Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]
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				Title: <strong>Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>09-03-2009, 20:30:40</strong>
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				Jesus, it had been a long day. An early-morning talk show appearance where he had to blab on with the dumb blonde woman, and then the stupid photoshoot for a lotion ad. He sighed, shaking his head, leaning back. He was in his manager's office, and just relaxing. They were on their way to the airport early tomorrow morning, because they were going to jet off somewhere so that he could tour. He loved travelling...after smalltown life as a kid, he had decided he would never go back. The bigger the city, the happier he was.<br><br>His manager's office overlooked Times Square in New York, conviniently facing a billboard with his face plastered all over it.<br><br>It was an ad for gum.<br><br>He smirked, waiting for his manager to come back, laying on the black leather couch, sighing. He was half Japanese and have German by birth. His hair was, today, dyed a gentle toffee color, the gel having collapsed a bit so that it was merely mussed, falling all around his face. He had in pale green contacts to hide the soft brown of his eyes.<br><br>Hair dye and colored contacts allowed him to constantly change the way that he looked, and it kept his fans on their toes, expecting what he might be wearing or looking like.<br><br>His face was just shy of feminine, with a delicate jawline and full lips, eyes almond shaped but not narrow. His lashes were the ones that boys always have and girls always wanted, and he was impossibly leggy. He was built to be famous, or so his mom said. For now, he just felt like he was built to be hungry. He only ate what his manager let him eat, so he was in his office, waiting for the older man to come back.<br><br>At seventeen, he was just the right age to take the hearts of girls.<br><br>He was wearing low-slung black jeans, a bit shredded, and a t-shirt from his last tour that was baggy, draped artfully around his slender frame. He hoped his manager would come into the office soon...he wanted to see him. His manager was the only one that he really trusted, in all actuality.<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>09-03-2009, 21:48:40</strong>
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				“What?.... No! This is not going to happen!... When?... Who said it? No! Not! Gonna! Happen!” The young man was walking down the corridor, talking as if to no one, making some of the secretaries look after him and wonder whether he hadn’t lost his mind or something. “NO! Forget about it!” He took off a small handsfree from his ear and ended the conversation. “That stupid fucker!” He cursed under his nose as he walked in his office, looking at the couch to see his client laying there.<br><br>“Avi, what are you doing here? I thought you were in the hotel.” He said as he walked around his desk and dropped on the big leather chair, rubbing his forehead. It seemed that he was quite pissed from the conversation from a minute ago, but for now he decided not to tell his only client about it.<br><br>Jason King was only twenty-one but he was already known as one of the sharks in the manager’s business. Having once been a rising star himself he knew quite well what to do and what not to do in order to get his client to the top. He had found Avi himself and had always been there for the boy, and he was going to be there until the teen didn’t ask him to leave. But for now he was here and he was going nowhere.<br><br>“We’ll have to change your hotel and alias again, because the paparazzi know your current location…” He groaned tiredly and rubbed his forehead, looking at the boy with a small smile. “If you want we can get you a suite in the hotel where I’m staying.” He winked and relaxed in his chair closing his eyes for a moment. He hadn’t had much of rest lately, but he was used to it. His biggest priority was to keep Avi away from the gossip magazines as those could ruin one’s life, and he knew that it was best to live in a hotel and move around every now and then instead of having a constant address, so he made Avi live in hotels, at least until he was old enough to live in an apartment of his own… At hotels there was room service, security and maids, so he thought it was safer that way…<br><br>Jason yawned and sat up a little, his slender fingers running over the keyboard of his laptop. "Mh... Tomorrow we have only some studio time scheduled, to try some new songs, other than that you can rest." He said softly, smiling at Avi. His emerald eyes sparkled gently as he relaxed once again in his chair, pushing his blonde locks behind his ears. <br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>10-03-2009, 16:32:33</strong>
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				Avi grinned when he saw Jason come into the room, raising two fingers in a salute and then flopping back onto the leather. "What's going on?" But that was answered quickly enough, or so he thought, when told that the paparazzi knew about his location.<br><br>Between his mother calling him to get money and the paparazzi following him for any scandal whatsoever, hoping to get it on camera, he barely had any privacy at all. He only ever got it when he was with Jason. <br><br>Avi knew enough to know Jason was a fantastic manager.<br><br>Plus, the man took good care o fhim, and was always there whenever he needed something. The fame took its toll on Avi's relationships and Jason helped him deal with crumbling friendships and detiorating relationships in general. <br><br>Jason was, truly, one of the few constants in Avi's life. <br><br>"Cool," Avi murmured, "I have a new song that I wrote, anyway. Maybe we can give it a shot and see how it records...I don't think it'll really be a hit, but it'd be a good extra number on a CD." He yawned, burying his head into the leather pillows of the couch for a moment, breathing in.<br><br>He then sat up. <br><br>His belt rustled, chains clinking gently as he walked over to Jason's desk, jeans artfully ripped to reveal sinful flashes of skin. His t-shirt was tight but hidden by a comfortable sweatshirt he had lifted from Jason's closet a while back. <br><br>He came over, sitting right on top of the desk, one foot resting on the arm of Jason's chair. <br><br>"I'll just stay in your suite, if it's okay. May as well...we'll just get a suite with more than one bedroom. I normally sleep on the couch, anyway." He laughed. Avi loved relaxing by reading or watching the television, and spent most nights half-conscious on the couch. <br><br>"I'm hungryyyyy," He whined, then, playfully. "I'm tired of eating tofu and steamed chicken. Let's sneak out. Go get some KFC."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>10-03-2009, 18:08:53</strong>
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				The young man ignored the boy when he moved around and came to sit on the desk. He reached towards the inside pocket of jacket and pulled out a pair of glasses that he put on his delicate nose before he started writing some email replies. "Mh... Come to my suite..." He muttered under his nose as he considered the idea his slender fingers flying over the keyboard.<br><br>"Alright... but you'll be taking the bedroom, I'm working on the coffee table and the couch." He spoke his eyes never leaving the screen of the laptop. Yeah, Jason was quite the workaholic. He worked they and night, contacting people from all over the world to make sure that Avi was going to be well sold anywhere. He actually was currently working on arranging the boy's first international tour, which was the reason why Jason got almost no sleep.<br><br>"And no one makes you eat that junk. I always put you in good hotels, order something nice to eat." He muttered, a small frown passing over his features at the mentioning of KFC. "And you won't eat that junk even if anyone makes you." He cut off, not wanting the teen to stuff himself with unhealthy food.<br><br>"We'll order some steak and salads tonight. You need healthy food while you're growing up." Jason spoke with an even yet firm voice, which somewhat made him look absent minded. And the way he spoke... he sounded like some old old man, when he was hardly twenty-one, his twenty-second birthday in a couple of months...<br><br>He sighed and closed the laptop, scratching his head and finally looking at the youth that was sitting on his desk. "Hm... you've grown up you know..." He muttered as if he had just noticed it. Avi still had this cute boyish charm about him, but compared to the cute kid he had been when Jason first found him, he was now turning into a rather hot young man. Jason himself was quite hot, reason why he could easily make his way through this business.<br><br>"Okay... let's go, kid." He said as he stood, yawning. "Mh... I'll call Annie to go pack your stuff and send them to my suite." He muttered, talking about his assistant who was his boy for everything... besides being a girl.<br><br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>11-03-2009, 04:09:38</strong>
