Kingdom Hearts 1. Chapter 1

I glanced at the pale girl reflected in front of me as I reexamined my appearance one more time. I tugged the hem of my blue pleated skirt wishing it was a little longer and silently cursing my chicken legs and small chest. On top of my gawky figure and short height I had porcelain skin, ash blond hair and deep blue eyes, giving me a childlike appearance, half the time I was mistaken for a middle schooler.

I bit my lip in nervousness as I fiddled with my hair. Curse my awkward genes.

"Nervous?" I glanced up and saw my best friend behind me reflected in the mirror. I stole one last glance at my small frame and returned my focus on her reflection.

I wish I hadn't. She was beautiful. Her auburn hair lies perfectly on her ivory skin and complemented her blue eyes nicely. Her uniform filled out in all the right places, she was slender but not a stick like me, and she has curves. I silently kicked myself and again cursed my child like appearance.

She seemed to sense my discouragement and put her arm around my shoulder. "Hey," She said as she hugged my shoulder. "You're beautiful, stop giving yourself a hard time. The boys at Destiny High will love you."

I smiled kindly in response. She always knew how to cheer me up. "Thanks Kairi. I'm just kind of nervous. We both know I am painfully shy. I didn't think I would have to do the new kid thing until College in 2 years."

My Dad had recently taken a job abroad, my mom wanted to go with him for support, which is how I wound up here. My parents would be traveling a lot and wanted me to stay closer to home so they asked our old family friends, Kairi's parents, if they could take me in as their own. I would start school here and finish high school in Destiny Islands. I was totally okay with moving because it meant I got to live with my best friend from birth, but I wasn't looking forward to coming into my junior year 3 months later then the rest of the group. Sure I knew a few people from summer visits, but starting over was always so difficult for an introvert such as myself. Kairi was the opposite, she was always so popular, always had confidence that I didn't necessarily have, but she never thought she was better than me, she never thought she was better than anybody. I loved how kind she was. Everybody loved how kind she was.

Kairi squeezed my shoulder again. "You'll be fine, a few people you already know are in our class, and I will introduce you to anybody else." I hated to rely on her so much but I was also so grateful. "And if you need any more encouragement to go," She briefly paused to build suspense as she leaned in closer. "The twins are in our class." She whispered softly, my face flushed as I gave a slight smile.


	2. Chapter 2

We arrived to class just as the bell rang, Kairi left to find her desk while I approached the female teacher. Her short deep brown hair fell softly on her face, she had a subtle beauty and had a light air about her.

"Hello, I take it your Namine?" She asked kindly as I handed her the pink slip confirming her assumption. "I'm Miss Freedman. Class, we have a new student today." She announced turning her attention to the bulk of the students. "This is Namine Richards, please make her feel welcome. Namine, Please have a seat next to the window." My face flushed as she pointed to my seat. I hoped nobody noticed.

Miss Freedman returned her attention to the board as she began her lecture and I slowly made my way to my newly assigned seat. As I approached I stole small glances at the boy I was assigned to sit next to, the closer I got the more I felt my face heat, I shot a glance at Kairi, who gave me a huge smile and a thumbs up. The boy glanced up at my approach and gave a cute, awkward smile.

"Hi, you're Namine right?" The boy whispered as I sat down. I finally looked directly at his face. He was gorgeous; his blonde, somewhat spikey hair suited him well with his piercing blue eyes and ivory skin to boot. He could easily be a model, and he looked so good in uniform. "You're Kairi's friend? We met a couple summers ago."

"Roxas right?" I tried playing it cool. I knew his name, I thought he was the most beautiful boy I have ever met since the moment we locked eyes. "Yeah I know you're brother Sora a little." I scanned the next row over and spotted the boy I mentioned. Sora, his twin brother was equally as beautiful as Roxas, his brown hair and blue eye complexion would have any girl swooning and from the stories Kairi tell, both brothers often do just that, supposedly there were rumors of the younger students making secret fan clubs for the twins.

Kairi and Sora had been friends since the boys moved to this town sometime in grade school, so I spent a few summers with him as well. Kairi had always had a crush on Sora but never could admit it. Although I wish she would, their personalities complement each other nicely, each of them were so kind and funny. But she refuses to tell him, claiming it will ruin their friendship and she knows he doesn't like her like that, but I don't buy it. I think he secretly likes her too, and I secretly hoped they would end up together someday.

Roxas gave a slight nod. "Right, I'm sorry you know him." Roxas joked. "It's been a while since you've been here hasn't it?"

I nodded. The last time I was here was 3 years ago, not that I meant for it to be that long. "Um yeah, we met last time I was here." I tried saying calmly, hoping I didn't give anything away with my response. My heart was racing. He hadn't really acknowledged me when we first officially met. I had seen him in passing but he never really hung out with his brother, he mostly did his own thing. 3 years ago me, Kairi, Sora and a couple other people saw Roxas at the beach with a few of his friends. Our groups mingled that afternoon and we were introduced, when I gave him my name he nodded and gave his awkward smile, mumbled "nice to meet you" then kept his distance the rest of the afternoon. I was completely taken off guard by his interest in me now.

"I see; you left the next day right?" I looked at him in confusion. How did he know that? "I hung out with Sora and Kairi the next day and you were already gone. I was wondering if you were ever going to come back." He gave a nervous smile and I thought I started to notice his ears turning a little red. "Anyway, um you seem cool, let me know if you ever wanna hang out… or whatever." Roxas grew stiff and turned his body back forward, focusing all his attention on the teacher. I stole another glance at his direction, his ears were defiantly pink.


	3. Chapter 3

The lunch bell rang and students began to shuffle into the halls, Roxas was up and out the door before I could even gather my things. Kairi approached me as I slung my bag across my shoulders.

"So you sit next to Roxas huh," Kairi teased. "I saw you two getting a bit chummy."

I scuffed as we began walking through the halls together. "Hardly, he was just being nice." I wasn't going to let myself believe our encounter was anything more. He was so out of my league and from my understanding, both Roxas and Sora are painfully nice which only made them more popular. It only made sense he was being nice, I would never reach his playing field.

"I don't know he never seems to get _that_ uncomfortable around females, besides his adorable, shy uncomfortable persona he normally displays around females he doesn't really know." I rolled my eyes.

"Hey, I see you and my bro are becoming good friends." Sora flung his arms around both mine and Kairi's shoulders as he entered the conversation.

"We aren't even friends." I protested.

"Sure, sure." Sora mocked. "Anyway, so Riku and I are getting a group of people together to meet at the beach after school if you two are down?" Sora stated directing his question more towards Kairi.

Kairi and I locked eyes. "You wanna go? It will be a good chance for you to meet more people." She reasoned.

"Fine, I'll go with you…" I reluctantly replied. She always knew how to convince me to do anything.

"Yay!" Kairi cheered.

"Okay cool, I gotta tell a few more people so I will text you with the details." Sora said as he slowly began to walk away.

We arrived in the lively lunch room and sat at the nearest empty table. Kairi must have sensed my unease to sit with her normal group of friends. I again was relying on her, but I wasn't ready for her to leave my side just yet.

"Hey mind if I join you?" I looked up and saw a man with fiery red hair and deep green eyes. Kairi nodded in response as he took a seat. At first glance he seemed almost scary and I shifted in my seat.

_Kairi invited him to join us, he can't be that bad._ I thought to myself. I looked at the guy again and locked eyes, I sensed a troubled boy but I could tell he was kind deep down. He gave me a half smile.

"I'm Axel." He introduced himself. "You're Namine I take it?"

"Hey, is this guy bugging you? Cause if he is I can beat him up for ya!" Sora chimed in as he sat down in between me and Kairi as he plopped one of my stolen carrots into his mouth.

"Hey!" I protested. "Those are mine! And he's not bugging anyone." I hit Sora lightly on the shoulder. Axel gave a smile of gratitude in response.

"Hey Roxas, you actually going to sit with us today?" Sora asked. I looked up and saw Roxas with lunch tray in tow. He gave a slight nod as he sat down across the table next to Axel. "Alright so the beach is a-go, however Seifer and his gang might have over heard. It's possible they might show up too." I noticed both Roxas and Axel shift uncomfortably in their seats as they continued to fiddle with their food.

"Who's that?" I asked curiously. And why didn't Roxas and Axel like them?

"Seifer, Rai and Fuu are seniors that like to call themselves the _town disciplinary committee_. They work for a guy named Xemness who graduated a few years ago." Kairi began to explain. Again I noticed how stiff Roxas got when the new name was introduced. "Xemness hardly shows his face, however he likes to send his goons to do his dirty work." As the atmosphere became more stiff, so did I. I was never known to deal with confrontation well. "Hey, you have nothing to worry about." Kairi placed her hand on mine, giving me comfort.

"Yeah, they are all talk." Sora chimed in. "We've never really gotten into any full blown fights, besides we can take them." Sora gave a full-fledged confident smile. I was glad both he and Kairi were my friends. However, while Sora seemed confident Roxas and Axel appeared to still be uneasy.

The bell rang signaling lunch was almost over and that students should return to their classes, ending the conversation at that.

"Alright, so everyone is set for tonight? Riku is getting drinks, Roxas and I are bringing food, you two girls bring your cute selves and we have a party." Sora put his arms around me and Kairi as we herded to class. I never would admit it out loud, but I was beginning to feel a little excited about tonight.


	4. Chapter 4

After many words of encouragement and _many_ outfit changes both me and Kairi arrived on an island just off the shore from the main land just as the sun was getting ready to set. I glanced at Kairi once again; her pink dress looked marvelous on her while my white dress looked plain.

"When you said beach…" I started. "I didn't think we would have to take a small boat to get here."

"It's still a beach." Kairi shot back.

"You guys are here!" Sora exclaimed down the beach. I pushed all negative thoughts aside as both Kairi and I joined the rest of the group.

There were quite a few people I didn't know, most were already drinking and socializing. I linked my arms with Kairi's in nervousness. I recognized a few faces and noted how different everyone looked without their school uniforms as we approached Sora and another boy who had long silver hair.

"Ahh look Riku the girls are here!" Sora hit the silver haired boy.

"How drunk is he Riku?" Kairi addressed the same boy.

"It's just starting to hit him now. It's hard to tell." He replied.

"PSHH!" Sora protested. "I'm not even drunk!" he slung his arm around Kairi. "Kairi, you look so pretty."

"I'm going to go get him some food." Kairi said apologetically as she led him away.

"Sorry, I'm going to go help…" Riku said awkwardly as he jogged to catch up.

"Great…" I said to myself. "Just what I wanted… to be alone in a group of people I don't know…" I scanned the crowd hoping to find one familiar face.

"Here." A red cup appeared in my line of vision. "You look like you could use a drink." I looked over and saw Roxas standing there awkwardly.

"Thanks," I replied as I took the drink and took a sip. It was surprisingly good. "What is this?"

"That's my secret." Roxas teased. "So Sora was pretty drunk huh?" I nodded remembering the encounter. "That guy can never hold his liquor." Roxas shook his head. "Come on," Roxas took my hand as he led me through the crowd. I watched the ground as I tried to hide my red face.

We walked for a ways then ended up stopping at a curved tree overlooking the ocean. Roxas climbed up then reached for my hand as he helped me up as well. We both took a seat on the tree trunk. The sun was beginning to set and the view was amazing.

"I like to come here sometimes to watch the sunset. But there's an even better place in town. I'll have to show you sometime." Roxas said as he stared off into the horizon. I turned my gaze at his profile. My breath was taken from me. He looked so beautiful with his face painted orange and red from the reflection of the setting sun, the sea breeze lightly tossed his blonde hair. I couldn't quite place it but he seemed troubled by something. I fought to take his hand and tried to focus my attention back on the sea, stealing glances from my peripherals as much as I could.

"It's beautiful." I quietly replied after a moment of silence as I focused all of my attention forward and we both continued to stare at the setting sun.

"There you guys are!" Sora's slurred voice rang out behind us bringing me out of my trance. We turned around and saw him struggling to make it up the hill with Kairi, Riku and Axel in tow, laughing behind him. Roxas scuffed as he jumped from the tree. He reached out and helped me down from the tree as well.

"I'm so sorry!" Kairi quietly apologized to me once she reached me. "He kept insisting on finding you guys. It looked so romantic… I'm so sorry!"

I could tell Kairi was really beating herself up and I squeezed her hand for comfort. "It's okay; it wasn't even like that; we were just watching the sun set as friends."

"You guys are so cute!" Sora cut in as he flung his arm around Roxas then his other arm around me bringing us closer together, he smelt of booze. I once again tried to hide my flushing face.

"Well, well, well. Look what we have here." A new voice called out behind us. Everyone around me grew stiff as we turned around and saw three new figures standing at the top of the hill. "It looks like their having a party Rai." The first boy addressed his taller, darker-haired friend. The leader crossed his arms. His blonde hair peeked out from his beanie; he was wearing a cut off jacket to show off his muscles. Rai, the boy he adressed, was more muscular but appeared to have no brain. The third was a girl with short silver hair and incredibly intimidating red eyes.

"Why weren't we invited?" The leader once again spoke.

"You know why you weren't invited Seifer." Riku spoke up. "Why don't you just go? Before Xemness finds out you're causing unnecessary problems." I could feel Roxas' tension grow beside me, I turned to look at him when a deep laugh rang out behind the 'disciplinary committee'. If it were even possible I felt the atmosphere shift even more into discomfort as a tall, tanned, silver haired man stepped up from behind the group blocking our only exit besides the ocean behind us. His aura screamed trouble.

"Unnecessary problems?" The deep voice addressed Riku. "Why, we just came to check up on you guys." The man stopped walking as he shifted his attention towards my direction. "Roxas, Axel." He greeted. "You guys look well." I looked at Roxas and saw his hand form into a fist. "Ah, a new comer." The man addressed me bringing me back to reality. "I'm Xemness. And you are?"

"No one that concerns you." Roxas cut in before I could even think to respond.

Xemness gave a tsk. "Now, now, no need for hostility Roxas. After all we've been through?" I stole another glance at Roxas who looked conflicted before returning my gaze back to the intimidating man who was now approaching me. I was so confused in so many ways. I froze in fear as he reached out and tucked a lose strain of hair behind my ear. "You are quite the eyesore. How old are you? 13?" He leaned in closer to reach my eye level. I froze staring into his yellow eyes I hadn't even noticed before."I like my girls young…"

In a flash Roxas pushed Xemness back and shielded me. My heart dropped, in the same moment I found Axel had also stepped in front of me. I glanced at Riku and Sora who were standing defensively in front of Kairi, ready for anything.

Xemness glared at Roxas for a moment then let out a forced laugh. "Come on now, it's all fun and games. Let's get to the real reason I'm here shall we." He cleared his throat to show his seriousness. "Roxas, Axel… I would like you both to rethink your decision to my proposition, and in return I have changed a few things on my end as well."

Roxas took a step towards Xemness. My heart rate quickened, worried Roxas might hit him. "There is nothing to rethink, I gave you my answer, and I know Axel feels the same. We're done here. Can we go now?"

Xemness stared back at Roxas for a moment before stepping aside. "Sure, go." Roxas grabbed my arm and began to push past the disciplinary committee, dragging me behind him. "This isn't over Roxas…" Roxas stopped walking for just a moment. "I will get you to say yes." I took one last look at Xemness as he watched us all leave.


	5. Chapter 5

We reached the small party and Roxas finally let go of my arm. I looked where he held me and saw the faint mark of a hand print. I was so scared I didn't notice how tight he was holding onto me.

"I need a drink." Roxas said defeated.

"Me too…" Axel agreed. "Anyone else?" everyone nodded in agreement as Roxas and Axel handed the rest of us drinks. The atmosphere was still stiff; the group just looked blankly ahead, replaying what just happened while they sipped on their new drinks.

"Look, let's just forget about those guys." I spoke up. I wanted to forget just as much as the rest of them. "We came here for a good time so let's have one."

"She's right." Sora stammered. "It's the weekend, let's all get shit face drunk and have a great time!"

"YEAH!" The group cheered as we clanked our red cups together.

"Roxas there you are!" a female voice called out. A cute brunet girl ran up to Roxas with a pudgy black haired boy and a cute blonde boy right behind her. "We have been looking for you!" She giggled as she tugged playfully at Roxas' arm.

