Twilight 1. Chapter 1

**Disclaimer; I do not own any characters. They all belong to Stephenie Meyers. **

**Authors Notes; So here is chapter one of my new version of Lying To Love.**

**Hope you enjoy **

He was my husband's Dad for God sake. I knew it was wrong and that eventually we would get caught, but at the time it felt so right. He just took my breath away. His gorgeous eyes, blonde hair, his amazing personality and beautiful smile. I loved him and that's all there was to it. I didn't think of Edward or Esme. I knew it would absolutely crush them if they found out, but I was only thinking of me and him…Carlisle. It's not like it was planned, because it wasn't! It just sort of happened!

I had just got out of the hospital from visiting Alice, my sister in law and best friend. She had been injured pretty badly after her horse Bruno went crazy and threw her off him, causing her to be thrown against a wooden fence and finally slamming down onto the concrete floor, hitting her head on the way down. She had been in a coma now for 3 weeks, so I was back and forth to the hospital, sitting with her, talking to her, willing her to wake up…but so far there was no sign of her gaining consciousness. I sighed, as I began to unlock my car. All I wanted was for her to be okay.

'Bella! Bella!' I heard a familiar voice shouting my name. I turned from my car, to face the direction of the voice shouting me when I saw a tall, blonde lady running towards me. It was my doctor and Carlisle's friend Rosalie Hale.

'Shit' I whispered to myself, once it had registered to me that I hadn't seen her in months.

'Hi' I smiled.

'Bella, it been at least 5 months since your last appointment with me, you were supposed to have your injection months ago. I've been trying to get in contact with you, but your phone has been constantly engaged. I haven't got any appointments now, so I can quickly fit you in now for a check-up and the injection. If you want it and have the time?'

'I...I have had a lot on my plate recently. I've got a new number and forgot to inform you. I completely forgot about the injection too...thank you, that would be great' I stuttered.

I walked with her towards her doctor's office, and explained the reasons as to why I hadn't had an appointment recently. Once we entered the room I took a seat opposite her desk and waited for her to join me, whilst she went to collect my medical file. The room didn't really look like a doctor's examination room as it had family photos and pictures all over the walls, there was also a bookcase full of books. They looked a bit like medical books. I suppose that would make sense since it was a doctor's bookcase. Rosalie walked back into the room and sat on the chair in front of her computer and turned to look at me.

'Right, Bella. Before I give you the injection I need to ask you to take a pregnancy test'

I felt my jaw drop, as I stared at her in disbelief. I couldn't be pregnant. Not at my age, I was only 20 and only recently married. It wasn't the right time for me and Edward to have a child yet. Neither of us were ready to be parents. How could she think I was pregnant anyway? The way she said it seemed like a total assumption being she hadn't even asked me any questions or anything. Was I getting fat?

'It's only because of how many injections you have missed. So therefore I can't give you the injection yet just in case you are pregnant. It's just a precaution, don't look so worried' She said as she passed me the pregnancy test.

_'Don't look so worried?'_ I thought to myself as I walked towards the private toilet with the pregnancy test, how dare she? This was absolutely terrifying, how could I not look worried? There was no way I wanted to bring a child into mine and Edward's marriage right now. We had only been married for 3 months…and well with the way Edward could be sometimes it really wouldn't be ideal for me to be pregnant right now. Don't get me wrong I loved Edward but he would hit the roof when he found out. He had told me that he didn't want children until we were at least 24, the main reason as to why I actually went on the injection in the first place.

_'I want to live my life to the fullest before we settle down to have children. I want you all to myself, I'm not ready to share you' I recalled him telling me before he passionately kissed me._

I peed on the stick, and walked straight back into the room passing it to Rosalie straight away, not wanting to look myself. I wanted this to be over straight away, I didn't want to wait around. I wanted to get home, lie down on the sofa, snuggle up and watch a good film, with a smile on my face.

'It's positive' she smiled' I need to do a scan to see how far gone you are, if you would like to just pop onto the examination bed so we can see your little angel on the screen?'

'I'm…I'm what?' I asked in shock, my eyes wide with fear. I was in total shock, how could this be happening? I didn't know how to feel, should I feel happy…sad…what? I had always wanted to be a mom but only when me and Edward were both ready, I was willing to wait until he was ready and had sorted himself out.

'Pregnant…there are options Bella…' Rosalie began to speak, pulling me out of my thoughts.

'No!' I almost shouted, cutting her off before she could continue. There was no way I was going to abort this baby…I couldn't…not again. If I had to go through this pregnancy on my own then so be it. I would do it alone. I didn't need Edward if he didn't want to support us. It was up to him now.

I slowly rose from the chair and hesitantly walked over to the examination bed, for the ultrasound. I rolled my t-shirt up and she put the cold jelly on my stomach, before she did the sonogram. As she put it on my stomach to find the baby, I looked towards the screen and tears formed in my eyes as I saw the tiny life growing inside of me.

'You're 12 weeks gone Bella' Rosalie informed me.

Whoa. How could I be 12 weeks pregnant and not have realised? I mean I had, had a lot of things on my mind these past few months, but that doesn't excuse 12 weeks. I mean I hadn't had any signs at all that I was pregnant…that I had realised. I guess I have been stressed with work lately and mine and Edwards honeymoon and not forgetting Alice. So I haven't really been paying attention but still…

'O...Okay' I stuttered. 'Is everything okay?'

'He or she looks perfectly healthy' Rosalie smiled comfortingly. 'Congratulations'

She printed off a picture of the ultrasound, so I could show my family and Edward. Edward? How was I going to tell Edward? My biggest worry was Edward. I didn't care about anyone else's reactions. Not even my dad's.

I thanked Rosalie and left the hospital. As I got into my car and turned on the engine on, the radio immediately began to play.

_You know I'll be_  
_Your life, your voice your reason to be_  
_My love, my heart_  
_Is breathing for this_  
_Moments in time_  
_I'll find the words to say_  
_Before you leave me today_

Tears streamed down my face as I listened to the words, I turned the radio off. I couldn't handle it. I needed time to think, to let everything sink in. I started driving, driving anywhere, anywhere away from all of my problems, from telling him. Edward. After about three hours of driving around, thinking and crying I ended up at mine and Edward's cottage. I pulled up on to the driveway, turned off the engine of my white Toyota Prius and checked my BlackBerry phone. 6 missed calls off Edward, 8 off my Dad, 4 off of Edward's mom, Esme and 16 missed calls from Edwards father, Carlisle…and that's without including the messages I had off them all. I wiped my eyes, and looked at my phone in confusion. Why was it out of all of them…my own father, husband and the woman I looked at as a mom, that the one that seemed more concerned and worried was Carlisle, who I hardly spoke to.

_'Oh god'_ I thought to myself. I looked in my compact mirror; my face was a mess from all of the crying, I had done. I grabbed a Kleenex out of my bag and quickly cleaned up the tears, before applying some make-up to try and hide the fact that I had been crying. I took my time to get out of the car and walk towards my gorgeous cottage. I opened the door and was taken aback instantly by how many people were in the house. Edward, Edwards Dad Carlisle, Esme, my Dad Charlie. All of them looking pale and panicked…especially Carlisle.

'Bella, where have you been? We've been absolutely worried sick; you've been gone for hours. Do you realize what time it is?' Edward ran over too me, with a stern look in his eye but hugging me anyway. 'I thought something had happened to you!' I looked over at the time as he said this. It was 12:30am, I had been at the hospital, doctors, and driving for over 8 hours. No wonder everyone had been worried. I didn't reply to Edward, just stood there in his embrace taking in what would probably be the last hug we ever had together after he had found out about the pregnancy.

'Has something happened Bella?' Carlisle's voice spoke in the background. I nodded, looking over towards him and my dad.

'What's happened? Have you been crying?' my dad suddenly asked.

'Wow, fail at hiding you've been crying Bella' I said out loud sarcastically without realising.

'You've been crying? Babe, what's wrong? Are you ok?' Edward questioned panicking, putting on a show in front of everyone. He let go of me, looking me up and down making sure I wasn't hurt or injured…playing the concerned husband.

'Edward, I'm not hurt' I whispered. As my Dad, Esme and Carlisle rushed over to me. I began to feel dizzy and needed to sit down. I pushed my way past them all to get to the sofa, I sat down, and resting my elbows on my knees I put my face into my eyes and silently sobbed. I needed to tell him now before I worried myself sick and whilst I had the courage.

'Edward, I need to speak to you' I hesitantly spoke. Esme looked at me with concern all over her face.

'Do you need some privacy?' she asked gently. I shook my head. If I told Edward in front of my dad, and his parents maybe he wouldn't react how I expected him to by himself.

'Bella, honey. I'm really sorry but I need to be at the station in 5 minutes. Now I know your okay, I really need to get going. I'm sorry sweetie' dad apologised. I nodded, and felt a tear run down my face, worried sick that Esme and Carlisle would leave too. I watched as dad whispered something into Carlisle's ear and Carlisle nod in reply before my dad left.

I stood up and watched out of the window as my dad drove away in his cruiser. The one person I desperately wanted here, but of course his work came first…as it always did even when mom and I lived with him when I was younger. The main reason she left him.

'What's gone on Bella?' Edward asked, coming to stand in front of me.

'Edward...when I tell you this please don't get angry? I want you to be happy. We can work this out. Promise me, please?' I mumbled, not caring how it sounded to Carlisle and Esme.

'What is it Bella?' He growled angrily, as if he knew exactly what was coming.

'I'm…I'm...'

'Spit it out Bella!' He shouted with venom in his tone.

'Edward, calm down. Give the girl time to speak. You can see she's upset' Esme spoke in shock of how her son had just spoken to his own wife. The first time she'd ever heard him speak that way…but it wasn't the first time for me.

'Pregnant' I spluttered

He looked straight to the floor, not looking me in the eyes at all. I knew this wasn't going to go well.

'Say something' I begged.

'Like what Bella?! I'm absolutely thrilled for you, just what you fucking wanted! You've done this on purpose haven't you?!' He snarled.

'No Edward! I can't believe you even think I would do that! Trust me I didn't want this either…not with out relationship at the minute. I love you Edward, I do but I'm not getting rid of our baby no matter what you want. I wanted us to both be ready before we had a baby and for you to have sorted yourself out, so why would I do this on purpose?' I screamed at him. How could he think I would do that to him? I wouldn't dream of it, I loved him and honored him, so why would I go behind his back and purposely make sure we got pregnant?

'Shit happens…okay? Look, I am keeping this baby. You can be as involved as you want but I am keeping it. I just hope you make the right choice and stay with us, be happy, be the fantastic father I know you can be. Please just stay…I need you...I love you'

'Bullshit! I want nothing to do with this, you know my feelings! I'm not ready yet'. He picked up his car keys to the Volkswagen Jetta, and began to walk out of the door.

'EDWARD!' I screamed as he walked out of the front door. 'Where are you going? Please, stay?' I begged him, falling to my knees in tears. Esme was at my side instantly, looking at her son in disgust and trying to calm me down.

'How dare you speak to your wife like that?' I heard Carlisle raise his voice from behind us.

'Stay out of this dad! I'm getting out of here! Out of this shit town. I can't take it anymore Bella, this is bullshit! This whole relationship is bullshit and your nothing but a bitch. Its over! Me and you are over Bella! I want nothing of this life anymore! I wish I never met you, then none of this would have happened!' He stared at me the whole time whilst he broke my heart into a million pieces. How could he do this to me...not just me but our unborn child too? The child he helped create? He turned away, climbed into his black Volkswagen Jeeta, and turned up the radio so he couldn't hear my cries. He looked at me one last time, not one tear forming in his eyes, as he reversed out of the drive and drove away.

I lay in Esme's arms for what felt like hours. Her arms soaking wet from my tears. I looked up to where Edward's car was before he left and slowly began to stand up.

'Carlisle help her up' Esme whispered. He obliged and helped me to stand. I shrugged away from him and began to run towards my car my legs shaking beneath me, and my vision blurred when I felt a pair of masculine arms around my waist trying to stop me from going. I struggled against Carlisle's arms, knowing full well it was Carlisle, but he wouldn't let go. I turned around in his arms and collapsed against his chest.

'Please…please just let me go' I whispered quietly through tears, pushing him away from me and running to my car. As soon as I got into the car I started the engine and left. Both Carlisle and Esme tried chasing after me but it was no use. I was leaving. Running away from mine and Edward's problems just like Edward had done.

_It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now_  
_Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now_  
_And I don't know how I can do without_  
_I just need you now._

'FUCK YOU!' I screamed at the radio, before looking up at the road. Then it all went black. That was the night everything changed for me, nothing to be the same again. Ever.


	2. Chapter 2

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I woke up screaming. Screaming in pain. A pain I had never felt before in my life. What was wrong with me? Where was I? Was the baby ok? Tears were falling from my eyes, as the excruciating pain carried on.

'Isabella. You're awake! It's me Carlisle. Listen to me; you've been in an accident. You're in hospital, you're going to be okay. We're going to give you some pain relief to take to take away the pain.' I heard Carlisle's frantic voice. What did he mean by 'you're awake'? Of course I am awake, why wouldn't I be. What's happened? I carried on screaming unable to take the pain. My vision was blurred from all of the tears, I couldn't see anything or anyone, but could feel all the wires on my face and all over my body. I kept moving my hand trying to touch the wires to get them out of me…to get out of this place. I needed to get out of here. I needed to go home. Get everything back to normal. I needed everything to be okay again. I carried on pulling harder at the wire in my left hand desperately trying to tear it out, when I felt somebody grab my hands to stop me pulling at the wires.

'Edward?' I whispered in a hope he would be here, that he would be angry with me.

I heard a sad sigh, and I knew instantly it wasn't Edward...and that Edward wasn't even here for me or the baby.

'Bella, please stop pulling at the wires. You're going to get yourself in a worst state...and you need to think about the baby. Please, the wires are here to help you. Please Bella…please?' Carlisle whispered, sounding like he hated seeing me in this state, but I didn't care. I wanted to know Edward wasn't angry with me…that he wouldn't result to his normal actions…and that he still loved me.

'GET OFF ME' I screamed. I wanted Edward and only Edward. Why wasn't he here?! I need him. 'Edward...Edward...where are you?' I cried as I drifted off into the darkness of unconsciousness.

My eyes began to open slowly. My vision blurred by the light suddenly hitting my eyes. I turned my head slowly to the left, looking around the room trying to figure out where I was. The room was filled with medical equipment and medical posters on the pale cream wall. A heart machine was attached to me, keeping track of my heart rate and several drips with wires were inserted into my left arm and hand. There was also a sonogram by the side of me. Was my baby okay? What had happened to me?

'H…help' I whispered, in a weak and trembling voice. 'E…Edward?' I stuttered.

'Bells' I heard my dad cry out, it sounded like he had been crying and was shattered. I looked to my right and dad was just leaning down to hug me. I winced in pain as he hugged me, a sharp shooting pain forming in my chest.

'Dad, what…what's happened to me? Why am I in here?'

'You've been a car crash darling. You crashed into a lamp post at quite a speed. You're lucky to be alive! You've haven't woken for 3 days…I…I thought I had lost you darling. I didn't think I would see you again' He spoke in a hoarse voice, trying to clear his throat and stop the tears.

'I can't remember anything that's happened dad. All I remember is arguing with Edward…and then…then hugging Carlisle…and then its all blank' I took a breath, as it hurt to speak. Why had I been hugging Carlisle? 'Is…is the baby ok dad?' I asked looking him in the eyes.

'It's a miracle but the baby is fine thank god. He or she is a little fighter just you'

'Aaaahhh…dad. HELP ME' I screamed as I felt a sharper pain in my chest as I breathed. Immediately somebody was by my side, I couldn't tell who it was as I was more focused on the pain and I could hardly see through my tears.

'Bella, I'm going to need to examine you. I need to find out what is causing you so much pain. Where does it hurt?' I recognised the soft, and gentle voice, it was Carlisle's. He must be my doctor, I thought to myself. I remembered how he had told me that he had strict orders that if any of his family were rushed into hospital; he wanted to be their doctor, so it made sense being I was Edward's wife…although it was a completely different situation for Alice.

'M…my' I couldn't get the words out. All I wanted to do was scream out, and curl into a ball.

'Just tell him!' I heard someone speak harshly. It sounded like they were standing in the corner of the room by the door. I tried to see who it was but I could hardly move my neck and the pain in my chest was excruciating.

'How fucking dare you! That's your fucking wife lying in that hospital bed bearing in mind she's carrying your child too! She's lucky to be alive, she could have been killed, all because you were an ignorant twat towards her! You're a fucking coward, do you hear me? She deserves so much better than you. If I had my way she wouldn't be with you. You're a disgrace Edward Cullen! Do you hear me? You're a fucking disgrace!' I heard my dad start shouting whilst walking towards the door. I realised at this point who the person in the corner was. Then a gasp came from the corner as if someone had just been punched. I knew instantly that my dad had just hit Edward, as I knew Edward would never lay a hand on my dad…he didn't have the guts to hit men, and well he wouldn't live to see the next day if he had hit my dad.

'Charlie, stop. Both of you get out of here now!' I heard Carlisle order, before hearing the door open and close.

'Edward' I wheezed, hoping he would hear me, but when I heard no reply I knew I had to do something to make sure he was okay. I grabbed at the wires in my arms and gritting my teeth, to stop from screaming I ripped the cannulas out of my hand and forearm, letting out a stifled scream whilst doing this. I shifted my legs over the side of the bed and stood from the bed, I knew it was stupid but I needed to help Edward. I needed to know he was okay. I needed him to tell me everything was going to be okay, that he wasn't angry…that he loved me…that he was happy. I looked around the room, but there was nobody in sight. I tried to walk towards the door, to look for him outside but my legs wouldn't let me. I didn't have the energy. I felt weak all over. I looked down to my arm where I felt a wetness and instantly saw my blood gushing out from where the cannulas once were. The sight of the blood made me feel nauseated, the room began to spin, and I fell to the floor with a thud. I lay on the floor looking up at the ceiling, feeling weak all over. I couldn't let myself pass out. I needed to keep myself awake. I needed to stop the bleeding. I needed to shout for help. Using my right hand, I held it down onto my left forearm where most of the blood was coming from. I tried shouting for help, by I couldn't get the words out. The chest in my pain was hurting far worse, especially in the position I was lying in, crumpled up in a heap on the cold hospital floor.

