What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)
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				Title: <strong>What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>17-12-2015, 23:17:54</strong>
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				The world, a swirling mass of energies, Lifetimes and pulses.&nbsp; Not the planet. the planet had it's own pulse and breath... but the world, all of it encompassed in every instant that made up a million, a billion Lives in a single breath of time.&nbsp; <br><br>On a cold, rainy day, like any other day really, in Seattle, many of these lives Milled about, a day to day routine of work or study.&nbsp; Begging or being begged.&nbsp; Every so often something would shatter this constant, but not for her... not today.&nbsp; Or so she thought.&nbsp; This singular woman, in a city of men and women, who had buried herself deep and become what she wasn't.&nbsp; Mousy brown hair was tied back away from a plain face hidden behind thick framed glasses and strictly cut Bangs that stopped right at the peak of her brow.&nbsp; Cloths where, Nice.. not fancy, just unassuming.&nbsp; Certainly not dowdy,&nbsp; just, Normal.&nbsp; Nothing about her stood out, Nothing about her was meant to.<br><br>&nbsp;She crouched placing a bottle of water and bag of food next to a sleeping man looking over him she smiled faintly then stood and continued walking, She knew what it was like, to lay on the ground cold and hungry hoping for just one person, just one, to see past the grime and help.&nbsp; She couldn't give him a home, she couldn't give him a life, that he needed to find for himself.&nbsp; But a warm meal and safe water, that she could give. Once she'd tried to give all, she'd tried desperately to help everyone, to 'save' them from anything, everything, hunger cold, Violence.&nbsp; But the harder she'd tried the sicker she'd gotten with grief and self loathing for everyone she couldn't help.&nbsp; So she'd stopped.&nbsp; she'd stopped trying to save 'everyone' and instead tried to save, 'someone'&nbsp; with even a single small act.<br><br>She, was Caroline Lake now, a young woman who worked as an office assistant and was heading home after a long day. Caroline was a woman that wasn't really looked at twice.&nbsp; She was the average girl.&nbsp; She went on a couple dates with a couple average men, but nothing really sparked.&nbsp; She worked her job with a meticulous steady order one would expect of an office worker, no better and no less then anyone around her, she was, in a word, Unremarkable.&nbsp; And she had worked on that for many many yeas.&nbsp; More then anyone would ever really believe.&nbsp; After all, who would want to be unnoticed?&nbsp; It wasn't that she was lacking in confidence, she wasn't particularly shy or Skittish, she just, blended. so one had to wonder, when presented with such a woman, just why did a person blend?&nbsp; because they wanted to, and who wanted to blend?... people who hid from something...
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>18-12-2015, 19:16:17</strong>
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				The world slowly rotated underneath as he admire the solemn view of rain clashing against his window. He was looking down at his meal for the afternoon. A simple roast duck with a sweet sauce over it on a bed of rice. He watched the buildings rotate around him as he was dining at the restaurant in the Seattle tower. He watched the world quietly as he thought about what to do next. He had not receive word for sometime, but it was not unnatural where he would get time for himself lately this decade. He look down at his right wrist seeing how long he had been lingering eating slowly. He felt comfort in Seattle, but he wasn't sure why, there was something familiar here and he had settled in the city for the past year as his new location.<br><br>He was in the middle of taking a bit when he felt it burn, his fingertips heated up spreading throughout his body. He could feel the old writing singe underneath his clothing and he had to get out of there. He stood up tossing a few dollars and left quietly and quickly. He knew what this meant, it was time to seek out his new owner. He stepped outside, an air of steam and mist created around him, his body heating up reducing the speckles of rain into gas. He was fortunate that his clothing was prepped to sustain higher temperatures.<br><br>He looked up into the sky pulling off his black shades revealing a dark brown gaze. His hair was straight and matted down a bit from the rain, but that did not bother him so much. He could feel it immediately close, the contract was in the city. He sighed as if realizing what this had meant, that the previous owner had perish and now he belonged to a new Master. "<em>Another decade, another day, who will rise now?</em>" he thought to himself. He began to walk away following the burning skin until he met the owner, the signal would not stop.<br><br>---<br><br>The contract was moving, finding the next hand of who it would fall into. There was a soft clank and a single parchment fell through. It rested on a pile of mail on the floor wrapped in an envelope. A red envelope with a wax seal, waiting to be broken for the next owner to take over.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>18-12-2015, 19:40:56</strong>
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				Caroline Yawned as she unlocked her apartment door and stepped inside, crouching to gather her mail then tossing it on the side table as she shut the door and slipped off her coat.&nbsp; The day had been long, and while she enjoyed her work, she was not so aulteristic to claim she enjoyed all her coworkers... one particular pebble in her shoe didn't seem to understand she simply wasn't interested in him.&nbsp; If he where young and simply eager to be seen with an older woman, she'd have felt more charitable.&nbsp; This man however, was a year older, but only in body, in mind she'd equate him with a child. a Brat, self assured with boundless ego.&nbsp; It was stifling.&nbsp; and despite her best efforts to be unassuming he kept pressing, She'd just give in and sleep with him, if she thought it would solve the problem.&nbsp; No after so long she grown used to knowing certain warning signs, this was a man looking for a target.&nbsp; he saw her as unassuming, he saw her as moldable, Biddable.&nbsp; controllable.&nbsp; he was a danger.<br><br>Plucking up the envelopes she flicked through them Bill, Bill, oh a post card from Kathy!&nbsp; the last she dropped with a gasp as she saw it, the envelop bright and almost obscene as it lay n the smooth opaque glass of her coffee table.&nbsp; What was... no it couldn't be possible, certainly not.<br><br>reaching out she hesitated,&nbsp; then shook her head "Honestly Caroline get a hold of yourself, it probably just an early Holiday card!" she snapped annoyed at herself.&nbsp; plucking up the envelop she cracked the wax seal and Opened it exposing the parchment within.&nbsp; She closed her eyes a moment and took a breath before sighing and cocking her head to the side "What is this thing? Bloody Chain letters." She muttered annoyed Setting it on the tabletop and settling on one of the chairs in the room to read over the post card slipping off her shoes with a sigh rubbing her toes as she read about her friends current exploits in Hawaii.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>18-12-2015, 23:34:04</strong>
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				His body was still forming a steamy air around him in hunt of the contract now. Each step he could feel the ink burning warmer towards the general direction of where the contract was. He was curious to see who it would be next. He has met very few kind people, but many others had succumb to power and greed realizing the extent of what he could do for them. He had managed to learn many trades and skills needed to make whatever it was that the person desired. He walked down seeing the row of townhouses and buildings moving closer the destination. He could feel it was still miles away and had hailed for the cab.<br><br>"Drive around, I'll give you instructions." he told the cab driver firmly as he drove through the city letting his body guide him that much closer. He leaned back looking around the city, seeing the scenary change, he had seen it grow from nothing, but land and now covered in skyscrapers and business. Now bustling with different cultures, the one thing remained the same was the weather though for the last century. That was soothing to him, the rain, the constant rain that seem to ease the firing burn. He still sought after the solution he seek, but never once had any of his previous ask anything more past of his own opinions. Simply always been ordered, even if they were kind, they still only saw him as a mere tool for their personal use or gain.<br><br>---<br><br>After about 30 minutes of driving, he felt it very close, now a path almost telepathic, warning him that it was here in the radius and told the driver to stop. He paid him and began walking around a quaint neighborhood wondering who it would be next. He always made a habit of watching from a distance, observing for a moment before presenting himself to the next in line.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>19-12-2015, 13:47:26</strong>