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				Avi smiled when Jason put on his glasses. It meant that the man was working hard, getting him deals that would take him across the world and make him an even bigger star. Jason worked so hard, and Avi knew it...often worrying about the other man because it seemed like all he did these days was work. "You sure? I don't want to kick you out of your own room. We can always share the bed...you shouldn't sleep on the couch." He said. It wasn't a sexual offer, by any means. He had crashed in the same bed as many bandmates and friends before. <br><br>Avi flicked some pale hair out of his eyes, then, perfectly content to perch himself on the edge of the desk. He would wait until Jason looked up, knowing the man would do so once he was done working with whatever he was working on. <br><br>"You talk like my dad," He mumbled, "Don't forget that you're twenty one..." He teased softly. <br><br>Avi looked down, though, at his denim-clad legs mostly revealed through the jeans that he was wearing, so torn up but so good for his rock image. <br><br>"Really? I guess I've grown a few inches." He hadn't really noticed the changes, but his fans had. His fanbase had grown hugely, spanning many countries, giving him a near-solid cushion of record sales with each release. <br><br>"You've gotten more tired looking, yourself." He joked, "You should come party with me. Stop working so hard all the time." <br><br>He nodded in response to Annie packing his things, "I'm going to write a song for you, one day," he announced. "Considering how hard you work for me. In fact...once you buy me a steak from room service, I'm going to start working on it. Maybe I'll even have it ready when I record tomorrow." <br><br>He then leant against the door, "C'mon," He murmured, "Let's go. Maybe we could watch a movie, or something. It's been a really long time since we've actually...y'know, chilled together." He slipped on his black sunglasses, wanting to light a cigarette. He knew Jason would flip, though, if he saw the cigarettes plastered across a magazine. He wasn't quite legal to smoke. Not yet, at least. He did, of course, but he did his best to hide it from his manager. <br><br>"Oh, can you make sure Annie gets my guitar, too? The acoustic one. I don't need the electric one until I start recording tomorrow...I just wanna practice writing some stuff for the acoustic."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>11-03-2009, 13:38:18</strong>
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				Jason stood up and started putting his laptop and cell phones in his elegant leather business case, glancing up at the teen as he spoke. “Nah, I sleep on the couch anyways, so don’t worry.” Truth was that he usually worked till the middle of the night and fell asleep while working, but he wasn’t going to be telling this to Avi as the youth was most probably going to see it himself anyways. “Plus I can’t sleep when I’m sharing a bed.” He added as he headed towards the door.<br><br>“Oh… shut up, kid.” He hissed playfully, when the other joked about him looking more tired. “If you want I can just leave all the work and go rest on some sunny beach in Hawaii and postpone your international tour.” He teased, ruffling Avi’s hair. <br><br>“And no need to write songs about me… just do what you normally do.” He shook his head, starting to get tired, but still took out his personal cell phone and dialed Annie’s number and told her what to do and what to bring to his hotel and what to send to the studio. “Mhm… okay… see you later.” He said as he hung up and looked at Avi as they walked towards the elevator.<br><br>“I really have no time to chill, Avi. Sorry, kid…” He said as he patted the younger male’s shoulder. He guessed that the teen was getting somewhat lonely not really being able to be a normal teen, having friends and so on with all those tours and gigs. Jason understood him better than anyone as he himself had been in his position and knew how hard it was…<br><br>Thing was that Avi could always touch that weak spot in Jason’s heart and make the young manager feel sorry for him and agree to do anything together. So the more he thought how hard it was on Avi, the more he thought that he could just ditch work for one night and have some fun with the kid. “Gh… fine… we can watch some movies and chill…” He gave up without the need Avi to actually whine to him or anything. Jason was a sweetie when he wasn’t acting like the big scary manager…<br><br>Once the elevator took them to the underground garage Jason took out his keys and beeped his car unlock. “Hop in and buckle up.” He said as he tossed his business case in the back of the black BMW that he drove. A moment later he started the car and drove away towards the hotel. “Do you have any movies in mind?” He asked, his eyes on the rode, still wearing his glasses as his sight had never been all that good.<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>11-03-2009, 14:44:42</strong>
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				Avi did feel bad taking the bed, but as he usually slept on a couch as well, he knew that Jason was probably just going to fall asleep working there. He was surprised, though, that Jason couldn't sleep when sharing a bed. "Seriously? I sleep loads better when I have someone else there. Makes it seem like nightmares are less real, I guess, when I wake up and feel someone lying next to me. Not really a girlfriend, but a friend. It's never very comforting when you wake up with a girl you don't really know in the bed next to you," He laughed. <br><br>Avi was notorious for having brief, torrid flings with girls that lasted a few nights and a few weeks at most, always ending briefly. He just couldn't manage to stay interested in girls. The only people he really got along with - in fact, really was attracted to - were boys. <br><br>Hair ruffled from Jason's touches, he smirked, rather comforted by the familiar motion. <br><br>He knew, though, if he just kept his mouth shut that Jason would possibly relent on watching a movie with him. He walked towards the garage silently, not making too much noise until Jason agreed to hang out with him and watch a movie. <br><br>"Yesss..." He grinned, the syllables hissing past his teeth, a rather trade-mark speech pattern of his that added quite a bit of sex appeal to his songs. <br><br>He buckled himself in, shrugging slightly, "Nothing really comes to mind. I'd like to find a horror movie On Demand. Or, I have the DVD of Rose Red...y'know, that haunted house where people always disappear? And that team of paranormal people goes in to research it? I have that DVD in my bag...the keyboardist gave it to me a few weeks ago and I haven't gotten around to watching it yet."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>11-03-2009, 17:27:04</strong>
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				Jason eyed down at Avi as they walked. Even if the teen had grown up a few inches he was still a few inches shorter than Jason. He smiled when the boy laughed at the fact that he couldn't sleep when he was sharing a bed. He knew that there were a lot of things that Avi didn't know about him, and he really didn't intend on telling the other... At least not yet... After all Avi still was more or less a boy and Jason wanted to keep the little left innocence in the boy's heart for as long as he could. He didn't want the boy to pass through what he had been...<br><br>"Jesus... you know me too well, don't you." He laughed when the teen grinned happily that Jason had agreed to watch movies with him and just chill tonight. Avi had already figured out that if he let his young manager to think quietly about how lonely the boy was he could get simply anything from him. Jason was a sweetheart, but that was only towards Avi. Towards everyone else they had contacts with... well... let's say that some people were so scared of him that called him the Killer...<br><br>"Egh... scary movies?" Jason made a face as he drove carefully down the busy streets. He wasn't fond of those or actions as they were just... too loud... He liked serious movies with meaning that helped him relax and not keep him on his toes. "Whatever you want... but just don't you dare waking up with screams during the night." He muttered, but it sounded as if he was more like telling this to himself. He was going to die of embarrassment if the younger male saw him get scared from a movie...