part to think that he could just walk in here and ask her lunch and actually think she would accept.

She walked around the table and gathered her belongings placed them in her bag which she then slung over her shoulder. She turned back to Agner with a shrug.

"I have a little bit of time."

She turned and walked towards the door.

Andrea contemplated the man across from her as he ordered. Just coffee for the moment. Andrea ordered a side of fries with a glass of water. She did not plan on staying long.

"Coffee in the middle of the afternoon?"

Agner smiled and shrugged. "A weakness I have acquired I suppose."

Andrea just nodded slightly as she chewed on her bottom lip and flicked at a French fry. She was aware that he stared at her but said nothing. She hated awkward silences but at the moment did not feel the need to fill it. Instead she chose to enhance it by avoiding looking up at him.

"I enjoyed your lecture."

Her tactic was derailed by that simple unexpected statement as she looked up at him in surprise. Andrea gave short self-depreciative laugh. "Oh? Well at least one person did."

"You draw an interesting parallel between myth and religion."

"That is because religion is myth."

"It is based on myth."

"No it is myth and God the personification of it."

"In your opinion of it."

"From my studies of it."

"I take it you do not believe in God?"

"I didn't say that."

"But you said that God is the personification of myth."

"Yes but you are assuming that I define the word myth as a lie or fiction. This is not my definition of myth in this context."

"Then you do believe in God."

"I didn't say that either."

Agner shook his head and laughed. He leaned forward and rested his elbows on the table. "Now you are just talking in circles. In what sense can a myth be true?"

"Were you even listening to my lecture," she cocked an eyebrow at him and gave a little smirk, "it goes back to our habit of looking at myths as historical events of the past. I consider this to be a mistake."

"You do not believe that the foundations of mythology comes from historical events from the past?"

"Not in their entirety," it was Andrea's turn to lean forward against the table, "I don't believe that early civilizations looked at history in the way that we understand the term. It was not linear to them but cyclical, the past is but a prefiguration of the future."

Agner's face became still as he looked at Andrea. "No event is irreversible and no transformation is final," he whispered. Andrea smiled.

"You've read Mircea Eliade,"she grinned. Agner nodded slowly.

"He was not the first to say that you know."

"No? Well he was the first to publish it then."

"I would very much like to hear more."

"There is not enough time between now and my next lecture," she laughed.

"Then perhaps we can make some time?"

Andrea stopped laughing and looked up at Agner. For a moment she thought that perhaps she had stepped back into one of her dreams from the way he looked at her now.

How did you find out about my class?" she asked. Agner leaned back, away from the table and against his chair. Andrea hated the space for coming between them.

"Ah, well you had mentioned before about the adjunct position and so I looked it up. It was not that hard." He held his cell phone up before her.

"Oh, so you know how to use one of those things do you?"

Andrea's tone was light and had a playfully sarcastic tone to it, but the message was clear to Agner.

"Ah yes," he replied somewhat abashedly, "about my lack of response. It was rude of me and I cannot apologize enough. That is the reason why I am here. I did not want to simply call you but preferred to see you in person. To apologize in person. I am sorry."

Andrea leaned back in her chair. That was it? No, I was busy, I was in the hospital, I'm not interested? Just 'I am sorry' and that's it? Andrea waited till the server finished setting down their order before saying anything.

"What were you doing?" she asked as she dumped ketchup on the plate.

"Nothing."

Andrea looked at him in all out disbelief.

"Seriously? Seriously?! That's it?" she pressed her fingers to her temples and shook her head. "I seriously don't know whether I should scream at you, throw a drink at you, or just laugh at you. I mean, are you trying to piss me off? I just can't tell."

"I am trying to be honest with you Andrea,"Agner said as he leaned over the table and casually slid her drink closer to him, "so I hope you will do none of those things. I also hope that you will allow me to make it up to you with dinner tonight at my home."

Andrea continued to stare at him in disbelief, her eyes narrowing as he spoke. After a moment she stood up.

"No," she said as she gathered up her belongings and pulled out her wallet, "I will not be going to your home." She grabbed a wad of cash and counted out her portion of the bill and a tip and slapped it down on the table. She slung her bag over her shoulder and looked down at Agner. "But you can come to mine, say around seven thirty, for dinner. Nothing fancy to don't get your hopes up or anything. Do you remember where I live?"

Anger nodded.

"Good," she said, "then I will see you then."

Agner watched her as she strode out of the café.

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**~oOo~**

"_Were we not just here?" called out Angrod with a chuckle. _

_Aegnor shifted slightly on the back of his horse. They were on their way once more to Ladros to meet with their brother at the house of Lord Boromir. The enemy seemed to have become restless as of late and Finrod had felt as if some threat was moving across the land. Could the days of the long peace be coming to an end? Aegnor would be lying if he said he did not believe it himself. While he did not have the gift of foresight to the extent that his eldest brother did, he did have it, and his heart had felt heavy as of late. _

_Something was coming. He could feel it._

_He shook off the dark thoughts that had plagued him and turned his attention to the task at hand. They were once more at the home of Lord Belemir to escort his niece back to the home of her father. Angrod was right, it did feel as if they had just been here. But upon seeing the lord Belemir, Angrod knew that the passage of time had not been as fleeting. Angrod took notice of the considerable amount of grey in the man's hair and beard from when they had last seen him. The land was harsh on the race of Men. It pained him to see them fade so._

_Angrod watched as the lady Adanel and one of her hand maidens made ready the child's belongings on the wagon. He had tried to take on the responsibility himself and save her the trouble but she had shooed him away with a stern look. He had learned some time ago not to cross her when she was of that mind. He glanced around the yard for the child but when he could not find her he reigned his horse over to where Angrod spoke with Belemir. _

"_Are you sure you do not wish to respite here tonight and leave on the morrow my lords? You have traveled far and still have some distance to go."_

"_No that will not be necessary lord Belemir, but we thank you for your generosity. If the weather permits we will reach the Tarn Aeluin by nightfall to camp and then to Ladros by late morning. Perhaps we can take you up on your offer another time for I am certain we will be traveling through here again."_

"_You are always welcome my lords, always. Although I must warn you that my wife may not be as pleased since you are taking her favorite student with you."_

_Aegnor smiled as Angrod laughed._

"_You may tell your lady that we will look after the child as if she were our own," reassured Aegnor._

"_You may tell the lady yourself my lord," called the lady Adanel as she walked over and stood at the side of her husband. Aegnor had always found her a wise and knowledgeable, if not slightly imposing woman. Her long grey hair hung in a loose braid over her shoulder, and while she was not tall, she had a way of seeming like she was standing over you. He and Angrod would often jest at what the outcome would be if they could ever get her in the same location as Artanis. The battle of wills would be legendary._

"_Then I shall," laughed Aegnor, "her well-being is now my top priority."_

"_We'll see," the lady Adanel countered with her own wry smile, "ah, here she comes."_

_Aegnor turned to see the lady Adanel's hand maiden approaching on a mount and for the briefest of moments was confused. This could not be the girl they were take to Ladros. This was a young woman, still flush with some youth certainly, but a young woman nonetheless. Her long dark hair fell over her shoulders like a curtain as she leaned down to lay a parting kiss to the lord and lady of the house. Had not the child they left been fair haired? This could not be her. _

_But then she straightened in her saddle and her gaze fell on Aegnor, and her eyes, those eyes that seemed to pick up the hues of almost every color and were an endless source of fascination to Aegnor, confirmed her identity. Angrod and Aegnor both inclined their heads in greeting._

"_Lady Andreth," Angrod called, "it is a pleasure to make your acquaintance again." _

"_The pleasure is mine my lords. I hope that my presence will not be a hindrance to your journey."_

"_Not at all my lady," replied Angrod, "to have any company other than that of my brothers is always welcome as far as I am concerned. You are doing me a great favor with your presence."_

_Aegnor gave his brother a flat look._

"_You must forgive my brother, he has a habit of letting his mouth runaway with him when there is an audience in attendance." Aegnor turned back to the young lady before him. "That said, it truly is a pleasure to see you again."_

_Andreth smiled but said nothing as she turned once more to her aunt and uncle._

_After several more rounds of farewells and promises to return, they were on their way. But once they were out of the sight of the manor Andreth suddenly pulled up to a stop. Angrod and Aegnor reigned in next to her concerned, watching her as she moved around in her saddle._

"_Is there something wrong lady Andreth," Angrod asked, his look of concern turning to confusion and wide eyed surprise as she began to hike up her skirts, "are you in need of some . . . assistance?" Angrod's tone was becoming more and more uncertain._

"_No," Andreth answered, "no, not at all. I just – oof –", as she spoke, she unhooked her leg from where she sat and swung it around so as to sit astride her mount instead of sidesaddle. Once she accomplished this, she began to arrange her skirts around her seat. "I just wanted to make myself more comfortable for the ride ahead. I just couldn't do that till we were well out of my aunt's eyesight or she would have hauled me back to my uncle's manor and given me quite the earful." She finished arranging her skirts and looked pleasantly up at Angrod._

"_Alright then, I am ready if you are."_

_The brothers looked at each other for a moment before Angrod barked out a laugh._

"_I have a cousin you would get along famously with," he laughed._

_Yes, thought Aegnor, the little girl has turned into quite the lady._


	8. Chapter 8

**sorry it is taking so long between but got a lot going on. thank you for the kind words and reviews. feel free to keep them coming**

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**~oOo~**

Andrea took a slow deep breath and hoped her nervousness would not be noticed.

It had been a bit of a stressful experience preparing for the evening. She had rushed home from campus at the end of her day, talking to Kate by phone the entire time. Her roommate had readily agreed to be absent all the while telling Andrea how she knew he would call. Andrea was too distracted to argue otherwise. There were a million things going through her head at the moment. She had to get home, figure out what they would eat, prepare it, and then get herself ready.

There was just one giant glaring problem with all of this of course. Under no circumstances whatsoever could she cook . . . at all. She could barely open a pack of ramen, how was she going to cook? Even Kate had given her an incredulous look when she said she was going to make dinner. And three boxes of over cooked spaghetti later, she finally admitted defeat. She called the Thai Market and ordered the Siam duck and tofu spinach soup with a side of vegetables and rice and then prayed it would get delivered in time.

She did not want to seem like she put out to much effort for this evening but found herself blowing out her hair anyway, with Kate's help. Her roommate had been playful and teasing and offered not to return at all tonight if Andrea wanted. She did not plan on him staying the night. In fact she did not plan for either of them to stay in at all. She was hoping she could find a way to get him down to her friend Hayley. Andrea trusted her opinion when it came to people since Hayley seemed not to trust anyone. Of course she had a weakness for a pretty face much like Andrea so there was always the possibility that it would backfire, but she still wanted another opinion.

Kate had laughed when Andrea told her this and shrugged saying that she would come back around midnight just to be safe. As Kate left they confirmed their usual agreement that, should anything go wrong Kate would text periodically to check in on her. If Andrea did not text back, Kate would come to her rescue.

Andrea had waited till Kate had left before she got dressed. The outfits her roommate had set out for her had Andrea rubbing her eyes in frustration. Short skirts and off the shoulder tops that were more fit for . . . well, Andrea did not know what they would be more fit for. She only knew she did not dress like that. She pulled out a pair of fitted jeans and a simple v-neck shirt. If they decided they would go out she could just slip on some flats and a scarf with her coat. It was fall but it was not so cold yet that she would need to bundle up.

Andrea had just finished getting the food out of the delivery containers and onto plates when he had shown up at seven thirty on the dot, bottle of wine in hand. Andrea found herself somewhat perturbed at how handsome he looked. She took his coat and could not help but admire how he filled out the fitted button down shirt and dark jeans that were cuffed over what looked to be some very expensive shoes. She wanted to hate how effortlessly beautiful he was.

Jerk.

They began the dinner with the usual small talk. He complimented her apartment and the meal. She thanked him for the wine and prayed he would not ask her if she made the dinner herself. It was about half way through when the discussion turned back to their topic of conversation at lunch.

"So," Agner began as he picked up a clump of sticky rice and duck with his chop sticks, yet another thing that he could do effortlessly, "I have been thinking of what you said earlier and hoped that you might elaborate, about myth and religion. Tell me in what sense is God the personification of myth?"

"You weren't listening at all were you?" Andrea laughed and shook her head. "It is all so much more than all myth is true as it is that all myth goes back to religion and religion to myth."

Agner smiled as he reached for his wine. "Do go on."

"Well," Andrea set down her chopsticks and reached for her own glass, "all ancient civilizations had their creation myths. The stories in the Old Testament Book of Genesis are a reflection of much older myths that were told in ancient Egypt and Mesopotamia from at least 3000 BC. In fact," she said taking a sip of her drink, "the further back we go the more dominant the creation myth becomes – to an extent that has yet to be fully apprehended by scholars."

Agner leaned back in his seat and swirled his glass as she spoke.

"Behind the creation myth always lies the supreme being, worshipped by the ancients under a variety of names and guises. This great god or goddess – was the creator of all things, and so was the cognate of religion in the sense that He-She bound mankind back to its origins."

Andrea leaned forward as she spoke becoming more intent on her topic.

"Consider the evidence from the world's oldest civilizations like Egypt and Mesopotamia," she continued. "Here, in these creation myths, the great god, or goddess, personifies the formative cosmos or universe and the entire myth of creation and the entire created universe. Here lies the key to the modern concept of God. As the creator, God by definition becomes his creation, sun-god, moon-god, nature-god, river-god, and so on and so on. But He is always much more than his visible manifestations, and he is mysteriously greater than the sum of his parts. His pure essence is said to be the divine soul, or spirit, or intelligence. In this etheric and quintessential form, God was stirred to life, created the universe, filled it, and surrounded it. And so He became immortal, invisible, omniscient, and omnipresent – visible and yet invisible, closer than we can possibly conceive, and yet further away than we can possibly imagine."

"So,"surmised Agner, "God is not a person. Rather, he is a personification. He personifies the 'true' story of the creation of the universe and in this sense, God is the personification of myth."

"Yes!" exclaimed Andrea, grinning triumphantly. "Of course, the ancients worshipped God under many different names and images, since each region or city had its own local traditions but behind this multiplicity there was only ever one God/Goddess, and one creation."

"I imagine that devotees of modern day religions would have something to say on all this," Agner mused, watching Andrea from over his glass. She responded with a dismissive wave.

"God did not appear with the establishment of Judaism, nor with the establishment of Islam," she sniffed, "or even with the earlier cults of Egypt and Mesopotamia. No, as the creator of the universe, God existed from the beginning of time, by definition."

"The principle is straightforward enough," Agner smiled "although I doubt many people will accept this as truth."

"Well yeah, that is the difficult part," agreed Andrea, "there are just so many specific points of disagreement between religions. But if all of these scattered truths between the religions could be bridged in the knowledge of one great truth, one great God. A God who can't be the God of one tribe or the other but the God of all humanity."

"And how would you attempt to bridge this divide?"

"The only way to go forward involves going backwards, into the past. If we can understand how religion evolved over the millennia, then perhaps we can reconcile the modern day differences."

"I admire your devotion to faith."

"Oh, well, I am not sure if I would go that far," Andrea laughed, "I just teach a class is all."

Agner looked at her curiously.

"So, do you believe in God?"

"I was raised Catholic so it only makes sense that every day is a crisis of faith," she said with a laugh, "but the idea of a perfect being, all knowing, all loving, all powerful, well, if that is the case and I am not saying it isn't, but if it is then He has a lot to answer for."

"You do not believe that everything has a cause?"

"It's impossible to go backwards to infinity with causes."

"Therefore there must have been a first cause which was not conditioned by any other cause. Could not that cause be the One?"

"The One?"

"God."

"Oh, well no. If you allow one thing to exist without cause then you contradict your premise."

"You make it sound simple," he said with a wry smile. "The ways of the world or laws of the universe have been framed in such a way that stars form and life can emerge. Nature itself is finely tuned for this. Animals, plants, even planets show clear signs of being designed for specific ends, finely tuned in fact. There must be a designer. Could it not be argued that the odds against this happening by chance are astronomical?"

"You could argue anything when it comes down to it. What you are talking about is some anthropic cosmological principle. And if that is the case then the odds against all possible universes is equally astronomical. Besides that principle merely states that if we are here to observe the universe, then it follows that the universe must permit intelligent life to emerge . . . or something like that."

Agner laughed and shook his head.

"You teach the 'personification of God' but believe the contradiction. My mind spins with the argument."

Andrea smiled and finished her wine as she got up and began to gather the dishes.

"I don't know what I believe," she laughed as she scraped her plate and set in the sink. "I would like to think that I have a personal relationship with God but I have a hard time assuming that everything imagined in mental experiences, like dreams or visions or hallucinations or whatever, actually exists. Not everything is a religious experience, especially the dreams I have been having."

Agner rose from his seat as she spoke and set his plate down by the sink. He looked at her thoughtfully.

"I hope it does not discourage you that I believe in the One . . . in God. I myself believe that there is purpose in all things, divine or otherwise. As for dreams or visions or hallucinations, well, you might be surprised at what one can discern." He took a sip of his wine and leaned against the counter next to her. "What sort of dreams have you been having Andrea?"

Andrea almost dropped the plate in her hand. She had not even realized she had spoken of that. The damn wine! How many glasses has she had? She stumbled over her words.

"What? Dreams? My dreams? I don't know, I mean, they are just dreams that I've had since I was a kid. Nothing to really talk about I suppose. Just dreams."

"I understand if you would prefer not to talk about it . . ."

Andrea glanced at Agner and could see the amusement in his eyes and became more flustered.

"What? It's nothing really, just some dreams I have." she shrugged and set a plate down in the sink. She supposed she could tell him about them, a little bit anyway. As long as she left out the part with him in it. She kept her back to him as she spoke, busying herself with the dishes.

"They are kind of silly really. I am by water or maybe I am in water, or it's my reflection in the water or something and I am surrounded by stars. They are in my hair or they are reflected in the water in my hair, I don't know. And there is a figure, another person who is there, which isn't odd in itself except that he is always there. Ever since I was a kid he has been there. And then there is fire and I wake up," she remarked nonchalantly "Had them for as long as I can remember. I am sure there is some sort of case study in this or something."

Agner spoke softly from behind her.

"This figure, the other person who is there . . . what . . . what does he look like?"

Andrea was glad that she was not facing him at that moment because her eyes went wide as she tried to feign innocence. She had always been a terrible liar.

"Oh, I don't know, just a figure, a faceless, nameless figure. Look, it's nothing really. I've had them since I was a kid. I was thinking, maybe we could – hey are you okay?"

Andrea spun around to face him, desperate to get them off of the topic of her dreams. She was about to suggest they go to her friend's place of work when she stopped mid-sentence. Agner stood at the sink, his fair skin looking even paler than usual and as still as stone. She stepped up to him and grasped his arm, peering up at his face with concern.

_Oh God_, she thought in a panic, _its food poisoning I just know it. I gave him food poisoning._

"Agner? Are you all right?"

Agner blinked and looked down at her. When his eyes met hers Andrea was struck once more at the strange way they captured the light, bright beautiful grey eyes that were filled with light and sadness. A hand that she had not realized that was on her shoulder moved to the side of her face as the other followed suit. Her heart pounded in her chest and she felt her blood flood rush and her face seemed to burn where his hands touched her. Her eyes were locked with his. She could not move even if she wanted to. The light within seemed to hold her fast. They encompassed her, surrounding her and she felt as if he could see straight into her as he pulled her very soul out for inspection. They moved closer and her heart quickened.

_This is it_, she thought, _dear Lord please don't let my breath reek of Thai food._

PING PING PING.

Andrea jumped, startled. _What the f-_

PING PING PING.

She whipped around to find the source and saw –

PING PING PING.

-her phone flashing on the side table.

"Dammit," she spat as she ran over to grab it. "Goddammit, sorry sorry!"

It was Kate of course, texting her to make sure that everything was going alright and that she did not need to be saved. Andrea pounded out a quick text telling her she was fine.

"Sorry, that was, um that is Kate, she uh . . . just a sec . . . yes send! Send! Ugh, stupid phone. It is Kate, was Kate no biggie. She was just . . . just uh sending a text . . . so . . ."

Andrea looked at Agner from across the room. His color had returned and he stood now leaning against the counter watching her, his head tilted slightly. Andrea was torn between wanting to rush over and jump him and wishing the ground would open up and swallow her. They stood there staring at each other for a moment before she spoke.

"Do you want to get out of here? Maybe go somewhere?"

Agner smiled.

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He had drove so they decided to take his car across town instead of a cab. Andrea almost pissed herself when she saw his car.

"You have a Tesla?! You drive a Tesla?!"

Agner grinned as he held the door for her.

"You should really have more concern for the environment Andrea."

"I like to think I do, but I am afraid concern for my wallet comes first."

The bar that her friend worked at was a little craft bar in Hell's kitchen so they took Columbus down to Ninth. It was not much to look at. Just a little hole in the wall called Valhalla but Andrea knew that Hayley would be there tonight and most likely getting off her shift any minute. She figured they would just stop in, grab a couple of beers, let Hayley give him the once over and then leave. They found a place to park a couple of blocks away and when Agner opened the door for her and offered his arm, she smiled when he pulled his arm close to his chest so her hand was snug between them causing her to lean close against him.

She felt giddy and light and if she were not so desperately trying to remain calm she would have skipped. She almost giggled out loud at how ridiculous she was being.

They finally arrived at the bar and Andrea felt herself somewhat reluctantly release his arm as they took a seat. Hayley was finishing up her shift when Andrea waved at her, gesturing at Agner from behind his head when he was not looking. Hayley looked at her dumbfounded for a minute before realizing who he was and her mouth went into a little 'o' as she held up a hand telling Andrea to wait just a moment as she finished up closing out.

Andrea ordered an IPA while Agner ordered a stout, surprising the bartender when he asked for a 12oz glass instead of the usual 10oz usually used for a stout beer. Andrea cocked an eyebrow at him.

"I'm not going to have to drive you home or anything right?"

"I feel confident in assuring you that you will not," he answered with a smile.

Andrea was about to retort that she was not so sure when she saw Hayley walking up.

"Oh, there she is," Andrea hopped up out of her seat and moved to the other side of Agner to greet her friend, "Agner, this is a good friend of mine Hayley. Hayley, this is Agner."

