But sometimes I still can't stop myself from feeling just terrible, because I'm mostly afraid to let anyone learn my story. Sometimes I'm filled with this inexpressible dread; I'm frightened that one day my past life will be discovered by everyone.
但有時候我還是忍不住會難過，因為我有一段害怕讓人家知道的事；有時候我也會莫名地恐懼，害怕萬一哪一天被人家發現以前的事。