The result was that: "I gradually lost all feeling for the world around me. I felt removed from myself. I became more and more empty inside and more and more unhappy. Then I used more work to anesthetize myself to the emptiness and unhappiness I felt."
結果「我對身邊的環境漸漸失去了感覺，對自己也漸漸疏離起來，越來越空虛，越來越不快樂，這些空虛和不快樂唯有靠繼續忙碌來自我麻醉」，他說。