Unable to work and unable to continue his studies, Li wanted to end it all. But his pride and his feeling that suicide was a coward's way out made him want his to look like an accident.
就業不行、升學也不行，於是他想離開人世，想自殺。但又因自尊心強，覺得自殺是懦夫行為，就假裝是意外。