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				It was pure change she'd be out of milk.&nbsp; She could get so distracted sometimes she would forget things that simple.&nbsp; so pulling on her coat and purse she stepped from the main door of her building.&nbsp; it was a nice building, three stories, an apartment on each floor. Small but it suited her needs, she didn't want for much.&nbsp; Why had she brought the envelope?&nbsp; she wasn't sure, some part of her simply didn't want it out of her site.&nbsp; it was easy to discard it onto a table when she was in the room, but to leave it laying there, It felt like she'd been leaving a stranger in her home, so she'd stuffed the offending parchment in her bag as well and stepped out, pulling her coat close and shivering,&nbsp; &nbsp;She wanted to go someplace warm and comfortable, but she knew better, so instead she steeled herself against the chilled rain and stepped onto the sidewalk pausing a moment t glance around the neat nondescript neighborhood,&nbsp; there would be miles of it, Rows and rows of buildings all so similar one could so easily get lost in the maze.&nbsp; <br><br>Just what she'd wanted.<br><br>What was it about today that had her so on edge? Looking around again her gaze paused as she caught site of a man who didn't belong.&nbsp; She knew everyone in the area by face if not by name. this man was not a local... Tuning away she made her way quickly down the street her head down fingers curled tightly around the strap of her bag.&nbsp; No that man did not belong here at all.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>19-12-2015, 21:31:40</strong>
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				He watch the door open as she walked down the steps. For a moment he thought she had spotted him, he did stick out being the only person in the area. He could feel a shift within himself feeling the contract on the move and that girl was the one who held the old parchment. He didn't recognize her, but felt as if she had a familiar face, but then again he lived so long and seen so many, he could be imagining it. He gave her a block distance before he started to move towards her direction, wanting to follow and see where she went. He had some time before he had to introduce himself.<br><br>He watched from a distance her figure from behind trying to imagine who it would be next or what kind of person she was. She didn't know the weight of the contract, so he assumed she was completely unaware of what she could do. He could be wrong as he followed her through the endless tiresome similar homes. He kept his hands in his pocket pressing his body closer, he started to move closer to her and felt that her presence was familiar. As if she crossed paths with her many times over, but not sure why. He always had gaps in his memory, but they seem to be where gaps through time.<br><br>He shook his head as he moved closer, now he was only a few steps behind her and waiting to see how she reacted.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>19-12-2015, 21:44:49</strong>
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				That distinct prickle at the back of her neck wasn't needed, she could hear his footsteps through the rain, he was following her!&nbsp; He definitely wasn't her coworker, but he didn't seem like a normal stalker either so what the heck?&nbsp; She clutched her bag tighter and took a breath, finally whipping around to face the man.<br><br>"Can I help you?" She asked or rather, demanded as she faced him, she might have been shorter but for that instant she exuded a defiant power, a woman not to be crossed.&nbsp; but, that instant ended and she was Just Caroline, unimportant, unassuming, Unnoticeable.<br><br>"I'm sorry but if you have a question could you please just ask and not follow me, I have things to do." she said crisply glancing around, damning the rain for keeping people inside their homes, if she'd been wise she'd have stayed inside to... but she wanted milk, and god damn she did not think that was to much to ask for!&nbsp; Then again maybe that was it, a trigger, that singular desire...&nbsp; She shook her head at the thought, no no it wasn't that she was just being paranoid.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>20-12-2015, 21:04:31</strong>
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				He gave a small grin as he slowly started to walk towards her, one step at a time giving off a little menacing presence for the fun of it. He still enjoyed the first time meetings while he still can before it went south. He was inches away from her, he could really see her face. There was a bit of steam coming off still, but being so close he could feel the heat fade away as they both stood there in the rain, drenched seeing the anxiety build up a bit with her. "You hold it don't you."<br><br>He reached out slowly for her bag gripping onto it firmly, "The paper... the old contract... my life." He stood there gazing intently as he locked eyes with her. He could see her more clearly between the drops of rain separating them, she was too familiar now. Every second he spent standing there, she became more familiar every second, but never sure why. His mind was racing to fill in something, searching for an answer to see why he knew her.<br><br>"I'm Micheal. We meet at least, Contractor."
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>20-12-2015, 21:25:26</strong>
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				Caroline stared at him her expression never wavering even as she gripped the handle of her bag tighter, She really was, very stupid.<br><br>when he stepped forward she held her ground even as he reached out towards her bag she stood still. "Look if this is some joke of Kathys it's not funny, let me lay this out, if you don't unhand me I will use force to remove your hand from my person, I don't care what agency you work for or what game your playing." she said curtly a prank, address him as a prank!&nbsp; that had to be it after all... it had to be...<br><br>"Micheal?&nbsp; Alright what ever, haha you got me, now you can take your happy ass back to your company and tell them you did your job." she said fishing in her bag for the parchment and holding it up "Look do you need this back, it's pretty damn fancy for a prank but here." she held it out her gaze never leaving his, take it, go away don't be who he was, don't be what she couldn't handle.&nbsp; she had a good life here, she'd reached a level of normal... god, she'd hidden, turned herself into something complacently different to hide... so why here?&nbsp; why now?&nbsp; a sick cosmic joke.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>20-12-2015, 21:37:34</strong>
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				"I assure you it is no 'joke'," wishing to display how serious this was. It was a first that he was considered a joke, he met with disbelief, but never a joke. As she pulled out the contract, he reached forward grabbing her wrist. It seemed she had yet to enable the contract to bind them. He would take this time to start it, he didn't want it to slip away again after waiting.<br><br>He pulled her close, her palm in his hand as he held it in front of him with her palm facing up. He grabbed the contract and pressed it into her palm firmly. He brought his free hand up and bit his finger having it bleed at his tip. He dropped a few drops onto the parchment and a written out a symbol on her palm pressing them together. He could see her react to the sudden force and seeing the parchment come to life and slowly disappear into the blood and into her skin.<br><br>"There, no joke, had to make sure the contract stayed where it was. It's always troublesome going after it."
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>20-12-2015, 21:49:12</strong>
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				She scowled "Right and I'm the queen of sheeba..." she muttered gasping when he grabbed her wrist "W-what hey let go!" she pulled but his grip was frighteningly tight, but... strangly gentle, he wasn't hurting her, but he had her in a firm grasp.<br><br>He bit his finger drawing blood, this made her a little frantic pulling harder "What are you doing?&nbsp; stop Don't STOP!" she jerked back but he had her to firmly in an instant the right was complete and the contract seeped into her skin, her blood and bone.<br><br>|Y-You.." once he released her she jerked back staring at her palm.&nbsp; he was talking but his voice was tinny in her ears, "Troublesome?...." she mumbled and stepped forward fast lifting a hand to smack him "You Idiot do you have any idea what... christ You... I... AH!: she threw up her hands turning and stalking away a few steps forcing out long slow breaths, think, she had to think, How could she think?&nbsp; what was she going to do?&nbsp; One, one good thing, and Here he was, standing there on the side walk staring at her with no idea...&nbsp; That was the point, that had always been the point, But, but Whose idea was it to send this damn thing to her?!<br><br>What was she going to do?&nbsp; <br><br>she stalked around in a small circle mumbling angrily to herself before finally looking up at him&nbsp; "You, you... You're an Idiot, a total Idiot!" she snapped
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 00:07:36</strong>
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				He watched her silently freak out, this was the weirdest reaction he ever had. He reached out walking forward trying to calm her down by pressing his hand on one shoulder. "Me? Idiot? You received the contract so you are next in line. I'm here to help with what you like." He stepped back trying to take in the situation, it felt calm dealing with someone completely different than what he was use to. He still kept a stiff shoulder and didn't want to lower his guards at all.<br><br>"Look, we can go somewhere else. And I can explain what just happened to you." He sighed a bit and stood there standing with his hands in his pocket wondering what to do next. This derailed his mindset about everything. He still couldn't quite recall how he knew her to some degree, but toss that thought to the side. "Well?"