<br><br>He coughed as he turned into a smaller street, wanting to use one of his shortcuts so that they were going to escape the traffic jam that was already forming in the downtown. "Mh... there is a hat in there... put it on... and this also..." He spoke quietly as he wriggled out of his Armani jacket and handed it to Avi. He didn't want the singer to be noticed sneaking in his hotel. He knew that paparazzi most probably sniffed around already, wondering if they could get a hint where his client was hiding.<br><br>A few minutes later Jason was already pulling over at his reserved spot in the underground parking of his hotel. He looked around before he motioned with head to Avi to get off the car. He reached out to take his business case and hurried next to the young, wrapping and arm around his shoulders to get him moving faster towards the elevator. Once inside he pushed the button of the tenth floor and smiled down at Avi. "Just ignore the mess." He said softly as the elevator stopped on his floor and Jason guided the teen down the corridor to room 1010.<br><br>He pressed his card to the door and a moment later they were inside. It was a luxurious suite with a huge living-room that was quite messy - papers and suits laying everywhere as if Jason did nothing but work and change clothes. "Bedroom is over there." He pointed towards the bedroom as he headed to gather some of the papers and the clothes, dropping them all down on one of the armchairs. Unlike the living-room the bedroom was as if untouched... which it was as Jason had not even once slept in that bed for the past two months or so. "Feel like home." He called as he searched through the mess to find the menu of the room-service, tossing it to Avi. "Choose whatever you want." 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>11-03-2009, 23:12:28</strong>
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				Avi was happy to trip along through the hallway, trailing along after the other man, smiling up at Jason. Jason was so good looking that Avi was always wondering why Jason hadn't tried to continue a carreer in the music industry. Or in the entertainment industry in general. He didn't press it and the other man didn't seem to want to volunteer the information. Neither of them seemed to push each other for information that they didn't want to give, and it was one of the reasons that he trusted Jason so much. <br><br>He laughed, "I spend all of my time with you. You're the only one who I know that well." Avi grinned. His name hadn't initially been Avi, but it was his stage name and that was what he went by. He had become Avi more than the James that he had been born into, and Avi was what stuck. <br><br>He would never be anything other than Avi. <br><br>His mother, as Jason well knew, wasn't exactly the loving type. Her relationship with Avi was rocky at best and Avi wouldn't speak about her. She had access to an account his bank had set up for her and drained it constantly, but Avi didn't have to have face to face contact with her so it kept him able to not think about it. <br><br>"Kay," He took the jacket, putting on the hat and slipping his arms into the jacket. It was a bit big on him but it did look nice. <br><br>He was used to being hustled forwards by Jason so he hurried to the elevator, head down, making sure that no paparazzi were going to be able to get a clear shot of his face. He followed the other man towards the room, trailing behind as he often did, just looking aruond. <br><br>"Nice room, but...damn, do you live in here? It looks like a paper factory. Look. Suits, suits...and then that mess." He gestured towards the suits on chairbacks and then the papers that were all spread out. "I'm gonna order us the steaks. You want one, right? How do you want it? Medium?" Avi always got his steaks rare, though he knew most people didn't like it that way. It tasted best to him when it was rare, though, because he could savor the delicacy of the flavors. <br><br>He called down once he had gotten the order, tapping a finger against his lips, pausing and thinking about what else. "And a bowl of popcorn. Yeah. Just...I dunno. Find some. Thanks! And a Coke for me..." He ordered what Jason wanted and then hung up, kicking off his sneakers, walking over to see what was on television. <br><br>He flicked it on, using the remote to scan the channels, "Crap. All of these are crap...d'you wanna watch that movie, Rose Red? It's scary but it's supposed to be pretty good."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>12-03-2009, 00:01:39</strong>
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				Jason stared at the younger male with wide opened eyes, a small frown saying 'You gotta be kidding me' when the other commented on the condition of his room. "Oh..gh... just... shut up!" His voice sounded for a moment cutely annoyed as he moved around and started gathering his clothes, throwing them in the huge opened chest that he used when he traveled around, tossing them all in. Okay, so he wasn't big on cleaning, but then again he was a busy man and didn't have time to do chores and hated letting maids touching his belongings, so he didn't really let anyone clean his room.<br><br>He started gathering the papers next as the teen ordered their meals, nodding to the other's questions. He really was okay with any food as long as it wasn't a junk food. A few minutes later the living room looked much neater, only two huge piles of clothes and papers having been formed on the ground in one of the corners.<br><br>Jason could, his hands on his hips as he looked around and nodded, looking quite pleased with the side. He glanced at Avi and nodded. "Sure... told you, we'll watch whatever you want." He brushed off the question about the movie, not having seen one in... He stopped and blinked. The last time he saw a movie was almost a year ago... The fact shocked him and for a moment he thought that he really needed some break as all he had been doing lately was work his ass out...<br><br>"Erm... I will go take a shower... you take anything you want from the minibar... And tell them to leave the food on the table over there..." He told the boy, smiling as he pointed around at the minibar and the table. There was no alcohol, only soft drinks and juices so he wasn't worried that Avi might get drunk or anything like this.<br><br>He moved to the bathroom and a moment later the shower could be heard. The young man started washing his hair, adding some balsam afterwards to make it soft and shiny. He hummed quietly to himself as he did so, the warm water helping him relax some more.<br><br>At the minibar there were all kinds of bonbons and candies as Jason had always had a weakness for sweets. The rest of the suite wasn't something much, only the stereo and the pile of CDs could be of some interest. They were mostly Avi's CDs and some demo records of new bands, but among them there was a CD box with Jason's smiling face on it. The CD that had got him a Platinum Album. He seemed younger on the cover, with much softer face and smile. He never really talked about his past and about the time when he himself had been a star, but it was known by everyone that he had been great! And the thing that could make people still a bit curious as to why he had left this path was that he had pulled out of the market all of his CDs, so they were nowhere to be found...&nbsp; 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>12-03-2009, 03:12:43</strong>
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				Avi laughed softly as the man told him to shut up, loving how cute his manager looked, grinning from ear to ear with that slightly crooked smile that only Jason got to see. Avi rarely grinned like this around other people and Jason was certainly the only one that he felt comfortable with. He didn't really talk to anyone else, anyways, except for the occasional phone conversation with his photographer. <br><br>When the food came, Avi set the cart aside, pushing it against the wall and then shutting his eyes momentarily. He rooted through Jason's clothes, coming up with a pair of boxers and a baggy T-Shirt. He tugged them on, settling onto the couch with a pack of M+M's from the minibar. <br><br>He turned on the movie but paused it before it got really started. <br><br>He hated watching scary movies alone. He did like watching scary movies, but only when he had someone to grab at, to freak out with. He had a lot of fun just making a ham of himself with people he was close to.<br><br>Idly, he looked over, seeing Jason's CD. He picked it up and looked at it, turning it between long fingers, smiling.<br><br>"Wow. That's cool..." <br><br>He twirled it between his fingers and then looked for a CD player, holding it close. He took out his laptop - dropped off by Annie - and loaded it up. The download started, loading quickly, and he began importing the songs so that he would have them on hand.<br><br>[[Sorry...experienced a bit of writer's block.]]
