It's just that, after a long time living at home, I was unable to stay focused on any one task, I didn't earnestly build up anything, and I had no interpersonal relationships to draw on. In the end there was still a sense of emptiness, of being at the margins.
只是在家時間久了，沒辦法專心投入一件事、沒有認真累積一些東西，也沒有人際上的支援，還是會有一點不著邊際的空虛感。