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 00:23:11</strong>
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				"Help me the whole point was..." she stalled hesitating, no, she couldn't.. she couldn't... her throat closed and she stepped back shying away from the hand he'd reached out to her "I don't...&nbsp; Actually..." she sighed "Yeah that's a good idea, look I need to pick up some milk or I'm going to go nuts then we can head back to my place." she said finally resigned,&nbsp; the fact was there wasn't anything she could do about it now.<br><br>Come on then." she said turning and walking along, it was only another block to the little corner store, she'd get milk and some food, he'd probably need to be fed... great... well... she glanced back, she supposed this was a good thing, she supposed... now she could do a little to pay him back...
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 07:25:39</strong>
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				"Sure." He followed after her a bit closely by her side. He walked matching her pace and seeing her riled up and in a frenzy from the sudden trouble he caused her. He wasn't sure what to make of it himself as he looked forward so sternly. His face always felt stiff, a habit that centuries of work forced him to have a colder outlook in life. He was constantly taking note of everything that came across his view and quietly trying to understand her.<br><br>"What do I call you?" as if he referred her to like a pet, he didn't quite see eye to eye with everyone in the world anymore. He always saw them as a small spark that would soon fade away. No different with each person passing through life, he continued to be left behind, alive, while the rest had return to the ground rotting.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 10:20:20</strong>
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				He asked what to call her and she stopped walking hesitating before turning "My name is Caroline, but You will call me Shanael... Shana will work if you cannot say the whole thing." she said calmly watching his face as she said the name, was there anything there, recognition?&nbsp; would there be?... should there be?&nbsp; perhaps forgetting her was the greatest boon to anyone who had known her.<br><br>"C-come along then." she said stepping into the little corner shop.&nbsp; it was small and quiet the only other people where a young man in a hoodie and the cashier, a teenage boy who looked bored.&nbsp; She walked briskly to the fridge and grabbed the milk a glance up had her hesitating as she caught site of something in the security Mirror... <br><br>don't...<br><br>It spoke, a sinuous sly voice trying to stop her,&nbsp; don't bother, don't get involved,&nbsp; if you do, this could be it...&nbsp; But as always she ignored the voice because, her life was not worth anyone else everyone on this planet, they where all worth much more then her.&nbsp; she she moved forgetting him in her moment of fear and as the hoodie wearing man stepped towards the counter fully producing the gun in his pocket terrifying the teen on the other side, she swung the milk up smashing the gun and hand upwards so that the shot hit the ceiling.&nbsp; what she hadn't counted on was the knife, the blade flashing in the light as the man panicked and pulled it from his pocket and thrust forward.<br><br>was this it?&nbsp; was this the end of this life?
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 16:19:28</strong>
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				"Shana," he whispered under his breath to himself. He followed seeing her act oddly and not sure for what reason. They arrived at the corner shop as he stood by the entrance mostly waiting for her to finish shopping. She sure did not have any issues giving commands pretty quickly. He could see her shopping for her milk. He shook his head and looked around noticing the person in the hoodie and stood there quietly and attentively.<br><br>He watch it play out before him, she reacted pretty well and seem to start panicking after he pulled out a small blade. He already begun moving from behind in his blind sight and immediately wrapped his arm around his neck yanking him back as the blade flew pack inches away from her. "Are you alright, Shana?" he asked her calmly as he stood there nearly choking him out and laying him flat on the ground. He walked over to her lending his hand out.<br><br>Afterwards he walked back to check on the young man picking up the gun and blade hiding them on his person and turned to the teenager in fear. "Here." He laid out a few bills for the milk and recommended to call the police.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 16:31:24</strong>
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				it happened so fast he was there, stopping the blade and shielding her, pinning the man to the ground as she sank to her knees staring at him.&nbsp; "W-what?&nbsp; Ah yes I'm alright.|" she said reaching out her hand hesitated, she didn't see the slim fitting leather glove or the cuff of her tan coat, or the sto that surrounded them.&nbsp; for a mment she saw what was before, her scaed hand shaking as she placed in in the big black gloved hands of a handsome man who helped her to her feet.&nbsp; She saw the rags dangling from an arm Boney from starvation she saw dark eeyes, saddened, resigned.&nbsp; she knew she was going to die.&nbsp; the pain in her small body had been a sign she been all to aware of, but this man, had cme, in in those last days had given her a warm bed, and hot food.&nbsp; in a rare instance she had died happy... those three days, had been heven to a small staving child.<br><br>She jerked her hand back and stood on her own<br><br>"I'm fine, lets go." she said flicking hair away frm her face her toan brisk, he paid for the milk and she was to disturbed to stop him sailing out the door with a brisk stride not daring to stop or look back.&nbsp; she didn't dare, couldn't&nbsp; she needed time to settle herself, settle her mind and banish memories she didn't want.&nbsp; Life times passt,&nbsp; that was over this was her life now... but here he was again...<br><br>Damn him.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 16:46:08</strong>
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				Before leaving he went to pick up a new milk seeing the other one a bit damaged and walked out quickly to catch to her. He followed her from behind now holding the glass milk in his palm. He caught up beside her after a moment giving her some time to breath as they walked a few blocks. "Are you... Ok, Shana?" He peered forward trying to catch a glimpse of her face. He stood back up straight walking beside her quietly not saying much else. He did stare at the milk below a bit odd of the situation, almost felt common, a bit too common for something like that to happen out of the blue.<br><br>He pulled out the blade with his free hand and fumbled with it flipping around and seeing how it was. It was a cheap blade that you could pick up from any store, nothing to what he owns. It was useful to have something small and extra, and the gun never hurt either as he felt it pressed against his back under his coat. He put the blade away as they got closer to her home.
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 16:51:54</strong>
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				She didn't look at him "I'm fine.. I just feel stupid for stalling thats all, I know better... I didn't expect him to have a knife." she said honestly. that was true enough, she couldn't tell him what was really bothering her.&nbsp; Stepping into the building she headed upstairs leading him to the thrid floor her aprtment.&nbsp; it was a loft, open plan with half the room curtained off for the sleeping area, and a door that led to a small toilet room with a shower stall with barely enough room to bend ones elbows.&nbsp; despite that everything was clean.&nbsp; she might not have the best space but she took care of it.<br><br>"Just put it in ehte fridge... would you like anything, Tea, coffee?&nbsp; a human soul?" she asked blandly smirking over at him at her tacked on joke.&nbsp; she grabbed to mugs then filled the kettle to boil before slipping off her coat and scarf hanging them up, tucking her gloves in the coat pocket and tossing her purse on one of the chairs.<br><br>"soooo... an explanation is in order I believe."
