Broken Promises
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				Title: <strong>Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>13-12-2009, 20:50:07</strong>
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				White flakes fell against his face, cold against his rapidly cooling flesh. He didn't know how long he'd been walking the streets in the dark, lit only by dim street lights that flickered around the snow. Xander knew eventually he should get back home to where it was warm, before he started getting frostbite or hypothermia. He sighed, lighting another cigarette and holding it in his mouth as he inhaled on it, he couldn't even remember which cigarette that was, but it didn't really matter. <br><br>He wasn't a man prone to dark moods like this, not one to mope around and feel sorry for himself, but he couldn't help it. He knew how long it had been in actual measurements, but it didn't really matter, a day was as long as a month when it came right down to it. He'd failed to keep Daniel alive, failed to keep him safe even though that was his job as his partner. Having failed in that, Daniel lay in the cold earth, and his home seemed just as cold to him, where it had been filled with him before, now it seemed just mock him and it grated at him constantly. To top it off he couldn't even take care of his kid brother, who he'd promised to take care of should anything happen to him. Shipped off to an orphanage in some slum in town, and then disappeared one day right under their noses.<br><br>He'd raised hell over that, letting a kid go out on his own like that, what kind of shithole were they running there anyways? The kid was wandering around on his own, no family, his only family buried mere months ago, no home, and wandering these cold streets. There was so much he'd failed to do, all of it in such a short amount of time, and this was all he could really do.<br><br>It wasn't that he didn't know why he wandered these streets every night, he knew. It was part punishment for all that he was kicking himself for, and part hoping that one day he might find him. He hoped he would, no matter what other people said. Daniel had thought it best to keep him and Xander quiet from everyone, including his kid brother, and that was fine by Xander, he was happy just to have him. Daniel had always been the kind of guy who was quiet and calm, but knew just what to say when you needed him too, smiling with his gorgeous eyes at you as he spoke. He'd been the one to finally show Xander all that he could be, that he should be, and now....he was gone.<br><br>He turned his head and realized he was outside of the precinct, he sighed, he might as well go inside and see what's going on with what inside, see if they need his help.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>13-12-2009, 21:19:49</strong>
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				"MOTHER FUCKER! LET! GO! OF! ME!" He shouted as he tossed around in the cop's arms, trying to kick him or his partner off, wanting to run away, even if it was going to be hard to do so when his wrists were handcuffed on his back. His voice was the only thing that put an end to the quiet of the night, making a few cops that were going out or back in the building stop and look at the kid. It wasn't a rare to thing in the big city - a raging teenager, most probably too high or drunk to know that putting a fight on right now wasn't the smartest thing to do as it was only going to add to his charges, so neither of them paid much attention to the boy who was giving some hard time to their colleagues - the cops were big enough to handle with a kid like him!<br><br>What they didn't know was that he wasn't just any kid and that he wasn't throwing the fight because he wanted to run away... well, he wanted to run away, but not away from custody, only away from this very particular building... as this was the building where his brother had worked for long years, and before him their father had worked here for even longer years, only they both to find their deaths on duty. He didn't want to go there. He didn't want people to recognize him. He didn't want to hear their condolences all over again, their empty sorries and wishes that his brother hadn't died. Like he cared what they felt and thought! They hadn't saved Daniel and this was all that mattered to him! And even if he had known most of them for pretty much his entire life in the end they had all turned their backs on him, letting that social worker take him to some town in the middle of nowhere, in an orphanage that was most suitable to be called a 'juvenile' as most of the guys there were hardcore bullies beating him up and hurting him every day... <br><br>Until he ran away.<br><br>He was actually proud of himself - he had managed to not only make his way to the city, but actually survive on the streets for almost three weeks now. Yeah, he was a little bit underfed, somewhat cold as it was already winter, and kind of dirty, but still - he was alive! But then again, he had always been handy at those sort of things - Daniel had taught him how to protect himself and how to survive on his own. And he had actually been doing quite well, until some guys surrounded him, saying that he was on their territory and claiming that he had to do some 'favors' for them to let him go. Of course he didn't bend as they had asked him to, but threw himself into a fight and fought until the cops arrived and his attackers fled, leaving him in the policemen's hands. <br><br>"Motherfucker!" He shouted again as he pushed the cop on his left side, kicking the one on the right between his legs, finally the two letting go of him. The boy rushed like crazy, not caring where he was going. He knew that those cops were coming after him and that some others were running towards him as well, so he prepared himself to throw his body and push the first one to stand before him... Only that he didn't know that the first one to stand on his way was no other but Xander - Daniel's old partner. So he threw himself on him, head foremost, in an attempt to knock the man flat on the ground... only that it turned out that the cop that stood before him was stronger than him and instead he found himself on the ground, slowly starting to pass out from the impact. <br><br>Dressed in dirty shabby clothes, his once long and wavy hair cut short, his face bruised, his body thinner that it had been once, his arms folded backwards from the handcuffs... So changed that he was hardly the same old kid... but still there was no mistake - this was Adrian, Daniel's kid brother.<br><br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>13-12-2009, 22:02:49</strong>
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				Xander was dreading going back inside, they all tried to give him his space and all, they knew that Daniel and he had been close, but it was never enough. He found that no one knowing about them was a double edged sword that was cutting him clean through, because know one knew, they didn't see his pain for what it really was. Instead he had to act like Daniel had only been a partner on the job, instead of having become his life, the part of him th-<br><br>He coughed in surprise as the air was knocked out of him violently as a blunt force in the shape of a perosn collided with him. He stepped back from the force of the blow as well as his own surprise. He glanced down at the figure who had collided with him. At first he thought it was just another strung out kid who had been caught on the streets when he suddenly realized who he was seeing. His mouth fell as he dropped next to him.<br><br>"A-Adrian?!"<br><br>One of the officers, Ed Davis stared right at Xander, "what? Dan's kid brother?"<br><br>Adrian nodded as he looked him over, he was bruised and thin, not too mention considerably dirty, but alive and seemingly well other than being unconscious, "what's he in here for?"<br><br>Davis hesitated, "uhh...we caught him brawling with a bunch of punks, decided to bring him in....Jesus I didn't even recognize him like that, but I'll be damned it is him....should we call the orphanage?"<br><br>Xander's head snapped up, "fuck that Davis, you know damn well they're the reason he took off, where's a medic team? We need to get him looked at, make sure he's ok," his attention was now on Davis, "unless you're wanting to take him to the tank?"<br><br>Davis shook his head, "no way, no way in to hell I'm taking that kid in the tank, Dan would haunt me man," Xander winced inwardly but said nothing as Davis asked him, "what are you going to do with him?"<br><br>Xander looked over as the on site medic team came over to take him to the in stataion medic room to be examined, "fix a promise."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>13-12-2009, 22:38:08</strong>
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				The medic team hurried outside to put the unconscious boy on a stretcher, taking him inside the police department. By the time they closed the door of the examination's room, everyone had found out about Dan's kid brother. Men and women gathered in the corridor, whispering if the kid had gotten into a gang or something. "Dan would turn into his grave if the kid goes down the bad path." Someone said and everyone starting talking about how good Dan had been and what a disappointment Adrian was now...<br><br>Only that no one really knew Adrian. They had known him only as 'Dan's kid brother', a boy that was around on the department's barbecues, but no one had really known him all that way. Maybe only Xander had heard from Daniel that Adrian had been promised a bright future in baseball as he had one hell of a strong throwing arm. No one had known Adrian like Daniel... And after his death the boy had indeed been left all alone on this world.<br><br>Finally the doctor - Jimmy Moris, came out of the room, looking around a bit confused at the stuffed corridor. "Wow... dudes, don't you have work to do or something? Catch criminals for example?" He asked, shaking his head. Jimmy stepped to Xander as he had known that Xander had been the closest to Daniel and his family. "He is alright. Some bruises, a small cut on his bottom lip and over his left brow... He needs a bath, a huge warm meal and a warm bed." He said, glaring at some of the cops who said something about 'And a detox'. "Oh shut up, Mitchel. The kid is clean. There are no signs of drug use." <br><br>Jimmy looked at Xander again and nodded slowly. "You can go in if you want, he should wake up soon." He said as he headed towards the vending machines to give Xander some time.<br><br>Adrian was laying on the bed, his shirt taken off as Jimmy had examined his ribs, thankfully none were broken. The boy actually looked like a younger version of his brother. Well... lacking a few pounds that he could easily put back on, some muscles and wrinkles... but still. He was his brother's kid brother. He had the same nose, same lips, even the same eyes. Only his face didn't have all that sharp lines, but he was still a teenager and growing. Still, he was a handsome youth and he was going to be an even more handsome man in a year or two.<br><br>"Mh... Danny..." He mumbled in his sleep, shifting a little bit on the bed. His face turned pained and a tear made its way from beneath his lashes. He swallowed hard as he opened his eyes and sat up, wiping his eyes with one hand. His wrists were no longer cuffed, but there were dark bruises forming where the metal had pierced in his skin.<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 01:22:53</strong>
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				Xander nodded at Jimmy, thanking him profusely for all of this. He felt like dirt for having lost track of Adrian like that, he could just see Danny shaking his head at him, not really mad, but still patiently irritated with him. He shook the ghost memory of his ex lover away as he walked into the room and bit his lip in shame at the look of Adrian. His injuries weren't that bad, but they sure as hell looked worse than they were, and on someone like Adrian, they weren't something Xander wished he had to see.<br><br>He had had contact with Adrian before, having gone to their house more than once and he was a really good kid. He'd even heard of his possible future career in baseball, heard he had a wicked arm. Looking at him now you'd never really know though, he looked like he hadn't eaten in the longest time, or at least nothing good for him as it was. When he sat up and looked right at him, he was startled by the resemblance between he and Daniel. They looked so much alike it stopped him right in his tracks, anything he had to say stopping short in his throat.<br><br>He remembered the kid he'd known before, and how in the few months since he'd gone away, how much he had changed. Obviously he could see him suffering, it was evident by how he'd been treating himself, but it was his eyes. God, he had his eyes, but they were so sad beneath all of the feigned anger and spite.<br><br>He cleared his throat, "come on Adrian, you're going to be staying at my house, not in a cell, come on."<br><br>He knew above anything else what Adrian was going through, although Adrian more than likely didn't know that about him. They were going to tell Adrian a few weeks before Daniel died, but they kept putting it off as the baseball season for Adrian was heating up and they decided to leave it be until his life wasn't so chaotic and he could deal with it. Now he wished they had told him so that he could understand just a little bit about the fact that he wasn't the only one suffereing, but now wasn't the time for that, now was trying to take care of him the best he could.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 16:35:30</strong>
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				Adrian's eyes stopped on the other for a moment. He didn't move, he didn't say anything, just stared at Xander for a few moments. Once again he wanted to run away, to disappear, feeling cornered and trapped like a wild animal in a cage. Why?! Why had he had to come across cops from his brother's old department? Why had he had to come across Xander - his brother's old partner?! Why was it happening to him? He had wanted to run away from his old life, forget everything... die... and not return to the one place that held the most memories about his brother and parents...<br><br>He looked away, breathing in and out deeply as he tried to remain calm. Slowly he slid off the bed and moved to the chair where Jimmy had put his dirty shirt after he had taken it off. He pulled it back on, letting the filthy cloth cover his torso. There were still some lean muscles on his body, but they were no longer as strong as they had been when he had been working out every single day... Baseball had been forbidden in that orphanage as playing with bats was considered dangerous. That place had crushed everything that was left of Adrian's heart after his brother's death...<br><br>"Why should I be staying at your house?" He finally spoke, his voice low and rather emotionless. His eyes looked at Xander, looking up and down. The man didn't look all that well himself... Adrian knew that sometimes partners took it really hard when one of them ended up dead, but... for some reason he felt as if Xander's eyes held the very same pain like his. He sighed quietly, looking aside. He reached his hand out, his palm up as if wanting Xander to give him some cash. "Give me a twenty and you won't see me ever again." He said, thinking that the man would be more than happy to get rid of him.<br><br>A twenty was going to be enough to get himself some knife, find those guys he had fought with today and finish the fight... hopefully getting killed. Adrian had always been on the wild side, but his brother had been able to keep him away from troubles. And now that Daniel was gone... Adrian saw no reason to stay out of troubles. What was the point to keep on living? He had no family, he had already dropped out of school, he was out of his baseball team... and he felt more dead than alive.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 22:41:10</strong>
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				Xander's eyes flickered from Adrian's eyes to his outstretched hand. He'd rather have a few measly dollars thrown into his palm then be near any people. He sighed as he continued to stare at that hand, the arm having lost much of it's tone that it had once had, one of the many victims of whatever Adrian had put himself through. He glanced back up to his eyes, which seemed just as lost as his own, if not more so, if anything they looked desperate for something else, and it made Xander worry, and cause a faint pain in him.<br><br>"Adrian," he began softly, "I'm not giving you any money for you to run off and spend on something for God knows what purpose. Come on, let's get you out of here, I don't want to listen to them anymore than you do about all of this. I have a guest room, you can stay in there the whole time, you don't even have to speak to me, just please..."<br><br>It hurt him on a personal level to have to beg him, for one, he wasn't the type of man to beg, he could just hear Danny laughing right now, but it was true. Secondly to have to try and get someone to understand why they needed a warm place with food and safety was another thing. Finally it killed him to think that he might be using Adrian as a means to escape it all, but he had a promise to fulfill and he wasn't going to just let it run out with a 20 in his hand, never to be seen again except on some John Doe list somewhere down the line.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 23:10:06</strong>
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				Slowly his hand lowered, his palm curling into a fist. He looked away from Xander, breathing heavily as he tried to stay calm. There was so much pain and fear bottled up inside his heart... He hadn't cried. Not when those cops came to their apartment and took him to the ER. Not when the doctor came out and shook his head. Not when the coffin disappeared in the cold ground. He hadn't let a single tear roll down his face as if with Daniel his heart had died and he simply ceased feeling anything but cold and bitterness.. But being around Xander... for some reason it made his chest hurt as if someone was ripping him into pieces on the inside.<br><br>"You know... being nice to me..." He slowly looked at Xander, his eyes darker than ever. "...won't redeem the fact that you didn't save Daniel." He said, his voice emotionless, meaning nothing but to hurt Xander. He didn't know just how much the man was hurting already, but he didn't care. He needed an outlet before all this pain and bitterness killed him. He needed someone to blame for Daniel's death. He needed someone to blame for having been abandoned and forgotten. And Xander seemed like an easy target, so he took the chance and said those hurtful cold words. But deep inside he didn't blame him for his brother's death...<br><br>"So... you still up to letting me leave in your place?" He asked, his hand lifting up once again. "`Cause that twenty now is a fifty." If he was mean enough to Xander the man was going to push him away, hate him, forget him and let him get in trouble and hopefully find his end... Or at least that was what Adrian thought. After Daniel's death he had broken down emotionally even if he didn't admit it. He automatically accepted that he had no reason to live, that no one cared for him and that everyone would have rather had him being buried instead of Daniel. But what else could a confused teenage boy think after his only family being killed and then being sent away to that horrible place?...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 23:32:08</strong>
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				Adrian's words hissed into him like a hot coil surrounding his chest. His eyes closed in reflex, his hands clenching in reflex at his side and then relaxing as he tried to absorb the blow. When he opened his eyes back up, they didn't show anything. In all the time since it happened, he'd never heard anyone say anything other than the opposite about his responsibility in Daniel's death. They didn't know what had happened, but they'd been adament about his lack of fault in his death. Xander had known better, if only he hadn't turned away for that one moment, if he hadn't taken his eyes off of Danny for that one minute, that fucker wouldn't have had the time to get him, if only he had searched that guy properly, if only, if only. To hear someone actually speak what he had been thinking all along, it was enough to rip him up, but now wasn't the time, now he had something he actually needed to do.<br><br>He snorted, "it doesn't matter what you tell me the price is, I'm not trying to get rid of you Adrian, so I'm not giving you any money. So yes, I'm still up for letting, no not letting, asking you, to stay at my place, so cast all the blame you want. Da...he'd kick my ass and yours for all of this, and you know it."<br><br>He'd stopped saying Danny's name, he'd known it, as much for Adrian's sake as much as his own. He hadn't said his name in front of another person for so long, it hurt too much to do it. Perhaps it was the appearance of Adrain that had sparked him to want too, but he knew it was the worst time and place to do it. Right now he had to make sure he did what he promised, and not even Adrian would be the one to make him break that promise. The kid was hurting as much if not more than he was, and he couldn't stand that anymore than he could stand the reason why Adrian was hurting, but he wasn't going to let his own pain, or Adrian's anger stop him.<br><br>"Now come on," he said softly, "let's get you out of here, I think you've had enough of this government organized shit, now tell everyone to fuck off and we can get out of here faster."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-12-2009, 23:47:18</strong>
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				Adrian stared at Xander, his thin body shuddering lightly from nerves, but he tried his best to stop himself from breaking down. He wasn't going to let emotions take over him now. Not now, not ever! He wasn't going to feel happy, calm, safe or anything good, not when his brother was a decaying corpse, laying under two feet of dirt. How could he live and feel, when Danny was gone?!"Yeah? Guess what. He is gone. He'll never be back. So he can't kick my ass. So I will do whatever I want." He snapped back at Xander, his voice still even and dull. Only that his eyes had started getting bloody red as he tried his best to not let tears fill them. And he succeeded - no tears appeared in his green orbs, but one didn't need to be a genius to see that he wanted (and most probably needed) to cry.<br><br>His hand lowered again as he turned his back at Xander, heading towards the door. He said nothing else... most probably because he didn't know what to say. He was starving, he was cold and tired, and he wasn't stupid - he knew that he would get food, clothes and a bed at Xander's, and be safe at the same time, so he was going to follow him... For now... He needed a place to stay for a while, but he was not going to be all good and sweet or thankful like Xander most probably expected him to be.<br><br>Adrian walked out of the room, glaring at the few men and women who were still standing in the hallway. Some were truly worried as they had worked with his brother for long years, some were just curious, but thankfully no one made the mistake to speak to him or they would have seen him raging once again and would have ended arrested for an assault. He buried his hands in the pockets of his dirty jeans, glaring down as he hurried down the corridor towards the exit, not really caring if there had to be any papers sign or anything like this. He knew that Xander could handle it later... or now and risk losing him again, because if the man wasn't following him when he stepped out of the police department, then Adrian was going to disappear once again in the night.<br><br>[[feel free to lead him/take him to the other's apartment, Adrian will follow him. Off to bed now, sorry for crappy post]]
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>15-12-2009, 14:43:06</strong>