'Right Bella…now that's…' I heard Carlisle speak, as soon as the door opened. He suddenly stopped speaking when he saw the situation I was in, and rushed over to me. 'Oh God Bella. What have you done? Keep your eyes open for me' He begged. I opened my mouth trying to speak, but the words just wouldn't come. He lifted me up gently, cradling me protectively before placing me onto the bed. I looked up at his face, studying the worried wrinkles creasing at his forehead, and the worry in his eyes H glanced, away from my arm and looked me in the eyes, as if trying to tell me something but I refused to look any longer. I looked away from him and stared at the wall, studying the poster on the wall. I didn't want to see or know the further damage I had caused and I didn't want to see the hurt in Carlisle's eyes. Why he was so concerned I don't know…we very rarely spoke to each other, so why all the worry now? I could feel him wiping my arm and hand, then a sudden sharp scratch. I assumed he was reinserting new cannulas into my arm and hand being I had stupidly ripped the last ones out. I just needed to see Edward…and look where that had gotten me.

'Why did you do it Bella?' he whispered desperately seeking the answer, after he had sorted my arm out.

'I needed to see him' I spoke raspily.

'After the way he spoke to you…the way he just upped and left?' he sighed. Why was Carlisle being like this?

'I love him'

'Yeah, well he shouldn't have spoken to you like that. He's lucky to have you.' he muttered,

'Anyway the pain relief that we've been giving you for the pain is what caused you to pass out. Once you woke properly I needed to lower you dosage of it, as it can make you feel very weak, nauseated and faint. You were also losing blood from where you pulled the wires out, and God knows how long you were on the floor for and well you know what your like with blood. You know you can't handle the sight of it. Also the sudden shock to your body from the pain and suddenly standing and trying to walk didn't help. We need you to take it slowly and careful, not suddenly and stupidly jump to try and do something' Carlisle went into a lecture mode. I knew I had been stupid; I didn't need to be told. I nodded, to make him leave me alone about the subject. I placed my hand on my ribcage and gritted my teeth.

'Bella, is it your chest causing you the pain?' Carlisle asked going back into doctor mode. I nodded, not wanting to speak. 'Sounds like a broken rib...maybe more than one. Can I take a look Bella?' Carlisle requested. I nodded in agreement again. He began to touch my chest where my rib cages were located. I screeched in pain when he touched the right side. 'It's definitely broken. I'm going to have an x-ray done to make sure it's only one ribcage and that it hasn't punctured anything.'

15 minutes later I was being wheeled down to the x-ray department and had the x-ray done. It didn't take long, only about 10 minutes. I was taken back to my room and was told I would have to wait for the results and then hopefully would be able to go home in the next few days if I started eating solids, instead of being on the drip, and also walking without feeling ill. I couldn't wait, to be back in the comfort of my own home. The nurse who was helping to look after me, had lifted my bed up so I was now in a sitting position. I picked up a magazine that Carlisle had requested to be got for me when I heard a quiet knock at the door.

'Hello?' I called out. It was slowly becoming less painful to speak, especially when I was sitting up in bed. The door slowly creaked open and the first thing I could see was three helium balloons. One was a red love heart that said 'congratulations' on in black swirly letters. I smiled knowing that was about the pregnancy. The next one was another love heart which was light green with a teddy bear holding letters and flowers on. Above the teddy bear said 'hope you get well soon'. The last one was a rainbow coloured circle balloon that said 'I'm sorry' on. I smiled as Edward appeared behind the balloons. He walked towards my bed, with a sad look on his face. He sat down on the bed beside me, looking me in the eyes.

'I'm so sorry. I've been an idiot. I deserved what I got off your dad, I was a jerk too you. I love you so much Bells. I just hope you can forgive me. I just needed time to take in the news' he touched my stomach. 'I am happy Bella, I was just shocked and angry to start with but I want this to work. I want to be in our baby's life...and yours. If you will let me?'

'You have been a jerk. But I love you too Edward, you know I always will and I still do. I just want us to be a family. Me, you and our baby. You'll be a great father, just like your dad has been to you. I didn't do this on purpose though Edward; it was genuinely a stupid mistake of forgetting my injection and giving my new number to the doctors. I need you to know that. This baby is going to grow up to be a handsome young man or a beautiful young girl..but I need you to get some help Edward. I can't have you losing your temper like usual. I can't bring our baby into that type of relationship…and I will leave you if I have to Edward. Even if you tried to stop me. I have to protect our baby now…and I just hope you will too…' He looked down at the floor, before looking back at me.

'I promise you. I'll change Bella. Our child wont witness anything from our past. I love you Bella' he promised me. Of course this was always Edward's routine to get back in my good books, but I loved him so of course I believed him.

'I love you too' I whispered, leaning in to kiss him.

'Please, don't ever leave me again?' I begged him, pulling away from his lips needing air.

'I promise'

Carlisle and Dad walked into my room at this point. Dad stared at Edward for a while but then nodded at him with respect. They must have had words earlier whilst I was having my x-ray done. Carlisle just stared at us in disgust and disbelief. What was his problem?

'You've got one broken rib on your right side. Me and your dad have decided that instead of you going back to the cottage or his house, you'll be coming to stay with me and Esme for a while, so I can get you on the mend and keep an eye on you and the baby. I can easily take the stitches out of your forehead too when they need to come out and if anything happens I've got all the equipment and contacts at my house to get you medical care straight away.' Carlisle seemed to demand. Not even looking at me.

I looked at Edward, panic written all over my face. I didn't want to stay at Carlisle and Esme's house. Don't get me wrong I got on really well with them both, but it would be too awkward. I wouldn't feel comfortable. I couldn't treat their home as my own. I'd be feeling like I had to ask them if I could do something all the time.

I didn't even know I had stitches in my head, until Carlisle spoke about them. Everybody seemed to be telling me new things wrong with me or new things happening in my life every minute of the day. I wasn't even been asked, it just seemed like I was being told what to do like I was a 5 year old and not 20. I was a grown woman; I had the right to choose my own decisions. I went to argue, but my dad jumped in.

'It's not forever Bell. It's for the best for you and the baby, Carlisle knows what he's doing and we'll all still be coming to visit you. If it doesn't work out, we'll sort something out. Please just give it a try? Come on, its got to be better than this place anyway' he tried to persuade.

'Carlisle has got work to do though; he can't be looking after me all the time. I'm a grown woman I can look after myself' I tried to object. Carlisle pulled a hurt expression. Shit, I had upset him. I didn't mean to but it just felt like they couldn't think I could cope when I clearly could. I mean I was going to be a mom soon, and I was being treated like a toddler.

'It's already sorted, Carlisle has explained to his boss what's happened and he's been told he can have as long as he needs off. We're not saying you can't look after yourself but what happens if you collapse again in the cottage and Edwards at work? At least if you're at Carlisle's someone will be there 24/7 with you just in case.' My dad tried to persuade me.

I went to object again but Carlisle seemed pretty upset about what I had already said. He turned to walk out when I didn't reply.

'Fine' I quickly replied. I knew I would regret it but if it meant keeping the peace between everyone, then I would give it a try but the minute they started treating me like a child or I felt uncomfortable then I was going to be out of there straight away. Carlisle turned and smiled as if he was thanking me for some reason.

I was released later on that day under the circumstances that I was definitely staying at Carlisle's house, in which I agreed. The car journey was long and silent. I had nothing to say. It wasn't really an awkward silence, but I would have much preferred it if the radio was turned on. Edward had already gone back from the hospital when I agreed to move to his parents for a while. He had gone back to move some of our stuff into my bedroom and set it up ready for when I got there. We had discussed whether Edward would stay as well; I mean he was my husband. We came to the conclusion that it would be easier for him to stay only when he didn't have work in the morning as his work was a lot closer from our cottage so it meant less travelling for him. I wasn't thrilled about this and begged him to book work off but he refused saying we needed the money to set up the nursery in our cottage. I however had made a strict rule that I wanted to be back in our cottage before we had the baby else I wouldn't be moving in with them at all. Everyone seemed to agree to this rule thank goodness!

When we arrived at the house, Esme and Edward were standing outside the door. I cautiously and carefully out of the car trying not to cause more pain to my ribs and went to get my stuff from the boot only to be stopped by Carlisle.

'I'll get your stuff. You're not to be carrying anything heavy with your broken rib, let alone being pregnant too!'

'Thank you' I smiled politely. I began to walk steadily towards the house, and could see a figure standing behind Edward. I stopped in my track and frowned as the person emerged. I couldn't believe it. I had only been gone a few days and she was back. She was really here, standing in the porch of the Cullen's house, with a huge smile plastered on her face. She couldn't be here…was I dreaming? Was my mind just playing tricks on me?


	3. Chapter 3

**Disclaimer; I do not own any characters. They belong to Stephenie Meyers. **

**Authors Notes; There aren't many changes in this story, only a few small ones. Hope you enjoy **

'Mom?' I questioned quietly, looking directly at her. Was she really here? I watched as she nodded her head, and a tear trickled down her cheek with a smile on her face. I stood where I was for a while, just looking at her, still not believing she was here. She had been back to Forks in 4 years, and I hadn't seen her in 2 and now here she was. The last time I saw her was when Carlisle and Esme purchased two flight tickets to Jacksonville for me and Edward too go visit her for my 18th…of course I would have preferred to go see her on my own, after the incident on my birthday…

'Bella? Are you okay?' I heard Carlisle ask, standing in front of me holding my stuff from the boot of his car and blocking my view of my mom.

'How did mom get here?' I whispered, looking up at him. Don't get me wrong, I loved the idea of my mom being here…but I knew she would know something was wrong with me and Edward straight away.

'Charlie told her about the accident. Your aunt paid for her ticket here' Carlisle informed me. I nodded appreciably at him for telling me, before walking slowly around him to see me mom.

'Mom' I whispered again still in disbelief. It had been so long since last time I saw her in person. She had lived on her own since her and my dad split. They split when I was 16 because mom wanted to move to Jacksonville to do teaching but my dad was adamant he wanted to stay. He loved forks and was chief of police, his life was forks and his work. With that mom left to go to Jacksonville and I stayed with dad, I wanted to be with Edward. Of course it broke her heart, and at times I regretted not going but if I had gone with her, I wouldn't have been married to Edward or having his baby. I still spoke to her on the phone or emailed her every day, as we couldn't afford to go visit very often, it still wasn't the same though as speaking to her in person. Did she know about the argument? Did she know about the baby? So many questions were going through my head, as I walked as fast as my ribs would let me without hurting to get to her and virtually collapsed into her embrace.

'I've missed you so much Mom!' I wept.

'I've missed you too sweetheart! Come on, let's get you inside. I need to make sure you're okay' She looked at Edward and Esme as if to ask for approval as to whether we could go inside. Esme smiled and nodded and with that we walked inside, mom cradling me protectively. We sat down on Carlisle and Esme's black and grey corner sofa. I loved their front room. The walls were all light grey, with family photos on and then there were black coffee tables, and tv stand. It was gorgeous.

'Are you ok love? Your dad rang me as soon as you were in the accident and well, when he told me I knew I had to be here for you. I was worried to death!'

'I'm fine mom. I promise. It's just a broken rib it'll heal. You shouldn't have come all this way. I would have rang you as soon as I got back' I told her. I hated people making a fuss of me, especially my parents. I hated worrying them. Mom shook her head, I knew instantly she was disagreeing with me. I could read my mom's reactions like a book.

'You're not fine though. You've been in a bloody car crash, and been unconscious for 3 days. You've got a broken rib, bruises and cuts all over you and stitches for goodness sake. Why does that make you think your fine when you're clearly not? You're lucky to be alive and to think I wouldn't rush here when my daughter is lying in a hospital bed, what kind of mother do you take me for? God, Bella what have I always told you? Never drive when you're emotional, especially when you're upset and angry?! What were you and Edward arguing about anyway?' mom ranted, giving me my first proper lecture. I sat there unsure what to say, to me I was fine. Me and my baby were alive weren't we, so and didn't see what all the fuss was needed for. In my opinion that was all that mattered. That's when it registered to me. She didn't know about the pregnancy. She mustn't have else she would have mentioned it when she was lecturing me. If my mom knew, she would have mentioned it by now. I'm pretty sure it would have been one of the first things she asked about.

'Y…you don't k…now do you?' I whispered, unsure what to actually say or how to tell her.

'So from that lecture you try and change the subject?' she muttered, looking away from me in annoyance.

'No seriously mom? Dad hasn't told you has he?'

'Told me what sweetie?' her expression went all serious like, telling me she definitely didn't know. Why hadn't dad told her? They had clearly spoken since the accident, so why hadn't he told her? I couldn't understand it. The door to the front room began to open slowly, and Edward appeared. Mom looked directly at him, anger her in her eyes. She had never liked him because he was the reason I had stayed behind, and refused to go to Jacksonville with her.

'Ermm...I'll give you a few more minutes' he spoke quickly sensing the tension and hatred from my mom the minute he opened the door.

She waited for Edward to leave the room before she continued. 'What's going on?'

'I'm pregnant mom' I smiled. To think I was devastated about the pregnancy a few days ago, and now here I was happy as anything. I was absolutely disgusted of myself to be upset about being pregnant, especially with what I did when I was younger, and the women out there who cant have children. I think it may have been the sudden shock and the fear of telling Edward but now I was thrilled about it, especially know Edward was going to change. I couldn't wait to be a mommy. My mom's face lit up instantly at the word 'pregnant'. She had always wanted to be a grandmother, and I knew she would definitely be spoiling her first granddaughter or grandson something rotten.

'Oh my goodness Bella! I'm going to be a Nanny and my baby is going to be a mommy! Congratulations' she hugged me tightly, forgetting about all of her anger before she slowly pulled away from hugging me. 'Wait. Is the baby ok? What with the crash and everything?'

'She's fine mom' I grinned. I must have looked like a cheshire cat I was that excited.

'She? You know the sex?'

'No, I just have a feeling it's going to be a girl' I told her. She smiled, and looked behind me when I felt somebody put their hands on my shoulder.

'Me too' I heard Edward speak softly before kissing my cheek. I turned to face him and mouthed 'I love you' to him. I had never been as happy as I was now. I was going to have my little family I had always dreamt about when me and Edward first got together officially at the age of 13. He had been my childhood sweetheart, since the age of 5. My soul mate. We were inseparable, always with each other at school and out of school. We officially got together on 20th August 2003 and then married on 20th March 2014, before finding out about the pregnancy on the 10th of April. I loved him with my life, and knew we would get through anything, just like we had gotten through the things in our past, the argument and the crash.

'I'm going to go sweetheart. Leave you to get settled in, I'm absolutely shattered anyway. I'll come and see you tomorrow' mom promised.

'Where are you going to stop? You can stop at our cottage if you want to, if Edward doesn't mind? It would be better than stopping in a hotel, at least at the cottage you won't be completely by yourself. You'll have Bear and Benji to keep you company, and Edward will be back and forth?' Bear and Benji were mine and Edward's dogs. Bear was our 3 year old fluffy brown chow chow and Benji was our 2 year old golden Labrador retriever. We had adopted them from a dog shelter, when they were younger. They had gone in together, in an awful state and come out together into our forever loving home. I missed them so much. I know it had only been 5 days since I last saw them but they were my babies and I knew they would absolutely love the baby when she arrived. I knew people would want us to get rid of them, but there was no chance I was giving them up just because I was having a baby. I knew they would be fantastic because they adored Edward's baby cousin Felix who was 6 months old when we had to look after him for a month, whilst hid Mom was in hospital having an operation and his Dad had to constantly work to make money to keep a roof over their heads. Bear and Benji were as good as gold, didn't even bark or get scared when Felix screamed the place down and pulled their tails. They loved him, and hated seeing him go. Nobody was going to change my minds about them.

'No, no. It's fine. Me and your dad have arranged for me to stay with him for a while whilst you get on the mend, probably longer now I know you're pregnant. I need to be here with you through the pregnancy' She laughed happily. I smiled, I was glad mom and dad still spoke even after everything that happened when they split. I hadn't seen them in the same room together since mom left, but they still spoke on the phone and were still very close. They clearly still loved each other and you could tell, they just wouldn't admit it to themselves and put their differences aside to make it work. It was a shame really, because both of them hadn't been in another relationship since. They tried but it never worked. The person they were dating was never each other. They were too in love with each other still.

'Maybe you two will work it out and get back together' I smiled, trying to hint for her to tell him how she felt.

'We don't feel the same about each other anymore Bella. I know you want me and your dad to get back together but it won't work. I'm sorry' she sighed as if she had thought about it before.

'Mom, I don't want you to get back together for me. I'm a grown woman, I could accept it if I knew you both didn't love each other still and were happy but you both are clearly not. You're denying each other happiness. I mean when me and Edward stopped at yours you were waking up in the night shouting for dad and then crying. You need to tell him how you feel mom, for your own sake not mine'

'H..he doesn't feel the same though darling. Our marriage is over. It was over a long time ago' she said with a lump in her throat.

'That's lies mom, you haven't heard the way he speaks about you. He's told me so many times how he misses you, and wishes you would come back. He can't even say your name without virtually breaking down. He loves you Mom'

'It's true Renee' A deep voice spoke. Neither me nor mom had realised that dad had entered the room when we were speaking. Mom turned and looked at him with a sad expression on her face.

