When Fan was 14, she reached a crossroads in her study of dance--she'd loved dance since she was very young, but was only allowed to study the then politically correct Chinese folk dance. She particularly despised the "joyful" smile you were required to plaster on your face for the length of these interminable dances.
她又憶起，14 歲那年，正走在舞蹈人生的十字路口上；她從小就深愛舞蹈，卻只能在當時「政治正確」的中國民族舞的魚缸裡困游，她尤其厭煩民族舞永遠歌舞昇平、只能擺出歡慶笑臉的僵化做作。