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				He gave a nod to several people as they left, the one's who actually cared for that matter. Debbie the desk clerk only waved him away having to do with anything about paperwork, which is he was glad for as he had a feeling Adrian in his current state would take off anyways. He followed after Adrian quickly outside, he nodded his head to the direction they were going. As they walked he lit a cigarette and noticed that Adrian was short of anything good for weather like this. He pulled off his coat, feeling the brisk air cut into his skin instantly, but he didn't really care as he placed the coat over Adrian despite any protests he might have raised.<br><br>They walked in relative silence, Xander didn't really know what to say to him besides which way they were going. Finally they reached his relatively small house, he wasn't exactly overexcited about the house, but it had been his for awhile now, and it was his own place as it was anyways. He motioned him inside the house, a typical layout lie in the house. The entrance lead off to living room on the left which opened up to the small but efficient looking kitchen on it's right. A dining room with a small table that could fit four led off to the kitchen as well. Stairs leading to the second floor where the single bathroom and two bedrooms lay situated in a small hall at the top. It was furnished to the best of his ability with his pay, but it was modest and homey looking and that was enough for him.<br><br>He locked the door behind him and set the alarm, making sure that Adrian didn't see the code. It wasn't that he didn't trust Adrian, he just knew in this state, he wouldn't be prone to logical thought, made obvious by his recent choices. He glanced around and then at Adrian again, now that he had him here, he really didn't know what to say in all reality.<br><br>He motioned to the top of the stairs, "guest rooms at the top of the stairs on the left, bathroom's in the middle," he sighed, "I've got a bit in the food, I don't have too much at the moment other than beer and some lunchmeat, guess I haven't been eating much, but help yourself to whatever you want."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-12-2009, 21:37:08</strong>
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				Adrian walked out of the police station as quickly as he could. He didn't even look over his shoulder at Xander to see if the man was here. He only looked up at him when he heard his voice, giving him the first direction towards his house. The younger male remained silent as they walked, walking a step away from the older man as if not wanting to be close to him. He winced lightly when the other's coat was suddenly put on his shoulders. He didn't protest as his thin and torn shirt was hardly keeping him warm, but he didn't thanked Xander either. He just moved his arms in the sleeves and closed it in the front, snuggling in it. He had been cold, but he would have never admitted it or asked the other for his coat or to get get a cab. Adrian had always been a rather independent and had always been taking care for himself as their parents had died when he was five, and Daniel who brought him up had been working hard... But now his independence was bordering with self-destruction...<br><br>He walked in the other's house, looking around briefly. He had never been here, but the place was nice... It had a homey feeling and if Adrian didn't feel that empty he would have liked the place and even smiled.&nbsp; But his face remained expressionless, his eyes dark as if there was no life in them. He wanted to snap at the other about hiding the alarm code, but he was just feeling too tired and too weak to argue right now. At the mentioning of food he looked at the other once again, listening intensely. He didn't care about alcohol... Even if he was no longer taking care of himself and was walking down a self-destructive path, he hadn't started drinking or taking drugs like most teenagers in his situation. Adrian was a good kid after all... just a bit lost...<br><br>"Do you have bread?" He asked, looking at Xander with a hungry glitter in his eyes. He didn't care about beer, he didn't even care about the meat, but if there was some bread and cheese or something like jam or peanut butter... he would eat it all! At once! He swallowed hard, biting on his bottom lip. He looked rather miserable standing in the middle of the hallway. Dressed in the dirty, torn clothes, that bruises on his pale skin, his somewhat dirty hair... He really looked pitiful...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 01:15:03</strong>
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				He glanced over at Adrian and smiled softly, "yeah there's some bread, cheese, and mayo if you want along with the lunchmeat, maybe even some soup in the cupboards if you want. It's not a whole lot, I've been needing to go grocery shopping for awhile now, but I'll make sure to do that tomorrow for sure."<br><br>He took the coat off of Adrian and hung it up the closet, turning around to watch Adrian for a brief moment. More than ever he knew that the kid needed to cry, perhaps even scream, rant and rail at the universe like he had been doing when they brought him in. He sighed as he realized the hypocrisy of it all, in all reality it had been left up to him and a few of Danny's friends to set up the arrangements for the funeral, and he hadn't had time then. Then trying to keep Adrian out of the orphanage, which had fallen on deaf ears of course, hell his protests hadn't even reached the orphanage, let alone Adrian himself. That had taken his time as well, then with Adrian disappearing and him trying to find him, he hadn't the time.<br><br>For a minute there he could feel Danny telling him that he could just breathe, let it out all out now. He shook his head to the memory of him, now wasn't the time either, he still hadn't done what he promised. He'd promised if anything happened to Daniel that he would watch over Adrian, and he was a man of his word, especially when it came to his fallen lover. It was always more than that, he never gained the vibe that Adrian had ever been that fond of him, not that he was hostile, but he always seemed to pass him off. On Xander's side though, he'd become quite fond of the kid, doing what he could when he could to help to the best of his ability and time. He had grown to love and care about Adrian, and that coupled with the promise wasn't going to dissuade him from his course of action.<br><br>"Help yourself to anything you can find, and the shower too if you want, I'll try to find some clothes that'll fit you so you can get out of those too."<br><br>[[Sorry if it's a bit wonky, perhaps it wasn't the best idea to do it while sleep deprived, but I wanted to make sure I had a post up for you, since I know you don't like it going too long without a post. I'll revise it if I get to it before you do though ^_^]]
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 18:52:23</strong>
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				It wasn't a big mystery why Adrian didn't like Xander - in the boy's eyes Xander had always been a competition to him for Daniel's attention. Whenever Xander was around Daniel his brother as if turned into another person. He smiled at Xander in different ways, they had their own personal jokes, their conversations about their work, their colleagues... and when the two started working as partners Daniel spent even more time with Xander, while Adrian had been left home. That jealousy started hitting him really seriously when Adrian got into puberty and his hormones kept rushing through his veins. He couldn't help but see some small things that were going between Daniel and Xander and if his guesses had ever been proved right he would have... Well, he didn't know what he would have done, but he wouldn't have been happy! He hadn't want anyone to take Daniel away from him! And Xander had been the one doing so...<br><br>Only that now Daniel was gone for good... And as sad as it sounded, Adrian had to admit that the closest person he had to a family was Xander. After all the his brother's friend had always been around ever since Adrian could remember himself... But now the younger male felt too sad and too bitter to actually realize that he wasn't all alone...<br><br>"Yeah, fine." He brushed off the other's words, no longer listening to him as he had heard what he needed to know - if there was bread. He walked in the kitchen, not caring if he could just take whatever he wanted or he should wait for Xander to serve him some dinner. He walked to the fridge opening it widely as he looked at its content. Even if it wasn't as filled as the fridge in his old home - Daniel had always made sure their fridge to be filled with just about anything, the sight of food was enough to make him breath in and out shakily. He reached in and grabbed the bread, then the cheese and the mayo. It was more than obvious that he was starving as he put the food on the counter and started eating on the bread, taking from time to time some cheese or dipping his bread in the mayo... He was so hungry that he didn't even have the time to make himself a decent sandwich.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 19:10:32</strong>
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				He only managed a soft and forced smile as Adrian brushed him off and made for the kitchen. He didn't know the first thing about taking care of a kid, near adulthood or not. He sure as hell didn't know how to help him through his problems either, hell he didn't even know how to take care of his own problems. Daniel was always good at that sort of thing, when they'd lost their father, he'd taken the mantle of caring for Adrian like it was nothing. Xander had always admired that about him, he just let things roll right off of his back, took them right into stride. Xander on the other hand, was a creature of habit, changes in his life were to be expected and not alter without consultation first.<br><br>He scratched his head nervously as he thought about it some more, quietly glancing into the kitchen at Adrian. His stomach twisted in knots as he saw him practically devouring the food like he hadn't eaten in days, which when Xander thought about it, he probably hadn't. He made a mental note to go shopping for food first thing in the morning, he needed more food in the house as it was.<br><br>He glanced around the sad state of his house, and realized how badly it had fallen into a mess. Things lay around like the person who lived here didn't really give a shit. He sighed as he idily began picking things up, with trying to keep Adrian around, and taking care of him, he would have to force himself to take care of things. He couldn't expect a kid to be able to deal with this, and at 27, Xander should be able to pick himself up off of the ground.<br><br>When he managed to stop cleaning absentmindedly, realizing he hadn't done a whole lot, he jogged up the stairs. He opened the door and walked in, opening his dresser. He plucked a warm pair of lounge pants and a long sleeve shirt that was thick enough to be warm for him. He knew they'd be a bit big on him, but they'd at least be comfortable too. He glanced at the queen bed and sighed, pushing thoughts out of his mind, knowing that he'd have to give up the sleeping medicine too. In Adrian's state he might very well try to take off again, and sleeping through it because of the medicine wasn't on his list of wants.<br><br>He jogged back down the stairs and placed the clean clothes on the counter, "there you go, they'll probably be a bit big on you, but they should work for now. Towels in the linen closet upstairs if you want a shower."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 19:57:16</strong>
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				Daniel had been a great guy. He had not only worked hard, but he had managed to bring his younger brother up better than most parents did with their own children. Though it wasn't like Adrian had been a bad boy, causing troubles or anything like this. His teachers had not even once called Daniel to the school because of fights or because of any normal problems that kids usually caused. Actually the only time that his homeroom teacher had called Daniel in the school had been because Adrian hadn't told his brother about some play that his class had made and in which he had had the head role... Daniel had been so upset afterwards mostly because he realized that Adrian was growing up with the thought that he should be extremely thankful to his brother and should never bother him about anything... It was odd, but Adrian's feelings had always been somewhat extreme...<br><br>He didn't stop stuffing food in his mouth when Xander came back to the kitchen and gave him some clothes. He chewed loudly, his cheeks filled with bread. If it had been any other situation he would have looked extremely cute, but right now he looked rather pitiful. He swallowed hard, a loud gulping sound coming from his throat. "Mh... yeah... okay..." He said as he looked back at the food and quickly took another slice of bread that was gone inside his mouth in a couple of bites. He was actually breathing heavily as he ate so quickly that he hardly had the time to breathe at all.<br><br>In less than fifteen minutes he had finished almost half of the bread and it seemed that it filled him for the moment because he finally stepped away from the counter, pressing his hand against his stomach. Not having had any food for the past two days and now eating like crazy in a few minutes... it wasn't the smartest thing one could do. And now naturally his stomach ached like hell. Even his pale face went somewhat paler. He sighed heavily, swallowing hard as he looked at Xander, soft frown over his features. "Where... where's the bathroom? Middle was it?" He coughed quietly, chewing on his bottom lip as he felt somewhat sick.<br><br>Adrian wasn't a bad boy... really... Maybe his manners had got a bit rusty the past few months, but it was normal... a boy who had lost his parents at such a young age, losing his brother, his idol as well... it wasn't something that could be handled easily by someone so young like him.<br><br>He grabbed the clothes as he hurried up the stairs, a moment later closing the door of the bathroom and locking himself in. One thing he had learned in the orphanage was to never ever take a shower without locking the door... He took his dirty clothes off, leaving them on the floor before he stepped into the shower turning the water on. For a few minutes he scrubbed all the dirt off his skin and hair. When he finally felt clean, he just crouched on the floor under the running water and hugged his knees to his chest. He felt like he was suffocating and someone was squeezing his throat... but still... no tears...<br><br>He walked out of the bathroom over half an hour later, dressed in Xander's clothes. They were big on him, but they were clean and warm, so he didn't care much about how funny he looked. His hair was still somewhat wet, but at least it was clean now even if he had left it messy.&nbsp; He stood there for a moment, looking around. He didn't know what to do now. Should he go to bed... which was his room? Or he should go to Xander? He bit his bottom lip as he looked down at his bare feet, feeling lost once again...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 21:49:15</strong>
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				Xander watched him go and for a moment felt the urge to say something, but what the hell was he going to say? Tell him it was going to be alright, that everything was going to work out great in the end? He wasn't a man to tell a lie, especially about something both of them knew damn well wasn't true. He sighed and sat down, lighting himself another cigarette, and tempted by the beer in the fridge. He decided to stick with the nicotine instead, listening as he heard Adrian start the shower.<br><br>~~~~~<br><br><em> He smiled as he looked at him, "Danny, come on we're gonna be late!"<br><br>Thumping in the room upstairs, hastily the door's thrown open as Danny trotted out, "oh shut up, I couldn't find my socks, someone threw them across the room in seperate directions, wonder who that could have been?"<br><br>Xander rolled his eyes and smirked, he knew damn well that Danny wasn't irritated, the smile in his voice was always apparent, "well you started that, now come here your collar is crooked."<br><br>Danny sighed but stood up straight as Xander fixed the collar, he kissed him when he was done, almost eager to go for another round, but pulled himself back, "you sure Adrian's ok by himself?"<br><br>He watched him pull on a shoe, "ahh, he's got his friends with him and I left money for pizza, plus I'll be back before they leave, which is enough time for us to catch a movie and me to be the responsible adult."<br><br>Xander grinned, "what would he or I do without you?"<br><br>Danny smirked, "live a life of misery and woe without the light of my life in your's"<br><br>Xander opened the door and smacked his butt as he grinned, "go on ya smart ass"</em><br><br>~~~~~<br><br>He jerked out of his own thoughts when he heard the water stop faintly above him, sighing he stood up, "damn Danny, if only you knew how right you really were."<br><br>He shook himself out of the stupor as he strode around hearing the door open upstairs. He stopped at the bottom of the stairs and stared up at Adrian who stood in his clothes, hair still wet. He felt the breath knocked from him for a moment, he really did look just like Danny. With the exception of the thin body and how Adrian's eyes looked right now, he looked remarkeably like him. The resembelance was so striking it actuallly stung Xander.<br><br>He cleared his throat, speaking so he didn't look insane, "your bedroom's on your right if you want, that's my room at the top of the stairs. You can go to sleep if you want too, the bed's all ready. If you want to come and watch TV be my guest, I uhh...need to clean it seems."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 22:15:22</strong>
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				Adrian winced when he heard Xander's voice, looking at him at the bottom of the stairs. He seemed as if he had a bit of trouble connecting what was going on with what was passing through his head. He was as if drowning in his bottled-up emotions... He blinked and glanced at the door that had just been indicated as the one leading to his room, nodding faintly. "What?" He looked down at Xander when the man told him that he could watch TV if he wanted. If it had been Adrian from a couple of months ago he would have jumped over the stairs to get to the couch as soon as possible as tonight was a game night and his favorite 'Mets' were playing... Only that he had no idea what was on TV anymore or who was playing... His life had as if stopped with his brother's death...<br><br>"No... I'll go to bed..." He said with that even emotionless voice as he turned on his heels and walked the past few steps to his new room. He opened the door and then closed it, locking it from the inside - one more habit he had got from the orphanage. He looked around, taking in the simple furniture - a medium-sized bed, a wardrobe, some table and a chair, nothing much really, but still it looked so much better than the orphanage and after over a month on the streets it looked as luxurious as a room in Ritz or some other fancy hotel.<br><br>Adrian bit his bottom lip as he crawled under the blankets, sighing heavily in bliss as he wrapped himself in the warm cover. It felt like ages since he last slept in a bed with clean sheets and soft mattress. His eyes started closing slowly, feeling his eyelids as heavy as lead, and just in a matter of a minute he started dozing off. He had indeed been extremely exhausted and only his stubbornness and pride had stopped him from collapsing in front of Xander. He didn't want the man to know that he was actually not all that strong... or that he was unable to take care of himself. For some reason he felt that if Xander thought that he was weak, then Danaiel would have thought the same about him too... and the last thing he wanted was to disappoint his brother or worry him... even if he was no longer here...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-12-2009, 22:49:08</strong>
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				Xander watched him go to the bedroom, and listened for a minute as he went to bed. Within minutes he heard soft snoring, and shook his head. The kid was stubborn but he couldn't hide now how tired he was, or how hungry he had been. He sighed as he realized though he had begun to fail in what he promised, even beginning to think he had completely, he realized that he finally had a chance to redeem himself. He looked up at the roof ahead, hoping that hopefully Danny was at least helping a bit.<br><br>He continued with his cleaning, picking up clothes and trash and putting them in their respective places. He had never been much of a religious man, or a spiritual one at that. He would have thought with the loss of Danny it would have burned away what little he had had to begin with, but in all reality it had only made him believe more. He sat down hard on the couch and laid back looking at the ceiling. In all reality, it made him hope there was somewhere out there, bright, beautiful and peaceful in which Danny had a place to live again, he deserved that much.<br><br>He must have been more tired than he thought, as his thoughts drifted, unable to really grasp onto reality, or a coherent thought. Within no time he had drifted off into a deep and dreamless sleep.<br><br>***************<br><br>He woke up slowly, thoughts shifting through his head as he woke up. He glanced around the room and realized he was asleep on the couch. He groaned as his back twinged slightly from how he had fallen asleep, but he tried to ignore it. He listened and could still hear Adrian sleeping upstairs. He glanced at the clock and realized that if Adrian was as tired as he thought, he might have a couple more hours. He grabbed his keys, turning off the alarm and then setting it back on as he went out the door.<br><br>He made it to the nearby grocery store, grabbing a cart and going between the aisles. He grabbed various foods, microwaveable things, actual meat and pasta, chips, pop, milk, lunchmeats. Basically all the things healthy, and junk food that he knew that he'd need. He made it to the counter, paying for it quickly and driving back to the house. When he came in, making sure to shut the alarm off quickly, he rummaged around, closing the door behind him.<br><br>He hustled his way into the kitchen, making sure to put away the things that needed to be kept cold first, and then filling the cabinets. He took a step back and realized he really wanted some coffee and food. He hadn't really bothered to clean, or eat that much as it was, so the dishes were already cleaned. He pulled out some eggs and bacon and began making it as the coffee brewed. He thought to himself quietly as he worked, feeling a bit better to be doing something as he threw some more eggs and bacon on the pan in case Adrian woke up and wanted some.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>17-12-2009, 23:59:51</strong>
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				Adrian slept peacefully though out most of the night, no dreams, nothing. Just his body and mind catching up on the rest they had been lacking lately. But the more he rested, the more restless his sleep became. And when the morning came he started tossing around in his bed, mumbling in his sleep. He even started sweating as nightmares embraced him. He kept seeing his parents and Daniel in a foggy place and they all kept disappearing one by one until he was left alone in the fog, running around and shouting their names, only that no one ever answered him. Only his lifeless echo... Until he would trip over and start falling and falling... and falling...<br><br>"GH!" He groaned as he hit the floor, sitting up and rubbing the back of his head. He looked around, realizing that he had fallen off the bed, his body entangled in his sheets and blanket. "Mh..." He rubbed his face, grimacing lightly when he felt the cold sweat. That dream... it left him feeling as if someone was strangling him. He shook his head weakly as he started unwrapping himself from the sheets. He placed them back on his bed when he was done, standing up and heading out of his room. He took a moment, listening to see if Xander was awake, and when he heard the noise from the kitchen, he walked down the stairs, peeking into the kitchen.<br><br>He blinked and swallowed hard at the sight of the warm breakfast that Xander was preparing. "Can I eat?" He asked, pointing at a plate with some eggs that the older man had prepared. It seemed that Daniel had had to ask for permission to eat as he didn't go to the table, but waited for an answer. He glanced at Xander, feeling how a lump formed in his throat. For some odd reason he felt like crying whenever he looked at the man... Maybe it was because he was the last person who was close to him who was still here and hadn't disappeared in the fog...<br><br>The youth swallowed hard, looking down for a moment, biting on his bottom lip as if he was trying to get the right words to say what he wanted to say. "Thanks..." He finally choked out, looking away, his pale cheeks turning a light hue of red.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>18-12-2009, 18:12:11</strong>