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>12-03-2009, 15:21:37</strong>
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				[[:3 Dun worry &lt;3 Quality over quantity &lt;3 ]]<br><br>While he showered a waiter brought in a big tray with food and started setting it on the table in front of Avi, not even glancing at the youth. Jason had made sure that the waiters that were sent up to his room to bring him food were ones that could keep their eyes and mouth shut, so the man didn't even react at the sight of the young super star. Besides what Avi had ordered there were lots of fruits as well - even without ordering them the manager of the hotel's kitchen knew that Jason requested fruits with every mean (he was a bit of a healthy-eating maniac, but he was a nice guy).<br><br>"Did they bring the food?" Jason asked as he walked out of the bathroom with a bathrobe wrapped around his body so that only his head, hands and feet were visible. He had a towel on his head drying his long blond locks, but as soon as he walked in the living room he froze.<br><br>His gaze stopped on the CD box sitting on the couch next to Avi, Avi's laptop in the boy's lap, obviously about to listen to Jason's songs. In an instant the man rushed to the other's side and pulled the laptop from his hands, pressing on the CD player to have his CD pop out and without saying anything he broke it in two, dropping the other's laptop on the couch.<br><br>"I. Do. Not. Want. You. To Ever. Touch. My CDs." He spoke quietly, but for the first time since they had met his voice sounded filled with anger, stressing on every single word that came out of his lips. He took the CD box and together with the broken CD threw them in the bin in the corner of the room. If he had seen that Avi had actually managed to copy the album on his laptop, the machine wouldn't have lived for long either, but thankfully he came a second after the download had finished.<br><br>He turned around and went to pick some clothes, moving in the bathroom to get dressed. A couple of minutes later he walked back in the living room wearing a pajama bottoms and a t-shirt. He dropped on the couch as he pulled on some socks and looked aside, clenching his teeth. It was already obvious that he was feeling guilty for snapping at Avi, but it was kind of hard to apologize.<br><br>"I... just don't want anyone to listen to those songs anymore... Please understand and accept it without asking questions... Sorry for snapping." He mumbled, avoiding eye contact as he was afraid he would see that Avi had got upset - a sight that was going to break his heart. "Let's eat..." He said as he moved to the food and started cutting his steak. <br><br>All of Jason's albums had got big, but the one that had got the Platinum album for just a couple of days was the one that was of most interest. Because just on the second day of the release and the announcement that millions of copies had already been sold he had gone out and bought all of them back, including all of his old CDs, so pretty much if anyone had heard the songs on the last album they had heard it once or twice and afterwards, for almost four years now no one had got to hear them... And after that Jason had stepped off the scene, disappeared for a year to come back as a manager having found a kid that was going to be big one day - James, now known as Avi...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>12-03-2009, 20:46:04</strong>
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				Avi let the man wheel the tray in and leave it for them...a bit surprised that he wasn't noticed, realizing that Jason probably had the best waiters in the place bringing food up. He almost wanted to ask whether Jason ever brought anyone home with him but he wasn't that intrusive, at all. If Jason wanted to tell him, he could. He wasn't going to push that. <br><br>He picked a few pieces of fruit out of the bowl and then sat down, turning to the CD, letting the load bar fill up. It finished loading before he realized it, smiling when he saw Jason. "Yeah. Food's right over there." <br><br>He hadn't expected, though, Jason's reaction to his burning the CD onto his computer.<br><br>His eyes widened, flinching back instinctively as he snatched the CD away. He winced as though expecting the man to slug him a good one for having taken it, eyes wide as the CD was snapped, case snapping when it hit the ground, spidery lines crossing the plastic case like knife slashes. <br><br>He didn't say anything when he walked into the bathroom with his clothes just watching, uncertain as to what to say. He wanted to apologize, but didn't want to make him even angrier, so he just paused for a moment. Jason had been so...angry. He had never seen his manager get like that. Never at him, at least, and it scared him to actually think about how mad Jason had just been. Like he would just kill Avi.<br><br>He breathed out a bit, feeling better when the man told him to just accept it and not ask questions, knowing that Jason didn't want to fight. <br><br>"I'm sorry. I wouldn't have touched them if I knew how upset you would get. I didn't mean to upset you," He mumbled, honest. He didn't like seeing Jason upset. Especially since Jason was one of the only ones that he actually liked. <br><br>He got up as he started cutting his steak, and wrapped his arms around Jason from behind, unable to bear them being stale anger between them. Plus, the CD was on his computer, and he could listen to it in secret. "I really am sorry. How about we eat and watch the movie? We can watch a comedy, too. We don't have to watch the horror movie."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>12-03-2009, 22:39:47</strong>
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				Jason's body tensed when he felt the other's arms wrapping around him. He wasn't big on hugs or any physical closeness. He would wrap an arm around Avi only when he had to guide him through the crowd, but as soon as the youth was away from his fans and paparazzi he would let go of him. The most he would do was ruffle his hair or pat his shoulder, but this was a lot taking in mind that with other people Jason only shook hands for a brief moment before letting go.<br><br>He swallowed hard and dropped the knife and the fork by the side of the plate, rubbing his forehead with a hand, before he placed his hand on top of Avi's and gently peeled him off his body. "It's... okay... just... let's forget this happened." He said, inching away from the teen as he started eating slowly.<br><br>Back in his singer years Jason had been known as one of the most affectionate teens in the country, hugging his fans, blowing air kisses to the crowd, being playful and so on... But when he quit his music career it was as if he erased his entire self. He no longer played on any instruments or sang, the most he would do was to offer a note or two for Avi to add here and there in his songs, but he would just point out where to add them, never approaching the other's guitars and showing him.<br><br>He sighed and looked at Avi, motioning towards the food. "Eat." He said as he pushed the plate towards the younger male wanting him at least from time to time to eat something healthy.<br><br>"We will watch whatever you want, kid." He said as he pushed away his own plate and took some papers reading them. He had lost his appetite and decided to do some work while the other ate. He reached out for a pen and scribbled some notes on the contract, glancing at Avi from time to time.<br><br>"Mm... I was thinking about starting the international tour from Asia... somewhere around the end of May?" He asked, obviously not able to relax for even a moment without having his mind wonder off to work and business. He was like a machine sometimes which was sad because he really wasn't living at all. His days and nights were filled with nothing but work, work and work...<br><br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>13-03-2009, 04:32:19</strong>
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				Avi sighed softly when Jason tensed up and refused to hug him back but he puled away when the other man peeled him off. He wished that, somehow, he could make Jason realize he was here. That Jason didn't have to be lonely. He felt like Jason had locked himself up into a shell long before he started working as Avi's manager. Avi would never actually tell Jason, knowing that it would likely make him feel bad, but he felt like he spent most of his time around a shell. Half the time Avi felt like he was going crazy. He couldn't turn to anyone in his family because they either hated him for making money or else they tried to use him and would lie about anything and everything. He had no real friends because he hardly had time for them and he traveled too much. <br><br>The only person that he felt even remotely comfortable talking to was Jason, but Jason was so withdrawn into himself that Avi was always worried about Jason and he was uncomfortable talking to him, at least not too much. He was currently bouncing in and out of bed with his photographer, mostly because he found the physical comfort that he craved there. The man said he loved him, and let him experiment with alcohol and some drugs. <br><br>Avi took the plate between his fingers and sat on the couch.<br><br>His appetite was gone, though, and he picked at a few bites of the food then put it back onto the tray, picking up a soda instead. "...Yeah. May sounds fine for the tour." He mumbled, flipping on the television and booting up the movie. <br><br>"You wanna come sit here on the couch?" He asked, patting the couch next to him, curling up with his body draped over the arm of the couch as he hit play and turned off the lights except for the desk lamp. "Come on. Put away the work for tonight. I want both of us to relax. Pleeeease?" He asked, half teasing, but truly wanting to just forget about everything and curl up. He'd have to record tomorrow, so he just wanted to relax and kick back for a little bit.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>15-03-2009, 23:00:04</strong>