"What's up you guys?" Roxas smiled. All traces of the awkward uncomfortable Roxas I knew was gone.

"Who are those people?" I quietly asked Kairi as the 4 of them talked. I watched their encounter and quickened my drinking pace.

"That girl is Olette, the blonde is Hayner and the other boy is Pence. They're Roxas' best friends besides Axel." Kairi explained. "Axel is Roxas' best friend but these guys are a close second." I stared at Olette and a pang of jealousy rang through me. How I wished I was that confident. Again my drinking pace quickened.

The rest of the night went smoothly. The sun set and the fire started. The group got smaller as more people had to go home. The drinks continued to pour. Before long all that was left were Kairi, me and the twins. We sat around the fire drinking and laughing.

"God Sora, you're crazy!" Kairi said in between laughs as Sora finished his story. "What time is it?"

"Two AM" Roxas replied.

"We should probably think about heading back." Kairi stated.

"Nooo!" Sora drunkenly whined.

"I especially need to get you home." Kairi shot back. "Come on, get up." She slumped his arm around her shoulder as she led him towards the shore. "I'm going to take him home; you guys want to come with me?" She asked us.

"I think I might stay." Roxas replied. "If you want to come back you can if not there's the spare boat on the other side of the island."

"So Namine can stay with you then," Kairi said happily. "You should show her the fort." Kairi turned around and continued to head for the boat we came on. "Have a great night you two! Call me if you need anything Namine!" Kairi called back to us.

The air grew chilly; I took a sip of my drink as I watched the dying fire. I racked my brain trying to think of anything to say. It was just the two of us now, I had to be clever, but my mind was hazy due to the alcohol.

"So um, you want to see the fort?" Roxas asked awkwardly.

"Um sure…" I stood up and dizziness overtook me. I hadn't realized how drunk I was until I stood up. Roxas reached out and corrected my balance with his hand.

"Are you okay?" He asked. "How much have you had to drink?" He looked at me with concerned eyes.

I couldn't look away, his blue eyes were so captivating and my drunkenness didn't want to look anywhere else. "A couple of drinks." I finally slurred.

"Come on, I'll help you." Roxas put his arms around my shoulder and began to lead me to the tree line. "You're freezing. Namine, why didn't you say anything?" He quickly removed his jacket and placed it around my shoulders. "Come on let's get you someplace warm.

After a little bit of walking we arrived at a small waterfall, Roxas continued along the outskirts of the small pond and pushed towards the rock wall behind it. We reached the wall and I noticed a small door, he opened it revealing a small dark place. Roxas found a lantern stashed away and lit it revealing walls made of rock, dirt and some roots from the trees above.

"Is it safe in here?" I asked as I soaked in my surroundings.

Roxas gave a genuine laugh. "Yeah, it's safe. Here take a seat." Roxas lead me to the floor slowly then he lit a small fire inside. "This is the fort." He spoke as he worked. "We've been coming here since we were kids. More Sora, Kairi and Riku than me but still… it's homey." Roxas stared off for a moment and I thought I saw a look of sorrow. I wanted so bad to unlock his secrets.

Roxas finished with the fire and took a seat next to me, wrapping his arms around my cold shoulders. The jacket helped but his body warmth was so relaxing. I closed my eyes and breathed him in. He smelt so good. I thought about everything that happened today and remembered the scary encounter from earlier.

"Hey." I started, pushed by my liquid courage. "You know Xemness?" I asked bluntly.

Roxas gave a small sigh. "Yeah. I do." He replied dryly.

I was too drunk to care so I kept pursuing. "How?"

There was a moment of silence and I thought Roxas might be mad for my pushiness. "I used to work for him." Roxas finally answered as he stared off into the fire like he was searching for answers to questions he didn't even know himself.

"You used to be part of the town disciplinary committee?" I asked confused and a little shocked. I couldn't see him being a part of that.

Roxas finally looked at me and I saw the pain in his eyes. "There are worse things the disciplinary committee."

I stared back into his eyes. "Like what?" I asked quietly. I wasn't sure if I even wanted to know.

Roxas smiled kindly at me but I could still see the hurt behind it. "That is a question for another day, it's late and you're pretty drunk; just rest for now." The tone of his voice was soft but left no room for any more questions of Xemness.

"We aren't…. going back to the main island?" I hiccupped.

I saw Roxas' smile become more genuine as he looked at me. "You're too drunk for that." He joked. But he was right. I was pretty drunk, my world and thoughts were equally shaky; I was in no shape to go anywhere. "Come on. I'll keep you warm." Roxas opened up his arms wide allowing me to use him as my pillow.

I pushed past the spinning I was experience and focused on Roxas' steady breathing, I could feel the tiredness hit and I slowly began to fall asleep. "Thank you for protecting me earlier." I said with heavy breaths, fighting the last urges that were pulling me to my dreams. There was silence and I thought for a moment that maybe Roxas had fallen asleep, or even perhaps I had.

"No problem." Roxas finally spoke. There was another moment of silence and I felt Roxas shift a little. "You're worth protecting." He whispered. I tried to process what he just said, tried so hard to open my eyes but it was too late, my consciousness faded and I drifted off to sleep, convincing myself that all of this was just some crazy dream.


	6. Chapter 6

**Authors Note: I thought I should take the time and thank the people following the story. I started wwriting this on a whim so any feedback is welcome :) I would like to apologize in advance, I am still writing frequently however my wifi access is limited so it hit or miss on how often I can post. Please feel free to comment or even pm me with any comments or questions. Please enjoy ~ Kelsey**

Roxas woke me up at the early hours of the morning. Light was shining through the cracks and holes of the fort. My head pounded and my stomach churned. I felt so groggy, I clung on to Roxas legs trying desperately to just fall back asleep.

"Come on sleepy head, I need to get you home." Roxas laughed.

I groaned in response. "Can't we just stay here?" I pleaded.

"Come on, its 5:30, if I keep you out here Kairi is going to kill me." Roxas helped me as I begrudgingly got up. I shivered at the cool, crisp ocean morning.

"Remind me to never drink again." I sighed as I rubbed the bridge of my nose.

Roxas laughed again. "Will do, now come on."

Roxas led me out the door and headed through the woods. It was way too cold and not enough sun coverage; I could feel the goose bumps all over my legs. We finally made it through the trees and wound up on another beach where a small row boat awaited. We climbed aboard and Roxas began rowing. I sat opposite of him with my arms wrapped around myself. I tried desperately to look at anything but him. I finally gave in and stole a glance and noticed he was looking at me too.

"What?" I asked. "Do I have something on my face?" I panicked as I swiped at my face.

Roxas gave me a beautiful smile that made me stop; I hadn't seen that smile before. "Don't worry, I was just thinking, you are nothing what I thought you would be."

My cheeks turned pink. "How did you think I would be?" I asked quietly, hoping I sounded confident.

Roxas just smiled in response, leaving the rest to my imagination. We continued in silence but it wasn't uncomfortable. My head hurt too much to continue any conversation, I was grateful for the silence.

We arrived on shore and Roxas began to walk me home. I once again began to reply the events of the day before. I swallowed hard as I tried to gain to courage to ask something that had been bothering me.

"Roxas?" I finally asked as we walked.

"Hmm?" Roxas responded as he continued to look ahead.

"What did Xemness want you to do for him?" I asked hesitantly. I watched Roxas for a reaction, he seemed to be contemplating something and I worried I said something I shouldn't have.

"It doesn't matter. I'm not going to do it." He responded dryly.

"It seems like it matters…" I started.

"Don't worry about it." Roxas cut in with a bit of aggression in his tone. "This doesn't concern you." I shut my mouth tight, too scared to say anything else that might upset him. Roxas sighed. "Look, my problems are my problems. I don't want you to get involved, you'll only get hurt." I looked down and Roxas stopped and grabbed my shoulders, forcing me to look at him. "I don't want to see you get hurt. Just please, stay out of it okay?" I searched his eyes and saw so much sorrow and pain. I could see him pleading with me. "Please…" He pleaded once more.

"Okay…" I replied reluctantly. I didn't want to give up but I knew now was not the time.

Roxas sighed with relief. "You're house is only a couple more blocks, I'm going home. I'll see you at school Monday."

Roxas turned and walked away before I could even respond. I watched his back as he left then continued on home where I slowly climbed into bed without even bothering to change. The house was sound asleep as it was still early in the morning. I tried closing my eyes but all I could see were Roxas' sorrowful blue eyes and the way he walked away. I knew I shouldn't have said anything, but I couldn't help myself. Something about that boy makes me want to unlock all his secrets. I knew I would be asking more questions in the future.

Somewhere amongst my thoughts sleep found me. I found myself waking up to Kairi raiding my closet.

"What are you doing?" I asked half asleep.

"Looking for an outfit." Kairi responded as she kept digging.

I sat up slowly as I watched. "Can I ask you something?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes.

"Sure, what's up?" Kairi continued.

"It's about Roxas…" Kairi stopped and looked at me. "I just want to know everything I can about him…" I reasoned quietly.

"I'll tell you everything I know, but I don't know that much myself. He keeps to himself, he never lets anyone in." Kairi explained as she took a seat. "The girls in school all drool over him, he's the mysterious brother, his shyness almost makes the girls want him that much more. And the fact that he has a darker past… well I'm sure you get what I'm saying."

"Of course, girls love a complicated man they can get to open up to them and change their life for the better, the bad boy type."

Kairi nodded as she continued. "I've known him since he moved here but he was always so shy, at first he would occasionally play with me, Sora and Riku but by the time middle school came he stopped coming around. By 7th grade he met Xemness and Xemness manipulated Roxas into doing what he wanted, eventually Roxas started working with Xemness, which is where he met Axel. I'm not sure what they did, but they were trouble. About 3 years ago Roxas must have woken up because he told Xemness off and left bringing Axel with him. That's when he became friends with Ollete, Hayner and Pence. I thought Xemness gave up on the two but after last night I'm not so sure. Whatever Xemness wants them to do… it's serious. He has a bunch of other cronies to do his bidding, there's something specific he wants Roxas to do. And because Roxas and Axel are a package deal…" Kairi trailed off. "That's all I really know. Sora doesn't even really know about that part of Roxas. Every time he would ask, Roxas told him to 'mind your own business' and that 'it doesn't concern you'." I scuffed at the similar response I got earlier this morning. "Sora let it go, he's just happy Roxas is finally over that part of his life."

I contemplated everything Kairi told me. I thought this would satisfy me but I only want to know more. I was aware of the mess that was Roxas' past but I was drawn to him, I needed to know more. I wanted to do anything I could to help him, even if I was unsure of why.

"I can tell that wasn't enough for you." Kairi said as she watched me process. "Look, Namine, you have to be careful. I don't want to see you get hurt."

"I just want to help…" I explained.

"I know your intentions are in the right place, but if you continue down this path, he will hurt you." I had never heard Kairi speak so poorly of someone before, it shocked me to my core.

"He's my friend now, friends help each other. Whatever is in his past, I can tell its haunting him. I just want him to have someone to share that burden with."

Kairi gave me a wayward glance. "Are you sure you're doing this because you are friends? Or is there something more?"

My heart skipped a beat as the question synced in. "Of course we are just friends." Kairi accepted my answer and left me to my thoughts as she returned to the closet. As she chose clothes I brushed off any idea that maybe there were deeper feelings in my reasoning to help this poor damaged boy.


	7. Chapter 7

The weekend came and went and before I knew it, it was Monday again. I looked at my pale legs as I arrived with Kairi to school. The classroom was buzzing with students socializing before the class began. I looked over to my seat and saw Roxas sitting alone in his.

"Go talk to him." Kairi encouraged me as I wrestled with the decision in my mind.

I smiled in appreciation before I walked to my seat. "Hi." I said shyly as I sat.

Roxas looked up from his desk and nodded. "Hey." He said coolly.

I fiddled awkwardly in my seat as the tension grew. This wasn't what I expected. "Look, I didn't mean to pry…" I began slowly to test the waters. Roxas was unmoved. "I just wanted to help…"

"I don't need help." Roxas cut in quickly.

"I know that. That was bad phrasing." I cleared my throat hoping to find more courage in my cough. "What I mean is, I want to get to know you, I don't know what happened in your past but I'm here for you. You seem so young to be this sad. I just want to help fill that lonely void in your heart."

Roxas looked up at me with wide eyes. I stared back into the sea. He opened his mouth to say something but was cut off by the morning bell signaling the beginning of class.

Shortly after Miss Freedman began her lecture, a piece of paper landed on my desk. I looked up at the suspect who was nonchalantly staring blankly ahead at the teacher. I opened to piece of paper carefully.

Meet me behind the courtyard during lunch

I quickly tucked the note in my bag and tried to focus my attention on the lesson as I counted down the hours to lunch.

The lunch bell finally rang, just like before Roxas was out of the classroom in a flash. Kairi joined me at my desk as I gathered the rest of my things.

"So what do you want to do for lunch today?" Kairi started. "We can go off campus..."

"Actually." I cut in. "I will catch up with you." Kairi gave me a quizzical look. I handed her the note I had tucked in my bag.

"Oooh a note, Is this from Roxas?" She asked me teasingly. I nodded. "I would go with you... but I think he wants you to go alone..." She shot me a nervous smile, getting a little more serious. "Be careful okay?"

"I will. I promise." I gave her a quick hug before I rushed out of the classroom making a bee-line towards the courtyard.

The small path leading towards the back part of the courtyard was a little difficult to find. I glanced at my watch as I trekked through the overgrown path. There was only 15 minutes of lunch remaining. As the path finally cleared I saw Roxas kicking a rock with his hands tucked safely in his pockets. He glanced up at my approach and for a moment I thought he looked relieved.

"You're late." He said dryly.

"I had trouble finding the place." I responded in the same tone.

I finally looked at my surroundings. Roxas was standing a few feet from a small creek. The tree line separated the small cove from the school without being too far. With total privacy I was surprised this spot wasn't used more often by hormonal teenagers looking for some action.

"I don't get you." Roxas finally spoke drawing my eyes back at his stunning profile. He stared at me quizzically, trying to figure me out.

"What don't you get?" I tried to remain calm under his deciphering gaze.

"Why do you want to know me?"

I was caught off guard by his question. Why did I want to get to know him? I wasn't even sure myself. "I want to be your friend." I answered, unsure if that was even true.

"Why do you want to know me?" He asked again, slower this time. He knew my answer wasn't really how I felt.

"I don't know." I answered honestly. I took a breath trying to calm my flushing cheeks as I prepared myself for what I was about to say. "I don't know why, but for some reason, I feel drawn to you. I can't stop thinking about you..."

Roxas cut me off. "If all this is, is a crush..."

This time I interrupted. "It's not a crush." my heart skipped a beat. "It's hard to explain, it's like you are pulling me in, into this darkness... and I..." I paused unsure of how to continue.

"You want to bring light into that darkness." Roxas stated quietly explaining exactly how I felt, he contemplated my words then looked up at me once more. Neither of us sure of what to say we just stared at each other. I took a step towards him. Closing the small distance that was between us. He took his hand out of his pocket and reached up towards my face, just as he was about to touch me he quickly returned his hand to his side. "This... it can't happen."

"What can't happen?" I asked in short breath. I hadn't even realized I had been holding my breath.

"This, whatever _this_ is. Please, for your own sake, stop asking questions about my past. It's not who I am anymore." He stared at me, silently begging me to listen to his plea.

I contemplated a reply but my thoughts were cut short from the bell signaling lunches end.

Roxas left for the path, leaving me behind with my thoughts. I took a deep breath as a turned and followed the path to its exit a moment later. As the path cleared into the courtyard I scanned ahead spotting Roxas' back amongst the other students heading towards their assigned classes.

"Did you just come back from there with Roxas?" An insecure female voice drew in my attention making me lose sight of Roxas' frame up ahead. I looked in front of me and saw Ollete with a worried expression. "I saw him come from there a second ago, and then you. Were you back there with him?"

In that moment I realized Ollete was in love with Roxas. My heart ached for her. Unsure of what to say, the silence spoke for me. She looked down, I'm sure to try and hide how hurt she was. "Look, it's not like that..." I started, trying my best to comfort her. "We were just talking." Ollete looked back up at me with slight relief. I guess teenagers do sometimes go back there.

