Big Time Rush 1. Chapter 1

**A/N: So I had this new idea for a Kogan story and well I just had to post it. This one is going to a Kendall mpreg because I don't do enough of those. Also in this world it is perfectly normal for men to get pregnant so yeah. Anyway, there will be drama! Tell me what you think!**

Kendall Knight walked into the large building, a smile on his face as he walked the marble floor. Everyone greeted the blond with friendly smiles and he nodded his head to acknowledge them. Everyone knew who he was and they all respected him. He was used to gaining people's attention when he entered the room. Being a famous singer did that to him, but the blond still remembered his roots and never let the fame get to his head. His boyfriend, James Diamond, on the other hand loved the fame and the fortune that came with his job. He was one of the richest CEO's in Los Angeles and if had a say in it, the best looking.

Kendall approached the woman at the front desk and she smiled up at him. "Here to see Mr. Diamond?" she asked.

"Yep," The blond smiled.

"I'll let him know you're here."

Kendall thanked the woman, then he made his way to the large elevators. James' office was at the very top and Kendall pressed the button to get him there. He pulled out his phone to check for any messages while he waited for the elevator to reach the top, and he smiled to himself when he received tweets from his fans. He responded to as many as he could, then the elevator dinged, signaling his arrival to the top floor. The blond made his way to the familiar office and he knocked on the door. He didn't get a reply and he poked his head into the room.

James was on the phone and he held his hand up when he spotted the blond. Kendall quietly closed the door and he walked into the center of the room. He could hear the conversation going on; it was about some business deal and Kendall couldn't help but roll his eyes. James was always trying to find a new partners just so that he could have more money is his pocket. The phone call came to an end and James sent the blond one of his dazzling smiles.

"Sorry to keep you waiting."

"It's no big deal."

James stood up from his desk and he strolled over to Kendall, wrapping his arms around his waist and nuzzling the back of his neck. Kendall loved it when James was affectionate.

"You're so sexy," James purred and Kendall felt his face heat up. He didn't consider himself sexy in anyway. James, on the other hand, was drop dead gorgeous. He always had a pretty face and over the years he worked hard for the body he had today. Kendall didn't understand how he got so lucky.

Kendall turned around and James took that as the opportunity to connect their lips. Kendall moaned into his lovers mouth and he gripped James' hair tightly. Normally, the brunet didn't like his hair being messed with, but he made an exception for Kendall. A soft knock on the door caught their attention and they quickly broke the kiss. The door opened and in walked a smaller brunet with the darkest eyes Kendall had ever seen. He loved James' hazel ones, but there was something about the man's brown eyes and Kendall couldn't look away.

The man cleared his throat awkwardly, and his face was flushed with embarrassment. "Sorry to interrupt, Mr. Diamond." The man apologized.

"You're fine, Mitchell," James waved it off.

Kendall glanced between the two, and he rocked back and forth on his heel. He was waiting for some sort of introduction. Kendall had never seen the man before and he was curious as to who he was. James noticed that he was forgetting something.

"Kendall, this is Logan. He's the new assistant I hired."

"Oh!" Kendall quickly remembered the conversation he shared with James last week. He was just surprised his boyfriends' new assistant was so attractive.

"Hi," Logan smiled and he reached for the blond's hand. Kendall took the hand in his own and he swore he felt something when they touched. By the look on Logan's face, Kendall figured he felt it too.

"So what is it, Loges?" James asked.

"Uh you're conference call is starting soon. I just wanted to make sure that you received all of the paper work I left on your desk this morning."

"I got it, thanks." James turned to Kendall and he planted a big kiss on the blond's lips. "I'll see you later, baby."

Kendall nodded and gave his boyfriend a little wave. James grabbed his file off the wooden desk, then he left the room. Kendall had thought for sure that Logan would have left with him, but the brunet stayed put. It was a little awkward; the two not knowing what to say to each other.

"So you're his new assistant? Like the job?" Kendall questioned.

Logan gave a small shrug. "It's okay. I mean James is a great guy, but this wasn't my first choice."

"What was?"

"I wanted to be a doctor. Obviously it didn't work out."

"Why?" Kendall asked, as he leaned against the desk.

"I failed my test," Logan replied.

"You have to be really smart for that."

"I am smart, but I wasn't ready. I wanted to start my future early and I screwed up."

"It's not that bad here. The people are nice," Kendall said.

"Well they probably worship the ground you walk on. I mean look who you're dating!" Logan exclaimed.

"We used to be childhood friends. That's how I know him."

"Oh that's nice."

Kendall was starting to get tired of the current conversation. He wanted to talk less about his relationship with James and more about Logan. He knew he would be seeing him a lot and he might as well get to know the guy.

"Where you from?" Kendall asked.

"Fort Worth. I moved to Minnesota with my mom for a while, and then I came out here to try and get into a good school. You?" Logan replied.

"Minnesota. Small world, huh?"

Logan chuckled. "Yeah. What made you come out here then?"

"I liked to sing and I got noticed by a famous producer. It was a total accident by the way."

"How?"

"James tried to audition and didn't get picked, so when I stood up for him, I was the one that got the job. James gave up a singing career after that and decided to take over his mom's business."

"I think I've heard of you. Your full name is Kendall Knight, right?" Logan asked.

"That's me. I wanted to play hockey, but that didn't work," Kendall said.

"Hmm. I guess we have a lot in common."

Kendall nodded and he looked down at his feet, suddenly finding his shoes more interesting. He didn't know why he was being so nervous around Logan. He was just James' assistant, but it didn't help that he was very cute and sweet. Kendall felt something towards the man and he tried to shake those feelings. He loved James and he would never hurt him, but Logan was so appealing.

"It was nice talking to you, but I have to get back to work. I'm scheduling a trip for James and I need to make sure he has everything," Logan said.

"Oh right. He's going to Minnesota this weekend. You're going?" Kendall asked.

"I have to. He's going to need someone to bring him his morning coffee."

Kendall laughed, then he let out a sigh. "I wish I could be there. Gustavo is having me practice a new song."

"Well I'll get to see you here. That's at least a good thing."

Kendall knew his face was bright red now; he could feel it. He didn't understand what was happening. Did he really have a crush on his boyfriends' work assistant?

"I'll see you around. Nice meeting you," Logan said and he waved.

Kendall returned the wave and Logan left the room. The blond let out a groan. A part of him was hoping that he never crossed paths with Logan again, but the other half wanted to see him. Kendall was sure of one thing and one thing only. He had a crush on Logan.

**A/N: Sorry that it was so short, but I decided to end it there. Well, what did you guys think? Kendall has a crush on Logan and we all know that this might not turn out so well lol. Anyway, I will update soon!**


	2. Chapter 2

**A/N: Sorry I took a while to get this chapter up, but I was struggling with writing submissive Kendall. I'm not used to it, but I tried. Anyway, glad you guys are liking this story and here is the next chapter!**

Kendall's crush on Logan did never seem to go away. He thought for sure that it would. He was with James for crying out loud! Why would he even look at another man that way? Kendall loved James more than anything and that wasn't going to change anytime soon.

But yet the brunet never left Kendall's mind. All he could think about was Logan and how attractive he was. Now James was sexy, but there was just something about the new assistant that Kendall couldn't shake. He often thought about the brunet in dirty ways and he would use James to get the release he needed. It was wrong; he knew that, but he couldn't stop. Kendall felt guilty every time Logan crossed his mind and he knew he had to forget him. It wasn't like anything would happen between them anyway.

Kendall watched his boyfriend walk around their bedroom, grabbing clothes and other items that he needed for his trip. Kendall was bummed that he didn't get to go with him. Gustavo had him in the studio all week and Kendall was going insane. He wanted to go back to Minnesota and visit with his family. It had been a while since he saw his mother and little sister. He missed them.

"You okay, baby?" James asked and Kendall looked up.

"Just bugged. I really wanted to go with you," the blond replied.

"To Minnesota? Why? I don't miss it one bit."

"You don't, but I miss my family. Sorry that your mom is such a bitch."

"She just irritates me."

"Then why did you take over her business?" Kendall questioned.

James ignored the question and he continued to pack his suitcase. It was an subject that was too touchy for him. Honestly, James hated running the family business, but what else was he supposed to do? Singing was his passion, but his mother didn't agree with it. She forced the business on him for years and he finally gave in.

Long arms wrapped around his waist and James relaxed into the touch. That was one of the reasons why he loved Kendall. He was always there to comfort him when it was needed.

"Sorry, Jamie. I really wish I could go with you."

"Me, too. But don't worry. It's just for the weekend."

It was too long for Kendall's liking, but he didn't have the power to cancel the trip. It was going to be weird not seeing James for a whole weekend, and Kendall thought for sure that he would be used to it. He's been on tours that lasted months, and every time it still hurt to be away from James. The two were so used to being around each other all the time.

"I wish I could go," Kendall said again.

"Baby, ask Gustavo if you can. I would love to have you come with me," James said.

"No. He's not going to let me. I'll just try to suck it up."

James nodded and planted a gentle kiss on Kendall's head. James continued to pack his things, humming a song that Kendall knew all too well. James was constantly singing his music and Kendall loved to hear his boyfriend sing.

"So what do you think of Logan?" The question caught the blond off guard.

"Uh. He's cool I guess," Kendall replied.

"Yeah, he always gets the job done right and I'm glad I hired him. He said you two got a long well."

"He told you we talked?"

James stopped packing and turned around to face the blond. "Yeah. He said you guys had a lot in common."

"Oh. I guess we did," Kendall said.

"I'm glad you guys got along. You'll be seeing a lot of each other."

"He's going to be with you this weekend right?"

"Yeah."

"Oh."

"Are you jealous?" James teased.

"No!" Kendall exclaimed.

James chuckled. "Baby, relax. It's just business. I'll be back before you know it."

James zipped his suitcase up, then he left the bedroom. Kendall let out a sigh and he fell back on the bed. He had to admit that he was a little jealous that James got to spend every waking minute with Logan. He wanted to know what it was like to be around Logan for hours. It was wrong and Kendall felt horrible, but he couldn't get Logan out of his head no matter how hard he tried. He had to see him again.

***BTR****BTR***BTR

"No absolutely not!"

Kendall rolled his eyes at his boss. Of course Gustavo would say that. Kendall wasn't asking for much; just a few days off to spend with his family. What was the big deal?

"Gustavo, it's just a few days," Kendall said.

"Just a few days? This album needs to be finished or else Griffin will fire us!"

"I haven't seen my family in a while and I miss them. Please?"

"He does need a little break," Kelly said.

Gustavo glared at his assistant. "He can have a break when the album is finished."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "I've been busting my ass on this thing. Look, I know it's supposed to be done, but I do need a break. I'm tired and all I'm asking is for a few days with my family."

"No."

"Gustavo, let him take some time off. We're all stressed here and we could use a break. I bet when we come back feeling refreshed the album will be done in no time," Kelly said.

The producer let out a sigh and rubbed the sides of his head. "Fine. But just for a few days."

"Yes!" Kendall said.

"But when those days are up, you are to have your butt back in the studio and ready to go. Got it?"

Kendall nodded his head. "Got it."

"Good. You can leave now."

Kendall threw the headphones off his head, then he ran out of the studio with a huge smile on his face. He didn't think Gustavo would actually give him the weekend off, but he wasn't going to question his boss. He was just thankful that he would be away for a few days and that he would see Logan again.

As soon as he stepped foot in the apartment, Kendall got straight to packing. James wasn't home yet, but Kendall knew he would be here soon. He couldn't wait to tell him the good news. The sound of the door caught his attention and he ran into the living room to greet his boyfriend.

"Hey!" Kendall said.

"Hey?" James raised an eyebrow. He was wondering why Kendall was so enthusiastic.

"Guess who's going with you to Minnesota?"

James smiled. "Really? He let you go?"

"Yep! This is great! I haven't seen my family for a while and I get to see you."

"Baby, you see me everyday. But I'm so glad that you're going."

"Me, too. I have to finish packing."

Kendall went to run back to their bedroom, but James grabbed him by the wrist and pulled him back. "Not without a kiss. I haven't seen you all day," James said.

Kendall smiled and he pecked his boyfriend on the lips. James frowned and he kissed him again, this time more passionate and leaving Kendall hungry for more. James' phone started to ring and the brunet groaned in annoyance. He was getting tired of his phone always ringing, but it was to be expected with his job.

"Hold on. I have to take this," James said and he walked into the kitchen to get the call.

Kendall listened for a while and he knew it was Logan calling about the trip. He heard James tell him to get another plane ticket and Kendall couldn't help but smile. He was glad that he was going. Of course he was going for the wrong reasons and knowing that made Kendall's smile disappear. He really needed to not think about Logan ever again and going on this trip was going to make things worse, but a part of Kendall didn't care. That part of him wanted to know what would happen if he got the chance to be alone with Logan. He was going to find out.

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Kendall remembered Minnesota being cold and he was glad to be back in the snow. James, on the other hand, wasn't enjoying the change of weather very much. The pretty boy had gotten so used to California's weather that he forgot all about the snow that Minnesota had to offer. Kendall loved it; it reminded him of where he came from.

James relaxed when they got to the hotel and he collapsed on the queen-sized bed. Kendall was tired from the flight, but being back made him excited and he couldn't wait to go visit his family. James' meeting wasn't until tomorrow which meant that they had all day to spend some quality time together.

"What should we do first?" Kendall asked.

"Sleep," James replied and Kendall frowned.

"Sleep? We can do that later. Come on, let's go visit my mom."

"Maybe later."

"James!"

The brunet let out a groan and he sat up. "Fine! You owe me big time!"

"Maybe later," Kendall said with smirk.

"Tease. Just give me a minute to freshen up."

It took about an hour and a half for James to freshen up and at this point Kendall was getting annoyed. He wanted to leave the hotel room and go visit his family. He loved James, he really did, but he hated the fact that it took him forever to get ready.

Finally, James emerged from the bathroom and Kendall jumped off the bed. He grabbed his boyfriends' hand and started to lead him to the door. The drive wasn't that far and Kendall was feeling more and more excited the closer they got to his old house. He couldn't wait to see his family again. They reached the Knight house and Kendall was the first to get out of the car.

"You're really excited, huh?" James asked him when they got to the front door.

"Hey, I love my mom! Sorry that yours is a-"

"I know what she is. Look, forget it."

The door opened and Kendall smiled at the sight of his mom. At first Jennifer was shocked to see her son, then she pulled him into a hug.

"Mom, you're squishing me," Kendall said, and the red-haired woman pulled away.

"I'm sorry. I'm just so happy to see you! Come in. It's freezing and I don't want you boys getting a cold."

Kendall couldn't help but roll his eyes. He was an adult now, but his mother still liked to treat them like kids. They entered the warm house and Kendall let his eyes wander around the room. Nothing had really changed since he moved out. James sat down on the couch and Kendall sat down beside him.

"What are you boys doing here? It's been a while," Jennifer said.

"James is here on business and Gustavo gave me a few days off so I decided to tag along," Kendall replied.

"I'm so glad you're here! Katie, is out with friends, but she will be home soon. She will be happy to see you."

"How is she?" Kendall asked.

"Good," His mother replied. "She can be a handful sometimes, but other than that she's doing really good."

The sound of the front door caught their attention and Katie entered the room. The brunette girl wasn't paying much attention, then she caught sight of her brother and a huge smile spread across her face. Kendall stood up to greet her and he pulled his baby sister into a hug.

"What are you doing here?" Katie asked, after they pulled apart.

"Got a few days off and decided to come here," Kendall replied.

"What, no Fiji?"

"Sorry that I missed my baby sister."

"I missed you too. Are you going to be here all weekend?" Katie asked.

"Yep!" Kendall said with a smile.

Katie nodded, then she turned her attention to James. "Hey. Long time no see," she said.

"Been busy," James said.

"It's great that you guys are here. It feels like old times," Katie said.

Kendall nodded his head in agreement. It felt great to be back and Kendall wished he could stay here for days, but this wasn't his home anymore. He made something of himself in California and that's where he belonged. Some days he wished his family could move out there with him, but his mother loved Minnesota and he knew she would never leave. Kendall was just thankful that he had the opportunity to see them from time to time.

"So any plans for marriage?" Jennifer asked.

Kendall knew that question was going to come up sooner or later, and he was kind of hoping for later. He had discussed the idea of marriage with James, and the two weren't exactly ready. They loved each other, but getting married wasn't something they were prepared to do just yet.

"Uh we've talked about it," James answered.

