He describes himself as a field lying fallow, with its soil loosened, seeds sown, and soil loosened again. As his inner emotions stabilized, he says, "I was no longer clutching for dear life at any random piece of driftwood floating my way."
他形容，就像休耕一樣，不斷鬆土、種植、再鬆土的過程，內在情感更為穩定，「不會再東抓西抓浮木來作為依靠」。