Deep down, though, I always felt like I'd "been pushed in front of the public," and I'd quarrel with myself and with my fate--it was such a small thing I wanted, just a nice family.
但其實在心裡面，我一直覺得自己是「被推到群眾面前」的，常常會和自己、和命運吵架﹘﹘我覺得我要的不多，只想擁有一個漂亮的家。