Here is what she wrote at the time: "Now, I'm both disturbed and uncaring. I feel panic-stricken all day. All the certainties that I so firmly believed in have been shaken. All my long-term writing has been put aside.
「現在的我既不心安也不理得，整天惶惶然的，以前堅信不疑的標準都發生了動搖，持久寫作的事都擱下了。