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				He glanced up when he heard Adrian come in, taking in the full appearance of him. He looked a bit better from the night, the lines under his eyes were less prominent and the dazed look solely from sleeplessness was basically gone. His body was still quite malnourished in appearance, and he still looked quite disheveled. Though it were the things not pertaining to his physical problems that made Xander's chest ache, it was the dull look that sometimes switched to a dark shadow flitting past for a brief moment in time.<br><br>Xander smiled softly at his question, "by all means, I've made enough to feed an army, I wasn't really paying attention when I was cooking, so help yourself to as much as you want."<br><br>He only let his smile warm a bit and nod at Adrian when he thanked him. He didn't really think anything needed to be said. It wasn't like he was going to say all the reasons why, obviously because he couldn't stand the thought of Adrian walking the streets on his own, alone and cold. There was also the fact that Xander was fulfilling the promise, and for some reason, having Adrian around in a sense, brought a piece of Danny back to his life.<br><br>He glanced around as he fixed up the last bits of food, he had a bit to do today. He couldn't exactly expect that someone else should have to live with his mess, even if they didn't seem to give a shit about it. He flipped the last couple of eggs and strips of bacon onto the plate, grabbing a couple of plates for both of them. He set the food casually on the table, making sure to grab the juice and milk from the fridge and setting them down with the silverware.<br><br>He set himself down at the table opposite of Adrian and he wasn't really sure what to say. He began eating, casting furitive glances up at Adrian. He didn't really know what to say to the kid, I mean he'd got him here, safe and sound and in one piece to boot. He had finally managed to do what he'd wanted to for quite sometime. Now, he hadn't the slightest idea of what to do.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>18-12-2009, 18:42:24</strong>
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				Adrian didn't wait for a second invite before he sat down, pulling one plate and filling it with eggs and bacon. Once again he started eating quickly, only that this time he actually used the fork, so obviously he wasn't as starved as he had been the previous night. When he finished his first plate he put some extra eggs, pouring a glass of juice for himself and sipping from it from time to time as he started eating a bit more slowly this time. He glanced up once only to meed one of Xander's quick looks at him. Adrian quickly looked down again, continuing eating until the second serving was gone as well.<br><br>He leaned in his chair as he pulled the glass, playing with it between his fingers for a few moments, chewing on his tongue as if he was once again struggling with finding the words. He finally opened his mouth, breathing in deeply as he spoke. "Can we go to the storage room?" He looked at Xander, his face serious, looking painfully the same as Daniel's whenever Danny had been serious. Adrian knew about Daniel's will as it was the last thing he had heard from their family lawyer before he was taken to the orphanage. Daniel had wished that if anything was to happen to him, their house would be sold as he had known that Adrian wouldn't be able to live there anymore as it would have been filled with bittersweet memories. <br><br>Everything from the house had been sold as well, so now Adrian had a nice bank account waiting for him to turn eighteen and inherit the money that had been left for him by his parents and brother... Only some personal and family items had been left for Adrian to keep, and most of his belongings and clothes as well - he had been allowed to take only one suitcase with only a few items to the orphanage, so everything else was put away in a storage room... And if he was going to be living here... well he hoped that Xander wasn't going to mind him bringing some of his stuff here.<br><br>"I mean... only if you're okay with getting some of my stuff." He said what he had just thought, glancing at Xander with a not so confident gaze. "I... just need some clothes and stuff..." He shrugged, looking down. He really wanted to take some of the boxes there. He had pictures of his family, albums, video tapes... just so many memories... And right now he really needed to be allowed to be close to them even if they were gone for good...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>18-12-2009, 23:35:56</strong>
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				Xander looked up with a blank look on his face. It wasn't that he didn't understand what Adrian was saying. He was just made blatantly aware that the few pictures he had had on display of Danny were hidden away now. It tore him up to hide those things, but he couldn't stand to look at them anymore, it made him realize that there really was nothing. Still frames of a person were hollow and cold reminders of the person, mere snatches of time that bore little more than nostalgic memories that held so much pain for him anymore. Though at the same time he understood where Adrian was coming from, perhaps better than he himself did.<br><br>Adrian hated his own feelings, after all, who didn't hate feeling like that? Yet he needed something direct to hold too, something that gave him a piece of his old life back, even if it wasn't what it had once been. Xander understood all too well, and it pained him that all reminders of Danny were hidden away like shameful secrets. Part of him wanted to reach out to Adrian emotionally and let him know that he understood exactly how he felt. He had lost something that day, it had been torn from him when he'd held Danny in his arms, bleeding out across the street and him, soaking his clothes, chilling him to the bone.<br><br>He closed his eyes and picked at his plate, but no, they had both agreed it was best to save it till Adrian was a bit older and ready to deal with it. When he was older, than he could have known the truth about he and Danny, that his brother had been dating his partner for years. Now it was too late, and telling Adrian something like that would be too much for Adrian right now, a little overwhelming. It tore him up that he couldn't share his pain, or even allow for Adrian to know that his pain was shared to a similar degree but on a different level.<br><br>He opened his eyes, realizing he'd become lost in his thoughts, "uhm yeah, no problem I know where it's at. My truck has a cover I can put on and we can make as many trips as you want...just let me know whenever you're ready to go and we'll go, ok?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>19-12-2009, 20:28:44</strong>
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				Adrian actually kept his breath in, nervous that Xander might say 'no' to his request, so when Xander finally spoke Adrian breathed out heavily, looking rather relieved. He bit his bottom lip, looking down for a moment. "I... just want some of my stuff... clothes mainly..." He mumbled quietly, wanting to let Xander know that he didn't intend on getting all his belongings here. One - he wasn't sure if he would be staying here for long enough to settle, and Two - ... he kind of didn't want to surround himself with items that reminded him of everyone he had lost in his life. And it was kind of hard to deal with the fact that for seventeen years he had lost both his parents and his brother and his entire life until now...<br><br>He swallowed hard as he finished his juice, putting the glass down for a moment. "I don't want your charity you know... so... make your calculations on how much money you spent on me and when I turn eighteen and get my money I'll pay you back." He spoke in an even, business-like voice as he looked at Xander. He wanted to make sure that the older man wasn't going to think in no way that he was clinging on him or anything like this. He wanted everything to be clear between them.<br><br>"And I'm ready to go whenever you are." He shrugged as he stood up, taking his plate, fork and glass and carrying them to the sink where he washed them, his back at Xander. Adrian was used to doing chores. After all he had grown up alone with his brother and even if Daniel had been trying his best to help with the work at home, he had been way too often away to do his actual job, so Adrian had learned just about anything one needed to know about housekeeping and chores. He could cook, do the laundry, clean, iron clothes... anything really. And he had grown up to be quite independent when it came to things like this and he really had no intentions on waiting for Xander to do everything for him. He was going to try to be as independent as he could from the older man...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>22-12-2009, 20:15:15</strong>
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				He nodded, "you can bring whatever you want here, that room's yours as long as you want it."<br><br>He decided to keep his thoughts about the "charity" comment to himself. The kid owed him nothing, it wasn't like he was stretched for money as it was. He had little want in the way of monetary spending, he had everything he really needed in the house, or at least what money could buy as it was. He had never been a man for wanting to get rich and buy yachts and Corvettes, to him, having enough to comfortably live on was just enough. If the kid insisted on doing so, he supposed he could just have him do minor housework to cover the costs if it really came down to that, but he wasn't overly concerned about that, he was just relieved and a bit anxious at having him in one place.<br><br>He watched him clean up after himself, not really all that surprised. He knew that Danny had done his best, which when it came right down to it, was more than most people were able to give him. Still he would have had to learn how to take care of himself a bit as time went on, especially the older he got. He found himself a bit impressed that Adrian had survived this long on the streets. He had no doubt that he could have handled himself against the trash that wondered the streets, but in this season, warm places to sleep and food were of the highest concern. True he didn't look like he'd eaten much in awhile, but he wasn't dead. He pondered for a minute whether he should get him looked at just in case, but decided that was better for a different time.<br><br>He stood up, waiting till Adrian was done to slide his own dishes in the sink and begin washing them off, "well, I'll finish this up since I made the mess, if you're wanting too, we can go right after I'm done here, my truck can handle it I think."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>27-12-2009, 22:13:09</strong>
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				Adrian stepped aside when he was done with his dishes, leaning on the counter as Xander started washing his own dishes. For a moment the younger male remained silent, just watching the policeman rinsing his plate. There was something oddly soothing about watching Xander wash his dishes, though Adrian didn't really understand why he thought so. Maybe because it felt as if he was back at home? He sighed quietly, looking at the ground for a moment as he folded his arms over his chest. "Mh... yeah, going there once you're done will be nice." He nodded, glancing at Xander. He knew that the other was off work today. Ever since he could remember himself Daniel had been resting on the weekends so that he could spend some time with his younger brother, which meant that Xander too had the weekend off.<br><br>"You were really close, weren't you?" He suddenly asked, looking at Xander. "I mean... I remember you even from before you two joined the police academy... so you were friends, weren't you?" He asked, swallowing hard. He knew that there were just so many things he didn't know about his brother as they had had only the weekends to themselves, so many sides of him that he was never going to learn about... He wanted to know as much as possible about Danny.. "Did... did he ever talk about me? What was he like outside our home?" He asked, breathing in and out deeply as he tried to remain calm, though there was this lump in his throat that made him feel as if he was suffocating.<br><br>"On the night before that day... we... we had a fight..." He looked down, biting on his bottom lip. "Do... do you think he got killed because of our fight?" Adrian looked at Xander with an almost pleading face. It seemed that the kid had been blaming himself for weeks now and maybe that was a part of the reason why he couldn't cope with his brother's death...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>04-01-2010, 23:51:20</strong>
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				Xander froze for a minute, unsure of how to proceed, for that point, after all what could he tell him? That he and his brother had been together for years, hiding it from Adrian until it was to the point of being too late? No he couldn't just dump that on him, maybe sometime later when he was in a better position with all of this but not right now.<br><br>It was Adrian's next words that unfroze him from his stupor. His face slid into a frown as he looked dead at Adrian, "we were close enough, and yes I know about that fight. But it wasn't that that...killed him, it was a bunch of punks with nothing to prove but bloodlust and disregard for human life. Nobody blames you, and you shouldn't either, it was heartless pricks, not you Adrian, never think otherwise ok?"<br><br>He stared at him for a minute longer, and realized he couldn't do it much longer. God save him, the kid looked so much like him, it tore at him within. He attempted a smile, and threw down the towel and sighed walking around to the key hooks and snatching his keys off of the them. He turned back towards Adrian, "alrighty, I'm all set for now, I'll start up with it when we get back, but for now I'm sure you'd like to get going, there's a few coats in the closet you can pick from if you want them."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-01-2010, 21:43:34</strong>
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				Adrian didn't look at Xander when the other spoke... But his words only made him think that he was indeed the one to blame for Daniel's death. After all, Daniel had been a good cop, a great one, so being killed by some kids with guns... It wasn't like him... That was why Adrian couldn't help but blame himself. If they hadn't had that fight, Danial would have been more concentrated, not worrying about the fight, but thinking about the moment, maybe he wouldn't have got killed and he would have been alive now.<br><br>The youth sighed quietly, still looking down. He didn't notice that Xander looked at him for a minute or so. But if he had seen the other's frown he would have most probably misunderstood it. But thankfully he didn't look up until the other threw the towel on the counter. Adrian glanced at Xander and nodded faintly as he followed him out of the kitchen and into the hallway. "Mh..." He looked at the closet and slowly shook his head, pursing his lips. "No thanks... I'm... used to being without a coat on." He shrugged lightly, passing with fingers through his chopped hair. Living on the street for a few weeks during one of the coldest winters in years had made him rather tough when it came to things like this.<br><br>Adrian waited for Xander to get dressed before he followed him out of the man's house to his car. He was quite for a few minutes after he climbed on the car and buckled up. He kept his gaze down, biting on his bottom lip&nbsp; before he finally spoke. "Are you sure you are okay with letting me live with you?" He asked quietly, not looking at Xander. He had never been all that friendly with Xander, because he had always been jealous of the man about spending so much time with Daniel, so Adrian really wasn't sure if Xander was going to be actually okay with letting him stay in his place.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>20-01-2010, 07:49:09</strong>
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				He didn't really want to argue with him about the coat thing, at the very least he could have his if he ended up being cold. He shrugged his coat on, his keys in hand as they walked out to the car. Both were silent during the short walk, not really having much else to say to the other it seemed. He felt a twinge of guilt that Adrian was drowning himself in. In all reality he knew it was his own fault, he had after all been Daniel's partner. He was supposed to be the one who watched his back, keeping him out of harms way, but he had looked away for a moment too long, and he'd known it instantly when it had happened.<br><br>His stomach twisted as he pulled himself into his truck, thinking more about it. If only he had paid better attention, not letting Danny's devil may care attitude get the best of both of them. Xander was always the cautious one, he should have known better than to just flippantly ignore the fact that even though this was a standard check up on a few well known criminals, he knew they shouldn't have taken it so lightly. Instead he'd let Danny's airs get the best of him, and he'd taken it too lightly, they both had. Now it had cost Danny his life, and Adrian's as well.<br><br>He threatened to shrink further into himself when Adrian's question pierced through him as he started the car. He frowned over at Adrian, trying to gather where the question had come from. Sure he and Adrian had never been what you could remotely call close, in fact there had always seemed to be a bit of animosity on Adrian's side to Xander. Xander had picked up on that, Danny always used to laugh, saying that Adrian was just jealous of Xander, and that usually failed to make him feel better about it.<br><br>"Don't concern yourself with that Adrian, you're more than welcome in my home as humble as it may be. Plus I think he'd kick both of our asses for how we've been lately, so on both of those notes I wouldn't worry too much about that, you're no bother."<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>07-02-2010, 21:52:24</strong>
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				Adrian nodded faintly at the other's words, looking out of the window. He didn't say anything as he didn't know what he could say in a situation like this. He knew that Daniel and Xander had been so close that there had been times that Adrian felt as if his brother cared more about Xander... Not that he could explain why he felt so... He just did... And that was why he had always disliked Xander, but he was a bad boy or a mean one, and he did know that Xander was a very nice guy and that his brother wouldn't have kept him as a friend for so many years if he wasn't such.<br><br>He remained silent on the way to the storage room, keeping his gaze out of the window. Even if he had lost a few pounds the past few weeks, it was more than obvious that he had matured. His features had become sharper, much more serious than before and he looked like Danny more than ever. Only his eyes were different from his brother's... Daniel's eyes had always been glittering, smiling, filled with life and positiveness, while Adrian's looked dull and empty. But it wasn't a big surprise, taking in mind that Adrian felt as if someone had ripped his heart out of his chest...<br><br>He let a heavy sigh leave his lips when they reached the building where the storage room was. He hated this place... Daniel had taken it long ago to put in store some of their parents' belongings and Adrian had always connected this place with emptiness and pain, that were now stronger than ever. He swallowed hard as he waited for Xander to pull over before he got off the car and headed to the door of the storage room. He quickly dialed the code to unlock the door, not really knowing that his brother had set the code to be Xander's birthday...<br><br>The door slowly started pulling up, revealing the rather big room filled with Adrian's and his now dead family's possessions. There was his mother's piano, his father's collection of records, tons of boxes with signs 'Mom', 'Dad' and 'Danny'... And it was more than obvious that Adrian had a bit of rough time stepping over the door way and walking in. He swallowed hard and quickly looked around, his eyes having filled with tears that he was fighting to hold back. He saw a pile of suitcases and bags that were filled with his clothes, and he just hurried to them, taking a bag on each shoulder and quickly heading back to the car, obviously wanting to just get out of here as quickly as possible. "Please take that box..." He choked out as he nodded at a box near his bags filled with some photo frames, some mitts and a bat sticking out.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>09-02-2010, 23:42:12</strong>
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				He wasn't sure of how he would react when he got there, all he knew was that the cold and twisting feeling in his gut was getting worse the closer they became. When they reached the storage unit, his body was in upheavel over it all and he felt a bit ill. He watched Adrian get out with a vague sense of wonder, the kid certainly had a lot of guts that was for sure, he had to give him that much. He eased himself out of the truck, dreading even having to face this much. He hadn't looked at Danny's stuff in the month's since his passing and he didn't look forward to have to look at things he was used to seeing everytime he'd gone to their home.<br><br>Still he stood in silence as Adrian put in the code on the lock, noticing the number with a twinge of sadness. It apparently hadn't clicked in Adrian's mind, but Xander knew those numbers all too well, typical Danny it seemed. His eyes swept the room, picking up several familiar objects, some of which had stronger memories for Adrian than to him, a lot of it was things from their parents, but Danny had kept some of them in the house. Whereas Xander attributed the items solely to Danny, Adrian had both him and his parents to remember when looking at them.<br><br>He didn't bother to cross the line into the storage unit, he preferred staying out in the cold wind then going in there. He felt colder inside than he did on his skin, and that was saying something. He felt a twinge of fear going into the room, as if something, some memory would come out and drag him away. He didn't want to do that, Adrian didn't need to see him like that, he didn't want to see himself like that, he couldn't even remember letting himself really sink into tears. Tears were a comfort that he didn't allow himself, and now with Adrian under his care for the moment, he wasn't going to let it happen now either.<br><br>He looked up when Adrian spoke and nodded, gearing himself up, hustling into the room to grab the box. His legs moved slowly as he glanced over into a box that contained more than enough things to let him know who the previous owner of the items in the box had been. He felt a lump in his throat as he forced himself to pick the box of Adrian's things in his arms up and turned away, trying to swallow it. He moved quickly and set the things in the truck where they'd be safe.<br><br>Without a word he leaned against the truck and lit a cigarette, if he could help it, he wouldn't go near the place until Adrian was ready to go.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 18:22:51</strong>
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				Adrian dropped the bags on the ground next to the car and turned around, moving back in the storage room to get two more bags. He wasn't sure what was in the bags, but he knew that those were his clothes. Whether those were his summer clothes or winter clothes he had no idea, but right now he didn't care. He glanced at the room once again, breathing in and out deeply. He felt horrible... His entire family... His entire life and memories... They were all in these boxes... And he couldn't help but feel as if someone ripped his heart out of his chest once again.<br><br>He turned around sharply and then quickly pulled the doors closed, dialing in the code once again to lock the place. He looked at Xander and nodded faintly as he moved to the bags once again and lifted them off the ground, pushing them in the back of the car. "That's... enough for now." He spoke in a low voice that sounded as choked as if someone was strangling him at the moment. Adrian's face was paler than ever and he looked simply broken. Not that it was a big surprise... walking in that place... it was even worse than going to his family's graves...<br><br>He breathed in and out deeply before he suddenly stepped in front of Xander, taking the cigarette from between his lips and carrying it to his own before he took a long drag of the cancer stick, his hand shaking lightly as he held the cigarette between his long fingers. It wasn't like he was smoking for the first time - Daniel had lectured him hundreds of times to not get into smoking because it was not going to do him any good with his athletic future, however, now that both Danny and his baseball future were gone... He didn't care... <br><br>He just stood there, looking down as he&nbsp; took yet another long suck from the cigarette. He looked so sad, so broken, yet trying his best to not let it all out... Actually he was an exact copy of Daniel right now and right there... looking exactly like his older brother when the two had become full orphans and Daniel had had to become an adult and take care for Adrian on his own... Only that back then Daniel had someone to rely on - Xander, and someone to live for - Adrian and Xander, while Adrian... he felt all alone..
