Yet this was by far the most painful experience she has had to endure in life. She sank into a deep melancholy, and all she could do was sleep, unwilling to even open her eyes all day long. It felt like being in a very deep and very long dream. She didn't maintain a bedside vigil at the hospital during her son's final days, nor did she attend the funeral.
但是，毫無疑問，這是她一生中最痛苦也最難熬的日子，她陷入深深的憂鬱，唯一能做的就是睡覺，從早睡到晚，不願睜開眼睛，感覺上彷彿做了一個很深很長的夢，她甚至沒有守在醫院送兒子最後一程、也沒有出席兒子的喪禮。