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				Jason looked at the younger singer when he put away the plate and took some soda instead. He bit his bottom lip and sighed softly as he put down the documents. Without saying anything he took the plate with fruits and moved to the couch, sitting next to Avi. He motioned to the youth with head to start the movie as he started peeling some orange, a moment later he took the soda from the teen's hands and placed half an orange in his hand. "You need vitamins, Avi... you're growing..." He muttered as he himself ate the other half of the orange.<br><br>He extended his legs and placed them on top of the coffee table, the fruits in his lap. He started peeling another orange passing pieces to Avi as the movie started. Jason pulled a pillow and placed it under his arm as his elbow hurt somewhat from writing documents all day long.<br><br>The young man sighed and relaxed in the couch, only the peeling sounds disturbing the silence. And when he had peeled all the fruits he placed them in the plate and then settled it between him and Avi so that they could take from it whenever they wanted. A minute later he went to the tray and took the bowl with popcorn, returning the soda to Avi and smiled as he sat back down.<br><br>The movie started quite intense and for a while Jason felt how his nerves kept tensing whenever the music at the back started getting a bit freakier. He wasn't one to show his emotions on the surface (or at least no longer), so he sat there looking quite calm when he was actually quite tensed from the movie. And without really realizing it he let his breathing got a bit heavier as the movie started getting scarier and scarier, but his face didn't change, obviously trying hard to look calm.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>16-03-2009, 13:43:43</strong>
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				Avi pressed the 'play' button and started the movie up, looking up only when the soda was taken out of his hands, surprised to see it replaced by half an orange. He rolled his eyes when told that he needed vitamins, picking at the orange he had been given, appetite pretty much shot by the fight that they had had. He curled up on his edge of the couch, leaning on his elbow, fingertips tapping at the slices of orange he was holding before popping one into his mouth and chewing. <br><br>He sighed when he saw Jason put the pillow under his arm, knowing it was sore, but not saying anything. He wasn't Jason's mother, he couldn't lecture him about it, and it would probably just annoy Jason with him. He began picking at the fruits that had been peeled.<br><br>The movie was getting scarier and he ended up scooting a bit closer to Jason.<br><br>Laughing nervously, he pressed himself up against Jason's side, feeling a bit better the scarier the movie got. He knew that Jason was scared, mostly because his shoulders tensed up and he started breathing heavier. As someone in the movie got sucked out of their bed by a monster, Avi's hand shot out, gripping Jason's arm for a second when Avi jumped. "Sorry," He murmured, laughing a bit, "Scary..." <br><br>His soft hair fell in front of his eyes, peering up anxiously at the screen, careful to eat the fruits instead of the popcorn. Even without Jason telling him what to eat, he was extremely careful of what he ate, always watching the calorie and fat content. "I didn't think it would be this scary," He said, laughing to himself, snuggling up against Jason's side even though he knew the other wouldn't reciprocate it. <br><br>Avi suddenly felt so...lonely. He could feel it settle over his mind, distracting from the movie. He wondered what the boys he was once friends with were doing. They were probably at the school football game, then going to a party. Hanging out with each other, cuddling with their girlfriends. Avi slumped a bit, taking a handful of fruit and stuffing it in his mouth, staring up blankly at the screen. In a funk like none other, Avi suddenly got up, "Movie's too scary." He mumbled as an excuse, making his way to the door and picking up his guitar, then heading towards the bedroom. He sat on the floor next to the bed, guitar in lap, picking at the screens with a hotel notepad set next to his hip, occasionally writing down notes. He felt better with the gutiar strings under his fingers.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>16-03-2009, 23:25:26</strong>
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				Jason smiled softly at the teen when he scooped closer to him. He watched the movie silently, wincing every now and then at the scary parts. He would glance at Avi from time to time and at some point he caught himself fighting this odd urge to wrap his arms around the boy and hold him close. What was that? He blinked as he stared at the screen blankly, his mind turning off from the movie as he wondered why he wanted to hold Avi. Was it some sort of parental instinct? Or what? He wasn't a physical man as he was actually somewhat scared of physical contact, but at the same time he wished he could just wrap arms around the other's body...<br><br>"Eh?" He looked up as Avi stood up, his eyes following the other in the bedroom. He didn't waste a second but hurried to stop the movie and light the lamps, following the other in the bedroom. "Did it scare you that much?" He asked softly, looking at him as he scribbled some notes in his notepad.<br><br>"Are you okay, Avi?" Jason asked quietly, being able to recognize this kind of face at any time as this had been his face for so many years - a face of loneliness. Jason crouched on the ground and glanced at the notes that Avi had written. The music played in his mind and he smiled as it sounded like a nice melody.<br><br>"I... I am sorry for earlier... I didn't mean to snap at you because of the album..." He spoke quietly, looking down obviously feeling guilty as he thought that the boy got upset because of him.. And he was quite right... "I just... there were songs on it that... held my heart and soul at the time... and I don't want to remember that time and the Me I used to be back then..." He tried to explain as he reached out and gently patted the boy's hair.<br><br>"Do you wanna order some ice-cream and put some comedy on?" He asked, smiling sweetly, wanting to cheer Avi up. He knew that he was not very good at it and it was killing him because he wanted Avi to be happy... But it seemed that the boy wasn't...<br><br>Jason's smile disappeared and he sighed quietly, swallowing hard. "If you want I... I don't know... I can do anything for you... I just I don't know what... Heh..." He laughed sadly, feeling how his heart broke. "I'm not a great..." He thought to say 'manager' at first, but without really realizing it he said instead "...not a great friend..." He pressed his fingers against his eyes as he felt them burn in a weird way as if he wanted to cry. "You... you know..." He muttered, not really having the courage to say that Avi was his closest friend. He was ready to bet that the young star was going to laugh at how lame he was...<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>17-03-2009, 05:25:14</strong>
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				Avi held his guitar between his fingers, plucking at it, slowly plucking a tune out of the guitar strings. It was pretty, but a rather sad little tune that when paired with Avi's raspy voice as it surely would be when put on a CD, marketed to millions that would use it to express their own feelings. <br><br>"I'm fine," he mumbled, not actually looking up at Jason as he continued to pluck at the guitar and tried to keep his mind on the song so that he wouldn't have to think about anything else. His heart just...ached. He wanted to see his friends, and he wanted to go back home. See a highschool football game. <br><br>He looked up when Jason began to apologize, biting his bottom lip hard, just listening to what he said.<br><br>"I get it," He mumbled again, folding over his guitar to rest his head on his knees, not cheering up at the offer of ice cream and comedy. "I can't eat ice-cream. I'll get fat." He was very careful about what he ate, always scared that he'd get fat, always scared that he'd be dropped form the record label. <br><br>He smiled, albeit weakly, when the other man offered to do anything for him. He watched as Jason seemed to fall apart, rubbing his eyes, his smile so...sad. He reached out, gently patting Jason's cheek, "It's not that. It's not the CD," he whispered while wanting nothing more than to be home. Not his home, not really, but any home. Anyplace that felt like home. <br><br>Jason was the closest thing to home for him, and while he cared deeply for Jason, he wished that his own parents cared for him.<br><br>Instead they had sold him to a record label as soon as they got the chance. <br><br>"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you..." He whispered, reaching out, pushing his guitar to the side and hugging Jason tight. He just wanted to. He wanted to be physically reassured of having someone's affection. He got up, then, before Jason could really respond, not wanting to make him uncomfortable. <br><br>He knew it wasn't allowed, knew Jason didn't know that he smoked, but he had to have a cigarette. He fumbled in his bag that Annie had brought, dragging out a half-crushed pack of Marlboros, walking silently towards the balcony and cracking the door. He slipped onto the cement balcony and used a lighter that was in his front pocket to light the cigarette, casting a faint smile to Jason. "Sorry," He mumbled, "I know I shouldn't." He let out a slow breath of smoke, though, feeling much better once he had. "I miss having more than one friend." He finally said, "Doesn't it bother you, having me so reliant on you? I feel like I bug you. I'm always hanging onto your coat-tails and following you around." He took in another breath of smoke.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>17-03-2009, 21:52:47</strong>
