She admits that her son's sudden and tragic death even led her to contemplate suicide at one time, feeling that she could no longer carry on. "But I still had two children and a family; if I had gone what would they have done?
為什麼有人能這麼殘忍地對待別人的傷痛﹖她不否認，愛子遽逝時，她一度想自殺，覺得人生似乎走到盡頭，「但是，我還有兩個孩子，還有家人，我走了，他們怎麼辦？