Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)
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				Title: <strong>Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>20-10-2009, 05:14:06</strong>
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				&nbsp;Joshua stood in the silent, peaceful shadows of the book cases, his pale, slender hands gently shifting books from his small cart, to their proper places along the shelf. This was his work, and he prided himself in doing it well. <br><br>&nbsp;Often, at night, he would come up from the living quarters and read by candle light. He'd found some... remarkable books on things he'd never have supposed they had here. Then again, his family didn't turn down any book given to the library, so there was likely a lot that noone knew or cared about... but he'd grown to care.<br><br>&nbsp;Late at night, as he'd stay up reading, he'd come across tales of romance, and adventure and mystery... tales in which no woman played a predominant role, and two men embraced each other passionately...<br>&nbsp;A light, rosy blush covered his pale cheeks for a moment, and he went back to his work. <br><br>&nbsp;Recently, focussing on his duties as a librarian had become rather harder than usual as there was a weekly distraction...<br>There was a man. The most unusually compelling creature Joshua had ever laid his eyes on, and every time that man was in the library, he would find himself stopping to stare...<br><br>&nbsp;He glanced over his shoulder at the table where the man sat, holding a large leather volume before him. It was strange that he never checked out a book, but perhaps he enjoyed reading them in the library's atmosphere... at any rate, the sort of distraction he posed to Joshua presented a problem in and of itsself. How was he to work when his gaze kept wandering to and fixing upon the splending figure of a well-dressed man in their old library?<br><br>&nbsp;He looked remarkably out of place there, amongst their dusty old volumes, and yet he seemed at ease. More than once Joshua had considered going over to ask the man if he needed anything, but his face would get red and his heart would beat fast... so he kept his distance, just staring from the safe shadows of the bookshelves.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>20-10-2009, 06:08:00</strong>
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				The man's legs were crossed, his every inch and move at ease. This was a ruse, of course, one he had long ago learned to bring to the forefront when the prey was near. His name was David, and he was of a most unusual sort. David's dress was that of near sophistry, his every coat cut fine to his figure, always in black or grey. Underneath he wore darkened color vests over white shirts, as was the style in that year of 1834. His trousers were perfectly tailored, always in the same color as his coat, and a fine gold watch crossed from his button to his left jacket pocket. His face was pale, though not without color. His eyes a deep blue that bordered on black, his hair the color of a raven's wing. His handsome face seemed without flaw, though there was a small pale line under his jaw, where he had been cut by accident as a child. Every week, on Wednesday and Friday, he would come and sit in this small library and read. Or, pretend to, rather. Honestly, he enjoyed the library, it being cozy and warm, even in winter. Quiet and peaceful, it was definately better than the library at the center of town. But the best part of this library was the view, and not the one out the window which faced the next building. No, the view he found so facinating was the one of the boy.<br><br>David had first seen Joshua when he had been wandering through town one day, as he was wont to do at times. The boy had been all bundled up against the cold, and had not seen David as he passed. David had been riveted to the place for a moment at the sight, and his predator's mind had begun to hunt the beautiful boy. He had begun by entering the library one day, nervous, though he didn't show it, that someone would question him. He found a large tome, and sat down to read. It hadn't been long before his eyes locked on the boy. He watched Joshua, interested at all times in him, his every emotion, and his frequent blushes especially, noted in David's mind. The man had been surprised, to say the least, when he had noticed the pretty thing watching him. He wasn't very good at it, honestly. His eyes were noticably on the larger man, never leaving him. He blushed often, and David was truly excited by this. Was the boy as interested in he, as he was in the boy? David was much better, capable of watching the lovely man out of the corner of his eye, appearing to be reading the entire time he stared at the soft perfection. And his thoughts, though definately much more readily blush worthy than the boy's, failed to bring a heat to the pale cheeks. Until the day their eyes met. <br><br>David had long ago learned where the boy stocked which days, and at what times, and had fallen into the habit of coming and sitting for the entire time in which the Joshua was within sight, then leaving when this was no longer possible. After nearly three months of this, this game of him hunting but not pouncing, he grew strong, his nerve building enough for him to act. That day, when the boy's eyes turned to view him, David's eyes locked with them. His right hand came up in a gentle movement, and he whispered "Joshua. Come here, won't you?" while crooking a finger.