'It's true what Bella said about me too Charlie' tears forming in her eyes. 'I love you. I always have, the hardest thing was leaving you. I've regretted it every day of my life since I left you and Bella. The amount of times I've wanted to catch that plane back here and run to hug you and for you to tell me it was all okay is unreal. I'm sorry' she whispered, breaking down on the sofa.

'Then run over here and hug me you silly cow' Charlie laughed. Mom looked up, a small unbelievable smile on her face. She stood up, ran and jumped into his arms. They kissed, tears of happiness running down both theirs and my faces. 'I love you Renee' dad whispered to her. It was about time they both realised they still had feelings for each other. Everyone might be really concerned about me being in the accident, but if the accident had never happened then mom and dad would never have known how they felt about each other, let alone be in the same room. Good things do sometimes come out of bad things, this just proved it. After an hour or so of all of us talking, mom and dad left to go home as a happily married couple once again. I hugged them both goodbye, and waved them off.

'I think me and Jellybean need some time to relax. I'm going to go take a long bath. Is anybody in there?' I asked Edward.

'Jellybean?' he questioned, raising his eyebrow at me and looking at my hand on my stomach. I nodded. It was a nickname, I had thought up whilst mom and dad was lecturing Edward to look after me. After all our little girl, looked like a small jellybean on the scan picture.

'That's cute.' He smiled. 'I don't think anyone is in the bathroom. 'Dad's in his office, mom's in the library reading and well I'm here'

'Ok, see you soon' I said, kissing him goodbye.

I walked into the room I was going to be staying in whilst living with Carlisle and Esme to get my nightwear and a towel for when I got out of the shower. I walked across the landing towards the bathroom. I pushed the door handle down, and pushed the door open, walking in. I turned around, to close the door before placing my towel and clothes on the towel rail before going to get changed. Just as I looked up to go and run my bath, I gasped, and watched as Carlisle spun around in shock. Standing in front of me was the most beautiful man, his pale skin, his gorgeous six pack and oh my god his…well…ermm..I won't go into that. Standing in front of me was a naked Carlisle. I had always thought he was good looking, but I had never realised how beautiful he actually was. He was strangely very attractive. I stared at his stunning body as he quickly wrapped a towel around his waist.

'Oh my god. Carlisle, I'm so sorry' I apologised flushing red, from head to toe before hurriedly running out of the bathroom, not caring about leaving my clothes or the pain in my ribs. I couldn't believe what had just happened, and worst still I stared. I didn't leave straight away…I stared! God damn it! I avoided him for the rest of the night, and stayed in my room. I couldn't get the wonderful image out of my head, and I know I shouldn't have because I was married to his son but I was becoming strangely attracted to Carlisle Cullen.


	4. Chapter 4

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**Authors Notes; Hope you enjoy **

I couldn't sleep that night. I kept tossing and turning. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Carlisle…I thought how his lips would feel on mine…what his hands would feel like on my body. I felt awful for the thoughts occurring in my mind, the guilty conscious was creeping up on me. I shouldn't be thinking of Edward's dad like that…but I just couldn't help it. It was the only think running through my mind…and worst still, I think I felt something for him. Maybe it was just the hormones from the pregnancy but he was just so…so breath taking…mesmerizing even. Why was I feeling like this? It was driving me crazy.

'I've brought you breakfast in bed. You deserve it after all' Edward grinned walking into my bedroom. He lay a tray down on my bed. On the tray was a glass of water, my pain relief, a gorgeous red rose, toast which was in the shape of love hearts, a cute cupcake and a folded up note. I smiled, he was romantic when he wanted to be but I couldn't understand why he had made me breakfast in bed? Was this his way of apologising for the way he acted about the pregnancy? I thought we'd already sorted that out?

'What's this all in aid of?' I questioned accusingly as if he had done something wrong.

'Nothing baby, I just wanted to show you how much I love you and to make up for how much of a jerk I've been lately and to prove to you I'm changing. I'm not the man I used to be. Now read the note…please?' He asked with his cute puppy dog eyes. I picked up the note curiously and began to read it.

_'Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars –points of light and reason….And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty._

_No marriage is made easily, and there have been times when I've been so angry or so hurt that I thought my love for you would never recover. And then in the midst of near despair, something has happened beneath the surface. A bright little flashing fish of hope has flicked silver fins and the water is bright and suddenly I am returned to a state of love again – till next time. I've learned that there will always be a next time, and that I will submerge in darkness and misery, but that I won't stay submerged._

_I loved you yesterday. I love you still. I always have…I always will. I promise to be there whenever you need me, because my love for you will never fail._

_I'm sorry for everything I've put you through, done to you and said to you. _

_I love you Isabella Marie Cullen and I can't wait for our jellybean to arrive._

_Lots of love, hugs and kisses from_

_Your husband,_

_Edward Anthony Masen Cullen'_

I burst into tears. The guilt was taking over completely now. He wouldn't be saying any of this if he knew what had happened last night and my thoughts since. He would never forgive me. He would hit the roof even worse than usual…no matter who was in the house. I moved the tray and got up out of bed. I changed from my, my little pony pyjamas into a black and white jumpsuit with some sparkly black flat shoes. I took a suitcase from under the bed, and began opening all the drawers which contained my clothes, and accessories. I started taking everything out and throwing it all in the suitcase, not caring whether they were in neatly or not. I couldn't stay there; I couldn't constantly be around Carlisle, not after my thoughts for him. I could hardly look Edward in the eyes, I fancied his father for god sake…even worse I had seen him naked and stared. I didn't even want to look away…I had to force myself too. How could I trust myself to be around Carlisle all of the time, especially when we would be alone whilst Esme and Edward went to work?

'Bella, what are you doing? Where are you going?' Edward demanded angrily.

'I'm sorry. I can't stay here. I need to get out of here.' I spoke quickly without breathing. Edward ran over to me, grabbed me, and pulled me away from the suitcase. He was trying to stop me from leaving. I was only going back to the cottage but I think he believed I was leaving him for good. His grip was getting tighter around my hands, and I began to panic, not able to breathe.

'You're not going anywhere' he growled.

'Ed…Edward stop' I softly spoke. I began to feel faint; the room was spinning around me. I tried to get out of Edwards grip to sit down on the bed but he kept thinking I was trying to go back to pack. My breathing began to get shorter; I started to shake uncontrollably and began to sweat with tears falling from my eyes.

'Please' I whimpered like a child. Edward let go of my hands and I began to walk backwards and sat in the corner of the room shaking like a child who had just been told off. Edward walked towards me, and I began to panic more. What was he going to do? He bent down in front of me, and I flinched away from him, my whole body still shaking.

'I..I'm sorry' I cried. Apologising so he wouldn't hurt me and for what happened last night. My breathing began to get heavier, and I began rocking back and forth where I sat.

'Dad! Dad, something is wrong with Bella' Edward ran outside to the top of the stairs to get help. Within seconds Carlisle was in the room, watching me gasp for breath and shaking. He quickly walked towards me, and crouched down beside me, gently moving a strand of hair out of my eyes.

'Bella, listen to me you're having a panic attack. You need to try and stay calm and I need you to cup your hands like this, and breathe slowly and steadily into your hands so we can steady your breathing' he demonstrated on himself giving me his full attention with worry in his eyes. I suddenly didn't want him near me; I feared Edward would find out what I thought about his dad. I couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk another argument. I couldn't risk his temper.

'Get…Away…From…Me' I spoke gasping for breath after every word. I pushed Carlisle's chest, to get him to move away from me. Where was Esme? Why wasn't Esme here? I needed Esme to be here.

'Please, do what I asked?' he pleaded gently. I looked up into his eyes, as I felt my heart rate quicken, and the need to vomit. We locked eyes with each other, and I quickly looked away towards Edward who was staring angrily at me. Did he know? At this thought my breathing began to quicken even more, and the pain in my ribs was increasing more and more.

'Stop being so fucking stupid!' Edward shouted. I watched as Carlisle turned to give him a death stare for shouting at me, and next thing I knew Edward was in front of me grabbing at my wrists again, forcefully trying to pull me up.

'No…no…please…get off…no…Edward' I whimpered, feeling like I couldn't breathe.

'Get the hell off of her!' Carlisle shouted protectively, grabbing at Edward trying to get him to let go of me. Edward let go, as soon as Carlisle started pulling at him…but he turned on him. He pushed him against the wall, as they stared angrily at him.

'What the fuck has it got to do with you?' Edward asked crossly.

'Because you don't deserve that woman. She's a wonderful and very beautiful young lady, and look what you've done to her. You've broken her Edward. She deserves so much better than you…she deserves someone who won't speak to her like a piece of dirt, and won't treat her like it either. She needs a man not a boy, and that's what you are you're a fucking boy' Carlisle spat back. I couldn't believe what Carlisle had just said about me. Did he really think I was 'wonderful and very beautiful' or was he just saying that? I watched as Edward went to punch his own dad but miss.

'EDWARD' I screamed, running over, and pulling at his top, trying to stop him. I know he would regret it later, and it would be too late. He let go of Carlisle, and turned on me. He back handed my face, causing me to instantly grab my cheek in shock and pain before he threw me against the wall, my back hitting the wall, as I crumpled on the floor. Screaming as soon as my rib touched the floor. I heard a gasp, and looked up just in time to watch Carlisle punching Edward. I sat up steadily, and closing my eyes began to take deep and calming breaths like Carlisle asked me too until my breathing had returned to normal, and my heart beat felt normal again. As soon as I managed to get over the panic attack, I stood up and ran. Ran as fast as I could, I couldn't believe how Edward had lied to me. He told me he would change. I ran down there driveway, not sure where to go. I didn't have my car because Carlisle brought me here. The only way I was going to get away from here, was to walk or run…and so that's what I started to do. I ran down there drive, towards the woods. Somewhere I could sit and think everything through without someone finding me. I stumbled over a tree trunk and lay on the soft grass beneath me, with my eyes closed and tears running down my face. How could I have been so stupid?

'Bella! Bella' I heard Carlisle's voice near by.

'Bella, its okay. I'm here. I'm right here' he whispered, helping me to stand up from the floor.

'I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I can't stay in your house…not after last night…not after today…I'm sorry' I apologised.

'Bella, it was an accident you didn't know I was in the shower. We can't go on like this. If you don't feel comfortable living with me anymore just because of that, then it is fine I understand but over something so stupid? Yes, it must have been embarrassing for us both, but who cares it happens to people all the time…and tonight wasn't your fault'

'It was…I shouldn't have flipped out like that. I shouldn't have let you try to defend me…then…then none of this would have happened' I hurriedly spoke, looking into his bright blue eyes.

'Edward shouldn't treat you like he does. He doesn't deserve you. You can do a million times better. You need to think of both yourself and your baby now Isabella. Do you understand what I'm saying? I don't care if he is my son'

'I can't…I can't leave him…he won't let me…' I cried, stumbling over, luckily Carlisle managed to catch me, and I collapsed into his embrace and burying my face into his chest, and gripping his shirt tightly as I let the tears flow.

'I'll help you through this. You won't be alone. I promise you' Carlisle whispered, kissing my forehead softly.

'No…No…I can't…No…' I began to whimper, my knees buckling beneath me, as I began to kneel on the floor, as Carlisle did the same still holding me. I raised my head, and looked up at Carlisle. Tears were falling down his face too as he looked down into my eyes, he looked so lost…so broken.

'Carlisle…' I whispered, but he just shook his head slowly, before both our heads simultaneously inched towards each other.

'Carlisle…' I whispered again, before our lips touched. A jolt of electricity running through me, as our mouths moved in rhythm. Tears still running down our faces, as our mouths fought for dominance, before my hands found there way into his golden hair.

'Bella…' Carlisle breathed, pulling away to catch his breath.

'You're…you're sorry right?' I questioned, looking away from him. He was married…of course he would be sorry for kissing me. I should be sorry too…but I wasn't. I felt something for him. There was chemistry between us.

'No…no' he smiled, shaking his head and touching my cheek. 'I never meant to ignore you all this time Bella. We used to speak a lot…but the night on your 18th birthday…the night I had to help you…was the night I realised how I felt for you. I thought if I distanced myself from you that the feelings would go away…but they just grew stronger and then…and then watching you crash your car, and seeing you in that hospital bed broke my heart. I thought you had gone'

'I'm right here Carlisle' I whispered, shaking him gently to get him out of thinking about what he witnessed.

'…and then seeing Edward do what he did to you tonight. I couldn't take it. I flipped. I couldn't watch him do that to you, and then you ran. I thought you hated me. I didn't know what to do. So I left Edward, and went after you. Please…please…just tell me you don't hate me?'

'I don't hate you. Thank you for what you did for me. I don't know how far he would have gone if you weren't there to stop him. Thank you' I whispered, leaning in to kiss his soft lips again.


	5. Chapter 5

**Disclaimer; I own no characters mentioned through this story, they all belong to Stephenie Meyers!**

**Authors Notes; Well, its been a long time since I uploaded last. This chapter has taken me a lot longer than I expected as I have had to rewrite this whole chapter as I don't like how it was in the original story. So this chapter is completely different, and I really hope it'll be better. Hope you enjoy. **

'This is all your fault' I heard Edward shouting close to my face. I groaned, and tried to lift my hands up to cover my face, so I wouldn't be blinded by the sun when I opened my eyes, but my arms wouldn't move. I opened my eyes immediately, and saw Edward hovered over me, and holding my arms down so I couldn't move them.

'You're a stupid fucking cow! You're going to pay for this' he was yelling with angry tears running down his face.

'E...Edward please...you're...you're scaring me' I stuttered trying not too cry. I couldn't cry. If I cried it would make Edward angrier.

'Shut up bitch. Put these on now. We're leaving' he stated firmly, throwing a pair of checker shorts and a oversized white top at me. I stood up instantly and changed into the clothes, terrified of disobeying him or even uttering a word. He grabbed hold of my hand, and began to walk down the stairs with me pressed to his side closely

'Edward, don't take this out on Bella. It's not her fault' I heard Carlisle speak. We had been seeing each other for just over a week now...maybe Edward had found out? We hadn't gone any further than kissing; I didn't want to go any further just in case. I want to make sure we're serious about this before we do anything.

'Then whose fault is it dad?' Edward spoke sarcastically.

'Why can't you see it? Why is it you have to blame everyone else for your own stupid mistakes? This is your fault Edward. All you're fucking fault. You're the reason me and your mother are splitting up. Not Bella's fault nor mine. This is all down to you son' I heard myself gasp.

'W...why have you and Esme broken up?' I whispered, staring directly at Carlisle and not caring the slightest about Edward.

'Well my dearest Bella it's because of yours and my fathers stupid antics last week' Edward sneered before Carlisle could speak. I felt my eyes move from Carlisle, to Edward and back to Carlisle. Edward and Esme knew about what happened in the woods. The kiss...what we spoke about and now I had ruined Carlisle's marriage...I was a home wrecker. I watched as Carlisle shook his head at me, as if he was telling me not to say anything more.

'If I hadn't have gotten involved who knows what would have happened to Bella, let alone your baby. You don't know your own strength Edward, and unfortunately your mother can't see my side of the story, she can only see the lie you told that I attacked you for know reason which is complete bullshit' Carlisle explained. I let out a sigh of relief that they didn't know about what happened between me and Carlisle afterwards.

'Let me go speak to Esme?' I suggested before I realised what I had said. I watched as Carlisle's eyes widened, and I looked away immediately. Edward was right it was my fault. If I had just done what Carlisle had asked when I was in the panic attack instead of pushing him away then Edward would never have had to get angry at me and then this would never have happened. I needed to do something to make things right again.

'Pfft...like that will work' Edward muttered.

'Listen to me...please?' I whispered, placing my hand on his cheek and making him look at me. The only way I could ever calm him down or make him listen was to rest my hand on his cheek and look him in the eyes. 'You want your parents to get back together don't you? Your right this was my fault...so please let me try and make this right? I'll speak to your mom, she'll listen to me Edward'

'Isabella I...' Carlisle began, but I shook my head at him and put my hand up telling him to stop. No matter how much it killed me, and if whatever we had lasted in the future I would regret doing this but I had to. I had no option. No matter how selfish it seemed, I couldn't have Edward resent me and abuse me at every chance he had because of his parents splitting which was my fault. I picked up the car keys off the key hook and began to walk outside when I was stopped by Carlisle.

'You can't drive with broken ribs...let me take you?' He suggested.

'No! I'll take her! I'm her husband!' Edward protested in an annoyed tone.

'Edward I would prefer it if your dad took me. After all I should really speak to him as well as your mom...its not just your moms choice if they should get back together, your dad has a say as well. Its between them two, but I need to tell your mom the truth so she knows it wasn't your dads fault or mine' I objected turning to walk out of the door and walking towards Carlisle's car before Edward could protest again.

After about 10 minutes of driving in silence, we arrived at mine and Edwards' cottage where Esme must have been staying. I turned to look at the cottage to see my two dogs Bear and Benjii running around the front garden full of energy.

'Isabella...please don't do this?' Carlisle whispered. I felt a tear run down my face as I turned to look over at him. 'We can be together'

'I'm not ready Carlisle...I can't just up and leave Edward. He's the father of my child...and we don't even know what this is yet...what if we don't even last?'

'We will!'

'You don't know that though...Esme is your wife and you clearly love her. I could see how hurt you were when you said you had split. Let me at least speak to her? It might work and it might not and well if it doesn't at least we can say I tried...just imagine if Alice wakes up to find out her parents have split up. Just imagine how confused and distraught she would be.' I reasoned with him.

'You're right' he admitted, lifting my hand up to his mouth as he kissed my knuckles. 'Thank you'

I didn't reply to him...I couldn't. I knew if I said anything else I would break down. I climbed out of the passenger side of the car. I walked towards the front door, stopping to stroke Bear and Benjii before walking into my cottage.