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				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 17:03:14</strong>
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				He let the comment slide as if he didn't hear it. He sat down on her couch getting himself comfortable in her home. He looked around finding it a lack of a personal touch and wondering why she hadn't done more with the place. He made it obvious that he was staring at everything and leaned back heavily in the couch. "Where shall we start? There isn't too much to it." he was preparing himself to give her the usual pitch he had come use to.<br><br>"You hold an ancient contract. One that grants you anything you may desire in this world in your life time. Whether you want power, fame, fortune, or more, I'm here to see it through." He listened to the kettle starting to boil. He pulled out the knife and gun and placed it on her table in front of him casually. He was pretty straight forward with everything, he didn't like beating around the bush so much, he was stiff in his personality. "So what is it that you wish of me, Shana?"
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 17:09:00</strong>
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				she laughed weakly "I see... it's funny you'd end up in my hands... I don't know how to tell you this, but I don't want anything." she said turning away as the water boiled and prepped a hot chocolate filling half the mug with some of the milk and sighing "Did you want something?" she asked again glancing back at him<br><br>"Let me guess, I can't just Wish you free either?" she asked walking over to sit across from him slipping off her shoes then bringing her legs up to tuck underneath her. "Sorry to waste your time... I mean, ... well." she hesitated and laughed "There is one thing I do want, but, unfortunately it's not something you can give me... no one can no matter their 'power'&nbsp; so guess your plum outta luck." she said frankly.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 17:15:52</strong>
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				"Yes, there is no way of ridding me except your death and I will see to it that won't happen." He stretched out on her couch. He stood up walking around a bit, pacing her apartment as this was a first time that has ever happened. Someone who didn't want anything, but it would probably take some time. Until then he would be stuck following her around and after today, watching over her more often. He took off his coat and placed it beside hers.<br><br>"There is always something everyone wants. What is it that you wish for? What's the one thing?" he stood beside her staring at the steam coming from the mug and moved to stand across from her, trying to pry harder. The sooner he had a goal, it gave him something to do as a distraction. He opened her fridge looking for something to eat even though he had eaten recently, he did have an appetite that seem to be endless. 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 17:21:10</strong>
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				she nodded "I see then... well, no trouble there you won't have to deal with me for to long." she said chuckling "Theres nothing you could o to stop it, if I'm supposed to die I will die, and not even you can prevent it." she said lightly tracing a finger along the rim f her mug then drinking slowly as he paced.&nbsp; removed his coat and resumed his pacing.<br><br>"It doesn't matter what I wish, You can't grant it, but, I'll tell you this much, when I do die, I do wish you could be freed, compleatly.&nbsp; not just from me, but from what ever ties you." she said honestly the chocolate warm and yummy she sighed content with her small pleasures.<br><br>"You won't find much in there unless your hungery for day old Take out." she commented, and indeed other then a box of baking soda the only thing in the fridge where a couple boxes of chinese food.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 17:34:34</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He shrugged pulling the box out and looking for something to eat it with. Even though he had a tongue for a lot of dishes, he was never afraid to just eat what was there. He didn't really ask for permission, just being comfortable with the world. He didn't know what to make of her saying she will die, he understood that everyone dies at some point, but what was different for her. "Ah, why me be free? You've only just met me. You sure are taking things pretty calmly considering what has happened today. And I do promise you that you won't be dying under my watch. I have not let that happen, nor do I plan to start now."<br><br>He opened up the box setting it down beside her and finding some of her silverware and started to dig in eating it cold beside her. "Now tell me more about yourself. You seem to be hiding a lot from what I've noticed.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>21-12-2015, 20:08:34</strong>
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				She shrugged "I don't like the idea of people being trapped.&nbsp; held aginst their will, it pisses me off to be honest, s hey if I can free you I will I have some friends, I'll see what I can find out." she said sipping the drink slowly before laughing "I know a lot people." she said with a shrug "Some of them are not what people would call normal." she said absently setting the mug down and stretching her legs before crossing them and offering a smile <br><br>"Not much to tell, I was born in bumfuck nebraska, I've lived a quiet life because it's what I wanted... I know with out a doubt that because I'm older then twenty when I die it will be all the more horrific." she said shrugging she leaned back closing her eyes... she had a head ache.<br><br>"It'll be really bad, and your not going to be able to stop it, and I hate that...&nbsp; You wanna wish here's a wish... don't feel guilty.. don't feel bad.&nbsp; when it happens, because trust me, there is nothing you can do to stop it..."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>22-12-2015, 06:07:57</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He stopped eating about halfway through listening to her talk about her life as if she was so certain of it. He became very concern with who she was not, he place his fork down looking at her intensely, "Who are you Shana... You speak as if you are so sure that it will happen. Who are you exactly?" He stood up tall staring at her quietly. He wanted answers after seeing how she reacted and simple her life. He started to put some things together, as if she didn't want to be too attached with with this world.<br><br>"I've seen a lot of things through my time, but you seem familiar. Have we ever met?" He rested his palms on the table to lean in for a closer look. He didn't understand what was going on anymore.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>22-12-2015, 10:54:13</strong>
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				She lifted her head opening her eyes to look at at with a half smile "The day you can tell me how you know the name Shanael, that day I'll tell you everything, hows that sound?" she said then pushed up from the chair as the phone rang walking over to answer it she turned her back to him rsting her hip aginst the counter "yes this is Caroline... yes....&nbsp; mm no those file would be with the ecords on the first flor...&nbsp; no we moved them ages ago you've been down there once already to get them... no... no!... uggh, get a pen.... right..."&nbsp; as she talked frustration was clear on her face, she walked who ever was on the other line through where apparently some files where located, and then where they went for the work they where doing.<br><br>"Yes... that's it you got it... uh-huh... yes then you put them in the basket to be evewied and stamped... yes.. ok, yes no-no it's fine... uh yeah... yeah.. no.. ah... right.. I'll be in tmarrow.. yes.. I... Yes.&nbsp; see you then, goodbye... ye-Good bye." with a firm finality to her tone she hung up the phone and sighed rubbing the bridge of her nose<br><br>"Ah.. I got a wish for you... have a way of sothing headaches?" she asked not really serious as she walked back to her chair and sat "Sorry ok, where were we?&nbsp; right, Look, All I can tell you for now, is that Your contract was Not supposed to come to me, ever.&nbsp; theres been a mistake, a big one, and once it's discovered theres going to be hell to pay, Not for you I shouldn't think, You have no controle of the contract you just go where it dictates... Hopefully not for me either, thought, the easiest way to solve the problem would just be to kill me, it would unbind you." she said frowning as she tapped her cheek thoughtfully.<br><br>"Ah.. yes, I suppose this is something important "Is your contract bound to body and blood, or heart and soul?" she asked curiously.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 09:14:49</strong>