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>20-10-2009, 23:02:55</strong>
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				&nbsp;Over the past few months, Joshua had come to expect and appreciate the presence of the mysterious man who would spend his time in a library that operated so far below his apparent station. As the man never looked up from his book, it was safe to appraise his flawless face, and splendid dark hair. As such, noone could possibly have been more surprised, confused, nor flustered as that dark gaze suddenly met his, catching him right in the act of examining closely the enchanting male once more.<br><br>&nbsp;Joshua reached up a hand to brush a strand of mahogany hair from before his wide, honey brown eyes. Color rose to his cheeks, and it seemed to him that he couldn't remember how to breathe, let alone move. Yet, to his fascination, he soon found himself standing before the beckoning man, a small stack of books still cradled in his slender arms.<br><br>&nbsp;His voice's sweet timber was slightly off as he spoke, his well practiced professionalism perfectly ruined by the undisguised awe that snuck onto his face before Joshua had a thought to correct it. " May I help you, Sir?"<br><br>&nbsp;
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>20-10-2009, 23:29:09</strong>
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				David sat in careful examination of his prey for a moment. Joshua's pinked cheeks drew his study, and enlivened his sense of predatory hunger. He waited long enough to make the pale boy grow anxious, which would make him more likely to tell the truth. Then he smiled, a wide, friendly smile that showed none of the fang of the carnivore within, but seemed to shine from his pale yet darkened visage. "I have been coming here for three months now, and I have but now remembered myself and realised I had been discourteous." His long, pale fingers slid down the page before him, softly ensuring no crease came to the volume, and shut the tome. His right hand slid up and out, fingers pointing, offering a shake. "I should have introduced myself long before now, but the quiet solitude of your lovely establishment beguiled me into my own retrospection. I am Sir David Rathsbone, second Duke and Lord of Shirspear." He made a face, and shook his head before continuing with a chuckle. "And I despise titles, so I demand you call me David." The friendly smile returned, and his eyes locked with Joshua's once again. Once his hand was shaken, he relaxed back into the chair. "And, now that I've remembered my manners, perhaps you will choose to do the same. That is to say, you might answer me a question. Why, dear boy," His smile shined brightly, though his eyes now became much more hard. "have you been standing in the shadows, and studying me with such vigour?" He placed the book on the table before him, and stood. Closing with Joshua with each movement, he spoke softly. "Now, it might be that your parents knew that I was a Lord, and told you to make sure I had anything I needed. Or, you might have decided the same, based on my dress, which, I admit, is a little more refined than most. But, I don't think it's either of those. So," He had circled behind the boy, and now lay a hand on his shoulder. He leaned in and whispered in his ear. "Why? And do be honest, I shall know if you lie."
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>20-10-2009, 23:43:53</strong>
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				&nbsp;It was strange how the man studied him, causing his discomfort with the situation to grow. Just as he was considering speaking once more, though he wasn't absolutely certain he could manage it, the man smiled in a way that made Joshua's heart thudded almost painfully beneath his white shirt, and brown vest.<br><br>&nbsp; He adjusted his grip on the books in his arms, placing them all to one side as he reached one of his soft, almost feminine hands, to grasp the other's. " It is a pleasure to meet you..." he paused, feeling awkward calling such a high-class gentleman by name. " David. " Joshua blushed as the man's locked on his once more, and shifted his weight slightly. " I'm Joshua Matthews. "<br><br>&nbsp;Just as he was certain that he was going to become more comfortable in the situation, the question posed to him proved him quite wrong. His breath caught and he ducked his face, his long lashes shielding his eyes from view for a moment as he struggled with his own embarrassment. He suppressed a shudder as the man's hand came to a rest on his shoulder, his voice far too close to the boy's ear for this to be viewed as a normal work conversation. <br><br>&nbsp;" I..." he paused, considering his words carefully. He'd spent enough time around books to know that how things were said was often more important than what was being said. " I found you intriguing."
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 00:11:19</strong>
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				A bare moment, David's hand lingered on Joshua's shoulder. Then, with a chuckle, the man began to move again. "Intriguing, you say?" He was walking around the boy, circling, almost. "Your choice to use the word intriguing is intriguing in itself. The word is an odd one, with many synonyms. Many I like, such as Alluring, appealing, attractive..." He leaned in close to the boy's ear on this word, enjoying the closeness. "And others I truly adore. Enchanting, enthralling, provocative, and" Now he was a mere inch from the boy's face as he said his favorite. "Arousing." He lingered, and a hand came up, as if to cup the boy's chin. He caught it before Joshua noticed, his thoughts snapping back to the here and now. "And I wonder if I know which you mean. You see, dear Joshua, no matter how we try to hide in them, for those as pale as we, the shadows are no disguise for our blushes." He chuckled again, and lay both hands on him, one one each shoulder. "I learned that lesson the first time a beautiful man passed me by."