"Do you like him?" Ollete asked cautiously.

I opened my mouth, again unsure of how to answer. "We're just friends." I said slowly, this response sounded weirder and weirder every time I said it. Ollete seemed to accept it.

"I don't mean to pry..." She tried explaining herself.

"It's okay, I understand." I gave her a kind smile. "I got to get to class."

I left Ollete behind as I absentmindedly made my way to class. Consumed by the conversation that just took place.

_"Stop asking about my past. It's not who I am anymore." _Roxas' words replayed over and over in my mind. It almost sounded like he was trying to convince himself of that as well as myself. Those words replayed in my mind like a broken record for the rest of the day as I tried my best to figure out what could possibly be in this boys past that could haunt him this much.

**A/N: if you are enjoying the story so far, please feel free to leave a review :) any feedback is welcome.**


	8. Chapter 8

The next day Kairi and I arrived at school with the students even more a-buzz than usual. As we approached the entrance we saw two fellow students raising a banner above the doorway.

_Tickets for this year's Fate Beneath the Stars are now on sale!_

Kairi squealed with excitement beside me.

"What's _Fate beneath the stars_?" I asked confused, all the other girls around us shared the same reaction as my best friend.

"It's the first dance of the school year!" Kairi exclaimed. "It's a big deal, usually we have the dance then afterwards we all go to the beach and have an after party. It's so much fun!"

"The sign says its next week, should we be worried we don't have dates?"

Kairi scuffed in response. "All the guys wait to ask the girls once the signs are posted so they don't seem too eager. Don't worry, you will be asked." Kairi said confidently.

We walked towards our class, talking of our plans for the dance, as the students grew louder. As we turned the corner I saw Sora standing there holding a bouquet of white roses. The halls were filled with roses as well. Sora slowly approached Kairi and gave her the bouquet.

"Kairi Jones." Sora spoke clearly. "I would be honored if you fulfilled my destiny and joined me beneath the stars." The crowd oohed and awed at the sweet proposal.

"I would love to." Kairi happily replied. She was glowing with happiness. Although I was happy for her, I couldn't help but feel a little jealous.

The three of us entered the classroom. I left Kairi and Sora and headed for my desk. They seemed so happy and flirty I didn't want to interrupt. Roxas, as usual, was already at his desk.

"Hey." I said cautiously.

"Hey. I take it he asked her to the dance?" Roxas replied as he nodded his head towards his brother and my best friend. All traces of coldness he was giving me the day before was gone.

"Yeah, right before we got here. You should have been there." I tried to hide my jealousy. I looked at Roxas, for a moment I imagined what I would do if he had been there with roses asking me to the dance. I looked at my feet as I pushed the thought out of my head.

"Are you going to go to the dance?" Roxas asked. I looked up, hopeful.

"I'm not sure, are you?" I replied, egger for his response.

"I don't know yet." We locked eyes and stared at each other for a moment.

"Thanks for helping me with those flowers." Sora appeared from seemingly nowhere as he gave a playful pat to Roxas on the back.

"Impeccable timing as ever Sora." Roxas said sarcastically as pinched the bridge of his nose for a moment. "It was no problem, I'm glad she said yes." Roxas gave his brother a genuine smile.

"How did you manage to find that many white roses?" I asked curiously.

"I have my ways." Roxas replied teasingly.

"You are so mysterious." I teased back.

"Awwhh you guys are so cute!" Sora teased. Instantly my face turned a bright shade of pink, I looked down at my desk to hide the embarrassment. "You should ask her to the dance Roxas, then we could all go together! We can get a limo or something…" Sora started imagining the fun we could have together attending the dance in a group. As he went off I slowly peeked up at Roxas, who was equally as pink, doing his best to ignore his older brother.

"Dude!" Roxas finally cut in. "Seriously?"

Sora took the hint and held up his arms in surrender. "Sorry, sorry, I'll leave you both to it then…" Sora gave Roxas a wink and a smile then walked back to his seat.

"Sorry about him." Roxas ran his hands through his hair slowly, he looked so sexy. "He doesn't really know when to shut up." Miss Freedman entered the classroom bringing most discussions to a close. "We'll talk more at lunch." Roxas finally whispered as he pulled out his notebook for class.

Again I found myself staring at the clock, waiting for lunch to begin.

Lunch finally came, Roxas was the first out of the classroom, as always, so I found myself at a table with Kairi, Sora, Riku and Axel. I did my best to stay in the conversation but I knew I was distracted. I caught myself glancing at the clocks and doors constantly.

_Roxas did say we would talk more at lunch. However it's a bit difficult to talk if you aren't even here…_ I thought to myself as I stabbed my peas.

A squeal erupted two tables down, I looked and saw Ollete gushing with some other girls; it was obvious she had gotten some pretty good news. I felt another pang in my heart, I was trying to figure out why but my thoughts were interrupted as I noticed the pale blonde boy walking my direction. My mood perked up as he approached.

"Hey Roxas, take a seat." Riku greeted.

"Thanks, but um… Namine," Roxas moved his attention to me. "Walk with me for a minute?"

"Sure…" I tried to calm my racing heart as I stood up from my seat. I gave a quick hopeful glance to Kairi, who returned my gaze with an excited one. Roxas led me outside and we began to walk the grounds. "So where we going?" I mustered up the courage to ask.

"Nowhere specific. I just didn't feel like being in there." Roxas glanced down at me and gave me a breath taking half smile.

I took a breath to try and calm my rapid heartbeat. "So…" I started "did you ever figure out if you were going to that dance or not?"

"Um yeah…" Roxas started awkwardly "I actually asked Ollete."

My heart sank. So that's why she was so excited. "Oh." I tried my best to hide my disappointment. "That's cool."

Apparently I didn't fool Roxas because he stopped walking and looked into my eyes. "Hey, I didn't mean to make you sad or anything… we are just going as friends."

"Of course." I tried sounded confident but my voice gave me away. I cleared my throat and tried again. "Besides we're just friends anyway right?"

Roxas stared into my eyes, like he was looking for answers to questions only he knew. "Right. Friends."

"Anyway, I think I'm going to go back, I have to finish some homework before class." I took a couple steps back, distancing myself.

"Got it. Well we'll catch up later then." Roxas looked down at his feet as he turned around and continued walking.

"Hey Roxas…" I called stopping him in his tracks. "About Ollete, be careful with her."

"What do you mean?" he replied.

"I think she cares for you… more than a friend, if you two truly are _just friends_ you might want to make that clear to her." I turned around and booked it back towards the lunchroom before Roxas could say anything more.

I bit my lip as I walked the halls, thinking about everything that happened. Not paying attention, I managed to run smack dab into someone as I turned the corner.

"Ow!" I rubbed my head as I sat on the cold floor.

"I'm so sorry!" I looked up and saw a helping hand and firery red hair.

"Axel… I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention." I stammered

"No I'm sorry." We both laughed at the awkwardness. "Actually, I was kind of looking for you."

"For me? Why?"

"Well, the dance is coming up… and I was wondering if anyone had asked you yet?"

My mind flashed to Roxas.

_"I actually asked Ollete."_

I shook my head.

"Would you like to go… with me?" He asked timidly.

I felt a pang in my heart as I looked back into Axel's teal eyes. He has been nice to me, maybe I didn't quite feel that way towards Axel, but it felt unfair if I didn't at least try.

"Um, sure. I would love to go with you." As soon as I said the words Axel's face lit up.

"Great! I can't wait!" Axel smiled. "I got to get to class, we'll talk later about the details!" Axel called out as he began to walk away.

"I can't wait either…" I sighed quietly to myself, as again, my mind flashed to Roxas.


	9. Chapter 9

"So you're going with Axel?" Kairi asked me confused. She leaned back and joined me on my bed, laying opposite of each other but our heads touched, we both stared at the ceiling. "I thought for sure you were going with Roxas. Didn't he ask you at lunch?"

"He's going with Ollete. He just wanted company on his walk I guess." I reasoned.

"He's going with Ollete?" Kairi sounded shocked. "Well that's a first. I'm sorry," Kairi changed tones. "I really wanted him to ask you." Kairi pouted a little bit.

"It's not that big of a deal that he's going with someone else. I don't even like him like that." Kairi scuffed. "What I don't!" I protested. "Besides, I'm more worried about Ollete than anything."

"What do you mean you're worried about Ollete? You worried Roxas is going to get feelings for her?" Kairi teased. For a moment my heart sank.

I hadn't even thought of that. I brushed off the thought and got back to the problem at hand. "I am about 95% sure Ollete has feelings for Roxas."

Kairi shot up and looked down at me. "Really? Well that's a tough one, poor girl. I hope it works out for their friendship. I would hate for this to ruin that." Leave it to Kairi to be concerned over someone she doesn't even know that well. "So I guess that means Roxas won't be going to prom with us then? Or is it okay if we invite Ollete and him to join?"

The thought of seeing them together at the dance didn't exactly excite me. "Invite them. I see no reason why you shouldn't." I said confidently.

"Are you trying to convince me, or yourself?" Kairi asked.

"Convince you of what?"

"That you don't have feelings for him." Kairi folded her arms as she continued to look down on me.

This time, I sat up. "I'm not trying to convince anybody anything! It's not like that okay?"

"Mmmhmm." Kairi hummed. "Come on, let's go dress shopping!"

Kairi managed to drag me into town towards the shopping district. Tons of shops were open and it was bustling with classmates. We walked through the district admiring the shops, trying to decide where to start first. Kairi stopped for a moment to admire some earrings while I stood a few feet away drooling over the expensive necklaces I knew I would never be able to afford.

I continued to stare as I felt a new presence next to me. "Any that catch your eye?" A deep voice whispered in my ear. I remembered the voice faintly and I turned to see yellow eyes and silver hair beside me. My body stiffened.

"Not particularly." I managed to say, hoping I sounded confident. I looked around hoping to find Kairi, or anybody I knew, but was sadly disappointed.

"No need to look so scared Angel. I'm not going to hurt you. Do you remember my name?"

"Xemness." I said dryly. I straightened hoping I would appear strong.

Xemness smiled in return. "Good. I'm simply here, to apologize. We seemed to have met on the wrong foot, I'm here to remedy that."

"Why?" I couldn't manage more than that, my legs were beginning to shake as I tried with all my might to not let it show.

"Roxas seems to taken a liking to you." Xemness reached out and grabbed some of my hair. "I can see why, you're pretty cute. He has never laid a hand on me before, and then you come along…" He dropped my hair and glared into my eyes. I did my best to not blink. "I would like you to cooperate with me here. I believe you are the key to get Roxas back under my employment. He won't listen to my reason, so maybe he will listen to yours."

"And what makes you think I will help you?" I managed in my most assertive voice. I mentally high fived myself for sounding so brave.

Xemness gave me a smile then leaned in. "And what makes you think you have a choice?" he whispered. My heart fell and my face turned white. Xemness took a step back. "I'm joking, I'm joking. Think about it Angel." Xemness took a few more steps back then disappeared into the crowd.

_"__I'm joking, I'm joking." _For some reason I didn't think he was joking.


	10. Chapter 10

The night of the dance was among us and the events at the market seemed like a far off dream. I decided it was best not to say anything. Everything about that creep was bad news and I didn't want anything to do with him. I refused to be his messenger. I was also afraid that telling Roxas anything might result in him mad at me for prying once again. It was better left unsaid.

I once again found myself staring at my reflection as I reevaluated my appearance one last time before departure. I wore a teal mermaid dress, it flowed nicely giving me the appearance of curves. The upper half was a laced corset that managed to squeeze what little boobs I had into decent cleavage. My hair flowed down over my shoulder, with the help of some decent extensions, it curled nicely to flow with my dress.

For once I actually felt confident in my skin. I looked hot.

I joined Kairi in the living room to take pictures with her for our parents. Kairi was stunning tonight. With a classy, light pink, backless dress that almost didn't look school appropriate, she looked sexy as hell. The dress flowed nicely and had a nice slit on the side to reveal just enough leg that still gave her a look of elegance to go along with her elegant up-do, and with all the lace and shimmer that flowed throughout the dress and parted at the breast to show just a bit of cleavage, I knew guys would be ogling over her all night.

"Well I wonder who you've gotten all sexy for." I teased Kairi.

"I don't know what you're talking about. But thank you!" Kairi gushed. "I know it's a little much but do you think he'll like it? I worked really hard getting everything perfect, don't even get me started about my hair!"

"Kairi, I guarantee a jaw drop. You look sexy! The hard work definitely paid off!"

"I could say the same for you. You look totally hot in that dress! Axel is going to die!" My mind went to Roxas, I pondered how he might react once he saw me. The knock on the door brought me back to reality. "Oh I think our dates are here!"

Kairi's mother let the boys in. As they entered the room both boys stopped in their tracks and gazed at our beauty. Sora's jaw dropped and I gave Kairi a knowing look. Axel just stared like he was in shock.

"Wow. Just wow." Axel managed to say.

"Hot damn!" Sora mumbled as he sized his date up. "Kairi, I must say, you are looking as beautiful as ever." Sora gave a chivalrous bow.

We took more pictures with our dates then finally managed to escape outside. We all piled into Sora's Chevy Blazer and we made our way into town. The dance was held at a vineyard outside of town, since the air was warm enough the dance was being placed outside underneath the stars. The area was lit up by white Christmas lights and the air felt romantic. We checked in our coats and made our way to the tables where we were meeting the rest of our friends.

Riku and his date were waiting but my attention was on Roxas and Ollete. Ollete was wearing a strapless ball gown that looked good on her, she was looking at Roxas lovingly as she flirted relentlessly. I once again felt a jealous prickle in my chest. I looked back at Roxas and noticed he was looking at me too, eyes wide. I looked back at Axel satisfied with the reaction.

We sat around the table for a moment chit chatting and taking more pictures as a group. I tried not to, but the whole time I found myself stealing glances at Roxas and Ollete's endless flirting. Finally pictures were done and a slow song began. One by one we were lead to the dance floor by our dates.

I took Axel's hand as he began to take the lead. Our bodies swayed together. I looked up into Axels teal eyes. We were really close.

"Can I just say, you look beautiful tonight." Axel stated.

My face flushed. "Thanks." I managed. Uncomfortable by our close proximity, I averted my eyes and glanced out into the crowd. A few feet away I spotted Ollete resting her head on Roxas' shoulder as they swayed to the beat. Again I felt that familiar pang in my chest.

"I'm sorry I'm not him." Axel said kindly.

I looked back at Axel. "What do you mean?"

"I'm not dumb you know. I see the way you look at him." Axel nodded in Roxas' direction.

"It's not like that." I retorted.

Axel gave out a slight laugh. "Sure it's not." Axel sighed. "Look, I know I'm not Roxas but I like you, a lot. I would never hurt you like that. I knew you wanted to go with him, he knew you wanted to go with him." Axel's words sent a shock through me.

"He knew I wanted to go with him?" I wasn't sure if I was questioning his words or actually asking the question.

"He knew, but he thought it would be best to take Ollete." Axel said solemnly. "Just think about it okay? If you get tired of Roxas… I'll be here." The song ended and Axel released me from his arms. I stared at him, unsure of what to say. Unable to manage the awkward silence I managed to escape to the punch bowl.

I contemplated what Axel said as I poured my drink.

"Mind if I join you for a moment?" I looked over and saw Roxas reaching for the punch bowl.

"Sure." I said quietly. I watched him as he poured his drink. He joined my side and began watching the crowd dance. I continued to stare at his profile as he sipped on his drink. A new song started to play and Roxas set down his drink and held out his hand.

"Care to dance?" I accepted and he led me to the dance floor. He began to move and I followed his lead. He was a surprisingly good dancer. He led me elegantly and proper, I wondered how he managed to develop this dying skill. "You were right." I looked up at Roxas in response. "Ollete has feelings for me. I confronted her right as we started dancing."

"Oh." I managed. Unsure of what else to say and what my heart was feeling.