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				His mind wandered over the words 'Shanael' a few times. He still couldn't shake this feeling and gave up when his brain couldn't pull up how. He surrendered and sighed. "As for your question, so far body and blood... but what do you mean heart and soul? I've never had that come across for someone who could live longer. You really are taking this fairly well." He went back to finishing the takeout he had started. He finished throwing away the carton into the nearby trash bin and tossed the silverware into the sink. He paused for a moment and decided to wash it up and cleaning it putting it away.<br><br>He went back to the couch examining the knife and gun a bit more closely, starting with dismantling the gun and making sure it would be ready for use since he didn't have everything he needed on him. "You sound like you have more than one life. Well at this point either way, we could be stuck for a long while. It seems you have a lot of work to do. Well as part of the contract, your wish will be fulfilled in that you won't die. At least by any other means than natural of course." He stared down the barrel seeing how clean it was before reassembling it together. "We're going to have to make the best of this and you surely are an odd one."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 13:06:40</strong>
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				she nodded "There's a lot of things I know, it makes it easy to take something like this well.. frankly you are not the strangest aspect of my life." she said watching as he began to wash the dishes he'd used, well, at least he cleaned up after himself.&nbsp; She wasn't in the mood to play maid for an old soul.&nbsp; she sighed shaking her fingers through her hair.<br><br>She smiled "And if I do? what would it mean to you if I told you I have lived hundreds of lives, one after the other after the other?&nbsp; How would that effect your contract?&nbsp; or just you?" she asked curiously offering a smile&nbsp; "I'll make the best of it, for however long it lasts... I'll just look at it as a good thing, even if you are eventually the cause of my tragedy, it'll be worth it." she shifted standing and walking over brushing fingers through his hair<br><br>"and maybe... just maybe, I can grant your wish..." she mused softly
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 21:13:06</strong>
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				When she had moved closer, her fragrance triggered a little memory. It was ancient, something that seem to linger wherever she went. He never noticed it outside or before, but she was close. He could feel her hands brush through his hear and he flashed back to many centuries ago, pillars of marble were erect and he recalled a girl that use to do that for him. He feel a sort of joy in his heart that he haven't felt. He turned around to face her eye to eye being inches apart.<br><br>He was a bit confused, it was different, something a bit more intimate and personal. "I do not have any wishes," he lied, the one thing he never shared with anyone. At least he wasn't too sure with the gaps in memory, they were small, but enough to doubt him a bit. He stood there not moving an inch letting her fingers move about as she pleased. "What shall we do in the meantime? Also I'll be joining you at work." He gave a small smirk.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 21:30:26</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				She smiled faintly pulling back her expression fading. "You just don't remember... I don't know if you don't remember on purpose, or if it's just age." she said sadly hands on his cheeks she smiled "Oh you have a wish, a very special wish, the only thing you wished for the longest time..." she said softly tilting up his face, she could see it, so diffrently his eyes weren't as haunted.&nbsp; his face had been a bit leaner, a little paler, his hair had been longer.&nbsp; She saw the faint smile he'd had when she'd brush his hair, the small affection all she could offer.<br><br>did he remeber the last day?&nbsp; did he remeber leaving with his master,&nbsp; their last few mments, he had promised t return swiftly.&nbsp; but 'they' had come, like a swarm they had attacked and slaughtered all. she shivered pulling back, being close to him brought memories close to the surface.&nbsp; "Nngg I... I'll Be right back!" she declared running for the bathroom and buckling as she puked leaning aginst the toilet panting weakly.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 21:46:49</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				It was sudden and the moment was gone when she had ran off into the bathroom. He could hear her hurl and it made him feel uneasy. "Remember what?" he thought to himself, he was confused again by what she said. It's as if she knew everything about him and he felt a tinge of sadness settle in his stomach. He didn't know where these feelings were coming from. He walked over sitting at the door talking through, "Are you going to be ok?"<br><br>He sat there patiently waiting for her to come out. He got up and fetched her drink thinking she would be parch after throwing up so heavily. He stood there waiting with the warm drink in his hand wanting to help ease her. He placed the drink nearby the table walking around quietly. He ended up behind the curtains looking at the bed and snooping a bit for any more information on Shana.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 21:55:07</strong>
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				After a moment she emerged wiping her face with a towel pausing when she saw the glass and smiling faintly sipping thw water slowly "S-sorry." she managed coughing and taking a deep breath. looking up seeing him snooping in the curtained area "Nothing much to see." she said walking over and smiling weakly indeed the small space was sparse, the futon was big enough but the covers where a plain dark blue with no real decoration, a small side table with a book about south american mammals, and a small lamp.<br><br>"I'll be fine just some things... when I think about them it's vivid and makes me sick..." she said softly sitting on the edge of the bed and looking up at him she smiled weakly.<br><br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 22:59:30</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He sat down beside her on the bed looking out to the kitchen and the curtains surrounding them. "It must have been horrid," he tried comforting her, but he kept his hands to himself. "You are familiar to me, just can't seem to peg from where. If you say what you know is true, than I do have gaps in my memory that I can't recall, it is odd since I don't forget anything, even the things that were done to me." He turned his head watching her expressions.<br><br>"I won't press further, but I will remember one day. I can feel it, and since we're stuck together any how and you're not doing anything much with me. I guess I'll enjoy myself, though we're going to have to be a bit more comfortable with spending. I have collected a mass fortune over the centuries. It is just the same as if it were yours." He didn't bother to mention that a lot of it was hidden away for himself, though he never told anyone about his fortune or his methods of getting around and completing his work. "Like for instance you wouldn't have to work any longer if that is what you wish."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>23-12-2015, 23:49:06</strong>
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				She nodded "It always is... Your lucky in a way, your long lived but, It's one long life... There's a peace in that... Can you imagine, dying?&nbsp; over and over and over again? and not just dying in your sleep, Long lingering painful deaths,&nbsp; never quick, never easy.&nbsp; even ones that should be, a good hanging?&nbsp; a proper hangman can tie the nose and size the drop so when you fall, your neck snaps, Done... but imagine hanging there, chocking, people screaming going tinny in your eas as your feet scamble for purchase that isn't there and you can feel the blood collecting in your head and the last few gasps of breath frozen in your chest?..."<br><br>She sighed shoving up from the bed suddenly covering her face she trembled sickened fresh with the thought of it.<br><br>"Maybe it's better if you don't remeber... maybe it's some mercy granted to you that you've forgotten, because then you won't feel anything, this isn't the first time you've forgotten me, and when I die, You'll forget me again, thats how it works, it's just one more bind on me." she said Waving a hand "Do what you want I need sleep, I... I don't know what I want right now."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>24-12-2015, 03:15:36</strong>
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				"I wouldn't say it's a good thing. For me I can endure everything and still feel the pain. I've been captured and tortured for years losing my mind and sanity, but compelled to move forward by my curse. At least there is an end, I recall, feel, and hold onto this tattered form every mark that's ever come across. Each blood soaked hands only drench in more, my mind seems to be filled endlessly with the passing faces that fade away. I have become numb to the world, yet I still feel the pain of it all. Knowing that the people who are out after me or wish to get in the way, the endless experiments they can conduct. That is not something I would wish on anyone."<br><br>He sat there on the edge of the bed looking forward. He can recall the screams and shouts, the lost of innocence because of his own doing. That was something that morality could not comprehend, to him there was no right or wrong anymore. Simply action, he lost that humanity long ago. Yet here he was feeling something stirring up again and only with her. He got up over to the couch as he sat there, staring at the gun before him and how many countless times did he attempt to even end his own existence to know that he would survive, be conscious of the process as he heals up. He no longer flinched after the thousand time, sometimes he would shoot himself and see if he felt anything. Sadly even that little bit of feeling was long lost to him. 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 00:09:37</strong>