"I hope it happens soon! I also want grandchildren."

"Mom, we have years to have kids. I'm still trying to get my career on track," Kendall said.

"Honey, you're career is fine. You won't be young forever and neither will I."

"It'll happen when it happens."

Jennifer seemed happy with that answer and she excused herself to get them all something to drink. The baby and marriage questions seemed to disappear after that, and Kendall was able to catch up with his family. They couldn't stay too long because James had to be up early the next day for his meeting, and Kendall was bummed that they had to leave. But he had the whole weekend to spend time with his family and that made him feel better.

"Does she always have to bring up marriage and babies every time we visit?" James asked, once they were back in their hotel room.

Kendall just shrugged his shoulders in response. "She really wants it to happen I guess."

"But we're not ready. I love kids, but I don't think now is the best time."

"I agree. We have plenty of time."

James nodded and he climbed into bed. Kendall joined him and he snuggled up against his boyfriend, and James wrapped his arms around him. James kissed Kendall on the head, then the two drifted off to sleep.

The following morning Kendall woke up to the sound of James' alarm and he let out a groan. He had forgotten about the stupid meeting that his boyfriend had. James turned his alarm off, then he climbed out of bed to get ready for the day. Kendall wanted to sleep in, but that wasn't happening. He was already wide awake.

He just knew it was going to be a boring day with James gone. He didn't know how long the meeting was going to last, but he had a feeling it would take a while. The last thing Kendall wanted to do was stay in the hotel room.

"I'll be back later okay?" James said and he gave Kendall a peck on lips.

Kendall frowned. "What am I supposed to do?"

"I don't know. Go out or something."

"James, this sucks."

"You wanted to come," The brunet reminded him.

Kendall huffed and crossed his arms over his chest. A knock on the door caught his attention and he jumped up from the couch to get it. He opened the door to reveal a familiar face and he felt butterflies fill his stomach.

"Hey!" Logan greeted.

"H-hey," Kendall said, and he stepped out of the way to let Logan in.

"Morning, Loges!" James greeted.

"Morning. Ready for the meeting?" Logan asked.

"Yup. Hey, I need you to do something for me."

"Sure."

"Spend the day with Kendall. He's bored."

"You don't want me to come with you?" Logan questioned.

"Nah, I got it. Just spend a few hours with him until I get back. Thank you," James said, and he headed for the door.

"Wait!"

"Loges, it's fine. Thanks!"

James left the hotel room, leaving the two men alone. It was a little awkward at first, and the two didn't know what to say to each other. Logan didn't understand why he had to keep Kendall company, but it was what James wanted him to do. He didn't mind too much, though. He thought the blond was pretty cute and they did seem to get along.

"So what do you want to do?" Logan asked.

"I don't know. I don't really need a baby sitter," Kendall replied.

Logan frowned at the blond's words. "I'm not babysitting you. I can leave if you want?"

"No! It's okay. I was joking."

"Good. So what is it going to be?" Kendall had a lot of ideas, but he wasn't going to say it out loud. It would just scare Logan away.

The two settled on a movie and Logan sat down on the couch. He patted the spot next to him and Kendall slowly approached the brunet. He didn't sit too close and it didn't go unnoticed by Logan.

"I'm not going to bite. What's up with you?" he asked.

"I'm fine," Kendall replied.

He really wasn't. He wanted to kiss Logan more than anything. It was a bad thought to have, but Kendall couldn't help it. Logan was just so cute and Kendall wanted to know what his lips felt like against his own. The blond felt himself scooting closer until they were touching and Kendall felt those sparks flow through him again.

"Better?" Kendall asked.

Logan nodded his head. "Better."

The two weren't even paying attention to the movie; all they could think about was each other. Bad thoughts were going through Logan's head as well, and he tried to stop thinking about Kendall in such an intimate way. The blond was off limits and if Logan was to do anything he wasn't supposed to then his ass would be fired. He couldn't afford to lose his job, but Kendall was making things hard. Ever since they met all Logan could think about was him. He wanted him.

Kendall was kind of hoping that Logan would make the first move, but it was obvious that the brunet was either not interested or too chicken. Kendall was hoping for the latter. He wanted Logan and he knew it was up to him to make the first move.

He scooted a little closer and Logan turned his attention away from the screen and on to him. Kendall didn't know how he was going to do this, but he had to do something. He cupped Logan's face and crashed their lips together. The move surprised Logan, but the brunet was quick to get over it and he started to move his own lips. What was happening finally registered and Logan jumped up.

"Whoa! We can't be doing this!" he said.

"I'm sorry! I just...I didn't mean to!" Kendall exclaimed.

"Then why did you do it?"

"Why did you kiss me back?"

"No. I-"

"Yes, you did!"

"Wait! I didn't mean it. Maybe I should go." Logan went to leave, but Kendall was quick and he pulled the brunet back down on the couch.

"No, don't go! I'm sorry. I just wanted to know what it felt like. I've been thinking about ever since we met," Kendall said.

"Me, too," Logan confessed.

"Really?"

"Yeah. I'm so fired."

"He doesn't have to know. We won't tell him," Kendall said.

"So I have to live with this guilt?" Logan asked.

"Let's just forget about it okay?"

Logan nodded his head, but a part of him didn't want to forget about it. The kiss they shared was amazing and it left Logan wanting more. He was turned on now.

"Maybe we can do one more thing?"

"Like?" Kendall asked, then he understood when he saw the bulge in Logan's pants. "Wait, are we going to be fuck buddies?" the blond asked.

"No! Sorry if I came off as an asshole. I just mean I'm attracted to you and you sort of turned me on and-"

"Oh! Thank God you said that. I've been wanting to get into your pants since I met you."

"Um thanks I guess. You know you're dating James, right?" Logan said.

Kendall groaned. "I know! I'm a horrible person!"

"Maybe I really should go."

"Logan, wait! Just do this for me and then we can forget about this whole thing!"

"So you want me to fuck you?" Logan questioned, still not really understanding what was going on.

"You want it too! I know you do! After this we can move on and I will never see you again," Kendall said.

"But you will see me because I work with your boyfriend!"

"Fine! Never mind."

Logan bit his lip as he thought hard about the idea. Sure he had similar thoughts about Kendall and this could really be his only chance to have the blond to himself. Of course he would be fired and most likely killed if it got out, but if they were careful maybe it could happen more than once. Logan knew he was thinking with the wrong head, but he didn't really care.

"Okay, let's do it! Bedroom!"

Kendall jumped up from the couch and led the brunet to the bedroom. Their lips met again and this time it was rough and full of want. Kendall felt the back of his knees hit the bed and Logan pushed him onto his back. Logan climbed on top of him and connected their lips again. Both of them wanted this more than anything.

Logan reached for Kendall's shirt and he helped the blond remove the article of clothing. Their lips crashed together again and Kendall moaned when he felt Logan's tongue in his mouth. Kendall's jeans were next to come off and now the blond was feeling shy. Logan was still in his clothes and it was time for them to come off.

"You're overdressed. Take 'em off," Kendall said.

Logan smirked and he slowly took off his shirt, teasing the blond. Kendall licked his lips at the sight of Logan's bare chest and he couldn't wait to see the rest of his body. The brunet slid his jeans off and he tossed them in the corner with the rest of their clothes. Kendall's eyes landed on the bulge in Logan's boxers and he felt his own member twitch in desire.

Kendall pulled Logan back down for another kiss and the blond couldn't help but cry out when he felt Logan's hand come into contact with his cloth covered cock. He was sick of the teasing and he bucked against Logan's hand, begging the brunet for me. Logan got the hint and he slid the blond's underwear down, releasing Kendall's hard member. Logan wanted so badly to take it into his mouth, but he knew that the teasing was driving Kendall crazy.

Logan placed two of his fingers at Kendall's lips and the blond eagerly took the digits into his mouth. Once Logan felt like they were slick enough, he removed them and placed them at the blond's awaiting entrance. Kendall moaned at the feeling of Logan's fingers, but he wanted more that just that.

"Logan, please!" Kendall begged.

The brunet ignored his cries and he continued to finger him, enjoying the sounds that he was emitting. He was still teasing the blond and he could tell that Kendall was growing impatient. He removed his fingers and slicked up his own cock, then he placed his cock at Kendall's entrance and pushed in. Both men moaned at the feeling and Logan started to move his hips, making Kendall cry out even more.

"Harder! Logan, harder!" Kendall was screaming at him now and Logan started to thrust harder and faster.

Kendall gripped Logan's back tightly and he buried his face into the brunet's neck, crying out every time he felt Logan thrust. Kendall knew he wasn't going to last much longer and he tried to hold on the best that he could. He had been fantasizing about this for a while and now it was actually happening. For a moment, they actually forgot about James. All they could think about was the intense pleasure that they were feeling.

One particular thrust made Kendall scream and he threw his head back in pleasure. Logan was hitting just the right spot and the blond knew he couldn't hold on any longer. He came hard with a shout of Logan's name and he covered his belly in white. Watching Kendall come undone brought Logan over the edge and with a grunt he emptied his load deep inside of Kendall. They rode out the rest of their orgasm, then Logan pulled out and rolled over beside the blond.

"Wow! That was amazing," Kendall said.

Logan nodded in agreement. "Glad you liked it."

"I could totally do it again, but my legs kind of hurt."

"Sorry."

"It was still fun."

"Too bad this is the one and only time," Logan said.

"Yeah. We'll just act like nothing ever happened. James doesn't need to know," Kendall said.

"Got it."

Kendall was starting to feel the guilt. He shouldn't have slept with someone else, especially when that someone else was James' work assistant. But it was never going to happen again. James was never going to find out what happened. Kendall would make sure of it.

**A/N: Kendall isn't thinking straight and he's kind of an ass! But oh well lol. Of course bad stuff happens and things just get worse from here. I will update soon!**


	3. Chapter 3

Kendall was glad to be back in California. Sure he missed his home town and family, but California was his home now and it felt great to be back. James was happy about returning home, too. All he did in Minnesota was complain about the weather and how he missed the sunshine. The trip had it's good moments, though. Kendall remembered one moment that he would never forget, and he tried to act like it meant nothing. He thought for sure that he could get over Logan, but sleeping with him made things worse. James didn't have a clue of what happened that morning and he was never going to find out. Kendall was going to make sure of it.

The two were able to keep their secret hidden for weeks and some days they would find some alone time. They had promised to never fool around again, but they couldn't help themselves. There was definitely something between them. Kendall knew it was wrong, but he couldn't stop. There was just something about Logan that made him addictive. He was like a drug to the blond. They didn't understand how they kept their secret hidden for weeks, but they weren't going to question it. As long as no one else knew the truth, then that was what mattered to them.

Kendall let out a groan when his alarm clock went off and he blindly reached over to shut the damn thing off. Gustavo had wanted him up bright and early to finish up the album, and the blond was really starting to hate his boss. Kendall turned over to find the left side of the bed empty and the sound of the shower running gave him his answer. James always woke up early to work out and then get ready for work. Kendall sat up and stretched his arms over his head and he let out a yawn. He felt exhausted and all he wanted to do was climb under the blankets and go back to sleep, but life had other ideas.

He felt an uneasy feeling in his stomach and he started to gag. He cupped his mouth and made a run for the bathroom. The door was thrown open, startling the showering brunet and he pulled the curtain back to find his boyfriend kneeling in front of the toilet.

"Baby, you okay?" James asked.

Kendall ignored the question and continued to empty his stomach into the bowl underneath him. Once he was finished, he pulled back and wiped his mouth with his hand. He didn't understand where the sudden nausea spell came from.

"Kendall?"

The blond looked up and he gave his boyfriend a reassuring smile. "I'm fine. I don't know what came over me."

"I would call in sick to take care of you, but I got this thing and-"

"James, I'm fine. I still have to go to work. Don't worry about it."

The brunet nodded his head and he closed the curtain to finish up his shower. Kendall flushed the toilet and stood up on wobbly legs, then he walked over to the sink to clean up. He looked at his reflection and he noticed how different he was starting to look. He was a little on the pale side and he looked exhausted. Kendall figured it was just because he was working too hard, and he shrugged it off. It would go away.

He skipped breakfast because his stomach was still feeling queasy and he was wishing that he had called in sick. He knew Gustavo wasn't going to be happy about him feeling sick, and Kendall decided to try to keep it hidden. He arrived at Rocque Records and he felt relieved when he realized that Gustavo wasn't there yet.

"He's running late," Kelly informed him.

Kendall nodded and he sat down on the couch. He buried his head in his hands and tried to ignore the throbbing headache that was coming on. He felt like he had been hit by a bus and being at work was the last thing that he wanted. He just prayed that Gustavo would arrive soon so that they could get to work quickly.

"I hate traffic here!" Gustavo's voice boomed and Kendall's head snapped up.

"Well at least you're here now," Kelly said and she took her usual seat.

"Dog! Booth! Now!"

Kendall jumped up from the couch and quickly regretted it when he felt lightheaded. He grabbed his throbbing head and swayed. It didn't go unnoticed by Kelly and she eyed the singer for a moment. Kendall stepped foot in the booth and placed the headphones over his ears, and he waited patiently for the music to start. The song played and Kendall started to sing, but he couldn't focus. His stomach was acting up again and he tried to ignore it by focusing on the music.

He could feel the all too familiar tickle in his throat and he tossed the headphones off, and ran out of the booth. He barely made it to the bathroom before he was emptying his stomach again. He knew his stomach had to be completely empty now and all there was left to do was dry heave. The nausea disappeared and Kendall pulled himself up off the floor.

"What is wrong with me?" he asked himself.

He wanted to believe that it was just stress from work, but he had a feeling that wasn't the case at all. It was something else. The blond tried to make himself presentable, then he went back into the recording room.

"You okay, sweetie?" Kelly asked.

"Yeah. I think I just have a stomach bug," Kendall replied.

"Well fight it because this album needs to be finished! We're running behind!" Gustavo yelled.

Kendall nodded and he stepped back into the booth to finish up the song. His break finally rolled around and he plopped down on the nearest sofa. Gustavo excused himself to get another cup of coffee and Kelly took this as an opportunity to talk to the blond singer.

"You feeling better?" She asked.

Kendall shook his head and he let out a groan. A sharp pain ran through his midsection and he clutched it tightly. He was feeling worse and all he wanted to do was go home. At least then he could rest and try to get better.

"I feel horrible," Kendall replied.

"I'm sorry, sweetie. We're almost done. I promise."

"I hate being sick."

"Are you sure it's just the flu?" Kelly asked.

"I think so. Why?" Kendall retorted.

"You're not pregnant, right?"

Kendall quickly sat up. "What? No! James and I have been very careful. We're not ready for a baby."

"Honey, I know that, but things happen."

"Kelly, that's ridiculous. I'm fine."

Kelly shrugged. "Okay, but I was just asking."

Gustavo entered the room again and Kendall gagged when the smell of the man's coffee hit his nose. He cupped his mouth and reached for the nearest trashcan, and he emptied his stomach once again. Kendall set the ruined trashcan down and Kelly sent him a look.

"Okay that was gross. Dog, go home! I can't have you puking," Gustavo said.

Kendall sighed in relief and he quickly left the building. All he could think about on his way home was what Kelly said. He couldn't be pregnant. He made sure he was careful and that James used protection. But it wasn't like he and James had done anything recently anyway. The last person he slept with was Logan. Kendall's eyes widened in shock when realization hit.

"No! Oh God no!" he exclaimed.

He couldn't be pregnant with Logan's baby; the two had only done it a few times, but Kendall remembered that each time they weren't very careful. He had tried so hard to not let James find out and now that was ruined because he screwed up. How was he going to explain this to his boyfriend? How was he going to tell Logan?"

But then there was the possibility that he wasn't pregnant. Maybe he was just really sick and Kelly just freaked him out. Kendall sure hoped that was the case. He wasn't ready for kids, especially when the child belonged to someone that wasn't James.

Kendall stopped at the closest drug store and he ran inside. He walked down every aisle until he found the one that he was looking for, and he picked up a rectangular, white box. He kept telling himself that he was just overreacting, but he had to make sure he really wasn't pregnant. The blond took the test to the front of the store and he waited as patiently as he could to reach the cashier.

"Hoping for?" The girl asked when she scanned the item.

"Not sure yet," Kendall replied.

"Good luck."

Kendall nodded and paid for the item, then he left the store. He reached the Palm Woods and he ran up to his apartment. He unlocked the door and poked his head in, making sure that his boyfriend didn't return home early. The apartment was empty and Kendall dashed inside and locked the door behind him. Kendall ran into the bathroom and removed the test from the box. He glanced at the instructions, then he tossed the box in the trash can.