'Esme? Esme?' I called out, walking into the front room.

'In here' I heard her shout back from the spare bedroom. I walked to the back of the cottage where the spare bedroom was located and knocked on the door before entering, before I had even walked two steps inside the room I had stopped in my tracks when I witnessed Esme packing all of her bags.

'W...what are you doing?' I stammered, not knowing how to feel.

'Oh it's a long story sweetie. I'm sure Edward will explain everything to you when you get back to him. How come your here anyway?' She asked, not really answering my question.

'Edward told me about you and Carlisle breaking up' I whispered.

'Oh right, well its Carlisle's fault our relationship has come to this. He should never have laid hands on our son like that. He had no reason to at all'

'That's exactly the reason I'm here...Carlisle had every right to hit your son that night. Edward deserved it'

'How dare you speak about Edward like that? You should be defending your husband to the end of the earth!' she shouted, throwing more clothes into her bag.

'No! Do you want to know the real reason Carlisle attacked Edward? Do you want me to show you the proof of why he hit him?' I screamed, pulling the back of my top up to reveal the bruises from where Edward had thrown me against the wall. Esme stopped what she was doing then, and slowly walked over to me using her hand to softly touch my bruises making sure they were really there.

'E...Edward did this to you?' she whimpered. I nodded slowly. 'W...why would he do this?' I rolled my t-shirt back down and took her hand guiding her to sit on the sofa in the room with me so I could explain everything. I told her everything from the panic attack, to him pinning Carlisle to the wall, to Edward slapping me and throwing me against the wall and then Carlisle losing it with Edward...of course I left out the part about me and Carlisle.

'So Edward lied to me about Carlisle attacking him for no reason?' she questioned. I nodded in response. 'And Carlisle basically saved you and the baby?' I nodded again. 'Oh, I'm such a fool. He's ruined my marriage. I'm so sorry he's done this to you Bella, I really am but I must go and speak to Carlisle'

'He's in the car...I asked him to come with me. I'll go take the dogs for a walk to give you two some time and tell him you need to speak to him' I spoke before standing up and getting the dog leads. As I began to walk out of the door, I head Esme shout me. I turned to look at her, waiting for her to speak.

'Bella...is this the first time Edward has hit you or hurt you?' she asked with a worried tone. I froze. Should I lie? Should I tell the truth?

'Yes' I lied. 'Of course his anger is awful at times but this is the first time he's laid hands on me like that' I couldn't have her hating her son even more than she already did. There was no need for her to know...I had gotten through it by myself for the past few years so I can do it on my own again. She didn't respond just nodded as I walked out of the door, putting Bear and Benjii on they're leads before walking towards Carlisle's car. He climbed out as soon as he saw me.

'Esme wants to speak to you. I'm going to take the dogs for a walk around the lake and then I'll come back' I told him. He gave me a hug that looked like an innocent hug but of course wasn't.

'Are you sure you want me to get back with her? We can run away together?' he whispered into my ear.

'I'm sure Carlisle. It's for the best' I replied, shrugging away and began walking my boys to the lake. Once we got there I let them off the leads, and sat down leaning against a large oak tree watching the dogs splash about in the lake. I must have fallen asleep because sometime later I was awoken by the sound of my mobile ringing. I looked to see where Bear and Benjii had gotten too, to see them fast asleep near by. I sighed a sigh of relief and answered the call.

'Hello?'

'Isabella? Where are you?' I heard Carlisle's panicked voiced on the other end of the phone.

'I'm at the lake still. I fell asleep' I explained. 'Are you and Esme okay?'

'Yeah, everything's fine. I'll explain everything when you get back?' he asked. Before I could stop it a whimper escaped my lips and tears had escaped my eyes. Why was I being so stupid? I was the one who had gotten them back together, Carlisle had tried to stop me but I didn't listen, it was for the best. Even though I didn't love Carlisle yet, I had deep and strong feelings for him and in all honesty me being with Edward and Carlisle being with Esme was killing us both but again it was all for the best.

'Is...are you okay?'

'Hmm...I'll be back in 5 minutes. I'm leaving now' I spoke, my voice cracking with each word.

'I...' I didn't let him finish his sentence. I hung up and let the tears fall fully whilst lying next to Bear and Benjii on the grass, hugging them close to me whilst I cried into their fur. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder and somebody sit next to me. I lifted my head slowly to see Carlisle looking down at me, with his right hand on my shoulder and his left hand stroking Benjii.

'I thought this is what you wanted Is?' he whispered, taking his hand from my shoulder and picking at the grass. I sat up and wiped my eyes, looking at him.

'I do...I'm just being stupid' I fake laughed.

'Don't lie to me please? Tell me the truth. I need to know.' He begged.

'I...I don't know. Maybe...maybe we should just end whatever this is. We'll never be really together anyway because of Edward and Esme and well I'm pregnant. We would never be able to go out anywhere; we would always have to hide away. No-one would understand even if we did end our relationships to be together. First it's the fact your my husbands father and I'm your sons wife and second of all there's the age gap' I sighed. 'Age to me is just a number but to others they will never understand, they would never accept it and you would lose your family and I would probably lose mine as well. We can never make this work Carlisle, no matter how much we want it to. No matter how much we try. We'll never be able to. I mean even if we did decide to end our relationships to be together, this baby will still be Edwards. I'd never be able to get away from him. I do have strong feelings for you, I care about you so much and I really want this to work out but it's not going to. I'm sorry'

'Please don't say that? We can try to make this work; I know we can do it. We'll find a way. You say we won't be able to go out together?' I nodded at his last statement. 'Well, I'm taking you out tomorrow night Isabella'

'How? What about Edward and Esme?' I asked, looking away from him. There was no way he would be able to do it. Too many people know us in this town, and Edward and Esme would sure have something to say about us going out.

'Well...my darling' he whispered, taking my hand in his. 'Esme is moving away for a month may 3 months at the most. She's got to go to Australia to one of the hotel branches there to find a new manager to hire for that particular hotel and she's got to investigate why the other left'

'3...3 months?' I questioned.

'Yes, that gives us 3 months to see if we're serious? To see if we can do this? If you want to?'

'And what about Edward?' I reminded him.

'Edward is taking her to the airport and I've asked him to stay away for a while. I'm sorry, I can't stand to look at him after what he did to you' he admitted. 'If you want to see him then that's fine, just as long as I'm not there and I swear if he lays one hand on you or even harms a hair on your body and I find out...'

'Shh...I understand Carlisle. We'll try okay? I want to try' I told him. 'I...I think I'm falling in love with you'

Carlisle lay down looking up at the clouds. I didn't know what to do...he hadn't said anything back. He moved his arm over and beckoned for me to lie with him. I moved over and lay my head on his arm, with my hand on his chest.

'I've already fallen' I heard Carlisle whisper before his lips met mine and I snuggled into his side even more...maybe this was how I wanted to spend the rest of my life...with Carlisle.

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	6. Chapter 6

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I began to sort through my wardrobe, getting all of my dresses out and laying them out on my bed. I was deciding what to wear to mine and Carlisle's date, I knew for definite that I wanted to wear a dress to the date. I just wanted to look perfect for him, but choosing the dress was going to be hard. I narrowed down all of my 12 dresses to 4 of my favorites. My low cut white dress with a green floral pattern on, my long blue and black sequined dress with a slit in the side, a checked red and black dress with a thick black belt around the waist or a very long black dress with a slit in the side. I tried all of them on, looking in my vintage style full length mirror on my wall; picking good and bad points about each outfit. I eventually decided on the low cut white and green floral long length dress which also had a slit down the left side. It showed off my baby bump, but not as much as the others did. I added a small black belt as an accessory, with a silver locket, ring and bracelet. I opposed to wearing high heels because I was worried I would fall and hurt Jellybean, I didn't mind if I got hurt but I couldn't risk hurting my baby. Even the thought of something happening made me shudder. I would never be able to forgive myself, so instead I chose some nice comfy black flats to go with my dress.

I quickly put all of my dresses back into the wardrobe, putting tonight's outfit right at the end so I knew exactly where it was. I didn't want to leave it out just in case Edward saw it, and got curious. I also didn't want Carlisle to see it; I wanted him to be surprised. I was just hanging my last dress up when I felt somebody wrap their arms around my waist and begin kissing my neck. I smiled, closing my eyes enjoying the moment. I could tell it was Carlisle by the way he kissed and held me. He was more romantic than Edward was, Carlisle actually seemed to mean each kiss, he treated me like a princess. Edward only really kissed me if he had done something wrong, and felt guilty or if he wanted something…sex being the main thing. He used to kiss me all the time, but since we've been married he hardly even touches me. I turned around and wrapped my arms around the back of Carlisle's neck, hugging him tightly, not wanting to let him go.

'I love you Isabella Marie Swan' Carlisle whispered, gently nibbling at my ear lobe.

'I love you too Carlisle Cullen…but my surname is Cullen too, I'm not a swan anymore babe. I did marry into the family' I smiled, hoping not to upset him. He pulled away from me, and looked quite offended.

'Babe? That's new?' He questioned teasingly, his offended face suddenly changing. I blushed forgetting I hadn't called him babe before. 'You'll never be a Cullen in my eyes, until we get married.' Until we get married? I was already married and so was Carlisle, we could never get married. Could we?

'You plan for us to get married?' I whispered.

'Someday, yes. Not right now no but eventually I want us to be man and wife. We can't go on hiding forever. I have lots of plans for the future, and you're in every single one of them, with no Esme or Edward!' He smiled, brushing his nose against mine. I hadn't thought of the future, I suppose we were going to have to come out sometime in the future and move on with our lives. It just hadn't occurred to me that Carlisle had thought and planned how he wants our future to be especially being we hadn't been together long but in all truthfulness I couldn't wait. I mean I do love Edward, but I didn't love him like a wife should love her husband, the feelings just weren't there anymore. I loved his father. I loved Carlisle.

'Carlisle!' Our moment was suddenly interrupted by Esme shouting from downstairs. I groaned and pulled a face, pulling away from Carlisle.

'You're wife wants you' I sighed, walking away and sitting on my bed. Carlisle walked over to me, crouched down, and lifted my chin gently so I was looking at him.

'Don't be like that Is…you'll have me all to yourself soon' He winked, and I let out a small laugh. I loved how he always called me Isabella, or Is…something hardly anyone calls me anymore. He kissed my lips quickly and pulled away, leaving me wanting more.

'Carlisle Cullen!' I spoke in a stern voice, trying to act mad but failing miserably. Carlisle just laughed at me and stroked my cheek whilst looking down at me with those beautiful blue eyes of his.

'You'll be getting plenty more kisses in the future. I promise…oh, and I'll tell you my plans for our future. See you later sweetheart' he blew me a kiss, and I caught it placing it on my heart. He walked out of my room smiling and shutting the door behind him.

I looked at the owl clock on my wall, which read 3pm. In just 3 hours, Esme will have left for Australia, and me and Carlisle would finally have our first date. I was so excited. I really wanted to know where we were going. All I knew was we were leaving just after 6pm for a candlelight dinner out of town. Would it be at Port Angeles or Seattle? Were we going in Carlisle's car or mine? What would we be eating? Would we finally decide to show each other how much we're dedicated to this relationship? So many questions were running through my head, I couldn't wait, I hated surprises!

'Bells' I heard being shouted. It was Edward, it sounded like he was at the bottom of the stairs.

'Coming' I shouted back trying to sound happy that it was Edward and that he was back…which I was finding extremely hard. I put my hand on the brass door knob, sighed and put on a smile before opening the door. I got to the top of stairs, and Edward was just walking up.

'Hey, sexy' Edward grinned, before grabbing hold of me and kissing me. Oh great, that meant he wanted something or was about to ask something. I didn't kiss him back at first, it didn't feel right…I wanted to be kissing Carlisle not Edward. He squeezed me a little tighter and I knew it was a warning, and without any other option I began to kiss him back before pulling away.

'Hey' I smiled.

'After I've dropped Mom off at the airport, I'm going to go straight home because I've got to be at the bank early tomorrow and then I won't see you all week because I'm going to be sorting out the nursery as well as work. So I've booked us a special table at the Café Garden, being I know it's your favorite place. We'll have to leave now though because I need to be back for 5:30.' He grinned like a cheshire cat, excitement in his eyes. It seemed like he had planned everything out. He knew Carlisle didn't want him around once Esme had left and that's probably why he wanted to go for a meal…to discuss things and get some at the end of the night. I couldn't go for a meal though, if I went now I wouldn't want to eat anything tonight at dinner…and well in all fairness I didn't want to go.

'I…I can't Edward. I'm sorry, I just don't feel well. I've been sick; I don't think Jellybean likes what I've been eating' I smiled apologetically, trying to keep eye contact with him so it looked like I was telling the truth. I hadn't been sick at all but I needed something realistic to use as an excuse to not go.

'Oh, ok' He sounded disappointed. 'I'll ring and cancel the table now…maybe we'll go a different time?'

'Maybe we could watch a film instead or do something with Esme and Carlisle, so we can say goodbye to your mom too?' I thought up on the spot, at least if we did something with Esme and Carlisle, I got to see Carlisle for longer…even if Edward and Esme was there, and well then I wouldn't have to have sex with him either. I know he was my husband but I just couldn't do it, at moments like this he repulsed me, and I don't want to be near him…but I have no option, there's no way out.

'I'll go ask them, and see if they want to watch The Vow…it'll be nice for us to just sit and cuddle on our last night together for a while and the same for mom and dad' I nodded in agreement although I didn't like the idea of us cuddling, and I especially hated the idea of Carlisle and Esme cuddling each other in front of me…but that was my fault, I got them back together after all. We walked downstairs and asked them, they seemed to think it was a good idea. So it was settled, we were all going to watch The Vow. Me and Esme went to the kitchen and got some snacks to lay out on the coffee table whilst Edward and Carlisle set up the film. Once the DVD player was set up and all the food and pop was out, we all sat down on the sofa. Me and Edward on one of the sofas, I sat with my legs on Edwards lap facing the tv, and the other sofa…I used the excuse that I was to hot and stuffy to cuddle. Carlisle and Esme were on the other sofa, snuggled up next to each other, their hands intertwined with one another with her head resting on his shoulder, whilst his free arm snaked around her waist protectively. The film started but all I could pay attention to was Carlisle and Esme, how I wished it was me sitting there with him and not her. Jealousy filled my veins, and my eyes began to water up, Carlisle glanced over to me and our eyes met, I quickly glanced away. I didn't want him to see me crying or getting jealous.

The film finally finished at 5:15pm, and before the credits even started I got up, and began to tidy all the left-over food up, taking them into the kitchen. I couldn't sit and watch Carlisle kiss Esme's forehead and hold her anymore…that should be me not her. Esme began to rise to help, but Carlisle stopped her when he saw the glare I gave her, which she hadn't seen.

'I'll help Bella, you and Edward need to get ready to leave else you're going to miss your flight.' Carlisle explained, Esme and Edward nodded, and left to go check Esme had everything. I carried on cleaning the stuff away, when Carlisle walked after me into the kitchen. I tried to conceal my jealousy from earlier, not wanting to cause any arguments. I smiled at him, gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, before trying to walk past him to go get the remaining left over snacks. He grabbed my arm, and pulled me back into the kitchen, blocking my way so I couldn't get past.

'I know you're jealous sweetie, I am with you and Edward but what we need to think about is that we love each other more than we love them, and one day they won't be in our lives. We'll be together, like we should be.'

'Yeah but you didn't have to sit and keep kissing her and holding her like that, at least I didn't do that with Edward in front of you!' I argued.

'Bella, she's my wife for goodness sake!' he shouted, hitting the table with his fist. I felt myself cower away from him instinctively.

'I see' I whispered in a weak and feeble voice.

'Bella…I'm sor…' he began

'No, its fine' I whispered again before squeezing past him to clean the rest of the mess up when Esme and Edward walked into the front room. Esme was in tears, clearly not wanting to go. I looked at Edward, and we both understood one another straight away.

'We'll leave you both to say your goodbyes' Edward announced, before we both left the room. I opened the front door and we both walked out onto the driveway, and leaned against his Volkswagen.

'I'm going to miss you baby' Edward spoke, moving a strand of my hair behind my ear. I sighed, I felt awful to think it but I knew I wasn't going to miss him. I was actually quite glad I wasn't going to see him for a full week, that full week me and Carlisle would actually get to spend alone…if we sorted this argument out.

'I'll miss you too' I lied. Esme and Carlisle appeared at the front door and began to walk towards the car. Edward quickly grabbed me by the waist, kissed my cheek and held me.

'I love you' Edward spoke. He leaned down to my stomach. 'And I love you too' he whispered to Jellybean. I looked over his shoulder and could see Carlisle staring at me. I smiled weakly at him with a tear appearing at my eye, and moved away from Edward.

'You best get going, else your mom is going to miss her flight' I murmured, not replying to his 'I love you', I didn't want to say it when I clearly didn't mean it anymore. He let go of my waist, and climbed into the driver's side of the car as Esme climbed into the passenger side. I stepped away from the car as Carlisle walked towards the driver's side.

'Drive safely son!' Carlisle spoke, tapping the top of the car before they drove away. We both stood and waved. As soon as the car drove out of sight, Carlisle walked towards me, with his arms open, about to hug me.

'Don't' I whispered.

'Bella, I'm sorry. It was just hard, I didn't know what else to do. I lost it. Please believe me when I say that' he begged.

'No, I…I understand. It was just difficult to watch you two together and all I could think of was that should be me and you. We should be able to do that' I admitted. He pulled me into his embrace.

'I know and it will be soon enough, I promise' he whispered, kissing my forehead. I smiled and hugged him tighter, before lifting my head to look into his eyes, he leaned down to kiss me but I pulled away quickly before he could.