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 00:23:04</strong>
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				&nbsp;Opening his mouth to protest, Joshua made the mistake of looking up into David's eyes and found himself completely unable to formulate an argument. Of course, the gentleman's words didn't assist in his thought process, as each one cause the color in his cheeks to heighten and intensify. <br><br>&nbsp;He drew back slightly as David placed his hands on Joshua's shoulders, his honey colored gaze straying to one side as though he would be free of the predicament. " I'm not entirely certain what you mean." he stated, which was true enough in its own right. He'd never viewed a man as attractive before... not outside of the fiction section, at any rate, and he wasn't at all sure of what was going on .<br><br>&nbsp;" I'm afraid I..." he paused, forcing his voice to calm. " I have work to attend to. I am pleased for your patronage but... I... I'm not certain why you called me over."
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 03:03:00</strong>
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				Having watched each stage of Joshua's blushing denial, which wasn't a denial in truth, David was rather certain of his prey. Still, best not to press too hard. His hands slid away, and he leaned back. "Of course. You may deny as long as you wish, Joshua. But sooner or later your fantasies will catch up with you." David's voice was velvet, a drawing sound of utter smoothness. "As to why, I called you for a very simple reason. I grew tired of watching you out of the corner of my eye from afar. I shall, from now on, study you from up close, and with my entire focus." He turned and picked up the tome on the table, which he held up to show it to be the same volume Joshua had been reading the night before David's first visit. "I'll agree to this much. If you will say that you have no interest in me right now, I'll leave, and never bother you again." His fingers slipped beneath the pale boy's chin, and brought it up so that his midnight eyes met the honey. "Well, Joshua? Shall I slip into the night, and never darken your doorstep again?"
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 03:53:11</strong>
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				&nbsp;Relieved at the removal of the other man's hands, Joshua was able to raise his gaze for long enough to gauge David's expression. His small, soft lips parted slightly as stared up at the beautiful man before him... this man who's very voice stirred something inside of him, which he had been attempting to disguise for quite some time now. <br><br>&nbsp;He didn't resist as the lovely nobleman lifted his chin, a sort of electricity passing between their gazes. Even as he knew it would be the prudent thing to do, he was not one to lie, and didn't enjoy the idea of not seeing the man. <br><br>&nbsp;" I..." he frowned, dropping his gaze away as his beautiful pale face flushed. " Cannot say that."
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 06:09:57</strong>
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				David chuckled, his hand sliding away from Joshua's chin. He took a step back, and turned. He pulled his coat tight, his wide shoulders straining the well cut fabric. "Then, it being the hour of closing at this lovely place, I shall depart, and return on Friday. Unless." He turned to look over his shoulder at the lovely boy. "Unless you'd like to come with me. Have you ever been out on the town at night?" He moved to the table, and picked up the book, opening it to the last page Joshua had read, which was marked with fingerprints on the paper. "No, I don't suppose you have. You probably prefer to stay in with these wonderful books." His eyes scanned the page, and he smiled deeply. He read it aloud, letting the words slip like butter from his tongue. "'The valiant warrior's mind filled with his lover's graceful form, the steep shoulders and dark skin, his eyes running down the man's form. In a slow embrace, his manhood slipped within the man, and both shuddered in Ecstasy.'" He looked up at Gabriel, his smile much more heated now. "Wonderful indeed. Is this why you find me so 'intriguing'?" He closed the book, and strode to the shelf it came from. With a graceful move, he slid the tome back, exactly where it had been, with one finger. "If so, I have some news for you. While the reality of two men is not always so perfect..." David's eyes caught the younger man's, and held them firm. "It's nearly always more glorious, and no story will ever live up to the feeling of the reality." His eyes held firm for a moment, letting his words sink in. "So, anyway, my question. Would you care to have a night on the town with me?"