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 19:37:23</strong>
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				Their lives were broken, that much both of them could tell, it was too obvious to miss. Xander was such a mess he couldn't go near a few inanimate objects, afraid of the memories that they contained. Adrian on the other hand, faced them, walked near them, never touched them, but was still a lost little kid who didn't know anything anymore, his place in the world, what he was going to do, even how to live. Xander couldn't exactly say he knew much about that either, he hadn't faced any of it since the incident.<br><br>It was those reasons and more that he barely batted an eyelash when the cigarette was torn from his mouth and ended up in Adrian's. He watched him for a moment, a thoughtful expression on his face, if not a bit sad as well. He didn't want to place it like he was, but the resemblance was striking and he found each time it struck deeper into him, no matter how many times he saw it, it was always a stronger blow on his heart. He sighed and lit another cigarette, he was never going to get away from this, never be able to move beyond this, at least not how he was. The best he could do was hopefully help Adrian do so, no need for one so young with plenty working for him to not be able to move on eventually.<br><br>He nodded without a word and slid into the car, at this point he was ready to just slide into his home and hide from the world. Then again, Adrian was a part of that little world away from the world, and there was no getting away from that. It wasn't that he wanted too per se, he just didn't know how to continue as he had when he had one more charge to care for. He wasn't quite sure how he was going to manage it, it was all new to him. Daniel had taken care of it all before, he'd known how to deal with Adrian, and Xander had just sat back and not paid much attention, he had never been all that good with people as it was.<br><br>He started the truck and remained silent for the drive back, lost in his own thoughts, trying to fight the memories that continued to try to haunt him. He wasn't sure how to do this, he didn't even know what to say half of the damn time to anybody, let alone a hurting kid who felt all alone. He couldn't tell him the truth, so his comforts were minuscule, pathetic and meaningless in the end. He lit another cigarette as they pulled up, pulling himself out and grabbing the box from before without another thought as he walked to the door, balancing the box as he unlocked it to let them in.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 20:46:32</strong>
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				Adrian remained silent during their right back to Xander's home. When they got there he moved around in silence, taking a couple of bags before following the older man in the house, going out once again to take the last two bags. He didn't say anything as he moved his belongings to the guest room that Xander had given him. He didn't bother with taking his stuff out of the box that Xander had carried - most of them were things that he was still not ready to face - his baseball stuff, some albums, some pictures... Just not yet. He stuffed them in the closet, soon filling it with his clothes. If one walked in the room they would have never guessed that anyone lived in there as Adrian kept everything in the closet...<br><br>The next few days Adrian mostly slept all day long, trying to catch up on the rest he needed so badly. It took him a few days to get used to sleeping in a bed and having food whenever he was hungry, but eventually he slowly slipped in a rather normal pace of life. Only that he didn't go out anywhere, didn't talk much, didn't really do much except for some cooking and cleaning. It turned into a habit to wake up before Xander, prepare him a breakfast, then do some chores around the house, before working on a dinner for the older man. He didn't even think about how it must have looked, but it was just the only way he could show his gratitude towards Xander. Adrian was a good kid after all, even if he was a bit lost...<br><br>Without realizing it, over two weeks had passed since that cold night when Adrian was brought in the PD. He yawned as he woke up, turning around in his bed and rubbing his eyes. If he had to be honest it was somewhat boring to do nothing all day long. He had been used to a rather active life, so turning into a 'housewife' felt as if his life had indeed ended with Daniel's life. After all Adrian didn't go to school, or practice, didn't hang out with friends anymore and he had never really been big on reading, so his days were usually rather boring... and he had caught himself counting the hours and the minutes till Xander would come home. He didn't want to admit it, but... Xander had managed to fill a little of that emptiness inside his chest...<br><br>Adrian pushed himself out of the bed, rubbing his eyes again as he stumbled out of his room. He knocked on Xander's door and called softly. "Wake up! You'll be late for work." And once he had said that (another small habit - waking up Xander every morning with a knock and a call through the door), he headed down stairs to start preparing a breakfast. He knew that today was going to be an important one for Xander as he was going to find out whether he was getting the Detective's badge. Adrian had even ironed some nice clothes for him, so in case he did got the badge he was going to look just great.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 21:26:38</strong>
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				He grunted as he heard Adrian knocking on the door, calling to him about being late for work. He sighed as he let his eyes adjust to the rising light of the room as he rolled around. He kicked a few covers off as he pulled himself up to sitting position, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He knew it was the day he'd find out if he had gotten the promotion or not, so it was worth getting himself from the warm covers today. He yawned, finally pulling himself out of the bed and padding over to grab a pair of lounge pants and walking out of the room.<br><br>He walked down the stairs, already smelling the sounds of breakfast cooking in the kitchen. In the past two weeks, Adrian had situated himself as the caretaker of the house. He hadn't spoken that much still, and Xander was fine with that, that was the kid's prerogative. He wasn't quite sure what he was going to do with him, or how he was going to help him, but this seemed to be doing him quite well. He had noticed Adrian coming a bit more into himself as he took on the household chores, he'd seemed to be sleeping more, and his mood wasn't quite as dark. It wasn't transformed into a perky and upbeat person who didn't have a care in the world, but Xander had felt himself become a bit more relaxed about it all as he watched Adrian's progress.<br><br>He shuffled into the kitchen and caught sight of Adrian as he yawn, idly scratching his stomach as he eyed the food. He wondered for a moment how he managed to stay in the shape he was with Adrian around, the boy seemed to take right to cooking exuberant amounts of food that should have sent Xander into having a soft stomach. For that, he was glad that he managed to keep some of the metabolism that had always gifted him since he was younger, that and he made sure to keep himself in shape with exercise considering he loved the food too damn much.<br><br>He plopped himself in a chair and stretched before remembering to get up and grab a cup of coffee, still sitting in his typical morning silence as he stared at the cup, readying himself for the coming day.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 21:51:38</strong>
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				Adrian leaned on the counter, taking his mug with coffee after he had placed a plate with rich breakfast at Xander's side of the table. The younger male hardly had any breakfast himself - coffee or juice, then some snack at lunch and dinner at the evenings with Xander. It wasn't that he was not taking care of himself - he was, but he didn't have much of appetite. And it wasn't a big surprise - he had been eating a lot before as he had been working out like crazy all day long, now that his daily life had changed he didn't feel like eating much...<br><br>He licked his lips as he glanced at Xander. "You... today they will announce the promotions, won't they?" He asked quietly, knowing that Xander might be nervous about it. After all Adrian was a cop's kid, a cop's brother, and even if his father and brother were dead he had grown up knowing some more important dates of a cop's life and one was - that one day every six months that new promotions were announced. And if he had been doing his math right - Xander already had enough years and experience to get the Detective's badge. So, really, it shouldn't have been a big surprise to Xander that Adrian knew what day was today.<br><br>He looked down for a moment, feeling rather awkward about what he was about to say. "Mh... I'm sure you'll get it..." He mumbled, glancing at Xander. Daniel had always told him that Xander was a good cop and one day he was going to become a great detective... And after having lived with him for two weeks, Adrian was already ready to believe Danny about it... mostly because he saw that Xander was a great guy and he was sure that he was doing his best at his job.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 22:12:03</strong>
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				He looked up from his cup and squinted at Adrian for a moment, as if trying to either figure out who he was, or what he had said. When Adrian had first started staying here, he tried to make sure to wake himself up before coming down around him, for fear that his lack of morning alertness might give him the wrong ideas. Slowly he'd begun to show up before his shower and so by now he was pretty sure that Adrian knew that Xander was a bit slow in the mornings with things. Hence why he needed almost a pot of coffee and a shower too boot.<br><br>When the question finally sank in and the answer came to him he nodded, "Yeah, they're supposed to be announcing them after lunch today."<br><br>He was hoping, and had been hoping for awhile, to be able to get the position of Detective. It didn't pay a whole lot to be a beat cop, especially when you had an extra addition to the house. It wasn't that Adrian ate a whole lot, something that still had Xander mild concerned, it was just that having another person meant twice that many things that left the house. In that regard, he was able to keep them afloat, but that was about it, things weren't tight for him, but he couldn't very well give more to Adrian. He was a kid after all, and he wanted to be able to start providing more than just the bare necessities. The kid needed new clothes, he needed extras, and he definitely needed something to do around the house besides cook and clean. With the hope of this promotion came the hope of maybe being able to do more for Adrian.<br><br>He looked up and smiled a bit, "thanks Adrian, I hope I make it too, it'd be nice to have some extra cashflow around here too. Never a bad thing."<br><br>He drank thoughtfully from his cup and finally his eyes settled on Adrian, "given any thought to what you're going to do with yourself? I mean, kid like you, can't just sit in some guy's house and clean and cook for him your whole life."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-02-2010, 22:29:41</strong>
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				Truth to be told, Adrian had been quite worried at first when Xander seemed rather antisocial and quiet in the mornings - Adrian thought that the man simply didn't want him around, and he had actually felt down because of it, though he soon figured out that Xander was just one of those guys who were not morning people. So when the cop took a few moments to reply, Adrian just kept his eyes on him, waiting patiently because he knew that a reply was coming any moment now..<br><br>He smiled softly and nodded at the other's thanks, knowing that it always felt good to have someone believe in you. He sighed quietly and looked down, his smile disappearing as soon as the other spoke about the extra cashflow. Adrian knew that cops didn't make big money and he was quite sure that even if Xander was never going to mention it, he was most probably going to have some troubles supporting the two of them on his own. "Mh... about that... maybe we should contact my lawyer? Ask for some way to get my money earlier? I mean... I doubt they will give them all to me or to you, but maybe some sort of allowance..." He mumbled, not wanting to be of any trouble to Xander.<br><br>But when the other asked about his plans, Adrian winced visibly, his fingers squeezing on the mug as he looked at Xander with dead eyes. He said nothing for a moment or two, but his features became as sharp as never, obviously not wanting to think about it. "I told you... I'll cook and clean your place until I turn eighteen... and then I dunno... live with the money I was left from my parents and Danny... and... when they are over I'll get some job I guess." He shrugged, forcing a smile to his face, though it looked more like a grimace than a smile. "I don't really care." He added with almost no voice as he looked down at the mug, staring at the black liquid inside. Bitter... his mouth tasted bitter... but not because of the coffee...<br><br>"Doesn't really matter." He shrugged as he poured the rest of his coffee in the sink, turning his back at Xander as he started washing some of the pans he had used to prepare the breakfast. "Anyways... I'll prepare something nice for dinner... But if you go out partying with the guys, I'll leave in the oven, so don't worry." He said, obviously confident that Xander was getting the promotion.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>11-02-2010, 22:41:57</strong>
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				He shook his head, "no, no, it's fine, money's not that much of an issue, I'm not struggling or anything, don't worry about your lawyer. That's your money for when you turn 18, no, the promotion would only give extra here, so I can bring in more than just a TV with crappy channels and stuff, I know it gets pretty boring around here is all. Don't worry about that, leave the finances to me."<br><br>He didn't really want to get into it with Adrian, mostly because it was something that Adrian didn't need to worry about. Money and finances weren't important for someone his age to deal with, he had other things that should be on his mind. That and there was no real issue, there was enough to keep them warm, healthy and under a roof.<br><br>He watched Adrian's face carefully as he talked about his plans. He knew it wasn't good for Adrian to not have anything planned, nothing in mind, he was young and had his whole life ahead of him. With time he was sure that Adrian would perk up, he was after all related to Danny, he had those bounce back genes in him. Still it saddened the man that the kid was so beat down about it all, and he knew that Danny would be surely yelling at both of them right now, threatening to drag them out into the world if they didn't do it themselves.<br><br>He looked up and fought a snort, yeah, as if he had a life to live, friends to go out with. His friends that he had had, they'd already given up on him. Most of them knew what the real story between he and Daniel was, but they didn't know what to do for him. He refused to go out, didn't want company, and just quit taking calls. He knew a few of them called, probably out of some trace of caring, but that was about it, nothing really all that important or meaningful.<br><br>He sighed and leaned back, "nah, if I get it, there will be no partying for me, never was really the type that was always....don't worry about that. I'll be back after my shift."<br><br>He nodded as he stood up, "I'm going to take a quick shower to help me wake up a bit more, be back in a minute."<br><br>He stood up and sauntered back up the stairs and into the bathroom. Moments later he emerged from the steaming bathroom, a towel wrapped around his waist and into his bedroom. He changed quickly enough into his uniform and went back down the stairs where the food was done, reseating himself back at the table.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>11-02-2010, 23:14:21</strong>
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				Yeah, Adrian had noticed that Xander didn't really go out on his days off. At first he had thought that the other wasn't going out because of him - not wanting to leave him and all, but he was kind of starting to realize that maybe Xander didn't have all that many friends - if any... Except for Danny who was now gone. His brother and Xander had been going out for a drink or two quite whenever they had a day off. Danny had been usually spending the days with Adrian, going to his games, helping him with his homework, just hanging out together, and the evenings he would go for a drink with the 'guys', though Adrian knew that by the 'guys' Daniel had meant Xander, just not telling Adrian because he didn't want to make his younger brother feel left out or anything like this...<br><br>But still... he felt bad for Xander... He knew that the other must be grieving as well for Daniel in his own way and even if they hadn't been bloodrelated they had been quite close... "Okay... then I'll make something nice for dinner." He said quietly as he glanced over his shoulder, nodding at Xander when he announced that he was going for a shower. Adrian took those few moments to wash the rest of the used dishes and reheating the breakfast for Xander when he came back.<br><br>Adrian remained quiet for the rest of the morning, looking rather lost in his thoughts. Xander had reminded him that he had a life ahead of him and that he would have to make some plans for it... If he had to be honest he just wished that he wouldn't need to... It wasn't like he was suicidal, but he really didn't have much of a drive to live. It was hard to be seventeen and to have lost all your reasons to live for - baseball, family, school, friends. He needed something... someone to make him feel alive again...<br><br>Once Xander had left for work, Adrian went upstairs to change into some nicer clothes. He had found some cash in one of the pockets of his jeans, so he was going to go out and buy something more special for the dinner tonight. He was sure that Xander was going to make it and even if he didn't - a good meal could always soothe him down a little, right? He spent most of the morning and the afternoon shopping and then cooking. By six o'clock the table was set - salad in the fridge, his special steaks that Danny had taught him how to prepare finishing cooking in the oven, the nicest bottle of wine he had managed to buy with his fake ID and the little money he had had, opened to let it breathe.<br><br>He had taken a shower and dressed in his favorite baseball shirt and a pair of nicely fitting jeans. Maybe this was the first time in the past two weeks, and months actually, that he had taken care of his looks and he did look damn charming! No wonder that he had been one of the most popular guys at school. Even if one had to be fair, Adrian was actually more handsome than Daniel...<br><br>It was nearing half past six when he was all ready. He sat on the couch's arm, looking at the door. His heart was beating fast in his chest, almost freaking out. What if Xander didn't get the promotion?! "No... he will make it..." He mumbled under his nose, breathing in and out deeply as he glanced at the clock, already counting the seconds and the minutes until Xander's return...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>13-02-2010, 21:47:23</strong>
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				The rest of the morning had been spent quietly and Xander was just fine with that. He knew he'd made Adrian start thinking and that was exactly what he wanted. He knew all too well the state that Adrian was left in, he was heart broken as much if not more than Xander was. Still he was a kid, he had his whole life ahead of him, there was no need to spend the rest of his life broken and drifting through life without a purpose. His life had been turned upside down, ripped apart and left to drift in the wind, which to Xander meant that he just needed to find a new purpose, a new goal in life, a reason to do something with himself. <br><br>As he picked up after himself and headed out to work he wondered if perhaps he himself would ever find a reason. Before his only reasons for getting out of bed, eating, going to work, paying the bills were a mix between needing to survive just barely, and sheer habit. Now he had someone else to look out for and he knew that that was important. He'd promised Danny a long time ago if anything happened to him, Xander would do his best to take care of the kid. At the time Xander had only shook his head and told Danny that it wouldn't have to come to that, he guessed he was pretty wrong after all of that.<br><br>He sighed and realized that he was at work, and he pulled himself out of the truck and into the station.<br><br>----<br><br>He hummed to himself as he worked the lock for the house and pushed the door open. He threw his coat into the closet and kicked the snow off of his boots with ease and kicked them off. He glanced around the house, not seeing Adrian. He moved forward into the kitchen, towards the smell of food, something he recognized quickly. He bent down and looked into the stove and smiled faintly, it seemed Adrian had picked a few things up from Danny when it came to cooking. He eyed the bottle of wine with a curious look and then proceeded back into the rest of the house.<br><br>He spotted Adrian sitting on the couch just as he was about to call for him, he smiled, the first smile that actually held a bit of happiness to it, "there you are, I guess your faith wasn't misplaced, I made detective."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>13-02-2010, 22:43:32</strong>
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				Adrian's heart stopped for a moment. Why wasn't Xander coming in directly in the living room?? Could it be that the man was 'hiding'? That maybe he hadn't got his promotion and he just didn't want to face Adrian? The teenager looked around, confused wondering what he should do. Those few seconds from the moment he heard the front door being opened until Xander finally walked in the living room were pure torture to him - he couldn't help but feel as if he was the biggest idiot on Earth, preparing a celebration dinner and all that. What if Xander got mad at him? It would have been understandable if he hadn't got the promotion and he came home to see Adrian's dinner...<br><br>He literally gasped when the cop stood before him, his face rather pale and worried for a moment as he waited for Xander's announcement. And when he heard that his faith hadn't been misplaced... Well, Adrian simply jumped off the couch and ran to Xander, throwing himself on the other's neck, hugging him tightly for a moment. "God! That's great! Great!" He laughed out nervously as he slowly let go of Xander, taking a step back. His pale face had started warming up after the hug, realizing just how... unexpected and odd it could have been to Xander. He wasn't sure about the other's sexuality, but he guessed that the man was straight, so a hug from another guy might have been a bit odd...<br><br>"Heh... sorry about the hug... I just... woah..." He smiled, laughing again as he pressed a hand against his chest. His heart was going wild on the inside. <em>Why?</em> He swallowed hard and licked his lips, giving a small punch on the other's shoulder in a manlier manner which he thought it might be a bit more appropriate than a hug. "Congrats, man... I told you." He smiled as he nodded at the kitchen, passing with fingers through his hair. "I prepared some steaks..." He looked down for a moment, his smile disappearing for a moment as he added quietly. "I'm sure <em>he</em> would have been proud of you... and happy..." He mumbled, talking about his brother.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>13-02-2010, 23:33:15</strong>