'Nope' I cheekily grinned, whilst turning and running into the house. Carlisle sprinted after me, trying to catch me. I ran straight upstairs, into my room and locked my door.

'Is…please, I've been waiting for this all day' Carlisle begged through the door. I smirked to myself. Got him begging, I thought to myself before giggling like a teenage girl.

'Nope…no kisses until our date! Go get ready!' I laughed.

'Please…this isn't fair!' Carlisle murmured sulkily.

'Just doing what you do to me Mr Cullen…leave them wanting more!' I chuckled. I looked at the time, it was 6:15. I clapped excitedly. 'Time to get ready' I grinned from ear to ear. I put on my dress, shoes and jewelry before sitting at my brown oak effect dresser. I looked through my make-up and decided to go for a simple and not over the top look. I applied some foundation, powder, some light green eye shadow and a touch of pale pink lipstick.

'Perfect' I smiled, quite proud of how I looked. I couldn't wait to see what Carlisle wore; hopefully he would be dressed up as well else I was going to be changing straight away. I quickly grabbed a nice light green clutch bag that matched my dress impeccably, and added my make-up, purse, mobile and headache tablets just in case. I looked around my room, making sure I hadn't forgotten anything before opening my door and walking down the stairs. I got half way down, when Carlisle appeared at the bottom waiting for me. The instant I saw him, I felt like how I imagined Juliet felt when she saw Romeo for the first time. He looked absolutely stunning, the most beautiful man I had ever set eyes on. He was wearing a dark grey patterned blazer, a white shirt, a silver tie, black shoes and dark grey trousers to match his jacket. I couldn't take my eyes off him, and it looked like he couldn't with me either.

'Y…you look r...ravishing Isabella!' Carlisle exclaimed, hardly able to speak. I smiled.

'As do you Mr Cullen' I carried on walking down the stairs, and Carlisle took my hand in his and kissed it. Old fashioned I have to admit, but yet so romantic.

'Shall we be on our way then my lady?' I giggled, before leaning in towards his ear.

'You can stop with all the old fashioned stuff now' I whispered with a smile before kissing him. We walked out on to the drive, and to my surprise it was already dark with stars twinkling in the sky. A perfect night for a perfect meal, I thought to myself. Carlisle led me to his immaculately white Jaguar, and opened the passenger seat for me to get inside. We drove for about 30 minutes, before arriving at a forest clearing. It looked quite scary, especially with the darkness around, and the fact only me and Carlisle were here. What were we doing here? I thought we were supposed to be going on a candle light dinner? Carlisle wouldn't hurt me…would he? I began to worry, what…what if Carlisle didn't really love me? What if he was going to hurt me and Jellybean?

'P…please, don't hurt me' I whispered, tears and fear in my eyes. Carlisle turned to look at me, sorrow in his eyes. He leaned over the gear stick, and wiped the tears from my cheek.

'I…I would never hurt you Isabella!' He whispered, kissing me softly. I nodded, trusting he wouldn't hurt me. He slowly climbed out of the Jag, and walked round to my side, opening the door to allow me out. I slowly but cautiously climbed out of the car.

'Is…I'm not going to hurt you. I love you and to show you how much I love you, you really need to trust me!' Carlisle noticed the fear in my eyes again, and grabbed hold of me, pulling me into his warm embrace. I knew he wouldn't hurt me, he loved me as I loved him and I needed to show him how much I trusted him…it was just hard with everything Edward had put me through.

'I trust you and I love you' I whispered, looking up into his eyes, proving to him I wasn't lying. He smiled down at me, not letting go of me.

'I love you to!' He smiled. 'I need you to close your eyes though, so I can show you the surprise I have for you. I promise I won't let you fall; I'll be right by your side! I cross my heart and hope to die' I nodded, and closed my eyes. Carlisle took hold of my hand and we began to walk, every once in a while he would say 'step' or 'duck'. We must have been walking through the forest, no doubt about it.

'Stop' I heard him speak softly. I stopped, trying to stop myself from taking a peek. 'Stay right there' he whispered. I surprisingly did as I was told and I could hear him moving around in front of me. I must have been standing there for what seemed like 10 minutes, and was finding it so hard not to take a look.

'You can look now' I opened my eyes and couldn't believe what Carlisle had done for us. It was absolutely breath-taking. The most romantic thing anyone had ever done for me…and I was glad it was Carlisle doing this for me, and nobody else. We were in a gorgeous meadow, with purple flowers and trees around the border of the meadow. In the middle Carlisle had put up a wooden fold away table in which had two covered up plates on, two champagne glasses and a vase of roses in the middle. He had also put out two chairs on either side, with a basket by the one furthest away from us. Near to the table he had made a sign with some tea lights that said 'I LOVE YOU ISABELLA!' and beautiful Chinese lanterns hanging from the trees. It looked like this had taken him ages to do; there was no way he had done all this whilst I was standing here. He must have been earlier in the day to do it…but I didn't care how he had done it and how he kept it a secret. All I knew was that tonight was going to be a night I would never ever forget for as long as I lived. And being with Carlisle was all I cared about.

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	7. Chapter 7

**Disclaimer; All characters are Stephenie Meyer's **

**Authors Notes; So this chapter has completley changed at the end. Hope you like it :) **

**********************Contains a lemon********************

We walked hand in hand towards the table, Carlisle softly stroking the back of my hand. I was so glad now that I had worn flats instead of heels, as the grass was quite muddy from the thunder storm the night before. The only disadvantage of my outfit was the length of my dress; it kept dragging on the floor getting muddier by the minute. I didn't care though; my dress could get as dirty as I wanted just as long as I was with Carlisle. We got to the table and Carlisle reluctantly let go of my hand, walking towards the chair on my left and pulling it out.

'Your seat my lady' Carlisle winked, knowing I didn't want him to use old fashioned speak. I walked over softly, keeping eye contact with him and a smile on my face. I softly grabbed his face and kissed him passionately and meaningfully.

'Thank you' I whispered pulling away from his perfect lips before taking my seat. I couldn't stop smiling, I was so happy that finally me and Carlisle didn't have to hide away, or sneak around. At least here in this meadow, we could be together, without a worry in the world. Carlisle walked over to his seat, and sat down opposite me.

'Would you like a drink Is?' Carlisle spoke softly.

'I…I can't drink remember…' I said, looking towards the champagne flutes. Even though a little bit wouldn't hurt Jellybean, there was no way I was going to risk it. She had already been through so much with the crash, and my emotions. Carlisle chuckled as he pulled a bottle of Volvic water out of the basket.

'You think I would have let you drink alcohol?' I smiled, knowing of course he wouldn't have. He was too compassionate, and thoughtful he would never put Jellybean in any sort of danger.

'In that case…I will have a drink' I smiled, not able to pull my eyes away from his perfect face. If I hadn't have known him I would have thought he was a God. Words could not describe how physically beautiful he was. I was mesmerised by him…everything about him! He laughed quietly as if he knew my exact thoughts. He poured our drinks, before uncovering our plates. He had made us my favorite wrap, ham, watercress, lettuce, tomato and cucumber in a tortilla wrap along with some more salad at the side.

'I haven't had this in years' I laughed happily. Carlisle smiled, and reached across the table to hold my hand.

'I know.' That's when it hit me, the reason I hadn't had that meal combination for years.

'My 18th birthday?' I whispered. Carlisle nodded. That was the last night I ever had tortilla wraps and the first time Edward had been violent towards me, it had been because I had got a little bit drunk before even arriving at his parent's house. When we had got there Alice had planned me a surprise party, everybody was there, my family, Edwards family, and our friends. I remembered it clearly…like it was yesterday.

_We had all decided to go outside to watch the firework display that Edward had arranged he knew how much I loved fireworks and it was the perfect night for it. It was a warm night, and I can remember distinctly how drunk I was and exactly what I was drinking._

_'I'm going to get another drink' I whispered seductively into Edwards's ear before stumbling towards the back door. I opened the door and fell into the kitchen; I laughed rolling around on the kitchen floor, completely out of my mind. That's when I felt a pair of strong arms pick me up off the floor, and carry me into the Cullen's front room, laying me onto the sofa._

_'You need to rest and sober up Bella!' I heard him demand softy. I looked up into his eyes, to realise it was Emmett. Edward's best friend. Without thinking I leant forward and kissed him…the same moment Edward walked into the room. I quickly pushed Emmett away from him, trying to make it look like Emmett had kissed me._

_'I never want to see you again!' Edward screamed, punching Emmett in the jaw before chucking him out of the house. I stood up quickly, before tripping over my feet. Edward grabbed me by my hair pulling me up so I was facing him. Anger filled his eyes, they were as black as coal. Terrified I had tried to run, but he grabbed me forcefully by the arm._

_'Whore' he shouted, as he threw me into the table with glasses on. The glasses broke into tiny pieces and cut my arm and forehead deeply. I sat their crying, whilst Edward stood staring at me with disgust in his eyes. That's when Carlisle came in, hearing the noise of the glasses breaking and shouting. He ran straight over to me checking me over._

_'Edward. What happened here?' Carlisle had questioned._

_'She's had too much and fell into the table' he lied straight to his father's face._

_'Take her to my study, I'll go get the first aid kit.' Edward picked me up bridal style, carrying me to the study and placing me on the side._

_'I'm sorry Bell…I don't know what came over me. Please, don't say anything to dad? I promise I'll never hurt you again!' He begged, tears falling down his face._

I closed my eyes, touching the scar that remained from that night above my right eye. Unfortunately I had believed his every word, and never spoke a word to Carlisle or anybody else about what happened that night just as Edward had begged me. Since that night two years ago, Edward had been violent towards me more and more. No matter how many times I tried to escape him, I couldn't. He always dragged me back. That was also the night I stopped drinking, eating tortilla wraps, even the sound of fireworks now terrified me and brought back flashbacks. I tried to forget everything about that night, but yet it was still always there in the back of my mind. A tear came to my eye, but I shook it off. Tonight was supposed to be about me and Carlisle…not Edward.

'That was the night I made tortilla wraps for you, the night you fell into the table, the night I treated your injuries in my office…the night I fell in love with you' he stroked my hand, taking a sip of his water.

'I didn't fall into the table!' I spoke out loud without realising what I was saying. I shook my head. 'I mean...I…I can't remember'

Even though Carlisle now knew Edward was violent towards me, I didn't want him to know how long it had been going on for. Edward was still his son.

'W…what do you mean Is?' Carlisle stuttered.

'N…nothing I can't remember what happened that night. I was pissed out of my mind, knowing me I probably did fall into the table.' I lied. I picked up the tortilla wrap hesitantly taking a bite. 'This is delicious!' I spoke, trying to change the subject. Carlisle smiled, but concern still filled his eyes. It felt like he knew what had happened that night but didn't want to accuse anything just in case. I just wish he would ask or say something so I could get it off my chest. Tell someone.

'I've got my sexing scan in two weeks' I told Carlisle.

'Have you got any names yet?' Carlisle spoke dryly, as if he didn't care at all.

'Well, if it's a boy I want Alistair Charles…but if it's a girl, I was thinking Renesme Carlie…but I don't feel comfortable with naming her after Esme anymore, especially because of what we're doing behind her back' I sighed.

'If you were to have another child what would you call them?' I asked, hoping for an idea.

'They're lovely names Is! Well, if I had another son I would call him Peter James, and if I had another daughter I would call her Jessica Kate' He spoke softly. 'I always loved them names, since I found out Esme was first pregnant with Edward but Esme wouldn't have it…she hated the names…if they weren't the names she wanted, she wouldn't even consider them.' He explained with a sad tone to his voice. I fell in love with the name, the moment it fell from his lips.

'Jessica Kate' I breathed in utter adoration. 'I…I love it' Carlisle never replied, just looked to the floor and smiled to himself.

'Talking about love…I have a present for you' Carlisle announced. I shook my head at him. 'What?'

'I hate presents and people making a fuss over me' I whispered.

'I don't care' he stated matter of factly as he pulled a small box out of his pocket. He held it out towards me in his palm. It was a black velvet box, with a studded heart at the front to open it. I knew instantly what it was, how could he even do this? We'd only been together nearly 3 weeks, and he thought it was acceptable to buy me a ring? Was he crazy…what would Edward think, let alone do? I began to become panicked, my leg began to shake underneath the table and I began to mess around with my wedding ring from Edward.

'You. Can't. Do. This' I spoke through clenched teeth. I sounded like an ungrateful cow, but I couldn't do this. It would mean too much, yes I loved him but I was terrified of what Edward would do when he saw the ring. I wouldn't even be able to lie and say I had brought it myself. 1. Because he would know I hadn't been out anywhere and 2. Because last time I had brought myself a piece of jewellery he had called me a liar and given me a black eye accusing me of cheating…which in this case I was. I shook at the thought; I didn't want to go through anymore violence…at all.

'I can and I will! I just want you to have a part of me with you always…on the days when we aren't with each other…especially when you move back to the cottage' He opened up the box, and I gasped at the sight of the ring. It was absolutely gorgeous; it was a thick band, with a forever sign on, which was encrusted in small diamonds. I shook my head, unable to speak. He saw the look of wariness on my face, and took the ring out of the box. He started to point at something inside the band. 'Forever is just the beginning…I had it engraved specially. I want you to have it; even if you have to hide it from Edward I just want you to have it with you all the time'

'Carlisle…what about Edwa…' he put his finger to my lip.

'Shhh…forget about him love. You'll work it out…I know you will' I sighed, I really did want to wear it all the time, never to let it go. I looked down at my hands, my wedding and engagement ring were on my wedding finger, and my eternity ring was on my middle finger next to it. I had the perfect idea!

'Carlisle…do you still have the receipt?' His face turned from pure happiness to utter disappointment. I realised at that point that he thought I wanted to return the ring. 'Oh god, Carlisle I don't want to return it! I love it for god's sake I would never do that! I've just had an idea to stop Edward doubting me. If I have the receipt then I can show it to him and claim I brought it myself with the money dad gave me for Christmas that I hadn't spent yet' I quickly explained to reassure Carlisle.

'Shit Is…you scared me then' he whispered. 'I still have the receipt though it's in my study. I'll get it for you when we get home?' I nodded and slid the ring on my middle finger, admiring it from a distance before finishing my meal. We spent the rest of the evening talking and just being in one another's company. I eventually looked down at the time, it was 10pm already! How time passes when you're having fun!

'Shall we get going beautiful? It's getting late.' Carlisle asked, whilst helping me up off the grass where we had been lying side by side watching the stars.

'On one condition?' I smiled cheekily, the perfect idea popping in my head.

'Anything for you' Carlisle whispered kissing my nose.

'Promise this will be our place…that if anything goes wrong we'll come here? That this place will be where we can be ourselves and nobody else will ever know about this place? I want it to be our special place, that when I see it or I'm here my thoughts are only about you! Please…promise me that?' I meaningfully spoke, with a hope that he would promise me.

'I promise Isabella! I love that idea' He spoke before brushing his lips against mine. I smiled into his lips, and opened my mouth allowing him in. I began to run my hands through his golden hair, as he held me close to him. We both pulled away gasping for air.

'Has anyone ever told you how handsome you are?' I breathed irrationally. Carlisle smiled his charming crooked smile, passing me the picnic basket. He had hidden the chair and table in a clearing for him to pick up another day.

'Well…' he began before I interrupted him.

'Actually don't answer that' I laughed, hitting him playfully. Carlisle picked me up bridal style, and I screamed whilst laughing uncontrollably.

'Did you really just hit me Isabella Marie Swan?!' Carlisle asked sternly. I laughed not being able to take him seriously. 'Oh, I'm going to have to get you for that!' He tried to stay serious but couldn't help but chuckle. He continued to carry me bridal style out of the forest and towards his jaguar. I dropped the picnic basket on the floor as he lay me down onto the jaguar's bonnet, and leaned forward so he was virtually on top of me. He moved my hair out of the way and began to trail kisses from my throat down to my stomach before returning to my neck and kissing me again. I began to moan, running my fingers through his hair once again.

'Carlisle..' I begged, wanting him. Carlisle laughed to himself again before standing up. I stood up quickly, throwing my hands around the back of his neck. 'Please?' I asked again fluttering my eyelashes.

'Not tonight Is…not like this. Your rib hasn't completely healed yet…I don't want to hurt you and I want it to be special' I ignored him, and began to kiss along his jaw to his lips.

'This. Is. Special.' I spoke kissing him after each word. Suddenly his mouth was urgently on mine as he lifted me onto the boot of the car and stood between my legs, his mouth still on mine.

'Are you sure about this?' Carlisle asked making sure I was certain. I nodded, throwing my head backwards as he began to bite my neck gently. He stopped suddenly, and took my hand in his pulling me off the boot.

'Lets go back' he whispered seductively in my ear. I knew instantly what he meant, and within a minute we were both in his car driving back to the house as fast and as safely as Carlisle could go. I could feel my need for Carlisle and could see his through his trousers. Without thinking, I leaned over the gear stick and began kissing the side of Carlisle's mouth, before reaching down and slowly stroking his prized possession through his trousers. I heard him moan, and the car begin to speed up.

'Stop' he moaned. I ignored him and continued.

'Isabella stop!' he shouted. I pouted and sat back in my seat, removing my hand but still watching Carlisle's beautiful face. He smirked his gorgeous smirk and moved his hand onto my thigh, stroking up and down. I began to wriggle in my seat, and Carlisle began to laugh to himself knowing the effect he was having on me.

As soon as Carlisle pulled up outside the house, he was immediently out of the car and before I knew it I was in his arms being carried upstairs, whilst being kissed. Thankfully we entered the room I was staying in and not his and Esme's. He lay me down on the bed, hovering over me and kissing along my body before slowly peeling off my dress as I helped him out of his clothes. Softly he grabs my hips and slowly enters me. He gently and slowly thrusts in and out of me whilst holding the side of my head and kissing me, making love to me. He was nothing like Edward, he was gentle and loving. He was the man I could see in my future, who would look after me and never do anything to hurt me.