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 06:32:40</strong>
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				He opened his mouth, about to decline when the man opened his book and began to read, stopping him dead in his tracks. His entire face paled, but the tips of his ears and the highest point of his cheeks turned a brilliant crimson color. <br><br>&nbsp;Joshua watched as David put the book back on the shelf, his entire body displaying his horror at having been so obviously outed. He frowned then, determined to tell the man that libraries weren't made for reading aloud, and he should go home if he wished to do that... <br><br>&nbsp;When his mother came over. Of all the embarrassing, terrible things to happen, his mother had to come bustling over with his slightly tattered brown overcoat. She whispered something in his ear, smiled at David, and bustled off.<br><br>" I... suppose it can't hurt anything..." he said hesitantly, his gaze fixing apprehensively upon his mother's back for a moment longer before returning to the gentleman's stunning gaze. " Alright..."
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 07:53:56</strong>
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				David's heart froze. For a second, he thought he might have gone too far, as Joshua's pretty face paled instead of pinking. As his mouth opened to apologise, Joshua's mother came bustling forward with his coat. His mouth, which had not actually opened, and so showed no outward sign that he had doubted his actions, slid up into a grin again. With the boy's agreement, his face lit up, the darkness momentarily disappearing. He grabbed the lovely young man's hand, and turned quickly. "Good! I shall show you such fun that you will never want to come home." He stopped for a second, his face turning thoughtful. "But, in an effort to ensure that no misunderstanding occurs, I shall promise you now that you will be home before dawn." David's friendly grin covered the distance between them with the obvious good feelings pouring from him. He marched Joshua out, arm in arm. As they passed the curb, his driver rolled up in the buggy he usually went home in. David waved just once and the driver, being a part of David's closest coterie, chuckled and drove on, letting his lord have time with his latest acquisition. David smiled wide at the young thing on his arm. "Let's see. There's the cinema, the theatre, and the park. Which shall we see first? What do you want to do? There's a lovely operetta going on in the theatre, but the park is beautiful this time of night. Entirely up to you."
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 08:00:58</strong>
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				&nbsp;Joshua didn't know what to make of the man who made it so obvious he knew of Joshua's... peculiarity. He had also never known how to respond to someone so full of life as David appeared to be, and so was completely dumbstruck as the man led him out of the library.<br><br>&nbsp;He smiled faintly, his wide eyes fixed upon his enchanting companion as they entered the car, and the gentleman started rattling off destinations. <br><br>&nbsp;Joshua froze, staring at the man for a long moment as he made his decision. The cinema and the theater were too expensive for him. After all, he didn't get much of a salary working for his family... That settled the decision for him. <br><br>&nbsp;" I would like to go to the park..." he responded, the soft sound of his voice floating over to his strange new... friend. " I've never been fond of crowds..."
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				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 22:30:30</strong>
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				David blinked at his companion and silently cursed himself. Suggesting the theatre and the Cinema, when he knew it was expensive! He hadn't been thinking, with his head filled with nonsense of showing Joshua a new world outside the library. Not that he'd give that up, of course, but for now he'd have to settle with getting the lovely boy to trust him. "Delightful! They just finished setting up the lights for the spring festival, so the park is especially beautiful tonight. And rather deserted, so no worries about crowds." The last he added in an effort to make sure Joshua didn't realise he had guessed the real reason for the destination. Still, the park wasn't 'first date' like. It was rather dark, and secluded. It was the kind of place that couples went to be alone. He would have to work very hard to not push too far. Still...he liked the way the day was going. The carriage came to a slow halt at the edge of the wooded park, the driver having listened carefully to the words said in the seats. Truthfully, David's father would know by dawn that his son had picked up a new plaything, and David had a sneaking suspicion that his coterie's ranks weren't as closed as he hoped. Still, his father knew of his tastes, and made no noise about it except to order his son only once. <em>Let no one know that my son is a deviant. If they do, I shall cut you off entirely!