"She told me she loved me." I searched his eyes for any sign of his answer. "I told her I couldn't return her feelings, she is a dear friend but, I think she knew that I couldn't return those feelings." He stared into my eyes as we moved. "Namine…" My pulse quickened as he said my name. "You look so beautiful tonight…"

My heart sank into my shoes, in that moment I realized at last how much I wanted Roxas. No matter what his past was, no matter what he had done, I wanted to be with him. I looked into the raging sea, I wanted to unlock its secrets and calm the storm that was his life.

Roxas stared at me a moment longer, then let me go. The song continued to play but Roxas was farther away, leaving me behind on the dance floor. I stood there for a moment, shocked. I picked up the hem of my dress and followed the blonde hair as it traveled further and further away from the dance floor.

He stopped a ways in front of me, standing in front of a white gazebo. I stopped as well.

"Why did you follow me?" He said, his back still towards me.

"Why did you run away?" I retorted. He turned and looked at me. His eyes pierced through me, and my heart swelled with emotion. Why did he have to look at me like that?

"When you look at me like that…" Roxas echoed my thoughts. He stepped towards me and reached out and grabbed my face, pulling me towards him. Peering down at me, my pulse quickened. We were so close. I closed my eyes anticipating the gap between us to close. But it never came. A moment passed and I finally opened my eyes. Roxas still stared, looking sad. "I'm so sorry." He released his hold on me and took a few steps back. "I can't…"

My heart sank. My eyes began to water as I realized what was happening. "Why?" I choked out.

He looked at me pained, and for a moment he said nothing. "Because…" He finally started "I don't… I don't want you…"

My heart shattered. My head swirled as my thoughts ripped my heart apart. I tried holding back tears as I looked at the dejected look on Roxas' face.

"I'm sorry…" He began.

"Don't." I cut him off. I wiped away a tear that escaped. "Don't you dare pity me. You know what, thank you. You made it really easy for me to walk away." I turned around and headed back to the dance, ignoring Roxas' protests behind me.

**A/N: I hope you enjoyed the chapter! Things are getting pretty intense now. I know the direction I want to go but unsure how to really get there so chapters might be more hit or miss in terms of when I will post.**

**But anyway, if you enjoy reading so far, let me know what you think! Any feedback will be greatly appreciated! Review or PM :) ~ Kelsey**


	11. Chapter 11

I hid in the bathroom stall as I tried to calm my broken heart. I hadn't realized just how strong my feelings were for Roxas until I heard those four earth-shattering words.

_"I don't want you…" _The moment replayed in my mind. It was difficult getting a grip on my emotions, as the tears continued to flow. I took in my surroundings and scuffed at the cliché of it all. I heard the bathroom door opened and I covered my mouth to disguise my muffled tears.

"Namine….? Are you in here?" I recognized the voice instantly, it was the last person I wanted to see me like this. "Someone told me you were in here… _crying_. Come on, talk to me."

I held back tears as I listened to the pleas. I took a final breath and opened the door to Kairi's worried face.

"Oh honey!" She pulled me into a hug and let me cry into her chest. "What happened?"

I briefly recapped the events that just occurred, explaining Roxas rejected me, however I left out his cruel words. I knew if I told her, her night would come to an end and she would focus only on me, that detail could wait until later.

"Oh sweetie, I'm _so_ sorry!" She hugged me again after I finished my story. "Do you want to go home? I can take you home, and we can just forget all about him, we can watch movies…"

I stopped her before she could go any further, "Stop, I'm okay! I just needed to cry it out." I meant it, after talking it out, the tears had finally let up, and I was finally getting a grasp on my emotions. "Besides, I don't want to interrupt you and Sora. This could be the day you two finally start dating."

Kairi smiled at me. "How 'bout this, we wrap up this dance, head to the beach and get you nice and drunk so you can forget all this ever happened?"

"Not that I condone self-medicating, but yes please, that sounds nice!" I laughed. This was why Kairi was my best friend.

We left the bathroom and did exactly as Kairi said, we gathered our dates and headed to the island. A few people joined us shortly after and the party gradually started growing. As the party grew the more I drank.

About my fifth or sixth drink in Kairi approached me nervously. "Namine, I just got word… Roxas is here." My heart beat quickened. "I can ask him to leave?"

"No… it's fine." It didn't feel fine. "Go back to Sora, I'm going to go for a walk anyway." I gave Kairi a reassuring smile. She believed me and reluctantly agreed to return to her date. I refilled my drink and started to walk down a familiar path.

I found myself looking over the edge of the clearing. The night air felt good on my warm face. The alcohol started to take over as my world slurred together. I was drunker than I anticipated.

I laid back on the grass and began to watch the stars, I was too drunk to move anyway. Some time had passed when I heard someone approach me. I tried to tilt my head and look, due to my drunken haze all I could make out was spikey hair.

"Roxas…?" I mumbled trying to sit up to get a better look.

"There you are." The boy approached me. "I've been looking for you everywhere!" Blue eyes entered my line of site. I stared back, remembering the events from earlier. "Are you okay?"

I looked deep into his blue eyes, pushed by my liquid courage, I leaned in and placed a messy, passionate drunk kiss on the lips in front of me. I felt his sloppy tongue in my mouth, we continued to kiss, the passion increasing.

"Roxas…" I muttered between breaths.

The passionate sensation I was feeling stopped, I no longer felt his lips on mine. I opened my eyes. At the point some of my drunken cloud lifted and I looked back up at his hair. Brown. I wasn't kissing Roxas.


	12. Chapter 12

**A/N: I hope you all are having a wonderful holiday! Thank you for the reviews and new followers. I hope you all continue to enjoy the story and please feel free to review/critique. Have a happy new years! (I probably won't post another chapterm until after the holidays, unless you guys convince me otherwise :).)**

"Sora…?" I asked even though I knew the answer.

He stared at his feet, refusing to make eye contact with me.

"I messed up…" He finally said. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kissed you…"

Even though I knew what he was saying was right, I was still a bit drunk and hurt by the rejection I received earlier that day. His words hurt too.

"What's so wrong about me?" I asked dejectedly.

Sora finally looked at me and realized how hurt I was, placing it all together. "What happened with Roxas?"

This time I looked at my feet as I told him everything that happened between me and his brother. After I was done Sora sighed and pulled me into an awkward hug. We sat like that for a moment and just let the silence speak for us.

"I'm sorry for kissing you…" I finally said as we broke our unusual embrace. "And I'm sorry, but I have to tell Kairi…"

Sora nodded. "I would tell her but it's probably best coming from you." There was a slight moment of silence, then Sora spoke again. "I'm going to tell Roxas."

I was shocked by his words. "Don't. It's not like he really cares anyway." I said as casually as I could.

Sora shook his head as he ruffled my hair. "Oh silly girl, it's so obvious he does." I returned with a look of confusion. "Come on, let's get back before something else happens." Sora quickly stated, hushing any further questions.

We returned to the dead party to a few lingering souls. Kairi looked relieved as we approached.

"What took you guys so long? Everyone left already." Kairi greeted.

I looked at her sweet eyes and guilt coursed through me. I bit my lip as I avoided her eyes.

"I'm going to go over there…" Sora said awkwardly as he made his escape.

"Hey you okay?" Kairi placed her arm on my shoulder and I immediately pulled away.

"I just want to go home..." I mumbled.

"Oh… Well Sora said something earlier about staying the night in the fort, I even brought us clothes…"

"I just want to go home…" I repeated.

"Is this about Roxas? I think he left…"

"This isn't about Roxas." I cut her off. I looked into her eyes and she saw the pleading in my eyes.

"What's going on Namine?"

I sighed. She wasn't going to let this wait until home. "Come on, we have to go talk."

I drug Kairi a ways away from the lingering group. I stood and looked at her. The guilt I was feeling seemed to multiply as I stared at her innocent, concerned face.

"Okay, we're here, now what's going on with you?"

I swallowed hard. "I kissed Sora…"

Kairi's face fell as I watched the hurt wash over her face. "What?"

"It was an accident!" I pleaded.

"How is kissing someone an accident?!" Her voice was full of pain as she tried to understand what she was being told.

"I was really, _really_ drunk…" I started

"You were drunk? That's your excuse? You seem perfectly fine now Namine." I had never seen Kairi angry before, but I accepted it. She had every reason to be mad.

"I thought he was Roxas…" Tears filled my eyes and threatened to fall, I bit my lip to hold them back.

For a moment Kairi's face showed sympathy for me, but the next moment it was gone, back to hurt and anger. "You know how I feel about him…" Kairi almost pleaded. "And you kissed him anyway?" This time tears filled her eyes. "You're supposed to be my best friend."

Her words pierced through my heart like daggers. "You're right…" I choked back as many tears as I could. "You have every reason to hate me…" I looked down at the ground as the tears began to flow.

"I don't hate you…" I looked up, hopeful. She just looked hurt. "I just… I can't look at you right now…"

Kairi began to walk away. "Wait! What am I supposed to do? Where am I supposed to go?"

"I don't know Namine, but I just… I can't. I'm sorry."

Kairi disappeared leaving me alone with my guilt and my sorrows.


	13. Chapter 13

**A/N: I hope you all enjoyed your holiday, and I welcome any new followers. Let me know your thoughts by leaving a review or feel free to pm me. Anyway enjoy! ~ Kelsey**

I sat down in the grass, feeling sorry for myself, I let the tears flow. As I cried someone approached.

"Namine?" The voice called out. My heart sank. "What are you doing here?" I tried whipping my eyes before they could see my face. "Are you crying?" I looked up to Roxas' bright blue eyes, full of concern.

"I'm fine." I grumbled as I got to my feet.

"Everyone else is gone, I thought you left with them."

Again my heart ached. "Everyone?"

"Yeah, I thought I was the only one left here. Why didn't you go back with Kairi and Sora?"

"So she's mad at me, but she leaves with him?" I mumbled to myself as I walked to the shore.

"What?" Roxas asked as he followed me.

"Nothing…" I said too quickly as I tried to hide my blushing face. I so did _not_ want to tell him what I did.

"Why did Kairi leave you here? That's not like her. Why did everyone leave you here? What's going on?" Roxas persisted.

"I don't want to talk about it with you okay?" I snapped.

Roxas just stared at me. "You two got into a fight didn't you?" He finally said.

"Ugh!" I scuffed. "Is this not talking about it?" I continued to walk down the beach. "Can't you just leave me alone?" I called back.

But Roxas continued to follow me. "Why are you two fighting? It had to be something bad if she just ditched you…"

I stopped walking. "I kissed Sora, okay! Happy now?"

Roxas stared at me for a moment. I searched his face looking for any sign of what he might be feeling. "Why would you kiss my brother?" He asked. I sensed jealousy in his tone. "Do you like him?"

I looked to the ground. "I thought…" I took a breath, unsure if I should continue. "I thought he was you…" I mumbled.

"You thought he was… me?" Roxas reiterated.

I immediately regretted admitting my feelings. "Look I was drunk okay, so don't think this means anything!" I stammered. Roxas continued to stare at me. "What? Why are you just staring at me? Say something!" Right as the words left my mouth, Roxas grabbed my face and pulled my lips to his, kissing me passionately. His kiss coursed through me like electricity, sparking life into every crevice of my body. His tongue searched for mine, as they intertwined I could feel his passion and care for me. I never knew a kiss could feel _this _good.

Finally his lips left mine, I pulled, not ready to let him go, he rested his forehead on mine. "Why did you stop?" I craved him.

"If you hadn't noticed, it's the middle of the night…" Roxas started.

"We're all alone…" I pulled again, but he continued to resist.

"You have been drinking, _and_ crying. I'm not going to take advantage of you like that. This was just a momentary lapse in my judgment." Although Roxas made a lot of sense, my wounds were still too fresh. A momentary lapse in his judgment? What did that even mean? Roxas must have sensed my unease and placed a tender kiss on my lips. "Come on, let's get you someplace warm."

We ended up going back to Roxas' house, where he quietly led me up to his room. It was pretty typical for a teenage boy's room, posters of bands and sport teams covered the walls. It was a bit untidy but I didn't mind. Roxas dug through his closet as I looked around. My heart fluttered, I was in Roxas' room, alone, with him.

A pair of blue flannel pajama pants and a plain grey tee flopped on the chair in front of me. "You can wear these." Roxas stated as he started grabbing pillows and blankets from the bed. "The bathroom is right across the hall, if you would like to get changed there."

I lingered for a moment, unsure of what I was even waiting for, before grabbing the clothes and going across the hall to change. The clothes fit kind of baggy, but they were comfy and they had the rugged smell of Roxas, he must wear these a lot. I opened the door to the room, Roxas was standing there shirtless as he pulled on a similar set of pajamas.

"Oh… umm. Sorry…" I said awkwardly as I did my best not to stare at his surprisingly chiseled chest.

"It's okay. You can look now. I have a shirt on." Roxas replied. I looked back up, even in a plain cotton t-shirt you could see the faint outline of his muscles that his school uniform always seemed to hide. We stared at each other for a moment, checking each other out. There was so much sexual tension it was hard to keep my feet planted.

Roxas broke away first. "It's late, we really should go to bed."

Bed. Were we going to share a bed? My nerves kicked in. "Where am I going to sleep?" I asked as calmly as I could.

"The bed of course." My eyes widened. "Relax, I'm taking the floor."

I was somehow relieved and disappointed at the same time. "Um… thanks."

I climbed under the covers, unsure of what else to say. A little restless, I decided to take another look at the room. On the nightstand I noticed a single picture of younger Axel, Roxas and a girl I had never seen before, all of them were laughing and enjoying a light blue pop-cycle. The girl had short black hair and a pale complexion. Roxas looked happier than I had ever seen him, laughing like there were no cares in the world. A pang of jealousy coursed through my heart.

There was silence, for what seemed like forever, as I did my best to sleep. But my mind kept wondering to the picture on the nightstand. There were so many questions swarming in my mind.

Finally I plucked up the courage to speak. "Hey Roxas…" I started.

"Hmmm?"

I bit my lip. "I just noticed this picture…" I lied, testing his reaction. I took his silence an okay to continue. "You look pretty young, how old is it?"

There was silence for a moment longer, I was unsure if he was even awake. Finally I heard a sigh "It was about 3 ½ years ago."

"Who is she?" I asked quietly.

Again there was silence. "You have a really bad habit of sticking your nose into places it doesn't belong, you know that?" I shrank a little, afraid I might have angered him. Roxas gave another sigh. "Her name was Xion. That's enough questions for tonight. It's late."

"_Was_?" I persisted.

"Goodnight Namine." Roxas said sharply ending the conversation.

My mind swam through the endless questions as the information processed. I tried to close my eyes and sleep, but I couldn't silence the endless questions that occupied my mind.


	14. Chapter 14

**A/N: hey all, this may be the last chapter I post in a while. My internet is still down and I am also having a bit of writers block, I know where I want to end up but not how to get there. If anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear them! Anyway thanks for all the followers and please feel free to pm/review. Enjoy! ~ Kelsey**

I awoke in a haze, the sun was shining through the window, right on my eyes. I used my hand to shield the bright light as I groaned. My head pounded. My stomach stirred and for a moment I thought I might throw up.

"So sleeping beauty awakes." I heard the familiar sound of Roxas' voice. I grumbled in response. "These are for you." Roxas handed me a glass of some kind of sprite like drink and some Tylenol. I gladly accepted the medication.

"I never want to drink again…" I griped.

"That's what you said last time." Roxas laughed. "Look, everyone is going to be getting up soon… and you aren't really supposed to be here…"

I nodded. "I get it. I'll go." I sat up slowly. My head spun.

"I don't want to kick you out…"

I held up my hand to stop him. "No, seriously it's okay. I should probably go home anyway." Roxas looked at me concerned. "Thank you. Seriously, thank you for letting me stay."

Roxas nodded then helped me gather my things and sneak me back out of his house. "Just keep the clothes for now, I'll see you later okay?"

"Okay…" I lingered unsure of what to do next as we locked eyes. "I'll ugh, see you later…" I said slowly, not wanting to break the trance.

"Roxas." A female voice called from inside the house breaking the spell.

"That's my mom. I really have to go." Roxas gave his final goodbye before shutting the door and leaving me on my own.

I stared at my bare feet, unsure of where to go. I began to just walk, with no destination in mind. After a while of mindless walking, I found myself in the heart of the town in front of a giant clock tower. I gazed at its beauty, ignoring the few passerby's acknowledging my odd ensemble. I gasped at the beauty of the tower. I had never seen anything like it.