That night for the first time, me and Carlisle lay sleeping together in one another's company. Not a care in the world, and a forceful magnetic pull between us and for the first time since this affair started, I didn't feel any guilt for what we were doing. I didn't think of Edward or Esme, all I could think of was the man lying next to me. The man I knew I truly loved.

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	8. Chapter 8

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I woke up abruptly in the night with a pain in my abdomen. I placed my hand on my stomach, and rubbed softly and soothingly hoping it would pass and that my little Jellybean was okay. It didn't seem to work, the cramping pain appeared again a few minutes later but much more painful, as if someone had punched me and initially winded me. It felt just like one of Edward's punches. I threw the duvet off of me, and swung my legs off the side of the bed, holding my stomach with tears running down my face. If I wasn't pregnant I would have thought it just to be extremely bad period cramps, but the fact I was pregnant and having these pains made me extremely concerned and more paranoid that something was wrong.

'C…carlisle' I whispered, beginning to panic. He didn't reply or stir from his sleep at all. I turned to look at him. He was fast asleep, lying on his stomach with his head resting on his arms. He looked so peaceful, I couldn't disturb him but then the pain came again and I immediately screamed for Carlisle. Within a second he was in front of me, one hand on my shoulder and the other on my stomach where my hand was.

'Is, what's the matter? Are you having pains?' Carlisle questioned franticly. I nodded, feeling a sudden pain again as if something was constantly beating me up inside. Without another word Carlisle had thrown on a t-shirt and jogging bottoms, before helping me get changed as quickly as possible. He picked me up gently but unexpectantly, carried me down the stairs and out of the door without locking up and lay me down in the back of the car.

'Hold on darling. Everything's going to be okay' he whispered kissing my forehead before slamming the door, racing to the driver's side and slamming his foot down on the accelerate pedal.

We both knew what could be happening. I couldn't lose my baby. I would never forgive myself. I would always blame myself. I couldn't bear the thought of another unborn baby dying because of me. I loved Jellybean more than my own life, and it didn't matter to me that she wasn't here yet. She was still my baby, my world, my everything.

'Don't let her die Carlisle. Please don't let her die' I cried quietly.

'We're nearly there. Are you still having pains?' he asked, concern lacing his voice.

'No' I sighed, thankfully to God. Hopefully Jellybean will be alright after all. Hopefully it would just be like a stomach ache and nothing to worry about.

The car hastily stopped, and within seconds I was in Carlisle's arms again. I could just about make out his emotions…he had turned pale white as if he had seen a ghost. I saw a tear begin to form in his right eye, and I clutched hold of his jacket, hugging him tightly too me…terrified that something bad was happening. He began to run as we reached the white double doors. I grabbed my stomach as the pain began to appear again.

'Help please! My...my...she's pregnant! Help!' I heard Carlisle shout. Out of nowhere a young doctor or nurse arrived, he was kind of beautiful. I would say around the age of 18. He had gorgeous russet coloured, silky looking skin, it looked as if he used moisturiser every single day. His eyes were dark, set just above his cheekbones and a childish chin looking to just turn into a man's chin. He had short glossy hair, cut to the nape of his neck. Overall he had a very pretty face.

'Could we get a doctor over here now please? And a wheelchair!' I knew instantly that he was definitely a nurse. A female nurse came rushing over with a wheelchair and Carlisle hesitantly put me in the wheelchair before I was rushed off into a private cubicle.

'What's the problem?' The nurse asked.

'She woke up in the night started complaining of a pain in her abdoment, she...she was crouched over holding her stomach. I'm a doctor and know what might be happening so have got her here as soon as possible and before you ask the pains started about 15-20 minutes ago. They stopped on the way here but have started up again just as we arrived' I looked at Carlisle, knowing exactly what he thought was happening to my Jellybean. I shook my head in disbelief, and could only blame myself for what could be happening. When I first found out I was pregnant with Jellybean, I was absolutely distraught and didn't know what I wanted...and now all I could think was it was my fault because of me not being happy when I found out. I knew more than anything now though that all I wanted was for Jellybean to be okay and most of all healthy.

'P...please don't let her d..d..die' I stuttered, trying but failing to keep my voice from quivering. Carlisle walked over to the bed that I was now lying on whilst waiting for the doctor to arrive and kissed my forehead before taking hold of my hand.

'They'll do their best darling, I promise!' It sounded like he was trying to make himself believe that as well as me. I didn't reply, I couldn't bring myself to speak anymore. I wiped away all the tears, and sat on the bed with a brave face on, speaking a silent prayer to God to keep my baby safe. Roughly 15 minutes later, the doctor finally walked in she was very tall, about 5ft 6 maybe taller, she had light brown hair with streaks of honey, and kind, gentle brown eyes with gold secretarial styled glasses. Carlisle kept pacing up and down the room, tears of anger? Worry? Frustration? In his eyes, I couldn't quite tell. He suddenly stopped in his tracks when he realised that the doctor had entered the room.

'How fucking long do you want to take? Anything could have happened, by the time you'd got here! If this nurse would have let me I would have bloody done the tests myself! I would have clearly done much better than you and been quicker!' Carlisle furiously shouted at the doctor. She looked at Carlisle, lowered her glasses so she was looking over the top of them at him.

'Could you please remove Doctor Cullen from the room Nurse Black?' The female doctor insisted. They clearly knew each other by the way they were speaking to one another and how she had used his name, it really didn't seem like they got on either. The nurse walked towards Carlisle trying to lead him out of the room.

'No!' I screamed. I didn't want Carlisle to leave me. I needed him here with me.

'I'm going nowhere mate!' Carlisle stated defensively, it's the first time I had ever heard him use modern speak. Carlisle and the doctor carried on arguing as the pain came back.

'EXCUSE ME!' I shouted over the noise, both of them turned to stare at me as well as the nurse. 'Carlisle is staying! The pain is getting worse and I want to get out of here! Now please can you get on with the tests! If none of you have actually realised my baby could be dying here!' I couldn't take it anymore, none of them actually seemed to care, all they seemed to care about was their little tiff they were having. The doctor nodded at me.

'I'm sorry about that, I'm Doctor Weber and the nurse over here is Nurse Black. Carlisle is only able to stay in the same room if he is the father of the baby or if you're in a relationship and if you feel comfortable with him staying as some of the tests we may have to do may be intimate and uncomfortable for you with Doctor Cullen being here.' The doctor kindly explained. I never thought about some of the tests they may have to do but I didn't care. I needed Carlisle to be here with me. I couldn't go through this on my own.

'Carlisle will you…' I was about to ask him to stay but Carlisle interjected me before allowing me to finish my sentence.

'I'm the father of the child Angela, I have every right to stay!' I glared at Carlisle, how could he do that? Yes, I was going to ask him to stay anyway but he can't just say he's my babies father when he clearly wasn't. Carlisle stared back at me, showing no sign of regret to what he had said. I mean he knew this doctor what if I had to see her again and worst still what if Edward was there next time, the real father to my child. Carlisle's just said he's the father!

'Is that correct?' Doctor Weber spoke. Carlisle continued to stare at me pleadingly, not even blinking once. I was terrified if I told the truth that he wasn't the father that he would be made to leave the room and I couldn't have that. I nodded and Carlisle let out a sigh of relief, he walked towards me and kissed my forehead.

'I'm sorry...I just don't want to leave you by yourself' He whispered into my ear whilst the doctor and nurse got everything ready.

'Thank you for staying' I replied thankfully giving him a small smile. I was annoyed about what he had said and he wasn't going to get away with it, I would be having words with him but I was glad and grateful that he had stayed here with me.

Doctor Weber and Nurse Black began to make their way back over to us with a tray of medical equipment. The nurse placed it on the side, whilst Doctor Weber washed her hands.

'Isabellla Swan is it?' Dr Weber asked.

'C...cullen' I stuttered, glancing nervously at Carlisle. What if she thought we were married as well now? Surely she will know Carlisle is married and has children.

'Oh, so you're the famous Mrs Cullen that Carlisle always spoke about before he took leave?' Angela asked.

_Fuck. _

So it seems that she hasn't met Esme before and now she thinks I'm Carlisle's wife…and having his baby. I shook my head and looked down at my lap, absolutely ashamed of myself. We were going to get figured out eventually, there was no doubt about it.

'Angela you're not allowed to ask personal questions!' Carlisle stated blankly, squeezing my hand, and smiling at me reassuringly.

'Let's have a look then shall we?' She said. I nodded, and rolled my t-shirt up so she could examine my stomach. She began to press gently on my stomach, asking me to point out when I felt a pain and out of a score of 10 how much it hurt; 1 being the least and 10 being the worst.

After she had finished physically examining me, Doctor Weber brought the ultrasound machine over to do a scan. She put the cold jelly on my stomach and began to move the small hand machine over my stomach to get a glance of Jellybean...and then there she was on the screen, she seemed to have grown so much since I had last seen her. I smiled to myself and looked over at Carlisle, with a tear in my eye. He didn't look at me once though, his eyes were locked on the beautiful image on the computer screen.

'Right everything looks okay but let's listen to the heartbeat to just be 100% sure' Doctor Weber kindly smiled.

She got the dopler out and rolled it slowly over my stomach trying to pick up the sound of my Jellybean's heartbeat. That's when I heard her heartbeat, on the upper left side of my belly button. It was magical, beautiful even my babies heart beat beating away. It was only a faint sound but I knew she was okay. I was smiling like a cheshire cat, I was so happy that I had lost her. Dr Weber began moving the dopler again, I looked at her confused. She had found Jellybean's heartbeat so why was she still looking?

'I'm just looking to see if we can hear the heartbeat any louder, everything's okay though I can assure you. It's just a nice feeling to hear it louder' Doctor Weber smiled.

'Thank god for that' I laughed. I thought something was wrong.

She moved the dopler on my lower rightside of my belly button and there was another sound. It sounded the same as the last one but this one was a little bit quieter and the beat seemed to be faster than the last time we heard it. Doctor Weber pulled a face and moved the dopler again to where we heard the last beat, it sounded the same as last time and then she moved it back to below my belly button and sure enough it sounded the same faint and fast beat. Doctor Weber grabbed the ultrasound machine and put it on my belly, and there was my Jellybean on the screen again, she used a different handheld machine this time that showed the heart beat on the screen too and I could see Jellybean's heart beating away but just below Jellybean there was another little heart beat. I reached over and touched the screen where the other heartbeat was, a confused look on my face. I heard Carlisle gasp.

'That...that...that's my heartbeat right?' I stuttered. Everyone in the room chuckled, except for me.

'Nope...you're carrying twins Mrs Cullen! Congratulations to you both!' My mouth dropped open...twins...two babies...two little human beings depending on me...two lives I had to protect from Edward. I shook my head not believing her.

'Are...are you sure?' I questioned just in case she had made a mistake. Doctor Hale had told me there was only one and now I've got double!

'Carlisle…' I whispered, wanting him to tell me. Even though I had just seen it on the screen, I still couldn't register it in my mind. I couldn't have twins. Bringing one child into mine and Edward's marriage was bad enough but bringing two tiny humans into it…what was I going to do?

'She's right Is' he grinned happily. N…no…this couldn't be happening. This wasn't right. Things weren't suppose to turn out like this. I had only recently come to terms I was having one but now two.

'Just a quick question, I've been looking through your notes from your appointment when you found out you were pregnant. Have you had any tests or other appointments since then to do with the pregnancy as I can't find any records of the essential tests you need to have?' Doctor Weber spoke pulling me out of my thoughts.

'N...no. I haven't had any tests.' I whispered, still in shock. Doctor Weber shook her head as if she was annoyed.

'Right, well you should have had quite a few tests done as soon as you found out really. That's not your fault though, it's the Doctor's who saw you. I can do the tests now for you to get them over and done with for you or you can come back another day to get them done, however I would prefer you to get them done as soon as possible' she explained.

'You can do them now' I stated expressionlessly, at least then I would have more time for the news to get into my head properly.

After about 3 quarters of an hour, Doctor Weber had completed all of the essential tests. I had a gynaecological exam and found out I would be able to give birth naturally, which I was quite happy about. I had also had tests done to find out my blood type which was type A, a complete blood count, syphilis test, rubella test, HIV test, a pap smear, a urine test and a test to find out if I had gestational diabetes. Luckily everything came back clear.

'The pains were just growing pains, it's your womb and uterus adjusting and growing making space for the babies to grow. It'll be a little bit more painful because of their being two instead of one but everything is just fine' Doctor Weber told me before I could leave.

'Thank you for everything' Me and Carlisle both spoke before walking out of the door. We began to walk towards the exit of the hospital. I still hadn't come to terms with the fact I was having twins. I couldn't have twins, I couldn't protect them both from Edward, I couldn't leave him, I would have nowhere to go and he would drag me back anyway.

'Mrs Cullen' I heard a male shout behind us.

'What?' I snapped turning around angrily.

'Woah, sorry.' Said the nurse who had helped me out when I came in. I stepped back, turning red, embarrassed.

'Oh, I'm so sorry. Nurse Black isn't it? Is everything okay?' I apologised asking.

'It's fine, and yeah Nurse Black. I was just curious when we were in the examination room. Did you say your maiden name was Swan? Isabella Swan?' He questioned curiously.

'I did...do I know you?' I asked confused by the questioning.

'Oh my god. I thought it was you when I saw you. Isabella Marie Swan married and pregnant with twins at the age of 20!' Nurse Black stated as if he knew me.

'Excuse me? I don't think that has anything to do with you! How dare you speak to he like that!' Carlisle spoke up, standing in front of me slightly.

'I'm sorry. Bell, its me! Jacob…Jacob Black!' My face automatically lit up.

'Aaaahhh! Jacob!' I screamed, hugging him nearly knocking him flying. Not even paying attention to Carlisle's angry expression.

'How are you? What have you been up to?' Jacob had been my best friend since I was 3 years old, but since leaving secondary school we had lost contact since my engagement to Edward...shit! That's when I realised he thinks I'm married to Carlisle...and worst still he knows Carlisle is Edwards Dad.

'I've been good thanks! Just finished my training to become a nurse and currently going through courses to eventually become a doctor. Anyway I thought you were getting married to Edward...Cullen' he said through gritted teeth, looking towards Carlisle and back to me...I forgot to mention Jake hated Edward.

'Err..well..ermm..long story' I confessed.

'I haven't got time now, but we should catch up. Here's my number, call me some time and we'll catch up.' He spoke passing me his card before rushing off to deal with an emergency. Sugar, now I've got to think of an excuse. I thought to myself. I put the card into my clutch bag and turned back to Carlisle. We walked together to the car. I opened the passenger side, and sat inside not even bothering to close the door. I just stared ahead of me through the windscreen blankly.

'Is everything okay Is?' Carlisle whispered, crouching down by the door.

'I'm...I'm having twins Carlisle.' I finally cried, letting it all out as if Carlisle hadn't been in the room.

'I know and that's fantastic Is! Why are you crying though? You're going to have two very beautiful children' He spoke gently wiping away my tears with his thumb.

'I've got to protect two precious little lives from Edward now and not one. He can hurt me as much as he wants but what if he tries to hurt the babies...what if I can't stop him!' I confessed my worst fears to him.

'Leave him Isabella? Please? I can't have him hurting you anymore. I can't live knowing you're in danger' he begged. I shook my head slightly, tears still rolling down my cheeks.

'I…I can't. I have nowhere to go, no one to turn too. He won't let me go. He'll kill me if he has to' I choked on the last words, falling forwards, my head in my hands.

'Don't ever say that. You have plenty of people. You've got your parents, your friend…you have me Isabella…I'll do anything for you, you know that. You'll always have me. I'm not going anywhere. Nobody and nothing will make me leave you. You're my everything. I'll help you get away from him. Please let me help you?' I nodded my head in agreement. I knew I had to get away from Edward, not only for my babies but for myself too.

'Thank you' he whispered, kissing my forehead, and wiping my tears away again.

'Can...can we go see Ally? I need to talk to her..' I whispered. Carlisle nodded, helping me out of the car and walking with me towards the ward she was on.

'Do you want me to come in with you?' Carlisle asked. I shook my head, I needed to speak to her alone. 'Okay, I'll get a chair and sit outside here, if you need me just shout!' I let go of his hand and walked into her room, shutting the door behind me.

Alice was laying there still, her eyes shut. The only movement she was making was her chest moving up and down. It just looked like she was in a very deep sleep and that she's only been asleep a few hours...but I knew different. She had been in a coma now for nearly 6 weeks, the doctors were slowly giving up on her and there had been talk about switching her life support machine off. Carlisle was adamant they weren't switching the machine off and Esme was slowly giving up on her. It was as if Esme had forgotten that she ever had another child. I walked over to her bed, and took hold of her hand. I began to cry, I couldn't lose Ally. She wasn't just my sister in law, she was my best friend too. I couldn't imagine being without her, just seeing her like this broke my heart.

'Please wake up Ally..' I begged. 'Your going to be an Auntie to two gorgeous babies Al..they need there Auntie Alice and I need my best friend back. Wake up honey..' Tears began flowing down my face violently now. I put my head down, resting it on my arm trying to stop the tears, keeping hold of her hand all the time. 'I'm so sorry..I've done this to you! Its my fault your lying in this bed in this coma right now. I shouldn't have suggested going riding'

It was true, it was my fault. It had been my idea to go horse riding that day, I had asked Alice to go and get Bruno warmed up ready for going hacking whilst I finished getting Brodie ready to go hacking too. I should never have let Alice ride Bruno by herself, I'm much more experienced than her and she had only known how to ride for a few weeks, I should have known never to let her go by herself. I will never forgive myself, even if she does get through this and is fine. I'll still never forgive myself or get the image of her lying on that stone cold concrete unconscious, a pool of blood surrounding her. I wiped my eyes again, and moved her hair from out of her eyes.