</em> Ugh. His father was close minded, but at least he wasn't rash. David slipped down from the carriage seat, and helped Joshua down after him. He led the boy into the trees, the darkness masking all but the glow of their alabastre skin. The broke through to a meadow, upon which were placed several benches, but this was not what made the meadow special. Over head, hundreds of lanterns flared in the darkness. They did nothing to dim the stars, and instead blended with them till it seemed the sky above was only twenty feet over head, and if one wished, they could reach up and pluck a star. The light was not overly bright, and left the majority of the meadow in shadow and darkness. Two couples already had found their way to the beautiful setting, but were so far apart that no noise lower than a yell would reach, and none could see the other. David looked stared up at the lights, his face truly soft for the first time that day. Joy, utter bliss, flooded his face. His eyes turned to Joshua, and a soft smile shone like the star lanterns above. "Joshua. Isn't it beautiful? There's such beauty in the world, and each one different than the last, but not less or more than the others. There is such beauty in the world. There are millions of forms of beauties. One for each man, woman, and child. There are no deviants, no ugliness. Simply a new, different type of beauty. I live my life according to this idea, embracing even the beauties I don't understand."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 22:47:09</strong>
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				&nbsp;Joshua didn't really understand what it was that David spoke of. Though something delightfully eye-catching hung just above them, he didn't feel as though his companion was speaking of them at all.&nbsp; However, he didn't voice his uncertainty, doubting that it would be polite to do so.<br><br>&nbsp;" I've never been out here at night." He answer simply, taking a few steps forward as he allowed his gaze to wonder among the many lights. He looked almost childlike in his appreciation of what he saw, taking none of it for granted.<br><br>&nbsp;" Do you do this often...?" he asked softly, turning to face David once more. One of the lanterns hung just above him, illuminating his slender form. " Venture about at night, I mean."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 23:32:10</strong>
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				David's eyes were far away, his thoughts in the past. "Often? Hmm..." Joshua's question had hit him rather in the exact right, or wrong, point. "Much more rarely than I used to." He smiled, a little sadly. "There was a time when I rampaged all over town, having fun at whoever's expense I wished. Being a knight, a Lord, and a Duke, all in one, gives one a large amount of amnesty. I did many things for which I am now ashamed. Being as I am, and was, women flocked to me, and I took them one, sometimes two or three at a time, used them like toys, then tossed them away. I know now that I was rebelling against myself. I had needs that couldn't be fulfilled by a woman alone, and I refused to allow myself to deal with that. So I rampaged. I ate what I wanted, drank, danced, partied and did what ever I wished, without once worrying what others thought, because if I did so, I could chase away my own nature. This was folly of course, because no matter what I did, I would always be myself. I would always need the same things." His mouth turned down at the edges, bitterness welling up inside him. "My father was pleased out of his mind. He comes from an age where Lords made their mark by taking whatever they wanted, and destroying everything they didn't. So, when the papers labeled me 'The rambunctious Duke, Lord Wrath', my father nearly burst with pride." He sighed, and turned to his companion. "That ended about three years ago. I have since learned to deal with myself, and now understand that I am what my father would term 'deviant'. I will be plain, in the hopes that my plainess will not drive you to fear me." He looked deep into Joshua's eyes before speaking again. "I enjoy being with men, in the same way most enjoy a woman."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>21-10-2009, 23:51:21</strong>
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				&nbsp;The young librarian supposed he had guessed as much. After all, David hadn't hidden what he knew, and had been rather... intimate, in relaying his knowledge to Joshua. Enough so that even thinking of it gave Joshua cause to pull the front of his jacket more tightly closed. <br><br>&nbsp;" I... had supposed as much." he said softly, allowing his gaze to fall. He couldn't very well reprimand a man for something he himself felt, but he wouldn't bring shame to his family by acting upon his unsavory feelings.&nbsp; He frowned, folding his arms over his front. " I do not feel...negatively about you due to that. However, I cannot really say I understand."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>22-10-2009, 00:36:11</strong>
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				David frowned, and his face hardened. "I warned you, I think, that I would know when you lied?" He placed a hand on Joshua's shoulder, making him look at him. "You may not be actively lying, but you lie by withholding yourself. If it's repercussions, or shame on your family name you fear, don't. I have been a 'deviant' for a while now, and no one even bothers to look close enough to tell." He shook his head, and looked up at the sky. "It hurts, eventually, if you hold back. It rips you apart, and leaves something barely human. Back then, I hated myself, hated the people I saw as judging me, hated my father, hated the world. I hated everyone and everything, because nothing in the world allowed me to freely be myself. I was hoding it in of my own free will, but I couldn't help but blame everyone else, since I refused to even think about what I really wanted. Don't do that, Joshua." He stroked a finger over the boy's cheek. "Don't hide yourself behind those walls and fears. Remember, there is no ugliness, simply new beauties."