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				He blinked when Adrian threw himself at him, latching onto his neck. So great was his surprise that he didn't even return the hug. For a moment his body burned warm with a flash of heat as Adrian's body pressed against his. His face flushed as he clung there for a moment before releasing Xander and looking abashed about the sudden display of affection. At the forefront of his mind, Xander was glad to see Adrian display some sort of emotion other than the sadness he was used to seeing. On the other hand he couldn't admit the starting of a physical reaction in him from the contact.<br><br>For a moment his mind floated over Adrian, he looked so much like Daniel that for a moment, he felt an old arousal happen in his body. Not only that but he looked different than him, obviously younger and the curves of his face and body were different, better in some ways. He blinked as he realized that his physical reaction was getting stronger, and he snapped himself out of it.<br><br>He kicked himself silently for those thoughts, no matter how brief they had been. This was Danny's brother, and a kid too boot! He shook his head and smiled, "no, don't worry about it, it's not big deal, good to see it out of you actually."<br><br>He followed Adrian to the kitchen leaning against the doorway and smiling, it's falter coming when Adrian brought up a mention of Danny. He sighed and smiled again, "I think he would just be happy that you're ok, and have kicked our asses for not having taken care of ourselves before. And probably pleased that you learned to cook from him, because lord knows I don't know how to cook."<br><br>He was trying his best to be lighthearted, and in someways it was easy with Adrian right now, even about Danny. Maybe there was something in having someone to share that pain with, even if they didn't know exactly how much, that made it a bit easier to bear. The old adage 'misery loves company' rang in his head, and it held a tone of truth to it as well. He knew well enough that someone had to help the other, and Adrian was just a kid, so it was up too Xander in this case to try and make things better somehow, even if they would never be better for him.<br><br>He set his hand on Adrian's shoulder and smiled, "and I'm sure he would want us to be happy, or try to be, to enjoy this. By the way, where'd you get the wine from mister under 21?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>13-02-2010, 23:50:21</strong>
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				Adrian quickly moved around Xander, hurrying in the kitchen, trying his best to not make eye-contact with the man as he didn't want him to see just how embarrassed he was from the hug. He did smile for a moment when he was told that it was okay. Xander was so sweet... Most guys would have thrown him off, punched him even... unless they were gay guys... Any gay guy would have loved Adrian hugging them... and doing other stuff to them, because the young man was simply gorgeous and one had to be blind to not notice it.<br><br>"Heh... yeah... that sounds like him." He looked over his shoulder, smiling softly and a bit sadly at Xander when the other said that Daniel would have kicked their asses for not taking care of themselves. If there had been one thing that Daniel had hated it was people giving up.. Giving up hope, giving up their dreams, giving up their lives. So, yeah... if his older brother could have seen them just a few weeks ago he would have most probably beaten them up or something. Adrian laughed shortly at the thought, imagining Daniel with a baseball bat, chasing after him and Xander to beat some sense in them...<br><br>But a hand on his shoulder made him almost jump and turn around quickly, pulled out of his thoughts. He found himself facing Xander from a rather short distance and for a moment he felt his heart beating so heavily against his chest that he pondered whether Xander could hear it too...<br><br>"Ah?... heh..." He laughed shortly as he took a step away, sliding towards the fridge in an attempt to 'escape' Xander's close presence - it was just too much to handle for some reason (in a rather frustrating and confusing way that is). He took out the salad and placed it on the table,&nbsp; grinning at the man with that charming smile of his. Maybe the first true bright smile that appeared on Adrian's face in months, making it appear even more charming and handsome. "Well... I'm... well I used to be an average teenager, you know." He shrugged, looking once again like that kid he had once been - a bit playful, cheerful, bright and fun to be around. "And I was a damn good pitcher, thus winning a lot of games, thus having the reason for a lot of parties... And one thing led to the other..." He chuckled as he pointed at the wine. "It's not anything fancy, but better some wine than no wine... I mean, those steaks go great with some red wine..."<br><br>He glanced at Xander as he leaned on the counter. "Mh... I mean... it's not like I've never drunk before, and some wine really can't get me drunk... And I do believe we can both agree that I'm more mature than most kids my age... so... a little wine can't do any harm, right?" He smiled again, shrugging lightly. It was really hard (if not impossible) to say 'no' to such a handsome smiling face... especially when Adrian's eyes seemed alive for the first time in weeks. <br><br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 07:45:08</strong>
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				He smiled a bit, "yeah, I remember being able to make it to a few of your games before, you had a lot going for you with that."<br><br>He shook his head at the next bit from Adrian, "but you somehow managed to have an ID for buying alcohol? Yet never drank before, I find that hard to believe," he finished the sentence with a small smile.<br><br>"No worries, a little bit of alcohol couldn't hurt you after all, it's only a bit of wine. Plus we have something to celebrate after all, and wine is good for that," he leaned against the counter nearby and watched Adrian for a moment.<br><br>He could see exactly what he would look like when he reached Xander's age, and even the age that Danny had been. He was going to be one hell of a looker, that much was sure, he'd have the girls after him, or perhaps the guys. He remembered making a comment to Daniel once about Adrian's lack of dating. Danny had laughed, making a joke about how he and Xander hadn't been dating any girls when they were in high school either. He didn't give it much thought at the time, thinking it was only Danny's typical sense of humor, but now he wondered.<br><br>He brought his pack of cigarettes out and pulled one from the pack and lit it with a flippant gesture and sighed, "well let's certainly hope that this can mark a change for both of us. I won't be busting my ass in such a hardass way, and will have more time to spend here to help with the housework a bit, and some more money into the house can't hurt. Maybe we can make a change."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 08:07:03</strong>
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				Adrian's lips twitched lightly when Xander mentioned that he had had a lot going on about him in baseball, but the 'twitch' didn't bring a smile, more like a small bitter grimace, obviously not wanting to think about his past and the things he had lost after Danny's death. Baseball had really been his biggest passion and losing it after losing Daniel... well it had only added to his crushed heart. He sighed softly as he nodded faintly to indicate that he did remember Xander joining his brother at some of the games... Not that he had enjoyed the attention back then - he had hated it, because to him it had meant that Danny wanted to spend more time with Xander than with him.<br><br>"Hm... well... correction." He laughed dryly as he motioned to the table to urge Xander to sit down. "You never saw me drinking or drunk." He said as he moved to the oven, taking a towel to pull out the steaks and place them in the middle of the table - the food looked delicious and the kitchen quickly filled with sweet aroma. "I mean... you and him had so many night shifts that I had more than enough time to go out, party, get drunk and get home before he came back from work." He said as he sat down, waiting for Xander to serve himself whichever steak he liked better.<br><br>It seemed that Adrian had led a secret life away from Daniel an about which his brother hadn't really known. It wasn't like Adrian had been some wild, crazy kid, doing moronic stuff, but after all he had been a kid. "And... the fake ID was like fifty bucks." He shrugged as he took some salad and started eating slowly. "Mh... that guy who is selling drugs next to the park behind my old school - he could get us anything, including fake IDs." He chuckled again as he motioned at the food. "Hope you'll like it." He smiled softly as he stuffed some more salad in his mouth, not thinking at all about how it had sounded when 'that guy who sold drugs' came out of his mouth... Kind of shocking that he had known people like this, wasn't it?
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 08:19:10</strong>
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				His brow quirked more and more as Adrian spoke until he finally set his fork down,"guy who sold drugs? You mean the kind of people that-....I spend my time catching all the time? Come on Adrian, you should have known better, those kinds of people are notoriously dangerous."<br><br>He shifted a bit, glad he'd caught himself earlier in his scolding, it wouldn't have gone well to remind him that the kind of person he'd bought the ID from were the kind that had taken Danny from them both. It troubled him immensely to think that Adrian had been so neglectful of himself before this, just blatantly going out and putting himself in harms way like that. He hoped that maybe Adrian had learned and grown a bit more mature than that before, before he'd found Adrian he'd hoped to god that the kid hadn't been hooked on some street drug, and that little tidbit had played on that fear a bit for a split second.<br><br>He rummaged around the food with sigh, "well, that was then and this is now I suppose, so no harm done I suppose. Just please...don't go near people like that anymore, they're nothing but bad news. You want alcohol, find a safer way to get it. Hell when you hit 18 I'll even buy it for you if need be, stupid law anyways."<br><br>He smiled wryly over at Adrian as he dug into his salad, he might be a cop, the upholder of laws, but that didn't change the fact that he had his own opinions about the laws he upheld. Still he wasn't going to let that little detail that Adrian had let slip get to him too badly, he had other things on his mind. For a split second, his mind drifted back to Adrian close to him, hugging him, the heat and press of his body.<br><br>Xander blinked himself out of the thoughts, feeling his stomach twist again as the guilt and vague disgust hit him again, he swallowed the salad and tried to continue eating, "so there was one thing I always noticed when you were in school, why didn't you ever date? Someone who looks like you do, they had to be throwing themselves at you."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 17:11:23</strong>
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				Adrian stopped eating for a moment. He didn't look up at Xander, but his expression changed once again, looking rather serious and deep in thought. Just a few months ago he had been actually trying his best to get in trouble. Even if he was never going to admit it, he had wanted Daniel to pay more attention to him, because after all he had been his only family and Adrian had felt as if his brother was starting to drift away from him. So like most kids Adrian subconsciously had started doing things that could have got him in trouble - getting a fake ID, buying alcohol from stores where they could easily bust him with the fake ID, skipping classes and so on and so on - normal teenage rebellion and tantrum for more attention. But now that he thought about it... Maybe if he had got in real trouble and something had happened to him, Daniel would have never got hurt and died. If Adrian had got hurt, they would have never had that fight on the night before Danny's death, Danny would have been more careful around those guys...<br><br>He swallowed hard and shook his head weakly at Xander's words. He didn't know if the other had any idea just how huge of impact his words had on Adrian. He coughed quietly, licking his lips as he sipped a bit of water from the glass that he had taken for himself. He glanced at Xander and finally spoke. "I'm not going near them... I don't need them to get anything for me anymore... I have the ID and it's not like I have to use the ID anymore, right?" He shrugged lightly as he squeezed his fork for a moment. After all he had no life anymore, so he didn't need the ID. Xander had nothing to worry about...<br><br>He started eating once again, silence felling upon the table for a few moments, before Xander suddenly shot that question about dating. Adrian choked at the question, coughing for a few moments before finishing the water to clear his throat. His face flushed as he stared at Xander as if wondering whether he could and should tell him the truth. '<em>Did he just say that I look great?'</em> He thought for a second, causing his pale cheeks to turn hot once again.<br><br>"Mh..." He coughed quietly again, putting the fork down and folding his arms over his chest. "Well..." He sighed heavily through his mouth obviously trying to calm down. "Mmh... It's not like I didn't get tons of <em>people</em> hanging on my neck... I guess I just... I never found the right.." He paused for a moment, visibly tensing as he continued. "...the right guy..." He swallowed hard, looking at Xander with nervous eyes, waiting for his reaction. "How... how do I look?" He asked Xander, doubting that straight guys would call each other hot or handsome or anything like this. And he felt his heart jumping in his chest excitedly as he waited for the other's answer and reaction. This one moment... it was going to determine whether he could actually let his heart jump excitedly in his chest... if only Xander was gay too...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 18:50:51</strong>
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				Adrian's silence after Xander's partial lecture hadn't been missed on Xander. He felt a bit guilty considering the look on Adrian's face after he had said all of that. Still he knew well enough that it was necessary, Adrian didn't need to go back to living like that again, to doing so many foolish things. If Xander had to use guilt or some other method of the like to make sure that Adrian understood the possible dangers and the underlying threats in what he had been doing, then it was a price that Xander was willing to pay. Even if it make feeling like a complete douche for a little bit afterward, as he did now.<br><br>Afterward, he'd watched Adrian all but choke on his food at Xander's question and Xander could only watch in an amused silence as the teenager collected himself. When Adrian came right out and admitted that it hadn't been the right guy being the reason he hadn't dated yet, Xander's brow shot up in surprise. It crossed, flickering with amusement for a moment, well damn, maybe Danny had known all along, or at least on some level he had. Xander on the other hand could only sit in his typical silence afterward and watch Adrian's facial expressions for a moment, the anxiety, a faint twinge of hope that Xander didn't know the origins of, and a few other emotions flit across his face.<br><br>He leaned back, finished with his salad and reaching across and pouring them both a glass of wine, setting the bottle back down before setting his gaze back on Adrian, "the right guy hmmm? Well I think not being able to find the right person is a general problem all over, so I guess that makes sense."<br><br>He wasn't going to come right out and tell Adrian the truth about himself, he seen little point in it after all. He was actually a bit surprised that he had been so forthright with him, and just come out and said. At his age, there wasn't much that would have had Xander admit it to someone so freely, except Danny of course. Then again Danny had all but figured it out and worked with it in his own way. His face tinged with a bittersweet nostalgia at that memory, the brief talk and what could only amount to his first kiss. Much more had followed in the weeks afterward, but that kiss would always be branded into his memories.<br><br>He focused back on Adrian, a faint smile on his lips as he looked at him, "well I think you know damn well how you look, would be hard to miss it I'm sure. You're a good looking kid Adrian, I'm quite sure attracting people wasn't and won't be all that difficult for you after all."<br><br>Yeah, the kid was bound to have no issue with it, just like his brother hadn't. Then again, Danny was only flattered by it, whether it be male or female attention, he never went beyond it. At times it bothered Xander, because he knew well enough when it came to sexuality that Danny sat right in the middle. It wasn't as if Xander himself didn't get attention, he wasn't an unattractive man, it was just that his generally quiet and reserved manner around new people didn't bring them to him. Yet Danny never showed any real interest in others, Xander and Adrian remained the number 2 most important men in his life, and Xander would have had it no other way.<br><br>He drank from his glass with a small mischievous smile, "so....ever had sex? Or waiting till you meet the right one?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 19:08:37</strong>
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				Adrian stared at Xander with a rather intense expression over his handsome face. He could feel how his cheeks turned hot once again at the rather cool way that the other had taken the news about his sexuality. Well... One was for sure - Xander wasn't a hater, because if he had been they would have been fighting by now. He swallowed hard as he breathed in and out deeply, his eyes moving at the glass as wine was poured to him. He didn't know why but his heart pounced against his chest so heavily that it almost hurt.<br><br>He blinked and looked at Xander when the other said that he was an attractive kid and he couldn't help but clench his jaws for a moment. He wasn't a kid! He felt how his blood started boiling, for some reason feeling rather angry about being called a 'kid'. He doubted that anyone who had been through what he had been through could ever be called a kid. Xander obviously had no idea what it was like to lose your entire family, to grow up pretty much all on your own, then to lose your brother and be thrown into an orphanage far away from everything you know. And if the cop thought that living in that orphanage and then for weeks on the streets was a joyful experience or one that could keep a kid stay a kid... Well he was wrong. Ever since Danny had died until that night when Adrian had got arrested, there hadn't been a single moment that Adrian hadn't fought to survive and to not get killed or raped...<br><br>He lifted his glass and took a mouthful before he put it back down, glancing at Xander with a small frown. "I'm attractive. But I'm not a kid." He said in a low voice, sounding surprisingly deep. He looked at the man again, his eyes serious. He wasn't just throwing a tantrum... He had a point.<br><br>He lifted the glass again, but he stopped just as he carried it to his lips, shocked by Xander's question. His eyes went rather wide-opened, obviously not having expected such a question from the man, and his cheeks did turn red again. He lifted the glass, pouring its entire content in his mouth and drinking the rest of the wine at once. He put the glass down, reaching out for the bottle and pouring himself another glass. It was a cheap wine, but it was damn strong! "Fucked a guy once. A few other guys gave me blowjobs and handjobs." He shrugged, trying to act cool, not wanting Xander to see just how embarrassed he was right now... "As I said - I was a damn good pitcher and won lots of games." He laughed dryly as he sipped from the wine again.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 19:24:57</strong>
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				Xander couldn't help but chuckle at Adrian's reaction to his question, "ahh, so the little baseball player had a few boys on the side for fun then? Interesting how nonchalant you act about it, yet you're almost as red as this wine is, which by the way you should slow down on, it's got a bit of a kick."<br><br>Well he supposed in that way, he differed from himself and Danny. Well at least himself, he never would have tried to guess what Danny would have been like if he hadn't been with Xander. For all he knew, the man might have very well have been a bit adventurous like Adrian had been in high school. He looked thoughtful for a moment as he considered it, even considering telling Adrian the truth about himself, perhaps instead Danny. Though he thought better of it, there was no need to tell him about Danny, and there was no point in telling him about himself. Knowing one or the other could send Adrian's wheels spinning and lead him to wondering about he and Danny, and Xander really didn't want him to go there.<br><br>He began cutting at the steak now, taking a piece at a time into his mouth and swallowing it after chewing slowly. He drank from the wine, mixing the flavors as he watched Adrian carefully for a moment, remembering the taste of these steaks all too well. It seemed Adrian had in fact picked up a few things quite well when it came to Danny. Other than his culinary ability, which Xander had always envied, and had become a bit reliant on at times, but also his looks, and at times, Xander could see Danny in Adrian's eyes a bit. In some ways it endeared Adrian to him, and in other ways it served to make him a bit leery, hesitant in some way. The resemblance served to simultaneously make him want to get closer to Adrian, closer than perhaps he should, while also making him want to stay as far back from the memories that the resemblance drug up with them.<br><br>He drank again after a few bites, the wine beginning to set in a bit as he looked at Adrian, "yes I know you're not technically a kid, all things considered. Just bear with me though, I've known you practically your whole life, and you've always been a kid too me, and physically you still look like a teenager. So it's a force of habit, it's not as if I've ever treated you as a child since you've been here, now have I?"<br><br>He slid another piece of steak into his mouth and paused before speaking again, "by the way, the steak is very good, delicious, thank you for all of this."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 19:40:22</strong>
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				Adrian frowned as he tried to hide the deep blush at the other's teasing about having had boys on the side for fun and being as red as the wine, though it didn't really work out as planned. He shrugged lightly as he looked down, starting eating once again so that he wouldn't have to look up at Xander for a few moments until he could feel his cheeks cooling down a little. He drank some more of the wine as he looked up when the man spoke about knowing him his entire life and having never treated him like a kid... This was true, but... Still, he didn't like it! Especially when Xander said that he was physically a kid!<br><br>He laughed out at that, shaking his head. "Am not!" He lifted the glass again, finishing it quickly and placing it down. "I'm not physically a kid!" He said with a huge handsome grin over his lips, looking rather cocky and confident actually. "I might be still a kid according to the law, but I'm in no way a kid." He shook his head, as he set his fork down, reaching out to pour some more of the wine. He glanced at Xander and nodded at him. "I'm physically a very grown up man." He said, nodding again. He was already a little bit drunk, so he wasn't thinking about what he was saying. <br><br>"What about you? Ever screwed a guy?" He asked, leaning back in his chair and sipping from the wine. "And of course the food is great. I'm a damn good cook." He nodded, grinning again. One had to be admitted - he looked so damn hot whenever he was smiling. "Heh... and if you want me to prove you just how much of a grown up I am... well... heh... you gotta see me naked, man!" He laughed, confidence kicking in with every next sip of wine.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 19:51:17</strong>
