But deep inside he worried that pursuing literature would mean consigning himself to solitude and intractable poverty. Seeking to face his fears, he set out on a bicycle journey along the Yunnan-Tibet Highway in the fall of 2004 after receiving his Cloud Gate grant.
不過內心深處，他卻擔心從事文學，代表的是「孤獨」和「沒有出路的窮困」，因此獲得在雲門補助後的 2004 年秋天，他開始進行「騎鐵馬入滇藏公路」的瘋狂旅行計畫，希望能藉此挑戰自己心中最害怕的「孤獨」與「貧窮」。