This pain, incomprehensible to anyone else, was so bad that she ran away. "I was sitting on the train, and I suddenly made for the door. I just wanted to jump out and end it all."
這種無人瞭解的苦楚，讓她離家出走，「當時坐在火車上，突然就衝向車門，想跳下去，一死百了。」