"Sounds easy enough," he said, then he got to work.

When he was finished he set the test down on the counter and he waited patiently. He kept praying over and over again that the test was negative and that he was freaking out for nothing. He wouldn't know what to do if he was really pregnant. Everything would be ruined and he would end up alone. James and Logan wouldn't want him.

The blond glanced at his watch, then his eyes landed on the test. He picked it up and took a deep breath, then he flipped it over. Staring back at him was a smiley face and Kendall felt his heart sink. This couldn't be happening. How was he supposed to tell this to James? He couldn't hide it forever. There was only one thing to do and he wasn't sure if he could go through with it.

**A/N: Chapter was a little on the short side, but I'm getting tired. So Kendall is pregnant with Logan's baby. They are idiots! I will update soon! Thanks for reading!**


	4. Chapter 4

**A/N: Sorry it tooke me a while to post a chapter for this story. I was struggling to come up with anything, but I hope it was okay! Kendall is still a moron. That is all I have to say.**

Kendall fiddled nervously with his fingers as he waited for James to return from his meeting. His boyfriend promised it wouldn't take long, and already it was running past thirty minutes. Kendall sat quietly in the chair beside James' desk and his eyes landed on a picture frame that sat near the end. He grabbed it off the desk and he let out a sad sigh as he studied the picture of the two of them.

He didn't know why he decided to sleep with Logan when he had someone who loved and cared about him. He loved James, but he screwed up and he knew that James was never going to forgive him for what he did. Kendall wished that there was some way for him to go back in time and undo everything that he did, but it was impossible.

Kendall put the picture back on the desk when he heard the door open and he quickly stood up, hoping to find James. It wasn't him.

"Hey!" Logan greeted and the blond gave him an unsure smile. Logan noticed. "You okay?" he asked.

"Not really. Where's James?" Kendall asked.

"Still in the meeting. He should be here soon though."

Kendall nodded and he let out a sigh before sitting back down in the small chair. Logan could tell that something was bothering the blond and he was hoping that it had nothing to do with him.

Kendall felt his stomach acting up again and he cupped his mouth to prevent the vomit from coming up. He gagged and he quickly reached for the small trash can that James had beside his desk and he emptied his stomach. Logan wore a look of shock on his face and Kendall turned away from the brunet and wiped his mouth with a tissue.

"Okay what is going on?" Logan asked.

"I'm pregnant," Kendall replied.

"Oh! I'm sure James is going to be-"

"It's yours."

"M-mine? How!"

"We had sex!"

"I know that! But...why didn't you use anything!" Logan cried.

"Me! What about you!" Kendall said.

"Why did you have to sleep with me! I told you this was a bad idea!"

"I don't know! Because I thought you were cute and those dimples-"

"Who cares about my dimples!" Logan exclaimed.

"Logan, calm down. I'm gonna get rid of it," Kendall said.

Hearing that caught the brunet off guard and he stared in shock at the blond. "You're what? Why?"

Kendall shrugged. "I can't keep it. I'm with James and if he finds out then-"

"Well, do you need to be with James? I mean, you don't seem that happy."

"Logan, I have to be with him. He loves me and-"

"I love you."

"What?"

"I love you. I know you're with James, but maybe we have a shot. It's worth a try," Logan said.

"I-" Kendall was interrupted by the sound of the door opening and in walked his boyfriend.

"Hey, baby! Sorry for taking so long." James went to kiss the blond, but Kendall turned his head and gave him his cheek.

"I threw up again," Kendall explained.

"Again? Babe, you need to get that checked out," James said, then he noticed Logan in the room. "Hey, Loges."

"Hey. I was just leaving," Logan said.

"Okay."

Logan sent Kendall one last look, then he left the office. Kendall felt bad for not saying anything about Logan's confession, but the blond didn't know if he felt the same way. Sure he thought Logan was attractive, but he wasn't sure if he was in love with him. They didn't really know each other. Kendall was starting to wonder if Logan meant what he said. Did he really love him, or was he just saying that for the sake of the baby?

"Are you sure you're okay?" James asked.

Something just didn't seem right with his boyfriend and the brunet wanted answers. Kendall was never so quiet around him. The blond seemed uncomfortable.

Kendall nodded his head. "Yeah."

"How about we go and get something to eat?"

"But you have work and-"

"I can leave. I am the boss. Come on." James held out his hand for his boyfriend to take and Kendall took it with a small smile.

The blond wasn't up for eating because he knew that his stomach would act up again, but spending some alone time with James sounded like a good idea. He was confused about Logan and the brunet wasn't something that he wanted to think about at the moment.

The restaurant wasn't very busy when the two arrived and they took their seats at a booth. Kendall was starting to feel better and he enjoyed the time with James. His boyfriend was constantly working and having James spend the day with him cheered Kendall up. He felt like they were growing apart and that was the last thing he wanted to happen to them. They were perfect for each other.

But what Kendall did haunted him and the child growing inside of him was a constant reminder that he had screwed up his relationship with James forever. The blond wished he never did those horrible things, but it was too late. He was just hoping that he had time to fix it before James found out the truth.

James reached for Kendall's hand and he rubbed the blond's knuckles soothingly with his thumb. He could tell that something was bothering his boyfriend, and he was starting to get worried. Kendall was never this way unless something was on his mind.

"Babe, talk to me. What's wrong?" he asked.

Kendall looked deep into the hazel eyes that he loved so much and he turned away with a heavy sigh. The guilt was really getting to him, but he didn't know how to come clean. If James knew the truth then he would want nothing to do with him. Kendall didn't want that.

"Just not feeling too well," Kendall replied.

"Do you want to go home?"

"No," Kendall shook his head. "I'll be okay."

"I've never seen you so sick before. Gustavo needs to give you a break sometimes," James said, and he reached for his glass of ice water and took a sip.

Kendall cursed to himself at the mention of his boss. He had totally forgotten about Gustavo and Kelly. He would surely be fired if they found out. He was sure Kelly already knew just by the questions she had asked him the other day, but Gustavo didn't have a clue. Kendall knew he was going to get it.

But there was the option of getting rid of the baby and then no one would ever know about it. He could move on and focus on his relationship with James. It seemed like a good idea, but a tiny voice in the back of Kendall's head told him that it was the worst idea in the world. It was just an easy way out. Kendall liked the idea of that, but he was the one that screwed up and he had to deal with the consequences.

The waiter appeared with their food and he set the hot plates in front of them. James thanked the waiter, then he dug into his meal. Kendall looked down at his and he could feel his stomach acting up again. The food looked good, but the smell was totally off. It just didn't smell right to him. He caught James staring at him and he put on a fake smile and attempted to eat his food.

The minute it entered his mouth Kendall felt like he was going to be sick. He tried to force himself to eat most of it, but he just couldn't go through with it. He pushed his plate away and quickly excused himself. The bathroom wasn't too far and Kendall felt relief wash over him when he realized he was the only one in there. He made his way to the last stall and locked the door behind him, then he emptied his stomach.

He pulled away when he was confident that he was finished and he rested against the cool, tiled wall. Kendall knew that he had to stop the vomiting before James caught on, but he didn't know what to do. It seemed like everything triggered it. Kendall had to get rid of this child fast.

****BTR****BTR****BTR****BTR

Kelly was staring at him; Kendall could feel her dark eyes on him and it made him nervous. He had thrown up again during a song and Gustavo gave him a break to get himself together. Kendall knew he had to tell them what was going on, but it didn't make any sense to do that when he was probably just going to terminate his pregnancy anyway.

The idea still didn't sit well with him, but what else was he supposed to do? James wouldn't want him or the baby, and Kendall just couldn't live without James. Fooling around with Logan was a mistake and he wanted to take that night back more than anything.

The blond snapped out of it when he felt a hand on his shoulder and he looked up to find Kelly with a worried expression on her face. He had to tell her. He needed help with the situation and right now he felt like she was the only one who could help him.

"What's going on, Kendall?" she asked.

Kendall let out a sad sigh. "I'm pregnant."

Kelly gasped. "You are? Honey, that's great! I know you and James weren't ready for kids, but it's still great news!"

"No, it's not. It's not his."

Kelly's face fell. "Oh. Then who is the father?"

"His name is Logan. He works for James. It was a stupid mistake," Kendall replied.

"Does James know?"

"No. I don't know how to tell him. I was thinking about getting an abortion."

"No! You are not going to kill an innocent child!"

"Kelly, it's my body. I can do whatever I want."

"Yes, but you're making a mistake. You don't honestly want to do that, do you?" Kelly asked.

"What else am I supposed to do!" Kendall cried.

"Tell James the truth. It's better to be honest."

"He'll hate me."

"Honey, you have to tell him. Hiding this from him is just going to make things worse."

Kendall knew she was right, but he didn't know how he was going to tell James the truth. All he could think about was how angry James was going to be. Kendall hated himself for what he did.

"Kelly, there has to be another way."

"He needs to know, sweetie."

Kendall let out a sigh and he ran his fingers through his hair. He wished there was a way out of this, but there was no light at the end of the tunnel. Things were going to end badly. He just knew it.

****BTR****BTR****BTR****BTR

Kendall shut his eyes tightly when his stomach cramped up again and he clutched his midsection tightly. He was glad that he had the day off today and he decided to spend it relaxing on the couch, but his relaxation time came to a halt when he started to experience horrible stomach cramps. The pain was uncomfortable and he squirmed on the couch as he waited for it to pass.

James was downstairs at the gym and Kendall couldn't help but feel annoyed. He wanted James to be taking care of him or at least spending some time with him. James was always busy at the office and Kendall was always in the studio. Sometimes Kendall didn't understand how they were still a couple.

The sound of the door caught his attention and James walked into the apartment. He was humming to himself and he set his sweaty towel down on one of the dining chairs. His earphones were still in his ears and Kendall wanted to see how long it would take for James to notice him. Finally hazel eyes met green and James sent Kendall a smile, only for it to falter when he took in his boyfriends' appearance.

"You look awful," He commented and he walked into the living room.

"Gee thanks. Sorry I can't look great like you," Kendall said.

"I just meant that you look really sick. Isn't the flu only supposed to last a few days?"

"I think so. Maybe it's something else."

"I hope you're not pregnant."

Kendall frowned. "What is that supposed to mean?"

"I'm just saying that we're not ready for kids. We talked about this, remember?" James reminded him.

"I know. It's just that things could change, right?"

"Yeah, but I'm not ready for kids. I like it just being us."

Kendall let out a sigh. "I guess so."

"We can have kids, but now isn't the time. We're too busy and right now we should be focusing on us. A baby will just get in the way," James said.

"True."

"Let me take you in so you can get better. I hate seeing you like this."

"James, I'm okay. It will go away," Kendall assured.

James nodded his head and planted a gentle kiss to the blond's head, then he made his way down the hall towards their bedroom. Kendall let out a sigh and he threw his head back against the couch. It seemed like things were getting more complicated and Kendall was stressing out even more about the situation. He had to do something before the shit really hit the fan.


	5. Chapter 5

Kendall was still sick, which wasn't much of a surprise, well to him anyway. James, on the other hand, was still very much surprised to find his boyfriends' illness still didn't go away. The CEO was getting concerned with Kendall's health more and more each day. This wasn't just some case of the flu anymore and he wanted to know what was going on. He tried talking to Kendall, but each time the blond claimed he was fine and quickly changed the subject to that of something else.

Kendall was starting to panic. James was catching on and the blond wasn't sure how much longer he could keep his secret hidden. He tried to keep the morning sickness under control, but even that was becoming a challenge. It seemed like anything and everything triggered it and James was starting to take notice. Kendall knew he had to tell the truth. That was the only thing he could do.

Kendall found himself in his usual spot, on the floor in front of the toilet. James was to blame for today's episode. His cologne made the blond's stomach upset and he ran to the bathroom before he could ruin James' new suit.

The blond flinched when he felt a hand on his back, and he relaxed to the comforting touch. Kendall pulled himself away from the toilet when the vomiting was over and he leaned back into James. The brunet flushed the toilet and grabbed a tissue, then he handed it to his boyfriend.

"Thanks." Kendall smiled and wiped his mouth clean, then he tossed the soiled tissue in the trashcan.

"Still sick?" James asked.

"That obvious?"

James chuckled lightly and helped Kendall to his feet. "Babe, you need to get checked out. It's starting to scare me."

"James, I'm fine. It will pass."

James gave him a look of disbelief. "This is has been going on for a while and I don't think it's going to pass any time soon."

"Fine! I'll go later okay? Happy!"

"Very, but let's go tomorrow morning before my afternoon meeting."

"Of course you would have one[p," Kendall muttered.

"Huh?" James shot him a puzzled look.

"Nothing. That's fine."

"Great." The brunet pecked Kendall on the cheek, then he left the bathroom to finish getting ready for work.

Kendall let out a sad sigh and he threaded his fingers through his messy hair. All James seemed to care about was work, and Kendall even found himself wondering if James cared about him. Kendall wanted to think so, but nowadays he wasn't so sure. James was never home; he was always at the office or had some meeting to attend. Kendall felt like he had been placed on the back burner.

His mind wandered to the child growing inside of him and his hand landed on his still flat stomach. The idea of keeping the child came to mind more than Kendall liked, but he knew that he couldn't do it. His relationship with James would surely end, but Kendall was sure that it was going to end whether he had the baby or not. They were falling apart.

Kendall turned the faucet on and splashed cold water on his face, then he reached for the closest towel and wiped the water away. He still looked exhausted and his complexion was dull. He didn't want to feel like this anymore, but he didn't want to kill the child either. The blond was torn on what to do.

He made his way into the living room and he collapsed on the couch and let his eyes fall shut. He felt another soft kiss to his head, then he heard the door shut. James was gone for the day and Kendall wasn't sure when he would come home. Kendall's body relaxed fairly quick and he soon found himself falling into a peaceful' slumber.

Kendall wasn't sure how long he was asleep, and he was startled from his nap when he heard a knock on the door. The blond groaned and he sat up, rubbing his head when it started to throb. He made his way to the door and looked through the peephole, his eyes widening when he recognized the person behind the door. Kendall let out a sigh and he opened the door.

Logan smiled at him. "Hey! I was hoping you would be here."

"Uh huh. Why are you here? Shouldn't you be with James?" Kendall questioned.

"I have the day off and I wanted to check up on you."

"I'm fine. Thanks."

Logan frowned at the blond's words. "You're not fine. I can see it. Listen, can we just talk for a minute? I just want to explain myself."

"Oh you mean how you blurted out that you loved me when you don't even know me? Yeah, sure I'd love to hear it."

"You're being sarcastic, aren't you?"

"Logan, I don't have time for this. What we did was wrong and it's over now. I'm with James," Kendall said.

"Then why did you sleep with me?" Logan asked.

Kendall rolled his eyes and let out a sigh. "We're going through some things, but I can fix it. I promise it won't happen again."

Kendall went to close the door, but Logan quickly placed his foot in front of it to prevent it from shutting. "I'm not leaving until we talk. You're carrying my baby and I deserve a say in what happens."

"I'm getting rid of it, Logan. We can't have this baby."

"Why because it will ruin your relationship with James? Well guess what, Kendall? It's already ruined and hurting that baby won't change a thing."

"Leave."

Logan crossed his arms over his chest defiantly. "I'm not going anywhere until we talk about this."

"Fine! Get in here."

The blond stepped aside for Logan to enter the apartment, and he shut the door once Logan was inside. He didn't want to talk about them or the baby; he just wanted to forget and try to move on with his life, but he knew that was never going to happen.

"Okay what?" Kendall asked, and he sat down on the sofa and crossed his arms over his chest. He was annoyed and he was making it obvious.

"I'm sorry if I freaked you out by saying that I love you. You're right, I don't really know you and I shouldn't have said that. I do feel something for you, but I don't know if it's love yet," Logan replied.

"Let me stop you right there. You're never going to love me okay? And I'm never going to love you. I'm with James and he's the one I love. Got it?"

Logan nodded his head. "Yeah, sure. But you can't hurt that baby. He or she had nothing to do with the mistake we made. That's my baby, too."

"I don't want it. My relationship with my boyfriend would be ruined and I can't take that risk."

"Are you even listening to yourself!" Logan cried. "The baby is innocent and it belongs to me too. You can't kill it."

Kendall shook his head and ran his fingers through his hair. "So what? I'm supposed to carry this thing around until James notices? And then what? I lose him? No! No way!"

