I just wanted to get back home to Shanghai, but I had no idea when that would happen, or if I would end up spending the rest of my life as a peasant. I felt completely lost. "
「未來也很茫茫一片，完全不知到那一天可以結束這樣的日子，或許一輩子就是當一名農人了，因此感到非常茫然」，王安憶回想年少時的經歷。