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				Xander watched in faint amusement at Adrian's reaction, and even a bit of hesitation. He looked down at the wine in his hand, having had to pour himself a second glass. Just how strong was this stuff anyways? He eyed Adrian for a moment as he spotted the growing ego, the lassez faire attitude, and how blase he was about giving away what was borderline personal information. It was the last few bits of Adrian's conversational bits that had Xander wanting to reach across and grab the wine glass that Adrian held from him.<br><br>He shook his head and drank half of his own glass for a moment, he supposed if they were going to have a good night, then at least Adrian had the right idea. Plus Xander would need a little extra help to put himself in the right state of mind to be able to handle a buzzed Adrian. He made a mental note to make sure to drink more than Adrian, because drinking experience or not, he wasn't as big as Xander, and he didn't have the years worth of experience he had either.<br><br>He shook his head with a slight smile, feeling a bit warm from the dinner and quite possibly the wine as well, pulling out a cigarette and lighting before sliding the pack across the table towards Adrian, "well mister adult I guess you can help yourself to one of those then, since you seem to already have been doing it before this."<br><br>He chuckled as he picked up his plates, finishing the rest of his second glass and pouring himself a third, "and you shouldn't question your elders about their sex life," he winked at Adrian, "because you never know what kind of things they could tell you."<br><br>He put the dishes in the sink making sure to rinse them off a bit and walking back towards Adrian, ruffling his hair lightly as he went by, his voice teasing"good to see you're so modest about your culinary skill, rare to find a man so humble about anything. Glad you could be a model citizen for us all."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 20:19:13</strong>
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				He didn't say 'no'?!? This was all that Adrian could think of. Xander didn't really say 'no' to his suggestion of seeing him naked to make sure of Adrian's physical growth! The teenager grinned as he watched Xander drink and eat, feeling how his heart started pouncing faster in his chest. If Xander was okay with seeing him naked, then it meat that the man had to be at least bi-curious! And if Xander had even the tiniest bit of curiosity... well, then Adrian was more than certain that his hot body could convince Xander just how great it was being gay or bi.<br><br>"Thanks." He chimed when the cigarettes were slid towards him, quickly taking one out and placing it between his lips. He lit it with Xander's lighter, glancing at the man as he took a long suck out of the cigarette's butt... looking surprisingly naughty as he did so and then let the smoke out of his lips. It seemed that Adrian did know how to work it when he wanted to draw some sexual attention to himself.<br><br>"Oh? So... you have some dirty secrets in your closet, don't ya?" He laughed as he smoked, licking his lips as he glanced at Xander, handing him his plates too. It seemed that Adrian was starting to get rather comfortable around Xander and their private talk... Of course the wine helped a great deal, but the cigarette got him to calm down a little, letting the wine he had already drunk settle down. He chuckled at the other's words about being modest, shrugging lightly as he waved his hand in a not-a-big-deal manner.<br><br>"Ts... Modesty is one of my many qualities." He grinned as he reached up, passing with fingers through his hair to put the locks back in place. He put the cigarette down and picked the wine, drinking half of his glass. "Mh.. let's go to the livingroom, man... Those chairs ain't comfortable." He said as he stood up, taking his glass, placing the cigarette between his lips, and grabbing the bottle of wine in his free hand, motioning at the ashtray. "Take it." He motioned with head to Xander to follow him to the living room. A moment later Adrian was already sitting comfortably on the couch, pouring himself another glass of wine. He looked over his shoulder to see whether Xander was following him, grinning after a moment.<br><br>"So... you never answered my question... Have you tasted another man?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 20:40:03</strong>
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				He eyed Adrian smoking the cigarette and raised a brow casually. Internally he was realizing that Adrian had a bit of experience in being able to make himself look more overtly sexual. Everything he was doing was being turned into a fluid, graceful movement that held strong over and undertones of sexuality. Xander wondered what the hell had gotten into Adrian and why he was behaving like this, and he wondered if perhaps Adrian was trying too.....he couldn't be!<br><br>His eyes fell on Adrian again, licking his lips, with a vague thought about what kind of dirty secrets he could tell Adrian, all of which involved something or should he say someone, that would cause Adrian to cut this line of questioning very quickly. Still even that question, and the one before, it was almost as if the boy was flirting with him. He couldn't help but chuckle at himself, apparently he'd been drinking too much wine if he was starting to think like that. Adrian was just being his old self a bit, and the wine was making it more pronounced.<br><br>Ignoring the fact that his body was responding to the perceived sexuality of Adrian, he grabbed the ashtray and followed him. He chuckled at Adrian's question, "not that it is any of your business, asking your elder such questions, I see your old nerve is coming back."<br><br>He hadn't quite decided if that was a good thing or not, but the alcohol made it amusing and made his lips move easier, "and interesting that you use the word 'taste' odd choice. Appropriate I suppose, but I suppose I can't like and say that I haven't once or twice in my life been with a man, one does grow curious after all."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 20:52:47</strong>
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				"Ohh?" Adrian's grin grew wider at the man's words, looking at him with an almost playful glitter in his eyes. "So... you've been curious, I see." He chuckled as he turned slightly on one side, to be able to face Xander as they sat on the couch. Adrian fell silent for a moment, inspecting the man's face and then he nodded. "I bet you topped." He chuckled, biting on his bottom lip as he sipped from the wine, finishing his cigarette afterwards. "I really can't imagine you bending over for some guy." He chuckled again as he reached out and pushed Xander's shoulder playfully.<br><br>"And by that expression on your face I can tell you liked it, didn't ya?" The youth chuckled as he scooped a bit closer, narrowing his eyes as he looked at Xander's as if trying to find the answer there. "Yep. You loved it." He nodded laughing as he sipped of the wine again, but this time taking his time for a slow sip, tilting his head backwards as if trying to draw Xander's attention to his long neck that looked just perfect for kissing. Yeah. Adrian knew how to draw a man's attention. He had been quite the tease back at school and if he hadn't been a jock and people hadn't known that his brother was a cop, he would have for sure got beaten up at least twice for being an over-tease to some of the seniors.<br><br>He tilted his head and looked at Xander, smiling as he nodded at the bottle and tilted his glass indicating that he wanted the man to pour him some more glass, a playful smile playing on his lips. Yeah, he was flirting already, quite obviously at that. "Man... I am so happy that you got the detective's badge..." He said sincerely before he suddenly leaned in and pecked Xander's lips. A quick innocent kiss, pulling back a little to look in the man's eyes. His cheeks were flushing, eyes looking in Xander's, expecting to see his reaction, wanting to see some desire... hoping that Xander would lean in and kiss him back.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 21:32:11</strong>
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				He tensed when Adrian kissed him, a quick peck, but a kiss nevertheless. His face flushed furiously when Adrian pulled back, watching his face carefully. Xander hesitated as he looked at Adrian, unsure of how to react to that little action. He was now damn sure that Adrian had in fact been flirting with him, and Xander couldn't quite wrap his mind around that. Hell a couple of weeks ago, Adrian seemed to barely be able to stand him, even before Danny had gone, Adrian had never seemed all that fond of him.<br><br>He poured Adrian another glass, adding to his own as well as he lit another cigarette, clearing his throat, "well yes, so am I, just...I don't think it's a good idea for you to do that Adrian. It isn't a place we need to go, you're a good looking kid, well you know, not a kid, but still, I don't think it's wise of us to even go near that kind of thing. I'm supposed to be watching over you and I don't think that-.....well it's just not a good idea."<br><br>He smiled a bit, trying to ignore his bodies reaction to the kiss. He couldn't deny that for a moment he had enjoyed it, wanted more. Still Adrian was technically a kid, by all laws and purposes, he was still a kid, which wasn't right on Xander's part. Not only that, but he was Danny's brother, and that was so many kinds of wrong to even be thinking what he was, that he couldn't even begin to fathom it.<br><br>He blinked when he realized in the process he'd finished off his newly poured glass already, reaching to pour himself another with his free hand. Trying to keep the memory of Adrian hugging him, his body firm against his, his lips against his own, out of his mind.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>14-02-2010, 23:07:51</strong>
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				Slowly Adrian pulled back, looking at Xander's reaction. He was acting quite... nervous... He blinked and tilted his head for a moment, thinking that the cop looked rather cute when he was nervous like this. He just hoped that he wasn't confusing the emotion the other was displaying... what if Xander was actually disgusted by the kiss? He shook his head lightly, wanting to chase that thought away. He didn't want to think right now - he wanted to feel right now.<br><br>True, he had never been a big fan of Xander's, but then again he had never really known him. For the past two weeks he had got to know Xander, maybe not in the way he could have got to know him over the years, but... Xander had got his hero-image in Adrian's hand. After all the man had taken him in, fed him, given him a home, and obviously cared for him one way or the other or he would have just sent him back to the orphanage. And having been so heart-broken and lonely the past few months it wasn't a big mystery as to why Adrian had started falling in love for his savior.<br><br>He followed the man's motions with eyes, listening to his words in silence. "I... need you..." He finally whispered, glancing at Xander with serious eyes, filled with desire, but with something that Xander could have seen a lot of times in Danny's eyes - love, need for support and in Adrian's case - need to be loved and have a reason to live. He put his glass on the coffee table, taking Xander's glass as well before he moved in the other's lap, straddling it and sitting down slowly. He took the cigarette from between the man's lips, and after taking a long drag out of it, he put it away in the ashtray.<br><br>He wrapped his arms around Xander's neck and shook his head weakly. "Please... don't say no... I'm not a kid... and I know what I'm doing..." He whispered as he leaned in for a kiss, but not just a mere peck, this time it was a soft kiss, locking their lips for a few moments before Adrian pushed his soft tongue in Xander's mouth, tasting the cigarette and the alcohol captured in the man's lips and breath. His body pressed against Xander's, rather tensed as if preparing his muscles to jump away in case Xander pushed him off. It seemed that Adrian knew that there was a chance of rejection... but he just needed to feel someone close to him...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 05:54:18</strong>
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				Xander's eyes watched Adrian's as he replied to him, feeling a bit sad suddenly. He knew that Adrian didn't need him exactly, only what he represented to him. He was Adrian's last tie to his brother, the last one he would ever really find, at least in the living sense. In Adrian's mind, he wanted to reconnect, and what other way than through his closest friend? Not only that, but in a way, Xander had become like his brother, taking care of him, feeding him, giving him a home and other things that had once been Danny's place. He also knew that he had become the focus of this empty place of Adrian's heart, where once the love and care had been ripped from it, Xander had given him that, and this was the only way to fill it back up, make it more real for him.<br><br>He opened his mouth to say this to Adrian, barely noticing the glass taken from his hand. Suddenly Adrian was on top of him, eyes smoldering and staring into his own. He found that his mind was reaching for the words he once had in his mind as he watched the smoke drift from Adiran's mouth, his eyes tracing those lips carefully with his eyes. His mind seemed to be slowly erasing whatever it was that he had to say before.<br><br>Adrian's arms seemed to drift around his neck, comforting him, and driving further thought from his mind. He opened his mouth to speak when he heard Adrian's voice. It was a tone he knew too well, and a gaze he'd seen so many times before. How was it possible for brothers to have that same tone, that same tone that held so much trust, need and love in it? How could they both have the same eyes capable of holding a gaze that bore into you, wanting to make you just wrap your arms around them and give them whatever they wanted?<br><br>It shouldn't have been possible, and he knew that it wasn't right, none of it was. Still he felt Adrian's lips press into his, and it was nothing like the first time he'd kissed him. This was not a rather small peck, meant to be hesitant and testing. This kiss wanted to know, know where Xander stood in all of this, to show Adrian what he wanted, and that he could give Adrian what he wanted. In the process, the last vestiges of Xander's fighting mind was wiped away, and he pressed back against Adrian. His arms wrapping around the boy's midsection and kissing him back.<br><br>He was still so much a boy, yet he felt so much like the man he would grow further to be, so much like his own brother. Memories were weak in his conscious mind, unable to really influence him even as they surged in the background of his mind. His mouth opened, his tongue flitting out and rubbing across Adrian's own, tasting everything that had been there in the past hour. He sighed, his arms holding Adrian firmly against his own body, feeling the muscle that still lay there beneath the fabric of Adrian's clothes.<br><br>Xander pushed off of the couch, pushing Adrian onto his back gently on the couch. His mouth still worked gently over his, claiming it, taking gentle control of it with each movement he pressed into it. His arms slid from behind Adrian, traveling up, one to cup his face gently, stroking the soft and yet hard jaw. The other running down the line of Adrian's arm, his side, feeling the curves and lines of his body beneath his searching fingertips.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 17:48:28</strong>
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				He didn't push him off! Adrian's body shivered lightly as he let his muscles relaxed, sighing quietly as their kiss continued. He felt so happy that Xander had not only pushed him, but was actually replying to the kiss, that he felt how his eyes filled with tears, so he let his eyelids slowly close. He knew that it was stupid, but he couldn't help it. He needed to love someone, he needed someone to love him... And truth to be told, he had been quite scared that Xander would not accept him and that he would push him away that now when his fears were proved wrong, he felt so relieved that he had no control over his emotions. And, yes, Xander was right. Adrian was just trying to reconnect, but not only to his brother. He was trying to reconnect with life, to find a reason to keep on living, and Xander seemed to be the perfect reason.<br><br>"Mh..." He made a soft sound as he was pushed on his back, their kiss never being interrupted. His soft tongue swirled around Xander's pulling it in his mouth, licking lightly its underside. Adrian slowly opened his legs so that Xander could lay on top of him. The boy's hands slowly slid away from Xander's neck, moving down the man's back, stopping at the other's waist and pulling him lightly down so that their groins could press. It seemed that Adrian was already growing hard - not a big surprise taking in mind that he was still a teenager with raging hormones. "Mhh..." He sighed in the kiss, pulling back for a second to gasp for air, looking at Xander's eyes for a moment. Adrian's eyes were still filled with tears, looking rather pleading and scared, not wanting Xander to pull back now or ever, begging silently the man to stay by his side.<br><br>He leaned in the kiss once again, his legs moving to wrap around Xander's waist, pulling him down. His hands found the rim of the man's shirt, pulling it up a little bit to slide his gentle palms beneath the shirt, feeling Xander's toned body. Another soft sound left Adrian's mouth as they kissed when his fingers got to feel Xander's muscles. Adrian was no longer thinking... He didn't want to think if this was right or not, if Xander would love him, if he could love Xander... He didn't want to think about those things right now... All he wanted was to feel connected to someone, to be a part of someone.... even if it was going to be for just a brief moment...<br><br>He let his hands slid back down and to the front of Xander, his fingers caressing lightly the man's abs just above the belt of his pants. He pulled back from the kiss again, gasping for air before he leaned in and kissed Xander's lips hard, pushing his tongue in the man's mouth again. His fingers slowly started working on the buckle of Xander's belt, soon opening it and moving onto working on his buttons and zipper. And soon his hand started making its way into Xander's pants, a bit hesitant, but his long fingers reached Xander's manhood, stroking it lightly through the material of his boxers. "Ah..." Adrian moaned quietly as he felt the man's member between his fingers, his own pushing up as a big bulge in his tight jeans...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 20:31:06</strong>
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				In his own way, he had never quite outgrown that teenager in him. Danny had always joked back when he was around, that Xander was still like a 13 year old, the slightest breeze could have him hard. It was a bit of an exaggeration, but still he did get aroused pretty quickly. Adrian's body against his, the rising heat between them, and his soft lips and searching tongue had him quickly feeling uncomfortable in his jeans. He gazed down at Adrian through the growing fog of his arousal, seeing the need, the fear, the want for comfort. The protective beast in his chest rose as he seen that, even as it seemed to turn him on even further in some twisted way.<br><br>Before he could continue that faint train of thought, he was pulled further onto Adrian, his lips working back around his mouth. Warm, searching hands slipped under his shirt, tracing the lines of his stomach. He lifted his torso, separating their groins as Adrian's hands searched his body. His body relaxed and then tensed, relaxing again under Adrian's touch. There was a vague innocence to all of the touching, even if Adrian had experience, it was with other inexperienced, younger males. This time around, whether he knew it fully or not, he was trying with someone who had more than enough experience. Xander's thoughts turned to wanting to show him that, comfort him with it, give him all that he could and protect him from whatever was haunting his mind, even for a moment.<br><br>The hand slipped down, toying along his waistline as Adrian pulled away. Xander looked down at Adrian again, no longer seeing what had been there before, now Adrian's eyes wanted only what he was searching for on Xander's body. Xander's dark eyes turned darker, the arousal pumping through his body as his own hands traveled down Adrian's body. His hand found the bulge in Adrian's pants as Adrian's own fingers fumbled with Xander's belt. He traced his fingertips along the bulge, wrapping them as best he could around the bulge. He squeezed lightly, pumping a few times as he went, feeling the tightness in his own pants relieved a bit as the belt was finally removed.<br><br>His head moved down from Adrian's mouth, nipping gently along the boy's jawline and onto his throat. He moaned gently, a bit roughly as he felt Adrian's hand stroked through his boxers onto his now rock hard arousal. He bit into the soft flesh of his throat tasting Adrian's skin in his mouth, gently nibbling farther down his neck, his arousal twitching against Adrian's hand as he moved. His hand continued moving on Adrian's jean covered erection, moving gently as he felt along the length of it, "I see you're not lacking in size," he breathed into his neck, taking another nip of his neck onto the cord of muscles running from Adrian's shoulder to his neck.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 20:45:48</strong>
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				"Ah..." A soft cry out of pleasure escaped Adrian's lips when he felt Xander's hand over his bulge. He closed his eyes, his jaw trembling lightly for a few moments as he spread he bucked his bottom a little, pressing against the man's palm. His fingers stroked up and down Xander's erection, feeling how his body started burning from lust. Xander was big... So much bigger than the boys he had been fooling around with. And the thought simply made him want to feel the other closer.... inside of him. He whimpered softly as the other stroked him through the jeans. They were skinny jeans so they clung painfully to his groin...<br><br>"Mh... I see you're enjoying this..." He replied with a heated voice, teasing in reply to Xander's comment about his size. The youth blushed and moaned softly as his tender neck was kissed and nipped. His body shivered and his hand squeezed lightly Xander's member. "Ah... take my clothes off." He whispered, leaning in and nipping on Xander's ear, his tongue flicking over it. It was starting to hurt being so hard in that tight jeans, plus he wanted to feel more of Xander's kisses on more places than just his lips and his neck. <br><br>He pulled his hand out of Xander's pants for a moment, pushing him off a little so that he was able to lift his hands and sit up a little bit, just enough to have Xander peel his shirt off. Adrian was panting softly, his cheeks flushing in a rather erotic manner as he looked at Xander's eyes, waiting for him to undress him... Gosh, was it hot in here, or he was on fire?