"Well, well, well. Isn't this a surprise?" My body tensed. I slowly turned hoping my ears deceived me.

"Xemness…" my mouth was too dry.

"Well don't you look… nice…" He said with a stink. I stayed silent. "Now what would bring you here Angel? So early in the morning?" Again I remained silent. "Ah, that doesn't matter, are you feeling better my dear?"

"Better? What are you talking about?" I finally spoke.

"Well you must have been sick, otherwise I am sure I would have heard from Roxas by now. So Angel, are you feeling better?" His tone was light but his eyes were threatening.

"I don't want to be your messenger." I said forcefully, doing my best to sound confident.

Xemness gave out a laugh. "Oh, of course not."

"Why do you need him so bad?" I asked quietly.

"It's not just him, I need his partner too, and seeing as they are a package deal… you get the gist."

"I don't understand… what do you even need them for?"

"I am not stupid little girl, I would never reveal my plans to the likes of you." He paused. "You are not bad on the eyes, and you can be useful." His tone grew harsh. "But do not misunderstand, you're looks are really the only thing you have left. I can replace you, and I _will_ replace you if you cannot prove your worth in this task. Perhaps you will be more useful… elsewhere…" he growled sending shivers down my spine. "This is the last warning Angel. If you do not deliver, there _will _be consequences. Do you understand?"

I nodded. "Yes…" I was visibly shaken, which seemed to please Xemness.

"Good. Now, my patience is wearing thin, if I were you, I would get a move on." I took a few steps, slowly distancing myself from his cold stare. "Good day Angel." And like that he turned his back and walked away, disappearing in the more active crowd.

I waited until he was out of site, then I ran, as fast as I could towards the direction I originally came.

I knocked on the front door, hoping an adult wouldn't answer. The door opened revealing brown unkempt hair.

"Sora!" I almost shouted.

"Namine? What are you doing here? And… are those Roxas' clothes?" Sora questioned.

"Look, I need to talk to Roxas, can you go get him for me?"

"Did you stay here last night?" Sora whispered.

"Sora, seriously, not the right time. Just tell him I will be waiting down the street okay?" I walked away before Sora could ask any more questions. I stood at the end of the block and waited, hoping that Sora delivered my message and Roxas understood the importance.

A few moments later, I saw the same blonde hair I woke up to this morning. "Namine," Roxas greeted. "What's going on? Why are you still dressed like that? It's been almost an hour. Is everything okay?"

"Roxas, I'm sorry… I'm really not trying to pry but…" I hesitated, unsure how to proceed. "What does Xemness want you to do?"

Roxas' body grew stiff. "I told you to stay out of that."

"I know, and I have been trying… but…"

"But what Namine?"

"… I just saw him a moment ago…" I could see the hard exterior Roxas presented drop as I spoke. "He wanted me to tell you… to reconsider his offer…"

"Did he threaten you?" Roxas seemed worried.

"Not exactly… but it was implied."

Roxas grabbed me by the shoulders. "Namine, you need to go home. If he or any other one of his cronies come towards you, you run the other way, do you hear me?" I nodded. "Xemness is dangerous, do you understand?!" I could see the panic in his eyes. I was terrified. And Roxas could see that. "I'm going to go talk to him. Go home, I'll take care of this."

Roxas let go of my shoulders, and watched me. But I was stuck in place. Frozen by the fear coursing through my veins. "Namine," Roxas softly spoke. "Please, go home... now!" His last word was forceful but necessary. His words sprung life into my legs and I found myself running, as fast as I possibly could to the safety of my home.

The run was all a blur and somehow I found myself curled up in the corner of my bed. I was terrified of what was happening. For a moment I thought of going to the room next door, and gushing to Kairi everything that has happened in the last 12 hours. But I stopped myself, remembering what I did, and the fight we had. A wave of loneliness washed over me. Tears began to build, as the fear and isolation tormented my mind.


	15. Chapter 15

**A/N: Alright guys, I hope you have been enjoying the story so far. This is probably going to be the last chapter for a while for I'm having a bit of writers block. Anyway I hope you enjoy the next chapter! Feel free to review!**

The weekend came and left, I was left alone. Kairi left for school before me, leaving me to walk on my own to school. It killed me that she refused to talk to me. School was the last thing on my mind.

I entered the school yard alone, shuffling through the groups of students. I looked shortly up ahead and spotted Kairi's auburn hair. She was mingling among her usual group of friends. I stopped walking. Kairi must have noticed my presence, she stopped talking as we locked eyes. We stared at each other for a moment, everyone around us melted away. I could see the pain in her eyes, they mirrored my own. I hesitated for a moment, wondering if I should approach, but within that moment Kairi broke away and turned her back to me.

My heart broke. Understanding her actions, I looked down and resumed shuffling through the crowd. I walked straight to the classroom, even though there was still some time before class started, and sat at my desk, alone.

I stared out the window as students shuffled in, class was going to start soon. I glanced around the room. It was odd, Roxas was usually here by now. More time passed, more students took their seats. The bell rang signaling the start of class. Not even a moment later Roxas burst through the door.

"How nice of you to join us Mr. Hudson" Miss Freedman greeted the flustered boy standing in the doorway. "Have a seat, next time you're late, its detention."

Roxas took his seat after giving a brief apology. I looked at him, hopeful for some social interaction and any news of the events from the days before. Roxas avoided eye contact, he sat at his desk and focused all attention to the front of the room. I continued to look at him, silently pleading with my eyes, but he never returned my gaze.

When the lunch bell finally signaled Roxas followed his same routine, leaving quickly, giving me no chance to talk to him. Kairi also left rather quickly, leaving me alone, again. I sighed as I walked through the hallways, slowly making my way towards the crowded lunch room.

The cafeteria was abuzz, I looked around and noticed Roxas standing by Olette. She was gushing to some girlfriends as she rubbed Roxas' shoulder. I watched curiously.

"Namine…" A dejected voice brought me back.

I looked up and noticed Kairi standing before me, looking at me with sympathetic eyes. "Kairi…" I was surprised to see her there. She bit her lip then glanced towards the same scene I was watching unfold. My heart started beating faster.

"Namine… I'm so sorry…" She began. "Roxas and Olette… they're dating…"

The world around me stopped, my heart shattered into a million pieces. Dating? I tried to hold back the tears I could feel swell in my eyes. I looked back at Roxas and Olette and caught Roxas staring right back at me. We stared at each other watching each others movements. I froze in place as he stared me down and slowly placed his arm over Olette's shoulder.

I dropped my bag and ran the other direction as fast as I could without drawing too much attention. Kairi was quickly on my tail with my bag in tow. We made it to the courtyard and I lost it, uncaring of the few people staring.

Kairi pulled me into a hug. "You really like him huh?" She asked kindly. I nodded into her chest. "I'm so sorry…" She pulled away to look into my eyes. "For everything. I don't blame you okay? Can we just go back to being friends?"

I nodded as I cried even harder. Finally feeling relief for my best friend's absence. After another moment I finally got a grip on my emotions enough to carry on a conversation.

"He kissed me, you know? The night of the dance. After our fight…" Kairi stared at me in shock. "I don't understand why he would do this." Tears threatened to fall as my stomach knotted up. I swallowed hard, pushing back the tears that threatened to fall.

Kairi stared at me for a moment as she contemplated her words. "I'm sure there's some reason, some reason behind his unusual actions…" she paused again, looking back at the direction we came, as if she could see Roxas and Ollete from where we were sitting. She looked back at me. "I think this is temporary… he should be with you. We all saw the way he looked at you at the dance."

"The way he looked at me?" I was taken aback.

"Namine, he couldn't keep his eyes off you the whole night, like you were the only one in the room. Like you were the only person that mattered."

My stomach fluttered, I knew the look she was describing; it was the look Sora always gave Kairi. I laughed inwardly at the irony. Part of me felt giddy, hoping what she was saying was true, then the pessimist side of me reared its ugly head, giving me a harsh reality check. If he really did feel that way about me, he wouldn't be with someone else.

Kairi sighed bringing my attention back to the conversation. "If two people are meant to be together, eventually they will find their way back."

I laughed at the memorable quote, I recognized it well from all the times we've binged watched the popular TV show _Gossip Girl_ together. "Our love is nowhere near Blair and Chuck status."

"But it got you to smile, and besides, it's true." She playfully nudged my shoulder. I had missed this.

Finally feeling a bit better, Kairi and I laughed as fiery red hair appeared in our line of sight.

"Axel." Kairi greeted as she tried stifling her laughter.

"Kairi, mind if I talk to Namine for a moment?" He asked politely as he fiddled with his hands tucked inside his pockets. Kairi nodded and gave my hand a quick squeeze before getting up and walking back towards the cafeteria. "Can I sit?" Axel asked. I nodded in response. "I'm sure you've heard by now…" He started awkwardly as he stared blankly ahead. Axel shook his head as he thought. "I don't get it."

I waited for a moment for him to continue, but he continued to stare at something he only seemed to see as he shook his head in confusion, trying to place the puzzle pieces together that don't quite fit

"Don't get what?" I asked cautiously.

He finally looked at me, straight at me, piercing me with his teal eyes. "Why do you like him?" my mouth opened but no words formed. "Don't you see Namine? All he does is hurt you." So much care oozed through his words, and in that moment I truly grasped how strong Axel's feelings were for me. Axel pinched the bridge of nose and sighed. "I know I shouldn't tell you this but, Roxas isn't serious about Ollete…" My heart beat quickened, and the tight knot in my stomach seemed to release itself. Axel stood. "I don't really get what he's doing, but I know he's never looked at Ollete that way, if anything he thinks of her more of a sister than a girlfriend." He gave me a careful glance. "And Namine…" His eyes stared straight into my soul. "Be careful, because butterflies can be wasps. When your stomach flutters and your hands shake and your cheeks flush, sometimes it's not love. Sometimes it's pain. Got it memorized?"

And with that he left, leaving me alone to contemplate his mysterious warning.


	16. Chapter 16

**A/N: I finally have wifi! I can now post chapters, hopefully, more frequently. I hope you all are enjoying it so far, I have some more on deck but again, facing a little bit of some writers block. Anyway, enjoy the next installment and feel free to review and or comment, I'm always open to ideas :)**

The rest of my classes dragged on as I pondered the words Axel spoke. As the teachers droned on, I stole glances of Roxas. Each time sent a twinge of pain through my heart. So many things swirled through my mind. Roxas followed the same pattern as he had all day, refusing to acknowledge my presence as the teachers came and went reciting their carefully planned lessons. It was hard to focus.

Finally the final bell rang, I looked up one last time at Roxas, hoping for any type of interaction, however I was left disappointed. Right on Que, Roxas was up and out the door without even a second glance. I tried to ignore the pang in my heart as I gathered the rest of my things.

_Is this what Axel was talking about?_ I pondered as I absentmindedly filled my bag. My thoughts were cut short as I felt Kairi's presence rooting me back to earth.

"Are you ready?" Kairi asked kindly. I looked up and noticed we were the last students there. I hadn't realized how lost in thought I actually was.

"Yeah, sorry I took so long." I shrugged my bag over my shoulder and followed her out of the classroom.

We walked outside and began heading towards the gate idly chatting away. The breeze picked up sending a shiver down my spine. I looked in my bag.

"Shoot." I started. "I left my sweater in the classroom."

"Do you want me to wait for you?" Kairi responded.

"No it's okay, go on ahead, I'll meet up with you in a bit." I said as I began backpedaling towards the school. Kairi nodded as she continued on course.

Most of the students had already left besides the few students loitering with their friends. I walked into the deserted classroom and noticed a figure on the other side of the room.

"Oh." I almost gasped, startled by someone's presence. "I thought everyone left already."

They shuffled as they turned to the noise. My heart skipped a beat. "I was just leaving."

Roxas' face was blank as he made his way across the classroom towards the door, I was frozen in place, unsure what to do. His coldness pierced through my body as he walked past me, refusing to make eye contact.

"Wait." I finally said with my back to him. There was a moment of silence and I looked back into the piercing blue eyes that haunted me and made me melt all at the same time. I tried not to show how awestruck I was despite everything. "Why?"

He looked at me, finally looked at me. I saw the pain in his eyes that mirrored my own. We looked at each other in silence for only a moment, yet it felt like hours, and then the moment was gone. His face became stern again and he cleared his throat.

"I don't know what you want me to say." He began. "I told you, I don't want you."

"Bull shit!" I fired back. "You don't want me? Then why did you kiss me?!" I felt the rage boil beneath my skin as my face turned red and tears threatened to fall.

There was another moment of silence as I awaited his response. "If you really didn't want me," I pressed on. "Then you are one of the worst people I know." Pain shot through his face, I ignored it and continued my angry monologue. "Not because of your _mysterious_ past, not because you shut me out leaving me utterly alone, not because you don't want me..." I paused as the tears flowed. "But because you made me believe you did want me."

His face just read pain, pain for me, pain for himself. He opened his mouth, beginning to say something, but I was too angry and hurt for that. I ran past him and through the door, I continued to run until I was out of the school and far away from the classroom and the boy who broke my heart.


	17. Chapter 17

I found myself in front of the clock tower. Still feeling the adrenaline coursing through my veins, I took one look then pushed through the door and ran up the long stairs up to the roof. I opened the door and was blinded by the slowly setting sun, I stood on the ledge and took in the scene.

I absentmindedly watched the sun slowly sink, at some point I ended up sitting on the ledge, consumed by my thoughts and emotions. I continued to stare, uncaring of how much time was passing.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" A voice rang out behind me.

I jumped, startled by the sudden sound in my solitude. I turned and saw the same blonde hair I was thinking of. "Jesus Christ Roxas! Don't sneak up on a person like that! I could have fallen!" I said clutching my chest, trying to calm my beating heart. "How did you even find me?"

Roxas scratched the back of his head and gave me a sidward glance. "I come here all the time actually, it's kind of my sanctuary." He took a cautionary step and stared taking in my reaction. "I'm glad I found you though..." he started. I took a hasty breath, my emotions were still too raw. "You were right."

"I was right?" I asked startled. I definitely didn't see that coming.

"I've been a jerk..." he hesitated taking me in. "About Ollete..."

I held up my hand stopping him. "Don't." I could see him beginning to protest so I continued, standing up as I spoke. "You know what, it's okay you chose her. No really it is," I said in response to his confused face. "We always choose the wrong people for ourselves, after all I chose you." I fired as I tried storming past him. A pang of guilt struck me but my wounds were still too fresh for me to care.

I tried stepping forward and felt a warm sensation on my wrist then a pull to stop me from leaving. I looked up and saw pain reflected in his eyes, pain like I never saw before.

"Don't you see?" he chocked. "How much this is killing me?"

"Then why..." I whispered.

"If I get close to you... you'll die."


	18. Chapter 18

I stared at his face, terror raced through me as his words echoed in my mind.

"_If I get close to you... you'll die."_

"I have a past, you know that, and Xemness, he's dangerous. Ollete, Hayner, Pence... they were there for me, when all of the horrible shit I've done caught up to me..." He stared at his feet as he told his story. There were so many holes but I silenced the urge to ask questions, grateful he was even sharing this much. "Ollete understands to a degree of what I'm capable of, and she definitely understands what Xemness is capable of.

"I've asked too much of her, and I feel awful for doing this to her, considering I know her feelings for me are strong." Roxas looked at me, so unguarded and raw, it was breathtaking. He reached out and cupping my cheeks in his hands. "But I had to protect you, Xemness knows I care for you, if I'm with someone else... maybe... just maybe he won't touch you."

I could see how scared he was for me, like he was afraid he might lose me forever. I thought back to the night I stayed at his house.

"Who was Xion?" I asked cautiously.

Roxas took in a breath as he continued to look me in the eye. "Because of me, she died."

He paused waiting for my reaction. I stared in awe, partially because of his openness when I was much more used to silence in this area.

He shook his head and gave a half smile. "Look, it's pointless trying to hide everything from you, you have the right to know why I have been treating you this way."

"But I'm still not allowed to ask questions." I stated more than asked.

"Some, but there are still some things that you're better off not knowing." there was a little hint of pain reflected in his voice.