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				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>22-10-2009, 00:43:33</strong>
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				&nbsp;He frowned as David spoke, his mind refusing to wrap around the concept that what he'd thought of... even read about, wasn't wrong. Listening to what the other man had to say, however, Joshua felt a stirring inside himself, which he attempted to put off as sympathy. He wanted to touch David's face because he felt bad for him.... <br><br>&nbsp;Then one of those pale hands reached out to touch Joshua's face, and his cheeks lit up once more, his eyes closing as he visibly enjoyed the sensation for the briefest of moments before he caught himself at it. <br><br>" Even if I..." her dropped his gaze, his face lit up. " understood things in the same way that you do... it wouldn't matter. I can't allow myself to act so selfishly when I am fully expected to marry as well as possible and.." he said this last part with a sort of strained tone, his expression showing no delight in the thought." produce a child. I'm no longer young enough to ignore my duty to my family.... "
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				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>22-10-2009, 02:11:20</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				David smiled softly and sadly down at the younger man as Joshua spoke. "Ah, and so we come to the only actual stumbling block. Yes, it's true. If you embrace these feelings, this need, you will probably never wed, and never have children unless under some amazingly special circumstance. However, it is not right to think of it as a purely selfish or unselfish situation. We're entering a new age, Joshua. An age where our own needs and wishes become much more important, where our happiness is just as necessary and valuable as our pride! An age where we need to look to our own hearts, before we look to our families' ill-conceived notions of progenic continuance." He sighed, his face falling again. He looked Joshua in the eye and spoke quietly. "Do me at least this favor, and I shan't push you farther tonight. Admit, if for only this moment, that you feel the same. That you too feel the need, that wild want. That is all I ask, and I won't ask more for now."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>23-10-2009, 10:31:58</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				&nbsp;Joshua listened closely, his eyes large as what the other man said struck something within him. It was such a strange world David depicted, but it was attractive in so many ways... this world where one could set aside their duties for a moment and simply have what it was they wanted...<br><br>&nbsp;Such a society wouldn't work, of course. For how could it if everyone placed their own desires first? It was alluring however...<br><br>&nbsp;" I..." Joshua stopped, finding that the words he'd originally chosen in response weren't adequate. How could they be, when measured up to the look in those entrancing blue eyes? " I feel it. I have felt it since the first day you came to our library..."<br><br>&nbsp;He sighed, running a hand nervously back through his soft brown hair. " I suppose there is little to be done about it. It does not ebb... it does not fade. In fact, to my dismay, it grows. This feeling strengthens and multiplies until it is a struggle just to think past it..."<br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>24-10-2009, 04:22:52</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				David smiled at him ever so sadly, his eyes reflecting on his own pain in the past. He was silent for a moment, just looking inward at himself. When he finally spoke, it was softly, in small busts. "Remember what I said? About it hurting, eventually? You're well on your way to your own destructive path. But you aren't like me, in that sense. Instead of raging outward, you'll rage inward. You'll slowly destroy yourself, letting the pain rip you apart. You won't marry anyone, unless it's out of sheer duty, and that would only hurt you more. Your wife, whoever she may end up being, will despise you, and blame herself for your pain, which will make her hurt as well. You'll destroy her, right along with you. And it probably won't stop there. Eventually you'll break, and everyone around you will get caught in the explosion. You'll destroy everyone, because your pain won't allow you to think about it. You'll eventually blame everyone, and whether you know it or not, you'll take it out on those you love." He shook his head. "It's better, for everyone, to just be happy." He sighed, his breath coming in pained gasps around the memory, and the thought of future, pain. He let it go, and a soft smile crossed his face. "I promised, and I keep my promises. I won't push you any farther tonight." He took Joshua's hand, his smile comforting. "At least for tonight, you don't have to worry about that. You can just let go, and enjoy the moment."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>24-10-2009, 06:43:05</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				&nbsp;It was fascinating to Joshua just how nice it felt to have his hand taken by the other man. Truth and pain echoed through David's words so much that it caused Joshua a sort of empathic pain... It would have been too hard for him to bring himself to take the other man's hand in comfort, but now that his own slender fingers were wrapped in the gentleman's grasp, he was pleased for it.<br><br>&nbsp;He blushed, looking down towards the ground before looking up at David. " What..." he paused, calculating his words... " what should I do?"
