Made physically ill by the city's juxtaposition of decadence with economic inequity and racial injustice, she returned to Taiwan and began coolly preparing to die. She put documents in order, gave away her clothing and other items, and hoarded lithium.
走訪紐奧爾良 6 天期間，她看到人們吃喝玩樂的放縱無度，貧富、種族差距的不公不義，令她「厭惡到想吐。」美國回來後她冷靜的預備死亡，準備文件，處理衣物，儲備鋰鹽，平靜到連好友、家人都沒有察覺。