'I need you Ally...I've been going crazy without you...I've been doing some stupid things...really stupid things..' I whispered. 'I've fallen in love with somebody else Alice...I've broken my vows to Edward...I've fallen in love with your father for god sake' I laughed nervously and cried to myself realising how stupid I was sounding right now. 'Your god damn father. He might be an asshole now and again but I bloody love him Ally...I love him more than anything and he loves me...damn your dad...look at me, I'm a mess..' then I felt a grip on my hand, and Alice's hand had tightened around mine holding on to it. I looked up to look at Alice and there she was, her big brown eyes looking into mine. I jumped forward, hugging her tightly. 'I love you Ally!' I sobbed. I let go.

'CARLISLE! SOMEBODY' I screamed, trying to get help so they could check her over.

'You love my Dad?' She whispered staring at me, before Carlisle, a doctor and 2 nurses ran in.

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	9. Chapter 9

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**Authors Notes; I'm so sorry, I haven't updated in a while. I've been trying to write 'Is This What It Feels Like' chapter and it's not going to well, so thought I would take my mind off that one for a while and update this one. **

**A lot has changed in this chapter, than in the original chapter, so I hope you still like it. I haven't heard from a lot of you guys so not sure whether your enjoying this one or not...please let me know? **

**Here goes anyway. **

It had been 8 hours since Alice had woken up. Once the doctor had checked her over, I had tried to explain what was going on with me and Carlisle but she didn't want to speak to me at all she just wanted her dad...as far as I know she hadn't said anything to him about what she had heard me tell her. I had promised myself that this morning I was going to tell Carlisle what had happened in the hospital with her, and then I was going to go to the hospital and confess everything...that was my plan anyway. After all she's been through, she deserves to know the truth. I can't lie to my best friend if she asks me.

I picked up a towel off of my radiator, and walked towards the bathroom. I had a quick shower, wrapped the towel around my hair, and then took one of Carlisle's towels off the side and wrapped it around my body. It smelled just like him. I brushed my teeth, and then began to walk back towards Carlisle's bedroom where we had slept the night. I walked into his walk in closet on the left and picked out one of his black long sleeved shirts. I took it off of the coat hanger that it was hanging on, and walked back to my room. I dried my body with his towel, before putting on my underwear and Carlisle's shirt. It was absolutely massive on me, the sleeves were really long and the actual shirt came down to my knees, but it smelt of my favourite scent...Carlisle.

I picked up the book I had been reading. It was called 'The Time Travellers Wife', it was about a woman who fell in love with a time traveller who she had known since she was six, however when she met him again when she was 20 he had not met her yet as he had not travelled to that year. It was a confusing book, but so good. I read 4 chapters, before looking at the time. It was 10am already, I had been reading for an hour and a half. Time goes fast when you've got your nose in a good book!

I was going to see Alice at 12pm, so decided I best go and tell Carlisle everything. I put my book on my bedside table, and started to walk down the stairs still wearing Carlisle's shirt. I got to the 8th step down and could hear Carlisle having a heated discussion. I stopped frozen to the step, and slowly sat down, holding my knees, and listening into the conversation.

'What do you mean you don't want her in our house anymore?' I heard Carlisle shout. I knew instantly this had something to do with me.

'That's exactly what I mean Carlisle! I do not want her under my roof anymore especially with Alice coming home next week!' I heard a woman screech back, I recognised her voice immediately. It was Esme, although it didn't sound like she was physically in the house. It sounded more like she was on the phone on loud speaker.

'What has she ever done to you?' Carlisle said through clenched teeth, I assume to try and stop me hearing and coming downstairs although that hadn't worked out for him. 'Well! What hasn't she done?! That twisted, conniving bitch has told our daughter she is in love with you! That's what she's done and you expect me to let her carry on living under my roof alone with you! You must be delusional if you think I'm going to let that happen. I mean what do I say to Edward now? How am I going to tell him that his wife is in love with his father. What does she think she's playing at? I mean you clearly don't love her!' I heard Carlisle gasp, and I felt a lump form in my throat.

I needed to hear his reply. I needed to see his expression. I stood from the stairs and made my way into the kitchen, where I saw Carlisle sitting at the kitchen table, wringing his hands with the phone sitting on the table in front of him.

'Carlisle? Do you...do you love her?' I heard Esme's anguished voice come through the speaker. I watched the pain on Carlisle's face and his fist hit the table, making his glass next to him shake. I instantly went to his side, putting my hand on his cheek, stroking it softly to try and calm him down.

'Isabella..' He breathed, pulling me on to his lap, holding me close to him.

'I'm so sorry' I whispered.

'She's there? It's true isn't it? You...you love her? She's there with you right now? Don't lie to me!' Esme began to angrily sob.

'Yes' He replied, without taking his eyes off of me. 'Yes to which question? She's there or you love her?' Esme whispered barley loud enough to hear her clearly through the phone.

'Both' I heard Esme scream and sob hysterically. I couldn't bare to look at Carlisle. We had barely been together a week and he had just told Esme about us. He'd basically just ended his marriage...and what about Edward? He was bound to find out...and that could mean only one thing...more violence.

I struggled out of Carlisle's embrace and clambered up the stairs noisily. I ran into the bathroom, slamming the door and locked it behind me. I slid down the door, with my back against it, tears wetting my cheeks.

'What have I done?' I whispered to myself, putting my head in my hands. I must have been sitting there for 10 minutes before I stood from where I had been sitting and moved to sit on the edge of the bathtub. The door handle suddenly moved and I knew Carlisle was trying to get in but the door refused to budge.

'Open this door right now!' Carlisle spoke sternly.

'You hate me don't you?' I sobbed. 'Its fine Carlisle, I understand. Just...just leave me alone and I'll be gone in the next hour' I spluttered through tears.

I mean of course he was going to blame me. If I hadn't have been so easy, and thought about the consequences then we wouldn't be in this predicament right now. Carlisle would still be with Esme and I'd probably be at home trying to make my self hidden away from the violence...but at least Carlisle and Esme would be fine. She didn't deserve this, all she has ever done is treated me like her own daughter...and I was fucking her husband.

'Isabella..' He said through clenched teeth. I unlocked the door, and he was standing with his arms on the door frame, towering over me. His face softening as soon as I opened the door. He moved towards me and placed his hands on my hips before leaning down to kiss me. I moved my face away and barged past him, walking into my bedroom. I grabbed my suitcases from underneath my bed and began to pack. It felt like de ja vu from when I threatened to move last time...but this time I actually was moving. After what felt like a lifetime I finally finished packing. I lifted the two heavy suitcases off my bed and hauled them downstairs, barging past Carlisle again.

'What are you doing Is?'

'What does it look like? This is all my fault. We should never have started whatever this is. I've hurt Esme so much. Why did I fall for you Carlisle? Why couldn't I just have ignored my feelings for you? Why...Why did I ever get involved with this family at least then I wouldn't be broken goods because of Edward...Alice wouldn't be in hospital...I wouldn't be a home wrecker...and...and I wouldn't be head over heels in love with a man I can't be with?' I whimpered turning away and walking down the rest of the stairs with my suitcases. I couldn't stand there and watch the pained expression on his face.

'Please...don't say that. Don't do this. It's not your fault. Mine and Esme's marriage had been breaking for a while...it was bound to end sooner or later' He spoke, trying to make things better. 'But this is my fault! I'm the reason your marriage has finally ended! Me! Not anyone else...It's all down to me' I shouted. 'I can't do this anymore.'

'You shouldn't be carrying heavy items in your condition!' He stated suddenly becoming angry, taking the suitcases off of me.

'I shouldn't be stressed either but you obviously didn't care about that when you told Esme about us!' I muttered hoping he wouldn't hear.

'You know that's not true'

'Of course not! That's why you didn't even stop to think what this could do. What this could do to us...to me and Edward...to Esme...to Alice. Did you not stop and think what this could do to your daughter who has only just woken up with no clue of what has happened since she went into that coma?!' I burst out in full anger. He didn't stop to consider anything. 'I never thought it would come to this...I. never thought you could be so stupid and out us like that so soon'

'Well you should have thought about that before you told my daughter you love me!' He replied harshly. I snatched my suitcases off of him, and opened the door forcefully.

'That was low..' I whispered before closing the door behind me.

It had been a week since I had left Carlisle. I didn't go back to mine and Edward's cottage. I came to the safety of my parents house and sat in my childhood room in my pyjamas eating ice cream. It seemed that Esme hadn't said anything too Edward about me and Carlisle to which I have no clue why she hadn't told him. I had managed to avoid Edward as he was decorating the cottage and didn't want me around while he did it...which was perfectly fine with me.

'Hunny, a letters just arrived for you' my mom said, sitting down on my bed, she passed me the letter and moved my hair behind my ear. The last person who had done that to me was Carlisle. I quickly moved it back to where it was before.

'I don't know what's wrong sweetie but please cheer up soon' my mom said before kissing my forehead and leaving my room, shutting the door on her way out. I looked at the writing on the front of the envelope and recognised the neat script like writing instantly, it was from Carlisle! He had been trying to ring me constantly since the night I left, but every time I had rejected the call, I guess now he had given up and resulted to letters instead. I ripped it open right away and unfolded it carefully.

'Dear Darlin',

Please excuse my writing, I can't stop my hands from shaking. I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. Oh I can't cope. These arms are yours to hold. And every night I remember that evening the way you cried as you turned to walk away. I never thought that we'd throw it all away...but we threw it all away. And I'm a little bit lost without you and I'm a bloody big mess inside. When I was young I never knew what this thing called love could do to you but since you've been gone I've been feeling quite peculiar. And please believe me when I say I love you because I will always love you. I'll never be your mothers favourite and your daddy won't look me in the eye if they ever found out. If I was in their shoes I'd be doing the same thing saying there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome old guy. I'll pick up these broken pieces till I'm bleeding if that'll make you mine again. I'm not over you and I know I never will be. I should have begged you to stay..but now I'm begging you please forgive me my angel Isabella.

I love you and always will,

Carlisle.'

I held the piece of paper to my chest, a tear running down my face. I had missed him so much and even though I hated what he had done, I couldn't face being without him for another day. I climbed out of my bed, put the letter in my bag, changed from my onesie into a white top, yellow floral skirt and flip flops. Grabbed my bag, and ran down the stairs.

'I'm taking your car dad' I shouted, picking up his keys and running outside before he could reply. I got in his BMW, and drove straight to Carlisle's house as fast as I could. I didn't care if I was going against everything I had said to him during our argument, I just wanted to tell Carlisle I loved him, I didn't want to ever lose him again. I parked up outside the house. Left my bag on the passenger seat and ran to knock on the door. The door swung open and there standing in front of me was Carlisle...my Carlisle. I launched forwards wrapping my arms around his neck and brushing my lips against his.

'I love you. I'm so sorry. I love you' I said before passionately kissing him. He pulled away, grabbed hold of my hand pulling me inside before holding my face in his hands and kissing me, he licked the bottom of my lip asking for entry and I opened willingly allowing his tongue to explore my mouth. He shut the door, using his foot before picking me up and pushing me against the wall kissing me this time with more force.

'She was cheating on me as well...it had been happening for 2 year's' Carlisle spoke still holding me up against the wall whilst I kissed his neck.

'Can we discuss this tomorrow? I need you...kiss me' I begged.

'Shall we take this upstairs?' He whispered seductively into my ear, nibbling my ear lobe. I nodded enthusiastically, before being carried upstairs into his study. He let go of my hand and pushed all of his paperwork off of his desk so it was completely empty. I grabbed hold of his arm and began to unbutton his checkered shirt, allowing my hands to explore his beautiful body. He shrugged his shirt off, and began to kiss me again, lowering me onto the desk so I was lying down with him on top of me, I raised my arms as he tugged at the hem of my top and slid it over the top of my head. He began to kiss my neck and I began to moan, fumbling for his zipper. I unzipped his trousers, and he allowed them to fall down as he slid my underwear off.

'I love you Isabella Marie Swan' he whispered into my ear before thrusting inside of me and kissing my neck. That night we went back the front room and I slept the night in Carlisle's arms snuggled against him in front of the fireplace. A night I would never forget for as long as I lived.

**A/N; **

**So there we have it. I decided I wanted Esme and Carlisle to split up instead of Esme dying, as I know a lot of you didn't like that in the original outtake of this story. **

**What did you guys think? Please review, I love hearing from you guys. It motivates me more to write quicker. Also if any of you is reading my other fanfiction, I'm so sorry for how long it's taking to update. I'm trying my hardest, but got a serious case of writers block :'( **

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**DonnaCullen84****; Thank you for your review! Glad to hear your enjoying this version of the story. Hope you like this chapter too. To answer your question about Angela not meeting Esme before, this is because if any of Carlisle's family are injured he has strict orders in the hospital that only he or someone he trusts will treat them and as he doesn't get on with Angela he won't let her near his family. I'm still not sure to how Alice is going to react in this one...we shall have to wait and see ;)**


	10. Chapter 10

**Disclaimer; Even though I would love too, I do not own any characters. They are all Stephenie Meyer's wonderful characters :). All writing of this story is my own though as is the plot.**

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I woke up the next morning to the sound of my phone, alerting me that I had a text message. I rubbed my eyes, and turned my head to see Carlisle still asleep next to me. A smile crept over my face, he looked so God damn beautiful sleeping...not that he didn't look beautiful all the time, but he looked so peaceful and relaxed when sleeping. I leaned over him carefully and quietly to retrieve my phone trying not to disturb him so he could continue sleeping. I successfully grabbed my phone, and went to move back cautiously to where I was lying to read my text message. I nearly got back to where I was lying when I felt Carlisle take hold of my waist, and pull me so I was sitting on top of him.

'Morning beautiful' he softly spoke smiling. His eyes looked heavy and so tired.

'Well hello there' I whispered back. 'You look exhausted'

'That would be because you kept me awake the majority of the night' he chuckled.

I grinned at the memory of our constant love making that lasted well into the early morning and bent down to kiss him, throwing my phone onto the pillow next to us. Carlisle sat up with me still straddling him. He put his hands on the small of my back and our lips finally met. Our tongues began to move in rhythm, our mouths interlocked. I lifted my hand to touch his face and began to trace the line of his jaw. Carlisle lay back on the bed pulling me with him so I was lying on top of him. He rolled me over so he was on top, and he placed his hand softly on my growing belly. I arched my back beneath him, as he moved his attention to my breasts, squeezing softly. I groaned happily against his lips before he suddenly stopped, and moved off of me.

'I'd love to continue this but I really must go have a shower' I pouted my lips, and folded my arms. Looks like we weren't going to be having wake up sex today then.

'Fine' I said sulking that he could just stop in the middle of making out with me.

'I love when you're mad Isabella' Carlisle whispered leaning over me before kissing my nose. He got up out of the bed, and walked out of the room stark naked, and laughing to himself.

'Looking good Cullen!' I shouted after him as he left the room, my mood changing back to happy just by Carlisle's simple action of being naked...although it would be much better if he was naked with me between the sheets.

'Thanks Swan' he shouted back. I hated slightly that he never called me by my married name..but I can sort of understand why he didn't. I guess he didn't want the reminder that I was married to his son and I can't deny it because I liked to forget that too when I was with Carlisle.

I snuggled back under the covers, and picked up my phone to check the text message I had received early before Carlisle had seduced me, not that I was complaining. I expected it to be one of three people; Mom, Dad or Edward asking where I was or how I was. I shut my eyes, silently begging it not to be them..not wanting them to ruin my perfect mood and the perfect night/morning me and Carlisle had, had. I opened the text, and sighed a sigh of relief, it was a number not in my contact, which meant I probably wouldn't even have to reply to whoever it was.

'Bonus' I whispered to myself.

'_Hey B! Its been nearly 2 weeks since I last saw you and been expecting that text off you for us to meet up..still waiting on that. Do you still wanna meet up? X'_ I read out loud.

'Shit!' I had completely forgotten I was supposed to text Jacob..I knew it was him straight away because he was the only one who ever used to call me B over text and face to face occasionally when we saw each other.

'_Jake? X'_ I replied, just to be sure it was definitely him.

'_Yeah, its me..forgot to say who it was! So how about dinner then?_' The message read. I didn't reply. I was going to have to discuss it with Carlisle before I made any rash decisions, I mean I didn't want to go if it was going to upset or worry him. I got up out of bed and quickly slipped on some underwear, a red long sleeved check shirt, a pair of black skinny jeans and my red Converse's. Once I had sorted myself out I made my way towards the bathroom to speak to Carlisle. I knocked on the door lightly, and entered the bathroom. Just as I walked in he was putting a towel around his waist. He looked up in surprise.

'Well this brings back some memories' he laughed.

Oh, yes! How this whole attraction towards Carlisle first started on my behalf when I walked in on him doing exactly what he was doing now. I tiptoed to reach his lips, kissing him softly whilst I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck.

'The best thing I've ever done was accidentally walk in on you in here that night, and I don't regret it for the world.' I spoke looking him straight in the eyes at all times, making sure he knew how much I meant what I was saying. He smiled, before kissing my lips, nibbling at my bottom lip before moving to my neck. I began to moan in pleasure once again.

'Don't' I whispered trying not to moan even more or end up having sex with him ...its not that I don't want to its just that I want to get this discussion over and done with about Jake. I knew exactly how it would go with Edward if I was asking him, and I knew Carlisle would never be violent towards me but with my past I can't always fully trust.

Carlisle stopped and stepped back. He moved a strand of my hair that had fallen loose behind my ear and then took hold of my hands.

'What's up beautiful?' He asked frowning with clear confusion in his eyes. I put my hands on his chest, and looked up at him.