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				For a moment he leaned in the hug because even if his mind kept telling him 'No' to any physical contacts, his heart still craved it. But even before he got the chance to hug Avi back as he had started to do, the other stood up and walked away. The expression on Jason's face could be described with nothing else but pure disappointment. <br><br>He sighed as he watched the other walk to his bags and take out cigarettes. He had suspected that the other smoked as he had captured the smell of the cigarettes in the other's clothes once or twice before, but this was the first time that Avi actually smoked in front of him.<br><br>The blond grimaced for a moment before he pushed himself up and slowly walked to Avi's side. "You should be careful with cigarettes... your voice hasn't stopped changing yet..." He said softly, knowing that Avi had heard his usual ten-minutes-long lecture about cigarettes, but today he didn't continue on with his usual words. He only looked down at the youth and sighed quietly.<br><br>He didn't know why he did what he did next but he felt like he had to do it now or he was going to regret for the rest of his life. He leaned in just when Avi had taken in a long drag from his cigarette and captured his lips, pulling the smoke from the youth's lips and swallowing it so that Avi only got to taste the smoke but not swallow it. Jason knew that he might have done a mistake, but he didn't care... He pecked Avi's lips and rested his forehead against the other's looking at his eyes.<br><br>"If you smoke try not to swallow it, sweetie..." He whispered as his hand moved to cup Avi's cheek, caressing it softly with his thumb. "I know you love music... I don't want you to lose it the way I lost it..." He sighed quietly and kissed the teen's forehead.<br><br>"Please... tell me what's bothering you... I worry about you... I want to help you somehow... If you let me to..." He swallowed hard as he took the cigarette from Avi's fingers and took a deep drag before returning it between the teen's fingers.<br><br>He liked the soar taste that the smoke left on his tongue. He licked his lips and leaned on the door frame, looking at Avi. "I... I know... I know that I am... I am always busy and working... and that I'm pushing you around to do and not to so many things... I... I just want you to follow you dream and I'm trying to guide you I guess..." He looked down and sighed, passing with fingers through his hair looking obviously nervous. He closed his eyes for a moment before he spoke up once again. "I care for you... a lot... and I can feel that there's something wrong... and I just want.. want to be there for you..."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>17-03-2009, 22:49:46</strong>
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				Avi fiddled with the cigarette between his fingers and tapped a bit of ash off of the end, watching the flakes pepper the ground before blowing away when a slight breeze swept by them, making his cigarette flare up and seem to glow as it dangled between his fingertips. "I know," He said softly when told that he shouldn't smoke, hoping that he wasn't going to get another lecture about why he shouldn't smoke. Bitterly, he smirked as he wondered what Jason would say if he knew that Avi had tried coke before. <br><br>He took in another breath of smoke and then let it out. It took him by surprise, though, to have Jason's lips suddenly press against his own. Almost immediately, his eyes drifted shut, and he looked up at Jason with a faintly confused look. He smiled, despite his confusion, wanting to kiss him away. <br><br>"Okay. I won't swallow it," He murmured, nodding to show that he understood that Jason didn't want him to lose his passion for music.<br><br>He fully understood that Jason cared about him despite the lack of physical affection.<br><br>The kiss, though, had taken something out of Avi and brought it to life in the pit of his stomach. He felt warm and suddenly extremely safe, though still a bit homesick. <br><br>Jason looked so nervous, there, tell Avi that he cared about him and that he could tell something was wrong with Avi. It felt so good to have the other man talk to him like this, to tell him that he did care about him, something he constantly worried about. He was always scared that he was just a paycheck for Jason, not a face, not someone he cared about. <br><br>"I think that I'm just...I dunno, tired of all of this. Of selling myself and traveling hotel to hotel...I feel like I don't have a home anymore." He took another slow breath of smoke and offered what was left of the cigarette to the other man. <br><br>"I feel like I'm losing myself. All I can think about is how I look and what other people think about me." He looked out over the city, twinkling below them, glowing and neon in all of its seedy glory. "I feel like I'm fading away. Like I'm not really a real person anymore. I used to think of myself as James, in my head. Now I think of myself as Avi, and...its just...I don't know." He looked up. <br><br>He walked towards Jason, "But I'm still desirable, right?" He pressed his lips to Jason's, then, hungrily. He wanted that kiss, especially from Jason. He loved knowing that Jason was attached to him, emotionally, and attracted to him physically. "Kiss me again. I want you to kss me again."
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>17-03-2009, 23:11:17</strong>
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				Jason listened to Avi's words quietly, his eyes never leaving the other's face. He knew how the youth felt. He knew how tiring fame could be... People dreamed to be stars and famous, yet they had no idea that the ones on the magazines and on TV could never really have a peaceful walk or just a day off. It was simply exhausting to have to be always followed by everyone's eyes.<br><br>He winced lightly in surprise when Avi kissed him, looking at the youth with flushed face. He hadn't wanted to initiate anything like this... Yet at the same time he felt as they both needed exactly this. He nodded faintly at the other's request and reached out, placing his hand gently at the back of Avi's neck to pull him closer. He leaned in and softly kissed his lips, not a deep or passionate kiss, but tender as if Jason was silently saying how much he cared for the other...<br><br>Jason pulled back from the kiss and wrapped his arms around the other's torso, holding him close. He rested his forehead against Avi's and closed his eyes for a moment. He wondered whether he hadn't done a mistake to show his true feelings in front of the teen...<br><br>"If you want I will call you James... we can go back to calling you like this... The company doesn't matter, I'll convince them that it's for the better..." He spoke quietly as he knew that it was going to be quite hard to talk his bosses into letting the teen go back to his original name as 'Avi' was quite a catchy nickname.<br><br>"What will you say about taking a break?" He asked looking at Avi as he passed with fingers through the other's soft hair. "We can go to my house in the mountain. Just you and me, and we will work on your album there - I have a small studio set in the house..." He spoke softly, hoping that Avi was going to appreciate and accept the offer as to the workaholic Jason taking a break when he had so much work to do was... well... something that has never happened before.<br><br>"And... I can promise you... that if you lose yourself I'll find you... always... and bring you back to me... because you are <em>my</em> home... the only person that I care about... the only person I think about and worry about.. The only person I want close to me..." 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>17-03-2009, 23:37:33</strong>
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				Avi watched Jason, smiling when he was kissed back, resting his forehead against Jason's as well. He was just enjoying the contact between them, curled up against him, breathing slow and even. "I don't want to go back to being just...James. I don't think that I could stand that. I want to stay Avi. It's too late for me to be 'just James' anymore. I'm not 'James'...I'm Avi, now." It was sad, but he had finally given up on his old life, and he had decided that he was going to pursue being Avi even if it drove him into the ground as he did it.<br><br>"I do want to take a break, though. Go to your house in the mountains. Just us two." It sounded so intimate to say that, and he smiled ever so slightly, leaning his head against James' shoulder because he suddenly felt so drained. He just wanted to relax and go to bed, now. <br><br>"Thank you," He whispered, "You're all I have." He finally said. "We can be each others' family..." He whispered, nuzzling against him, watching him. <br><br>"As long as you never leave me, I'll be alright." He whispered. <br><br>He just wanted to continue his career with Jason by his side, to turn to. He was scared, though, that he was going to end up in the same situation that Jason had. Leaving behind everything that he loved, giving up his music. He didn't want to push Jason, just yet, to talk about that. <br><br>"Do you want to go lie down? Could we share the bed tonight? Just this once. Just...lie together. I want to be near you while I sleep." He knew that he was going to have to sing at the studio and as relaxing as it should have been, it was an incredibly grueling process to have to sing for hours and hours to perfect songs for his new album.<br>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>18-03-2009, 00:07:56</strong>