Agner politely rose from his seat and smiled as he extended his hand to Hayley. Hayley for her part had walked up with a grin as she looked at Andrea but when she saw Agner, all traces of her smile were gone and she stood there looking at him, surprise flashing across her face as she froze. Agner's eyebrows rose with curiosity as he stood there with his hand outstretched in the space between them.

"It is a pleasure to meet you," he offered almost as a question.

This seemed to snap Hayley out of whatever had come over her, but she did not smile as she had earlier. Instead she looked at Agner almost warily as she took his hand.

"Yeah," she replied, "pleasure."

She gave Agner's hand a firm shake and released it.

"Andrea can I talk to you for a sec," she turned back to Agner as she began to pull Andrea away. "Would you excuse us for just a moment? Be right back."

Aegnor stood there watching the two women with a perplexed look as they weaved their way through to the back of the bar. _What had just happened_, he wondered. Did he somehow know this woman? If so he did not remember. She was small with short dark hair and tattoos. He would think that he would have some memory of meeting her. She seemed to know him, or had some idea of him anyway. But she most certainly not know just _who_ he was, could she? No, she could not. He must have met this woman somewhere before but where? He was still standing there trying to puzzle it out when he heard a voice from behind him.

"Well, it is most certainly a small world after all."

The hair on the back of Aegnor's neck rose as he stood there stunned. A million images from ages ago raced through his mind, dragging back to another place in time. An impossibility come back to life, an old life come back to haunt him. He turned slowly around to face gray eyes that were identical to his own.

"Aikanáro," the ghost from his past sneered.

Aegnor's eyes narrowed and his hands tightened into fists, knuckles going white.

"Carnistir."


	9. Chapter 9

**something we should all take into consideration when reading this chapter is that by this time Aegnor is one of the oldest living virgins EVER.**

**that is all.**

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**~oOo~**

Aegnor's world spun around him. He felt as if all concept of time was lost and he was no longer certain of his surroundings. The shock from seeing the face that leered before him struck at his core and images of anger, fire, and blood rushed his senses. The intensity of it caused him to take an involuntary step back against the bar. He was amazed and dumbfounded, he was stunned and yet slightly disappointed.

After all this time living through countless ages, after all the ages surviving wars and famine, loneliness and loss, after centuries of wondering and wishing and never discovering any others like him, much less his own kin, he now finds that of all of the beings given the choice that had been offered to him, THIS is the one he comes across.

Carnistir. Morifinwë. His cousin

"Do try to gather your wits about you if you can, you are causing a scene," the ghost before him drawled lazily.

Aegnor blinked and snapped shut his mouth that had been hanging open. He realized that in spite of the countless amount of years that had passed, his dislike for his cousin was still a constant.

He silently sized up the person in front of him. Much like Aegnor, Carnistir had cut his hair although it was still long enough to brush his shoulders, but other than the modern clothing he wore he still looked the same. Black hair, pale skin, ruddy complexion. Even though many had likened Carnistir's looks to his mother, Aegnor had never shared that sentiment. His cousin's expression was indifferent but Aegnor knew this to be a ruse for Carnistir's eyes were sharp and piercing, taking everything in and missing little, just like his father.

Carnistir sat himself in the barstool and gestured for Aegnor to do the same. Aegnor remained standing. If this bothered his cousin at all he showed nothing. His simply leaned back in the chair and laced his long fingers across his chest as his mouth curled into a smug knowing little smile, like some haughty Cheshire cat. Yes, his dislike for his cousin was most certainly still a constant.

"Now let me see, how does that saying go," Carnistir muttered thoughtfully, but then his face suddenly brightened and he grinned widely. "Ah yes! 'Of all the gin joints, in all the towns, of all the world, she walks into mine' ..."

Aegnor still stood there, saying nothing. Carnister sighed.

"Really Aikanáro, if all you are going to do is stand there gawping, then at least take a seat."

The arrogance of his cousin's voice and the irritation at Carnistir's lack of surprise at finding him here snapped Aegnor out of the stupor he had fallen in but disbelief was still the overall emotion. He sat down slowly next to his cousin who sipped nonchalantly from Aegnor's glass.

"Mmm, good stout," he mumbled approvingly and waved to the bartender for another. Aegnor shook his head.

"How ... what ... what are you doing here?"

"Having a drink of course," answered Carnistir with a sideways glance and a smirk.

Aegnor felt the irritation begin to grow in the back of his mind and he concentrated on keeping his calm.

"You know what I mean Carnistir, how did you find me? How long have you known I was here?"

It was now Carnistir's turn to look at Aegnor in disbelief and the look he have him was incredulous, but only for a moment. Almost immediately he started laughing and leaned back in his seat, looking at Aegnor with utter amusement.

"How typical of you to assume that I am here because of you," he said, still chuckling. "Still as vain and presumptuous as ever I see, just like all of your kin."

Aegnor's hackles rose in spite of himself and his eyes narrowed.

"Seeing as you are also kin, I suppose it would only be natural that you are the authority on the subject, especially when it comes to pride."

Aegnor braced himself for his cousin's response as it would no doubt be explosive, but for the second time that night he found himself taken aback with surprise, for instead of the red faced reaction he had expected, Carnistir simply smiled.

"Touché," he replied and held his glass aloft in salute. He drank and set the glass back down, leaning back in his chair once more and gave Aegnor a considering look.

"I am not here for you cousin. In fact, I have been in the city for quite some time with no knowledge of your presence, or your existence for that matter. No, I am here for ... someone else."

Aegnor noticed how Carnistir's eyes moved past him and over his shoulder and turned to see that his cousin's line of sight had landed on where Andrea and her friend stood talking at the end of the bar.

For a moment Aegnor thought he was referring to Andrea and his hackles rose as he prepared to rebuke his cousin, but then something happened. At the exact same moment, almost as if she were aware of his attention, the woman that Andrea was talking to looked up and locked eyes with his cousin. It was then when Aegnor saw it, just a glimpse, a flicker really, completely unnoticeable to human eyes but for Aegnor's glaringly obvious. A flash of light from within. Aegnor's brows came together as his eyes went wide and he spun to look at his cousin's eyes and took note of the light within, seeing it was not alone.

For the third time that evening, Aegnor was shocked to his core.

_He is bound to her._

"Carnistir, what have you done?"

It was Carnistir's gave Aegnor a sideways glance, his own brow arched in challenge.

"Something you would never have the courage to do, or even had the courage to do for that matter." Carnistir turned to face Aegnor fully, leaning in. "What are _you_ doing here Aikanáro? What interest do you have in this place?"

Aegnor sat up straight, pulling back and away from Carnistir in spite of himself.

"That does not concern you," he replied cooly.

Carnistir's eyes darted past Aegnor's shoulder to the two women who now approaching and grinned wickedly.

"It is the mortal girl isn't it? You have a pet, don't you?"

Aegnor was about to put an end to his cousin's leering face when Carnistir suddenly stopped all on his own. His eyes went wide as he looked at Aegnor and his voice became a hushed whisper that only Aegnor's ears could hear.

"You found her didn't you? It is her, the woman from the Tarn Aeluin? You have found her ..."

Aegnor would have simply ignored him at this point. Indeed, he was in the process of reaching into his pocket to fetch his wallet and pay so that he could get Andrea and leave, but something about Carnistir's voice held him still. The intensity of it, the _sincerity_, things that Aegnor in all of his long life, this one or the last, had no memory of his cousin ever possessing. He found himself answering.

"I ... don't know ..." he whispered back.

Carnistir sat back up, cold and imperious once more as he stared at Aegnor.

"You are looking for answers but there is no time, not now ..." Carnistir glanced over Aegnor's shoulder once more and back to him. "Tomorrow, in the morning, you will meet me. Freemans off of 2nd Ave, between Bowery and Chrystie, 8am."

Aegnor opened his mouth to protest but Carnistir was already gone, having moved towards the door. Aegnor turned back around to find Andrea and her friend walking up.

"Sorry about that," her friend Hayley apologized, "girl stuff."

Aegnor had his doubts.

"So Andrea, call me okay and we will try this again when there is more time right? And we can all get to know each other, kay?"

Even though she was looking at Andrea as she spoke, Aegnor knew it was directed towards him.

After the two women hugged, Hayley turned to Aegnor.

"I look forward to it," he said extending his hand. "Till then."

Hayley gave him small sideways smile as she took his hand and shook it. She then walked over to where Carnistir stood waiting by the door, a protective arm wrapping around her. He never looked up at Aegnor as he left but his voice spoke in Aegnor's mind.

_Tomorrow._

Aegnor surpressed a sigh. How typical for him to enter one's thoughts uninvited. He looked over at Andrea.

"Would you like to get out of here?"

Andrea smiled.

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Andrea stepped out of the car and looked up at the red brick building they had pulled up to.

"Where are we?"

"My apartment," he replied as he locked the car and headed for the building door, "I have some pieces I thought you might be interested in. I hope you don't mind."

"Oh, not at all," she said following him into the building. That would be an understatement of course.

They rode the elevator to the top floor and the doors opened directly to the apartment. Andrea's mouth dropped open.

"You have a private elevator?" She had wanted to sound casual but the words came out before she could put for the effort. Agner shrugged.

"There is an upper deck as well on the roof if would like to see it."

"Drinks on the veranda? How lovely," she laughed.

The apartment was quite large, despite his insistence otherwise. The kitchen, dining space and living area were combined into one great room with red brick walls and tall windows that looked out onto the street. The walls were not adorned with much. There were some paintings and masks that looked to be Korean to Andrea. Two large built in shelves framed the fireplace and were full of books. It was a beautiful room and yet something seemed to be missing to Andrea. A hallway branched off the main room and Andrea hesitated in front of it as Agner walked up and handed her a glass of wine.

"Feel free to look around. The items I wanted to show you are in the guest room. I will be there shortly."

Andrea walked down the hall as Agner returned to the kitchen. She noticed there were four doors and two were open. One was to a bathroom that Andrea enviously noted was much larger than her own while the other opened to the bed room.

It was a large room, easily the size of her own little apartment, with red brick walls and more tall windows that lit the room in a cool yellow glow from the street light below. There was not much in the way of furniture. A large, neatly made platform bed was against one wall with a trunk and side table next to it and a tall dresser against the other wall, but other than that there was nothing else. Andrea suddenly realized what it was that was missing. There were no pictures, none. Not a single one. No photos from childhood, no black and whites of grandparents in their youth, or family vacations by the seashore. She found it odd that no pictures of friends and experiences were set in little frames as a testament to the past. Her apartment was covered with photos and mementos from her past and present. Goofy shots of her and her friends, of her family. But then, did he not say that he was no longer close to his family? Having fell out of contact with them years ago and having no relatives in the city? Andrea frowned a little at that. How sad it seemed to her to lose that, to have no one worth holding on too. She glanced at the large bed and her mouth curved upwards into a naughty smile.

_Maybe we can make some, _she thought mischievously as she sipped her wine and turned to walk out of the bedroom only to walk right into Agner standing behind her.

"Eep!" she yelped as she held her glass up and away so as not to spill any on her or her host. She felt her face burning and was never so grateful that the lights were not on.

"Oh my God! I'm sorry, I didn't know you were there. I shouldn't be in here should I? It's just the door was open and so I just, I was just leaving and, I love the red brick! Is this the second room over here?"

Andrea made a hasty retreat towards the hall, only glancing back at Agner who followed silently, smiling.

_Good thing he can't read my mind, _she thought as she walked across the hall and waited.

Agner walked up from behind her and opened the door, entering the room and turning on the light. Andrea let out a little gasp as he did.

The room was full of display cases that were in turn full of artifacts. She moved to the nearest case.

"Is this Kybele?"

"Yes, from Catalhoyuk, Turkey."

"And these, are they Bronze Age?"

"From the southern tip of the Shetland Islands, and this," he continued pointing to another case, "was found near the Stones of Stenness I believe. Over here are –"

"Mayan and Olmec. Do you have any idea how old these are? Some of these pieces could date back to 3000 BC."

"I had some knowledge of this."

"Oh really," she said somewhat incredulously, as something caught her sight in the corner. "Is that –"

"A statue from the Qin Dynasty, from Emperor Qin Shi Huang."

"You have a terra-cotta warrior from the tomb of Qin Shi Huang? How on earth did you get a statue from the tomb of Qin Shi Huang?"

"I never said I got it from the tomb. It was a gift."

"Oh, so it's an imitation."

"… yes … yes it is."

"Well then that makes sense because there is no way you would get a real one out of China."

"Of course not."

Andrea moved over to the next case.

"These are strange," she commented, leaning in, "What are these, these markings? I feel like ..."

The case in front of her held several swords and blades and what appeared to be a faded map of territories that were not known to her. At least not entirely because there was something . . . familiar about them. Something about the faint writing that marked the map and adorned several of the weapons in the case. The way the letters swooped and swirled in graceful arches, something tugged at her subconscious. Agner spoke from behind her.

"Have you seen them before perhaps?"

Some memory flitted around, just out of her grasp.

"I … think, maybe … I …" she struggled, reaching in her mind. Something from when she was a child maybe? With her father? Or maybe her mother? It seemed as if, she should know, that she had to know. As she looked in at the case her eyes rested on a dried wreath of flowers so old that it looked as if it would crumble if touched.

"You know," she said distractedly, still desperately grasping the memory that danced just out of reach in the back of her mind, "women used to wear wreaths like this in their hair, during festivals or blessings. It would single them out as wise women of their tribes. Although, I think the story goes deeper than that …"

"And what would that story be Andrea?" Agner whispered.

"I …" Andrea stuttered, her head felt heavy and for a moment it seemed as if the world around her shifted and moved, whirling about her like the strange engravings on the swords. She was here with Agner and yet she was not _here_. Everything about this seemed so familiar but was also so strange.

Andrea squeezed her eyes shut and tried to focus. _What is wrong with you_, she hissed at herself, _get it together! _She must have more to drink than she thought, the combination of beer and wine going to her head. She set down her glass on the case and turned around to find Agner staring at her intently. _Great, now he thinks you're crazy too. _She waved off his concern.

"I'm sorry, I'm fine, really. Maybe you could show me that deck on your roof now."

"Yes," agreed Agner, "I think the air would do us both good."

He set down his own glass and took Andrea by the hand and led her out into the hall. When he took her hand Andrea thought she may get dizzy all over again simply from the thrill of his touch and when they entered his bedroom, she thought she may fall out right there. But once in the room he let go of her hand, and the weight of the emptiness brought her back down to earth. He walked over to one of the windows and opened it and the sounds of the city below came rushing in. He climbed out onto the fire escape and waited, peeking back in to see if she followed and reaching out for her to take his hand when he saw she had not.

Andrea walked up to the window and took his hand, climbing out after him. They made their way up the iron stair case to the roof where a small wooden deck with two chairs was covered by a wooden trellis with plants vining all over it. It was a beautiful view of the city and Andrea said as much.

"Thank you," he replied, "I come here often in the evenings. My favorite place I suppose."

Andrea stood out at the edge of the deck, looking at city skyline, her arms wrapped around herself for warmth. While it had been reasonably warm down on the streets, the breeze on the roof was far cooler and Andrea had left her jacket in the apartment. The cold did not seem to effect Agner at all however, and she resolved to tough it out if he could, but still she shivered.

"You are cold," he observed and walked over to where she stood, wrapping his arms around her. They stood like this for several minutes, her head resting against his chest, his chin resting atop her head. Andrea was content to stand there, wrapped in that silent embrace forever. It was Agner who broke their repose when he released her. Andrea looked up at him to see him staring down at her in such a way that she felt her heart catch and she thought that perhaps this was it, finally he would kiss her. But then he turned away.

"Come," he said softly, "you are cold and it is getting late. I will take you home."

Agner stepped down from the deck and walked over to the fire escape, leaving Andrea alone and confused . . . and slightly annoyed. She walked swiftly over the escape and moving in front of Agner began her descent first. She swiftly made it to the bedroom window and climbed in before he could offer any assistance. Once inside she made quickly and rather angrily for the door when she stopped. Agner was only halfway inside, one leg in the room and the other still on the balcony when she spun around.

"Did I do something?"

Agner froze in the window.

"Excuse me?"

"Did I do something, you know, wrong?" she snapped again. "Did I say something shouldn't have or not say something should have or do something repulsive that you just can't get past?"

"I am not sure I know what you mean …" he said warily.

"Because this hot and cold crap is getting kind of old you know? One minute I think you like me and the next you act like you can't get away fast enough. I mean, is it me? Am I not being clear? Because I like you. A lot. And would kind of like to see where this is going or if it could go anywhere but I have no idea if you are interested. Is it the ear thing? Because if so I am sorry. I had no idea and I don't even care! I like you Agner and I just want to know if you like me."

As Andrea spoke Agner had stood quietly surprised, only moving when she spoke of his ears and his hand had involuntarily reached up to the side of his face. Once she had finished he stepped completely inside the room, his eyes cast downwards as he shook his head.

"No, it is not the 'ear thing', nor is it you. Quite the contrary even for I like you very much. Perhaps too much."

"Well what is it then?" she asked moving closer as he seemed to struggle for words. "Well?" she said again.

"I –" he stammered.

"Well?!"

"I just don't want you to get hurt," he exclaimed, looking surprised at his own words.

Andrea looked at him skeptically.

"You don't want me to get hurt. Why? Are you going to hurt me? You aren't going to take into some weird red room and give me some cheesy line about how you have particular tastes are you?"

Agner looked at her in utter confusion.

"I have no idea what you are talking about," muttered hopelessly.

Andrea considered him for a moment before she walked to where he stood and took his hands in hers.

"You let me worry about me getting hurt okay? I am big girl and can handle it. Okay?"

When he did not respond she took his face in her hands, forcing him to look at her. Agner said nothing for what felt like forever but Andrea refused to lose herself in the strangeness of those eyes, she met his stare unflinching, only breaking her gaze to take him by the hand and lead him out of the room.

"Come on tough guy, let's go. Like you said, it's getting late."

They rode back to her apartment in silence. Agner keeping his attention on the road as Andrea looked out the passenger window. This is not at all how she wanted this night to end. He likes her. He told her as much. But he pushes her away because he is afraid she will be hurt? What could he possibly do to her hurt other than what he is doing now? Maybe he has been hurt in the past. Some relationship that ended badly with him getting dumped or left at the alter. Well that was in the past and she was not that girl and it was time he realized this.

Agner walked Andrea into her apartment building and to her door to say good night. Andrea placed the key in the door and then turned around to face him.

"I really had a wonderful time tonight," she said.

"As did I."

"Will I see you again?"

"I would like that very much," he answered.

"Good," Andrea smiled, "so, you'll call me I guess?"

"I promise. Goodnight Andrea," he said and turned to leave.

"Agner?"

Agner stopped and turned to face her but before he could realize what was happening, Andrea was on him. She stood on tiptoes, her body against his as she kissed him. It was a hesitant kiss at first, but when he did not pull away, she became more bold. She reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck as mouths parted and tongues explored. It was not till she felt his hands on the small of her back, pulling her harder against him, did she gently pull away. Andrea stepped back, breathless.

"Well, goodnight," she chirped brightly and went swiftly inside her apartment, leaving Agner leaning against the wall she had pushed him up against, eyes wide.


