He felt deeply what it was like to be betrayed by his friends. He says, "If there's a god in heaven, I want him to change into human form so I can have it out with him: Why is it that I treated people with sincerity, and this is what I got in return?
吸毒以後，他對人心十足地失望，對人很冷淡，因為深刻體驗了被朋友背離的痛苦。他說道，「天若有神，請你變人來理論，為何我真情真意，回報如此不同？