When she went out herself, she could not find her way home and the beef and noodles she had been dreaming of for so long did not taste so good. "It was as if everything had changed," she recalls. "Of course, my own youth had gone and it hurt a little."
而趙淑俠自己，竟也出了門找不回家來，叫了日思夜想的辣味牛肉麵，卻食不下嚥，「好像什麼都變了，什麼都留不住」，她回憶說，「當然，對自己的青春已逝也有些傷懷。」