	10. Chapter 10

**this is a long one. i hope it doesn't bore. the idea of the story about the wreath of flowers comes from a fanfic i had read once. where i read it i can't remember but i loved it and adopted it as canon. i hope you like it. reviews welcome.**

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**~oOo~**

_Aegnor scratched Mithroch under the chin and gave him a piece of the fruit in his hand. _

"_Mará seldo," he cooed as the grey stallion huffed and searched for more treats. "Mará."_

_Aegnor gave his mount one more pat and a scratch between the ears before he turned back towards camp. They had made good time on the return to Ladros and if it had just been he and his brother they would have more than likely continued on if not already have arrived. But it was not just he and his brother and so they made the decision to stop at dusk, just north of the Tarn Aeluin, and resume in the morn. _

_Aegnor passed the small shelter they had erected for their companion. It was not much but it would afford her some form of privacy. Aegnor and his brother would lay in the open under the stars, as was their way. Angrod had already made a small pallet from a blanket and a riding cloak to lay upon and was leaning back against his saddle as he rummaged through his pack for a piece of dried meat and some bread. Aegnor had noticed that the tent seemed empty and glanced around for the third of their party. He found her a short distance away walking in the tall grass. Every so often she would stop and stoop down to inspect something before continuing on. She had remained silent throughout most of their travel and Aegnor wondered if she were perhaps somewhat forlorn at leaving her aunt. _

"_She is a quiet one," Angrod remarked when he saw where his brother's attention was. _

"_I imagine leaving one's home after some many years could give one many things to think about," Aegnor responded._

"_Hmm, I suppose, or perhaps she is just shy," his brother mused, "still, we should not allow her to wander too far and we should also see if she needs to eat …"_

_Aegnor looked at his brother and noticed how he made no move to get up._

"_And by 'we' you mean me I take it?"_

"_Oh, well, you _are_ already up," Angrod blinked innocently, "and I was going to look for some wine in the packs so …"_

"_Lazy little orc.__" Aegnor snapped playfully as he tossed left over piece of fruit he had in his hands at his brother and then turning to beat a hasty retreat. _

"_Orc__?! Fa!" his brother called, angrily picking out the small chunks of food from his hair. _

_Aegnor looked around and found the sitting girl a few feet from the line of trees that would open to a trail that he knew would lead to Tarn Aeluin. She was busy with something in her hands and Aegnor hesitated to disturb her. _

_Aegnor was fascinated with how much she had changed from when he had last laid eyes on her. While she was still small it was easy to see that womanhood was upon her, her body filling out to form all of the soft curves and lines that his brother and cousins had always been so keen on observing when they were younger. Her hair was dark and hung long and lose and well past her waist. She was practically sitting in it and Aegnor was of a mind to sweep it up, finding it a crime that something so lovely should be allowed to lie in the dirt to become tangled with leaves and twigs. He thought it created a pleasant contrast against the fairness of her skin._

_Aegnor frowned. What kind of buffoon stands in the shadows of the oncoming dark staring at the fairness of a young woman's skin? He was suddenly very grateful that Angrod was not with him at the moment. With a small shake of his head he chided himself for his lack of focus and softly cleared his throat._

_The dark head before him turned to reveal two bright eyes and Aegnor found himself distracted once again. Her eyes had always been a source of fascination to him. One could have considered them blue or grey, but not some unremarkable grey like a piece of rock or stone. They were the grey of the last ashes of a fire or the grey of the ocean the instant before the dawn touches the water, hinting at little flecks of light within that resemble burnt umber and pale green. It seemed as if they pulled at him. Given the chance, he was not sure if he could ever tire of looking at them._

_But that would remain to be seen for they were quickly cast down and hidden by dark lashes as the young lady pulled herself up from the ground._

"_My lord," she greeted politely with a deep curtsy._

"_My lady," he responded with a small bow and amused smile. Such propriety. "Forgive me my lady, I do not mean to disturb you. I just wanted to see if you were in need of anything? Something to eat perhaps?"_

"_No my lord," she said, eyes still downcast, "I thank you for your concern but it is not necessary. I am well." She curtsied once more and then turned and sat back down upon the ground._

_Aegnor hesitated a moment, wondering if he should request that she move somewhere closer to the encampment when he became curious about what was in her hands._

"_May I ask what you are making?"_

"_Oh," she glanced up surprised and quickly looked down again, "it is nothing really my lord, just a childhood fancy. Something to remind me of … well, just something to remind me."_

_One did not require the keen hearing of the elder to hear the tinge of sadness in her voice. Even though she was returning to the place of her birth, it was not her home. _

_Aegnor stepped around and knelt down in front of her and watched nimble fingers delicately weave an assortment of flowers in to what appeared to be a wreath. _

"_That is lovely. Did your aunt show you how to make it?"_

"_Yes my lord," she said without looking up, "although it is something that is not made till festival and is worn by the wise women of our people. It is a tradition really. You see the flowers are not selected simply be random, there is a reason these specific flowers are chosen. There is purpose that goes back –"_

_She stopped suddenly and looked up at Aegnor, as if surprised by her own outburst, and then looked down once more._

"_Forgive me," she laughed softly and shook her head, "I forget myself sometimes."_

"_No, please, continue. I would like to hear."_

"_Truly, you do not have to –"_

"_My lady, please," he sat completely upon the ground, his legs crisscrossed beneath him, "I would very much like to hear."_

_She looked up at him and he felt that strange tug once more. No, her eyes were not merely blue or grey, they were a sea. And one day, some poor unfortunate boy would drown in their depths. Aegnor pitied whoever the fortunate young man would be._

_She considered him for only a moment before she looked back down and resumed her work._

"_Very well my lord. Every year my people celebrate the coming of spring with a festival. It signifies the coming of summer and rebirth and every festival the wise women of all of the neighboring clans will come together and bless the unions of all couples who seek it. It is also during this festival, one wise woman is selected and crowned to be the voice for all women in council and will carry this tradition on throughout the year till the next year's festival. It is a great honor to be chosen of course and after the selection everyone will continue to celebrate till the feast and then return to their homes."_

"_Yes," said Aegnor, "I know of this festival. Your people have observed this for many years. I regret that I have not attended one although Finrod wishes us to go."_

"_And you would be welcome," she said with a smile as she selected another flower and began to deftly weave it in with the others. "But what many do not know is that the festival is not meant to commemorate rebirth but to memorialize death."_

_Aegnor looked up from her hands to her face but Andreth's focus remained on her work. _

"_You see, long ago, long before your people came here, long before even light had come to the land, the Enemy was here. Men, women and children were snatched up in the dark and tribes were attacked and their seemed to be no reprieve from the darkness. Till one day, beasts came down from the mountain that claimed to speak for the great lords that lived there and promised wealth and protection to those would pay honor to them. And the tribes agreed because the race of Man was young then and easily fooled. And so each year they would come down from the mountains to take their … offering. The price to be paid for their protection was that each village would select a daughter as a bride. In the beginning it was considered a great honor because only the most beautiful maidens were chosen to go. And so a festival was held and a maid chosen, adorned in white and with a crown of flowers and carried off with great fanfare, only to be never seen nor heard from again._

_It was only a matter of time for some of the more wise to open their eyes in the dark and see and many villages began to refuse to give a maiden to their lords. Fathers and mothers began hiding their daughters but to no avail. A deal had been struck and if the dark lords did not receive their due then entire villages paid the price. _

_It was the women of the villages came together and devised their own plan, they found a way to refuse. They could not give the girl a weapon for it would be found and the village and everyone in it burned. It had to be subtle, something that would not be noticed. The festivals would still be held and a maiden chosen and crowned with flowers," she held up the wreath between them as she spoke, pointing out the various blooms. _

"_Morning glory, Nightshade, Oleander, Blood root, Fox glove, Belladonna. All beautiful. All poisonous. The maiden would then climb upon her horse or carriage and during her travel to the mountains, she would eat bits and pieces. By the time she would reach her destination, the crown had done its work and denied the beasts of their prize."_

_Aegnor looked at her as she admired her work._

"_I did not know that the source of your festival was from such dark times. I have never heard this before."_

_Andreth laughed as she set the wreath back onto her lap and selected another flower._

"_No I suppose you would not, for the men do not talk of it. It is the women who mark and remember such things, tales that are told down from one generation to the next, acknowledging their sacrifice."_

"_Grim tales."_

"_But not forever," she reassured as she wove. "Eventually the light came into the land and the Enemy was thrust into the shadows. It was so once and will be again. Evil things cannot tolerate the light."_

"_You are young to be so wise," Aegnor smiled._

"_I am not sure if I would call it wisdom as much as hope, although a small hope."_

_Aegnor watched her work for a moment before speaking._

"_My lady, I apologize but I feel that we should back closer to the camp …"_

"_No, no, I understand," she sighed as she looked to the horizon, "it will be dark soon. Pity. I was hoping to see the Aeluin."_

"_Oh? You wish to see it?" he asked as he offered is hand and helped her up._

"_Oh yes," she said, "very much. I have been told and read so much about it. It is said to be hallowed ground and the waters a pure blue and clear as glass but can reflect like mirrors."_

_Aegnor smiled at her eagerness but could not help but notice that she still kept her eyes downcast as she spoke. He wondered what had happened to the bold little girl who met his stare unflinching._

"_Perhaps I could take you, but not now. We must return or my brother will fret like the iaurbinn he is."_

"_Is he very old?"_

_Aegnor blinked and looked over at her as they walked._

"_You speak Sindarin?"_

"_Of course. It would be foolish not to. How else is one to learn of others?"_

_Aegnor smiled and spoke in Sindarin._

"_And what would you wish to learn of us?"_

"_Much my lord," she answered fluently, "too much for you to be bothered with."_

_Aegnor laughed and shook his head._

"_Ask," he said, "it is no bother. Please."_

"_Well," she paused for a moment as she glanced hesitantly up at him, "your people were awoken yes? How were they awoken? And by whom? Was it your god? And do you even have a god? And how did your grandfather become king? There are several different races of the elder yes? Do each have a king? And does one king supersede the other? And how is that decided? And how do your people keep record of your history? Is it done orally or do you have scribes? And it is possible to see these records of so? Also –"_

_Aegnor's eyes never left her face as she spoke._

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**~oOo~**

The roar of a motorcycle engine pulled Aegnor from his thoughts. He looked up from the coffee he had been absently stirring to see his cousin park in front of the café where he waited.

_How typical_, he thought caustically, _how cliché_.

Aegnor silently chided himself for being so acerbic. After all, Carnistir was here to help him, was he not? Of course, given the nature of his cousin that could be up for debate. Still, it could be argued that there was a hint of a smirk when Carnistir walked in. Clad in a leather jacket with a white t-shirt beneath, jeans and work boots that were loose and unlaced, he was the picture of disinterested anarchy.

He sat down across from Aegnor and smiled as he leaned back in his chair. The waiter came forward with an expresso ready and Carnistir thanked him as he dropped a large bill and told him to keep the change. Subtlety was never one of his strong points.

"So you have found her eh? Your little mortal girl? That is her is it not?"

Aegnor's eyes widened in spite of himself. Carnistir spoke in Quenya. Some things never change. Aegnor took a deep breath, focused on calm, and answered in Quenya right back.

"Why yes Carnistir, it is a surprise to see you as well, after all this time. I had no idea you had left the Halls either. The Valar be praised you are alive and well and that we were so fortunate to find each other."

"Oh please," Carnistir sniffed, "do not go into the long lost cousin routine. We have never liked each other and there is no reason to pretend that we do now. As for praising the Valar, well, let us just avoid that topic shall we? My hypocrisy only goes so far."

"Your hypocrisy only goes so far? It knows no limits!" Aegnor snapped. "Much like you. You bonded with her? This mortal girl? Did you tell her Carnistir? Does she truly know what you have done?"

"Do not dare sit there and try to pass judgment on me lest you turn that self-righteousness on yourself. My choices are exactly that, mine! Much like how your lack of choice is yours."

"Oh yes, and you have made some many wise choices in the past that to question this would be ludicrous!"

"Enough!" Carnistir hissed, slamming his hand down on the table causing the few patrons within to glance their way. Aegnor however never moved. Carnistir took a deep breath and regained some semblance of control.

"I did not come here to tear open old wounds. Whether you wish to believe me or not, I can help. I leave it to you."

Aegnor's eyes narrowed as he scrutinized his cousin. The Carnistir he knew would have thrown the table across the room in a rage shouting. Aegnor had prepared himself for that. He had expected that. But he did not expect this. Instead of the reactions that Aegnor remembered so vividly, Carnistir had calmed himself, dropping his voice and speaking with what seemed to be sincerity.

Aegnor had been so prepared to believe that his cousin had not changed at all that it never occurred to him that, after all the ages, perhaps Carnistir had and instead it was he who had not changed.

It was a disconcerting thought.

"You should not have entered my mind uninvited last night," he said. He cringed internally at his petulance.

If Carnistir noticed he gave no sign.

"Forgive me. That was wrong. Now, I will ask again. Is it her?"

"I do not know. I cannot say for certain."

"But you believe there is a chance."

"Perhaps. But it could just be a child's dream, or a fool holding on to the past."

Carnistir smirked at the obvious connotation and the obscure apology.

"Well, never let it be said that I would not agree with you being a fool," Carnistir said dryly, "but as for the dreams, even a child's dream could be significant. Does she have them?"

"What?"

"Dreams, does she have any. Does she talk in her sleep? Speak of strange memories or recollections of things she could not know."

"I do not know what she says in her sleep."

Carnistir rolled his eyes.

"I take it from your tone that you have not been intimate in any way then. Really Aegnor, am I going to have to sit down with you and have 'the talk'? What about dreams? Has she said anything about that?"

"She has made mention of a dream yes," he responded, ignoring Carnistir's dig. "But it was vague."

"But still a memory …"

"Yes," he said reluctantly, "I believe it is. She said that she has had them since she was a child and … I was in them."

"She told you this?"

"Not exactly …"

"Then how do you know?"

Aegnor grimaced, his mouth becoming a thin tight line. He did not wish to admit how he knew.

"I … saw it," he admitted with a resigned sigh, "in her mind."

Carnistir blinked in genuine surprise, staring at Aegnor for only a moment before he barked out a laugh.

"Why Aegnor," he exclaimed with mock indignation, "you entered her mind uninvited?!"

Aegnor could feel his face start to burn with embarrassment. He supposed he deserved it.

"I did no such thing," he huffed. "Her thoughts are strong at times. They come through sporadically at times."

Like when he walked in on her in his bedroom and she thought … well … now was not the time to think about what she had thought.

Carnistir brought his laughter down to a low chuckle as he wiped at his eyes. Aegnor thought he was being a little over dramatic.

"Ah, I see. And ah, what did you … see?"

Aegnor pursed his lips in disapproval at what Carnistir was trying to imply. He would not be bated.

"She dreamed of our time at Tarn Aeluin … and of my death."

Carnistir had stopped laughing now and looked at Aegnor in all seriousness.

"What else?"

"She will say things, things that, in passing, casually. Things that Andreth had said before to me. Snippets of conversations. At first I thought it was simply a coincidence, that this was just a girl who resembled someone from long ago. But they began to happen so frequently. I thought perhaps I was simply projecting something on her that I wished with all of my heart. But when she spoke of the dreams, dreams she had had since childhood, and when she saw the artifacts, a collection of items I had collected that dated back to the first age, she recognized them! She knew what they were! She did not say as much out loud but she knew. I am certain of it. Or at least I think that I am for I do not know how much of this is real or just my desperation at wanting her to be who I want her to be. Andreth is gone. Dead. Her spirit passed on to where ever it is that spirits of Man go. It cannot be her! And yet …"

Aegnor collapsed against the back of his chair. He felt drained from the emotions of his confession. It was a weight that should have been lifted and yet for some reason now felt even heavier than before. Carnsitir leaned back in his chair as well, studying Aegnor.

"Curious that the link is so strong considering you never bound yourself to her, to Andreth. Especially after all this time. Your love for her and hers for you must have been strong indeed. I wonder how many times you have crossed the other's path without knowing."

"What are you talking about?"

Carnistir looked at Aegnor as if he were an idiot.

"You have heard of reincarnation, yes?"

"Reincarnation?"

"Metempsychosis, transmigration, past lives, reincarnation," Carnistir said impatiently, "it is a quite common theme in many religions. Do I really have to give you a lesson?"

"I know what reincarnation is," Aegnor said through gritted teeth, "what does it have to do with me."

"It has nothing to do with you, well, not entirely anyway, but it has everything to do with her." Carnistir leaned forward. "She is your Andreth and yet not. She is a modern woman of this century of course, born in this century, growing and maturing in this century. But within her, deep inside her very being, her very core, lies the memories, life and soul of your Andreth."

"You are saying that within Andrea are Andreth's memories," Aegnor said skeptically. "That she can remember things that happened ages ago, but not to her."

"No you git … well, maybe. She is sort of a …vessel if you will. She is Andreth and yet she is also …what did you call her?"

"Andrea."

"Yes Andrea. Ha! Even the names are similar. There are many different theories on the matter of course. Philosophical and religious beliefs regarding the existence or non-existence of an unchanging 'self' have a direct bearing on how reincarnation is viewed within a given tradition. Some holding that there was no existence and that the self is annihilated upon death. Others believed in a form of cyclic existence, where a being is born, lives, dies and then is reborn, but in the context of a type of determinism or fatalism in which karma played no role. Some postulate an eternally existent self or soul that survives death and reincarnates as another living being, based on karmic inheritance.

But the Buddhist concept of reincarnation differs from others in that there is no eternal soul, spirit or self but only a stream of consciousness that links life with life. Literally becoming again, or rebirth or re-becoming. A fixed entity that is reborn."

As Carnistir spoke, his voice became more and more pitched and his eyes locked on to Aegnor and burned with intensity. Aegnor shook his head.

"You speak of myth and fantasy Carnistir."

"Not all Men's souls are relegated to one life and one death. It is not so difficult to believe that a creative and powerful spirit who was inhibited in certain endeavors in her earthly life would find a way to express that creativity several ages later, in another body. It has been done, and done often."

"You know this to be true? You have proof?"

"Of course I do," Carnistir said imperiously, "I live it, have lived it for ages now."

Carnistir sat back in his chair and sipped at his drink, eyes watching Aegnor over the rim of his cup. Aegnor waited patiently, refusing to be baited by his cousin's theatrics. But then Carnistir surprised Aegnor yet again by looking away suddenly, going inward to some memory and when he spoke, his voice taking on a gentle whimsical quality that went against everything Aegnor knew of Carnistir's character.

"You were already gone when I met her. I forget that, that you were gone. So many gone, they tend to run together and I cannot differentiate anymore. So much death. It was what I expected to find, when word came to me at Himlad. Word that orcs and Enemy filth dared tread foot in Thargelion, attacking the small tribes of Men that populated the lands around the rivers. I had never given them much thought, they were only squatters really, at least as far as I was concerned. Unimportant in the grand scheme of things. I was so wrong."

Carnistir chuckled and shook his head at the memory before turning his gaze once more to Aegnor.

"I had gone there fully expecting to find every life from that little band of trespassers taken. I fully expected to find nothing but death. But when I got there, when I finally got there, I did not find the ground littered with the bodies of slain men and feasting orcs. Instead I found a tribe of warriors braced for a doomed last stand, prepared to fight to their last breath. Valiant and unafraid and lead by a fierce warrior queen."

Aegnor noticed how the light in Carnistir's eyes seem to brighten as he spoke.

"She stood on the ramparts covered in the blood and gore of her enemies and surrounded by fire. She stood fearless above the fray and shouted her defiance to the wind. She was bold and fearless, terrifying and powerful. She was beautiful. She was also infuriatingly stubborn and strong-willed, refusing to bend in any way other than that which she wanted to go. Pig headed woman. I believe I fell in love with her the moment I saw her."

"And so you bound yourself to her."

"I gave myself willing, readily to her and she to me. I have no regrets save one. Had I not done what I had done then I would not have been able to find her again. At least not as easily."

Aegnor had been about to ask him what his one regret was when what Carnistir had said after caught his attention.

"What do you mean find her again?"

"Hayley, the woman you saw last night. She is Haleth reborn."

The look on Aegnor's face must have been quite the show for Carnistir threw his head back and laughed at his cousin once again.

"By the void your face!" he laughed. "It does not take much does it?"

"How do you know this? How do you know this is true?"

"Because we are bound you git! We share a bond that cannot be sundered, not even in death. She has been reborn several times since my return. As a queen, a warrior, a spy, freedom fighter, or a soldier. Always she is reborn and always I find her. She pulls at me, consumes me, we are drawn to each other with the need to fill the space the other has left. And when one has found the other it is as if the world has finally come on line and life has fallen in place. Of course, that has not always been the case," Carnistir smiled, "she almost had me beheaded once."

"So that is it. You just show up and she remembers."

"Don't be so daft. Of course it is not that easy. These things do require some finesse."

"But how can you be so sure?"

"I suppose it is easier for me that it would be for you. The bond between Haleth and I never fails."

"But I am not bound to Andreth."

"No you were not. But your love must have been true, strong enough to pull at the two of you to bring you together perhaps. It is not just a coincidence that you found this girl, out of millions of girls, this girl who looks just like your Andreth. Has the same memories as your Andreth. Who dreams about you as Andreth. Why do you still resist? You have found her Aikanáro! Why do you deny it?"

"I do not know what I have found!" Aegnor shouted in frustration and then collapsed back into his seat. "I do not know." The hopelessness in his voice sounded bitter to his ears.

"It is hard at first, I know. The pain of memory and sorrow of the past is difficult to navigate. But this is no random act. There is a reason why you have finally found each other. Who knows how many times you have passed each other in the night. Do not let this chance slip through your fingers for who knows when the opportunity will come again."

"And what do you do when they … are gone? What then?"

"I wait."

Perhaps it was the tone of his cousin's own voice or perhaps it was the forlorn way Carnistir looked at him, but Aegnor was suddenly reminded of something he wished to ask.

"Earlier, as you spoke, you said that you had only one regret. What was it?"

It was Carnistir's turn to be surprised and Aegnor could not help but be struck by the sadness that had overcome his cousin's eyes.

"That I was not there when Haleth died."

Carnistir shook his head, his laughter now bitter.

"It was foolish really. Stubborn woman, could not see. She thought I sought to control her. To rule her. And she was right of course. As if she would ever be ruled. I knew this and still I tried. And she left. She took her people, faithful to a fault and left. And I let her go."

"Why?"

"Because one cannot control fire, only put it out. And I could never do such a thing to her. I should have followed. I should have stopped her. But I did not. It was pride that drover her of and cowardice that kept me away! I should have been with her at the end," Carnistir spat bitterly, "I should have been there."

"It is natural to try and avoid pain."

"You would say that," he snarled, "you who avoided what could have been the greatest moments of your existence but instead chose self-preservation to avoid pain!"

"You have no idea what I chose," Aegnor hissed back. "I did what was right for her at the time, what was right for both of us. It was a time of war and one cannot take a bride! I had a duty to fulfill! To my family, to our people –"

"Oh yes and just look what your precious devotion to family and duty got you then! At fiery death and countless ages in wandering the Halls! So tell me what is it getting you now Aikanáro? All that high-minded duty and honor?! Not so magnanimous now are you! Even now, when faced with a second chance to know what it is to have true purpose, you are actually trying to make the same mistakes all over again! Pathetic. I for one will not feel guilt over the choices I have made, I promise you that!"

"You have never felt guilt over choices you have made! None of you family ever has! And I am well versed in just how devoted you are in keeping your promises!"

Carnistir stood up, slamming his fists down on the table once more and Aegnor rose just as quickly to meet him. The café had gone quiet during their altercation, the space being so small it was kind of hard to miss. Aegnor thought they must have looked quite frightening.

"I came here to help but I can see now that you do not need it. Therefore I will not waste my time any longer. Good luck with your endeavors, whatever they may be."

And with that, Aegnor watched Carnistir, his cousin, the only other elder he had come in contact with in countless years, turn and leave.

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mara seldo - good boy

iaurbinn - old man


	11. Chapter 11

**sorry it took so long. please read and review**

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**~oOo~**

_His skin was burning. The ground that he lay upon was scorched from the searing heat that was all around. The reeking smell of burning flesh filled his senses and he knew it was his as the flames danced higher and higher. It was suffocating and every ragged, agonizing breath he still took wracked his body with pain._

_He was dying._

_Somehow he turned his head only to see his brother, eyes glazed over, his fëa having already fled the horror that was all around. Dust and death were his only company now. His breathing was labored and wet. He was bleeding out. The darkness would feast well tonight. Movement in his peripheral pulled his attention and he turned his gaze upwards and away as the beast Undolaurë prepared to finish what he had begun._

_He supposed it was fitting that it would end like this. _

_As the smell of sulfur filled the air, he closed his eyes as he always did when he wanted to see her. Dark hair framing her face, grey eyes that could take on hues of green and blue depending on mood or whim, pale skin and graceful neck that he had desperately desired to press his face against, becoming lost in the embrace he had long denied himself out of duty._

_Yes, he supposed it was quite fitting that it should end like this._

_The pain was blinding as the flames engulfed his body._

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Andrea awoke with a gasp, eyes wide. She lay there for a moment as she calmed her mind and confirming that she was indeed not on fire but safe in her room, covered in sweat and clutching the sheets of her bed that twisted around her. She brought a hand to her chest and could feel her heart pounding. Her other hand went to her head and she raked her fingers through her hair, pulling away the sweat soaked strands that were stuck to her face.