"Then tell him the truth."

"I can't do that."

"Then I will."

Kendall jumped up from the couch and got in Logan's face. "You don't have the right to do that. It's not your place."

"And it's not your place to harm my baby," Logan told him.

"Fine. I will think of something."

"Good."

"Why did you have to come into my life? Everything was perfect until you came along!"

"Obviously it wasn't because you wanted me. The first day I met you I knew that you would do something to lure me over."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "You're a fucking moron."

"I know. I never should have done what I did, but it's too late to play the blame game. This is happening whether we want it to or not," Logan said.

"Just leave please? I want to be alone."

Logan respected the blond's wishes and he left the apartment. Kendall collapsed on the couch with a heavy sigh and he ran his hands over his face. Everything was just too complicated and he wanted nothing more than to get rid of the problem, but Logan was right; the baby wasn't the problem. Kendall knew he was to blame for this mess, but he didn't know how he was going to tell James. He loved him and didn't want to lose him. There had to be something he could do.

The rest of the day Kendall found himself thinking long and hard about what he was going to do. He promised he wouldn't kill the baby, so that meant he had to figure out a way to hide the pregnancy from James. It wasn't going to be easy.

Then it hit him. He knew exactly what he was going to do.

James returned home late, but that was to be expected. Kendall didn't mind too much and he jumped up from the couch to greet his boyfriend with a kiss. The kiss caught the brunet off guard and it left a goofy smile on his face when it ended.

"I take it you had a good day?" James asked, and he set his brief case down on the kitchen table.

"I did. I feel great and I think that bug is going away," Kendall replied.

"Good because I hated seeing you so sick. I wonder what it was."

Kendall shrugged his shoulders. "Beats me. So you're home late?"

"Babe, I'm so sorry. Logan called in today so I had to find a replacement and it just put me behind."

"It's okay," Kendall wrapped his arms around the taller man's neck and he pecked him on the lips. "You're here now."

"What's gotten into you? You haven't touched me in a while."

"Then let's fix that."

James smirked and he leaned down to capture the blond's lips in a kiss. It didn't take long for the kiss to become heated and the two found themselves making their way down the hall and toward the bedroom. Kendall was pushed onto the bed and he brought James down with him, their lips never breaking contact. Kendall let out moan when he felt James' soft lips on his neck and he ran his hands through the brunet's hair. He was only allowed to touch James' hair when they were in the bedroom.

James sat up and slid his jacket off his shoulders, then he started to slowly unbutton his shirt. Kendall knew he was being teased and that just seemed to turn him on even more. James' sculpted chest came into view and Kendall reached out to touch the beautiful body. James connected their lips again and Kendall parted his own to give James more access to his mouth.

Kendall's hands made their way down to James' slacks and he quickly got to work on getting them undone. He slipped his hand down the front of the brunet's pants and gripped his hard cock, earning a pleasurable moan from his lover. Kendall removed his hand, which made James whine from the loss. The teasing was becoming too much and it was time James took matters into his own hands. He crashed their lips together, moaning at the taste of the blond. Kendall was extremely turned on now and he wanted nothing more than for James to fuck him.

"Jamie, please!" He begged.

James' hands found the hem of Kendall's shirt and he tugged on it. Kendall got the hint and he sat up quickly to help discard the clothing item. He didn't feel like his body was anything spectacular, but the growl he received from James told him that the brunet liked what he saw. Kendall was forcefully pushed back again and he watched as James popped the button of his jeans open and slid them off his slim legs. He felt James' hot breath over his cloth covered member and he threw his head back in pleasure at the feeling of James' mouth over his cock.

"James, please! I need you!" He cried out. The teasing was too much and Kendall wanted more.

The brunet slide Kendall's boxers down, releasing his hard cock from its confines. Kendall cried out when he felt James engulf him and he threaded his fingers through the dark locks. It had been a while since the two of them had done anything like this, and for a second Kendall wondered why they stopped.

Kendall squirmed and moan from the feeling, and he could feel himself getting close to his first release. James could tell by the look on Kendall's face that the blond was close, and he started to suck faster. He swirled his tongue around the tip, collecting any precum that had formed there. He loved the taste of Kendall.

"James!" Kendall cried and he tugged on his boyfriend's hair tighter. He was so close.

James ignored the cries and the pain from having his hair pulled, and he continued to suck the blond off. With his hand he played with Kendall's sensitive balls and that's what brought him over the edge. Kendall came with a shout and he shot his load into James' awaiting mouth. The brunet pulled off of him with an audible pop and he licked his lips clean.

Kendall knew what was coming next and he waited with anticipation. James pulled the blond's legs apart and stuck two fingers in his mouth, sucking on them until they were nice and wet. Kendall arched his back when he felt James enter a finger and he let out a moan of pleasure. Another finger was added and James started to thrust them in and out, searching for Kendall's sweet spot.

Kendall cried out when it was hit and he gripped the sheets tightly. James removed his fingers, earning a cry of protest from the blond beneath him. James connected their lips again and he slid out of his own underwear. He positioned himself at Kendall's awaiting entrance and slid in forcefully. Kendall gripped James' forearms tightly and gritted his teeth together. The pain started to fade and it was replaced with delicious pleasure.

James started to move his hips faster and harder, again searching for that spot inside of the blond. He threw Kendall's legs over his shoulders and started to thrust harder. Kendall screamed when that spot was hit and he held onto James tightly with each hard thrust. The room was filled with the sound of their cries of pleasure and skin slapping against skin. Kendall was close again and James quickly picked up on that. He his moved faster, hitting Kendall's sweet spot dead on. The feeling was too much and Kendall came with a shout of the brunet's name.

Watching Kendall come undone was too much for James and he came with a grunt. His body shuddered from the intense orgasm and he collapsed on top of Kendall. James looked up into pretty green eyes and he connected their lips.

"How was that?" he asked.

"Perfect," Kendall smiled down at him.

James nodded his head and let it fall against Kendall's chest. Kendall ran his fingers through the brown locks, and a smile spread across his face. Maybe he had a shot at fixing this after all.

**A/N: Okay, let me explain the Kames smut. One: It's needed for Kendall's plan. Two: I thought winterschild11 would like it. (I hope you did) ******Three: Dirty songs came on when I was writing this lol**! Well more problems have been made and you guys will see why. I will update soon!**


	6. Chapter 6

**A/N: I know I totally forgot about this story and I'm really sorry about that. I can't even remember why I stopped updating. I decided to try updating it again and see how it goes. If you guys want me to finish this one, then please let me know. Gosh I have so many to finish! Enjoy!**

Kendall was sure that his plan was going to work, it had to work. He couldn't come up with another idea. Well, honestly, telling the truth was really the best option, but he couldn't do that. If James knew what he had done, their relationship would be ruined and that was the last thing Kendall wanted.

His plan had flaws; James didn't want kids, he had made that perfectly clear, but Kendall was hoping that his boyfriend would change his mind. Then there was Logan, the brunet had threatened to tell James if Kendall didn't step up and do it. Kendall just had to make sure that Logan kept his mouth shut.

Kendall glanced down and placed his hand over his still flat stomach. James hadn't notice anything different, the blond was still the same, but the morning sickness was becoming an issue. James kept questioning him about it and it was getting harder to come up with an excuse. He claimed that he was doing much better, but somedays he found himself in the bathroom.

The blond jumped when he felt strong arms wrap around him. He felt himself starting to relax, only to freak out when he felt James' hands over his abdomen. It was a touchy area for the blond.

"You okay?" James asked.

"Yeah," Kendall replied.

James wasn't buying any of it. Kendall had been acting differently the past few weeks and it was driving the brunet crazy. He had a feeling the strange behavior had something to do with him. He wasn't exactly home as much as he would like to be.

James placed his hands on the blond's shoulder, gently turning him around to face him. "Kendall, what's wrong? Did I do something?"

Kendall shook his head. "No! I'm just a little tired."

James raised a brow at his boyfriend. "You've been using that excuse for the past two weeks. What's really going on?"

Kendall didn't know what to say. His mind was screaming at him to say something, anything, but nothing was coming out. How was he supposed to tell James that he was pregnant?

"Jamie, I'm fine. Gustavo is just really working me," Kendall finally said.

James frowned. "I should have a talk with him. He needs to give you a break."

"James, it's okay! I will talk to him about it. Don't worry."

"I can't help it. I love you."

Kendall felt his heart sink. Knowing that James loved and cared for him deeply made Kendall feel worse. He should never have cheated. He didn't know what he was thinking. James loved him more than anything. Logan didn't.

"Jamie, I have to tell you something."

"What is it?"

"I'm…"

James' phone began to ring and he smiled apologetically at his boyfriend. He glanced at the screen and accepted the call. Kendall rolled his eyes and pushed past the brunet, leaving the bedroom and entering the living room.

Now he remembered why he hooked up with Logan. James claimed that he loved him, but sometimes it seemed like he loved his job more. Kendall missed how things used to be between them.

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Logan took another swig of his beer, frowning when he finished the bottle. He set the empty bottle down and called the bartender over to order another one. He felt his phone buzzing in his pocket and he fished it out.

He rolled his eyes and quickly replied to the text. Leave it to Carlos to always be late.

The bartender returned with Logan's drink and he smiled politely at the man. He took a large gulp of the beer and set it back down. Twenty minutes had past and there was still no sign of his friend.

He jumped when he felt some grab his shoulder and he spun around, coming face to face with Carlos.

"About time!" Logan teased and he patted the empty bar stool beside him.

"Sorry! Traffic sucks in this town," Carlos said.

"Tell me about it."

Carlos waved the bartender over and ordered himself a drink. He smiled when it arrived and he took a sip, letting out a satisfied sigh.

"I needed that."

"Rough day?" Logan questioned.

"You could say that. There is so much crime in this city!"

"You're the one who wanted to be a cop."

"I'm not complaining. I love my job!" Carlos exclaimed.

Logan couldn't help but roll his eyes and he took another drink of his beer. "Good for you."

Carlos frowned at his friends' tone. "What's up with you? I thought you liked your job."

"What gave you that idea! I hate it! And now it got worse."

"What do you mean?"

"I slept with Kendall."

"Who's Kendall?"

"James' boyfriend."

Carlos' jaw fell open. "Isn't that your boss?"

Logan nodded and reached for his beer, making sure to take a bigger drink.

"Dude, that sucks! Does he know?"

"No, but it gets worse."

"What's worse than that!"

"Kendall's pregnant."

Carlos shook his head. He never thought that Logan would do something like this. He was normally very responsible.

Carlos called the bartender over, ordering something a little stronger for his friend. He took the shot glass and placed it in front of Logan. "Here, you're gonna need this," he said.

Logan shook his head and pushed the glass away. "I'm not going to turn to alcohol."

"Then why are you here?"

"Because….oh just shut up!"

"I don't understand how this happened," Carlos said, shaking his head.

"Uh let's see… I had sex with Kendall!" Logan cried.

"You're panicking."

"I know!"

Carlos picked up the shot glass and handed it to his friend. Logan hesitated for a moment, then he took the glass and chugged the liquid, grimacing from the strong taste.

"Better?" Carlos asked.

"I guess so," Logan replied, although he didn't feel any different.

"Look, don't stress out about this. Did Kendall tell you what he was going to do?"

"He wants to abort it, but I told him not to. I know this sounds crazy, but I want the baby."

Carlos let out a sigh. "Logan, I don't mean to sound like a prick or anything, but I don't think you're going to keep the baby."

"Why?"

"Do you really need to ask? Kendall isn't going to give up his relationship. He will probably stay with James and raise the kid with him."

"James doesn't want kids."

"Logan, you're missing my point."

"Then explain because apparently, I'm not getting it!" Logan snapped.

"Kendall isn't going to choose you over James. I'm sorry, man," Carlos said.

Logan let out a sigh. Carlos was right, Kendall wasn't going to drop everything he had with James for him. They had been together for years. Logan was starting to regret ever making a move on the blond. He ruined a healthy relationship.

But the relationship wasn't as healthy as he thought. He didn't know every detail, but he knew that something was going on between Kendall and James. Kendall wouldn't have agreed to sleep with him if his relationship with James was perfect.

Logan didn't know what he was going to do. He felt something for Kendall and on top of that, they were having a baby. He had to prove to Kendall that he was a better than James.

He just didn't know how to do that.

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Kendall paced the floor of James' office, his heart racing and his palms growing sweaty. He tried replaying what he was going to say to James in his head, but his mind was starting to blank. He was so nervous.

The sound of the door reached his ears and Kendall jumped. James entered the room and he shut the door behind him. He was on the phone, probably another business deal, and Kendall couldn't help but roll his eyes. He was hoping that his plan not only worked to cover his ass, but to make James realize that work wasn't everything. Kendall just wanted James back.

James ended the call and he slipped his phone into his pocket. He walked over to Kendall, pulling the blond close and connecting their lips.

"Sorry, babe. How long have you been waiting?" James asked.

Kendall shrugged. "Not that long. Listen, Jamie…"

"Are you okay?"

Kendall wasn't okay at all, but he nodded his head anyway. He was trying to prepare himself, but even that wasn't comforting. He just had to get it over with.

"James, I have something to tell you."

James was concerned. There was something about Kendall's tone that didn't sit well with him. He leaned against his desk, waiting for Kendall to continue.

Kendall took a deep breath. "I'm pregnant."

James didn't say a word, not a damn thing and Kendall was getting nervous. He knew James was going to have trouble taking in the news. It was startling.

"Jamie, please say something."

James looked up, his hazel eyes full of confusion. "But…but how? We were so careful."

Kendall shook his head. "Not all the time."

It started coming back to him now. Their most recent night of passion was so unexpected and spontaneous. They didn't even bother with protection.

"But….shit are you sure?"

Kendall couldn't help but frown. He knew James wasn't ready for children, but he didn't like the way the brunet was acting.

"Yes, I'm sure. I took three tests."

"Shit! Kendall, we can't have a baby now!" James cried.

"Why not?" Kendall asked.

"Because I am busy with the company and you're probably going to go on another tour soon! This is just bad timing! Fuck!"

"James, maybe it's not that bad. We can figure it out."

"Maybe you're not pregnant!" James said. "It could be false or something!"

Kendall frowned. "I took three tests. I doubt they were all wrong."

James shook his head. "We have to get you to a doctor."

"James, no it's-"

James gripped Kendall by the hand, pulling him toward the door. Kendall tried to protest, but he went unheard. He let out a sigh of defeat and let James drag him out of the office.

Now he wasn't sure if his plan was the best idea.

**A/N: So this came out pretty short. Sorry! I hope you guys liked it anyway!**


	7. Chapter 7

**A/N: Thank you guys for being patient and for your lovely feedback! It means so much to me! So, if you know me well enough, then you know that there is going to be drama. You'll see what I'm talking about!**

James' leg was shaking. Kendall couldn't tear his eyes away and he knew James was feeling extremely anxious. The blond was feeling the same way, his heart was beating rapidly and he felt himself swaying. He was going to pass out.

He felt a hand on his knee and he felt himself calm down. He glanced up at pretty hazel eyes and he forced a smile. Kendall was starting to wonder if his plan was going to work.

Kendall heard his name being called and he got up from the chair he had been occupying for the past thirty minutes. James was hesitant at first, then he stood up and followed his boyfriend and the nurse to the back.

The blond's vitals were checked and he was asked to provide a urine sample just to make sure that he was pregnant. He couldn't help but roll his eyes. He knew he was pregnant. He had three tests in his trash can at home to prove it.

Once the nurse received everything she needed, she informed them that the doctor would be in shortly, then she left the room. Kendall sat quietly on the exam bed, suddenly wishing that he wasn't here. His eyes landed on James and he frowned. The brunet had been quiet ever since they stepped foot in the clinic.

"James?"

The brunet didn't even respond, he just continued to stare hard at the floor. He was terrified and his mind started to wander. What if Kendall was pregnant? What then? He wasn't ready to be a father. They should have been more careful.

"I can't do this, Kendall," He said quietly.

Kendall sighed. "Then don't."

James glanced up. He felt his heart shatter when he took in the blond's appearance. It was obvious that Kendall was hurting.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't even bother apologizing. If you don't want to do this, then just go."

"You can't be mad at me. I told you I didn't want kids," James said.

"Did you ever think that maybe I did?" Kendall asked.

"You told me that you weren't ready!"

"Yeah, I'm not ready right now!"

James sighed in frustration and ran his hand though his hair. "You can't be mad at me because I don't want this."