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>24-10-2009, 06:56:04</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				"Do?" David was surprised. Joshua seemed to measure his words carefully, and it confused David that the words he chose called for action. For a moment, he sat in thought, but a soft grin slid across his face. "Just let go. I'll do the rest." He pulled the boy gently to him, the hand not holding the younger man's slid to his lower back. In a soft embrace, David leaned slowly in and brushed a kiss across Joshua's lips. Then he pulled away, not letting go of the boy's hand. His eyes found Joshua's, and he smiled. "Just let go."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>24-10-2009, 07:12:14</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				&nbsp;It had been difficult to communicate the thought, and when David repeated it as he did, it caused Joshua's cheeks to burn a brilliant tomato red. The heat in his face did not abate in the slightest as he was pulled into a gentle embrace, his blue eyed gentleman touching the soft lips he'd so often stared at against his own. <br><br>&nbsp;" I will try..." he said softly, leaving his hand within David's as he was released. 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>25-10-2009, 07:54:51</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				David enjoyed immensely the soft acceptance that he had fought so hard for. His free hand stroked fingertips across the heated pink of the pale skin on Joshua's cheek, reveling in it's heat. His lips came back down, kissing sweetly the boy's other cheek. For a moment he kissed there, then pulled back an inch. He looked directly into Joshua's eyes, then slipped back in, his fingers now pulling the boy's chin up, and kissed him again more warmly. Their lips made firm connection, and he enjoyed the feeling. He opened his lips, letting them part the other's, and his tongue teased the lovely young man's lower lip. He broke the kiss after a moment or two, and grinned happily at his companion. "Come with me." He said with velvet allure in his voice, and gently pulled the boy through the shadows between the soft pools of light let off by the lanterns to a bench sitting on the far edge of the meadow, well away from the couples, other couples, lounging in each other's embrace. He sat down and became comfortable, never letting go of the younger man's hand. Then he pulled Joshua closer. "Sit on my lap, and I'll hold you."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>25-10-2009, 08:06:47</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				&nbsp;Joshua had never felt drawn to any particular female, nor had he ever experienced the lust that many men his age felt towards women.. however, in this unexpected kiss, he got a taste of that achy need he'd heard described in so many of the library's books.<br><br>&nbsp;It was strange how the kiss caused his heart to pound and his hands to shake... how it made the rest of the world fade for a short moment before, all too quickly, it was over. <br><br>&nbsp;Then, before his foggy mind could grasp what was happening, he was standing before David, his hand still held safely within the other man's as his golden brown eyes scanned the area for a moment. He hadn't sat on anyone's lap since he was just a small child, and it felt strange to do so now...<br><br>&nbsp;Yet, he did it; his slender form coming to rest against David's chest as he drew his legs up on the bench, resting his head back against the other man's shoulder. <br><br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Xearts</strong> on <strong>26-10-2009, 11:45:12</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				David smiled happily as Joshua sat on his lap. He wrapped an arm around him in a small embrace. He leaned in and layered kisses over the boy's pink cheeks and neck, kissing carefully on the place where skin met fabric at the collar. His free hand swept up to the collar's button and undid it with a deft swish, opening the boy's neck to further exploration. His fingers settled on his shoulder, pulling him softly against David's shoulder. He reached up and turned the boy's chin, finding the pale lips with is own. He opened his lips and his tongue slowly, carefully, but hungrily ventured between the white lips. He tasted the young man's breath, lightly massaging Joshua's tongue with his own. He broke the kiss to catch his breath, and his dark eyes smoldered in the shadows. "So, how are you doing? Are you still worried?"<br><br>David opened the first button on his own collar, letting the warm air rush in around his throat. He grinned predatorily, though it appeared to be a lovely smile, and let his burning eyes scan Joshua, looking to see his reaction, waiting for him to move, and plotting his next move.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Improper relations ( Gabriel, and Dark_Xearts)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Gabriel</strong> on <strong>28-10-2009, 03:05:21</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				&nbsp;Joshua's breath came in soft, sweet gasps as little bolts of sensation travelled across the sensitive flesh of his neck, his head tilting back slightly as his eyes fluttered shut.&nbsp; It was difficult to think sensibly, because each time David kissed him, his entire mind focussed on that single sensation.<br><br>&nbsp;" I... I am fine..." he responded softly, his eyes fluttering open to fix on David, and then upon his exposed throat. <br><br>&nbsp;Cautiously watching David for his reaction, Joshua brought his soft, pale lips close to the man's exposed throat. After a moment's hesitation he planted a soft, warm kiss there before drawing back quickly, his cheeks alight.
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