_What the fuck._

She slowly turned and rose up from her bed. A quick glance at her alarm clock told her the time was 4:00am.

_Ugh. _

She shuffled to the door and then to the bathroom to relieve herself. She flicked on the light and looked at the reflection in the mirror that squinted back at her.

_Yeesh._

After her business was done she went to the kitchen, poured a glass of milk and plopped down at the kitchen counter. She would not be able to go back to sleep for a bit after that one. They had been getting worse lately. Far more vivid than they had had been in quite some time. This one especially. But what she really hated about them was how it was always Agner who was in them. She supposed it made sense on some subconscious level. They had been spending more time together, meeting for lunch or dinner or lunch and dinner. They would spend hours sitting in the little patio garden area he had on top of his apartment discussing the various artifacts in his collection or what the topic of her lecture had been that afternoon. He used to stop by to listen to her lectures but Andrea had to put a stop to that. Not that she did not like when he would come to the campus to see her, but she found that he was too much of a distraction when he came into the class. And not just for her but for her students as well, male and female.

She could not blame them though, it was difficult not to notice him. Tall, blonde, and perfect to the point one would think he was photoshopped. When class was done many of the female students would linger or walk out slowly, casting blatantly appraising looks his way. But if he ever noticed he never showed it. He would simply wait till the room was clear and then make his way over to her podium, his eyes never leaving her the entire time. It would be a lie if she said she did not love every minute of it.

The creak of door opening pulled her from her reverie and she looked up expecting to see her roommate emerging from the hallway. But instead of Kate she saw Gabe, Kate's faux boyfriend entering the kitchen, pants loosely fastened around his waist, face illuminated from the faint glow of his phone.

_Who the hell is he texting at 4am?_

Glanced up at Andrea with a nod of his head.

"S'up," he mumbled.

Andrea took a gulp of her milk.

He either did not notice or did not care about the look of not so subtle annoyance at his presence from Andrea. Turning back to his phone he walked over to the fridge and, to Andrea's consternation, grabbed the milk and took a swig straight from the carton. She felt her teeth grind.

"We have glasses," she said rather flatly.

"Nah I'm good," he answered still clueless, "just wanted a little."

Andrea ground her teeth some more as he turned around and leaned against the counter, looking back at his phone.

"Can't sleep?"

"Now what makes you think that?" she replied sweetly.

"Dunno," he shrugged, still oblivious, "because you're up."

Andrea was about to marvel at his keen power of observation but decided against it.

"Any luck with that guy you're seeing?"

Andrea looked at him for a moment wondering what could possibly be bringing on this sudden need for him to converse. She could not help but think that Kate had something do with it and wondered what else she may have told him.

"Yeah fine. We're fine. Everything is fine … I guess."

Gabe glanced up at her from his phone.

"I mean, as much as it can be, you know how these things are, in the beginning. It's just, you know kind of going and … we'll see what … you know …" Andrea trailed off. What the hell was she saying?

Gabe on the other hand had returned to his phone.

"Huh, no I don't know. You either are or you aren't," he glanced back up at her again from his phone and if it were not for the dim lighting, she could have sworn she saw the hint of a smile on his face. "Do you know?"

Andrea stared at him for a moment but before she could even think of an answer he had already turned and headed down the hallway.

_Asshole, _she hissed in her mind. She did not think it was possible to dislike him as much as she already did but somehow she managed it. But not because he had been rude or said something inappropriate, but because he was right.

She didn't know. She had no idea.

They had been spending time together of course and it has been wonderful. And it seemed to Andrea as if he enjoyed the time spent together as much as she did. He never skipped out on plans or was late. He was always insisting on picking up the tab, holding doors, taking her hand and wrapping it around his arm. He was attentive in a way Andrea had never experienced in a person before. He would listen to her every word, notice her every action, he would stare at her to the point that she would hide behind her hair to hide the blush she could feel burning at her cheeks.

But other than flirtatious looks and chivalrous behavior there was nothing else to report. Nothing. The last and only time they had kissed being the time she had lunged at him in the hallway and then beat a hasty retreat into her apartment. She had to admit she had surprised even herself with that little display. Not that she regretted it. It had been quite exciting with even the rushed urgency of it. He had not resisted or pulled away at all. In fact, even though he had not expected it, he had been a very willing participant. When she had pressed her lips against his, there had perhaps been a moment's hesitation on his part. But when he did not pull back she became even braver and kissed him a little deeper, pressing herself against him. It was not till she felt his hands move to the small of her back that she pulled back and away. It was perhaps a bit of a pricktease-ish move but she knew if she continued she would not be able to stop and she did not want to go there with him, not yet. It had been a long time since she had been with anyone intimately … a very long time. She did not wish to repeat past mistakes. And so, after making the first move, after making her interest known, she decided to step back and allow him to take the initiative.

But now a week has gone by and he still has not done anything. Not one thing. And it was not like Andrea was not giving him plenty of opportunity. She would meet his gaze head on, silently screaming for him to kiss her only to have him turn away. She would lean in close when they would look at something, or hug him good night with her head against his chest looking up at him. But all he would do is cup her face in his hand, place a lingering kiss on her forehead and then withdraw. It was all becoming quite frustrating to Andrea and she said as much to Kate the next morning.

"And you're sure he's not gay?"

Andrea sat slumped over her coffee, her head leaning into one hand as she struggled to wake fully. By the time she had managed to fall back asleep it was time for her to get up and so now she sat in what felt like a semi-catatonic state as she nursed her cup of liquid caffeine.

She sighed upon hearing Kate's question. It was the third time she had asked.

"He's not gay."

"Don't get pissy," Kate protested, "he's beautiful, a great dresser, and has impeccable hygiene, I mean seriously. It's a valid question."

Andrea yawned while simultaneously stretching her arms above her head. "He's not gay," she repeated.

"Asexual?"

"No."

"A virgin?"

Andrea opened her mouth to speak and paused for the briefest of seconds. _Is_ he a virgin? She shook her head at the thought.

"No, at least I don't think so."

"What do you mean, you don't think so?"

"I mean, it's not like it has come up in conversation Kate. 'Oh this restaurant is lovely, by the way, how many women have you slept with, if any?'"

Kate shrugged. "Maybe he went all Duggar clan and took some vow of celibacy till marriage, you don't know."

"I really don't think that is it."

"Well then," Kate said as she sat down across from Andrea at the table, "it is one of two things then. Either he is just not into you or you have been friend-zoned."

Andrea thought that for a moment. It could not be that he was not into her. She had asked him. He said he was. He had said that he was perhaps too much, whatever that means. What did that mean? He had also said that he did not want her to get hurt. Andrea had taken that to mean that he had a previous relationship that ended badly and did not want to rebound with her. But maybe she had taken his meaning all wrong. Maybe he was only interested in friendship. After all, she had given him plenty of opportunity had she not? What if he thought her waiting for him to act was her own lack of interest? No, no, no calm down, you are over thinking this. Just. Calm. Down.

As Andrea sat there, her thoughts racing through her head, hers eyes became wider and wider and her hands came up slowly to cover her mouth as she rested her elbows on the table.

"Look," Kate said, picking up on her friends inner turmoil, "don't freak out, I am sure he likes you. Every time you call him he comes running. Maybe the two of you just need a change of scenery you know? Somewhere where it's just the two of you, away from the city?"

"Like where?" Andrea's voice sounded muffled from behind her hands.

"Well, what about that place you always go to at the beginning of the school year, that camping place, you know, Cow Lake –"

"– Moose Pond –"

"– whatever, just take him there with you. You and him, by a lake, in a tent in the middle of nowhere, peeing in the woods. Get him out of his element and maybe the two of you can, you know …" Kate's expression became more mischievous as she spoke, getting her message across as she went on.

But something about what Kate had said had piqued Andrea's interest. She was planning on going. She went every year, just before the weather dropped and the snow came in. It was almost a days drive to get up there from the city but her family had a cabin and she would stay the first night there and then hike the trail to "her favorite spot where she would set up her tent on the rock face near the water. They might even be able to take the horses out if they were lucky. She loved this … but would he?

"What if he says no?"

Kate looked at her as if she had not considered that outcome.

"Then fuck him. I'll go with you!"

This caused Andrea to bust out laughing as anyone who knew Kate knew that she hated camping.

"The last time you said you wanted to go camping we ended up at a Ritz-Carlton and ended up almost not having money for rent."

"Uh it was a mountainside resort, not a Ritz-Carlton and I seem to remember some of the cabins had outdoor bathrooms which is pretty outdoorsy. But not this time, oh no," Kate exclaimed as she jumped up and ran over to throw herself down on Andrea's lap, "this time we will sleep in a tent and kill what we eat and have our own romantic little getaway and get naked and bath in water that animals pee in!" she cried as she tried to kiss Andrea while Andrea struggled to push her away while laughing.

"Sweet, can I watch?"

The girls stopped their horseplay to see Gabe standing at the fridge, carton of milk in hand. Andrea felt her teeth grind.

"Hey bae," Kate said as she hopped up and went over to give him a kiss, "we were just talking about going camping. I told Andrea I would go with her if Agner didn't."

Kate rested her chin on Gabe's shoulder but his attention was already back on his phone.

"Hope he likes being outside more than you do," he mumbled as he went back down the hall to Kate's room. Kate turned and looked at Andrea.

"Oh my God, does he?"

"You know," Andrea said thoughtfully, "he must have mentioned it before because I am pretty sure he does."

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**~oOo~**

Andrea watched as Agner reached across the table to pour more wine in his glass. She had come over for dinner and could not help but be impressed with the spread he had laid out. Seared mahi with some sort of butter sauce with basil and vegatables and fresh made bread with olive oil. Andrea had not been impressed as much as amazed to see that he had prepared everything himself, even the bread. When she asked him where he learned to cook he just shrugged and said that it was something the men in his family had done for as long as he could remember. Andrea could not help but feel that all of her feeble attempts at disguising take out as homemade had been seen through.

They sat now on the rooftop patio, drinking some strange wine that Agner had said was very old and rare. It had a strange but pleasant taste, somehow managing to be both sweet and dry at the same time. Andrea fought the urge to drink it like water. Especially when they began one of their discussions. If she drank too much wine she would become easily distracted by his eyes or the familiar way he would look at her at times. She liked to be focused for their little debates, it was the one time she felt she was on equal footing.

"You go down a perilous path when you start judging historical figures by modern standards," he said taking a sip from his glass, "there is a bigger picture that must be appreciated. A way of life then, although repugnant now, would hardly be an outlier in society at that time."

"But the dark side of these "great" men must be exposed, must be told, in order for history to be true," she interjected. "If you allow certain details to be cherry picked while others are disregarded is simply unjustice. Is it right to celebrate a man who while a great statesman was still a bigot?"

"History is complicated and so are they people who make it. The truth of the matter is that great people sometimes do terrible things, and terrible people sometimes do great things. To simply erase every person in history who we find abhorrent along with everything they accomplished is to deny the very contradictions that is humanity. That is where the knowledge lay."

"I suppose you are right about that," Andrea relented. "Students today have never known a time when they can't choose their own media, truth or history. Everything is either all good or all bad and the only reality that they hear is the one that reaffirms their own preconceptions I suppose." Andrea sighed and leaned back in her chair. "The test of a first rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposing ideas in the mind at the same time and still retain the ability to function."

"F. Scott Fitzgerald."

"I was going to say my dad but," Andrea grinned, "I suppose Fitzgerald said it first."

"He did."

"I guess you would know."

"I would."

Andrea laughed. "Are you ever wrong?"

Agner smiled. "Only when it counts."

"So you admit you can make mistakes?"

"Oh yes," he answered, "I have most certainly made mistakes."

"Oh really, do tell."

Agner stared at her for what felt like to Andrea was an eternity before he spoke.

"Not tonight."

Andrea decided to change the subject.

"Hey so," she said getting up and moving over so that she sat next to Agner facing him, "I was wondering something. Um, every year I go upstate to this spot, in the Adirondacks, it's a lake, well a pond, it's called Moose Pond, but it could be a lake, anyway I go camping up there. It's a day's drive from the city, near this little town called Bloomindale up I-87, anyway, we have a cabin and there are trails that take you to the water, that's where I take a tent and camp, by the water, anyway I was going to go up there and camp, like I said and I was, uh wondering if, um you might want to or like to go … with … me … I also ride horses."

_I'm an idiot._

Agner looked at her yet again and Andrea found herself getting caught up in the strange swirl of lights that seem to come from his eyes. This time it truly was an eternity. He was taking too long to answer. Andrea wished she had never opened her mouth.

"You know what? Don't worry about it," she said in an attempt to sound casual. "It's not a big deal and you probably have stuff to do and stuff to … do so, just, you know don't worry about it. Kate was thinking about coming anyway." She jumped up from the sofa and made for the ladder that went back to the apartment window. "It's late so I should –"

Andrea stopped, or was stopped mid step as Agner took her hand and turned her around. She had not even heard him get up.

"Andrea, if you would stop for just a moment, I am trying to tell you that I would very much like to go."

Andrea blinked.

"Oh? OH! Okay! That's great. Okay. You'll go! It'll be great."

_I am the biggest idiot_.

"Before you go, I have something for you but it is inside."

"Oh?"

They made their way down the ladder and through the window to Agner's room. Once they were inside Agner went over to the side table next to the bed and pulled out something wrapped in a cloth.

"I am do not know why I made this."

Andrea took the item from Agner's hand a removed the cloth.

"I am afraid my skills are a bit out of practice. It has been a long time since I have done this but the florist assured me the flowers were of the same kind. I am sure it is accurate."

Andrea looked down at her hands. Within them were flowers that were woven into a wreath much like the dried one in the case. Andrea's fingers moved gently over the tiny delicate blooms.

"Morning glory, Nightshade, Oleander, Blood root, Fox Glove, Belladonna," she whispered, "all beautiful. All poisonous."

Something was shifting again, and she felt almost as if she were back in some sort of dream state as her hand almost involuntarily moved to place the wreath atop her head. Her mind felt heavy and her eyes moved to find his and it seemed as if they were in a dream. And for a moment she thought perhaps she was back in one of her dreams because when she found his eyes she saw pain.

He reached for her slowly, a hand that caressed her cheek and then gently run through her hair to cup the back of her head. She did not resist as he pulled her closer, their lips barely touching. Andrea looked into his eyes and if her world was unsteady before it was a lost in a raging sea now. She could not think. A hand moved across her back as hers went up and around his neck. She realized that he was shaking as his lips came down on hers.

This was not the rushed hit and run of their first kiss in the hallway. This was slow and hesitant, it was gentle and soft and exploratory. But soon trembling hands began to tighten their grip around her waist and Andrea felt a dizzying tide of warmth come over her as the kiss swiftly intensified. Insistent mouths parted lips and bodies pressed hard against the each other as Andrea attempted to tread the waves of giddiness that came over her. Bodies writhed and she realized that at some point they had found their way to the bed and were laying down as he pulled apart her shirt and his mouth moved down her neck. His mouth found hers again and she was lost in the fury of his need.

This was right. This was meant to be. She knew this. She had always known this. He was for her and she for him. There was no other nor ever would be. His mouth moved back to her neck as he pressed his body against her.

"Aegnor," she gasped.

And suddenly he stopped, frozen, he stared down at her, his eyes wide.

"What did you say," he whispered.

Andrea blinked, confused, her head still blurry, vision unclear.

"What?"

"What did you say," he repeated.

"Agner?"

Agner squeezed his eyes shut and dropped his head down so that his forehead was against her chest. She was certain he could feel her heart pounding against it. He seemed to tense as his arms came around her waist and he held onto her. She thought he heard him whisper the words no no no against her skin. She ran her fingers through his hair and tried to hold him back when he pulled away and slowly sat up.

"Agner," she softly, "Agner what is it? What's wrong? Did I do something? Agner please."

But he still said nothing, he only sat at the end of the bed, hunched over with his head in his hands as he brought his ragged breathing under control.

As Andrea watched him compose himself, she became suddenly aware of the fact that her shirt was somewhere on the floor of the room and she was in nothing other than her bra and jeans. A mixture of embarrassment and anger began to come over her. If he did not wish for this to happen then he should have said so. This was not her fault … well, not entirely. She moved to get up and retrieve what was left of her shirt when a hand on her arm stopped her.

"No," he looked at her, eyes imploring, "no, please, do not go. Forgive me. I just … please, stay … please … do not leave."

Andrea paused. Something in voice seemed so fragile, so helpless, almost desperate. She sat down next to him, her arms wrapping around his neck once more to pull him into an embrace. They lay back down on the bed as she held him, her fingers running through his hair.

"I'm not going anywhere," she whispered.

They lay there for several moments that way, arms wrapped around the other, his head against her chest as he listened to the metronomic beating of her heart. After a while her breathing evened out to the slow repetitive rhythm of sleep and he unwound himself from her arms, careful not to wake her.

He stood there for the rest of the night, watching her in the dark.

She had said his name.

He was acting a fool. A careless selfish fool. Becoming caught up in the memory of something denied. And if he had taken her, what then? Does he tell her what he is? Does he tell her what he has done? She would think him mad and send him away and rightfully so. He did not deserve her and she did not deserve to be put through this.

_She is not Andreth!_

And yet he knew. When he looked at her, sleeping in his bed, her dark hair spread out around pale skin he knew. He could not let her go. Not again.

But what would be the cost?


	12. Chapter 12

**so this really should be chapter 11 1/2 because it was supposed to be a part of the last chapter but got cut off. but i wanted to post it anyway as i won't be able to add anything for a couple of weeks. so sorry so short and i will try to make up for it on the next chapter.**

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Andrea woke the next morning to find herself alone in Agner's room. She rubbed her eyes and squinted at the morning sun that blazed through the tall windows.

_Would it kill the guy to have some curtains_, she thought as she sat up and looked around the room.

It seemed even larger in the light. She saw a shirt hanging on the closet door and realized that she did not have one. A hazy memory of something tearing played in the back of her mind. Sitting alone in the large bed with in just her bra and pants with windows that had no curtains was beginning to make Andrea feel somewhat exposed so she got up and retrieved the shirt from the closet door. It was large on her but it would do.

She bent over and began to slip on her shoes when she noticed a small white flower on the floor next to them. She cupped the small pale bloom in her hand.

Belladonna.

She looked around the room and spotted a small dark berry near the trashcan and walked over to find the wreath inside, or what was left of it. It seemed to have taken some damage in the frenzy of last night. She reached down and cradled what was left of it in her hands as she walked down the hallway and into the living room. Still no Agner.

Andrea stood there for a moment unsure of what to do. She still was not sure of what had even happened. One moment he was all over her to the point that she could not even see straight and then he was gone. She walked over to where her jacket and bag hung on the back and began to dig around for a hair tie. She held the tie in her mouth as she stood up and combed her hair back with her fingers as she walked around. This was the first time she had ever been in his apartment without her host. Surely he would not fault her for looking around while she waited for a bit to see if he would return.

She could not help but notice again how there were no photos around. No images of friends or family frozen in time, no cherished memories captured in frames and hung on the wall or in a place of honor on the mantle or shelf. He had spoken before about not having any contact with his family anymore and she supposed that could happen. A falling out or conflict of some sort. But to have no photos of friends, especially with all of his travels struck Andrea as odd.

She walked past the fire place and back down the hall till she stopped at the door of the second room. She hesitated for a moment, her hand pausing on the door knob. What if he came home and found her in here? Would he be upset? He had to understand her interest in these things and besides, wouldn't he have locked the door if he did not want her going in, or at least have left a note. She turned the door knob and stepped inside.

She took in the smell of things that were old and trying to be preserved, a dry, musty sort of smell that Andrea had always liked. It meant they were cared for, paid attention to, cherished. The windows were covered in here, keeping the room dark and the precious items within protected from the damaging rays of the sun. The lights themselves were dim and created a soft glow that added to the ambiance. Many of the cases were sealed and Andrea thought several might even be air tight. She could have looked through the artifacts with in for hours or days on end and never get tired of it. But right now, at this moment her attention was pulled to a specific one.

She walked over to the case that held the dried out and flattened flowers, vacuum sealed in some sort of plastic to help preserve it. The weapons with their hypnotic swirls and designs seemed to pick up the little bit of light in the room and reflect it even brighter. She wondered how old they were. It seemed to her as if the blades could still be sharp. As her eyes followed the long curve of the blade she came upon a small case within this one. Inside of it was a piece of material. It was frayed along the edges but still held some color as the design was still visible. It seemed to Andrea as if it were a piece of some banner or perhaps a sigil or coat of arms. It also seemed familiar.

A circle within a diamond, and from the circle in the center eight rays extend like beams of light. It was a crest. It was a family crest. She did not know how she knew this. Just like how she did not know what the colors were, even though they were faded and gone. But somehow she knew they were gold, red, and pale blue. How did she know this? She has seen if before. Her heart began to race as her head felt heavy. Where had she seen this before? Her mind spun. She has seen this before. She squeezed her eyes shut as an image came to her mind.

_An image of a man in armor and wild hair standing in the night, with eyes that shone with a peculiar light staring at her in pain and sadness, a banner snapping in the wind behind him …_

"Andrea?"

Andrea gasped and spun around, knocking over a stand that held a vase, sending it crashing to the ground. She grabbed at the case to steady herself as hands came around her waist, helping to support her.

"Andrea?"

She looked up to see Agner staring at her with concern, his eyes shining in the dim light in a peculiar way…

"I'm … fine, I'm sorry I just … I'm fine really, I just have to … oh God the vase! I am so sorry I don't know what … I should go."

She pulled herself from his grasp and left the room.

"I am so sorry," she called back as she went down the hallway, "I just need to go. I am late. I didn't realize how late it was. I have to teach a lab today. I will call you, with the details for the weekend. Oh God that vase! I will make it up to you I promise!"

She grabbed her jacket and bag and made for the elevator, hitting the button several times.