"You're acting like this is all my fault. It takes two, James."

"Well, I'm sorry for freaking out! I'm not ready for a kid!"

"I'm not either," Kendall admitted.

"Maybe you're not pregnant. It could be false, right?" James questioned.

"Yeah, but I don't think those tests would lie three times."

James sighed again. He wanted to believe that Kendall wasn't having a baby, but in the back of his mind, he knew that Kendall was telling the truth. He just didn't want it to be true. He wasn't ready to start a family, not now. The company required most of his attention. A baby didn't fit in his world.

A knock on the door ripped him from his thoughts and he looked up, praying for some good news. A man with salt and pepper colored hair entered the room and he smiled at the couple.

"Hello, I'm Dr. Morgan." He greeted and he reached out to shake their hands.

James' palms were sweaty and he sent the doctor an apologetic smile. He quickly wiped his hands on his slacks.

"Well, Kendall," The man said. "You are pregnant."

James felt his stomach churn. He was afraid of that.

Kendall didn't miss the look on James' face and he felt his heart sink. He knew that telling James about the baby wasn't going to be a good idea, but what choice did he have? He couldn't keep the pregnancy hidden. His plan had to work.

"I want to send you to a specialist, there isn't much I can do for you. I will write you a referral and then you are free to go," The doctor said.

Kendall nodded his head. A piece of paper was handed to him a few minutes later and he thanked the doctor. James was the first to leave the room and Kendall ran after the brunet. It was obvious that James wasn't happy.

"You can't be mad at me," Kendall told his boyfriend when they were in the car.

"I'm not," James said and he gripped the steering wheel tightly.

"Yeah, you are."

"I'm mad because we just wasted an hour."

"I told you I didn't need to come here."

"Let's just go home."

Kendall shook his head. "I need to see the other doctor."

James didn't say anything and Kendall let out a sad sigh. He knew James wasn't going to be thrilled about the news, but he didn't think that his boyfriend would be acting like this. A part of Kendall wanted to tell James everything, but the other half was scared. If James was acting like this now, then how would he react if he found out the truth. Kendall shuddered. He didn't want to think about that.

James still wasn't talking while they waited to be seen. Kendall just wanted to scream in frustration, but what good was that going to do? He understood why James was upset. He suddenly didn't want to do this anymore.

"I don't want it."

James glanced up. "What?"

"I don't want it. Let's just go." Kendall jumped from the exam table and headed for the door.

"Wait!" James was at his side in seconds, pulling the blond toward him. "What's going on?"

Kendall yanked his hand away. "If you're going to act this way then just forget it. You don't want a baby, then there will be no baby."

"Kendall, you're being ridiculous."

"Oh, so you changed your mind?"

James shifted uncomfortably. "No, but-"

"Then I will get rid of it. Let's go."

Kendall went to leave again, only to move away from the door when he heard a knock. The door opened and a tall woman with dark hair entered the room.

"I'm sorry! I didn't know you were going out," she said.

Kendall opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. He wanted to tell her that he changed his mind, but he couldn't get the words out. Maybe he didn't want to get rid of the baby.

"I'm Dr. Williams. You must be Kendall."

The blond nodded his head and he sat back down on the bed. James eyed his boyfriend closely before taking a seat in the chair.

"How are you?" The woman asked.

"Uh fine I guess," Kendall replied.

"Excited about the news?"

Kendall didn't know how to respond. He wasn't sure how he was feeling about it. He finally said, "I'm scared."

"It's okay. It is scary, but you're going to be just fine."

Kendall didn't really think so, but he nodded his head anyway.

"We're going to take a look at your baby okay?" Dr. Williams said.

Kendall nodded his head and was asked to lie back. He wanted James by his side, but the brunet remained on the opposite side of the room. Kendall jumped when a cold gel was applied to his belly and the doctor smiled apologetically at him. Dr. Williams pressed the wand to her patient's belly and she moved it around until she found what she was looking for.

"There's your baby."

Kendall's eyes landed on the screen and he felt his stomach flip. The baby was so tiny and it made Kendall feel worse. How was he supposed to care for something so small and delicate? He was terrified.

But at the same time, he felt something other than fear. A smile tugged at his lips. That was his baby.

He felt someone grab his hand and he tore his eyes away from the screen. James was beside him, rubbing his hand soothingly. A small smile appeared on James' face.

"I'd say you're about eight weeks," The doctor said. "but so far everything looks great. Congratulations!"

When the exam was finished, Kendall was handed an envelope containing pictures of the baby. He thanked the doctor, then he left the room with James behind him.

The brunet was different now. He smiling.

"Are you okay?" Kendall asked as they made their way toward the car.

James nodded his head and unlocked the car, then he climbed inside. Kendall opened the door and got in, his eyes immediately going to James.

"James, are you-"

James turned to face the blond. "Yeah, I'm fine."

"Are you sure? You seem….I don't know….different," Kendall said.

"I know I said that I didn't want kids, but seeing the baby changed something. I mean I'm fucking terrified, but maybe this won't be so bad."

"I thought you were too busy for this?"

"I am, but we can make this work, right? I'm sure Gustavo will give you some time off and I can make arrangements."

Kendall was confused, but at the same time, he was happy. This was exactly the way James was supposed to feel. His plan was working. All he had to do was pretend that the baby was James' and then everything would be okay.

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Logan paced his boss's office, sighing in frustration when James still didn't enter the room. James was here earlier, and then suddenly he was gone. Logan normally didn't mind if his boss wasn't around, but today he needed the man.

He heard the door open and Logan felt relief wash over him. James entered the office with a familiar blond on his arm and Logan felt his heart leap at the sight of Kendall, but it quickly shattered when he saw how happy the couple looked.

"Hey, Loges," James greeted.

"Hey. I was wondering where you were," Logan said.

"I had to step out for a bit. Kendall wasn't feeling very well."

"Oh?" Logan knew why, but he decided to play dumb. "Is he okay?"

James nodded his head and smiled widely. "We're having a baby."

Logan wasn't sure if he had heard his boss correctly. "Come again?"

"We're having a baby! Isn't it great!"

"Uh, I guess so. Congratulations."

Logan glanced in the direction of the blond and Kendall quickly looked away, not wanting to meet Logan's eyes.

"I can show you the pictures!" James opened the envelope and held out one of the black and white photos.

Logan took the picture with shaky hands. He swallowed the lump in his throat at the sight. That was his baby.

"Wow. This is…. this is great. I'm happy for you."

Kendall could practically hear the brunet's heart break and he turned away when he felt Logan's eyes on him. He felt like a jerk, but he didn't have a choice. He had to lie.

**A/N: Ugh this chapter was short and sucky. I'm sorry, guys! I wanted to post something and this is what happened. Kendall's a selfish jerk huh? I hope you guys liked it! Thank you for reading!**


	8. Chapter 8

All Logan could see was red. He could feel the anger coursing through his veins. All he could think about was punching Kendall in the face, but he couldn't exactly do that. The blond was in a delicate state and James was still in the room.

Logan tried to remain calm, but the anger was starting to take over. His hands were shaking and he quickly shoved the picture he was currently holding back in James' hands. He glanced in Kendall's direction again, but the blond still refused to look him in the eyes.

Logan didn't even want to be in the same room with him anymore, but where was he supposed to go? His boss would surely question him, but the way James was looking at him made Logan think that he was going to be interrogated any minute now.

"Loges? You okay?"

Logan let out a sigh. He honestly didn't know how to respond. A part of him wanted to tell James everything, but when he looked in Kendall's direction again, he found green eyes staring back, practically begging to keep quiet.

"I'm fine," he finally said.

James eyed his assistant, not really believing what was being told to him. "Logan, just go home. You seem off," he said.

"James, no I'm fine."

James shook his head. "No, really. Go home and get some rest. We can start fresh tomorrow okay?"

Logan wanted to open his mouth to protest, but he decided that maybe leaving wasn't such a bad thing. He wouldn't be able to focus on his work anyway and the thought of having to hear James talk about his baby was the last thing he wanted.

He nodded his head and sent Kendall one last look, then he left the large office. He quickly gathered his things and left the building, happy to be away. He reached for his keys, fumbling with them and eventually dropping them.

"Fuck!"

He wasn't one to get angry easily, he was normally calm and collected, but today was different. He had never felt so angry and it was all Kendall's fault. When Kendall told him that he had a plan, Logan thought it would be something more logical and thought out. It was obvious that Kendall just pulled his plan out of his ass.

"Can we talk?"

Logan recognized that voice and he spun around, coming face to face with the blond he was upset with. The last thing Logan wanted to do was talk, it would just make him feel worse and he was sure he would say or do something that he would regret.

"No," he said through gritted teeth.

Kendall let out a sigh. "Logan, I'm sorry."

"You're sorry? You're sorry! What the fuck were you thinking! No, wait, you're not thinking at all!"

"What was I supposed to do?"

"Tell him the truth! That's my baby!"

"You don't even want it!"

"I don't even want it? You didn't! Your idea was to terminate it!" Logan cried.

"Because I'm scared!" Kendall yelled.

Logan scoffed and rolled his eyes. "Yeah, you're fucking terrified. That's bullshit and you know it. You just don't want to ruin your perfect relationship with James. Well newsflash, your relationship is damaged!"

"You don't know anything about me or my relationship with James."

"I know enough. If everything was fine and dandy, then you wouldn't have let me fuck you."

Kendall balled his hands into fists. "You know what, that was a mistake. Meeting you and… and everything we did was a mistake."

"You don't think I know that? But lying to James is going to make this worse! Either tell him the truth or I will."

"He won't believe you."

"Oh, come on, Kendall! James is going to figure this out. This little plan of yours isn't going to work!" Logan exclaimed.

Kendall rolled his eyes. "I'm done talking to you."

The blond turned around and began walking away. Logan called out to him. "If you don't tell him then I will!"

Kendall ignored Logan's threats and he kept walking.

He forced a smile when he entered his boyfriend's office, but James still wore a worried look on his face.

"Are you okay?" James asked.

"Yeah," Kendall lied.

"Did Logan do something? If he did then-"

"James, no! He didn't do anything. I just wanted to make sure he was okay."

The brunet nodded and walked over to his desk, taking a seat in the black leather chair. He booted up his computer and typed in his password. "He did seem upset," he said, not even bothering to look up from the screen.

"Yeah. He didn't tell me anything," Kendall said.

"I'm sure he will be fine tomorrow. You, on the other hand, look exhausted. Go home and I will see you tonight."

The blond nodded his head and left the office, letting out a sad sigh once the door closed behind him. He felt tears building in his eyes and he quickly shut them to prevent the tears from escaping.

He knew his plan was thoughtless, but he didn't need Logan to remind him. Honestly, the blond didn't know what he was going to do. The answer was right in front of him, but he couldn't bring himself to tell James the truth. But keeping the truth from his boyfriend was going to make matters worse in the long run.

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Logan muttered a 'thanks' and took the beer bottle from his friend, taking a swig and letting out a sigh. Carlos eyed his friend and sat down beside him on the brunet's couch, cracking open his own bottle and taking a drink.

"Well, you were right," Logan said and he took another large drink.

"I was?" Carlos questioned.

Logan nodded his head. "James thinks the baby is his."

"I'm sorry, man. I tried to warn you."

"I know. It's my own fault. I should never have gotten involved with Kendall."

Carlos agreed and took a drink. Logan let out a sigh and placed the beer bottle down on the coffee table, suddenly not in the mood to drink.

"I made it worse, too. I yelled at him. I never yell!"

"I know. But you were just upset. I'm sure he's fine."

"I don't know. I messed up, Carlos. I don't know what to do. Should I just come clean to James?" Logan asked.

"You could, but it's not really your place. Kendall needs to tell him," Carlos replied.

"I guess. But I was to blame, too! I was the one that suggested that we fool around. I'm such an idiot!" Logan groaned.

"Hey, don't beat yourself up! You're just going to make yourself feel worse."

"It just hurts. I thought Kendall and I had something, but he only cares about James. Carlos, they're not even happy!"

"Do you know that for a fact or are you just assuming?" Carlos questioned.

"I can tell! I mean, why else would Kendall hook up with me? I work with James, I know that the guy is too occupied with his job. Hell, I don't even care about it as much as he does!" Logan cried.

"You also hate your job." Carlos pointed out. He took another drink from the bottle.

Logan rolled his eyes. "You're missing my point. I think I will just tell James everything tomorrow."

"Are you sure? I mean, he's going to be super pissed off and you will probably get fired. You kind of need your job, dude."

"Not you, too! Kendall doesn't want to say anything because it will ruin his relationship with James and now you're telling me to keep my mouth shut so I don't get fired!"

Carlos shrugged. "Look, give Kendall a chance to say something and if he doesn't then-"

"He won't." Logan interrupted.

Carlos rolled his eyes and continued. "Anyway! If he doesn't tell James, then you can do it. But Let Kendall try."

Logan let out a sigh. "I guess. This is going to be torture."

"I know, but don't worry about it!" Carlos reached over and grabbed the beer bottle from off the coffee table, handing it to his best friend. "Just finish this and let's watch the game."

Logan rolled his eyes and placed the bottle to his lips.

**A/N: Yeah this chapter was short, but I didn't know what else to add to it. I'm still trying to figure out where this story is going. I'm torn between Kogan and Kames! Anyway, I hope you guys liked it!**


	9. Chapter 9

**A/N: Thank you guys so much for the wonderful feedback! I'm glad everyone is liking this story! Here is the next chapter! Enjoy!**

Kendall pulled his car into an empty space, then he killed the ignition and a sigh escaped his lips. Normally, he didn't mind coming to work, but today he was dreading it. It wasn't that he didn't like his job, the blond enjoyed coming in to work on his music. But today, the singer didn't feel up to it. He was exhausted and stressed out and the last thing he wanted was to make himself feel worse. But calling in wasn't an option.

He let out another sigh, then he climbed out of the vehicle.

Kendall made his way down the familiar hallway, his eyes landing on the various posters of past artists that Gustavo worked with. The thought of his boss made Kendall groan. It wasn't that he didn't like Gustavo, they got along. Well, when Kendall wasn't talking back anyway. But sometimes the man was difficult.

Kendall already knew the day was going to start off with Gustavo yelling at him. The blond wasn't exactly on time.

Kendall spotted Kelly coming his way, her clipboard in hand and a scowl on her face.

"He's in a bad mood, isn't he?" Kendall asked.

Kelly rolled her eyes. "He's a little stressed about the album."

"Great."

"Good luck."

Kendall nodded and started to walk away, only to stop when he heard Kelly call his name. He spun around to face her.

"By the way, you need to tell him," she said.

Kendall groaned. "Do I have to?"

Kelly shot the singer a look. "Seriously? Unless you want to wait until your due date?"

"Okay fine! But this is only going to piss him off even more."

"I know, but you have to tell him."

Kendall groaned again. Gustavo was already fuming about something, and telling him about the baby would just upset him even more. Kendall wished he didn't have to say anything, but it wasn't like he could hide it forever.

Kendall made his way toward the producer's office, noticing the door wide open and he poked his head in. Gustavo was sitting at his desk, his eyes closed and rubbing the sides of his head. Kendall didn't want to interrupt the man, but he knew Kelly would just ride his ass until he came clean.

"Hey, Gustavo-" Kendall started and the producer's head snapped up.

"Dog!" He interrupted. "About time you showed up!"

"I know. This morning was-"

"I don't care! Griffin will be here on Monday and we still haven't finished the album!"

"Okay, but-"

"No buts! Now get yours in the sound booth!"

Kendall let out a sigh and opened his mouth to respond, but Gustavo interrupted him again.

"Why are you still standing there! Move it!"

Kendall rolled his eyes. He just had to spit it out. "I'm pregnant."

Gustavo was silent for a moment; which Kendall knew was a bad sign. The blond knew his boss was going to explode any minute.

"You're what!" Gustavo stood up instantly, and the singer quickly backed away.

"It's not a big deal. I can still sing."

"Not a big deal? Not a big deal! It's a very big deal! How did this happen!"

"Well, James and I- "

"I know how it happened!" Gustavo bellowed. The man let out a sigh and plopped back down in his chair, rubbing his temples again to calm himself down.

Kelly entered the room, obviously hearing the yelling. "Is everything okay in here?"

"I told you he was going to get mad," Kendall told her.

Gustavo's head snapped in the direction of his assistant. "You knew!"

"Uh-"

"Gustavo, it's not that bad," Kendall said.

"He's right," Kelly agreed.

