After once being one of the only students at his school that could still see, Xiao was extremely upset after becoming totally blind. He also hated himself for being so reckless. He was anxious, terrified, angry and full of regret. When these feelings took him over, Xiao would go up to the school's roof and sing at the top of his voice whilst playing the guitar to vent his anger.
從「盲人中的明眼人」到與多數同學一樣成為全盲，這號風雲人物自尊心受創，又對自己的魯莽與粗心悔恨不已，內心充滿了焦慮、恐懼、憤怒、不甘；當這些情緒漲滿時，他就爬上學校頂樓，用力嘶喊、彈奏吉他，藉以宣洩心中悲憤。