"I am so sorry about the vase Agner, so sorry! I shouldn't have gone in there. It was stupid."

The elevator doors opened and she almost ran inside, hitting the button to close the door.

"I'll call you," she called out as the doors slid shut.

Andrea leaned back against the wall and stared at the ceiling. She had seen that symbol before of course. She had seen it many times, sometimes flying high upon a banner or being worn upon a vest that covered the armor of the man who wandered her dreams. The man who had taken on the likeness of Agner.

_I am going crazy, _she thought. _I am going completely batshit crazy._

Aegnor never said anything as he watched Andrea run into the elevator in her haste to leave. After she was gone he turned and made his way back to the spare room and over to the case where she had been standing. He knew what was in there of course. He looked down at the items inside.

He had acquired them late in the fourth age, back when he was newly returned to this world. The world had already much changed by then with most of the exploits of he and his kin being passed into myth or legend or twisted for the purpose of some religion or following. Aegnor had found these particular items in what would be the modern day equivalent of a flea market or sale. The persons selling them having no idea of the past or the true worth of such things. But he knew their worth, and they were priceless.

She had recognized something of course, triggered some memory buried deep. Much like what happened last night. For both of them. He looked down at the broken vase, his hands becoming tight fists.

He almost did something unforgivable last night. Something that he could never take back. Something selfish and greedy. He allowed need and self-indulgent behavior dictate his actions. He would have taken her then and there, without regret or a second thought. Aegnor closed his eyes and his hands balled up even tighter. The taste and feel of her skin was still a fresh torment in his mind. For a moment he had her in his arms again, his Andreth, he held her without restraint, without fear of consequence. And when she had called out his name ….

Aegnor let out the breath he was holding and opened his eyes. But she was not Andreth, at least not entirely. And he that somehow he was projecting his desires on to this girl who _looked_ like his Andreth. That somehow he unknowingly put these images in her mind out of his own yearning for it to be true.

He had spent the entire evening watching her, till the sun began to push back the night, the sky going from black to the soft hazy grey of morning. He sat there watching her so intently, the temptation so strong to crawl back into her arms and finish what he had begun, he had crushed the small wreath of flowers he had made for her not even realizing what he had done. He knew then that he could not let this happen again. How could he? This was a child's dream that he held onto. It was impossible. What would have happened if he had given in and taken her? He would bind himself to her without her knowledge or consent? What would make him even entertain the idea that it would end well? Did he really thing he could just walk up and tell her who he was?

No, there was only one way for it to end. Her inevitable death and his lingering on, facing the ages once more without her. He had thrown the wreath away along with any hope he had held onto. He was a fool. And what he was doing to this girl was shameful.

Aegnor knelt down and began to gather up the broken shards from the vase, gathering the larger pieces and taking them out of the room and tossing them into the trash in the kitchen. He looked at the counter and saw the coffee he had gone out for. Two cups sitting next to each other. He had almost not returned to the apartment.

But he had returned. Out of some sick need and the lie he kept telling himself, that he would end this once and for all.

Again.

Aegnor turned suddenly and grabbed his keys and headed once more out of his apartment. He began walking, just where he was not sure, but he knew he had to get out of there. The memories that were being dredged up from the dark recesses of his mind were painful and mocking. He was lost upon the ice again. He had nowhere to go but forward, he was no longer able to go back.

_You should have stayed dead Aegnor. _

_She is not Andreth. _

He would just continue to tell himself that till he finally believed it.

When he finally stopped walking, he looked up and recognized the building he stood in front of. How typical that he should end up here. But then where else did he have to go? It was not open yet but he could wait. Waiting was the one thing he could do with ease. Several hours went by till the first employee showed up and then a few more hours till they opened the doors. Aegnor went inside and sat down. Who he was looking for was not here yet or they were not coming in at all. A possibility he found quite fitting given his current state. If she did not come in then he would take it as a sign from the Valar to move once more, perhaps somewhere in Asia this time. He always did enjoy Osaka. Aegnor laughed bitterly to himself. As if he Valar gave a damn about what happens to him.

Day became evening and he watched as the shifts began to change employees. She was the last to come in, working the later shift that would go well into the night. He waited till she was able to change out her register and get situated at the bar before he approached. When he finally did she turned around and faced him as if she had always known he was there. More than likely she did. She said nothing as he stood there, her dark eyes seemed to dissect his every move. Aegnor did not let that bother him though. He supposed she had every right to be suspicious of him. Who knew what she had been told. He sat down at the bar.

"I need to speak to Carnistir."


	13. Chapter 13

**sorry it took so long. hope you enjoy. please read and review and merry christmas**

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She said nothing after he spoke. She simply stood there, head tilted slightly, her dark eyes considering. Had it been any other time Aegnor could have sat there infinitely, waiting patiently for her to reply. It was something he had become quite adept at through the years. But tonight his mind was far afield, his focus off. He was desperate. He took in a breath and slowly let it out.

"Please, I need to speak to Carnistir."

"I heard you the first time," she said after a moment, her eyes still considering although they narrowed somewhat. "Agner right? So, what's your real name."

Aegnor could not help but notice it was not a question.

"Aikanáro Ambarato Arafinwëan … Aegnor."

Haley leaned against her elbows on the bar and gave a low whistle.

"Wow, that's a mouthful. You kids do like your flourish don't you," she replied with a little half smile. "You want something to drink?"

Aegnor was not sure if she was toying with him, for one of the second born she was very difficult to read. A rarity in this day and age of their kind. He could see why Carnistir liked her.

"No," he answered. "I only need to see Carnistir."

"Cirian."

"What?"

"Cirian," she said again, pushing away from the bar and grabbing a glass. "He goes by Cirian."

"Can you contact him?"

"Maybe," she walked over to the beer tap and began to fill the glass. "Where's Andrea?"

Aegnor began to feel a slight annoyance now. He was definitely beginning to see why Carnistir liked her so much. "She is not here."

"I can see that," she chuckled as she pushed the tap back to stop the flow of liquid and then turned her full gaze upon him. "This is about her right?"

Aegnor said nothing.

"Yeah it is," she quipped, her little half smile returning, "you look like shit. Here." She set the beer glass down in front of him. "Is she alright?"

"Yes of course she is." Aegnor's mouth tightened as he sat up a little straighter. That had come out a little more defensive than he had intended. But she had presumed too much with that. As if he would ever do anything to harm her. But if the young woman in front was bothered at all by his indignation, she showed nothing. She simply leaned back over the bar on her elbows and rested her chin in her hand.

"So you haven't told her then."

"Told her what."

"Who you are of course."

"… No, I have not."

"Of course you haven't because she still likes you. But she isn't going to like you when you tell her and nothing you do will prepare her for this. There's nothing you can do or say that is going to make it any easier. There are only two things that can happen, she's either going to love you or she's going to hate you. And if she hates you she will leave you. And you will have to let her leave. You can't force it on her or drag it out. You will have to let her go or you will only make it worse … for the both of you."

Aegnor did not speak. Truth be told he could not speak. He had been offended at first at her insinuation that something had happened to Andrea and then for her to assume she could speak freely with him about such personal matters that she could not possibly understand had infuriated him.

But then he realized that she most certainly could understand. That she could understand perhaps, better than anyone. That she could understand from a point of view that he never could.

He had been so self-absorbed in his own pain that he had never considered her view, the pain that she would face. She could very easily turn him away, send him from her as he had done so many ages ago. It had almost destroyed him when it had been his choice, what would it do if it were hers?

He looked hopelessly at the woman in front of him.

"I love her," he whispered.

He could only assume at the levels of pathetic he must have reached. Even he winced at the sound of his own voice. But the young woman's face seemed to soften as she gave him a sad little smile.

"I believe you," she whispered back.

Aegnor squeezed his eyes shut for a moment and gathered his composure before looking at her once more. Now it was his turn to lean forward on his elbows against the bar towards her.

"Haley, please, will you call Carnistir?" he asked again.

A familiar little half smile returned once more as a single eyebrow cocked up and amusement flashed in her eyes. Amusement and, Aegnor realized, something else. As her eyes moved past him he could see a light that burned within. A light that was not of Man.

"Now what makes you think that I haven't already?"

Aegnor followed her gaze towards the entrance to see Carnistir standing at the door, glowering. Aegnor sat up straight in his chair and made to rise, ready to deflect his cousin's obvious wrath towards him when a sound from behind him pulled him away.

"Oh please," Haley huffed from behind, "stop being so melodramatic and get in here. Ugh!"

Aegnor turned to look at her but she was already pushing herself away from the bar to grab another glass.

"Such a drama queen…" she muttered as she worked.

Carnistir slowly sauntered over to where Aegnor sat, stared down at him in that imperious way of his, and said nothing. Aegnor stood up. He decided to speak in Quenya in an attempt to show his cousin his sincerity and also to keep Haley from feeling uncomfortable from whatever might be said.

"Carnistir," he started, "please, I know we have not seen eye to eye –"

"We have never seen eye to eye," Carnistir interrupted, speaking in Quenya as well.

"– but," Aegnor continued, "I am willing to accept my fault in this and seek to amend it. I regret how our last meeting ended. It was not how I wished. Seeing you again brought up feelings and memories that had been buried deep within. I was reminded of how I once was and how I have been running from it ever since my return. Please Carnistir, you are the first and only one of our kind I have encountered … and my kin … and I never realized how much I needed that till now, regardless of who it is. You cannot tell me that you have not felt something of the same. Let us try again, please … I … I need your advice."

If Carnistir was moved at all by his speech he showed nothing.

"Well that must have been painful," he sneered.

Aegnor ground his teeth and kept his calm. "Will you sit with me?"

"Of course he will," Haley piped up from behind the bar. The both of them looked at her with surprise. "Just not here. If it was just one of you it would be fine but two of you, well that's just too much pretty in one place. You'll attract way too much attention. Come on."

She grabbed Aegnor's glass and the other glass she had been preparing when Carnistir arrived and jerked her head for them to follow. Aegnor made to move but stopped when he realized that Carnistir had not moved at all. He stood still as stone, his face unreadable. Haley turned around and stared silently back except her eyes narrowed and her stance was impatient. To the casual observer it would seem that they were having some sort of staring contest, but Aegnor knew it was much much more. There was most certainly a contest going on but it was a contest of wills. There was a silent conversation happening between them. A silent communication that only those who are bonded could share. Something that was almost sacred was passing between them and Aegnor knew that, although he could not hear them, he witnessing something that was very personal. He looked away uncomfortably, like a child who was embarrassed at witnessing his parents having a spat.

They stood like that for several silent minutes. Carnistir never moving while Haley sighed impatiently and rolled her eyes incredulously, till finally she broke out into a wide smile.

"Okay then," Haley said brightly, "follow me."

Aegnor turned to look at Carnistir but he was already moving, an almost petulant look on his face. Aegnor stared at the tiny woman before him in disbelief.

"Back here," she called out over her shoulder as she led them to a booth in the very back of the bar next to the kitchen. "We use this booth to count out the register or our tips at the end of the night. No one sits back here and the noise from the kitchen should cover up your conversation. Now you to be good boys and play nice okay?"

She set down a glass in front of the both of them before leaning down and planting a kiss on Carnistir. When she stopped kissing him she kept her forehead against his and stared at him with a playful expression till, to Aegnor's surprise, Carnistir's face softened and he gave her droll smile as he swatted her away. Haley pulled back with a grin and then left.

Aegnor watched her return to the bar and then looked over at Carnistir. His cousin had gone back to his normally cool exterior, except that he seemed somewhat more relaxed. Aegnor was not sure of what to say after everything he had just witnessed and so he spoke the first thing that came to his mind.

"She knows Quenya?" he asked.

"She knows many things," Carnistir snorted as he lifted his glass, "although sometimes she _thinks_ she knows more when she does not. But yes, she does know Quenya and Sindarin. It is one of the many memories that have come back to her."

Aegnor nodded as he looked at his own glass. "Andrea has remembered as well."

"Ah," Carnistir said, looking at Aegnor from over his drink, "so now we come to it. You have decided to go forward with her then?"

"No I … I just … I do not know."

Aegnor raked a hand through his hair only to drop it onto the table with a thud as he collapsed against the back of his seat with a sigh. He braced himself for the inevitable insult but it did not come. Well, at least not right away.

"Do you enjoy making yourself miserable?"

_Ah, there it is_, Aegnor thought.

"Because I have to say," Carnistir sighed as he tapped his fingers against his glass, "you and your family have always seemed to excel at it. It is almost as if you thrive off of misery and duty and making yourself miserable with duty. I have to admit I was quite surprised when you and your brothers made the journey, and even more surprised to find you reborn. I mean, I would have thought the halls would have been bliss for you what with the all the sorrow and tortured souls around. Even your father –"

"Can we please not discuss family," Aegnor interrupted, his voice carefully controlled. He willed his hand out of the tight fist that he had unconsciously balled it into. Carnistir did not seem to be concerned with his cousin's obvious attempt at control.

"As you wish." Carnistir shrugged. "I was merely making an observation," he mumbled as he took a drink from his glass. "So why am I here Aegnor, what exactly do you want from me?"

Aegnor shook his head. "I don't know," he laughed helplessly. "I have no idea. I do not know why I needed to find you. I was not even planning on ever seeing you again and yet somehow I ended up here. My mind is not right but then I no longer know what is right anymore anyway so why not find you. Her memories are a torment for me. Is she truly reliving these things or am I, in my desperation projecting them on her somehow? I almost took her Carnistir. Last night, I had her in my arms and I would have taken her, without her knowledge, but …"

Carnistir stared at him from across the table. "But what?"

"But … she said my name. Not the name I go by now, today. But the name she knew, then! Aegnor she said. She said Aegnor."

"So?"

Aegnor blinked. "So?"

"Yes," Carnistir hissed, "so! So she said your name. So what! Of course she will say your name, she is going to say a lot of things, many of which you will not like. So did you make the bond with her or not?!"

"Of course not!" Aegnor replied indignantly. Carnistir threw his hands up in the air as he now flung himself back against his seat as Aegnor did earlier.

"Of course you did not! I mean how could you?!" Carnistir laughed as he pinched the space between his eyes as if he had a headache.

"I fail to see what is so amusing," Aegnor said stiffly. "Of course I did not. She does not know what that would involve and do to so without her knowledge would be a sacrilege."

"Oh bloody hell Aegnor, pull that prudish head out of your ass for once and look around you! The world has changed, the Old World is long gone along with its archaic rules for living! You have been given a second chance so why do you hang on so desperately to the past?"

"I am not hanging desperately – are you suggesting that I should have just taken her there and created the bond with her? Wrapping my fëa around hers till they are one combined, without any explanation as to what has happened? No explanation to what I have done? Are you implying that she just will not notice?"

"Oh do not be so daft, of course she will know," Carnistir sniffed dismissively. "She will know immediately. She may not know exactly what has happened but she will know something is different, just calm down."

"Is that what you did to this girl? Did you take her into the bond without her consent? Is that why she warned me?"

Aegnor had thought that Carnistir would become incensed at the accusation but instead his cousin merely gave him a considering look.

"Haley warned you?" he asked. "What did she say?"

"She told me that I cannot force this on her, on Andrea. That it would only make it worse for the both of us."

Carnistir smiled and shook his head. "Of course she did," he said more to himself than to Aegnor.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Did you do this without her consent?"

"Of course I did not," now Carnistir was indignant as he slammed down his glass, "as if I even _could_ take anything from her without her consent!"

"Now I thought I said to be nice," Haley said as she set two fresh glasses down on the table. Aegnor and Carnistir sat up straight in their seats but still cut the occasional sideways glance in the others direction.

"If you kids can't keep it down I am going to have to separate you," she added. Carnistir sighed loudly.

"We are fine, there is nothing here that concerns you thank you."

"Aw," she said with a smile, "remind me to add that to the list of things I'm supposed to give a shit about, mmkay?" Haley turned and looked at Aegnor. "I have a list dedicated completely to him you know," she said, gesturing to Carnistir as she walked away, empty glasses in hand.

Aegnor looked back at his cousin only to see him smiling after her as she made her way back to the bar.

"She is a strong spirit," said Aegnor.

"She is perfect," added Carnistir. "She is both delicate and powerful, a mix of silk and iron. Soft enough to kiss when you seek tenderness and yet strong enough to take into battle when you need victory. I could never take anything from her against her will. I love her too much and her will is too strong."

Aegnor believed him.

Carnistir pulled his gaze away from the woman at the bar and looked at Aegnor.

"So," he said as he adjusted himself in his seat to face Aegnor fully, "what has she remembered?"

Aegnor shook his head and looked at his glass.

"Bits and pieces really. It is as if certain things seem to bring out memories. She becomes almost lost in the moments, as if dazed. But she knows. She has repeated conversations I have had with her when … with Andreth. She recognized my family crest, and her dreams …"

"Her dreams?" prompted Carnistir.

"Her dreams are dark," Aegnor continued, "her dreams are of death."

As Aegnor spoke, Carnistir leaned forward, his elbows on the table as his hands came together creating a steeple shape against his chin.

"Mmmm," he said, tapping his fingers against his lips, "those are the strongest then. The ones that have stayed with her the longest. The painful memories. As she continues to spend time with you more will come. And they will be stronger, vivid, and much clearer. And if you should ever work up the courage to create the bond, be prepared for it will be as if a door will open in her mind and could even overwhelm her. The flood of memories could drive her to madness."

"Maddness?" exclaimed Aegnor.

"I said could, not would," clarified Carnistir. "Her memories and dreams are dark, which tells me that those were the memories she held most on to in life. She continued to carry that pain to her death and beyond apparently." Carnistir studied Aegnor from over his fingertips. "Did something happen between the two of you, something that would cause her to carry this bitterness to her grave?"

"No I … no, I mean … I did not use her in some ill manner if that is what you are implying. I just … I did what I had to, what was called upon us to do. We were at war and we cannot … if I had had taken her to wife at that time I would have abandoned all that we had come to do, all who were depending on me. And not because she asked it of me but because I would need too. To keep her from harm, away from danger, because I loved her that much. I loved her enough that I was willing to abandon my own brothers, my own kin, to keep her safe! But in my heart I knew that she would never be safe because death would eventually take her regardless of my efforts, but … but not before it took me."

"So you broke her heart," Carnistir said matter-of-factly.

"That was never my intention," Aegnor spat angrily, "but yes, I broke her heart. I did what was necessary, what was right at the time. She was of Man, second born. Their gift is death. Am I supposed to sit and wait, to watch helplessly on the side as she ages and fades before me, unable to stop it? It would have been a torture for her as well. Not to mention the fact that I knew, I knew what was coming, what the future held for Angrod and I. I did not know exactly what would happen or how or even when, but I knew, in the darkness doom awaited. I did what I did to spare her."

"No. You did what you did to spare you, which is exactly what you are doing now."

Aegnor looked at Carnistir in all out shock and anger.

"You know nothing of –"

"Oh save your self-righteous indignation for someone else. You may tell yourself you did what you did to spare her but the truth of it is you did it to spare yourself the pain and because you were afraid of what would happen when you lost it, when you lost her. You loved her Aegnor. You loved a mortal woman doomed to die. You loved her so much you were willing to remain bodiless for eternity because you could not be with her. It frightened you. The fact that you could finally knowing pure unadulterated love only to have it snatched away by something you can never stop. The steady march of time. There is no shame in that Aegnor. The shame lay in the fact that you attempt to mask your fear out of some sense of duty that no longer exists."

At first Aegnor had felt rage so strong that he thought he may leap across the table, patrons be damned. The urge to strike his cousin was so strong he was not sure he would be able to control it. But as Carnistir spoke something within him seemed to waken, to knaw at his conscious, and Carnistir's words began to ring of truth. A horrible guilt ridden truth. Yes he did what he did out of duty and obligation to his family and station, but he also did it out of fear. The fear of watching her fade away only be left to wander the ages alone with no hope of ever seeing her again, to know bliss only to have it snatched away by the cruel and never-ending continuation of time. The terrible reality of knowing he would never be able to have those moments again and to face the world alone without her had been terrifying to him.

The rage had drained out of him along with his will to fight. He felt like a child.

Carnistir for his part said nothing. He did not look down at Aegnor in that imperious way of his and the haughty tone of voice he normally took on had been gone as he spoke. For some reason that only made Aegnor feel worse. Carnistir drank from his glass as he let his words sink in. When he finally did speak, his voice was surprisingly gentle.

"You have a banner with your family sigil?"

Aegnor looked at him surprised.

"Yes, I found it, around the start of the fifth age. Or perhaps late in the fourth, I am no longer sure."

"Mmm, the years do start to run together after a while. I have not come across anything like that since my return."

"Have you found anyone else?"

"No. You?"

"No … well, I thought I did once, during the Second World War. I heard a voice singing –"

"Makalaurië?" Carnistir sat up and leaned in.

"That was what I thought, but then it stopped and I heard no more."

"Pity," Carnistir said softly as he sat back. "Although it would not surprise me if it were him I suppose. There are many things left from Arda that still roam the far corners of this earth, and not all of them as fair as we."

"Really?"

"You know about the fires of London in the 1600's."

"Yes, I remember, what of them."

"Balrogs."

"What?!" It was Aegnor's turn to sit up in surprise this time. "Balrogs?!"

"Mmmhmm," Carnistir replied as he finished his drink, "Balrogs. Small ones, weakened with time and age, but still Balrogs. A Balrog was responsible for the fire in Chicago back in 1871 although I believe some old woman's cow took the blame. I hunted that one down myself."

"_You_, hunted down a Balrog," Aegnor scoffed incredulously.

"I said it was small and weakened, but yes, _I _hunted down a Balrog," Carnistir replied, his old familiar haughtiness returning.

Aegnor sat back in his chair and folded his arms across his chest with a little smile.

"Impressive."

"Not really," Carnistir shrugged, "it was more of a mercy killing to be honest."

"I did not realize that Morgoth's pets still roamed the earth."

"Why not? We do. I am surprised you have not noticed yourself. They are there in many myths and legends of Men. They go by different names now, dragons, banshees, and werewolves and so on. But there are still many things that remain hidden in the dark places of the world. I have made it a habit to dispatch them when I am able."

"How noble," Aegnor said giving his cousin a sideways glance.