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				she sighed nodding "Yes, your right I'm sorry.. It was thoughtless of me to say that." she said apologetically, being so close to him, it was wonderful... and painful at the same time. Caroline watched him as he stood and stared at the gun, standing she walked over and grabbed him from behind hugging him tightly "don't... please... I know you'll heal, but I couldn't bear to see it." she said softly resting her forehead against the middle of his back and sighing her hands shaking slightly<br><br>"Micheal..." she said softly saying his name slowly she clung "You have no idea how many times you made My death easier..." she said softly.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 00:57:24</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He felt her warm embrace behind him, he wanted to reach up and hold her arm, but his mind was a little distance. He enjoy the small comfort of her being so close. His mind flashing back remembering a girl embracing him from behind. He could hear her whisper, so familiar to him. She knew him for sure, but he let that train of thought slip on by. He felt numb again he sat there for a moment letting the embrace continue. He didn't move an inch and spoke softly, "I won't do anything to harm myself. It is quite pointless in the end of it all. All I have to look forward is what I can do next."<br><br>He pulled away for a moment so he could turn around and face her. Caroline eyes were filled with sorrow, looking through him so closely. "Who..." he paused to stop himself, "never mind that... what do you want me to do next?" Was all he could think of. His emotions so far away again, all he could think of was the next set of instructions. "What do you mean to do do..."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 01:05:03</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				Caroline pulled back and smiled faintly "Hmmm Well I'm kind of tired, I had a long day at work." she said steping back giving him is space "I think I'm going to go to bed.&nbsp; Like I said I don't really want anything, so you can do what you like, But I have one rule, Do not hurt yourself.&nbsp; If I'm your contracter then My Law is, You must take care of yourself!&nbsp; even if you don't die I don't want you to hurt either, got it?" she said firmly&nbsp; Then smiled <br><br>"Now you can stay if you want, or go I'm not pickey but I'm getting changed so what ever you decided don't look behinde the curtaine till I say it's ok." she said walking to the sleeping area and drawing the curtaine, trembling fingers slipping buttons free "Hmm I know, Why don't you tell me some things you remeber, history?&nbsp; I dunn, did you ever meet any romans?&nbsp; what where they like that sort of thing?" she asked curiously changing the topic to something fun and light to try and ease his mind.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 02:19:47</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He sat there staring back at the gun pushing it aside from the table. He moved to lay on his side for a moment. Listening to her talk behind the curtain muffling just a little bit. He turn to lay on his back staring up at her ceiling and he decided against his mind to stay for the night. He also didn't want to leave her alone after listening to her story. "My history? I have come across the Romans. They were quite forward thinking even compared to now. They had some interesting customs, but their ideas of status and people... that was a different story. I help raise the Roman Empire, lead their army and tactics mainly, but it crumbled quickly. They had learned of their secret and I was soon capture forced to help with their fall aiding other nations. There is a blank moment though, one of the ransacking of a nearby city under the Roman rule. I can't remember, just broken memories. Fire, a burning home..."<br><br>He fell silent as he lay on his back thinking back. All his blank spaces were holes, too many to even count and no way of knowing what was in them. "I was fortunate to be in a kind home. Highly honored military and fed well. Everything was at my leisure. My history isn't that much interesting, always empty fulfilling everyone else." He turned facing the back of the chair staring at the texture of the couch. He let out a low sigh to himself.<br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 02:52:16</strong>
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				She paused fingers hesitating "That day..." she hesitated should she?&nbsp; could she... but.. she wanted.<br><br>"It wasn't your fault, there was no way you could have known..." she said shifting turning she parted the curtains to look at him "The day you've forgotten is my fault... you forget because Part of what binds me makes it so..." she said softly, blouse hanging open she didn't bother to hide herself. "Think back before that day, the one who held your hand and brushed you hair, a servant one who never thought she was worthy of you."<br><br>"You weren't always fulfilling everyone else.. I had hoped, perhaps.. Some burden was eased from you..." she said softly looking at him "Think back to the name.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 03:37:28</strong>
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				He sat there staring. He thought harder remembering back then. It was hard to recall so much history back then. He could picture it slowly, his days in dressed in a robe and trying to remember his life back then. His hands moved up through his hair as it slowly came back to him. After his long day he would retire to his chambers. Pass the red wooden door to his own quarters. It was there he sees a figure standing, waiting patiently for him to return quietly. He would sit down at his bed leaning back and she was there behind him kneeling. His head would come to rest at the comfort of her bosom, his only solace. He would Look up to see her smiling face.<br><br>He would listen to her welcome him as he quietly leaned back listening to her hum and breathing. The pounding of her heart vibrating into his head. The pool of blue that always welcomed his sight and the feeling of her blonde hair brushing against his face from time to time. "Hello..." he tried harder to recall the name he spoke, for a moment it was as if it was a whisper, an echo. The name so far away as his memory continued to visit the conversation. "thank you... will you stay the night with me... Sha-" more of the letters came into focus in his ears. It was there enough of a building block. The memory fast forward a bit laying beside her.<br><br>His face turned watching her eyes and form, he smiled remembering again what it was like to be happy and filled with more. He was back in the present again whispering out, "Shanael... Shanael" he started to speak louder. His head rose for a bit over the couch to meet with her eyes again.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 03:43:56</strong>
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				she watched him Smiling faintly seeing it, the way his face changed as he worked it out, remembered slowly saying her name he moved standing to look at her, her eyes met his "That wasn't the only time we where together, but it was the first Time I was at your side as a woman, grown... I was so happy." she said softly "Then... you where gone and I knew what would come.&nbsp; I had no idea the extent of the invasion but I knew I'd die soon, because I was happy and that's not allowed." she said shifting a little looking down.<br><br>"They came and killed everyone, it was a senseless slaughter, Laneal, The young kitchen girl was going to be killed I hit her attacker with a vase and smuggled her out but we where spotted, to give her time I attacked the soldiers, but My body then was t weak, as a servant I hadn't had the muscle or strength to face off against trained soldiers.&nbsp; But as a woman, my body had uses,&nbsp; &nbsp;They fulfilled their needs, then killed me, like so many others." she said shifting she turned "The only thing I regretted was that when I was reborn I wouldn't be able to find you and let you know it wasn't your fault."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 11:08:22</strong>
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				His eyes grew sad as he listened to her. He could remember her, but not when she had died. "Shanael... it is you." He pushed up off the couch walking around standing right before her. "You... eased my curse, after that I grew numb to the world. He laced his hand with hers pulling her closing for a long hug pressing his face into her neck. He whispered softly, "How could I ever forget..." he stood still embracing her as if trying to make up for the many centuries. She was the first girl that ever gave him some comfort and felt there was more purpose than just being a tool for others.<br><br>"I'm sorry you had gone through that... I wish I could do more, I wish I was given more power than simply immortality." His fingers wrapped tightly into a fist, his nails digging deep enough to start bleeding in his palm. "I'm sorry.." his whisper grew to mumbling, his throat was tightening. He step back still holding his tight fists beside him. Blood started to trickle out and dripping. He took a long look giving a half smile finally recognizing her. Her identity, but still could not recall her deaths. "You are the reason why I have blanks in my memory?"
