Nineteen--that number seemed to be a turning point for me, too. That's when I understood that there was no turning back, and began to give up the idea of returning home.
19，這個數字似乎也成為我安身立命的轉捩點，過了這道關卡，明白「人在江湖，身不由己」的無奈，歸鄉無望，真正死了心，也或許年歲漸長，「胡不歸？」