"Yes it is, isn't it," agreed Carnistir, returning Aegnor's glance with a smirk of his own.

They sat in silence for several long moments, neither moving nor speaking. It was something they had all done in their youth, sitting in silent contemplation for hours at a time. It was soothing and peaceful, and hauntingly familiar. It was Aegnor who finally broke the silence.

"What shall I do then?" he whispered softly.

"I do not know Aegnor. What I do know is it will not be easy, for either of you and there will most certainly be pain. The question you must ask yourself know is, will it be worth it? And if so, will you be able to bear the price that must be paid, regardless of what the outcome will be? And there will be a price Aegnor. There will most certainly be a price."


	14. Chapter 14

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Andrea rubbed at her eyes as she looked up at the clock on the wall. She was done at three and it was a quarter till. Good enough for her. She reached down and set her bag on the desk so she could set her things inside.

She was exhausted. She had left Agner's with the intention to return to her apartment for a quick shower and change only to find that she did not have the time. She ended up coming straight to the study lab in the same clothes she had on last night and no coffee.

No. Coffee.

She had been a rather sad excuse of a resource instructor at the study lab today. Spending almost her entire shift with earbuds in but no music as a ruse to portray the appearance of being occupied. In reality she simply wanted be left alone. She had managed to refrain from telling anyone to use Google though so she did not feel that she was a total loss.

She finished gathering her things and then locked up the room. She just wanted to get home and crash into her bed. The memory of last night and the events of this morning still weighed heavy in her mind. She teetered back and forth between giddiness and confusion when she thought about it. There was no doubt now as to how he felt about her. How could there be? If he had not pulled away from her she would have given everything.

But he had pulled away. And Andrea did not understand why.

Maybe it was as Kate had said. Maybe he was the type who took his time, who wanted to be sure. Truth be told, she should probably be doing the same thing. But this did not feel wrong to her. In fact nothing had ever felt so right and she found herself wondering if this is what being in love felt like. There was a want there that Andrea had never felt before. A need that only seemed to be sated when she was with him. So much so that she was willing to throw her usual caution to the wind and force her way through his hesitation.

Of course the reason he was hesitant could be that she was sneaking into his rooms and breaking his things. His very valuable, priceless things.

What had happened in there? This was becoming a bit of a habit for her now and Andrea wondered if she should go to a doctor and get check out. But then, what would she say? That she is having random moments of déjà vu that caused dizziness and light headedness and bouts of clumsiness?

It was the damn dreams. It had to be. She was unable to get a decent night's sleep because of them. And they had become far more vivid in the last few weeks, almost feeling like memories in a bizarre way. What was even more unsettling was that Agner had become a regular focal point of all of them. It was not exactly Agner of course, it couldn't be. But what had once been a faceless figure had taken on his appearance. The hair was longer and the clothes different but it was most certainly him. There were others that appeared as well, but they still maintained some anonymity, although more details seem to come out the more she had the dreams. In one dream she watched herself have a conversation with a man who looked like Agner but was not. But that one was hazy and vague and not nearly as frequent as the others. It still did not explain her reaction to the banner though. Andrea knew she had seen it in her dreams but she could not remember if she had dreamt it first or if somehow she had seen it in passing, when she was first taken through the room. It was a frustrating nagging feeling that gnawed at her conscience. She knew it was a sigil, some sort of a family crest, but how? How did she know? How could she be so sure? It was so clear in her mind now. She could see it waving on banners, emblazoned on armor or embroidered in to clothing. It almost made her dizzy again just thinking about it.

Andrea stopped outside the door to her apartment. If it had not been for her overwhelming lack of sleep and the severe case of caffeine depravation she would have almost thought it were more of a true memory than just a shadowy dream.

That was ridiculous of course. _God I need to sleep,_ she thought irritably. _And coffee, a whole lotta coffe._

She unlocked the door and stepped into her apartment to find her roommate Katherine spread out on their small sofa, a smug smile splitting her face.

"Well hello," Kate practically purred with satisfaction.

"Don't even start –" interrupted Andrea.

"What? All I said –"

" – because I am not in the mood and –"

" – was hello so there is –"

" – it is not what you said but –"

" – no reason to be rude."

" – how you said it. So don't. Even. Start."

"I beg your pardon!" Kate shouted with mock indignation. "It was merely a simple greeting. For you to react so defensively is completely unnecessary … unlesssssss,"Kate leaned forward and rested her elbows on her knees and cupped her chin in her hands as her eyes narrowed in a deviant manner, "there is some reason for you to be so defensive? Hmmmm?"

Andrea gave Kate a flat look as she closed the door behind her and then crossed to the sofa to drop her things and flop down next to her roommate. Kate leaned back across the sofa, her eyes never leaving Andrea.

"You are still wearing the same thing you had on last night," she observed, "minus one pale pink tee, size small." She reached across and tugged at the t-shirt Andrea was wearing. "That is not pink nor a size small."

"Thank you captain obvious," Andrea sighed. "I could really use some coffee."

"Details please."

"Coffee."

Kate leaned in closer to Andrea. "Details."

"Ugh, God Kate," Andrea sighed, "nothing happened. I just want some coffee."

Kate gave her an incredulous look.

"Nothing happened," she scoffed. "Nothing happened?! You go out and don't get home till the following morning, still wearing what you had on last night minus your shirt and the only thing you have to say is "Nothing happened"? You are going to have to do way better than that my dear."

Andrea looked at her roommate from half lidded eyes for a moment before a small reluctant smile spread across her face.

"Okay, so maybe it was a little more than nothing," she said as she rose from the sofa and headed to the kitchen area. Kate jumped up from the sofa with a squeal and followed close behind her.

"I knew it!" Kate shouted as she clapped her hands eagerly. "So? Did you? Huh? Did you? You know! Did you check out all of his "artifacts"? And by artifacts I mean penis! Did you? Did you?"

Andrea rolled her eyes and gave Kate a disgusted look as she grabbed a mug from the cabinet.

"OMG Kate, really?"

"You're not answering the question!" Kate bounced up and down.

"No," Andrea sighed, "I didn't check out his "artifacts", ok?"

"Oh," Kate said, not even trying to hide her disappointment. "Really?"

"Yes really. Sorry. We just kissed."

"Kissed? That's it?"

"That's it."

Kate stood there for a moment, consternation furrowed her brow and her bottom lip seemed to protrude slightly. One eyebrow kicked up as she looked at Andrea.

"Was it a … _good_ kiss?" she asked.

Andrea placed her mug in the Keurig and snapped down the top as the machine began to brew up. She turned and looked back at Kate, her arms folded across her chest.

"It was a _very_ good kiss," she answered grinning widely.

The conversation devolved into fits of laughter after that, and for Andrea the release felt good. By the time she had finished telling her Kate everything, they had made their way to Andrea's room. Kate sat at the end of the bed with her chin resting on her knees while Andrea lay on her back looking up at the ceiling as she spoke.

"It was perfect," she said, "well, almost perfect. Up till the point when I smashed an urn that was, I am sure centuries old and just as valuable. I think that I may need to go to the doctor or something. I have been feeling just … weird or something, I don't know. What do you think? Kate?"

Kate just sat there, hugging her knees as a wry little grin pulled at the corners of her mouth.

"You like this one. Oh yes, you like this one a lot."

Andrea grabbed a pillow and threw it. Kate easily caught the pillow and jumped on top Andrea.

"You loooove him! You're going to marry him! And then you're going to sleep with him and have precious little pointy eared babies!"

"Oh my God you didn't!" Andrea laughed as she pushed Kate off of her. "And nobody said anything about love or marriage. I mean, how many dates have we been on and last night was the first night anything happened? And nothing happened really, you know? So we kissed and our shirts came off, oooh scandal! He still stopped."

Andrea flopped back down on the bed and looked up at the ceiling as she hugged the pillow. Kate lay down on her stomach next to her.

"So you would have …" Kate left the question unfinished, hanging in the air.

"Yeah I would've. Right there. I mean that's stupid right?" Andrea sat up and looked down at Kate. "I mean, when it comes down to it I hardly know him. He never talks about himself or his family or anything. But there are times when I am with him when it feels like … it feels so … I don't know, familiar maybe? I know that sounds ridiculous and cliché and all but … ugh," she collapsed back against the pillows behind her, "I have no clue about this guy and yet it feels like … like, oh I don't know."

Andrea raked her fingers through her hair in frustration but Kate just laughed.

"Of course it seems corny and cliché Andrea, you _like _the guy," Kate said with a grin. "Sometimes things aren't that complicated. Girl meets boy, girl likes boy, and if he is lucky girl hooks up with boy. And if they are both lucky they get to repeat the last part again and again. You have to stop dissecting this and looking for problems. Just go with it." Kate sat up as she spoke. "So he's shy, taking his time, making sure it is right. You have never been one to rush into anything either, well, except for this that is."

Andrea rolled her eyes.

"Are you going to see him tonight?" Kate asked.

"I don't know, maybe."

"Well if you do, why don't you have him come here? You know, get the home field advantage?"

Andrea gave her a skeptical look. "And you will be where?"

"Hiding in the closet. Out silly," she said with a playful swat, "I'll go to Gabe's."

"Oh, so he does have his own place," Andrea muttered.

"Hey! Watch it," Kate warned as she stood up, "As I was saying, see if he wants to come here. This way you can reestablish some balance of power that you seem to so desperately want. Maybe this time you can uh, work through his shyness. But first take a nap and a shower. You look like shit."

Kate jumped through the doorway of the bedroom with a squeak as she dodged the pillow that was thrown at her. Andrea leaned back against the bed with a sigh. It was not some simple need for an upper hand. There was something else. Something beneath the surface within herself that Andrea could not quite put her finger on. She rubbed at her eyes. For all she knew he may not even want to come over after her little display this morning.

She would have to think about it later. She grabbed her phone and sent out a quick text and then lay back down. Her eyes had begun to feel heavy. She would just close them for a moment and take a quick shower. She set the alarm on her phone and placed it on the pillow next to her head. If he called or sent a text she would know and if not, she would get up and shower anyway. Right now she was too tired. She would close them only for a second.

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_He kneels before her, clinging desperately, his face buried against her chest. His arms wrap around her waist so tight she can barely breathe. She says nothing though, so grateful she is for this contact. For any contact. Her own fingers lace their way through his hair and she embraces him back wither own gentle and tender need. Her hair dances about her face as the wind causes it to mix with his. Her dark locks almost seem to grasp at his gold. He is pressed so closely against her. She can feel the rhythmic pounding of his heart, the warmth of his skin through her clothes, the rise and fall of his chest as he takes each ragged breath. It is then that she realizes he is weeping._

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Aegnor awoke with a start. Had he been sleeping? He had returned to his apartment that night, after seeing Carnistir, and went to the roof as he often did. He could not see the stars from there but perhaps that was for the best, there was no comfort in their light. They seemed aloof now, mocking him with the memories they brought forth.

But he did enjoy the feel of the air on his skin, the sounds of the city in his ears. Sometimes he would open himself up and listen to the lives that were bustling in a rushed frenzy down below. He would stand there with his eyes closed and take in the mad rush of life around him. It was something he did often in his youth. He would stand outside under the stars, his eyes closed, the wind would move around him as he would become one with his surroundings. He could lose himself sometimes for days this way. And while the world had much changed from when he was young, the effects were still much the same. Soothing, calm, serene.

At least it used to be.

He stood as he always did, silent, motionless, opening himself to the world around him. Perhaps it was the way the wind caused his hair to brush against his face, perhaps it was due to the fact that he had just spent the better part of the evening speaking in a language that was long forgotten with a ghost that should have been even longer dead, or perhaps the experience of having her in his arms, his mouth against her skin, her body pressed to his was still to fresh in his mind.

No matter what the reason, the dream had come upon him quite suddenly.

No, it was not right to call it a dream. To call it a dream would lessen it somehow, writing it off as a fantasy or delusion. No, this was no fabrication, no invention of a wandering mind.

This had happened. It was real.

Aegnor squinted up at the sky. The sun was high above. It had been dark when he had come out. He made his way down the ladder and to the window into his bedroom. He walked over to where he had set down his things from the night before and retrieved his phone and froze. There were several missed calls, a few messages, a text and voicemail from Andrea, but that is not what caused him to pause. It had been Monday evening when he had seen Carnistir and the early hours of Tuesday morning when he had taken his reverie on the roof. It was late Thursday afternoon now.

He had lost two days.

He looked at his messages. Two short texts from Andrea, one asking him if he would like to come over and the other asking him if he was still alive, punctuated with a lol that he was certain was not sincere. He went to his voice mail and pressed play.

"_Hey, so, just calling to see if … to say hello and um, to see if, to see what's up. I hadn't heard from you in a while, I mean a couple of days isn't a while, I mean it is but, I don't … ok so I just need to know if you are still interested in coming with me upstate this weekend. If you are I am leaving tomorrow around eight_._ If you aren't, well … either way I am leaving at eight, with or without you. If you can, cool. If not, no big deal. Ok bye."_

Aegnor sat down at the foot of his bed. She was not happy. The finality of her message told him very clearly that if he did not show he would not see her again. She would turn away from him. Write him off as just another wasted moment, another disappoint to walk away from. She would move on.

Aegnor could not help but wonder if that was such a bad thing.

He also could not help but wonder if perhaps Carnistir was right. Perhaps he did enjoy making himself miserable.

He set the phone down, stood up and walked out of the room.

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Andrea brought the last of her bags towards the door and set them down. She went over her list once more in her mind. Sleeping bag, tent, clean underwear, plastic bags, toilet paper. It was a full day's drive upstate to Bloomingdale and then up route 3 to the cabin. She would have to stop and get the trailer hitch if she wanted to do any riding while up there. She would of course. She had already called ahead to the stables and asked Mr. Carter to have the trailer ready, surprising him when she asked that he not only have Lilly ready but Victor as well.

Of course that may no longer be necessary.

She had not heard from Agner all week. She had sent a text asking him if he would like to come over for a change. When she did not hear anything she had called only to hang up when it went to voicemail. So she sent a second text asking if he were still alive and to let her know if he wanted to come over. She even threw in a lol at the end in some sad desperate attempt to make it sound casual. When she still did not hear anything she had called once more only to hang up yet again when it went to voicemail. She tried two more times before she became truly angry. It would show that she had called on his phone. He had to have seen it. He had to have known she was trying to reach him.

It was really only a matter of time before she lost all patience.

It was not like she could not take a hint, although she did not understand why he had to be an ass and ghost her this way. He could have simply just sent a text with some pathetic excuse, anything would have been better than this. She just could not understand what had happened.

And so, whether out of some pitiful last attempt at reaching him, or some feeble chance for him to redeem himself she called one more time, this time leaving a voicemail. If he did not contact her after that, if he did not show or acknowledge her in some way, then she was done. It would not be the first relationship that had ended this way and she was certain it would not be the last. She just could not understand why it had to be him.

Andrea looked at the clock in the kitchen. Ten minutes till eight.

Kate walked up next to her where she stood at the door and began to help her pick up her things to take down stairs.

"Are you sure you don't want me to come?" she asked as she slung a bag over her shoulder. Andrea shook her head.

"No, it's okay. I would prefer to be alone anyway. Really, I'm fine. I promise."

Kate did not argue with her. She had gotten up at the same time as Andrea this morning, prepared to keep her promise to go with her if Agner did not come. But Andrea knew Kate hated camping almost as much as she hated waking up early in the morning. She would make her friend come. There was no reason to have two miserable women on this trip.

They headed down stairs and outside into the cool damp grey of morning. They set down the bags next to the front steps of the building where Kate would wait with her things while Andrea walked around to the next block to the parking garage where she kept her jeep. Everything requires rent in this city.

Andrea cranked the engine to life and let it warm up. She closed her eyes and took a breath. She was not going to let this define her. She would let it hurt, she could not stop that, but it would not alter her perception of herself. Rejection is a part of life. She knew the risk. Had she not have taken the leap she would have always wondered. Now she knew.

He's an asshole.

She opened her eyes, threw the little jeep in reverse and pulled out of the garage. She made her way around the block and came around to the front of her building only to have her chest tighten as her eyes went wide and her pulse quickened.

Kate stood in front of the building with her things, just as Andrea had left her except for one glaring difference. Next to her, with a small bag strapped across his back stood Agner.

Andrea pulled up to the front of the building and slowed to a stop. She sat there for a moment and looked at the two figures before her. Kate stood perfectly still and looked directly at Andrea, eyes wide with disbelief. Agner stood about a step behind her roommate with his hands in his pockets as if his being there were the most normal thing in the world. Kate walked up and opened the passenger door.

"He just showed up! What do you want me to do? Do you want me to spit at him? Do you want me to go bitch mode? Do you want me to call Gabe? I could tell him to beat him up! Do you want me to be nice? What do I do?!" she blurted in a hushed whisper.

Andrea sat there for a second. She had no idea what to tell Kate to do since she herself had no idea what she should do. She looked at her roommate.

"I got this," was all she said. That seemed to satisfy Kate who got out of the jeep and began to gather Andrea's things. Andrea walked around to where Agner stood.

"Whats up?"

_I am a pathetic idiot._

"I was hoping the invitation for this weekend still stands."

"I don't know," Andrea shrugged. "I mean I never heard anything from you."

"Your message said to show at eight in the morning."

"Yeah, well that was before. You never bothered to answer me at all so now Kate was going to go with me. She really wants to go."

A noise from behind Andrea told her that Kate had dropped some of her things as she spoke. Andrea ignored her.

"Ah yes, of course," he said looking down, "it would make sense that you had made other plans."

"I didn't make other plans. I was always going, with or without you."

"I understand," Agner replied and began to turn away.

"Where are you going," Andrea demanded. Agner turned and gave her a confused look.

"I was leaving," he answered slowly.

"Why?"

"Because, I am no longer invited?" he questioned.

"Who said that? Did I say that? I never said that."

Agner stood stock still. The line he walked had become even more perilous, if that were possible.

"So then," he said hesitantly, "what did you say."

"I said Kate wants to come, not that she was. I said I was going to go on this trip whether you were going to go or not so …" she paused, looking at him.

Agner looked over at Kate who was busying herself furiously with loading the jeep.

"So …" he replied.

Andrea's mouth pressed into a tight, thin, frustrated line. She did not like playing games like this. She hated when women did things like this to men. She found the whole fishing for answers to be a sad feeble thing to do. But she need to hear it from him. She needed to hear him say what he wanted. She desperately needed to know. She looked him in the eye as she spoke.

"So do you want to go or not."

Agner stared back at Andrea and for a moment that strange and yet familiar feeling came over her again, causing her to almost sway under the intensity of his gaze. It seemed to her as if the strange light that reflected in his eyes flared briefly as he spoke.

"Very much Andrea. There is only one thing I want more."

"And what's that?" she asked.

"To kiss you."

Andrea blinked as Kate stopped moving behind her and stared as well. If he noticed Kate he did not show it though. His eyes were locked on Andrea's

"Oh," she answered softly, "okay. Well, put your stuff in the back and let's go."

Agner said nothing as he did as he was told. It was probably a good thing. Andrea looked at Kate who stared wide eyed back at her, grinning stupidly. She mouthed the words "good luck" as Andrea walked around to the driver's side of the car.


	15. Chapter 15

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_Aegnor reclined against his pack and watched as his brother fletched another arrow. The steady methodical rhythm of Angrod's hands as they moved about their task had lulled him into a relaxed medative state. Time and surroundings had little meaning on him when like this. He would retreat within, blending living night and deep dream, as was their way when it came to rest. Eyes wide open as his mind wandered. Perhaps it was due to the open starlit sky, or the repetitive motion of his brother's work, Aegnor did not know. What he did know was that it had been some time since he found respite this way. Not since his youth. Not since before the ice._

_Aegnor blinked, suddenly aware. He sighed. Leave it to him to ruin a much needed peaceful moment. He extended long arms as he arched his back with a stretch. It was still dark but the day was not far off. It was probably for the best that he began to prepare to leave anyway. He stood up and ran his fingers through thick hair in a vain attempt to tame it but to no avail. He sighed again. It would just have to do._

_Angrod did not pause in his work as Aegnor began to move about the small camp. Once the small amount of belongings had been gathered Aegnor gave a low whistle that carried through the night. After a moment he was answered with a soft whinny and nicker as the three mounts materialized from the dark. Aegnor smiled as the lady Andreth's horse nuzzled his hand in search for a treat. His mount, Arveldir was far too proud to seek out treats but still he watched Aegnor closely to see if anything would be given. Erthor crossed over to Angrod and nudged him with his head._

"_Yes, Yes," soothed Angrod as he scratched Erthor beneath his chin, "it is early but you know how he is."_

_Erthor gave Aegnor a curious look. _

"_I am going to check the traps and see if there is anything to prepare before we go," Aegnor said with a shake of his head. He glanced back at the small tent that had been raised for their charge. "There is still time before the first light begins to break, it will not hurt to let her sleep."_

"_She is not sleeping," Angrod said as he continued to wrap a line around the end of the bolt._

_Aegnor turned to look at his brother._

"_What?"_

"_She is not sleeping," Angrod repeated._

"_What do you mean," Aegnor asked slowly. _

"_I mean she is not sleeping," Angrod replied, "as in she is awake, as in she is not in her tent."_

"_Not in her tent?" Aegnor said confused. "Where is she?"_

"_She got up some time ago," Angrod answered unconcerned. He held up the arrow and stared down the shaft, examining his work. "She wanted to walk down to the water."_

"_The water!" Aegnor exclaimed, looking at his brother in disbelief. "And you let her go?"_

_Angrod set the freshly fletched arrow down on his lap and gave his brother a quizzical look._

"_It is hallowed ground Aegnor, she is perfectly safe."_

"_Perfectly safe," Aegnor spat as he grabbed up his sword and fastened it around his waist. "There is nowhere in this land that is perfectly safe. You should not have let her go alone Angrod. I do not know what in this world would have possessed you not to alert me to her leaving." Aegnor snatched up his cloak._

"_You were resting," Angrod answered as he watched Aegnor wrap his cloak around his shoulders and march off towards the lake. "And it seems as if you could use some more!" he called after his brother's retreating back._

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**~oOo~**

Six hours in a car when on a trip can seem like long time.

Six hours in a car when on a trip, when angry, can seem like an eternity.