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>26-12-2015, 14:13:14</strong>
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				she smiled faintly nodding "It is..." she said softly falling silent as he pulled her close closing her eyes savoring the embrace, she shouldn't she knew better, if she had happiness she'd only die sooner but... but...<br><br>"It's not your fault, it's the law of my curse.&nbsp; You're not the only immortal being out there, naturally The one who cursed me does not want me to be protected or saved, when I die, I am forgotten, it's as if I never existed at all.&nbsp; my suffering is my own, a private hell... but you, that you could remember at all, is strange, it's as if The laws of my curse can't fully effect you, I don't really understand why though." she said honestly <br><br>"You found me a few times before I was Shanael, once when I was just a child, starving and sick, I remember this grand parade, a king or chieftain I think but I don't remember well from the fever.&nbsp; you where with him, you stopped and watched me a moment and then held out your hand.&nbsp; you said if I could grab it you'd help me.&nbsp; you said you had been given the right by the lord to pick One person to save, like he was taunting you.&nbsp; And For some reason, you picked me." she sighed softly "That was the first time I ever met you... and the first time I was happy... even though I wasted away and died despite your best efforts, I was so happy because someone wanted to save me." she said softly moving to hug him tightly "So don't say sorry... you, in the times we've met even though you didn't remember me, You still always tried to help me, the next time we met, it was a few hundred years later, I had already lived several times, it seemed pure coincidence we met again.&nbsp; I was accused of witchcraft They where going to burn me, one of my worst fear, dying is terrible but being burned alive is a long and painful process and one I fea most... it's like you saw how frightened I was, I don't know if you wanted to give me mercy, or if you couldn't stand the mobs mentality of the people, but before they could set the flame a Knife hit my chest Killing me before the flames where lit" she said softly grabbing his hand and bringing it to her chest where the blade had saved her from a lingering painful death.<br><br>"So don't say sorry... because you have saved me... so many times... and... and don't grieve, when I die this time, because there is nothing you can do... ok?" she looked up touching his cheek teas welling despite her she cursed rubbing her eyes "I'm being stupid crying.. I have lived this since the beginning of time, before man even existed on this planet&nbsp; I shouldn't cy..."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>27-12-2015, 08:49:26</strong>
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				"You have gone through quite a lot as I have. You share a similar curse, I thought I wouldn't find anyone else that would understand. I've roamed the earth long enough to believe I was the last of any immortals. I'm happy to see you again. It's comforting to hear that you're still here and we met again. Sadden to hear about the experiences you've had." He looked down at his hand feeling the stinging at last. He ignored it and pressed them into his pockets to let the blood pool there. "With this contract though, I am to help you end this curse, if I fail, I have never failed so..." he smiled.<br><br>"We should... rest up..." His eyes wandering to her beautiful form slightly hidden behind the curtain. He turned away his back towards her out of respect. "I promise you contract or not..." His mind wandered a bit, how long had he been with anything he cared about affectionately. It was fated for them to meet, he believe there was a reason the contract landed on her at last. His heart started to thump, blood surging through out his body wishing to hold her again. He could feel the blood drying and his palm crusting. He pulled his hand out to stare at the finger claws and slowly seeing it heal itself again.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>27-12-2015, 14:50:15</strong>
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				She shook her head glancing back at him as she slipped off the blouse and began t remouve her trousers&nbsp; her undergarments where plain her figure slender though more from how little she ate as opposed to any stringent work out or diet.&nbsp; "You shouldn't set such expectations of yourself.&nbsp; because when you fail you'll only grieve all that much harder, if you remeber me at all." she said honestly "The one who cursed me plays sick games, he may just allow you to remeber simply so your tormented, so you'd grow to hate my exsistence.&nbsp; to him a coup would be to have you turn and kill me, some one I care about murdering me ruthlessly, it's on death he's never managed aginst me because I have never really loved anyone." she said honestly blushing faintly "E-except..." she slammed the curtaine shut and dressed pulling on the short nightgwn suddenly wishing she had something less... sexy...<br><br>It was strange when she'd bought it it had been comfort, silk was soft and the lace, well with just a little bit she thought that was acceptable, granted it was see through but who would see it, those had been her thoughts but now standing there in the warm lamp light knowing if he turned he could easily see her figure silloeted aginst the curtaine she felt... shy.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>28-12-2015, 08:47:12</strong>
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				"We'll have to deal with him then. My contract never ends and so I'll pursue him till the end of time. Though you are the first of it's kind to receive the contract. But besides that," he walked over to wash his hands cleaning it up a bit. Removing the stained blood and seeing it drain down. He turned around to seeing the curtain closed. He walked over standing right behind the curtain seeing her silhouette smiling. He pulled the curtain aside a bit hoping she was dressed up. He risked it and it paid off.<br><br>"Wow," he whispered softly seeing her in the nightgown, he could see her legs and arms smiling. "You... look great, it has been a while too long. And regardless curse or not, I'll find you again." He felt as if those words were familiar to him. He stepped into the area grabbing her hands gently and pulling her close. "Have we... ever been together?"
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>29-12-2015, 15:33:54</strong>
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				She smiled closing her eyes a moment savoring the idea someone wanted to save her "Don't be silly" she said finally "How could you, even you, stand up against a god?" she asked with a sft smile "It's ok, you don't need to feel responsible, it would just hurt you more when I die... but... i-it makes me happy you feel that way... that you want to save me...." she said honestly<br><br>She gasped turning "Ah Y-you could knock... or... something." she said looking away shyly She blushed brighter as he pulled her close looking up at him a moment those words, she knew them More recent "You said that before... Maybe you have... I remember, it was the last time we saw each other, I remember so exactly 1884 it was December, and it was so beautiful, the snow was s thick, and candles burned ready for Christmas, you held my hands and said almost exactly that Neither of us knew just how sick I was at that point...." she said softly Before nodding <br><br>"A A few times... When I as Shanael I was originally given to you as a pleasure girl... your the one who asked me to be a servant instead.. -you got me out of such a horrible cycle." she said softly.&nbsp; "I remember though that first night... mm... it's stupid maybe." she blushed looking away "You.. you made me feel very special... things I never feel.. it was wonderful..." she said softly
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>31-12-2015, 04:30:16</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				"There is no God that I fear. At least not when I'm with you Shanael." He moved closer to her slipping into her area. He closed the curtains behind him leaving them both in the shadow. A world hidden inside her curtains, a world of their own. He was inches from her again, a rush of emotions flowing into him. He wanted to hold her, he reached out as if questioning she was really there. He felt the warm pulse of life, the warmth of her skin in his palm as he held her close.<br><br>He embraced her with his arms wrapped around. His palm caressing the back of her head, "I don't know what happens next, but the contract and your curse... it might be binding for life." He whispered into her ears. He hadn't felt the long embrace, at least an embrace that felt something more, something like life had risen from their touch.<br><br>"You look beautiful by the way," he whispered again into her ears. His head resting on her shoulders gently swaying as they stood there in the dark.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>31-12-2015, 12:36:35</strong>
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				She looked at him Shanael once more and it was as if all the time in between had never happened and for that briefe briefe instant they where alone togethe in a villa on what would be the meddetaranian.&nbsp; "I should say you should fear him, I should tell you how powerful he is considering after all this time his curse on me hasn't broken.. but looking at you now, I feel like your invincible... These are dangerouse things to think..." she said eakly helpless to her own longing.<br><br>"Maybe... you could do far worse then being stuck with me forever." she said teasingly a soft smile on her face looking up as he embraced her humo fading as he held her she moved hugging him back arms clinging for life "I've missed you so... the only times this curse has been bearable, was when you met me... even if you didn't remeber me, you where always so kind." she said softly. <br><br>His face rested nuzzling her nek as they swayed slowly&nbsp; "Do I?&nbsp; Thats no good I tried very hard to look plaine and nothing Liek Shanael so you wouldn't recognize me and be hurt again..." she said softly