Gustavo let out another irritated sigh. "Forget it. Just get in the booth and we will worry about this later."

Kendall and Kelly shared a look, then the blond left the office.

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When he was done for the day, Kendall decided to stop by James' office. He was sure his boyfriend was still at work, it wasn't like the brunet did anything else. Kendall made his way through the large building, greeting the staff on his way to the elevator. He was praying that James wasn't too busy for him.

He reached the door to James' office and went to knock, only to hesitate when he heard James speaking to someone. The last person Kendall wanted to see was Logan, the two weren't exactly talking to each other, which Kendall didn't mind. That was a lie. He missed talking to Logan.

The blond knocked on the door once, then he entered the office. James was leaning against the edge of his desk and he glanced up when he heard the door open. Kendall's eyes widened when he realized who his boyfriend was talking to.

Brooke Diamond glanced in his direction, her face lighting up. "There he is," She said and she made her way over to the blond, wrapping him in a hug.

"Mrs. Diamond!" Kendall said, surprised that she was here. He glanced in James' direction and the brunet just shrugged.

Brooke pulled away, holding Kendall by his shoulders. "Honey, how many times do I have to tell you? Just call me Brooke."

"I know. Sorry."

"It's fine," The older Diamond said and she removed her hands from the blond. "So James told me some interesting news."

Kendall gulped. He had a feeling of what she was talking about, but he was hoping he was wrong. "Yeah?"

"You're pregnant."

Kendall cringed. "I'm so sorry! It just happened and-"

Brooke held her hand up to silent him. "I'm not mad, dear. This is great news! I get to be a grandma! Well, I'm a little young, but it's still great news!"

"You're not mad?" Kendall asked.

"Of course not! This is exciting. James was showing me pictures."

"Great."

Brooke clasped her hands together, the smile on her face still present. "I'm so happy for you both!"

Kendall sent James a look and the brunet frowned. Kendall didn't want anyone else to know about the baby, but it was too late. Brooke already knew and he was sure that she was going to tell the rest of James' family. It just made Kendall feel worse.

Brooke didn't stay very long, saying something about a conference call she had to take in thirty minutes. She hugged them both, then she was gone.

James noticed the tension in the room and he let out a sigh. "Kendall, why are you upset?" he finally asked.

"Why did you tell her?" Kendall replied, his irritation still showing.

"Because she's my mother. What's wrong with her knowing?"

Kendall let out a sigh. "It's just that….this baby…."

He suddenly couldn't get the words out. They were sitting on the edge of his tongue, but he still couldn't find himself to say them.

"What about the baby?"

"Um…this baby…." Kendall sighed again. "The baby was a surprise and I wasn't sure how she was going to take it. You didn't take the news very well."

James made his way over to the blond, wrapping his arms around him. "I know and I am so sorry. I'm really excited about this."

"You are?"

"Yeah. I mean, I'm fucking terrified, but we'll be okay."

James' hand found its way to Kendall's middle, rubbing the blond's still flat stomach. Kendall could feel the guilt eating away at him. He was given the chance to tell James the truth and instead he kept quiet. He was making things worse.

They heard the door open and James pulled away, smiling when his assistant entered the room. Logan's eyes locked with Kendall's, then he looked away, setting his gaze on James.

"James, I just wanted to let you know that I finished up everything," Logan said.

"Thanks, Logan! Go ahead and leave. I will see you tomorrow okay?" James said.

Logan nodded and left the room, shutting the door behind.

"He's been weird all day," James said.

"Really?" Kendall asked.

James nodded. "Yeah. He won't open up to me, though. Maybe you could talk to him? You two get along."

Kendall didn't respond. He knew he wouldn't be able to talk to Logan either, the brunet was still furious with him. Kendall had been hurt by the words Logan said to him, but he knew Logan was right.

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A small groan escaped Kendall's lips and his green eyes fluttered open. He rolled over onto his right side, noticing that James wasn't in bed with him and he frowned. He rolled back over and glanced at the alarm clock. It was twelve thirty in the afternoon. No wonder James wasn't with him.

Kendall never slept in, he was always up early when James was getting ready for work. Sometimes he would sleep in on his days off, but even then, he never slept in past noon. His body was tired and it was demanding more sleep.

He didn't know what woke him up, then he heard it. His phone was ringing.

He grabbed the cell phone from off the nightstand and he groaned when he saw his mother's face smiling back at him. He didn't feel like talking to her, but he knew if he didn't pick up that she would keep calling.

His finger slid across the screen to accept the incoming call. Jennifer Knight's face appeared on the screen, a smile on her face. Great. She wanted to FaceTime.

"Hi, honey!" she said.

"Hi, mom," Kendall replied, his voice groggy.

Jennifer frowned. "Kendall, did you just wake up?"

There was no point in lying. It was obvious that he was still in bed. "Yes," he replied.

"Are you okay, sweetheart? You never sleep in this late."

"I've just been really tired. Gustavo has had me staying late to finish up a song."

"Honey, you need to tell him that you're exhausted. I'm sure he'll understand."

"I don't think so," Kendall said and let out a yawn.

"You look exhausted. Are you sure that's the only thing bothering you?" Jennifer asked. She knew when her son wasn't telling the whole truth.

"I'm okay, mom. Just tired. But I guess that's what happens when you're pregnant."

The words just slipped out and Kendall's eyes widened. He silently cursed to himself. Maybe his mother didn't hear him.

"Wait, you're pregnant?"

Nope, she heard him.

Kendall let out a sigh. "Yeah."

"Honey, that's great!" Jennifer cried, a smile forming on her face.

"Really?"

"Of course! I know James was always iffy about having kids, but….wait, he does know, right?"

Kendall rolled his eyes. "Yes, he knows."

"Oh. Well, good! Is he happy?"

"Yeah."

Jennifer frowned. "What's with the face?"

Kendall hadn't even realized he was making a face. "Huh? Nothing. I'm fine."

"Kendall, you can tell me anything."

"I know. But really, mom, he's happy."

"And what about you?" Jennifer asked.

"Yeah, I'm happy too."

Jennifer noticed the tone of her son's voice, he didn't sound happy, but she decided to let it go.

"Okay, sweetheart. I just wanted to check up on you. I'm so happy for you two!"

"Yeah."

"Okay, well I will let you go. Call me if you need anything."

Kendall nodded his head. "I will, mom."

Jennifer smiled and blew her son a kiss. "I love you."

"I love you too."

The call ended and Kendall placed his phone down, letting out a sigh. He didn't want his mother to find out about the baby, it just made the situation worse. First James' mother found out and now his. They were both excited and it made Kendall hate himself even more. His mother would surely understand and at least the baby was still her grandchild, but as for Brooke, the baby wasn't related to her at all. It wasn't even related to James.

Kendall hated himself. He should never have done what he did, and if he could take it back he would. It was a mistake to fool around with Logan; it was a mistake to cheat on his boyfriend. This whole mess could have been avoided.

He didn't know what he was going to do to fix it.

His brain was screaming at him to tell everyone the truth, but he was terrified. The truth was just going to hurt them, but lying wasn't any better.

Kendall groaned. He hated himself.

**A/N: I didn't know how to end it, so I just ending there. Sorry about that. Well, Kendall is just digging himself in a bigger hole. I hope you guys liked it! I will update soon!**


	10. Chapter 10

**A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for the late update! I was having trouble writing this chapter. I hope it came out okay!**

Logan grumbled to himself while he scrolled through the countless emails in his inbox, searching for one in particular that he had to forward to his boss. The brunet let out a frustrated sigh, his eyes scanning through the different emails. He finally found the one he was searching for.

He didn't want to be at work; he hated his job, not that the work was difficult, but it wasn't something he wanted to do for the rest of his life. He wanted a job in the medical field, but right now that wasn't an option. He kept telling himself that he needed to study harder and take the test again. Hopefully, he would pass and then he could quit.

The thing that made Logan resent his job was the dumb blond that hung around the office practically every day. It was harsh to think that way of Kendall, but Logan didn't care. When he first met Kendall, he thought that the blond was great and suddenly coming to work didn't bother him as much anymore. It was like Kendall made everything better.

Logan couldn't say that now. Kendall wasn't the person he thought he was; the blond only cared about himself. Logan didn't recognize him anymore.

Logan wasn't thrilled with the current situation; he wasn't ready to be a father, especially when it was with someone he couldn't stand, but that didn't mean that Logan was going to abandon his child. If Kendall didn't want the baby, then Logan had no problem stepping up to raise his child.

Another sigh escaped Logan's lips. He wasn't going to get a chance to raise the baby. Kendall was going around telling everyone that the baby was James'; he was sure of it.

The brunet wanted to tell James what was going on, but Carlos was right, it wasn't his place. Would James even believe him? Probably not. It seemed like there was nothing that Logan could do, and he hated it.

Logan pushed himself away from the desk and stood up from the chair, then he left his small office. He made his way down the hall until he reached the elevators. He stepped inside when the doors opened and he pressed the button for the top floor.

He reached his designated floor ad he turned left, following the hallway until he was standing in front of the door to James' office. He knocked a few times, then he entered when he was given permission.

James was on the phone when Logan entered, and he quietly shut the door behind him. Logan felt another presence in the room and his eyes landed on the black leather couch on the other side of the room, currently being occupied by a familiar blond.

Logan rolled his eyes and turned away. Of course, Kendall would be here, the blond was always showing up and visiting for a few hours. Logan didn't mind before, but now he hated the blond and was growing tired of his presence.

James finished up his call and slipped his cellphone into the pocket of his slacks, then he turned his attention to his assistant. "Hey, Loges," he greeted.

"James, I forwarded you an email. It regards your meeting with Jett Stetson and-"

James rolled his eyes. "I will look at it. Thanks," he interrupted.

"Okay." Logan turned to leave and his eyes locked with green ones. He narrowed his own.

"Loges, wait!"

Logan cursed under his breath and he spun around to greet his boss. "Yes?"

"Listen, Kendall has an appointment in thirty minutes and since I have to talk with Jett, do you think you could accompany him?"

"You're joking, right?"

"Excuse me?"

"Uh, I mean…yeah! Are you sure, though? It's your baby," Logan said, trying to keep any attitude out of his tone.

"I know and this sucks, but this is important. I won't ask you to do something like this again," James said.

"Okay."

Logan glanced in Kendall's direction, the blond looking just as annoyed. Kendall jumped to his feet and made his way over to James.

"Jamie, I don't want him to come with me. Can you just postpone whatever is you need to do?" he questioned.

James shook his head and let out a sad sigh. "Babe, I'm sorry."

"But we should be doing this together."

"I know. I promise I will be there for the next one."

Kendall opened his mouth to respond, but he quickly shut it when James pressed his lips against the blond's. Kendall let out a sigh, then he turned to face Logan.

He rolled his eyes and headed for the front door. "Let's go," he muttered.

Logan wasn't thrilled by any means and he made sure to show it. He grumbled to himself on his way down to the car garage, trying to ignore the blond that was behind him. Kendall wasn't happy either and he rolled his eyes. James was supposed to be with him.

"I'm not happy either," Kendall said and he approached his car.

"We're taking mine," Logan growled.

"Nope. Now get in."

"Forget it. I'll just go back upstairs."

Logan turned to leave, only to stop in his tracks when he heard Kendall call out to him. "I'll just tell James."

The brunet sighed harshly and balled his hands into fists. He spun around and walked back over to the blond. "So, you're just going to run to him when things don't go your way?" he asked.

"He told you to come with me."

Logan rolled his eyes. "Just open the damn car."

Kendall pressed the button on the keypad and the doors unlocked. Logan threw open the door and climbed inside. Kendall sighed and slid into the driver's side, then he inserted the key into the ignition and the car roared to life.

The ride was silent. Logan had his arms crossed over his chest, clearly irritated with the fact that he had to go with Kendall. He tried telling himself that at least he would find out how his baby was doing, but then he remembered the stupid plan Kendall was trying to pull off and he got angrier.

"This is stupid." He didn't mean to say it out loud, but at the moment he didn't care.

"I know. He should be here," Kendall said.

"Oh, because it's his baby?"

Kendall gripped the steering wheel tightly. "Just shut up."

"You're an idiot," Logan said with a roll of his eyes.

"I'm not going to argue with you. Just don't talk to me."

"Fine."

"Fine."

The silence returned. Logan didn't mind the silence between them, he was too irritated and if he didn't have to speak to the blond then he didn't mind. Kendall acted like his passenger didn't exist, he gave the road his full attention. He found himself wanting to say something to Logan, but it wasn't like the brunet was going to respond. It would just be a waste of his breath.

Kendall pulled into the parking lot of the doctor's office and he parked the car in the first empty space he found. He shut the car off, then he glanced in Logan's direction. The brunet was still avoiding him.

"I'll wait here," He said.

"James wanted you to come with me," Kendall reminded him.

Logan turned to face the blond. "And I did. I'll wait here."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "Fine. I don't care."

Kendall opened the door and climbed out, shutting it hard behind him. Logan watched the blond disappear into the building and he let out a sigh. A part of him wanted to remain in the car, but the other half wanted to join the blond. He could find out how his baby was doing.

Logan quickly unbuckled himself and got out of the car. Kendall was at the front desk signing himself in when Logan caught up to him.

"Decided to join me after all?" Kendall questioned.

"I'm not here for you," Logan replied.

"Whatever."

Kendall set the pen down and he walked over to the waiting area, taking a seat in one of the empty chairs. Logan sat down beside the blond and glanced around the room, making sure to avoid the green eyes staring at him.

"You're being immature."

Logan's head snapped in the blond's direction. "Me! What about you!"

"Look, I don't want you here either but let's just try and get along," Kendall said.

"It's kind of hard when I can't stand you."

Kendall let out an annoyed sigh and he reached over to pick up a magazine from the small table beside his chair. He skimmed through it, not finding anything interesting. It was still better than talking to Logan.

His name was finally called to the back and Kendall stood up. Logan rolled his eyes and followed the blond to the back. Kendall climbed onto the bed and Logan took the empty seat across the room.

The doctor entered the room a few minutes later and she smiled. "Hello, I'm Dr. Anderson. You must be Kendall."

The blond nodded and smiled. The woman turned her gaze to Logan and she held out her hand. Logan stood up to shake her hand and he sent her a polite smile.

"You must be the father," The doctor said.

"Uh." Logan glanced in Kendall's direction, then he turned his attention back to the blonde woman. "Yeah."

Kendall rolled his eyes.

"Great!" Dr. Anderson turned back to her patient. "How are you feeling?"

Kendall shrugged in response. "Tired I guess."

"That's normal. Any morning sickness?"

"Yeah, it sucks."

The doctor chuckled. "It isn't fun, but luckily it doesn't last forever. Just make sure you keep yourself hydrated."

Kendall nodded his head. He was asked to lay back and the doctor lifted his shirt, then she squeezed some cold gel onto his middle. He shivered and the woman sent him an apologetic smile.

Logan's eyes landed on the blond's belly, noticing the slight curve to it. He hadn't noticed the bump before, it was hiding under the baggy shirt Kendall was wearing. Logan couldn't tear his eyes away.

"Let's just listen to the baby's heartbeat," Dr. Anderson said and she pressed a wand to Kendall's abdomen. The room immediately filled with a loud thumping sound.

"It's so fast. Is that normal?" Kendall questioned, worry evident in his voice.

"Yes," Logan responded.

Kendall glanced at the brunet and Logan rolled his eyes.

"He's right. It's actually a healthy heartbeat," Dr. Anderson said.

"Oh," Kendall said. He listened closely to the heartbeat and a smile formed on his face.

"Do you want to see the baby?"

Kendall nodded his head at the doctor's question. The woman smiled and handed Kendall some paper towels to clean the gel from his belly.

"Go ahead and clean up, then we can go to another room."

Once Kendall was cleaned up, he left the room and followed the doctor down the hallway. Logan was right behind him.

"Okay, just lay back and the tech will be in shortly," Dr. Anderson said, then she left the room.

Kendall climbed onto the bed and he lay back, resting his right arm behind his head. Logan sat quietly in the corner, finding the floor more interesting.

"You're seriously going to ignore me?" Kendall said.

Logan let out a sigh and looked up. "You didn't want to talk to me."

"Yeah because you're being a jerk."

"You don't get it, do you? I have every right to be acting the way that I am. That's my baby."

"I know, but James-"

"I don't give a fuck about James! Damn it, Kendall! You're being stupid!"

Kendall rolled his eyes and turned away from the brunet. He didn't want to get into it with Logan, now wasn't the time or place.