'Come with me..' I said taking his hand and leading him out of the steam filled bathroom. '...on second thoughts go get changed first else I might end up jumping you' I turned winking at him. He grabbed my hands, pulling me into him and wrapping my arms around his back. He slid his hands down my back, putting his hands on my bum.

'Maybe I want you too' he whispered looking down at me and kissing my forehead.

'Well..maybe if you go get changed, and come downstairs, I might jump you after we've talked..' I laughed, and began to walk down the stairs. I stopped midway and turned to look at him, he was still standing there '...and it'll be more fun, I'll get to strip you out of your clothes first' Carlisle's jaw dropped open and he quickly rushed off to get changed. Well trained I thought to myself, whilst giggling like a school girl.

I got to the kitchen and put the kettle on and got out two mugs to make some cups of tea. Carlisle walked into the kitchen wearing a pair of jeans, a shirt, a grey jumper and for some reason a scarf. I frowned but refused to even question him. He sat down at the table and I put a mug in front of him but I remained by the kitchen side, with my back towards it and gripping tightly onto the side. I took deep breaths and began to count slowly to ten. I shouldn't be so worried...I just kept thinking of what Edward would do to me if we were in this situation right now. Maybe it would be just a punch, or maybe hair grabbing and my head being whacked against a wall..or being thrown into something...perhaps even thrown down the stairs again. I closed my eyes and shook my head, with anger my grip tightening even more on the side. I opened my eyes, and eyed Carlisle still seated at the table, his eyes never moving from me, clearly concerned in what I was going to say.

'Look...Carlisle...here's the thing...' I began. '...remember Nurse Black from the hospital, when we thought...I was losing the babies?' I place my hand on my now larger stomach, feeling nauseas from the thought of my babies dying.

'What's he done?' Carlisle was immediately in front of me, with his left hand clenched in a fist, he lifted his right hand to move a piece of my hair but I involuntarily flinched. Carlisle moved away, brushing his hand through his hair, looking rather annoyed.

'You thought I was going to hit you didn't you?' He asked shaking his head.

'I'm s..sorry' I stuttered looking away from him, as a tear slid down my cheek. I was ashamed of myself, I knew he wouldn't hit me but yet I still flinched? I hated that Edward had made me this way, had caused me to fear some of the simplest things in life...like having a discussion with someone.

'Look, Nurse Black has been my best friend since I was a little girl, we grew up in the same street, he was like a brother to me...but...but when me and Edward got engaged we drifted apart..he..he didn't agree with our relationship..he knew things that you don't know and I don't want you to know...he always told me Edward wasn't right for me. Always told me I'd end up getting hurt. I guess I should of believed him but I loved Edward then, trusted him with my life.' I sighed. Carlisle put his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.

'Is..you don't have to tell me this if its going to upset you. I trust you okay?' he reassured me. I shook my head at him again.

'No..no. I want to.' I whispered. 'Well anyway, he recognised me when we were at the hospital and asked me to have dinner with him to catch-up..more to get the gossip really..he knows your Edwards dad Carlisle, and he thinks these are your babies.' I spoke, taking his hands and putting them on my stomach. 'He contacted me this morning when you were in the shower asking if I would go still...but I don't want to go if its going to worry you..but I'm going to have to tell him everything..mainly because he's the one doing my scan tomorrow and because well...Edward will be there..' I explained, hoping he would understand. Carlisle lifted my chin up, so I was looking him in the eyes.

'Is, you don't have to ask my permission to go places. I'm nothing like my son, I trust you. You tell me your just friends, I'll believe you. You tell me there's no need to worry, I'll trust you. I love you, and being I love you that means I trust you too with all my heart' I wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging him to me.

'Thank you' I whispered.

'While we're discussing things...I didn't really want to bring this up but I think you should know. The reason Esme hasn't told Edward about us is well because...she isn't really in Australia'

'I thought she was sorting out the hotel branch there?' I questioned with a frown. Why would she be somewhere else but claim she's in Australia?

'That was her...and his cover story' he had completely lost me, there was someone else supposed to be going with her?

'Who?'

'Eleazar' he spat the mans name out like it was poison in his mouth. 'Esme and he will probably be having sex on one of Spain's beaches right now...turns out she has been seeing this Eleazar for about 2 years...I had a suspicion she was seeing someone but 2 years...2 fucking years, she was lusting after another man. She could have told me sooner, you know what I mean? A year would have been bad enough...but lying to me for 2 consecutive years..and that's only when they officially started seeing each other. They had slept together on the odd occasion for years before. After you left, she rang me again, she admitted everything to me. Apologised for everything like that was going to make her massive bomb shell of an announcement a lot easier and better for me to accept, she must be completely out of her mind, if she thinks I will ever forgive her for this. I know I have technically cheated on her with you...but she's been cheating for 2 years...and at least I told her. She wants to marry him as well. She's asked me for a divorce. She told me that she won't tell Edward anything about us if I divorce her...part of me wants to say no, that I won't grant her that wish after what she's done, that'll we will tell Edward and say fuck her and make her suffer but I know you're not ready to divulge our secret with Edward and I can't ask you to do that...so I've done it. She faxed me the divorce papers, I signed and faxed them back. We agreed upon a no-fault divorce so it was quicker... And well we've legally been divorced for 3 days now. She's coming back in a few days to speak with Edward and Alice, then she's coming here to collect her possessions and will be moving to Spain officially with Eleazar afterwards' he explained in detail, still standing in front of me with both of his hands entwined with mine.

'She..she cheated on you for two years? Why? Why would she do that? Does she not realise how much of a brilliant man you are? How kind, caring and loving you are? How beautiful you are? How could she just throw you to the side of the road like that...after everything you've done for her. I'm gonna ring her and give her a piece of my fucking mind!' I ranted, turning away from Carlisle and kicking the cupboard door, before picking up the phone to ring Esme.

'Hey..hey' Carlisle soothed, turning me around and taking the phone away from me before pulling me into his warm embrace, resting his chin on the top of my head and stroking my back.

'Trust me, I've thought all of this over since those words first left her mouth but listen to me, me and you both knew that eventually what we have would become apparent and we knew Esme would end up getting hurt...never once did we expect that I would get hurt too but shit happens, and to be honest I'm over it..I'm actually quite glad that she was cheating too, and well now me and her are divorced, I can look forward to a future with somebody else...' He stopped speaking, and moved our position so he could look me in the eyes. I pulled out of his hold, and glared at him with the look of death in my eyes.

'H...how fucking dare you? So I was just a bit on the side for you...and now your marriage is over you're going to drop me like I was nothing to you and search for someone else to spend your future with? I fucking love you Carlisle! You're everything to me...please...please don't do this to me?' My voice began to break, a lump forming in my throat.

'Is...no...oh god no! I meant that I get to spend my future with you! God, I didn't mean it the way it sounded! I love you, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, you beautiful woman' he explained. 'Now Esme knows please tell Edward? I can't have him hurting you anymore Isabella'

'I can't...you know I can't. Maybe in time, but I can't now...I'm sorry' I whispered.

'Well, at least move back here with me for now? I need you Is...'

'What do I say to my parents though..let alone Edward when they want to know where I'm staying?' I asked curiously.

'Tell them your staying at a friends?'

'Carlisle..I don't know whether you've noticed this but my only trustworthy friend is your daughter!' I laughed.

'Hold on, I've got an idea' I let go of him and ran up the stairs to grab my phone. Carlisle followed me up, to see what my idea was. I quickly dialled my mom and dad's phone number. It rang twice before somebody finally answered.

'Hello?' My mom spoke.

'Hiya mom, its me' I smiled, looking towards Carlisle who was now lying on the bed watching me pace around the room with a smile on his face.

'Bella! Are you okay? Where are you? What happened last night? Where did you go?'

'Mom, seriously calm down. I'm fine. I got a little stressed over something so silly yesterday, and needed to get out so I could clear my mind. I went for a drive, but started to get pains. To cut a long story short, I was closer to Carlisle's house so went there and well here I am' I lied. I hated lying to my mom, but it was something I had to do. She would be absolutely distraught if she found out her 'perfect' daughter was having an affair...let alone that he was technically my father in law.

'Are you alright? Are the babies both okay? When are you coming back?' She began to panic.

'Everything's good. I'm okay, and so are the babies. Listen, here's the thing. I'm not coming back for now. Carlisle wants to keep an extra eye on me because of the pain and we've come to the decision that it would be best for me and the babies to move back here for a while just in case anything happens.'

'Oh, that's sensible. I love you honey, and stay safe'

'I love you too. Carlisle is going to pop over soon to grab a few of my things, whilst I go to sleep. I'll call you soon' I promised. We said our goodbyes and hung up. I ran to Carlisle launching myself at him.

'Sorted!' I shouted happily. The plan was perfect. All I needed to do now was text Jake, and then after the meal me and Carlisle could be together...until Edward was finished decorating the cottage, but I didn't want to think of that right now.

'_Pick me up from Carlisle's house tonight about 6:30pm for this meal then? x'_ I text Jake, for some reason Carlisle was beginning to dislike me driving, so it was either Carlisle take us or Jacob pick me up. I think I'd prefer Jake to pick me up..less awkward. My phone went off again almost immediately.

'_Sounds great! See you later! x_' I read.

Carlisle left the house to go get my clothes, so I decided to go check out the books on his bookshelf. I ended up choosing a medical study book, grabbing a blank notebook I had found before going to sit on the sofa. I'd always wanted to become a nurse but Edward always talked me out of it..well there's no stopping me now, I thought to myself and well I need a job again. I had lost my old job as a librarian due to Edward's stalking tendencies and behavior he always caused. It was a job I absolutely loved, I was crushed when I lost it.

I finally got to the end of the book, after making notes and doing the practice questions and scenarios. I put the book back, and took one of Carlisle's spare folders to put my notebook and spare sheets in before slipping it in to one of his drawers to hide it from Edward...even though he wouldn't dare going searching in his fathers office, but then again I wouldn't put it passed him.

I looked at my watch and it was already 6pm...Carlisle still wasn't back from my parents. He was only suppose to be going there, getting my stuff and coming straight back but knowing how dad and Carlisle are quite good friends it wouldn't surprise me if they're sitting having a pint of some sort of alcoholic beverage right now.

I picked up my phone off of the side and dialled Carlisle's number in a hope he would answer..I mean I'd need a new outfit to go out tonight I couldn't wear my current outfit.

'Hello...haha gotcha, sorry busy at the moment. Please leave a message after the tone...beeeep' I shook my head, he was such a goof sometimes...but he was my goof. I shrugged my shoulders and walked into Alice's bedroom to look for a simple outfit. I filtered through her wardrobe, trying to find something easy and simple, I mean it was only a catch-up with a close friend. I decided on a pair of skinny burgundy jeans, with a pair of black Converse, a white vest top and a rose print burnt out sweater. I quickly combed my hair and put it into a messy bun. I picked up a small black bag, and put my purse, and paracetamol inside just in case I got a headache.

I looked out of the window too see a dark blue Ford Focus parked outside and Jake sitting waiting for me on the bonnet, his phone in his hand. I jogged down the stairs picking up my keys on the way down, thankfully I still had my spare key from when I lived with Carlisle previously. I locked the door, and walked over to Jake.

'Hey' I smiled giving him a quick hug before climbing inside of the car. 'So where are we off too?' I asked.

'I was thinking our favourite restaurant?' My face lit up instantly.

'Jack In The Box?' I screamed happily.

'Yeah baby yeah!' Jacob laughed. I laughed too.

We had so many memories there, I hadn't been there for at least 3 years, it was the last meal we had together before loosing contact and I hadn't been there since. We pulled up outside of the restaurant in Port Angeles about an hour later and I virtually jumped out of the car, and power walked inside with Jake following close behind.

'The usual?' Jake grinned.

'You still remember?' I asked in complete shock. It had been 3 years!

'If I remember correctly it was the Southwest Chicken Salad? A mixture of iceberg, romaine and spring lettuce with crispy chicken, grated pepper cheese, tomatoes, red onions, black beans, roasted corn, southwest dressing and spicy corn sticks and a bottled water? Am I correct..or has your appetite suddenly changed?' He smirked.

'You know full well your right. I can't believe you remembered that!' I laughed.

'How could I forget? Right, I'm gonna go get ordered, you find us a seat?' He suggested.

I nodded my head in agreement and walked over to get our normal table whilst I waited for Jake to order the food. I quickly took my BlackBerry out of my bag to let Carlisle know I was okay.

_'Baby, just to let you know I'm okay and we're at Jack In The Box, won't be long see you soon. I would say don't stay up...but I want you too, I've got a few things I have in mind for us to do tonight . ;) Love you xxxx'_ I clicked send and placed it on the table, knowing he would reply almost straight away. 10 minutes past, and Jake finally came and sat at the table with our food. Jake chose a bacon ranch taco with chicken nuggets as a side dish and a Fanto for himself.

'Thanks' I spoke, as he placed my food in front of me and sat opposite me.

I quickly looked at my phone again to see if Carlisle had replied...he still hadn't replied that was unusual of him. I raised an eyebrow looking at the screen with no messages, but I quickly shrugged it off, perhaps he was still chatting with my mom and dad or maybe he had gotten home and fallen asleep. I put my phone in my bag and began to tuck in, he would be okay and I'd be home soon anyway.

'I'm absolutely starving, I haven't eaten all day' I said, rubbing my tummy feeling a little guilty because being I hadn't eaten today, neither had the twins. Jacob stopped eating and placed his food back on his plate, giving me a stern look that I knew all too well.

'Doesn't your husband tell you to eat? Your eating for 3 Bells, you need to make sure you eat for all of your sakes!' Jacob lectured. I shook my head at him, and tutted.

'Just because you're a nurse does not mean you can lecture me Jacob Black' I laughed pointing my finger at him. 'Anyway I'm eating now aren't I? And no, Edward doesn't make sure I eat..I mean I haven't seen him for nearly 3 weeks' I told him, taking another bite of my food.

'Edward?' Jacob questioned frowning, picking up his food again to continue eating.

'Well, yeah. That is who I got married to' I smirked.

'But..you said you were married to his father' Jake stated.

'Shit..fuck...well..about that..' I began. I had completely forgot about the whole situation of him believing I was married to Carlisle. Jacob looked up at me, and I began shuffling under his gaze. 'Look..its a long story Jake'

'I've got time' he spoke through clenched teeth.

'Fine! I'm having an affair! He's not the father of my babies he just said that so he could stay with me in the hospital and Edward has no idea about the affair and I'd like to keep it that way!' I nearly screamed at him, throwing my cutlery on the table when I noticed an elderly couple look over in our direction. 'Sorry' I spoke, glancing over at them. Jacob turned red, pure anger in his eyes.

'You fucking what? Did I just hear what you said correctly? Don't you remember how my mother died? Don't you remember what happened to my Dad afterwards and what happened to me, Rebecca and Rachel?' He shouted back.

I completely forgot about Sarah, Jake's mom she had died when Jake was 5 and when I was 7. I can't really remember her that well but what I do remember of her is that she was a lovely woman who was always warm and happy to help anybody. We were never told how she died when we younger but as we grew older we learnt that she had died in a major car accident. She had been having an affair with a man named Phil, and was on the way to his house, after Billy had found out about the affair. She had gone to a bar, drank a lot of alcohol and then tried to drive to Phil's. She did get to Phil's house but lost control of the car and crashed straight into the house, with scaffolding on..she had died straight away at the scene of the accident. After that Billy committed suicide and Jake and his sisters ended up living with his grandfather William who moved to Forks soon after so Jake and his sisters wouldn't have to leave.

'I'm..I'm sorry Jake, I know what happened to your mom but I can't help who I fall for. I love him' I stuttered.

'Affairs break people Bella! They ruin lives! Look what it did to my father, let alone to us children! Think about your babies Bella, what will it do to them when they're born? When they grow up and find out their grandfather was or still is fucking their mother? You're going to mess them up! Are you stupid? Did you not learn anything?' He spat venomously.

I burst out crying, and ran out of the cafe leaving my remaining food behind. Jacob got up and ran after me. I got outside, and I felt him grab hold of my arm. 'Bella..'

'Don't touch me asshole! Leave me alone!' I screamed at him, snatching my arm away.

I ran as far away as I could from the restaurant and Jacob Black. I found a quiet and deserted park near by and sat down on the swing, to try and calm my emotions down, I knew it wasn't good for the babies. I needed to get back home to Carlisle, and just cuddle with him. I tried too ring Carlisle but there was no answer and still no texts from him. I began to cry even more, what was wrong? Had something happened? I tried his home number and still no answer. There was only one place left to try..mom and dad's place. I dialled the number and almost straight away someone picked up.

'Hello?' It was dad..great now I've got to find an excuse. I cleared my throat, trying to make my voice sound strong.

'H..hi dad. Is Carlisle with you?' I asked.

'Yeah, let me just get him for you. Is everything okay sweetie? Have you been crying?' I could sense the concern by the sound of his voice.

'I'm f..fine dad. I've ermm..just been a bit sick...ermmm...normal pregnancy sickness I think but I just want to make sure everything is okay with the babies' I stuttered thinking an excuse up on the spot.

'Right' he answered, not quite believing me. I heard him pass the phone to Carlisle, and heard murmuring before Carlisle came to the phone.

'Isabella?' He questioned, and the sound of a door shutting in the background. I broke down instantly as soon as I heard his voice. My safe haven.

'C..can you pick me up please?' I cried. I heard the sound of keys in the background down the phone.

'What's happened? Where are you?' He asked immediately.

'At some park near Jack In The Box, in Port Angeles' I sniffed, moving off the swing to sit with my back against one of the fences, so I could hug my knees.

'Go find somewhere near by more open, so there's people around for me? I'm on my way now. I love you Is.' I heard a beep sound on the phone.

'I'm scared Carlisle...' I whispered weakly through tears but he had already gone.


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Twilight, Angst, Romance