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>03-01-2016, 10:27:35</strong>
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				He move to sit down on the edge of the bed guiding her to sit beside him. He held her hands gently in his lap as he leaned against her shoulder a bit. "It seems that doesn't help so much as we cross paths over and over again. Why hold back now that we're bound together. It's something you can remove," he waved his hands across her palm, the light glow of red shining in the sacred texts and symbols of the contract. He waved it away once more and rubbed her wrists gently.<br><br>"With our timelines, we continue to cross path. You're the only other person I know that remotely shares a similar fate to myself. It feels like the world has lost touch with the earth and the other realm." He leaned back tempted to lay in her bed. "I think we should catch some rest then, it is getting late and you have work? A lot has happen today and I'm sure you are exhausted." He smiled, a half smile, as he sat up straight again debating if he should insist or preparing to move to the couch.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>03-01-2016, 14:28:59</strong>
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				She nodded Lifting a hand "If that's what you'd like, I will, it's just hair dye, I'll grow it out and let the blond through again." she said warmly shifting to crawl across the bed and snuggle down befre patting the space beside her "Will you stay?... Just hold me?&nbsp; I'd like to just sleep in your arms." she admitted sheepishly.&nbsp; it was so hard to admit thse feminine things, these things she worked to smother then laughed <br><br>"Oh yes... it'll be such a fuss tomarrow, it seems one of the interns compleatly lost a whole file, she just, put it down somewhere and poof... I swea it's like they just don't train anyone any more..."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>05-01-2016, 14:01:35</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				He paused after hearing her words still feeling at odd ends, he knew the rush of emotions he was feeling and couldn't quite resist it. He sat back down wrapping his arms around her and pulling her into the nook of his arms. His head was leaning against hers and he could smell the gentle fragrance. He held her tighter, closer to her as if she would disappear the next second. "And it won't be the last night you'll be in my arms."<br><br>He smiled and kissed the top of her head feeling a much gentler calm throughout his body, soul even if he had one. He closed his eyes enjoying the moment letting it linger as long as possible. The setting of the sun and the shroud of the curtains made it feel even smaller holding only them two in existence. "I'll lay here with you tonight."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>07-01-2016, 18:02:26</strong>
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				((I thought I replied to this i appologize 0o))<br><br>She smiled up at him as he moved pulling her close as they settled "No it won't be." she said it was so odd, how confident he was he could end her curse.&nbsp; she sighed closing her eyes, she didn't mind letting him believe it, She half believed it herself.&nbsp; his confidence was infectious in a way and she liked it, she'd never had much reason to be confident before.<br><br>He relaxed as he held her, the sky slowly growing darker,&nbsp; while the storm had stopped the clouds lingered but now the room was silen't well apart from the sound of shuffling downstairs in the apartment below hers.&nbsp; "Thank you" she murmured softly drifting to sleep with a soft smile.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>07-01-2016, 21:21:13</strong>
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				He kicked off his shoes leaving it on the floor beside the bed. He slowly leaned back pulling her closely to him as he held her tightly against his chest and curled up together in bed. He returned her the favor of comforting her when she did the same for him time and time again. His lips pressed against the soft silks of her hair and breathing slowly taking in every fragrance again. His hands reaching out to grab her palm and pressing their hands into her chest for comfort.<br><br>He didn't fall asleep, he lay there silently watching her closely, his ears perked listening to her breathe. Every passing breath felt like an eternity, counting out the seconds between each one. He only found himself holding her closer to his chest. His heart beat thumping gently through into her back, hoping to connect and sync with her. The room was quiet and the light outside had faded away into black with a few sprinkle of stars outside. He couldn't see it with the curtains shrouding them in the comfort of their own body and warmth.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>09-01-2016, 22:13:56</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				She slept for a while before her breathing hitched and she tensed, shifting in his arms she made a sound like a whimper and pushed weakly aginst him 'N-no..." she mumbled breath growing rapid her heat rate accelorating fingers curling then flexing to push whimpering "Please stop n stop... AH!..." she yelped shivering and thrashing, what ever she was seeing was horrifying her she gasped sharply clawing at her throat "Breath can't breath no no.... someone Gnn.."&nbsp; she clawed harder nails scratching her skin fearfully.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>28-06-2016, 20:17:28</strong>
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				Micheal could feel every movement of her quivering. The uneasiness started to spread holding root within his own body. Their connection was growing stronger as the contract continued to sync the two. He felt the emotions swirl and it was hard for him to filter out. He felt his heart rise a bit seeing her move nervously.<br><br>He watch her starting to claw at her neck and seeing the red lines starting to break through her skin. He sat up and sat on her legs pinning her arms by the wrists holding them beside her head. He tried to wake her whispering her name, "Shanael... Shanael... wake up..." he continued to console her as much as he could, "I'm here... do not be afraid, I'm here for you."
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>30-06-2016, 17:04:48</strong>
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				She jerked in his arms flailing and thrashing gasping and coughing as if struggling to breath until it faded slowly her begging fading to whimpers until her eyes shot open teas welling "I dont want to die!" she shouted shaking her eyes clearing slowly as she woke sniffing weakly as he breath slowly leveled out staring up at him, slowly recognition set in "M-Micheal...."&nbsp; she mumbled softly closing her eyes tightly "J-just a minuet I-'ll be ok... j-just a ... I need to breath for a minuet&nbsp; to remember I can..." she aid weakly. coughing out weak sobs, such a terrifying dream, and not the first.<br><br>"They keep killing me..." she managed finally.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>lonlyazn</strong> on <strong>02-07-2016, 23:54:59</strong>
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				He continued to grip onto her wrists, but loosened his fingers now moving into her palm lacing them together. He eased up from sitting on her legs and sat there quietly letting a few minutes go by through the silence and her breathing. "They won't be killing you anymore. And I bet my life on it, fortunately, I won't ever die so there is that." He tried to joked to ease the tension. "It's all in the past, it's just us now." he didn't move from where he was. He still felt uneasy remembering things, but the memories were still distant and the emotions weak from so long ago. He felt awkward, but he needed to make sure she was truly calm before letting her go.<br><br>"Do... Do you need me to get off?" he stared calmly into her eyes trying to burn her image of her past and her now, but it felt like two different people.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: What Once Was (Roziel, LonlyAzn)</strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>MissRoziel</strong> on <strong>03-07-2016, 00:20:10</strong>
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				She offered a watery smile tears slipping quietly down the sides of her face where she lay staining her pillow as she looked up at him. "Is it?&nbsp; I-I can't ever be sue.&nbsp; how many times have I die now?&nbsp; I've lost count..." she said weakly as he started to move away she lunged up hugging him tightly terrified "No! no... no just... just stay... hold me just for a bit please i... I just..." she shivered snuggling into him "It's hanging... I hate it. it's so long... people jeering at you as the breath leaves your body and your stretching hopelessly trying to find something to stand on, it hurts because all your weight is on your neck... you feel it all, our body fighting and losing, and dying..."&nbsp; She shivered crying softly again.<br><br>"No other death I've ever experienced compares to it... I'm so afraid of it..."
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