A knock on the door caught his attention and he was thankful for the tech's arrival. She was petite with dark hair that she had pulled back into a pony tail. She smiled warmly at the duo.

"Hello. I'm Jessica," She greeted and she walked over to the monitor. "Are you excited to see your baby?"

Kendall nodded his head. "Yep!"

Logan was excited, but he didn't show his excitement. He watched as more gel was applied to the blond's small bump, then the tech pressed the wand to Kendall's belly, moving it around until images of the baby appeared on the screen.

Logan couldn't tear his eyes away from the screen, and he found himself getting up from the chair and standing beside the blond to get a better look. The baby was so tiny and Logan felt his heart swell with joy. That was his baby.

"Do you know what the gender is?" Kendall asked.

Jessica shook her head. "Unfortunately, it's too early to tell. He or she looks very good, though."

A smile formed on Logan's face when he saw the baby move its legs. Kendall was looking at Logan now, his own smile forming. For just a moment he forgot all about the arguing.

Seeing Logan so happy made the blond feel worse about the situation. The child inside of him belonged to Logan, not James. The more he kept lying, the more he was going to keep hurting both Logan and James. It wasn't fair to either one of them.

The tech finished with the ultrasound and she printed out new pictures for the blond to take home. He thanked her, then he left the room with Logan behind him.

"That wasn't so bad," Kendall said once they were back in the car.

Logan nodded his head. "Can I see the pictures?"

Kendall handed the brunet the envelope, then he started the car and drove off. Logan remained silent, his eyes glued to the images. Kendall's teeth sunk into his bottom lip, the guilt starting to eat away at him again.

"I'm sorry," he said quietly.

Logan glanced up. "What?"

"I'm sorry. I know how happy you are."

"Are you going to tell James?"

"I….I don't know."

Logan rolled his eyes. "Of course, you're not."

"You have to understand why I'm scared!" Kendall cried.

"I do understand, but do you understand how stupid you're being? Lying to James is just going to make things worse."

"I don't want to lose him."

"Well, you will. When he finds out the truth, do you honestly think that he is going to stick around? I sure as hell wouldn't."

"He's not like you," Kendall said, his grip on the steering wheel tightening.

"Oh, come on! He isn't going to stay with you. Fuck! Why don't you get that!" Logan cried.

Tears were rolling down Kendall's face. He didn't want to believe what Logan was telling him. James had to stay. Kendall couldn't live without him.

"He won't leave."

"Then you're an even bigger idiot. Do you honestly think this plan of yours is going to work? This baby isn't going to look anything like him. What are you going to do when he realizes that?" Logan questioned.

"Just shut up. Please just shut up," Kendall said.

"I thought you were different. All you care about is yourself."

Kendall didn't respond, instead, he kept his tear-filled eyes on the road. Logan shook his head and slipped the image he had in his hand back in the envelope, then he placed it on top of the dashboard.

As soon as they were back at Diamond Cosmetics, Logan unbuckled himself and reached for the door handle, only to stop when he felt Kendall grip his shoulder.

"Logie, I'm sorry."

Logan shrugged the blond off and climbed out of the car, slamming it hard. The tears were coming down harder now and Kendall banged his hand against the steering wheel, letting out a choked sob.

He knew he had, to tell the truth, but he was so scared. He was ashamed of what he had done and he knew Logan was right. How could James want to be with him? Kendall was nothing but a screw-up.

He buried his face in his hands and sobbed.

He ruined everything.

**A/N: I kind of feel bad for Kendall, but he's just making it worse. I hope you guys liked the chapter! I will update soon!**


	11. Chapter 11

**A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for the late update! I was having trouble writing this chapter. I hope it came out okay!**

James slipped the new photos from the envelope, smiling widely at the sight of his child. His hazel eyes sparkled and he felt his heart swell with love. He was still scared beyond belief, but at the same time, he was excited. He knew things were going to change and life was going to get harder, but he didn't care. Kendall was going to be with him every step of the way.

His thoughts traveled back to the blond and he frowned. As soon as Kendall returned from his doctor's appointment, he shoved the envelope in James' hands, then he left without giving an explanation. James figured his boyfriend was just tired, but the way Kendall was acting made him think otherwise.

Kendall seemed upset, his eyes were red like he had been crying and when James tried asking him about it, he just shook his head and left. James hated seeing the blond so upset, but he didn't know what to do. If Kendall would open up to him then maybe he would understand what was going on.

James placed the pictures back in the envelope and he set them down on his desk. He glanced at his watch and let out a sigh. He wanted to go home and check on his boyfriend, but there were still things at the office that needed his attention.

It was late in the evening when James came home and he set his keys down on the kitchen counter. He quickly noticed how quiet it was and he frowned. Normally, Kendall was watching TV or playing his guitar, but tonight was different.

James' eyes landed on the couch and he let out a heavy sigh at the sight of his sleeping boyfriend. He made his way over and he grabbed the blanket that was laying over the back of the sofa, and he covered the blond. Kendall stirred and his green eyes fluttered open, a small smile appearing on his face when he realized James was home.

"Hey," He greeted softly.

James smiled. "Hey. Sorry, I'm late."

"It's okay." Kendall let out a yawn and he sat up. "What time is it?"

"A little after seven. You can go back to sleep."

Kendall shook his head. "Nah. I'll be fine."

"Are you sure? You seemed grumpy earlier and I figured you were just tired," James said.

Kendall rolled his eyes. "It wasn't that. Logan was just being a jerk."

"What? What did he do?"

"James, it's okay!" Kendall cried when he noticed how angry the brunet was getting. "He was just-"

"What happened? Kendall, if he did anything inappropriate then-"

"Jamie, he didn't do anything."

It was a big fat lie. Logan had done inappropriate things before and Kendall let him do it. This was his chance to tell James the truth, but Kendall couldn't do it. James was angry.

"James, he didn't do anything," Kendall said.

"But you said he was being a jerk," James said.

"Not really. He was just….irritated I guess."

James let out a sigh. "I didn't want him to go with you, but I had to stay at the office. He shouldn't have shown his irritation."

"Can you blame him? I wasn't thrilled by it either."

"I know and I'm so sorry. I promise I will be there for the next one. It sucks that I am missing so much."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "You're not missing anything. This was the first appointment."

"Still. I will just schedule meetings in advance so I can attend the next one. I don't want to miss anything else," James said.

"You're really excited about this?"

"Yeah of course! It's scary, but seeing those photos make me feel better. I know we'll be okay."

"But you never wanted kids."

"I didn't say that I never wanted them. I just wasn't ready. But now I think we'll be fine. We can do this." James smiled.

Kendall forced a small smile. He was feeling worse about the situation and his head was screaming at him to come clean to his boyfriend, but the words just wouldn't leave his mouth. He wanted the timing to be right, but it would never be right. He just had to come out and say it.

"James, I have something to tell you."

"What is it?"

"I…. I…" Kendall let out a sigh. "I'm glad you're happy."

James smiled and reached for the blond's hand. "I'm glad you're happy, too."

James leaned forward to connect their lips for a sweet kiss, then he pulled away to change out of his suit. Kendall watched him disappear down the hall, then he let out a heavy sigh and threw himself back on the couch.

He was just making things worse.

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Logan couldn't take it anymore. He was trying to go over some paperwork with his boss, but James wasn't paying attention. All he did was blab about the baby and it was starting to get under Logan's skin. He was tired of hearing about James talk about _his_ baby.

The brunet assistant tried to grin and bear it, and he nodded along with whatever it was that James was telling him. He forced a smile whenever he had to.

"James, tomorrow you-"

The taller brunet ignored his assistant. "I think it's going to be a boy. Can you imagine a little version of me! How adorable!"

"Uh huh. Anyway, James-"

"Or he could look like Kendall. Our kid is going to be the cutest kid alive!"

"Yep. Anyway-"

"I wonder if he will want to take over the company or maybe he will be a singer like Kendall! Or play hockey! Kendall likes hockey and-"

Logan couldn't take it anymore. "James!"

The taller brunet instantly grew silent, then he frowned. "You don't have to shout, Loges. I'm right here."

"I know and I'm sorry, but I've been trying to discuss work with you and all you're talking about is…is..." Logan couldn't bring himself to finish the rest.

James sighed. "Sorry, Loges. I guess I was getting carried away. I'm just so excited."

Logan nodded. "I understand. I would be excited too."

James leaned back against the leather chair. "Have you ever thought of having kids?"

"Uh…sure I guess."

"You should! You would be an awesome father! Are you seeing anyone?"

Logan shifted uncomfortably and he walked around to the front of the desk, quickly gathering the files. He didn't want to have this conversation. "James, is this really appropriate?" he asked.

James rolled his eyes. "I was just curious."

"Right. Listen, we can do this later."

"Okay."

Logan quickly left the large office and headed toward his own small one. He headed toward the elevator and was about to press the button for the floor beneath him, but the doors opened and he jumped back. A familiar blond emerged from the elevator and Logan couldn't help but roll his eyes.

"Forget it. I'll take the stairs," he said.

Kendall frowned. "I'm getting out."

Logan rolled his eyes again and went to enter the elevator, only to stop when he felt someone grip his arm. He spun around and his eyes locked with pleading green ones.

"Logie, I'm-"

Logan shook the blond off. "You're what? Sorry? I don't believe you. You still haven't told him."

"I'm going to do it this weekend!" Kendall cried.

"Really? This weekend?"

Kendall nodded his head. "Yeah."

"That's funny. He isn't going to be here this weekend. He's going to San Diego," Logan said.

"What? No, he…. he said-"

"Go ask him yourself. I knew you would never tell him."

Kendall ignored the brunet and he dashed down the hall toward James' office. Logan shook his head and climbed into the elevator, letting out a heavy sigh.

Kendall threw the door open to James' office, startling the brunet. James sat up quickly from his chair, starting to fear the worst.

"Kendall, are you-"

"You're leaving!"

"What?" James questioned.

Kendall shut the door and walked over to his boyfriend, his anger growing with every step. He was seething. James never mentioned another trip.

"Why are you going to San Diego this weekend! When were, you going to tell me!" Kendall exclaimed.

James let out a sigh. "I just got the email today. My mom set it up."

"What is it for!"

"She wants me to meet Dak Zevon. He could be the new face to promote our new skin care line. He's some teen pop star. It's perfect!"

"James, you never tell me what's going on! I always have to find out from someone else!"

"Like who?"

"It doesn't matter! The point it, you never communicate!"

"Kendall, just calm down. I can cancel," James said.

The blond rolled his eyes. "Yeah right. You can't cancel anything."

"Will you stop acting like a dick? I was going to tell you. I just got the fucking email this morning!" James shouted.

"Forget it."

"What?"

"I can't do this anymore."

"Kendall, what are you saying?"

The blond ignored the taller man and turned to leave. He heard footsteps coming toward him and he felt James' grab his arm. Kendall spun around and tried to shake the brunet off, but James held him tightly.

"Kendall, don't go. Just talk to me."

"Why? You don't care. All you care about is this stupid meeting."

"That's not true. I love you and our baby. I'm doing this for us," James said.

Kendall let out a sad sigh. "I know."

"It's just for the weekend okay? After that, I promise not to go out of town so much."

"Really?"

James nodded and pulled the blond closer, and wrapping his arms around Kendall's skinny frame. "Yes. I love you and I don't want to lose you."

Kendall buried his face in the crook of James' neck. "I love you, too."

James pulled away and pressed a gentle kiss to Kendall's lips. "I can have Logan check on you while I'm gone okay?"

Kendall made a face. "Logan? Really? I can take care of myself."

"I know, but if something goes wrong he is the best person to be there. I think he wanted to be a doctor or something."

"Yeah, but he's not one. I'll be fine."

"Kendall, please? I'll let him know."

The blond let out a sigh and rolled his eyes. "Fine. But I don't want him staying over. That's weird."

"Don't worry. He won't try and hit on you. He knows better."

Kendall bit down on his lip. If only James knew the truth.

**A/N: So, this was a lot shorter than I wanted. I guess it was kind of like a filler. I might do a time skip in the next one or something. Not sure yet. My mind is still blanking. I hope you guys liked it!**


	12. Chapter 12

**A/N: Sorry guys for not updating in a while! I haven't felt very motivated and then I was having trouble with my documents. I also got more hours at work so...yeah. Anyway, I hope you guys like this chapter! Thank you for being patient!**

Logan wanted to scream at his boss; he was beyond furious. Why did he have to babysit Kendall? That wasn't part of his job description. His job consisted of checking emails and putting together meetings and events, not caring for the brunet's pregnant boyfriend. Logan was not going to do it. He didn't care if he got fired.

He opened his mouth to respond and give the taller brunet a piece of his mind, but James was faster and he cut him off.

"Loges, I know this isn't something that you normally do, but please help me out. Kendall is in a delicate state right now."

"But-"

"I know I'm asking a lot, but please do this for me. I'll give you a raise!"

"James, stop. I don't need a raise," Logan told his boss. Who was he kidding? A raise would be fantastic! "Then again, a raise would be nice," he added.

"Done!" James cried excitedly.

"No! No forget it! I'm fine."

"Wait, so are you going to do it?"

Logan let out a sigh. "James, it's a little weird for me. I didn't mind keeping him company that one time, but then you had me take him to his doctor visit and now this. I can't. It's not my place."

"I know and it sucks that I have to go out of town, but I can't get out of this meeting. Look, you don't have to stay over or anything. Just check up on him," James said.

"James..."

"Please, Loges! I hate leaving him alone and if something was to go wrong, I trust you to take care of it. You do so well here and if I can trust you with my business, then I definitely trust you with Kendall."

How could James possibly trust him? Sure, he did his job right and never made any mistakes that could jeopardize the Diamond company, but when it came to Kendall, Logan couldn't be trusted. He had already broken James' trust.

"I don't know. He's not very fond of me," Logan said, hoping his shitty excuse would suffice.

"He's just been super moody lately. Believe me, it has nothing to do with you," James said.

Logan didn't know how he was supposed to get out of this one. He couldn't think of another way to turn down James' request. He finally let out a sigh of defeat.

"Fine."

James' face lit up. "Really! Logan, you are the best! Thank you!"

"No problem," Logan said sadly.

James grabbed his phone from off his desk and leaned back in his chair, then he started to scroll through his contact list. He pressed the phone to his ear once he dialed the number he was looking for.

"Thanks again, Loges!"

Logan didn't say a word and he turned to leave. He reached out for the door handle, then he hesitated and spun around to face his boss. "On second thoughts, I would like that raise."

James waved his assistant off. "We'll discuss it later."

Logan nodded his head and left the office, rolling his eyes as soon as he shut the door. What did he just do?

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As soon as Logan finished up his shift, he clocked out and left the giant building, glad to be done for the day. He was tired from running around all day, and cracking open a cold one while relaxing on the sofa sounded appeasing.

His thoughts drifted to the conversation he had with James and he quietly cursed to himself. He wasn't thrilled about the idea of having to watch Kendall, he wasn't very fond of the blond and every time they were around each other, they broke out into an argument.

_Stupid, stupid, stupid!_ Logan thought to himself and he climbed into his car. He banged his fist against the steering wheel in irritation. He was regretting helping his boss out. The raise he was promised had better be a damn good one.

When he arrived home, he was surprised to find Carlos' car parked on the street beside his house. Logan couldn't remember if they had made plans for the evening. His mind had been elsewhere the past few days.

Logan pulled into the small driveway and shut off the car, then climbing out to greet his friend. Carlos got out of his own vehicle and approached the brunet with a smile and a six pack of beer.

"Are you supposed to be here?" Logan questioned.

Carlos frowned. "Wow, am I that easy to forget!"

"No, I'm sorry. Life has just been crazy lately."

"It's okay, I understand. Let's go inside and drink!"

Logan rolled his eyes and led his best friend toward the house. He stepped inside first and turned the main light on, then he shut the door once Carlos entered. Carlos' eyes scanned around the living room and he chuckled.

"What?" Logan questioned.

"Even after dealing with so much crap, you still manage to keep your place clean. It's disgusting," Carlos replied.

"Cleaning keeps me calm okay? You wouldn't know since you don't clean whatsoever."

"I do! Just not as much as you do. You're a clean freak!"

"Anyway!" Logan said, quickly growing bored of their current conversation. "Let's just relax. I want to forget about work."

"Was it that bad?" Carlos asked and he set the pack of beer down on the coffee table, then taking a seat on the sofa.

Logan nodded and let out a sad sigh, then he plopped down beside his friend. Carlos quickly handed Logan a can.

