How do I know if I have depression?
I'm almost never happy. Half of the time, I don't feel anything. I find it easy to make myself feel nothing. I know I push people away because it’s easier. I just want answers. I'm sick of feeling this way. It’s ruining my relationships with people.
Depression
<p>Maybe you have depression.</p><p>The name of your condition matters much less than the descriptions you wrote of how you feel.</p><p>Since you've observed how you sometimes interact with people and realize you aren't happy with the result, you've a very solid starting point for reflecting on your deeper wishes in relating to others.</p><p>Start with asking reasons of yourself about the puzzling aspects of how you're engaging with others.</p><p>Theorizing as to "why" you feel that pushing people away is "easier", and easier than what?</p><p>Googling the keywords of how you feel, may open a starting point for ideas on knowing yourself and what you wish for.</p>