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 21:23:12</strong>
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				He didn't waste much time with his movements, pushed away from Adrian his body was on high alert, ready for just about anything. He bent down, grabbing the bottom of Adrian's shirt and planting a soft kiss on his hard stomach. As he lifted the shirt higher his kisses trailed upwards until he reached his chest. He held the shirt in place, moving his lips over to one of the hard nubs that was Adrian's nipple. Taking it gently into his mouth and sucking on it gently, swiping his tongue around it and finally nibbling on it gently between his teeth. With a trail of kisses over to the other he repeated the actions until finally he continued lifting up the shirt until he was off. His kisses meeting up his collarbone and to his mouth, hungrily taking the kiss as he pushed Adrian back down onto the couch.<br><br>His mouth moved to gently claim Adrian's as his hands creeped back down his chest and torso. His hands met with Adrian's waistline, working expertly over the buttons and zipper of his jeans, undoing them quickly enough. He moved his head, breaking the kiss with a gasp as he moved down Adrian's body, taking the pants slowly down the rest of his body, until they were completely off. His head now lay at Adrian's boxers, and his gaze was fillled with the tented sight of Adrian's groin.<br><br>He bent his head, moving his hand to hold onto Adrian's hips as he pressed his mouth over the erection pressing against the thin material. He kissed up the covered arousal, breathing deep through it, hot breath cascading down on the boy's erection. He open his mouth and worked his lips gently over the arousal, working from one end of it to another, his tongue traveling with it. He held Adrian's gaze as he moved his mouth more, eventually tearing his mouth away, eager to do more.<br><br>His mouth moved to Adrian's waistline, kissing along the line of it as his fingers hooked into the waist band. He pulled them slowly down, kissing as he went around his groin, avoiding the erection that popped up, now free from it's confines. Once all was exposed he moved quickly to remove the boxers completely, throwing them to the floor, kicking his jeans with them. He slid back up, mouth watering a bit at the sight of a naked Adrian, trusting and eager for more. Xander's tongue slid out again, trailing a line up Adrian's inner thigh, planting rough kisses along the way until he reached his groin again.<br><br>He licked across Adrian's balls, covering them with his tongue gently and taking each one into his mouth, sucking on them gently. He rolled them around in his mouth, before breaking away from them and running a teasing tongue up his shaft, his hands moving to grip onto his hips. His tongue swirled around the head gently, licking across the slit of his head for a moment before finally placing his lips over the head. He swirled his tongue around the underside of the head as he nursed gently, his hand coming under his balls to play with them gently. He stopped teasing eventually, bobbing his head down, going only halfway down before coming back up to suck on his head some more. He continued this for awhile, eventually stopping to suck on his head once more. Without warning he bobbed his head down quickly, taking all of Adrian's cock into his mouth and down into his throat. He moaned for extra effect as he worked his throat muscles around the member invading it. He slid completely back up it, sucking gently as he went before coming completely down again, repeating this process over and over.<br><br>Then he slid completely off of Adrian's manhood with panting breath. He smiled a bit up at Adrian, his eyes shining with lust. He picked Adrian up too his feet and then wrapped his arms around his waist, bending his head down to press his lips against Adrian's one more time. The kiss was hungrier than before, claiming Adiran's mouth and tongue a bit, tasting him one more time. He pulled back with a wicked grin and picked the boy up one more time, this time carrying him to the stairs.<br><br>"Let's move somewhere a bit more appropriate for all of this."<br><br>Had he stopped to think, he would have stopped completely. Right now he was only thinking of having Adrian completely, giving him everything he should have. He climbed the stairs, still holding Adrian and balancing himself carefully til he reached the top of the stairs. He pushed into his room and set Adrian down&nbsp; on the soft bed and lay down next to him, gently nibbling on his throat some more.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 21:53:47</strong>
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				Adrian smiled when Xander did what he told him and started taking his clothes away, but the cocky smile disappeared as soon as his wish came true and he felt the man's lips all over his stomach, his chest, teasing his nipples until they turned hard rock. The youth moaned, shivering lightly beneath the kisses and the touches, obviously having never been touched by such a skillful partner. His boy-toys had usually just got on their knees and sucked him off, nothing all that spectacular or great... and now that he thought about it - getting a kiss on his neck or having his nipples sucked by Xander felt times better than anything he had ever felt...<br><br>"Ah..." He voice sounded so weak, so sweet, so hot as Xander's lips traveled down his toned body all the way to his pants and then leaning down to suck on his member through the cloth of his boxers. The boy moaned out again, his hips thrusting up a little. He could feel how his boxers started wetting against his throbbing erection, but it wasn't just from Xander's saliva - he had started leaking with precum like never before. "God..." He cried out softly, reaching up to pull on his hair as it just felt so good. He bit his bottom lip, gasping for air as he felt the boxers being pulled down and Xander's lips passing just so close to his groin.<br><br>He breathed in and out deeply, glancing down at the man with blurred eyes from lust and excitement. Was this really happening? "Oh... yeahh..." He moaned again as the man's lips finally reached his throbbing and leaking erection. Adrian hadn't lied - he was very nicely developed for his age - his body was lean and nicely toned, his member standing up beautifully... Only his soft moans and rich precuming weren't all that mature, but it was still a beautiful sight to see him squirm and moan with pleasure that he had never felt before.<br><br>"Ghh... MORE!" He almost screamed as Xander started sucking on his cock and moving up and down, teasing him like no one had ever done until now. His hips started bucking up, muscles tensing as he felt how his orgasm was starting to get closer and closer with each bob of the other's head. But just when he thought that he was about to reach his climax, Xander pulled away, leaving Adrian shaking like a leaf and gasping for air, so close to his release that he looked as if he was about to start crying out of frustration.<br><br>He whimpered as he was pulled up on his feet, hardly managing to stay up as he knees were shaking. He clung onto Xander, his hips humping the man's leg, leaving a wet trail over his pants. It seemed that Adrian was quite needy at the moment, moaning as he was lifted and carried towards the stairs. He shifted a little so that he got to wrap his legs around Xander's waist, his erection pressing against the man's stomach, his hips still rocking lightly. He wrapped his arms around the other's neck and leaned in for a deep kiss, his tongue hungrily invading Xander's mouth. He moaned softly&nbsp; and whimpered as if trying to say that he loved all this and that he needed more. And he needed more of this really badly!
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 22:31:06</strong>
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				He smiled into the kiss, his hand creeping back onto Adrian's head and slipping down to his neck. He pulled back for a moment, a glint in his eye. He stood up and walked over to the dresser and flipped open one of the drawers and pulled a bottle from it. If he was going to give Adrian a good night then he was going to do it right while he was at it. He turned and tossed the bottle of the clear liquid onto the bed, moving back towards the bed. He kicked off his shoes and pulled his socks off, the floor cool beneath his feet. Next came his shirt, his muscles working as he tore it over his head and onto the floor. His hands slipped down and pulled his pants off, grabbing his boxers as he went, his cock springing up to slap on his stomach.<br><br>He slid over top of Adrian, their arousals pressed together, their body heat now shared completely. He smiled as he kissed him again, slipping his tongue into the boys mouth and claiming it once again. His hand slipped over to the small bottle and snapped it open. From what Adrian had told him, he had only fucked someone, he had never had it done to him. Xander needed to do this right even if he had had some experience with that. He slid back down and pushed Adrian's legs up and ran his finger down from Adrian's balls, down into the soft and warm crevice of Adrian's ass. He smiled as he felt the small, tight ring of muscles that worked eagerly as his finger played over it.<br><br>He applied some of the cool liquid to his finger, and rubbed it around the hole a bit more, playing with it as he finally pushed the finger in. He smiled a bit as he slowly eased his finger in, the heat and pressure from inside Adrian bearing down around his finger. He moved it slowly, making it to the knuckle and then pushing past that point. He bent and kissed Adrian's throbbing member as he hooked his finger and found the hard node that was Adrian's prostate with his finger. He applied pressure to it with his finger and rubbed gently on it as he licked at Adrian's weeping cock, tasting him gently.<br><br>He let Adrian adjust around his finger a bit before adding a second finger, all he needed to add for now. As he felt the muscles give way under his ministrations, he smiled and licked more at the leaking slit of his cock. Once both fingers were embedded rubing on Adrian's prostate, he began spreading the two fingers apart gently, patiently, watching Adrian's face as he stretched the boy. Time passed, making sure not too apply too much, he didn't want Adrian to blow just yet, he waited till he was stretched further before adding a third finger. Using the three fingers he made sure to stretch him even more, to make sure that his entry wouldn't be painful, or at least as painful.<br><br>As he felt the hole give way more, just about ready, Xander used his other hand to squirt a good amount of the cool liquid onto his own cock. He made sure it was coated before finally pulling his fingers gently from the boy. He moved himself forward a bit, behind over Adrian, pushing his legs back further. He aimed and pressed his cock head against Adrian's still tight, but stretched entrance, bending his head down to kiss Adrian gently as he applied pressure. His tongue slipped into Adrians mouth as he felt the head finally break through past the entrance. He moaned heatedly into Adrian's mouth, continuing to distract him a bit with the kiss as he slowly eased into Adrian.<br><br>God he was so damn tight, he slipped slowly into Adrian, taking his time to make sure that Adrian was comfortable for his first time. He resisted the urge to just slam it home, the pressure surrounding more and more of his cock was sending shivers of pleasure up his spine. It seemed to take longer than it had until he finally felt his groin pressed against Adrian's hips, his arousal now completely deep in Adrian.<br><br>He broke the kiss after a few moments with heavy breath, "you ok?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-02-2010, 23:03:15</strong>
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				Adrian groaned as he was placed on the bed, looking at Xander with needy eyes as the man moved around the bedroom. He glanced at the bottle when it landed next to him on the bed, his cheeks flushing at the sight. He looked at Xander and his breath stopped for a moment as the man started taking his clothes off. He was so hot... "Mh..." Adrian moaned, biting on his bottom lip at the sight of Xander's rather huge member. It had felt big when he stroked it earlier, but it looked even bigger when he had no clothes on and it was standing up...<br><br>He smiled back at Xander when the man slid on top of him, leaning in to kiss him. The youth's mind had completely stopped working, his body and his lust controlling his actions now. He spread his legs widely, inviting Xander between them as their tongues battled for a few long moments, adding even more heat between them. He frowned lightly when Xander pulled away, not wanting their kiss to be interrupted, but the other obviously had other intentions. Adrian shushed down as he saw the lube on Xander's fingers, gasping as his legs were lifted, blushing deeply as his ass and his hole were now exposed to Xander's eyes, his erection pressing against his stomach in this position, leaving small wet spots of precum.<br><br>"ARGH!" Adrian clenched his teeth and closed his eyes as the first finger was slid inside of him. It wasn't like he hadn't experimented and hadn't fingered himself before, but his fingers were much thinner than Xander's. "Ah..." He panted for air, trying to relax, knowing that if he couldn't take in that one finger, he was hardly going to be able to take in Xander's cock. He bit on his bottom lip, too confused as to what he was feeling right now - was it pain or pleasure or lust or disgust?! He didn't know, but he did know that the moment Xander wriggled his finger inside of him and pressed against his prostate, he wanted more of it. "Yes... god..." He moaned, his chest raising and falling heavily, his body flushing, shivering with waves of pleasure. <br><br>Just a little bit more and he was going to cum! <br><br>But Xander once again pulled out a moment before Adrian reached his climax, leaving the boy whimpering and whining for a moment. And when the second finger was added a new doze of pain distracted him and got him a bit softer only to have Xander work him up once again. "Ah... mh..." He moaned, arching his back a little, pushing down against the fingers as they started stretching him. It was one damn hot sight seeing Adrian so horny that he tried to ride Xander's fingers. And just as he was about to reach an orgasm, Xander had to add a third finger, making Adrian's body tense and freeze. "Gh..." The youth cried out quietly, his fingers clenching around the sheets beneath them. It hurt... "Don't... stop..." He cried out, not wanting Xander to stop now - it was already too late. If he stopped now Adrian was going to go crazy...<br><br>He kept breathing in and out deeply trying to calm down, his heart pouncing against his chest heavily. He cried out as the fingers were pulled out, leaving his ass stretched and contracting, feeling oddly empty. He managed to open his eyes and look down to see Xander preparing himself to enter him - a sight that made him moan quietly. His member twitched weakly, having lost a bit of his hardness from the shock and the pain from the invading fingers. His jaw was shaking lightly as he waited for those painfully long seconds of preparation to pass. And when Xander got himself in position, Adrian's fingers curled tightly around the sheets, readying himself for losing his virginity.<br><br>"Ohhh... gggggod!" He cried out, arching his back a little as Xander started pushing himself in. Those three fingers... they hadn't been enough... Xander felt so much bigger than he looked that Adrian literally lost his ability to breathe for a few moments as the other kept pushing himself in him slowly. "Gh..." He panted out, gasping for air, as his hands pulled on the sheets, trying to stay calm. And when Xander was finally buried deep inside of him he felt as if his heart was going to burst. It hurt... it hurt much more than he had thought. Even his erection started going soft and his body shook lightly. He reached out and wrapped his arms around Xander, pulling him on top of him, clinging onto him. "Please wa... wai... wait some... some... some more..." He pleaded, his voice weak, almost crying, but his panting and his soft moans were more than heated enough to tell Xander to not pull out and to not stop. Xander was a big guy and Adrian was a virgin, so Xander was going to have to give the boy a bit more time to get used to having his big cock up his tight ass...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-02-2010, 04:13:57</strong>
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				"No problem bud," he smiled down at Adrian. He knew he wasn't a little guy when it came to the size department, and Adrian had being a virgin and being quite small and tight working against him. It wasn't helping Xander's case either, sure he would wait, and he would be able too without much difficulty. Still Adrian was squeezing around him frequently with each breath as he tried to adjust to Xander's intrusion. Xander wanted more than ever to just thrust more into Adrian even thought he was completely embedded.<br><br>Still he was going to make sure that this was good for Adrian, he had done the best he could for stretching him, and now he would wait until he was ready. He bent down and kissed Adrian again as he felt the tightening around his cock loosening gradually. His mind wasn't working as it had been, otherwise his cock would have went flaccid instantly and he probably would have run from the room without a word leaving a very confused and hurt Adrian. For now, his brain was focused only on one thing. The panting, red faced, and ever erotic sight of Adrian under him, torn between trying to adjust to Xander, and wanting more.<br><br>Minutes passed and Xander did his best to coax Adrian to relax further, kissing him, nibbling on his neck, wrapping his hand around Adrian's cock and whispering gently to him. When he was sure that Adrian was ready he held Adrian's gaze, watching his face, kissing him one more time before propping himself back up. He pulled back with his hips, feeling his cock glide out of Adrian and then slowly eased back in. He took his time with his easy thrusts into the inexperienced boy, letting him grow used to the sensations. He bent his head, kissing him even more passionately than before, whispering into his ear before nipping at the lobe, calming him, letting him know he would take care of him.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>16-02-2010, 08:09:13</strong>
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				He was panting for air as those few minutes slowly rolled, his eyes closed, lips lightly parted, his body flushing over and over again. The feeling of having someone buried so deeply inside of him made him moan softly every now and then whenever Xander shifted a little to lean in and kiss him. The smallest of motions was able to make the youth moan quietly, once again torn between desire and pain, leaving him so confused that he really didn't know what was right and what was wrong anymore. It hurt... But, God, that pain was just so sweet! And the small kisses he received from Xander's soothing lips, the sweet words, the small caresses... they all worked as a charm and slowly he started calming down, his muscles relaxing.<br><br>"Ah.." He whimpered as Xander pulled out, leaving him feel empty and wanting him back in. He wanted to stay connected to Xander forever... He swallowed hard, gasping for air as the other started pushing back in, passing over his prostate, making Adrian squirm with pleasure beneath him. "More..." Adrian whispered with a hoarse voice, his jaw trembling lightly as Xander kept his motions slow... So slow that it drove Adrian crazy! It felt more like teasing than doing it to help him adjust, because each pulling out or pushing back in passed over his sweet point, but it was not enough... He wanted to feel more...<br><br>He leaned in the kiss, nipping lightly on Xander's lip for a moment as the other leaned for a kiss. Adrian's body shivered lightly and he felt his eyes burning at the whispered promise. He knew that Xander was most probably talking about taking care of him in a sexual way, taking care of his lust right now, but Adrian just wished that the promise meant so much more. He swallowed hard as he leaned up a little, pressing his lips against Xander's before he groaned lowly. "Fuck me." He looked at the man with demanding dark eyes, already driven to the edge and no longer caring if it was going to hurt. He wanted to feel Xander thrusting deeply into him...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>16-02-2010, 08:34:38</strong>
