"I cursed my fate every day, and it seemed like the end of the world," Chih recalls. When she first began dialysis, surgery was first performed to create an arterio-venous shunt. As she lay on the dialysis bed watching the blood being siphoned out of her body, she experienced the utter unwillingness to accept reality that those who haven't undergone dialysis would find it difficult to understand.
「那時候我每天怨天尤人，宛如世界末日，」遲淑玉回想開始洗腎時，動手術造動靜脈廔管、躺在洗腎病床上看著血液從自己體內抽離出來… …，那種打從心底無法接受的感覺，外人實在很難體會。