Not much was said on the ride up to the cabin. Not that much could have been said anyway. The jeep was quite efficient when it came to going from point A to point B, off road or on. But sound of the engine and the noise from the chasee when on the road was deafening. In order to talk over the roar of noise from the jeep one would have to talk loud. And Andrea did not feel like shouting. And so she stuffed her earbuds into her ears and turned on her music and simmered in silently.

Agner on the other hand seemed quite content to sit in silence. She thought she would get some satisfaction out of seeing him fold in half in order to fit in the jeep but now he just sat there, fingers laced together across his chest and head back, as if he were day dreaming. This only seemed to irritate Andrea even more.

They stopped twice for gas. Each time Agner offered to drive and each time Andrea told him no with a silent shake of her head.

It was petty of course, the way she was acting. But she could not seem to help it. She was so angry. Angry at him for ignoring her. Angry at him for making her care. Angry at him for his nonchalant attitude towards her anger.

She was angry at herself too. She was angry that she did care. Angry that she wanted to see him again. Flat out furious at her relief that he chose to come.

And so, for Andrea, a trip that was already long was made even longer due to her petulant silence.

They arrived in Bloomingdale around three in the afternoon but would not make for the cabin just yet. Bloomingdale was a small hamlet on the Saranac river. Once a busy logging town, now the camping/hiking trade is what kept it alive. Andrea spent much of her childhood coming here with her father and siblings. The memories from her youth seemed to lift her mood and she found herself smiling as they pulled up to the gate of a small ranch house. Andrea climbed out of the jeep and went to the speaker box by the gate and pushed the button. After a moment the box crackled to life as a voice came through.

"Yes?"

"Ms. Carolyn? It's me, Andrea …"

"Andrea?" the voice crackled back. "You're here already? You must've flew! Come in, come in!"

Andrea climbed back in the jeep as the gate slowly opened. Agner looked around curiously.

"Is this the cabin?" he asked.

"No," she said with a smile as she drove forward, "not yet. We have to pick up some friends first."

They continued up the gravel drive to the house. It was a simple one story surrounded by horse pastures and the Adirondacks. As they drove up, an older woman who looked to be in her late sixties came outside with a wide smile. Andrea had barely parked the jeep before the woman had come down from the porch and embraced her.

"Ah Andrea! My sweet, sweet girl, how are you? So good to see you!"

"I'm fine," Andrea replied, "it's good to see you too."

"Oh my, you brought a friend! You've never brought a friend before," Ms. Carolyn observed, peeking over Andrea's shoulder. "Some one special?"

Andrea looked behind her to Agner who was just exiting the jeep. Her smile became tight.

"Maybe," she answered, sounding a little cryptic. Ms. Carolyn raised an eyebrow.

"Well feel free to leave him here," the older woman said with a mischievous smile.

"And what would your husband say?" Andrea laughed.

"Jim? What he don't know – my," she exclaimed as Agner walked up, "you're a tall one."

Agner smiled and extended his hand. "It's a pleasure Ms. …"

"Gadsden," she said finishing his sentence and taking his hand, "Carolyn Gadsden." She shook Agner's hand and gave him an appreciative look before turning back to Andrea. "Well go ahead and bring the jeep around, Jim's getting the trailer ready for you."

She headed around to the back of the house as Andrea and Agner went back to the jeep.

"Where are we going?" Agner asked as Andrea cranked up the engine.

"Around back to the barns," she replied as she watched the side of the house. After a moment an ATV cart came around to the front driven by Carolyn. She waved them on to follow.

"She seems quite tenacious," he said as Andrea pulled around. Andrea just laughed.

"Yeah, you could say that. She and her husband work for my uncle. He owns all this and the cabin. They're kind of caretakers of the property for them. They've been here since I was little."

"You're uncle," Agner said softly.

"Yeah, I spent a lot of time at my uncle's when I was little, especially after my mom died."

Agner said nothing as they continued down the gravel road, eventually arriving at the barn. They sat in the jeep for a moment and watched as a man lead a horse out from the stable over to where a second horse was already tied off. Andrea looked over at Agner with a wide smile.

"I hope you can ride English saddle," she said and hopped out of the jeep.

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Aegnor had remained quiet throughout the majority of the journey. It did not take entering one's mind to tell that she had no desire to speak to him. And he could not blame her. He would have to make amends and it was not going to be easy. So he sat back and let his mind wander, admiring the mountains that rose up around them as they traveled. The scenery was beautiful and with her so close he found himself drifting back to memories in time that were long lost.

He became lost in his own thoughts. Not wanting to dwell on what was right or wrong, on what was proper and moral. It had been a long time since he had come to the mountains or returned to nature. There had been an age when he would have made a trip like this on foot and more than likely would have made better time. But such a thing would have been looked on as strange today and Aegnor made it a point not to stand out. Something that was becoming more and more difficult.

He had made the decision to tell her everything. Who he is, where he is from, how her past is his. It terrified him in a way that he had never experienced in all of his long years. She would think him mad of course. She would send him away. The time of his people had ended ages ago and if things were as they should be he would not even be here. He did not belong here.

But here he was, with the only being he had ever been in love with returned to him.

He had been mentally preparing himself for the inevitable rejection.

They had arrived at their destination rather quickly in his mind. Or at least what he thought was their destination. It turned out to be just a stop to retrieve something of value before continuing on. He stood back as she greeted the older woman at the door warmly. He took his time coming from the jeep, not wanting to interrupt their reunion. His feeling of elation at hearing he was the first person she had ever brought here was quickly squashed at Andrea's doubt as to whether he was someone special. He supposed he had that coming.

Aegnor walked over to the fence where the first horse was tied off. It was a tall dark bay that looked at him with large eyes as his ears flicked to attention. His chest was deep and wide and the croup long and level and he stood on legs that were clean and heavily muscled. He was beautiful. As if in acknowledgement to the thought, the bay lowered his head and pressed it against Aegnor's chest and Aegnor could not help but smile. He suddenly felt as if he were in the presence of an old friend and it seemed that when he looked into those large brown eyes, there was some sort of recognition there.

"_Estaman mellyn_?" he whispered softly.

"Victor," a voice called from behind him and he turned to see Andrea walk up, leading the second horse. Aegnor smiled.

"What?" he replied back as he scratched the tall bay under the chin.

"You asked him his name, its Victor. He's a Percheron. He was for my brother originally but Brandon never rides so I kind of adopted him. This," she said, turning to the smaller, lither gray behind her, "is Evy. She is Andalusian. A little smaller and more compact than Vic but just as strong. Aren't you girl? Yes you are," she cooed as she scratched the gray's ears before glancing over at Aegnor with a grin. "He likes you."

"I like him," he said softly.

"Good," Andrea chirped as she tied off the rope.

Aegnor stood frozen in place as he watched her cross over to the trailer to continue her greetings and assist the older gentleman, who Aegnor assumed was Jim, with the hitch. But he could barely register them at the moment.

She had understood him. He had spoken in Sindarin and she had understood him.

She did not realize she did. It was an unconscious reaction to hearing the words. She is wrapped up in the moment, she is happy here, at peace, distracted and yet focused. Aegnor's heart pounded within his chest.

They stayed at the little ranch for a short time more. Just long enough to sit and have a cup of coffee and allow the three to reminisce. Aegnor sat quietly most of the time and allowed them their moment. He listened as they talked of Andrea's childhood with her family and told stories of mischievous children who enjoyed hiding horse droppings in an unsuspecting victim's boots. Aegnor enjoyed this, watching Andrea as she laughed freely with the occasional cry of protest only to be followed by more bouts of laughter. For the first time in ages, Aegnor felt an almost overwhelming need for family.

Eventually, much to Aegnor's dismay, the conversation began to wrap and they loaded the trailer with their precious cargo and set out on the road once more. They did not travel long before arriving at the cabin. Aegnor was surprised at the size. He had assumed it was nothing more than a small one room with a bath but this was much more. It was a three bedroom, one bath two story with a shelter in the back for the horses.

They set the horses in the back and began to unload their supplies for the weekend from the jeep. After the majority of supplies where put away, Aegnor stepped out onto the porch and sat down on the top step. Framed by mountains, the setting sun's reflection on the water was quite stunning. Footsteps from behind alerted him to Andrea's presence as she crossed the porch and took a seat. He turned and looked over to see her curl her legs up beneath her as she made herself comfortable in the hanging chair at the end of the porch. He leaned back against the post and braced himself for the oncoming storm.

"I love it here," she said as she stared out towards the mountains.

Not exactly what he expected.

"I can tell," he responded cautiously. Andrea sighed and relaxed back in the chair even more.

"Tell me about your home."

Aegnor blinked. "My home?"

"Yes. Where you are from? Where did you grow up? Who were your friends when you were a kid?"

"Its been so long," Aegnor said looking down at his hands, "I am not sure what there is I can tell …"

"But you have to remember something. A story from when you were a kid? Did you get in any trouble I should know about?"

"Nothing I can think of at the moment. My brothers and I were not the type to seek out trouble, well, except perhaps once … although I did have some cousins who excelled at it."

"Oh?" Andrea looked over at him, "They sound interesting."

"That would be an understatement," Aegnor muttered.

"Were you close?"

"Who?"

"You and the trouble cousins. Were you close?"

"Ah no," Aegnor chuckled, "well, perhaps with two of them."

"What happened?"

"The … choices we made in life drove us apart."

"Oh," Andrea frowned apologetically, "sorry."

"No, no, it is alright," Aegnor waved off her concern with a smile. "They were known for keeping to their own. I was far closer to others."

They were silent for a while as the sun dipped lower in the sky. Aegnor leaned back against the post once more and listened to the sound of the horses in the back ground.

"What about your parents?"

"Hmm?" he said distractedly.

"Your parents?" Andrea asked again. "Where are they?"

"Ah, yes. They are … home …" he said looking out on the water. "They never left," he added softly.

"So they're still around?"

"Around?" he gave Andrea a questioning look.

"Alive."

"Oh yes, yes," he said thoughtfully, "I would think they are."

"You would think?" Andrea laughed. "You don't know?"

"No, unfortunately I do not."

Andrea stopped laughing and gave Aegnor a bewildered look. "You don't talk to them? You don't see them at all?"

"No."

"Oh. I'm sorry I brought it up," she apologized.

"It's all right. As I said earlier, the choices we made …" he gave Andrea a reassuring look. "I came to peace with it some time ago."

Andrea shook her head and look back out at the mountains. "I would give anything to see my mother again."

"How did she …" Aegnor stopped, suddenly uncertain as to how to finish the question.

"Die?" Andrea finished for him. "Its okay you can ask. It happened while she was pregnant with my sister. They went to the hospital for some sort of placental tearing I believe. While she was there, she said she had a headache so they gave her some pain medicine. A few minutes after that she stopped breathing. They had to deliver my sister by emergency c-section. It was a massive stroke my father said."

"Andrea," Aegnor said with a low gasp, "I am so sorry. I had no idea."

"Relax," she soothed with an amused smile. "I hardly remember much. I was only four years old. I was sent to stay with my aunt and uncle around that time too. They went above and beyond to keep me distracted." Andrea climbed out of the chair and stretched. "Come on, it's getting dark. I'm going to get some things packed. Tomorrow we'll take the horses out to the camp site but we have to check in with the trail register first. Feel free to take a shower, I'll get the stuff together."

Aegnor stood up as she spoke.

"I could help you," he offered.

"Oh no. I got this. Besides," she said with a little half smile, "I'm still pissed at you. Don't even think that I'm not."

Aegnor winced and gave her an apologetic look. "I understand."

"Good! You can pick any room you want to stay in," she called over her shoulder as she walked into the cabin. "Just make sure it's not the one I'm sleeping in."

Aegnor watched Andrea as she made her way to the kitchen. He looked back once more towards the water. What had happened to Andrea's mother hit home once more just how fragile the second born still are. Even in this day and age, with all of their accomplishments in medicine and healing, they could still be brought down so easily. He felt the familiar inner turmoil inside him. Is this right? What is right? There was only one thing he knew what right with absolute certainty.

He did seem to enjoy making himself miserable.

* * *

**~oOo~**

_Aegnor made his way down the small path through the trees. His brother was right of course, she would be safe here, the Black Foe would not dare to challenge Queen Melian for risk of failure. Still, to allow her to roam the banks alone was foolish. They were charged with her care and if anything should happen to her it would lay upon their hearts. Angrod was far too lackadaisical at times._

_He came through the trees to find the Tarn Aeluin before him. Even he had to give pause to marvel at its beauty. It was a mirror to the sky and made seem as if the stars were all around. He could see why the Lord Thingol would tarry here. He could see why the Lady Melian would remain. _

_He glanced around the shore to see a small silhouette perched upon a rock over the water. Aegnor felt himself smile in spite of his annoyance. Between the sky and the water she was surround by the brilliance of Varda. He could not fault her for this. It was only natural to seek out such beauty. He made his way to where she sat, allowing for his cloak to make soft brushing noise so as not to startle her. If she noticed she gave no sign as she continued to look down upon the water._

"_My lady," he called softly, "my lady Andreth, you should not be out here."_

"_Beautiful isn't it?" she whispered back, still looking upon the water. "I had been told stories of this place, in my youth. Fanciful stories of unimaginable beauty and magic … and love."_

"_Yes my lady, but," Aegnor smiled and took another step towards her, "we really should return."_

"_I can see why they stayed here," she continued, "here together. Why they fell in love. I think it would be almost impossible not to fall in love with someone here."_

_Aegnor chuckled. "I would think it completely impossible not to."_

"_Do you," she spoke in hushed tones, "do you truly believe that to be impossible?"_

_Something in the lady's voice pulled Aegnor's attention away from the sky above. He looked down only to find her attention fixed upon the Aeluin and so he turned his gaze and sought her reflection in the water._

"_Yes," he whispered back. "Yes, truly I do."_

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Estaman mellyn - sindarin for "your name friend"


	16. Chapter 16

**so a lovely little review reminded me that i have been neglecting these two babies. my apologies for being easily distracted. real life has been a consistant pain in my ass lately. i hope this makes up for it. feel free to review and enjoy.**

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**~oOo~**

He stood outside and looked to the night sky. Much time had passed since he had last seen so many stars. He likened it to diamonds strewn across a dark blanket. Something stirred deep from within him, something he has not felt since, well, since …

He laughed softly and shook his head. He had no memory of the last time he had felt this, but to be fair he had no memory of the last time he had felt anything. But now, as he stood outside beneath the brilliance of the canopy above him, something gnawed from within. A longing. A pull on his fëa.

He closed his eyes.

He wore only denim jeans. No shirt or shoes. The air was crisp and the grass damp beneath his feet, but he did not feel it. Not in the way Men do.

For brief moment he could see his brothers' faces. He could hear his sister's laughter. He could feel the loving touch of his mother and the strong embrace of his father. The wind gently brushed at his hair and carried their voices in the air. Horses whinnied and nickered from somewhere behind him as images of his many cousins came to the fore. Images of riding through the wild or of laying upon white sand after swimming along the coast. Images of happier times before the bitterness and resentment took hold, before the darkness came.

A swell of emotion came upon him. Joy tinged with sadness and laughter mixed with tears.

He wasfelt homesick.

He eyes flicked open.

The sky was still dark but for the tiniest hint of light that began to turn the dark blue of night into the cool slate grey of morning. Aegnor frowned. Time is so fleeting. He had spent the entire night out here, standing alone in the dark. The strange sensations from the flood of feelings that coursed through him made him easily distracted, careless.

He turned and looked back at the dark cabin. He could understand why she came here. He could see how one could find peace here. It had been an age since Aegnor had come into the more wild places of the world. Mainly because there were so few left. But also due to the feelings that were dredged up when he did. The memories and need for home. It would be easy to lose oneself to the past here. Something he could not allow.

If he listened hard enough he could hear her breathing. The soft intake of breath followed by a slow exhale. If he listened hard enough he could hear the soft rustle of covers as she readjusted herself in her sleep, a small and slender arm stretching out as she unconsciously curls herself around a pillow.

His hands tightened into fists as his muscles tensed and he resisted every urge within him to go to her. And he longed to go to her. But in the end he did not go. He would not go even though she was softening to him again, her initial anger almost spent. If he pursued she would give herself to him which was why he did not pursue. There was too much that had to be told, too much that had to be brought forth out in the open before he could ever allow such a thing to happen. His cousin's voice drawled through his head.

"_Do you enjoy making yourself miserable?"_

Aegnor smiled to himself and released the tension with a long slow exhale of the breath he had been holding. He could just imagine Carnistir's glee as he pointed out Aegnor's misery. It irritated Aegnor to no end at just how easy it was to give Carnistir what he wanted as well. With a shake of his head he began to walk slowly around to the back of the cabin.

It was a strange fate that he should find his cousin after all this time. And not just any cousin, but this cousin. Carnistir Moryofinwë Fëanorion. The one, no, the only cousin he had everdespised most despised.. The irony was not lost to him.

Aegnor had never felt disagreeable to any of his other cousins, even though Carnistir's father had been quite the bone of contention for many in his extended family, his uncle had always had always been tolerable when around Aegnor's father, one might say his uncle was almost accepting of Aegnor's father at times. But accepting might be a bit of a stretch as Aegnor could never remember his uncle not addressing his father as his half-brother. And yet, despite the ever flowing under current of animosity of his elders, he had been quite close to two of Carnistir's brothers whom he often spent time hunting or traveling with, and had great respect for the eldest of Carnistir's brothers, finding them to be fair and far more reasonable than their father.

But Carnistir, Carnistir he had never liked. Always aloof and haughty and prone to outbursts and temper tantrums that could rival that of the most rotten child. He was vain and selfish and after the death of his father and the return and abdication of his brother, somethingan action that Aegnor had felt was a rightous action to take, Carnistir had seemed to become even colder and self-serving. Something Aegnor did not think could be possible. The final straw for Aegnor had been Carnistir's insolent display of contempt towards Thingol and his people after they had welcomed them. No, they had never gotten along and Aegnor had never been of a mind to try.

But now, there seemed to be some sort of bizarre camaraderie that was forming between them. The fact that Aegnor would even seek solace from Carnistir, and that Carnistir would even be willing to give it, would have seemed an impossibility in another age.

But then, finding Andreth again would have been thought to be impossible as well.

The light in the east began to illuminate the cabin and surrounding woods in the cool damp colors of morning.

A noise pulled Aegnor's attention and he turned to see two large dark eyes staring at him from the shadows. Lost in his thoughts he had walked passed the house and now stood next to the small penned in shelter where the horses were stabled. He walked to the fence and smiled.

"Coiva tambë mai?" he said as he leaned against the fence and held out a hand to the tall bay.

The bay for his part simply gave a little huff and sauntered over, leaning his head over the fence to rest it on Aegnor's shoulder.

"Victor savin?" he said with a soft laugh as he scratched the bay under the chin. "Inyë Aikanáro."

A tug at his shoulder turned him slightly to see Andrea's grey mare sticking her nose out for attention. Aegnor laughed.

"Yes, yes, nícenlyë."

The horses watched Aegnor with large bright eyes as he spoke, each giving a little huff with a shake of their head. Aegnor could not be certain as to whether or not his words were understood. But it seemed to him that there was some sort of recognition there.

He had often wondered just how much from the old world remained. While Men had claimed dominion and watered down the events of ages with myths and legends of their own, there were times when Aegnor thought he could catch remnants of the past. Usually in the most isolated areas of the world. There were tribes in the mountains of Mongolia and Siberia that still hunted with eagles. A thing that many of the tribes of Men from the North and the Far East had learned during Aegnor's time in the first age. There were tribes of Men in the Middle East in the mountains of Musandam that carried long handled axes called a jerz. A thing another tribe of Men in Aegnor's time carried, although they were scattered and leaderless when he last walked the land. The tradition of exchanging rings when promised or married was also continued from his peoples. The tradition of Walpurgis Night was an early celebration of Men as well. A ritual to ward off the servants of the dark. Carnistir had mentioned that Balrogs and other fell beasts still roam the land so why not some of the more noble. It could be that the eagles of the Far East were descendants of the Thornhoth, it could also be that there were descendants of Nahar or Rochallor in some of the bloodlines of horses today.

"Mana equeldë meldenya," he said as he patted the great horse's neck, "cenasit caringwë omentië epë?"

The bay said nothing and gave Aegnor a slow blink. Aegnor laughed.

"Ui, citanlá," he chuckled. The horse's ears suddenly flicked up and to the right, brown eyes moving over and past Aegnor's shoulder. Aegnor followed the horse's gaze to see Andrea who suddenly let out a yelp as she turned and bolted through the back door of the cabin.

* * *

Andrea awoke to the quiet crackle of the clock radio on the table next to her bed. With a slow stretch she reached over and slapped the snooze button on the top. She lay there, half on her side, half on her stomach, arm hanging over the side of the bed, staring at the window. It was still dark. She rolled back over with another stretch till her arm flopped down on the other side of the bed and she lay on her back staring at the ceiling. She held still and listened for any sound from inside the house and heard nothing.

_He must still be sleeping_, she thought. _Good_.

She kicked off the covers and went into the small attached bathroom for a quick shower.

After leaving Agner on the porch, Andrea had gone into the kitchen briefly to gather what they would need and then made her way to her room. She had already set aside most of the supplies and knew she would wake up a little earlier in the morning for the rest.

Being here with him was not what she had expected. She had thought that by bringing him here and getting out of the city, she could gain some footing again and get him out of his element at the same time.

But instead he seemed to become … intense? No, at peace? Bright maybe? One with the universe? Whatever the hell it was, he was definitely not off balance.

She, on the other hand, seemed to struggle even more. She did not want to be nice to him. Not yet anyway.

She decided to focus instead on the tasks at hand.

After getting out of the shower she slipped on the clothes she had set out the night before. Jeans with a t-shirt and a flannel over shirt. While the temperature was still warm in the afternoon, it could get a little chilly in the early hours of the morning and at night. She would layer accordingly. She pulled her hair back in a loose braid and slipped on her wool socks before heading downstairs. As she exited the room she looked over at Agner's door. It was closed and there was no light from beneath. He was still sleeping. She crept softly past his door and down the stairs. She did not want to wake him just yet. She wanted to get some breakfast started first and then load up the packs while he ate. It was a childish thing to do but she did not feel like being an adult just yet.

