But in the following three years he spent in hospital, he has been constantly haunted by the thought of his inability to support his wife and children.
鍾理和在他的日記上寫著：「我捧著鏡子，… … 陌生的臉孔，它衰老而削瘦，皮膚是皺癟而枯燥，眼睛陷下去，眼圈一痕青紫，眸子是暗的，三十六歲，雖還是年富力強的青年人，而我，卻白了鬍子… … …」