"You're gonna need this."

"I might need some a little stronger actually."

"What happened?" Carlos asked and he opened his own can, then took a drink.

"James is a moron and Kendall is just as stupid. I hate them!" Logan cried out.

"Wait, I thought you liked him. Isn't that why you fucked him?"

Logan cringed. "Do you have to say it like that?"

"How else do you want me to say it?" Carlos questioned.

"Forget it. I don't like him at all. He bugs the shit out of me and I just want to punch him in his ugly face!"

"Wow okay. He hasn't told James what's going on, huh?"

"Yep! Do you know how frustrating it is to hear them talk about my baby! It's not fair!" Logan cried.

"I know." Carlos patted Logan's thigh to comfort him. "I know this sucks, but you can't tell James the truth. That's Kendall's job."

"I know that! But he won't do that! He claims he was going to tell James over the weekend, but James has some business trip and won't be here. And get this, I have to fucking babysit Kendall!"

"Wow, really? Are you seriously going to do it?"

"I have to. Stupid me already agreed to do it." Logan let out a heavy sigh. "I don't know what to do."

"Okay, well I can't help you there. All you can do is talk to Kendall and tell him that he needs to tell James the truth."

"But he won't! I know it!"

Carlos rolled his eyes. "Just talk to him. Make him understand that this is bothering you and that he needs to come clean before the shit really hits the fan."

"Fine."

"And don't be mean!" Carlos added.

"Fine! Can we talk about something else? I'm stressing myself out," Logan said.

Carlos nodded and took another large drink from his can. Logan didn't even bother with his and Carlos frowned.

"Logan, just open it. You need to relax."

"I know."

"Don't worry about it. Stressing out isn't going to do any good."

"Yeah, okay." Logan opened the can and took a drink of its contents, then set it down on the coffee table.

Stressing out over the current situation definitely wasn't going to help him, but he couldn't help it. It hurt to hear James talk about the baby like it was his own. Logan wanted to scream at his boss and tell him that the baby was in fact his, but he couldn't do that. At least, not yet anyway.

Kendall had to do it. Logan just hoped the blond would do it soon.

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Kendall crossed his arms over his chest and glared at the brunet across from him. He wasn't happy that Logan had to watch him while James was away. The blond was capable of taking care of himself for an entire weekend, he didn't need a babysitter. But James insisted that Logan come by and make sure everything was okay.

Stupid James.

Logan sat opposite from the blond, his own arms crossed over his chest. The two exchanged glances every now and then, but they remained silent. Logan wanted to be at home, relaxing and enjoying his Saturday, but life wasn't fair to him.

Kendall was growing bored. He was tired of sitting on the couch and his legs were aching to be stretched. He sat up from his spot on the couch and Logan's eyes quickly darted in his direction.

"What are you doing?" He questioned.

"Stretching? Is that a crime?" Kendall replied.

Logan rolled his eyes. "No, but don't do anything stupid."

"I won't do anything stupid. I've already made that mistake."

Logan narrowed his eyes at the blond. "Yet you still continue to act like a moron."

Kendall huffed and tried to ignore the brunet's poor attitude. He went into the kitchen, suddenly feeling hungry, and he started to go through the fridge. He settled on a chocolate pudding cup and he grabbed a spoon. As soon as the pudding hit his taste buds, he felt his stomach churn.

The pudding cup landed on the floor beside his feet and Kendall took off running for the bathroom. Logan didn't even have to ask what was going on, and he rolled his eyes before going after the blond. The sound of retching filled Logan's ears when he stepped inside the master bedroom and he followed the noises until he was standing in front of the connecting bathroom door.

The door was cracked open and Logan pushed on it, opening it a little wider and peering inside. Kendall was hunched over the toilet, gripping the bowl tightly and emptying the contents of his stomach. Logan grimaced at the sight.

"You okay?" he asked.

Kendall didn't respond, Logan wasn't expecting him to, but he decided to ask anyway. Kendall pulled away when he was finished and he leaned back against the wall. He glanced over in Logan's direction and the brunet let out a sad sigh. The blond looked terrible and Logan suddenly felt bad for acting like a jerk.

"Let me help you," Logan said.

Kendall shook his head. "Go away."

Logan rolled his eyes and walked over to the small closet in the bathroom, opening the door and grabbing the first wash cloth he saw. He ran it under warm water and rung it out,then he knelt down beside the blond and handed him the wet cloth. Kendall hesitated for a second before finally taking the wet cloth.

"Thanks," he muttered and he wiped his mouth.

"No problem," Logan replied and he stood up to lean back against the counter.

"I still don't need you here.

"Obviously you do. James is worried for some reason."

"It's just morning sickness. I won't die," Kendall said.

"But you will get dehydrated. Just stop being a baby and let me help you," Logan said.

"I don't want your help. And why would you help me anyway?"

"Believe me, I don't want to be here either, but James will probably fire me if I leave."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "I knew you didn't really care."

"Will you stop? I already said that I was going to help. But you need to help me."

Kendall glanced up at the brunet. "How?"

"I want you to tell James. He comes back tomorrow and-"

"No. No way."

"You said you were going to do it. Was that a lie?" Logan questioned.

"I was, but-"

"Then you can tell him tomorrow."

Kendall let out a sigh and tossed the soiled cloth in the hamper that sat beside him. He turned his attention back to Logan. "You don't understand."

"Yes, I do! I know you're scared, but this is hurting me! I'm so tired of hearing him talk day after day about that baby. You're making this worse for him! Just grow the fuck up and tell him the truth!" Logan cried.

"So he can hate me and you can be happy again? No!"

Logan cried out in frustration. "He's going to hate you for lying and stringing him along! Why don't you get that!"

"I don't want to talk about this anymore."

"No, we're not finished. Kendall, I don't want to have to be the one to tell him. You have to do it."

"I will."

"Will you? You keep saying that and you never follow through," Logan said.

Kendall turned away from the brunet and Logan let out heavy sigh, then he disappeared from the room. Kendall felt tears rolling down his face and he quickly wiped them away. He knew what he had to do, but he didn't know how he was going to do it. He could try to avoid the current issue, but he was doing that already and it was only making things worse.

The only thing left to do was tell James the truth.

**A/N: Yep, so Kendall is finally going to do it! I bet you all know how that is going to go. Thank you guys so much for reading and I will update soon!**


	13. Chapter 13

**A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for the late update! I hate that I've been so busy lately. Thank you for being patient and I hope you all like the chapter!**

Kendall's stomach was still churning the following day, but he knew morning sickness had nothing to do with it. James was coming home and that meant that Kendall had to come clean to him. The blond was dreading it, but keeping his secret from James wasn't an option anymore. He couldn't keep lying.

His mind was racing with different ways he could break the news to James, but everything he rehearsed never sounded right. He could try and say it as sincere as he wanted, but no matter how he phrased it, it was still going to hurt James.

Kendall felt worse the more he thought about telling James, and he felt fresh tears gather in his eyes. Some of those tears escaped and they ran down his cheek. He wiped them away quickly when Logan entered the room.

"You okay?" Logan asked and the blond nodded his head. "Liar."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "Then why ask?"

"I know you're worried, but you have to tell him."

"I know."

"Do you?"

"Yes! I know what to do!" Kendall was getting annoyed with Logan constantly telling him to confess his horrible secret to James. He knew it had to be done.

Logan held up his hands in defense. "I'm just saying."

"Well stop! I'm going to tell him so you can leave now."

"You think I'm here to witness you telling him?"

"Why else would you be here? I'm not stupid, I know you just want to make sure I actually do it," Kendall replied.

"I'm here because my boss asked me too. But since he's on his way home, maybe I should just leave," Logan said.

"There's the door!" Kendall gestured toward the front door.

Logan rolled his eyes and walked over to the kitchen, snatching his keys from off the counter and then making his way over to the door. He reached for the knob and grasped it, but he couldn't find himself to turn it. He let out a sigh and turned around to face the blond.

"You know, if you ever need anything...I'm here."

"I'm fine."

Logan let out a heavy sigh, then he opened the door and left. As soon as he was gone, Kendall let the tears he was holding back fall. He didn't understand why he was being a jerk to Logan when it was obvious that the brunet wanted to help him. Logan had days when he wasn't very friendly and Kendall thought for sure that the brunet hated him. Now Kendall wasn't sure what to think.

He stood up from the couch and wandered down the dark hallway until he was in the bedroom, and he crawled onto the bed and let his head hit the pillow. His eyes glanced on the alarm clock that sat on the bedside table, and he started to wonder when James was going to be home. He started to think about how he was going to do come clean to his boyfriend and he let out a groan.

He shut his eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Kendall wasn't sure what time it was and why he was awake, then he felt someone brushing his hair away from his face. The blond's eyes fluttered open and a familiar voice reached his ears. James was sitting beside him and he smiled.

"Hey, sleepyhead. Go back to sleep."

"You're home? What time is it?"

"It's a little after 3. I just wanted to check up on you," James said softly.

Kendall didn't mean to sleep so late, but he was tired and it was obvious that his body needed the rest. He rolled over and propped himself up on his elbows. His teeth sunk into his bottom lip and his heart began to race. He had to tell him.

"James, I-"

"Kendall, go back to sleep. I didn't mean to wake you."

"I'm okay. I can get up. I want to talk to you anyway."

James cocked his head in confusion. "What's wrong? Did something happen when I was away?"

Kendall swallowed the lump in his throat. The words were there, he could feel them perched on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn't get them past his lips. James was getting more worried by the second and Kendall knew he had to say something.

"No." He let out a sad sigh.

"Then what's wrong?" James asked again.

"Nothing. I just...missed you. I'm glad you're home."

"Me, too. I couldn't stop thinking about you. I knew Logan was going to take care of you, but I still worry."

"Oh. Yeah, he was fine I guess," Kendall said.

James frowned. "That's it? I know he said you don't like him, but-"

"I never said that."

"He thinks that because you have been...short with him lately. I don't know, that's what he told me. I told him not to worry about it."

Kendall rolled his eyes. "I know you have all these stupid meetings or whatever, but don't leave me with him again. I'm fine on my own."

"I know and I promise I won't go out of town anymore. I want to be here for you and the baby," James said.

There it was again; the guilt. Every time James mentioned the baby, it made the blond feel worse about the situation. He was constantly in a battle with himself, but he could never bring himself to tell James the truth.

"James-"

"Listen, can this wait? I really want to shower."

Kendall nodded his head. James stood up from the bed and made his way toward the connecting bathroom. The blond let out a sigh and fell back against the pillow. There had to be an easier way.

But there wasn't one.

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Kendall hated the looks Kelly was giving him. It seemed like all day, her eyes had been on him and whenever he glanced in her direction, she just narrowed her eyes and shook her head. Kendall had a feeling of what the evil looks meant, and he tried to ignore her. It was easier said than done.

Gustavo finally gave him a break and the producer disappeared from the recording room to get himself another cup of coffee. Kendall removed the headphones from his head and hung them back up, then he exited the sound booth. Kelly was glaring at him again.

"What! You've been doing that all day! What did I do!" Kendall cried.

"You haven't told him, have you?" Kelly asked.

"Tell who? What?"

"James! He still doesn't know, does he?"

Kendall let out a sigh. "I'm working on it."

"How far along are you?"

"What does that have to do with anything?"

Kelly rolled her eyes. "Just answer the question!"

"I don't know. 10 maybe 11 weeks. Why?"

"Kendall, you need to tell him. Putting it off isn't going to do any good."

"I know, I know. I tried to tell him the other day, but I can't get the damn words out. I'm scared," Kendall admitted.

"I know, honey, but you have to let him know what's really going on. It's not fair to him," Kelly said.

"He's going to hate me."

"No. He just-"

Kendall frowned at the woman. "Kelly, he's going to hate me. I know he is. I wish I never did this. I screwed everything up."

"It's going to be okay. Just tell him the truth and go from there."

The blond singer nodded his head.

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His hands were shaking as he reached out for the door handle, but he couldn't get his fingers to grasp it. Kendall pulled away and shut his eyes, mentally screaming at himself to just open the damn door and go inside. His hand wrapped around the cold, brass handle and he turned it, the door creaking open.

James was at his desk, his hazel eyes glued to the computer screen in front of him. His brows were scrunched up as if he was in deep thought and Kendall prayed that he wasn't upset already. The blond was going to make him feel worse.

James heard the door open and he glanced up, a smile forming on his face at the sight of his boyfriend. He waved him in and Kendall had no choice but to step foot inside the large office.

"Hey! I was just going to call you," James said.

Kendall didn't reply and he made his way over to the wooden desk, his heart beating rapidly with every step. "Oh," he said quietly.

A concerned look crossed James' features. "What's wrong?"

"Uh just a bad day."

James nodded in understanding and he turned back to the screen. He clicked a few times on the mouse, then he typed away on the keyboard. Kendall fiddled with his fingers nervously. This was his chance to come clean.

"James-"

"Hey real quick! If we have a boy, my mom wants me to name him after my grandfather. I don't know how you feel about it."

"Um...I don't know. Jamie-"

"Hmm maybe you're right. This kid needs his own name. I already know my mom's going to want him to run this stupid company."

"It could be a girl."

James nodded. "True. We could name her after my mother."

Kendall couldn't take it anymore and before he could stop himself, he was blurting it all out. "No! I don't want to name the baby after your parents! This baby is not a Diamond!"

James was taken aback and he quickly focused on the fuming blond in front of him. "Kendall, I'm sorry. We don't have to do that. We could always-"

"No! There is no we!"

"What are you talking about?"

"James, I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore. I've been trying to tell you for weeks!" Kendall cried.

"Tell me what! What are you talking about?" James asked.

Tears were streaming down Kendall's face. "It's not your baby," he whispered.

At first, he wasn't sure if James had even heard him, but by the crushed look on James' face, he knew that what he had admitted was heard.

"James-"

"It's not mine?" James asked.

Kendall shook his head. "Logan and I-"

James' fist came crashing down against the desk, causing the blond to flinch and step away. James was silent, and Kendall was praying for him to say something.

"James, I'm-"

"How long?"

"W-what?"

"How long have you been seeing him!"

Kendall flinched again at the tone of James' voice. "It was just a couple times. It was when we were in Minnesota. I'm so sorry."

"You lied to me. I thought you loved me?" James was staring at him now and Kendall could see his hazel eyes bright with tears. Kendall felt like the biggest jerk in the world.

"James, I do! I do love you! I don't know what I was thinking!"

"Why? Why did you do it?"

"Because I felt neglected. You were never there," Kendall told him.

"You knew how my job was. You told me it wasn't going to be a problem," James said.

"I know and at first it wasn't, but then you kept going to meetings or staying late. I missed you. I missed being...loved."

"Loved? I always loved you!"

"You didn't show it. Not as much as you used to."

"And Logan did? He showed how much he loved you?"

Kendall shook his head. "No. It was a mistake. I regret it every day."

James scoffed and ran a hand through his hair. "I can't believe you would do this."

"Jamie, I'm-"

"Don't fucking call me that! You know what? Get the fuck out."

"James, please just talk to me. I want to fix this," Kendall begged.

"Fix this? There's nothing to fix. You lied to me! You were never going to tell me, were you? You were just going to keep this up until the baby was born?"

"I thought you wouldn't notice."

"Get out."

"James-"

"I said get out! Just get out of my life."

"I'm really sorry," Kendall whispered and he turned to leave.

James let his tears flow once Kendall was gone and the door shut. He was confused, hurt and angry all at the same time. He didn't understand how their relationship went from great to destroyed. Kendall had blamed him and James did feel like he played a big part in this whole mess. He should have cared more about Kendall than his stupid job, but that didn't mean that Kendall had to cheat on him. They could have worked it out.

He was looking forward to being a father. At first, the idea of having kids always terrified him, but the past few weeks had been exciting and knowing that he was going to spend the rest of his life with Kendall made his heart swell joy. They were going to be a happy family, a family he never had when he was younger. He was going to raise his son or daughter right, not abandoning them like he had been. He wasn't going to be like his father.

Now he couldn't do any of these things. Maybe he was going to be just like his parents. He had abandoned Kendall and their relationship fell apart because of that. Maybe he was better off being alone.

But he loved Kendall more than anything.

**A/N: Ugh sucky ending, but I wanted to get this up right away. Well, Kendall finally told James...I told you it wasn't going to be pretty. At least James realized that he was to blame, but Kendall didn't have to run to Logan. It's all just a big mess! I hope you guys liked it!**


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