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				A small smile curled at Xander's lips as he pulled out again and pushed in, Adrian's words and gaze running a chill up his spine. He couldn't very well argue with a statement like that, and at least with those words and that look he knew he wouldn't have to make sure. He kissed Adrian one more time as he began to move his hips a bit faster, not pulling out too far, making sure to use shallow thrusts for a moment. He moaned into Adrian's mouth for a moment, pleasure beginning to sweep up his back again and into the rest of him.<br><br>The sight of Adrian's body, the flushed face and everything, the whole package drove Xander's hips even farther. He drove back more, his thrusts becoming deeper and faster. He wasn't pounding Adrian just yet, but the noises, the heat, the pressure, the sheer fact of Adrian below him was bringing him to that pace quickly. His hands slipped down from Adrian's chest down to his waist and begin moving quickly, the sound of his hips slapping against the bottom of Adrian's ass filling the room along with the other noises.<br><br>Already he could feel his orgasm rising, and he didn't want to end it like this, he wanted Adrian to get off first, helped along by the stimulation of his prostate. Xander pushed in one more time and embedded himself completely, kissing Adrian even more fiercely than before. His mouth moved hungrily over his mouth, saying the things he couldn't find it in himself to say completely before. His hands slipped around Adrian's waist and he slipped his legs around the boys laying form. With careful movement and a lift of his arms, he pulled Adrian up, curling his legs under him to help support and set him in his lap, his cock still buried in Adrian.<br><br>He smiled now up at Adrian, nipping at his chest and neck, all of what he could reach. With that he used his arms to hold onto his waist and lift him up a bit. With him in the air he moved his hips again, thrusting up into Adrian, aiming as best he could to hit his prostate with every thrust.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>22-02-2010, 09:56:04</strong>
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				Adrian's voice became louder with every next thrust, feeling how he was losing his mind between pain and pleasure. He wasn't sure why he was moaning and screaming, if it was because he felt how Xander's big cock was probing him more deeply with each thrust, or was it because he felt alive for the first time in month, connected to someone, needed by someone?... He groaned in the kiss, nipping lightly on Xander's bottom lip as if telling him to not pull away from the kiss just yet. He wanted to taste the man, he wanted to know that those kisses were for him and for no one else. He needed to feel loved...<br><br>"Argh!" He cried out as the other's motions became faster and deeper, his body shaking as Xander's head kept hitting against his prostate, forcing a bit of cum to spur out of his erection, falling on his chest. Another cry left Adrian's lips when he was lifted and placed in Xander's lap, the other buried as deeply inside of him as never before. The younger male gasped for air, his fingers squeezing on Xander's shoulders for a few moments, as he tried to get used to the new position. He swallowed hard, resting his head on the man's shoulder for a moment, feeling a little bit dizzy from so many emotions and sensations passing through him.<br><br>"Oh fuck..." He cried out as Xander lifted him just a little bit, but enough to start pushing up and down inside of him. Adrian arched his back, his head tilted backwards as the man start thrusting up in him, his erection flapping softly against Xander's stomach. "Mh... I... gh..." Adrian cried out, his mouth opening and closing in a silent cry. He was on fire... He felt as if he was burning, getting closer and closer to his end as Xander hit him deeply. The teenager leaned in and connected their lips, moaning in the small kiss before he pulled back a little. His arms slid around Xander's neck and he leaned in to nip on the man's ear, moaning and panting softly against it, his voice sounding even more erotic than before. "Har... harder..." He managed to choke out between moans, wanting Xander to fuck him even harder... so hard that he would forget everything... all the pain inside his chest...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>25-02-2010, 22:51:19</strong>
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				He was thankful that Adrian was so light, and at the same time that he had made sure to keep his upper body strength up, otherwise he would have worn from it. His arms burned a bit, a faint burn that only served to arouse him further. He moaned as he leaned into Adrian's chest, his breath a hot pulse against the already heated flesh. He wanted to give Adrian all that he was asking for, though it was becoming increasingly difficult to keep himself in control as time went on. His body was feeling steadily warmer, burning with the electric shocks that coarsed through his body with each upward and downward movement of his hips.<br><br>He groaned again as he heard Adrian above him, urging him on more. It was the kiss, followed by the voice, not so much the words, as the voice that was used that finally broke him. With a final pull down of his hips, he pushed back up, quite forcefully, Adrian's body jerking from the force. Xander's hips continued, slamming up into Adrian as Xander kissed Adrian again, his mouth now dominating Adrian's, forcing his mouth onto his.<br><br>He groaned into the kiss, eager to taste more of Adrian, to feel him tense against him, to moan again, even louder than before. His groin was burning with the need to get off, and through some miracle Xander kept it at bay. He wanted to continue feeling deep inside of the teenager he was now all but raping, the sounds of his hips slamming into Adrian filling the room, mixing with the sounds of the boys noises. Xander's own groans punctuated the room, god he couldn't take much more of this, but he would wait, wait until Adrian was going over the top, getting his release, his escape before Xander would fill him.<br><br>Xander's voice came out rough, husky and forceful, "come on Adrian...cum for me...ungh...let me hear you."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>25-02-2010, 23:05:07</strong>
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				"Ah!" Adrian cried out louder as the other forced his hips up, burying himself deeply inside of him. He was melting... his mind was melting... He could hardly breath, his head dizzy from the lack of oxygen. He moaned and cried with each thrust up inside of him, his body shivering, skin burning, covered by a thin layer of sweat. Pain and pleasure mixed into something indescribable, something so powerful that it forced his voice to come out louder and louder, echoing in the walls of the room, his heart beating so fast against his chest that it felt like bursting any moment now.<br><br>The kiss, the touches, the feel of Xander's skin against his own... It was all making Adrian get closer and closer to his climax. But it was Xander's last words that drove Adrian over the edge. The teenager cried out loudly as he arched his back, falling down on Xander's cock, taking him as deeply as it could go. "Xanderrr!" His body flushed all over again,jerking up and down as he came, his seed falling all over their chests. His muscles started contracting heavily around Xander's manhood, sucking him in hard. "Ahh... aaa..." Adrian moaned out, gasping for air. He closed his eyes, feeling as if the room was spinning around them. This was bliss... The most powerful orgasm that he had ever felt... 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>28-02-2010, 09:42:55</strong>
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				He wasn't quite thinking anymore, his own orgasm that he'd been holding at bay was taking it's toll on his mind. He wasn't able to think clearly, only able to hold Adrian in place as he thrust his hips upwards. His own body was steadily covering itself in a layer of sweat, his muscles burning in his arms and hips, and still they did nothing more than to push him further. Pleasure was brought on by the slightest thing, the feel of Adrian's smaller hips, the constant and ever tight squeezing of him around his cock, the shimmer of his flesh, and God did those noises make him want to drive home.<br><br>Aidan's movements changed and he called out suddenly, shoving himself downwards. Before Aidan's orgasm was half over, he'd driven Xander's over the edge, his self-control thrown to the winds. He gasped, quickly forming into a rumbling and low moan, his arms wrapping tight around Adrian's hips. The splash of cum against his stomach and chest, the tight and rapid milking of his cock, all of it, sending shudders, the room fading in and out of focus.<br><br>As he felt himself unloading everything, which was essentially the load he'd been carrying since the last time he'd gotten off. Which basically meant it was about 2 or 3 weeks worth, pumping into Adrian, he kissed him deep. Moaning into the boys mouth as he felt each load shoot into Adrian, coating his insides, his mouth probing and pushing into Adrian's.<br><br>Eventually he fell back, his muscles unable to hold him up. His arms around Adrian's waist dragged him down with him, his cock still embedded in him as his back hit the bed. He groaned, still raging and sensitive and he'd be damned if he could still feel a faint pulse of arousal. Still he was gentle in pulling himself out, despite the overwhelming urge to shove it back in, kissing Adrian again gently, his mind still in a haze as he covered them with the sheets and blanket.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>28-02-2010, 19:11:37</strong>
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				Adrian cried out as Xander's hips started ramming up against him, pushing the man in and out faster than ever as he reached his orgasm. The teenager moaned in the kiss as the older male released his hot cum inside of him. His body shivered at the sensation, his hole contracting hungrily as if wanting to suck out more of the hot seed... And he couldn't help but moan again as he felt connected to Xander like he had never felt connected to anyone else before...<br><br>Another soft cry escaped Adrian's lips as he was pulled down together with Xander, falling on top of him. He whimpered as the man pulled out of him, shivering lightly afterwards, some of the seed slowly rolling out of him and tickling down his ass. He felt so empty all of a sudden... He had wished that they could stay connected forever, but he knew that this was simply impossible. He panted for air, not having any energy to even move into a more comfortable position, so he just lay on Xander, his legs still straddling him. "Mh..." He sighed quietly when the sheets were pulled over them, feeling rather cool against his heated skin. He couldn't remember ever feeling so safe and so warm as now when Xander was holding him and the blankets were embracing them.<br><br>He glanced up at him and smiled shakily as he leaned up a little bit, pecking his lips lightly. Adrian felt so many things at this very moment that he couldn't even put his thoughts into words, so he said nothing as he snuggled on top of Xander, resting his head under the other's chin. Xander should have been able to feel as a few hot drops fell on his skin. For some reason tears had escaped Adrian's eyes... Was he a horrible person for having liked this? For wanting more of it? For feeling alive?... when his brother was gone forever... How could he be enjoying himself and... falling in love with Xander when Danny was never going to be able to fall in love?...<br><br>He sniffed quietly as he clung onto Xander, closing his eyes. He wasn't even paying attention to the uncomfortable pain at his bottom. Once again he felt torn between guilt that he was still alive and his desire to just move on... It wasn't long before he fell asleep with tears captured in his lashes and in the corners of his eyes... 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>03-03-2010, 01:03:49</strong>
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				He held Adrian tight to him throughout the remainder of the night, drifting off easily into a restful sleep. He woke slowly the next morning, the light from the outside world peeking in through the curtains over the window. He groaned, not really wanting to get up, feeling too warm, cozy, and a bit at peace. He shifted, trying to swing his body away from the light when he realized his arm was pinned down. He blinked his eyes open, glancing over and spotting a naked Adrian next to him. He only stared for a moment, his brain’s cogs having stopped completely, not really able to wrap around this event.<br><br>He slid back slowly, pulling his arm out from under Adrian, his mind still locked in neutral. He managed to extract himself from the bed, not waking Adrian as he pulled on clothes hurriedly and walked out of the room. He was shaking as he stumbled into the living room, snagging his pack of cigarettes and lighting one. He puffed hurriedly as he sat down hard, his mind beginning to whir to life finally.<br><br>He had….he had, hadn’t he? He’d slept with Adrian, not only just a kid basically, but Daniel’s brother! His mind wanted to crawl out of his skull, he wanted to crawl out of his body, find a new place to live and pretend none of this had ever happened. He groaned, driving his face into his hands. What the fuck was wrong with him? Was he that twisted, that fucked up to have done that?<br><br>Now he had Adrian peacefullly asleep upstairs, not knowing what either of them had done. He had singlehandedly just fucked everything straight to hell. He could see it, at the edge of his perception, the fragile string, unraveling, everything falling to bits right before his eyes and it was all his fault. He had not only done nothing, he had helped it all along.<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>03-03-2010, 15:59:07</strong>
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				He didn't wake up when Xander pulled away and he didn't wake up when the man hurried out of the room. Adrian needed a couple of minutes to realize that his source of warmth had left him and he had no one to snuggle into now, only an empty bed. He yawned as he opened his eyes slowly, still laying on his stomach. He blinked and sighed quietly when he saw the empty side of the bed. Where had Xander gone? Was it time for work? Or maybe the other had gone downstairs to prepare him a breakfast? The last thought made the teenager smile dreamily and chuckle quietly. Ah, it would be just so great if he went downstairs and saw Xander trying to prepare a breakfast for his lover. They were lovers now, weren't they? Or at least they could become after a while, because he really couldn't see Xander in the light of a one-night-stand...<br><br>Adrian hurried out of the bed, whimpering quietly as he sat on his butt for a moment - it still hurt, and no wonder taking in mind just how huge Xander was! He blushed at the memory of being filled by the older man, shivering lightly from excitement as he pulled his boxers and t-shirt on, deciding that this was more than enough to wear. He passed with fingers through his time as he wanted to look as good as he could. For some reason he felt like he had to make Xander fall in love with him like he had never loved anyone before.<br><br>He moved down the stairs, glancing first at the kitchen as he expected to see Xander there. But when he failed to see him preparing a breakfast, his eyes quickly moved to the living room. A bright smile appeared on Adrian's face as he opened his mouth to call 'Good morning', though his mouth quickly closed and the smile disappeared right away as he saw the kind of expression on Xander's face. <em>Regret.</em> He looked as if he regretted what had happened between them... No, not just regretted... Hated! <br><br>Adrian blinked a couple of times, looking rather confused for a moment, but if he was good at one thing it was hiding his feelings. And his face became expressionless in a moment, his eyes losing the glitter that they had had just a moment ago. "Breakfast will be ready in a few minutes." He said with a low, even voice as he passed by Xander on his way to the kitchen, not even looking at him as if nothing had happened between them the previous night. Adrian moved to the fridge, then the stove, quickly starting working on some simple breakfast, not even looking at Xander. But even if he managed to keep his voice and face cool, his body didn't act like he wished - his knees were shaking lightly...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Braioch</strong> on <strong>05-03-2010, 11:57:31</strong>
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				Xander looked up startled when he heard Adrian at the stairs. His eyes leveled on him for a moment, unsure of what to say, his mind's cogs having froze once again. He noticed the rapid change in Adrian's expression and he felt another stab of guilt to his stomach. He could only stare vacantly as the guilt piled on repeatedly, leaving him unable to even speak. Not only had he just destroyed, violated Danny's memory and corrupted his last real wish, now he had just hurt Adrian when all he needed was love and support.<br><br>He nodded vaguely at Adrian as he watched him go towards the kitchen. What was he going to do now? He'd went and screwed all of this up. Adrian had been so close to getting better, and he was so close that even Xander's own mood had begun to pick up. So why did he have to go and screw it up like that? Adrian had just been a kid reaching out for love and attention and Xander hadn't been the mature adult and help him find a different way of getting through it all.<br><br>He sighed, crushing out the cigarette in his hand and lighting another one, having lost track of how many he had smoked so far, what was he going to do now?
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				Title: <strong>Re: Broken Promises</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>05-03-2010, 20:50:03</strong>
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				Adrian worked on the breakfast in silence. Now that he was with his back at Xander he let some emotions make their way to his face. Mainly sadness and confusion. He had thought that Xander liked him... They hadn't been all that drunk last night, so it wasn't the alcohol. He had been sure that Xander wanted him, that he liked having sex with him... Hell... The cop had held him through out the entire night. Then... why? Why did Xander look as if he had just killed someone? Why did he look at him with those eyes filled with regret? Why did he regret what had happened between them?<br><br>He swallowed hard and licked his lips as he pulled his expressionless mask back on. "Breakfast's ready." He announced, moving to the table place some scrambled eggs in Xander's plate. He poured him some coffee and continued with clearing away the dishes from the previous night, emptying whatever was left in the plates before putting them in the washing machine. Once again Adrian stood with his back at Xander as he cleared the dishes, looking down at his hands. They were shaking lightly. Why?...<br><br>He sighed quietly as he turned around, leaning on the counter to look at the older man. He forced a smile on his face and shrugged lightly. "Yeah... about last night....heh... let's just forget about it." He spoke with a casual voice (or at least he was trying to sound as if it hadn't been a big deal). "I mean... I'm still a kid and if I'd be going out with someone and having sex with someone I'd rather have someone younger... my age you know... So... let's just forget about it." He nodded, smiling again as he took his mug of coffee and lifted it up to his lips, sipping from the hot black liquid.
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