As I remember it, I think the reason I rejected being a specialist was perhaps because I had been influenced by traditional culture. In high school, when reading the classics, I deeply internalized an identification with the character of the ancient Chinese men of letters.
我回想，為什麼對專業人員有排斥感，可能受到傳統文化的影響，高中時讀古書，內心深處認同古老中國書生的角色。