Roxas took one long look at the almost set sun, the deep purple behind him made him look like an angel. Finally he took a breath then turned back to me, I perked up, ready to hear his story.

"When I worked for Xemness, Axel was my right hand man, and Xion... she joined in later on in the game but eventually the 3 of us were inseparable." Roxas paused and stared at me before continuing. "About 3 years ago, something changed in me, all of a sudden, I didn't want to be that guy anymore. I told Xemness I wanted out, and of course Axel and Xion followed suit, they always said I was the only reason they stayed.

"Anyway, I'm sure you can imagine how well Xemness took 3 of his guys quitting on him... he wouldn't drop it, he particularly didn't want me to go. I confronted him asking him what it would take for him to leave me alone... he asked for one final job, and after that I was free to go. The job seemed easy enough so I took it, Xion wanted to come with me, she didn't trust Xemness and wouldn't stop until I agreed... so I let her come." Roxas stared deep into the twilight, hesitating to say the next words. "Everything went smooth, there were no complications, we were just about to leave, another job well done... and that's when something went wrong. There was some kind of explosion... all I remember was flying and chaos..." He looked down, remembering what must have been the worst night of his life. "I woke up a few hours later... she was dead, and it was my fault.

Roxas continued to stare into the distance. I reached out and grabbed his hand giving it a squeeze. He finally looked back at me, returning to the present.

"Ollete, Hayner and Pence found me shortly after and helped me out. I was really messed up and I was so full of rage..." he paused. "They bandaged me up took me in, none of them left me alone, which was probably for the best, I would have killed Xemness if I saw him..." he trailed off, remembering the rage he had at the time.

We basked in the silence for a moment, unsure of what to say I just squeezed his hand, lending him my strength.

"Those three saved my life that day..." he remembered. "They didn't even know me, and they took me in and protected me. I owe them a lot."

We sat in silence along the ledge for some time as the sun finally set and the stars lit up the darkened sky. It wasn't an uncomfortable quiet, instead we both found some solitude saying nothing together. I continued to hold his hand as I enjoyed his presence.

"So what does this mean for us?" I finally asked the fretful question.

Roxas looked into my eyes as he cupped my face in his palm. He gave me a bittersweet smile and I knew I wouldn't like the answer.

"Oh, how I wish I could tell you we could be together..." he started. "but I can't put you at risk like that. It will be safer if we were apart... even as friends."

Even though I was expecting rejection and was anticipating the worst, his words still stung. He opened up his arms to me and I leaned. Using Roxas as support, we sat together in silence, enjoying what might be our last time together.


	19. Chapter 19

A few weeks had passed since the evening at the clock tower. Roxas and I practically became strangers within that time. Although I knew it was for my own protection, it still pained me to be ignored by him every day.

I was shuffling the items in my bag as I prepared for class as usual, trying to ignore the boy sitting in the desk behind me.

Miss Freedman walked into the classroom clearing her throat to get the attention of the class. As the class was settling down I noticed a fresh face hiding behind the long black hair of our teacher.

"Class," Miss Freedman began. "We have a new student today." She stepped aside revealing a young boy with blue hair and teal eyes. His face was stern, giving the appearance of a 'tough' kid. He placed his hands in his jacket pocket as Miss Freedman introduced him to the class.

"This is Isa Parker, he will be joining us so please take the time to introduce yourselves. Isa please have a seat."

Miss Freedman directed him to a seat behind my own. As he walked began walking down the row his eyes met mine. I stared at his teal eyes as he stared back, walking slowly to his seat, not breaking eye contact until he passed and silently took his seat.

I glanced at Roxas who had a curious look on his face as he stared at his desk in front of him.

Classes continued on, eventually lunch arrived. I stood with Kairi as we shuffled through the normal crowd.

"So, what do you think of the new kid?" Kairi asked as she picked out her school lunch.

"Isa…" I muttered. "I don't know, he seems… mysterious."

"Oh no, we all know what that means." Kairi replied sarcastically.

"What?"

"You have a thing for the 'dark and mysterious' type."

"What? I do not!" I could feel my cheeks flushing.

"Oh what's got ghost girl so red?" A familiar voice chimed in.

"Sora!" Kairi greeted. "Namine thinks the new guy is _mysterious_."

"Oh god, here we go again." Sora exclaimed throwing his hands up in the air.

"It is so not like that okay!" I tried defending myself.

"Look, we're just giving you a hard time." Kairi said pushing my shoulder. "He's a cute guy, and honestly we've been a little worried about you since you and Roxas had that falling out."

I bit my lip at her words. Although I knew why Roxas was ignoring me, it didn't make it hurt any less. Trying not to make my friends worry, I let them believe his dating Olette had put a wall between us.

"It might not be the worst thing if you get to know the new guy…" Sora said softly. I saw a moment of guilt in his eyes as he spoke. I knew he felt bad things didn't work out with his twin brother.

I placed my hand on his shoulder, admiring his gesture. I had hoped things would have worked out too.

"Thanks." I said returning my hand to my side. "He just perks my curiosity, that's all." I glanced across the cafeteria and spotted the boy with light blue hair.

He was looking at me too.

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	20. Chapter 20

I walked out into the courtyard, all the students were long gone. Taking longer in chores than usual, I found myself being the last student there. Kairi finished long before me and went home with Sora and Riku.

I breathed in the fresh air as I shuffled my bag on my shoulder. I started to stride towards home when I noticed familiar blue hair in the distance ahead. My steps faltered for a moment. A few yards ahead of me, Isa was leaning against the front gate of the school.

I couldn't help but notice how well the school uniform fit his tall slender body. Isa fixed his gaze on me bringing me back to reality. He remained silent as I approached.

I stopped in front of him, unsure of what to say, I stood there awkwardly. Unsure of whether or not I should keep walking or stay in the awkward silence, I began to fidget.

"Are you going to say anything?" I finally asked, breaking the silence.

Isa shrugged his shoulders in response. Another awkward moment of silence passed.

"Okay, well it was fun not talking to you… so unless you need something I'm gonna go." I finally said as I began to walk away, I stopped once I heard a low, cool voice.

"You're name."

I stared into Isa's teal eyes. His beauty was different than Roxas'. It was obvious he didn't say much, which made him even sexier. I could see his the outline of his muscles through the shirt of his uniform. He had a long slender body, but you could tell he worked out.

"I never got your name." Isa's low voice brought me back to reality.

My face turned bright red realizing he must have caught me staring. "Namine." I muttered.

Isa nodded then pushed himself off the gate he was using for support and began walking away.

"Wait." I began, bringing Isa to stop and look at me. "That's it? Did you wait here just to get my name?"

Isa shrugged. "I could walk you home if you want."

I gaped at Isa with my mouth slightly opened, confused at how these events just transpired. This boy was unlike any I had ever met. Isa raised his eye brow as he waited for me to collect myself. I readjusted my bag as I joined Isa's side, leading the way home.

Isa peered down at me and held out his arm. "Give me your bag."

"Oh…" I said a little startled. "Thanks." I handed over my bag. It was pretty heavy due to the books but Isa made it look like the bag might as well have been empty.

We walked a little ways in silence. I racked my brain trying to think of something to fill the void.

"What do you do for fun?" Isa asked. It almost seemed forced, I could tell this wasn't something he did often.

I chuckled at his awkwardness. "Normal teenage girl stuff. I'm actually kind of a new kid too so I don't really know much about this place other than the shops and the beach."

Isa nodded. "Why'd you come here?"

"My parents travel a lot so I'm living with my friend Kairi." There was another lull in conversation as I fiddled with my fingers. "Did you move here too?" I asked.

"No." He replied

"So you're from around here?" Isa nodded in response. I internally groaned, trying hard to maintain the conversation. "Why haven't I seen you at school before then?"

"I was home schooled."

"Oh, so do you know all of our classmates already?"

"No."

I looked at him confused. "So do you have any friends?" I clasped my hand over my mouth as I realized how rude the question I was asking.

Isa turned and gave me a slight smile. "Yes, I have friends." He returned his eyes to the road ahead. "I just keep to myself mostly."

"That's got to be pretty lonely." I said softly. I stopped walking as we arrived to my house.

Isa turned and faced me, aware we had arrived at our destination. "Sometimes it can be." He paused as he looked at me. "But I enjoy the solitude." He handed me my bag and gave me a quick nod, he then turned and quickly made his way back the direction we came.

Kairi was waiting for me upstairs. I saw the smirk on her face and slightly groaned as I prepared for my interrogation.

"So…" she started. "I saw who walked you home."

"Yeah, so?" I hoped staying aloof would end the conversation sooner.

"Don't play dumb, spill it. How did this happen?" she raised an eyebrow as she awaited my response.

Giving up, I reluctantly relayed the previous events, trying my hardest to sound like I didn't care, my heart let me know that wasn't the case.

"So he grew up around here? I wonder why I haven't seen him before…" Kairi asked, more to herself than to me.

"I think so, he didn't really say much about anything." A little part of me fidgeted, frustrated with my lack of knowledge.

"Well, you should change, we're having a little get together at the beach." Kairi stated, quickly ending the conversation.

I gave a slight smile as I got up to change. Within 5 minutes I found myself on the now familiar path to our own utopia.

With my arm linked in Kairi's, we talked and giggled as we made our way up the shore. We came to our usual clearing and approached our little group of friends. I noticed Sora's eyes perk up as he saw my best friend approach. I scanned the crowd.

Riku stood next to Sora, pretending to be interested in his drink and not Kairi who he kept stealing glances at. I smiled as I made a mental note to come back to that later. I noticed Axel sitting further away, engrossed in a conversation. To my expectancy, I glanced at Roxas' pale, striking face. Even in the distance I could feel my eyes connecting to his, sending a current through my veins. His eyes lingered for a moment and then he returned to his conversation, putting an end to the spark I just felt the moment before.

I refocused on the group, forcing myself to try and listen as Sora told Kairi of the crazy events that happened on his way here. I noticed Roxas and Axel approach as Sora rapped up his story.

"Well, you'll never guess who walked Namine home today." Kairi started a little louder than necessary, I'm sure that was for Roxas' benefit. "Isa!" She exclaimed. I noticed the small glance she gave Roxas as she said Isa's name.

"Oh really now?" Sora asked, clearly intrigued.

"It's not a big deal… really…" I said quietly, trying to defuse the situation. I was too scared to look, but I was sure Roxas didn't enjoy the conversation.

"Yeah, he was waiting for her after school and everything!" Kairi continued, ignoring me completely.

"Why was he waiting for you?" Roxas finally spoke. I looked at his face, hoping to get a read on his emotions, I could sense some irritation.

"Because he's a gentleman." Kairi stated.

"I wasn't asking you." Roxas shot back. Kairi placed a hand on her hip and gave Roxas a look.

"I don't even know if he was waiting for me." I jumped in. "He was just there after I finished my chores and we walked me home. It's not a big deal." I paused as I looked Roxas dead in the eye. "Really. Can we be done talking about this now?"

Roxas stared at me for a moment before finally giving me a nod and released some of the tension in his shoulders.

Kairi gave a slight scuff behind me. "I can't believe you Roxas."

"Kairi… don't." I warned.

"No, it's not right Namine." She returned her focus back to Roxas. "You choose another girl over her, rub it in her face, completely ignore her, and then get all butt-hurt when you find out some other guy is showing interest in her?"

"Kairi-." I continued to protest, but she wasn't even listening anymore.

"You're a jerk. You don't deserve someone like Namine." Kairi continued to lay into him. "Why did you even come today? You think it's okay for you to hang around her, like you have some kind of claim on her. I hate to break it to you but you can't have your cake and eat it too."

Kairi continued to rant as the rest of our group stood there in silence, watching and waiting for Roxas to react. He just stared at Kairi, silently waiting for her to finish.

"If you think I'm just going to stand around and watch as you destroy my best friend with your selfishness, you're wrong." Kairi folded her arms and stared daggers at her friend. I had never seen her this mad at anyone before, I felt a little guilty knowing it was because of me she found herself wrapped up in so much anger.

There was another moment of silence as Roxas nodded, looking at his feet, taking in everything Kairi just said. After a moment he looked up and returned Kairi's evil glare with one of his own.

"Are you done now?" He asked coldly. His new cold attitude sent shivers down my spine. This Roxas scared me. When Kairi remained silent, Roxas continued. "You don't know anything about me, and you are so willing to condemn me. You have no idea why I'm doing the things I'm doing. You think I'm the problem, but maybe you should take a look at your own naivety and see that things are changing, and if you continue to live in blindness, _you_ will be the one to get her hurt." Roxas gave one last look of sadness as he shook his head, before turning around and walking down the beach alone.

I stepped forward to follow him but Kairi held out her arm, stopping me. "Let him go." She said. "You're better off without him and his cryptic messages."

I stared at his back as the distance between us grew. My stomach churned. My feet decided to act for me, before I even realized I found myself chasing after Roxas, ignoring the confused looks on my friends' faces.

**A/N: Hey all, sorry it has been a while since I've posted anything, I've just returned from vacation. With that being said, I do have a few more chapters on deck, but I may wait a while to see how you all react to this, and to build suspense.**

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	21. Chapter 21

"Why did you follow me, Namine?" Roxas' words were cold but his voice was soft.

I stared at his back. His feet had stopped moving but he didn't turn to face me. I bit my lip, unsure of what to say. I looked back the direction I came, my friends long from view.

"You should go back." His words grew colder as he still refused to look at me. He stood there for a brief moment, letting the words hit me, before picking up his feet and continuing forward.

"What's happening Roxas?" I was shocked by how dejected my voice sounded, a wave of emotions encased me as a lump caught in my throat.

Roxas again stopped walking. He paused before finally turning and looking at me. The moment we made eye contact his face softened, he made his way towards me. I looked up into his eyes as he brought his hand to my face and wiped away the tears I didn't know were there. His eyes showed so much concern, and almost hurt, there was a battle raging behind those eyes.

"She was right you know." He continued when I answered with a look of confusion. "I don't deserve you." He looked deep into my eyes, his hands traced the side of my face. "But I want you…" I could hear the pain in his voice.

I hesitated, caught in his stare. "Don't you see?" I breathed "I'm already yours."

I felt the softness of his lips on mine, electricity coursed through my veins fueled by his impassioned kiss. He pulled away after what seemed like forever yet not nearly long enough. There was so much sorrow in his eyes.

"Why can't it be this easy…" he muttered as he placed his forehead on mine.

"It could be…" my words seemed to make his wound deepen.

"You know it can't be." His voice cracked, his words dripped in grief.

I looked down, I understood the situation but my heart yearned for the one thing I couldn't have. He took my chin in his hand and made me look into his eyes. He stared at me for a while, searching through my soul. He gave me another kiss, this time softer and shorter than the one we shared moments before. I could feel his love for me in the tenderness of his lips.

"There are things I'm taking care of." He stated. "It's going to take some time…" He exhaled. "It's better this way…" Roxas paused and looked briefly out into the ocean. "This Isa guy…" he seemed lost like he was searching for answers that weren't there. He returned his gaze back to me. "Just be careful okay?"

Again I found myself biting my lip. Why did this hurt so much?

Roxas lifted my chin so my eyes met his. "No one has ever captured my heart the way you did." He smiled, but there were traces of sadness hidden behind his façade. He placed his lips on mine once more, and I knew this would be the end for us.

Caught up in our own personal anguish, neither of us sensed the eyes watching the scene unfold.


	22. Chapter 22

After our moment on the beach, Roxas and I parted ways. Instead of rejoining my friends I decided to wander aimlessly through town while I gathered my thoughts.

My heart ached.

I took one last look behind me, as if Roxas would be standing there instead of the empty faces of the somewhat busy town. Why did it feel like the heavy door of our relationship had closed? My mind was running in circles as I turned my back to the idea of me and Roxas once and for all.

As I continued through the dying crowd I spotted a familiar face at a shop up ahead. The sun was now beginning to set. The tall silhouette against the twilight caught my breath, Isa's tall figure and porcelain skin against the pinks and purples of early dusk made him look like a supermodel. He was listening to a merchant attempt to sell him on a product he probably didn't need.

I paused, unsure if I wanted him to see me. Before I could make that decision Isa looked over and made eye contact, he said a quick "no thanks" to the salesman and approached me. Even though he was a few feet in front of me I still had to look up to make eye contact.

