She discovered that all of the feminist theory she was aware of couldn't help her, that the maternal and personal sides of her character were locked in constant battle. She wanted to strike a balance but couldn't find one.
她發現她所知道的任何女性主義理論都不能幫助她，她一直在母親與個人兩個角色間掙扎，想尋求一個平衡點，但是一直找不到。