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				Jason held the youth close to himself, his eyes closed. He had been trying to hold his feelings back for so long, but he had finally let them out. He was horrified of having feelings of being close to anyone, yet his heart had made him crave to be close to Avi despite his wishes. He couldn't really help it... He just hoped he wasn't going to hurt the other...<br><br>He smiled softly and nodded, kissing Avi's forehead. "You are you. You are not the name you have." He said softly, using a couple of lines of one of his old songs.&nbsp; "I see you. I don't see Avi the star or James the teen." He smiled and hugged the youth tightly once again.<br><br>But when he asked if they could sleep together in one bed it made Jason wince lightly and his face to go pale. He swallowed hard&nbsp; and glanced at his big untouched bed. He really couldn't sleep in one bed with anyone... Especially if they were going to be close to him... He swallowed hard and stroked Avi's head looking in the youth's eyes. "O.. okay... but.. but I will ask you not to cuddle close to me... we... we can just hold hands through out the night, that okay?" He asked, though his voice sounded almost pleading.<br><br>He was suffering of a rather bad case of physical-closeness-phobia. He couldn't sleep, he couldn't breath, he couldn't move. He simply paralyzed if he was hugged for longer and he didn't want Avi to see him in this sort of condition... But he knew that his request just said like this could hurt the young singer, so he added. "I... I just have these panic attacks whenever I am held or I hold someone..." He blushed lightly and looked down, knowing that it must have sounded extremely stupid.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>19-03-2009, 05:08:09</strong>
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				Avi rested his head on Jason's shoulder, feeling so much happier now that he had some physical comfort to go along with the friendship that he had known he would always have. "Lyrical. Sounds like a song," Avi murmured when told that his name had no effect on who he was as a person. He ran his fingers back through his hair, still leaning up against Jason. He wasn't stupid, though, and was used to picking up on other people's emotions, perceiving them...and that was what made his songs ring true.<br><br>He saw Jason pale, felt him wince, looking up through his dark lashes to watch him. "We don't have to," He said softly, "This hugging is enough for tonight." He whispered, kissing Jason's cheek, wrapping his arm around the other man and just holding him close.<br><br>Finally he pulled back to give Jason a little bit of space.<br><br>"Maybe another night, okay?" He nuzzled Jason's jawline and then he pulled back, putting out what was left of the cigarette, grinding it out with his heel. He felt better but worse at the same time. Better because he knew he could turn to the other man, worse because he felt as though he were forcing himself upon Jason. He knew Jason liked him, but he hated feeling as though each touch were painful. It would take time, he knew, to work on those issues. <br><br>Right now he just wanted...God, he wanted a rapid, angry physical release. He wanted to be overwhelmed by his own sensations. He felt an unbearable pressure...he hadn't been happy with his album, and he felt that he needed to finish new songs before singing tomorrow. He pulled away from Jason with a gentle smile, touching his fingertips. Maybe he would go for a walk? Get some air, try and get some inspiration. "I'm anxious about this album. I want it to be perfect," Avi said softly.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>21-03-2009, 00:03:08</strong>
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				When Avi pulled away Jason got this disappointed look, quite adorable - like that of a hungry stray puppy that was just showed some food and then the one who showed it ate it in front of him without giving him any. It seemed that subconsciously he had wanted to sleep in the same bed with Avi and just be as close as he could to the teen without causing himself any panic attacks. He sighed softly and looked down for a moment wondering whether Avi didn't really want him around...<br><br>"Hm?" He looked up when the teen mentioned his new album. Jason sighed softly and nodded faintly. The other's songs were always good as his voice was amazing, but then again the ones that actually got recorded were usually ordered by the big bosses, so they were somewhat commercialized. You know the kind of teen songs that could capture any teenage girl's heart... But it kind of limited Avi's auditory...<br><br>"Well... I think that you can much more than what the company asks for from you..." Jason said softly, looking at Avi, obviously speaking as a professional and his manager once again. "But to be honest all your albums have been pretty much the same until now... All the same songs sang with different lyrics and melodies, but the same theme..." He said, crossing his arms over his chest and sighing heavily. "I believe in you... If you want we can for once ignore the company's orders and go for songs that really matter to you... Risk... You will either lose everything or win everything..." He said, looking at the youth's eyes.<br><br>He knew that Avi was aware that going against the company's desires could be the end of both their careers, well maybe not his as he was the company's golden hen and they were only going to make him sing cheesy songs once again, but it was going to be the end of Jason's career for sure - no one wanted managers who lead their singers against the company's orders... But Jason believed in the power of Avi's voice and his lyrics that never got in the albums... He was ready to risk everything for the younger male.<br><br>"I will help you... and we'll record everything in my studio in the house... for a couple of weeks we should be ready... And release it before they stop us. We won't aim for only the teenagers in the country but for everyone... I know you can make an album that will get you your first platinum record." He nodded, looking straight at Avi's eyes to show him that he was serious.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>22-03-2009, 07:49:30</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Avi had a small smile on his face, thinking of everything that he could do, able to think of all the ideas he would want to write about. So many things that he had already started to write but had trashed because he knew that the record label wouldn't want it. If he did it, though, it had to be absolutely perfect so that he would do well. So that the album did well. So that the album would go platinum and Jason would be able to keep his job as a manager and maybe even make a hefty sum of money.<br><br>"I'd really like that. But...we shouldn't. What if it doesn't go well?"<br><br>He finally said, letting reality kick in, pull his mind away from dreams of singing his own songs, actually playing the sorts of music that he wanted to play.<br><br>"You could lose your job. You would lose your job, actually. And..." He shrugged, "I don't want to risk that. You're all that I have. I'd lose it if I had another manager."<br><br>He looked up into Jason's eyes, obviously serious, not wanting to let Jason risk everything for him. <br><br>"Maybe we can record it..." He finally said, softly, "At your house. See how it goes. I need to work on new songs for it, if I'm going to do that, though. But I could probably record it and I could look at it and see whether or not I want to release it, then." He briefly debated whether or not to ask the other man sing with him, but quickly nixed that idea. He knew Jason would say know.<br><br>He just wished that he would be able to instill that love of music back into Jason. The one that the older man had lost when he had gone through his own career. He wanted to give his own love of making music back to Jason.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>22-03-2009, 19:46:54</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Jason couldn't help but smile at Avi's words. He had known that the youth craved to sing whatever he wanted and to make music the way he felt it, but seeing him actually think how great it was going to be to actually do this... well it warmed Jason's heart. But the reason for the smile was Avi's last words - the one that showed concern about him and his job... The younger man thinking and worrying about him... now that made his heart race fast against his chest as if trying to jump out of it.<br><br>He stepped in closer to Avi and cupped the other's cheek, gently making him look up at him. "If the album goes bad the company will most probably pull it out of the market and make you work on another one, paying the cost for the other from your own pocket, but... well you can afford it without worrying about money..." He smiled softly, his thumb caressing the youth's cheek. "They won't kick you out... but they will most probably kick me out... But it doesn't matter... With three Golden Albums and one Platinum... well... even if I lose my job I am set for life if I don't spend too much..."<br><br>He knew that even if he lost his job he could make it. He could even go to college, graduate something and live like an ordinary person. He smiled at the thought and sighed softly, nodding as if to assure Avi that he was going to be alright.<br><br>"But you won't lose me... I'll... I will... never leave your side..." His cheeks turned a soft hue of pink and he smiled nervously. "Even if I'm no longer your manager I will stay beside you... as a friend or... whatever... but you won't lose me - that I can promise." He leaned in and pecked Avi's forehead. His heart was going at such a fast pace inside his chest that for a moment he wondered if Avi could hear it. He didn't know what was going on with him... but he wanted to show the other how much he cared for him...<br><br>He swallowed hard and stepped back, smiling softly. "But I'm sure the album will be a success so don't worry about the bad 'ifs'." He said with a calm voice, nodding faintly. He wouldn't have offered it to Avi if he wasn't sure in the power of the youth's voice and music. He knew that Avi could touch everyone's hearts and not only the teen kids... After all he had touched Jason's heart...