After a brief moment of silence Isa finally spoke. "You're upset." He stated rather than asked.

"I'm fine." I lied.

"Who hurt you? I'll hurt them."

I gave a slight smile, a little comforted in the fact that Isa felt so protective over me. He continued to look at me, waiting for my command.

"I'm okay." I reassured him. He nodded in response.

We stood in silence for a while, but it wasn't uncomfortable. He stared into my eyes, I fidgeted with my hands.

"Tomorrow." He started. "Let's have lunch."

My face flushed. "Tomorrow?" I stuttered. He nodded. "o.. okay…"

He looked up to the pink skies. "I'll walk you home." He turned toward the direction of my home and started walking without waiting for my response. I was stuck in place for a moment, a little surprised by this whole encounter. I rushed to catch up with Isa, even though he had only taken a few steps, his long legs gave him a large stride and he was already a few feet ahead of me. When I joined him by his side, he slowed his pace a little.

"Thanks…" I started after a few feet of silence. "For everything."

Isa nodded in recognition.

"You're not a man of many words, are you?"

"I don't have much to say." He replied coolly.

This time I was quiet. Unsure of how to respond.

"Why are you sad?" I looked up and saw Isa's concerned eyes staring down at me as we walked. "It's written all over your face." His words were soft, full of compassion and concern.

"I… I…" I stuttered, taken aback by the sudden change of demeanor. "I said goodbye to a close friend." I said quickly.

I could feel Isa's eyes study me as we continued, "Seems like more than a friend to me."

I stopped walking. Isa continued a few steps, then turned once he realized I was no longer next to him. He gave me a puzzled look. "I don't see how that's any of your business." I fired.

Isa's face turned from confusion to alarm.

"I didn't ask for your opinion on the matter!" I felt hot tears well up in the corners of my eyes as I lashed out. "Why don't you just keep your opinions to yourself?! I don't care what you think!"

Isa continued to stare for a moment as he looked at my red face and balled up fists. I stared him down, waiting for his response. To my surprise he took the few steps towards me and pulled me into a hug. I stood there in shock, then latched onto his shirt and cried into his chest.

He held me there for a while as I cried. Finally I caught my breath and reigned in my emotions. I looked up into the deep turquoise of Isa's eyes. Neither of us said anything, but the silence wasn't as uncomfortable as it was usually.

"Let's get you home, it's not too far." He brushed aside some of my ash hair and gave me a kind smile, a smile I had never seen before. "It will be okay. Promise." He took my hand and led me to my home without another word.

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	23. Chapter 23

_Three years ago_

I found myself out the window, watching the same old scenery pass me by. The train was rather empty for being late afternoon. I habitually checked at my feet, making sure my backpack was still where I left it.

I looked out the window of the moving train, transfixed by my reflection. My spikey blond hair was a matted mess, there were dark bags under my eyes. I looked into my deep blue eyes, I couldn't look away.

Who am I?

The train pulled to a stop bringing my attention back to my surroundings. I swooped up my backpack and made my way through the station into town. As I left the shopping district and got close to the edge of town, without missing a step, I pulled my backpack over my shoulder and unzipped its pouch. From inside, I pulled out a long, solid black zip up jacket with an oversized hood. I entered the forest, I tossed my backpack towards a familiar patch of trees. I stared straight ahead, continuing on my path, I pulled my arms through the sleeves of the sweater.

"Well, well, well. Look what the cat dragged in." My best friend was now walking beside me.

"Think the job might be a challenge for a change?" I quipped as we both made finial adjustments to our jackets.

"Who knows, I'm getting kind of tired of the rink-a-dink jobs."

We reached a clearing in the woods revealing a tall mansion standing behind a tall brick gate. I looked up at the familiar place. The tall pointed roof always gave me a churchy feel to the place.

"Well, time to get serious." Axel said dryly as he lifted the hood of his jacket. It's long hood over his face, casting a shadow hiding it completely.

I sighed as I mimicked Axel's actions. "Let's do this."

**A/N: Hi all! Just to keep you all in the loop, the next couple of chapters will be like this one, in the past. I'm getting to the point where I'm starting to wrap up the story, so there will be all sorts of stuff going on.**

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	24. Chapter 24

_3 years ago_

I stood in a circle, surrounded by 7 other people, all wearing the same long black jackets that cut off right above your shoes, all of their faces obstructed by the oversized hood. I looked around at the nice décor. We were in a big open room with windows overseeing the courtyard. There were some nice leather couches and other expensive furniture but it was out of the way, keeping the room open.

"Well, I'm glad to see you all could make it." A deep voice broke the silence from behind me.

I turned, along with the rest of the group. Our tall, tan, long silver haired boss made his way to our circle in the center of the huge room. He too was wearing the same long jacket, however his hood was down, revealing his face. Beside him was another nobody wearing the same get-up the rest of us were.

We opened our circle as the two approached.

"There are a few matters in which I wish to discuss today, and a few assignments." Our boss addressed us. "First, we have a new member joining us today." He turned his attention to the hooded figure across the circle. "Luxord, we welcome you to the organization." He tilted his head in a sign of welcome.

The figure known as Luxord, gave his head a tilt in return. "Thank you Xemness."

"Now, for assignments." Xemness returned his attention to the group. "After receiving your assignments, I expect you to report immediately. With the new addition to our group I can foresee real progress with our plans." He began to walk within the circle. "I need you two to secure the shopping district, it would appear that we are having a little bit of trouble maintaining the area." The two he addressed nodded at our leader, then made their way towards the exit. He continued along the circle in this manner until 4 remained.

"Axel, Xion." He started, my ears perked, we always had missions together. "You two…" he paused, as if he was unsure on how to proceed. "In one week, you both will be leaving." I could see their bodies stiffen. "I'm having you two do a bit of recruiting for me."

"But sir, you just said Luxord will be able to make a difference." A light feminine voice came from one of the hooded nobodies.

Xemness eyes pierced daggers through her. "We can never have too many, now can we Xion?"

"No sir." She muttered.

"Any complaints Axel?" He now addressed the figure in the middle.

"No sir."

"Good. Now leave. I have matters to discuss with Roxas."

Xion and Axel made their way towards the exit, leaving me alone with Xemness and the nobody he walked in with. My mind was racing.

"Roxas…" Xemness said my name slowly as he slowly walked around my unmoving body. He looked at me like a snake, getting ready to strike for the kill. "What are we going to do with you?" I glanced at the other nobody, his hood obstructed his whole face other than his lips, which was stern and lacked any sign of emotion. I wondered if he was even paying attention at all.

"It seems you have checked out recently." Xemness brought my attention back to him. "This isn't going to be a problem is it?"

I didn't know how to answer. Unsure of my own emotions.

"Roxas. If you aren't with us, you are against us." Xemness' tone told me I had no choice but to be with them.

"I'm with you." I murmured.

"Good..." Xemness stood next to my ensemble twin and stared me down. "Leave for today, I'll give you your assignment later." I took a few steps towards the door when Xemness stopped me. "Oh and Roxas…" I turned to look at the two standing behind me. "If you fail to perform your duties, Saix here…" He nodded towards his partner. "… will complete them for you."

The lips that were once stern and emotionless turned into a malicious smile. I continued towards the exit. The walk out never felt so long.


	25. Chapter 25

**A/N: Sorry all that it's been a while since I've posted, the summer has been keeping me pretty busy. Anyway, please be patient with me, working out some of a few kinks in the story, which I will be wrapping up here hopefully soon (I say that now but it's so easy to keep it going). Anyway, enjoy the chapter! Please let me know what you all think!**

I rode the train with Axel. I focused on the bag at my feet. The air was stiff from the events of our meeting. The train came to our stop and we left together in silence.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" Axel asked slowly.

"No." I quipped, keeping my eyes straight ahead as we walked.

The air was suffocating. I stopped walking and pinched the bridge of my nose.

"I just want to get my mind off it." I spoke, finally looking at Axel. "Let's go see what my goofball brother is up to." I gave a slight smile, I would never admit it, but I was excited to see my brother, he had a way to make me forget about my problems.

"After you Capitan." Axel gave a salute as we made our way to the one place I knew he'd be.

The first thing I noticed once I got to the beach was the spikey brown hair of my brother, bouncing about, as we got closer I noticed silver hair, also moving but not quite as erratically.

We approached. I smiled. Sora and Riku both held wooden swords, Sora playfully jabbed at Riku, and Riku skillfully blocked.

"Teaching him any good tricks Riku?" I asked, announcing myself.

Sora's face perked up as he brought his sword to his side. "Roxas!... You're here!..." He said between breaths. "I was…. Just….. about…. To win!"

Riku smiled as he reached his arms over his shoulder. "You wish!" he laughed.

"Oh yeah?!" Sora, swiftly, got low and brought his sword up, ready to fight.

Riku took his fighting stance in response. "Let's do this!"

"They're not fighting again are they? Sora always throws a fit when he loses…" A soft voice cut in behind us, defusing the battle before it began.

"No fair Kairi! I never lose!" Sora protested.

I finally turned to greet Sora's childhood friend.

The first thing I saw was the long blonde hair, some of it almost covered one of her eyes. And her eyes… the blue pierced through me like a tidal wave. She smiled shyly as she played with her dainty fingers.

"Sora, Riku, you remember Namine." I turned my back as Kairi spoke.

I had never felt this way about a girl before.

"Oh Roxas," Kairi called, I turned slowly, hoping my face didn't give anything away. "I don't think you've met my friend before. This is Namine." She gestured to her blonde friend and gave her a slight nudge as she fumbled a few steps forward.

"Hi…" Her quiet voice rang in my ears.

I nodded, unable to find any words. "Nice to meet you…" I finally mumbled. "I'll be back…" I quickly walked away while Kairi made the same introduction with Axel.

"Hi." I vaguely heard her soft voice as I made my way out of ear shot.

I stood from a distance as I watched her interact with the group. She was so captivating, I didn't understand why I couldn't take my eyes off her. She looked my way for a slight moment. My heart started racing, I looked down at my hands, which were staring to sweat.

"You ever gunna come back or what?" Axel asked as he approached. "Or are all you gunna do is stare all day?"

"That girl…" I started.

"She's cute…" Axel responded, he stood next to me, also observing.

"It's more than that… She's different. I donno how I know, but I can just feel it."

Axel gave me a quizzical look. "I sense something big here…"

I looked Axel straight in the eyes. "I'm telling Xemness I quit."


	26. Chapter 26

**A/N: These next few chapters are going to be going back and forth from past to present, also switching Point of views. Please feel free to let me know what you all think! enjoy!**

I paced around my room, conflicted with the date I had in just a few short hours, and worried about how seeing Roxas might trigger my emotions.

"Maybe I should just say I'm sick…" I bantered with my reflection in the mirror in front of me.

"I don't think avoiding the situation is going to help." I jumped at the sound of a new voice.

"Kairi! I didn't see you come in." my best friend crossed her arms and leaned against my door frame.

"So who are you more nervous to see? Roxas" I looked at my feet, as if that would avoid hearing his name. "Or Isa?" I met my friend's eyes, unsure of what to say.

"I personally would go for Roxas, but that's just me." Kairi joked. "But…" her face turned serious. "I think it's time you let the idea of him go. Isa… he seems nice, you could really use nice."

I bit my lip. Kairi had hit too close to home, I tried to stifle my emotions and uncertainty.

"You're right." I said. "I'm going to give Isa a chance."

Kairi beamed at my words. "Really?! You guys would be so cute together!" Kairi exclaimed. "Now come on! Let's go!" She grabbed my hand and dragged me out the door towards the direction of school as she went on of the idea of Isa and I, I couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm.

I had expected to find the same blonde hair in the same desk as I do every morning, but to my disappointment it was empty. I stared at the empty chair, wondering where Roxas could possibly be.

"Find something interesting?" A deep voice brought me back. I looked up and saw Isa's tall frame standing in front of me. With me sitting down, the distance made him look even taller.

"Isa…" I mumbled. "I didn't see you there." My checks flushed at my awkward banter.

Isa walked past me and took his seat behind mine. Before I could say anything else to recover, Miss Freedman walked into the classroom and began to calm down the class.

Class continued and Roxas never showed up, I stole glances at his empty chair, wondering where he could possibly be. While I was distracted by the empty chair, a folded piece of paper landed on top of my book open on my desk. I looked down.

_Meet me in the court yard in 5 minutes__. _Just as I read the sloppy hand writing, a high pitch bell sound, signaling the start of lunch. Where had the time gone?

I watched Isa's tall figure make haste towards the door. I snickered at the similar behavior.

I gathered my things and walked with Kairi and Sora to the lunch room, where we would part ways. As Sora and Kairi talked and laughed, I summoned the courage to finally ask what was on my mind.

"Um Sora…" I piped up.

Sora gave me a knowing smile. "I don't know where he is." He shook his head. "I haven't really seen him since yesterday at the Beach…" He scratched the back of his head.

"Right." I said quietly. "Well. I'm going to go meet Isa, I'll catch you guys later." I began walking away, ignoring their shocked faces and protests.

"What?! You can't just say that and walk away!" I heard Kairi yell behind me.

I arrived in the court yard, Isa was sitting on nearby bench reading. I couldn't help but notice how sexy he looked as the sun bathed him in the perfect reading light. As if he could sense me, he looked up from his book and turned his attention at me. My face flushed, he caught me staring. He set his book in his bag as he walked up and met me.

"Come with me." He held out his hand.

I took his hand and he took me to a close, yet secluded tree in the back of the courtyard. In the leaves' shade, there was a small blanket and a small basket resting on top.

"You… you did this?" I muttered. Isa nodded in response. "It's amazing!" my face beamed as I looked at the cute picnic Isa had arranged. I looked back at Isa, who was staring intently at me. The air grew silent as I clamed up from his curious gaze.

"Let's sit." Isa spoke softly. His eyes never left me.

"Do I have something on my face?" I asked quietly as I sat next to him on the blanket.

His eyes narrowed a bit as he thought, then he broke his gaze and turned his attention towards the basket. "Nothing is on your face." He spoke as he pulled out two sandwiches and two bottles of juice. He handed me one of each.

"Then why do you keep staring at me?" I spoke bluntly.

Isa returned his gaze towards me. I almost gasped at the complex face he was making. "I don't know why." He spoke softly. I could feel confliction in his voice. "I'm not supposed to like you Namine."

I was taken aback at his confession, so many questions rose to mind. "What do you mean?" was all I could muster.

"But I can't help myself." He spoke so quietly I almost didn't hear him. He looked down at his hands as if they held all the answers, ignoring my question all together.

Neither of us spoke for a while, I was too scared to comment on the things Isa said. We ate slowly in silence, but this time I didn't mind the quiet.


	27. Chapter 27

_3 years ago_

"You wish to quit?" His startled voice echoed in the silent study.

"Yes sir." I replied quickly.

"And I take it your two friends wish to quit with you?" you could hear the agitation in his words.

"… yes sir."

Xemness stood from behind his desk and slowly walked until he was standing in front of me.

"You wish to quit? And take along your friends?" He repeated in a mocking tone. "Your friends, can go. But you… what makes you think I'll let you go?"

I took a breath, I knew he was trying to intimidate me, but for the first time, I didn't care. "You don't really have a choice sir."

Anger flashed across Xemness face. "It is _you_ who does not have a choice! You came to me Roxas! And I, being the generous person I am, took you in, accepted you and your _bad_ behavior, rewarded you even, and _this_ is how you repay me?" His words were full of spite.

"I'm grateful for your… _kindness_." I spat. "However, I think it's time I moved on to better things."

Xemness cocked his head. "Better things? And what could be better than this?"

I looked deep into his yellow eyes. "Anything is better than this."

Xemness balled his fists and took a deep breath. "Fine." He said after a long moment. "You can quit. But I have one final job for you."

I took a breath. "What's the job sir?" I tried my best to sound sincere, despite that Xemness already knew I was not.

He leaned against his desk and folded his arms. "I need you go to the warehouse at the heart of town and set up level 3 surveillance."

"Level three? Is that really necessary for a warehouse?" I questioned.

"Level three." Xemeness glared. "That shouldn't be too difficult for you, have one of your _friends _help." He said the word friend with such disgust. "Now get out of my site before I change my mind in sparing you."