She walked into the kitchen and began to pull out a few items from the fridge. Eggs, bacon, butter and bread, the usual breakfast fare. She set the burner on low so it could warm up and began to prepare the eggs. She was not sure of how he preferred his eggs or if he even liked them. She had decided to go with over easy but when she cracked the egg a small piece of shell fell in them and after taking what felt like an eternity to fish it out she ended up with scrambled. With a sigh she moved on to the bacon, laying a few strips carefully down. As they began to sizzle she grabbed the coffee maker and began to prepare a pot when she remembered that she needed to feed the horses as well. She went to the door and slipped on a pair of rubber boots and pulled on a knit hat as she walked outside. It would only take five minutes. She would have them fed and be back in the kitchen in time to finish breakfast.

Andrea walked outside. The sun had not yet peeked over the horizon but she could hear the sharp chirps of thrush and warblers in the trees and knew it would not be long. She walked out to the trailer and grabbed a bucket from the back and walked quickly to around to the back of the cabin.

Only to come to a slow stop.

At first it was the surprise of seeing him. A shadowy figure next to the stables, singing softly. She had been sure he was still sleeping. He stood there, no shirt, no shoes, just a pair of jeans, leaning up against the horse pen as he scratched Vic under the chin. And he was singing to him? No wait, not singing. He was speaking, but not English. Something else, something … she did not quite recognize and yet seemed so familiar. The words, his voice seemed to float on the air and wrap around her. Something seemed to flutter around in the back of her mind. Something just out of sight and hiding in the peripheral. A memory? She grasped at it, but it remained just out of reach. Random thoughts suddenly came to her mind. Thoughts of her father, brother and sister. A vague memory of staring at the night sky with her mother. Memories of pouring over old manuscripts, and of campfires in the woods. She could almost smell the fire burning. No, she did smell the fire burning. Something _is_ burning.

_Breakfast!_

Andrea spat out a curse as she spun around and ran through the backdoor and into the kitchen. Black smoke billowed from the room as she ran to the stove. She grabbed a dishtowel and quickly picked up the pan with the eggs and tossed it into the sink and turned on the water. It hissed angrily at Andrea as she turned around and grabbed the other pan with the black charred remains of the bacon and tossed that in the sink as well. Smoke and steam spewed forth from the sink as Andrea fanned the dishrag back and forth. She said a few more choice words under her breath as she began opening windows. A soft clearing of the throat came from the doorway behind her.

"Is there anything …"

His sentence trailed off into silence as he gave her a cautiously questioning look. He stood there, no shirt, no shoes, pants hanging loosely from his waist, his hair a tousled mess atop his head. Andrea thought she could see just a hint of those strange ears of his peeking out of the blonde waves. It was as if Michelangelo's David had decided to hop down from his pedestal and slip on some Levis. Maybe Michelangelo was not the artist to liken him to at the moment though, because when Andrea looked at him her mind went to something more on the Mapplethorpe level. She wanted to punch him in his perfect face and yet jump him all at the same time.

"No," she said, smiling through gritted teeth, "I am fine. I got this."

Andrea made a slow and controlled turn and made to leave the kitchen before realizing that she needed to go the other way. So she stopped again and made a second controlled turn and went to the back door where Agner stood. She marched over, head held high and eyes strictly front. Agner for his part said nothing. He simply stepped to the side so Andrea could pass.

Andrea walked out the door to the back and released the breath she had been holding while simultaneously snatching up the bucket she had discarded earlier. She stomped over to the stables and scooped feed into the bucket that she then poured into Vic's bag.

What was he doing up, she thought angrily. The sun had not yet come up in the horizon and there he was, wide awake and talking to the horses. He probably doesn't even sleep, she thought bitterly. She pushed the thoughts from her mind with a shake of her head. Why was she so bothered by this? So he gets up early? What is the big deal? She scooped up another bucket full of feed and dropped it in to Evy's bag next. This should not bother her but it did.

A nudge and a warm huff of breath from her right snapped her from her sullen reprieve and looked over to see Evy nosing her way into her feed bag. Andrea pursed her lips as she reached up and scratched the grey between the ears.

"Traitor," she whispered with a smirk.

Andrea sighed and headed back towards the cabin. There was no point in standing out here sulking, there was still things that needed to be done. She had packed food up in the necessary containers last night and had prepared the packs and tent but the horses had to be led into the trailer and they still had to check in at the ranger station. The sky was getting lighter by the minute and she wanted to be on the road before the sun was completely up. Breakfast would just have to wait.

Or at least so she thought.

Andrea walked through the back door of the cabin and into the kitchen to find a still shirtless Agner preparing breakfast. The pots had been cleaned and were back on the stove with bacon and eggs sizzling away inside them. He glanced over his shoulder at her and smiled.

"It seemed a shame to let this go to waste," he said as looked back down at the stove top. "I thought I could finish this for you while gathered the rest of what you packed last night in the jeep."

Agner flipped an egg and looked back over at Andrea who stood at the door staring. Agner paused, his head tilting slightly as he gave her a curious and somewhat cautious look.

"Or you could finish and I could pack? Whichever you prefer of course …"

Andrea just stood there for a moment before breaking out into a fit of giggles. She rubbed at her eyes with the palm of her hands before running her fingers through her hair and bringing them to a rest on her shoulders. She shook her head as she looked at the floor and laughed again.

"No," she chuckled with a shake of her head as she walked through the kitchen. "No, it's fine. I just … I … you just … go … whatever. I'm good."

Agner continued to stand very still as he watched Andrea walk across the floor and into the front room as she spoke.

"So I should load the car or finish making breakfast?" he called out after her.

"Yes," was all she shouted back.

It did not take Andrea very long to load the jeep. She had already packed most of what they would need. The food was carefully packed and stored in air tight containers to keep the unwanted scavenger away. She did a quick mental check as she put the bags in. Water purifier and filter, iodine tablets, flashlight, jackknife, water proof matches, whistle and first aid kit, sleeping bags and tent and so on. Once she was satisfied she pulled the jeep around to the back and parked it next to the trailer. She did a quick brush down and checking of hooves before loading Victor and Evy.

When she finally returned to the cabin she found breakfast prepared and Agner dressed, something she was particularly grateful for. Andrea ate everything in front of her. Not just because they would be riding the rest of the day but also because everything was just that good. She decided that since he was such a good cook and since he had cleaned the kitchen not once but twice now, she would let all this perfection slide … this time.

It was a short drive to the DEC station to check in. They would take the horses down the trail to the lake where they would camp the night and then return the next day. The ranger said the weather could not be better for the weekend and that the trail looked good for the horses. They went over the usual rules and regulations for camping and hiking but as Andrea had been here several times in the past the ranger was familiar with her and he moved through things quickly. It was not long before they were back outside, unloading the horses from the trailer.

"We'll leave the trailer and the jeep here," she called out as she urged Evy out of the trailer. "They'll be fine. I may need your help getting Vic out of the trailer. Just gimme a sec …"

Andrea took the lead rope from around Evy's neck and clipped it to the outside of the horse trailer. After she arranged the grey's bit and reigns she walked around to find Agner coming out of the back of the trailer, walking alongside Vic with nothing but his hand on the bay's haunches to guide him. Had it been anyone else Andrea would have stood there with her mouth agape, but it was not just anyone else.

"Let me guess, you are an experienced horseman too," she inquired without really asking.

"It has been some time," Agner replied, "not since my youth. But yes, I have had some experience with horses."

"Of course you have," she muttered.

She walked over and tied Victor to the trailer next to Evy with the lead rope and began checking the reigns and saddle. Agner looked at the bit in the bay's mouth with disdain.

"Is this," he said with a finger flicking at the straps to the bit, "really necessary?"

Andrea looked at him with curious amusement. "I suppose you have a better way? Vic is a good boy, you can tell him where to go with a nudge of your feet and not as much rein. But he has been known to get away from his rider from time to time so I would I think it might be advisable to keep it on."

It seemed to Andrea that Agner paused a moment and stared at Vic. Vic for his part simply nudged Agner and shook his head. This must have resolved whatever internal debate had been being waged in Agner's mind because he turned and began to set the saddle and blanket on Vic's back.

"Whatever you think is best, of course," was all he said.

They were able to saddle up and set supplies relatively quickly much to Andrea's pleasure, and after a quick once over of both horses they mounted up and head out. It seemed to Andrea that they could not have picked a better day. The sky was blue, the air was crisp and the sun was beginning to shine brighter by the minute. It was the type of beautiful day that could feed one's soul forever. The trail was wide and lined with ferns and the first of the falling leaves. The birch and maple trees were in abundance although there were quite a few pine and hemlock and the occasional spruce that dotted the trail as well. The trail widened enough at times for Agner to ride up alongside of her and it seemed to Andrea that he and Vic had become the best of friends. This did not irritate Andrea as his other accomplishments did though. She was too happy at the moment. She had been waiting for this weekend for what seemed like an eternity. Evy must have been able to pick up on her excitement because she would jump at the bit and try to break out into a run but Andrea kept a tight hold on the reins.

"She is ready to go," Agner commented with a smile. "You handle her well."

"She is just picking up on me," Andrea grinned back, "it's not her fault. She can read me too well."

"Yes, she can."

"You sound so certain," Andrea laughed and cocked an eyebrow. "I suppose she told you as much?"

"Actually Vic did," Agner replied with a pat to the bay's neck.

"Oh, well naturally."

Andrea gave Agner a little sideways smirk while simultaneously giving Evy a little kick and letting up on the rein. That was all the impetus the grey needed as she bounded to the lead. Andrea allowed her to go no more than a swift cantor, not wanting to break out into a full gallop for fear of the grey injuring herself with the amount of equipment they carried. She could hear Vic's gait behind her and grinned again.

It was not much longer before they reached the campsite. Andrea set about unloading the packs and setting a bear hang for the food while Agner busied himself with the tents and preparing the designated fire pit area. Andrea came here every year. It was a good size clearing that opened up to the lake where one could sit on a large rock face and look out onto the water. The small fire pit that she used was still there. There were good branches to hang supplies and food from to keep away from the random critter that would range through, but open enough so that no random widow makers could rain down on the tents.

Andrea finished with storing the food supplies she attached the lead ropes around Victor and Evy's necks so she could set out feed bags and begin to remove the saddles. Agner moved silently up beside her and began to remove Vic's harness with unmasked disdain. Andrea laughed.

"He was good for you today but you better be careful. You give him too much rein and he will run all over you."

Agner laughed as she spoke.

"Andrea you have no trust," he called over his shoulder as he removed the saddle from Vic's back and set it down.

"Oh you're going to speak to me about trust are you," she snorted. "I suppose you are right though," she sighed loudly. "I mean it's not like they ever blew me off or anything."

Agner paused brushing Vic mid stroke and winced. "I promise you Andrea, I was not blowing you off. I become … distracted …"

"Distracted … for three days. One hell of a distraction," Andrea mused.

Agner resumed brushing. "It is the truth Andrea."

"It is still a shitty thing to do Agner," Andrea said, straightening up from where she stood hunched over as she scraped Evy's hooves clean. She tossed the hoof pick to Agner and walked over towards the fire pit. She had walked over intending to set up the small grate that was left here year round for cookouts, only to find that the fire pit had been set up. And it was set up in a far more sophisticated manner than she had ever done. Instead of the teepee style that Andrea was accustomed to, this one was flat and long, the kindling had been set to be higher on one end and was already burning. Andrea turned around to look at Agner, who had finished cleaning Vic's hooves and was now digging through his pack.

"Did you do this?"

Agner looked up from his pack. "Ah yes, I went ahead and got it burning. This way the kindling can become coals for cooking. That is why there is an incline," he said as he began to unwind a spool of fishing line and cutting it with a hunting knife from his pack, "this way I can cook at different levels of heat if need be."

Andrea watched as Agner pick up a long thin branch from the ground and tie the pieces of fishing line to it. He then pulled out a small box and carefully removed the hooks that he then placed at the end of the each line with a small piece of bait.

"Where did you get that?" she asked.

"At the last stop we made before the cabin I believe. They had a little bait shop in the gas station. I thought fish would be nice."

Agner walked to the edge of the rock face and secured the branch over the water.

"So what, you're some kind of survivalist or ex-marine right?"

Agner brushed his hands off on his pants as he stood up and walked over to where she stood. "More like the Foreign Legion actually."

Andrea laughed. "Where did you put the matches?"

"Matches?"

"Yes the matches you used to start the fire." When Agner did not answer Andrea shook her head. "You didn't use matches did you," she asked.

Agner grimaced and gave her a guilty look.

"Of course you didn't," she muttered with a sideways smile.

* * *

By the time they had camp set and in place and had settled down themselves the sun was low on the horizon. The fishing line that Aegnor had laid out bore fruit, catching a nice smallmouth bass that he happily prepared. It seemed to him that Andrea had enjoyed the meal wholeheartedly, which had pleased him to no end. He looked at her from across the fire. The anger she had felt towards him in the beginning seemed to have lessened significantly, something else that please him.

After they had finished eating and putting everything away again, they sat back next to the fire. The sun was dipping below the mountains and the lake had taken on the same golden hue as the sky, casting the light like jewels across the water. Andrea sat across the fire from him with her legs crossed beneath her as he leaned back against his saddle, legs stretched out before him and his fingers laced across his chest. It had been some time since he found himself in such surroundings. There was a sense of contentment, a sense of peace that seemed to come over his being. He could not put to memory the last time he had felt this way and he chided himself for not doing this sooner. While he did enjoy the life that bustled through the cities, the influx of thoughts and energies that seemed to ebb and flow like the tide, there was something almost mystical about the wilderness. There was a stillness that masked its own undercurrent of activity. He could feel himself becoming one with the land, something that was important for his kind to maintain if they wished to thrive.

He looked once more over at Andrea, who was now leaning back against her elbows, her legs stretched out with one foot crossed over the other as she looked at the fire. Her hair hung loose and fell about her shoulders in long dark waves onto the ground. How lovely she looked to him in this dimming light, the fire casting her in a soft golden glow. How beautiful she looked. How like Andreth she was.

Aegnor looked away. He had to stop thinking of her in this manner. Even if she were somehow Andreth reborn, he had to see her as she was now, not as who she was then.

Movement from across the fire caught his attention. He looked to see Andrea walking over to where he lay and sit down next to him.

"So," she said with a sweeping gesture towards the fire, "where did you learn to do all this?"

"I spent much of my youth with my brothers and cousins … camping," he said with a smile. "I suppose you could say we learned together."

"Was your whole family the outdoorsy type?"

"Yes … and no. Some more so than others."

"Let me guess …," she paused, giving him a playful look, "big game hunters right?"

An image flashed through Aegnor's mind of he and his brothers tracking and riding down a pack of goblins, killing every one of them, the blood running thick and black upon the ground.

"More or less," he replied.

Andrea paused again, her playful look becoming thoughtful. "You don't like talking about them do you. About your family."

"What? No on the contrary I rather enjoy the memories. Especially the pleasant ones.

"And the unpleasant ones?"

"Two sides to every coin," he shrugged. "They have their purpose as well."

Aegnor watched as Andrea broke pieces off a twig she had picked up from the ground.

"Can I ask you something?" she finally said.

"Of course."

"It's kind of personal …"

"Ask."

"You told me once that you couldn't go home. Why not?"

"It is … complicated," he let out a weary sigh followed by a soft bitter little laugh. "My father … he tried to tell me. He knew, he understood what was at stake, what the cost would be. But I was young and foolish. I thought I knew better. By the time I had realized I was wrong it was too late. Tale as old as time. Wise, learned father. Stubborn, willful son." Aegnor brought his hands up to cradle the back of his head as he leaned back to look up at the sky. "Still, it is a harsh lesson, losing everything you love."

He listened as Andrea snapped more pieces off of the twig, tossing them into the fire.

"So … it was only family you left behind?"

Aegnor looked at her curiously.

"I mean, was there … anyone else that you wish you could see …"

Aegnor still looked at her.

"… other than family …"

Was she trying to get a something? His brow furrowed as he his head tilted to the side in confusion.

"A girl dummy! I am asking if you left behind a girl," she said exasperated.

Aegnor started in surprise. "Oh! Yes, of course! I mean no. I mean I understand the question and no there was, is no girl waiting. Not at home, no," he sputtered clumsily.

Andrea watched him as he stumbled through his response. "I'm sorry. I'm being nosey now. You don't have to talk about it."

"No, it is fine. I just … I am …" Aegnor laughed sadly in frustration. "There was a girl … once but that was a long time ago. It did not … it was not meant to be."

"What happened?"

Memories flooded Aegnor's mind. Long dark hair that fell about small delicate shoulders. Large, bright, inquisitive eyes that pierced his soul … no not his soul, his fëa. He could smell her skin, he could taste her tears. The old world seemed to be resurging. It seemed as if it moved dizzily around him. He struggled to pull his mind back to the present. It was dangerous to lose oneself in such a way. He looked over at Andrea as he focused.

"She died."

Andrea's eyes had gone wide and the look on her face was one of regret.

"Oh Agner, I am so sorry. I had no idea. I didn't mean to …"

Aegnor gave her his best attempt at a reassuring smile. He did not wish for her to feel pity for him. Not over this. Nor did he want her to regret her question. She had right to know.

"You could not know. It is fine, I am fine," he lied. "It was a long time ago Andrea."

She turned back to the fire and they sat in silence for a moment. The sky had gone dark by now and stars riddled the sky, covering every inch of the dark blanket of night above them.

"Have you ever seen so many," she asked, "so many stars in one place in the sky?"

Aegnor smiled. "It was been a long time. Too long to be honest."

"When I was a kid, my father would tell me that whenever someone died, another star would be added to the sky. I used to stay up all night trying to find my mother's. Stupid, I know."

"No, not at all."

They sat staring up at the sky for a moment longer before Andrea jumped up suddenly and began to rummage through her bag. After finding what she was looking for she walked back over to where he lay and held out her hand.

"Come on," she smiled, "I want to show you something."

Aegnor took her hand as he pulled himself up from the ground. Andrea clicked on the flashlight she had pulled from her bag and led him away from the fire, towards the rock face that sat out over the water. His eyes never left her as she took him to the edge and clicked off the flashlight. Inky, black darkness surrounded them.

"Just give your eyes a second to adjust," she said as she squeezed his hand.

Normally he would have had a little internal chuckle at that comment. His eyes had become sharper once more upon leaving the city. He could see for miles if he wished. There were no artificial lights here to confuse his depth perception or throw off his range. But he could not appreciate the irony of the comment at the moment. When Andrea had turned off her flashlight he had followed her gaze out over the water, and his breath had caught.

The water, which the setting sun had covered with blindingly bright reflection, gone still and now mirrored the night sky. Gone were the glaring jewels of sunset, instead replaced by the millions of tiny pure white diamonds that spread out over the water. The sliver of moon shone above the mountains in the water as clear as crystal. It was impossible to tell where the sky stopped and the water began. Tiny blinking lights dotted the shores and danced around where they stood. Somewhere in the back of Aegnor's mind he knew they were fireflies but could not shake the feeling that Varda herself were hallowing the very ground they stood on. He was spinning again. He had to find his footing. He heard Andrea's voice from somewhere beside him.

"When I was younger, my mother would tell me stories of an Indian princess who stole a brave's heart with her reflection in the water. I have always loved that story. I guess that some would think it was silly but when I come here, when I stand here and look out onto the water I would think it would be almost impossible not to fall in love with someone here."

Aegnor's heart drummed loudly in his chest. His mind teetered back and forth between the present and the past. He no longer had any sense of time. His gaze moved along the edge of the water.

"I would think it completely impossible not to …" His voice sounded heavy and thick to his ears.

"Do you?" Andrea said softly. "Do you truly believe it to be impossible?"

"Yes," he rasped as his gaze found hers in the reflection of the water, "yes, truly I do."

Aegnor would have no memory of who had moved toward whom first, although Andrea would often argue that he had taken her into his arms before she even had a chance to protest, not that she had planned too.

What he did remember was that somehow they had ended up on without a care upon the hard, cool ground with nothing but rapidly discarded clothes as a blanket. He could not think. He was driven purely by need.

This was her. This was _his_ Andreth. She had come back to him, found him. She had saved him.

He would not lose her again. Not now, not ever.

Hands moved over bodies as his mouth greedily tasted every part of her. His lips pressed against her mouth, her neck, her chest, and down her stomach. He was drunk with her, and yet uncertain of what to do while wanting to do everything. She pulled him back up to her mouth as her hands guided his in pulling off her pants. And then deft little fingers wrested him out of his. His heart was pounding in his ears and his body ached as her hands slid down his back to guide him in.

Aegnor stopped, his heart that pounded so fiercely with desire now drummed in fear. She does not know. She does not understand. To take her this way, in this manner, without her knowledge would be the greatest of sins.

"Wait," he gasped, "wait! I must tell –"

Aegnor stopped speaking as his world quickly began to spin till he found himself on his back and Andrea stared down at him.

"No," she whispered as she kissed him gently, "no. Not this time. I won't let you push me away this time. I love you and I won't let you run away again."

Aegnor gasped again as he felt her come down atop him, her warmth enveloping him. He looked into her eyes and he could see it, a light that called to him, that pulled at his fëa.

He knew this was wrong. That he should stop, he could still save her. But as he looked at her atop him, the stars framing her face and in her hair, her soul crying out with such joy, engulfing him with so much love that he could not resist. And so he gave himself completely, and wrapped his fëa with hers till they were one.

After they had spent themselves, they remained upon the ground, naked beneath sky, an offering to the One. Aegnor held Andrea in his arms, looking down at her sleeping face.

_Andreth, oh Andreth. With the One as my witness I will forever love you and no other._

Andrea stirred in her sleep and gave a soft smile as she nuzzled against him.

"I love you too Aegnor," she whispered.

* * *

**~oOo~**

_Coiva tambë mai = Awake as well?_

_Victor savin = Victor I believe_

_Inyë Aikanáro = I am Aikanáro_

_Mana equeldë meldenya cenasit caringwë omentië epë = What say you my friend perhaps we have met before?_

_Ui, citanlá = No, maybe not._


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Silmarillion, Humor, Romance