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>24-03-2009, 04:59:28</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Avi looked up only when his cheek was cupped by Jason's hand, licking his lips and then nodding faintly, listening to Jason explain the logic behind why this would work. He was still worried about Jason losing his job, though. He didn't want to take away the thing that Jason had found to fill the time now that he wasn't singing anymore. The nod assured him, leaning faintly into the hand touching his cheek, wanting to feel that hand stay there to calm him through what was certainly going to be a bold move. <br><br>"As long as you won't leave me," He mumbled, "Even if it goes bad. As long as you don't abandon me then I'll deo this." He rested his hand on Jason's chest, immediately feeling the man's heartbeat pounding against his chest, a lazy grin drifting over his lips when he realized the effect that he was having on Jason. <br><br>"Alright. I'll work on some songs. Some real songs that people other than just teens would like. <br><br>He wrapped his arms around Jason once more, kissing the side of his neck gently, then pulling back briefly so that he could go to the bedroom. He sat on the bed, suddenly so drained, flopping back and kicking off his shoes. He looked up at the ceiling, "I'll write songs later," He mumbled quietly, trying to think of what he wanted to write about. It would take a little bit of time before the inspiration actually hit for him to write.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>24-03-2009, 21:08:29</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				"I won't. Ever." Jason promised once again, smiling softly as the singer's gentle hand was placed on his chest - it only made his heart run faster against his chest. He nodded faintly as Avi promised to work hard on new songs that were going to touch everyone's hearts. His arms wrapped around the youth for a few moments, swallowing hard when he felt the other's soft lips pressing against his sensitive neck. He blushed lightly and looked at the other with a cute nervous look that he tried to hide, but failed to do so... badly... and only made him look much cuter, ruining his strong and manly image.<br><br>Jason coughed as he passed with fingers through his blond locks, licking his lips. He nodded and smiled at Avi. "Yeah... it's getting late..." He mumbled, going to the other's side, patting his head lightly. "Go to bed. They wake me up here at seven o'clock, so don't startle when the phone starts ringing in the morning." He said softly, leaning in to kiss Avi's forehead.<br><br>Jason moved around and went to the wardrobe, taking out the extra pillow and covers that he had been using ever since he moved in this hotel. "Try to rest well, Avi. Tomorrow's going to be a long day." He called as he headed to the living-room cleaning the couch and preparing his own bed there. "We... gotta go to the studio, gather all the material we're going to need, postpone your interviews, arrange some other things..." He listed all the tasks they were going to have to do before leaving for his mountain house.<br><br>"I... have some more work to do, so I'll pull the doors not to get light in your room." Jason said softly as he moved to close the double doors between the bedroom and the living-room. "Sleep well." He smiled before he disappeared in the living-room.<br><br>He started reading some documents, writing notes here and there, but as the hours rolled the lights in the living-room remained on. If Avi was to wake up during the night he was going to find Jason having fallen asleep on the couch, his glasses on the crooked lightly, some documents on his chest, some having slid from his hand on the ground. He had fallen asleep as he had been working, one leg on the couch, the other still on the ground...
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>27-03-2009, 18:45:12</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Jason's smile charmed Avi completely, but he headed to bed when told that he should go and sleep. He nodded to let Jason know that he'd just ignore the phones at seven o'clock, letting Jason talk about everything that needed to be planned. He would let Jason handle it, though he wished the other man could just take a break. He realized that it was necessary, though, to get this all worked out before they could go to Jason's mountain house.<br><br>He fell onto the bed, curling up in the sheets and burying his head in the pillows, eyes shut as he tried to fall asleep. His mind was whirling, though, confused about his feelings for Jason. Something between them had finally come to light that he had never really understood before and it felt amazing.<br><br>He curled up under the thick comforter, staring up at the ceiling, blinking slowly. <br><br>He was excited to get back to writing music that he actually wanted to sing. He finally got up, unable to actually settle down and sleep, walking into the living room. <br><br>He smiled when he saw Jason, picking up a pile of papers that were sliding off of Jason's chest, setting them on the table. He picked up a blanket, pulling it over Jason, shifting him so that he was laying on the couch. He lifted Jason's head gently, wedging a pillow underneath his head. <br><br>He headed onto the patio and smoked a few cigarettes, looking out over the city twinkling below him, just watching it. <br><br>He felt...strange. No longer lonely now that he had Jason, but somewhat empty. As though nothing he was doing until now actually meant anything. An overwhelming pressure to write good music, really good music, pressed in on him. He was going to do it. He really would.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>27-03-2009, 22:30:58</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Jason was too exhausted to wake up when Avi walked in the living room and laid that blanket over him, but he shifted a bit and sighed heavily in his sleep. "Mpf...nnn` that... mpf... good deal..." He mumbled in his sleep, obviously even his dreams being occupied with work - he really did not know what true rest was...<br><br>He continued sleeping peacefully once his body was in a more comfortable position, turning on one side and burying his face in the back of the couch. He kept mumbling every now and then, but not waking up for a while or more exactly not until a cool breeze came from the slightly opened door of the patio. He shivered and snuggled in the blanket, his mind immediately clicking that he hadn't had a blanket when he fell asleep, so his eyes slowly opened to make sure that it was real.<br><br>He yawned and sat up a little, rubbing his eyes. He needed a few moments to realize that there was light on the patio and someone standing there. "Avi..." He whispered under his nose as he rolled out of the couch and stumbled towards the patio.<br><br>His hair was messy and his face had a rather cute sleepy expression. He opened the door of the patio and leaned on the door frame, yawning loudly. "Mh... can't sleep?" He asked as he walked outside, shivering lightly. "What tiiiiiime is it?" He asked with another yawn as he took the cigarette from Avi's fingers and took a drag himself, letting it out through his nostrils. <br><br>"Don't catch a cold." He said softly as he wrapped an arm around the youth's shoulders and pulled him a bit closer to himself, feeling this odd new urge to have Avi close to himself. 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Sho</strong> on <strong>29-03-2009, 07:33:00</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Avi couldn't help but smile as the other man turned and mumbled under the blanket he laid over him. He looked out over the city and sighed, only brightening when he heard Jason come out. "Nah. Not tired, I guess." Not that that was true, as Avi was well and truly exhausted the vast majority of the time. Even now. He just wasn't able to get himself to sleep as he tried to think of how he could please his fans, how he could make music he liked that other people would actually enjoy just as much as he enjoyed performing or writing or dancing to. <br><br>"I won't catch a cold. Long as you stay there, that is." He laughed, curling up under Jason's arm and resting his head on the other man's shoulder. "I think it's like...two? Maybe three? It's late. Or early, I guess." <br><br>He was fine letting Jason take the cigarette and smoke from it.<br><br>When he took it back, he could taste Jason's lips on it, and grinned as he ran his fingers through his hair and stayed firmly tucked up against Jason. "You should get back to sleep. You never get enough of it. I feel like all you ever do is work, work, work." <br><br>It was late, and he was always worried that Jason would work himself to death, that he wouldn't get enough sleep to actually recharge himself. Of course, Jason was a big boy, and could take care of himself. It really wasn't his place to push such things. He put out what was left of the cigarette, "I can't wait to go to the mountain house. It's going to be so nice...so far away from everything here. So far away from all of the hustle and the bustle."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Public Exposure [[Closed, Izu and Sho]]</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Izu</strong> on <strong>29-03-2009, 18:49:38</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Jason smiled softly at the other, kind of liking the thought that Avi was worrying about him. He sighed with content as he moved so that he was standing behind the younger one, his arms wrapping around his body, holding him close to his chest. He rested his cheek against Avi's soft hair and sighed once again. "Mh... that's my job... Work, work, work..." He kissed Avi's head and closed his eyes for a moment, simply enjoying this closeness.<br><br>"I can't go back to sleep knowing that you are up, worrying about the album..." He said softly, his hand moving up to stroke Avi's head. "That's why you are up, aren't you? Worried about the album?... Don't worry... because I know you can do it... I can see it in your eyes, I hear it in your voice... I know it..." He said reassuringly, not wanting his younger friend and client to drive himself crazy or get sick from nerves.<br><br>"Three a.m..." Jason muttered under his nose as if to himself. "What about we order some mid-night breakfast, pack our stuff, go to the studio to gather everything we'll need and head to the mountains?" He asked, tilting his head a little bit. "I'll call my housekeeper to prepare the house for us as soon as it's dawn, and by the time we are up there it would be already lunch time?" He smiled softly at Avi as he waited for his response.<br><br>Jason hadn't gone in the mountain for over two years now, but this house had been his hideout for years. He even spent an entire year up there after he left the singing business and disappeared from the world. This place had saved him in a way, so he hoped that it was going to give strength to Avi as well...<br><br>And he knew that the guy he was paying to look after the house while he was away was going to be up around five in the morning. He could give him a call, ask him to clean up the house a bit, open the windows, get wood for the fireplace... And Avi and he could pass by some store and buy food supplies for the first day or two.<br>
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