The way he said those last words sent shivers down my spine. Not that I believed he ever would truly hurt me, the way he said it made it seem like he would. I gave a quick nod and made my way out of the room as fast as I could without showing just how nervous those words had made me feel.

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	28. Chapter 28

"Can I walk you home after school?" Isa asked as we slowly made our way back to class.

"Um, sure…" I replied quietly.

Isa suddenly stopped walking and stared at my profile. Instinctively, I paused and faced him. He looked deep into my eyes, not even bothered by the few students watching curiously. I could feel my face grow hot.

"Isa. People are staring." I pleaded. Instead of releasing my gaze, he reached his hand and cupped my face in his palm. I could feel my heart race, I was sure it would beat right out of my chest. "Isa…" I muttered, unable to look away from his turquoise eyes.

"Change soon…" Isa muttered something but I couldn't quite make it out.

"What was that?" I breathed, caught up in the moment I wasn't even sure if I had said that out loud.

"You're very beautiful Namine." The way he said my name made my heart skip a few beats. Isa's serious face turned into a small smile as he lowered his hand back to his side. "Let's get back to class."

The rest of the school day went by in a blur, my mind was so preoccupied by thoughts of Isa's warm hand on my cheek, focusing on school was impossible. I was so relieved when the final bell rang before another wave of nervousness engulfed me. Walking home with Isa, would we have another moment like we did at lunch?

I tried to smile as natural as possible as I turned around and faced my tall suitor.

"Ready to go?" He asked kindly.

I nodded. As he led me out of the classroom, I made eyes with Sora and Kairi, who were watching eagerly. I gave an awkward wave as I continued forward. I knew I was going to be grilled with a thousand questions from those two later.

We passed the school gate, instead of going the direction of my home Isa was leading me towards town.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"Somewhere different." He replied briskly.

My stomach churned and I couldn't help but feel the sensation that someone was watching. I stopped to look around. Isa stopped as well, but his body language seemed hurried.

"Why did you stop?" he asked.

"Something… something doesn't feel right." Isa gave me a forced smile.

"Everything is fine." I hesitated, still unsure. Isa took my hand in his and looked in my eyes. "I don't want our time together to end just yet."

His words felt so sincere, I let him continue holding my hand as he led me deeper into town.

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	29. Chapter 29

**A/N: Hey all, I just wanted to warn you, this chapter... Things get pretty intense... sorry if it's too much for some of you, but you've been warned! Let me know what you guys think!**

_3 years ago_

"So why does a place like this need level 3 security anyway?" her faint voice echoed through the empty rooms. "Aren't they supposed to destroy this place soon to build that… that… what were they building here?"

"Does it matter?" I called back as I rolled my eyes. I fiddled with some wires as I hung a camera on the wall. "The sooner we get this done, the sooner we can all be free from Xemness and his bad attitude."

A dark shadow appeared before me, covering the light I needed to see the finicky wires I was working with.

"Xion, do you mind?" I turned and saw her short black hair a ruffled mess. "What happened to your hair?"

"Hey some of those crawl spaces are tricky." She did her best to flatten the mess but it was no use. She huffed and then turned her attention back at me. "Are you really sure Xemness is going to just '_let you go_'?" she said a little sarcastically.

"Whatever." I brushed her off as I continued my work. "He said he would so he will."

"It just seems too easy." Xion sighed as she approached my side. She reached out and pulled my hands down, forcing me to look at her. "Roxas… when have you ever known Xemness to just give up on something he wants?" I shrugged, not wanting to answer the question. "And he kind of needs you. Nobody is as good as the technical stuff, and the fighting stuff, and well you know…"

"Yeah, nobody is as 'special' as me." I said spitefully. I looked down at my hands, hating the position I was in. I went back to my work and connected the last couple wires. "Whatever, this is pretty much done, we can go now."

Xion nodded. We began walking out towards the exit when I realized I had forgotten to turn the power on for all the electrical work we had just completed.

"What is it?" Xion asked as she saw my shoulders slump.

"I forgot to turn on the power upstairs." I recalled. I grumbled as I turned around to make my way back up the tall stairs.

"Oh I'll get it!" Xion exclaimed. "You've done enough today, I'll meet you outside!" She hollered as she made her way to the stairs.

I silently thanked her as I made my way out of the building.

I stood by the entrance while I waited for my friend. "All done!" I heard Xion exclaim as I saw her smile come into view from inside the warehouse. "Easy pea-."

Xions words were cut short by a loud piercing sound. The world around me turned hot and a large force flew me back causing me to hit the ground, hard.

All I could hear was a high pitch ringing. My head pounded as I tried to focus on what was going on. I looked at the warehouse and saw rubble and fire.

"XION!" I screamed. At least I thought I screamed, I couldn't even hear my own voice. I limped at an excruciatingly slow pace to the warehouse and saw Xion's body amongst the flame and rubble. I pushed aside the debris on top of her.

"Oh god!" I gasped as tried to stop some of the oozing blood. "What did he do?!" I screamed as I cradled her scorched cheek in my hand. "Please, no, please, Xion wake up. Please…" I begged, praying this wasn't real. "Please Xion! Wake up!"

I took her limp body in my arms, pain coursed through every ounce of me, but I didn't care. I held her in my bleeding arms and shook her as hard as I could. "Wake up!" Her body remained lifeless. "Please, God no." My tears stained her crimson-char that covered her face. "No…" I muttered.

"This is my fault… this is all my fault…" was all I could say as I cried into her black hair and cradled her lifeless body back and forth.


	30. Chapter 30

"Isa, slow down!" I called to his tall back as he pulled me deeper into town.

"We don't have much time." Isa mumbled.

"What do you mean? Do you have somewhere you need to be?" Isa stopped. The area was familiar, but I found it odd for Isa to pick the middle of a side street for our time together. I looked at Isa with confusion. He returned with compassion and sorrow.

"You are quite beautiful you know." He spoke softly as his hand found its usual place on my cheek. He looked down, deep into my eyes. "Can I… kiss you?"

My heart jumped in my chest. I wasn't quite sure on my feelings for Isa, but I knew I wanted him to kiss me. I slowly nodded and gently closed my eyes. Not even a second later I felt Isa's warm, soft lips on top of mine. I felt his compassion for me in his kiss, before I realized, Isa's warmth was gone.

I opened my eyes. I stared at Isa's profile. He looked at the ground ahead of him, his cheeks were slightly red but his eyes almost read that of pain. I reached out and took his hand and gave it a squeeze. Isa turned his gaze to me, all traces of pain that was once there before was now gone, and been replaced by a small smile.

"Come on. There's one more place we need to go." Isa squeezed my hand as we continued into town.

"The clock tower?" I asked as I stood in front of the tall building. I took a few steps forward and looked up, taking the building in. Memories of the last time I was here floated in my mind. After a moment I turned around and faced Isa. He was looking at my feet in front of him. His eyes looked so sad as he refused to look directly at me. "What's wrong?" I asked.

"I'm sorry…" He muttered, still refusing to meet my gaze.

"Sorry? What are you sorr-." My words were cut short when my vision was suddenly obscured. Blinded I tried to scream but my mouth was covered by a large hand, I felt the rope bind my hands together behind my back. I struggled with all my might but it was no use, whoever it was, was much stronger.

_Roxas…_ I silently prayed as I was being carried off to some unknown location. _Roxas please, help me._

A bright light obscured my view. A tall figure stepped in front of the light, I focused on the frame in front of me as my eyes readjusted to its new settings. I blinked hard and watched the maleficent smile beaming at me become clearer and clearer. Instinctively I tried to push myself away, but I found myself bound to a chair that was showing no signs of moving.

"Oh, now, now. No need to be so frightened." Although his voice sounded like his words were sincere, they had a crisp edge that made Namine's stomach plummet. A long slender hand grabbed my cheeks hard and forced me to look into deep, malicious yellow eyes. "I warned you of what would happen if you chose to disobey me." Xemness' twisted smile made the unease I was already feeling, skyrocket. I thought it was impossible to shake me down any more than I already was, but I was so wrong.

"Get ready." Xemness finally dropped his hand and turned his attention to other cloaked figures, whom I had just noticed for the first time. "He'll be here soon, take your positions." A small group of hooded figures gave a slight nod and made their way to what I assumed was the exit.

"Who are they?" I asked, surprised in my new found bravado. "What are they doing?"

"Oh them?" Xemness returned his gaze on me. "Don't worry about them, they're nobodies, if I were you…" Xemness leaned in bringing his face only centimeters from my own. "I would worry about what they're going to do when your little boyfriend gets here."

My eyes went wide and I could feel what color remained on my face, vanish. I fought against the chair and rope which bound me, as hard as I could. "NO!" I screamed. But all of my protests were drowned out by Xemness' menacing laughter.

**A/N: Hey all I'm glad you guys are still enjoying the story! Welp, I'm all caught up now chapter wise so once again, I'm not sure how often I will be posting. I'm not really sure how things are going to turn out either, but I can't wait to get it all together! I'm still writing as much as I can so hopefully I'll be posting another chapter soon! Let me know what you guys think (Let me know if you guys have any predictions as well ;P) that's all for now!**


	31. Chapter 31

Darkness engulfed me, my thoughts were consuming me. All I could hear were what sounded like large gears grinding behind me with each passing minute; it was as if it was taunting me, driving my thoughts mad as I sat alone in the dark.

At some point the fear I was feeling turned into distraught. My outlook looked grim, as much as I wanted to be free, I prayed my savior wouldn't come. The knot in my stomach never ceased. I had given up struggling, my restraints were too tight; I could feel the blood on my wrists from the rope burn.

I don't know how much time had passed, it could have been minutes; it could have been hours. I was lost in my own despair when a sliver of light crept into the room. A cloaked figure approached, the fear I thought dissipated quickly returned with full force. I struggled to break free as the figure grew closer and closer.

"Please…." I begged. "Leave me alone!"

"Shhh…" a deep voice hissed from behind a gloved finger in front of a dark hooded face. He reached up and slowly removed his hood reavealing blue hair, the top was slicked back and spiked, long locks fell to the sides of his face. His face was stern, at the bridge of his nose was a thin X tracing up his forehead and down to his cheeks.

"I… Isa?" I muttered. This couldn't be him, he looked so different. Scarier even.

"Around here I'm Saïx." His face remained stern, void of any emotion.

My heart fell even deeper into anguish. A pain in my heart and stomach shocked me to my core. As sense of betrayal enveloped me.

"Everything was a lie?" I muttered as I pieced everything together.

I paused waiting for some type of response; his blank face ripped a hole deeper in my heart.

"You were sent to spy on me…" As the words left my mouth, it all became real to me. I was in this situation because of him, every moment spent with him was a lie, a façade, and I fell for it. I turned away as the tears fell from my eyes.

"Namine…" His stern voice faltered.

"Just leave me alone." I cried still refusing to look at his face. After a brief moment I felt his presence disappear as I requested. I once again found myself alone as a loud chiming began signaling the sound of a new hour.

As the loud chiming came to its close I felt a new presence approach, I caught glimpse of the same cloak I saw moments before. My body stiffened for a moment, unsure of who was behind the hood.

"Leave me alone…" I sighed in defeat as I looked solemnly towards the ground. I felt the presence move around me, but I didn't care enough to look. I felt a tugging on the ropes around wrists. I looked down to see the cloaked figure untying the ropes that bound me to the chair.

"What are you doing?" I asked as they worked around the knots. "Who are you?" I felt my hands and feet go free. The stinging quickly vanished as adrenalin pumped through my veins.

"Shhhh…" My cloaked advocate brought a gloved finger to their darkened face. I thought back to the similar moment with Isa not too long ago; although it was so similar this mystery person was different, softer almost. "Come." He gestured for me to follow him. As I heard his words my heart skipped a beat. Although he spoke too quickly for me to try and recognize the voice, my hopes sparked a little. Could this be the savior I was praying for?

I followed his lead in a daze, unable to pluck to courage to face my savior. We left my temporary prison and found ourselves on a stairwell. My masked guardian took a few steps down but I hesitated. This was too easy. And it was much too quiet.

"Something isn't right." I almost whispered. Just as the words left my mouth there was a loud commotion from the bottom of the stairs, heading our direction. I looked at the black hood in front of me with wide eyes. There were only two options, go back to my cell or go up, neither sounded optimal.

"Up." The hood quickly stated. "There's another way down." My heart beat quickened as I raced up the stairs with my savior on tail. My mind was racing. Worried about what lied ahead, what was following us and who this mystery person really was, I found myself at the end of the stairs and pushing a door that lead to the roof.

The stars were the first thing I noticed. If it were under different circumstances I would have loved to stay and enjoy the view

"Over here." My rescuer took my hand, bringing me back to reality, and led me across the small ledge of the roof, making our way around towards the other side. I glanced up and saw the giant face of a clock. 11:00. it had been hours since school got out and Isa played me like a fool, I'm sure Kairi was worried sick.

We made our way around the face of the clock and the roof opened up into a much wider space. Across the roof was another door.

"We're almost there." His words of encouragement only lasted the second he said them. The door we were running towards opened and three more hooded figures barreled through. We quickly turned around to try and come back the way we came, however four more of the same figures had now found their places behind us and were slowly started to circle in on us.

"Stay behind me!" My guardian used his body to shield me as he took a protective stance and began to watch as the other figures got closer and closer, leaving no escape.

In one sudden movement one of the cloaked villains moved in taking a swing at my protector, however, embracing the attack he managed to dodge and land a blow himself. All of it happening so fast, more of our attackers joined in. Although my savior was fast, he wasn't fast enough, throwing punches and dodging most of the attacks, he still found himself getting hit. As the fighting continued, it was clear that the attackers were out numbering him and were starting to land more and more hits. After what seemed like forever, and yet no time at all, our attackers managed to overpower us and restrained us from fighting back.

"Thank goodness that's over." A deep menacing voice rang out from the open doorframe. "You all know how much I _hate_ violence." The dark yellow eyes and malicious smile that made my stomach churn appeared from the shadow of the door. "I was starting to worry you weren't going to show… _Roxas_." As Xemnas spat the name, my heart stopped.

I looked over at my savior, his face still covered by his hood. His body moved with his panting, still struggling to free himself from Xemnas' nobodies. Where it only took two to restrain me, it took the other six to hold him down and finally bring him to his knees.

Xemnas slowly made his approach and his goons moved aside so he could get a clear view. "Let's get a good look at that smug face of yours." He hissed. "I want to see the pain in your eyes as you watch your precious girlfriend _die_." Shock rang through my soul as Xemnas reached out to take off the hood that blocked Roxas' face, however a low laugh coming from underneath Roxas' hood made my mind race. I watched as Xemnas' smug look turn to pure rage as the laughter got louder. I looked back at Roxas, only instead of the spikey blonde hair that should be on top of his head, was a fiery red in its place.

The laughter drew to a close as the red head finally looked up to meet the angry yellow eyes. "You didn't really think it would be that easy did you?"

Anger shook Xemnas' tall frame. "Axel…" I never knew a name could sound so scary. "Where is he?!" Xemnas grabbed Axel by his collar. This time Axel wore the smug smile. Xemnas glared into Axel, neither of them conceding. Finally Xemnas looked up to his cronies that were holding Axel down. "Dispose of him. We have no use for him."

"NO!" I began screaming as the men started to pull Axel towards the door them to do only god knows what.

After the group left, Xemnas turned his attention towards me and the two nobodies restraining me. "Put her back in the room, and _this time_ make sure you both are watching her!" His anger was frightening and I was glad his anger wasn't directed at me. "Roxas is here somewhere." He continued. "We need to be ready for him! And all of you are doing a piss-pore job!"

"I'd sure say so." a familiar voice sang in my ear. "You're security seems pretty lax now and days Xemnas." The restraint I was feeling on my right arm loosened, I looked to my capture and watched as he removed his hood revealing the spikey blonde hair and ocean blue eyes of the man they were all looking for.

"Roxas…" I stifled a small cry. For the first time in hours I felt relief from all the horror I was feeling. That feeling immediately vanished as Xemnas let out a menacing laugh.

"At last… we can get this party started." Xemnas smiled sending shivers to my very core.

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