Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office & Quarters]
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				Title: <strong>Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Haibane</strong> on <strong>22-11-2008, 13:17:15</strong>
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				(http://i441.photobucket.com/albums/qq131/renmei_2008/19_C071_b_big.jpg) <br><br><strong>Gendo's Office</strong> (White gloves and stern looks only please)
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				Post by: <strong>Haibane</strong> on <strong>22-11-2008, 20:21:15</strong>
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				RITSUKO &amp; GENDO<br><br>Ikari Gendo lifted his eyes from the file in front of him and regarded Dr. Akagi. His elbows rested on the desk. His fingers were laced together and his lower lip touched his joined thumbs. For a few seconds he said nothing, then,<br><br><strong>"How reliable is the data?"</strong><br><br><strong>"At the moment, not very. Which is why I need to gather more. But the indications are solid. The occurrences so far all point to that."</strong><br><br><strong>"Example?"</strong><br><br>The blonde scientist flipped a page over on her clipboard then glancing at it, stuck her hand back in the pocket of her lab coat.<br><br><strong>"Three weeks ago Asuka tested a full half point increase. I checked her monthly cycle, it wasn't that. I checked at the school, and nothing significant had happened there. I spoke with Misato and she couldn't offer an explanation. Then I talked with Kaji and he said that he and Asuka had been into Tokyo-2 that morning. Shopping and lunch. She came in for her synchronization rate test straight after."</strong><br><br><strong>"You are suggesting a shopping trip with Kaji Ryoji affects Asuka's synch rate?"</strong> There was a hint of disdain in Gendo's tone.<br><br><strong>"Not shopping, no. Shinji tested up zero decimal seven three one one, twelve days ago. Once again biometric diagnostics showed no physiological reasons. I talked with his teachers and then Misato and she laughed and seemed embarrassed but apparently he'd walked in on her showering that morning."</strong><br><br><strong>"Fascinating."</strong> The seated man's voice was dry, scornful.<br><br><strong>"Last week, Shinji was another zero decimal four eight up."</strong><br><br><strong>"Don't tell me, he was seen ogling Asuka."</strong><br><br><strong>"No. But Misato told me that evening, that his bedding was… dirty that morning. Before he left for the testing lab."</strong><br><br>Gendo closed his eyes, <strong>"Spare me the details, please."</strong><br><br><strong>"The issue is that in each incident, heightened libido has led to a corresponding rise in synch rate. I would like to collect more data and… conduct tests."</strong><br><br>(http://www.abcb.com/eva/eva_t004.jpg)<br><br><strong>"You want to give my son a supply of dirty magazines then synch test him after he's masturbated?"</strong> Gendo shifted position a little, his distaste obvious even from behind the bright reflections on his glasses. <br><br><strong>"No, sir. Nothing so crude. The thing is, all the pilots are virgins. They are all healthy, fit teenagers. Their sexuality is normal. They are all dealing with the hormonal changes in their bodies. I can see clear but small links between sexual stimuli and synch rate. If further testing shows that we can categorically raise pilot synch rate <em>when we need to</em>, for example when an Angel attack is first detected…"</strong><br><br><strong>"You want them to engage in <em>sex</em> instead of piloting EVA?"</strong><br><br>Ritsuko sighed and ran a hand through her hair. She lit a cigarette and drew on it hard, quickly blowing out between pursed lips a thin streamer of smoke.<br><br><strong>"If you would just authorize a programme of data collection. I will call in Kaji and Katsuragi and discuss the mechanics with them."</strong><br><br>Gendo snorted at the word 'mechanics'. <strong>"As long as this does not get to the point of a distraction, Doctor Akagi. I need those pilots ready at immediate notice in the case of another attack. Not running around half dressed pulling on clothes and wiping off… substances."</strong><br><br><strong>"Thank you, Sir. I'll ensure that does not happen. I've drafted a project authorization form, secured a budget and obtained a work code."</strong><br><br><em>Budget?</em> thought Ikari Gendo as he signed the flimsies, <em>are you going to - buy equipment?</em><br><br><strong>"What about Ayanami?"</strong> the Commander asked.<br><br><strong>"Her rates are stable. I've not collected any data on her."</strong> <em>Which is hardly surprising</em>, Ritsuko thought.<br><br>Gendo remained impassive, <em>hardly surprising</em>, he thought.<br><br>Ten minutes later Risuko Akagi sat down in her office and picked up the phone.<br><br><strong>"Kaji. Good morning. Something just came up. A new project. The Commander wants you in charge. Yes, a Science Department project. Yes. Well, I won't talk over the phone. No, I need to speak face to face. Can you come to my office? At two? Good."</strong><br><br>The doctor put the phone down then dialed Major Katsuragi's number.<br><br>...to Ritsuko's office... (http://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=24332.msg954578#msg954578)
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>22-11-2008, 22:21:12</strong>
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				COMMANDER GENDO IKARI<br><br><br>I'm not used to being liked.&nbsp; Being hated, on the other hand, is quite familiar.&nbsp; I suppose I should have expected such behavior from Ritsuko, given her background.&nbsp; Given who she was descended from.&nbsp; What had she learned?&nbsp; Was all of this just a sarcastic way of getting revenge on me?&nbsp; <br><br>I looked down at the test data.&nbsp; Even as anger swelled in me, I couldn't deny what I was seeing, that her conclusions were in fact accurate.&nbsp; Perhaps she'd faked the data?&nbsp; No, it wasn't something she could do on her own, but perhaps with Kaji's help...&nbsp; Maybe it was the wise men finally turning against me, choosing to humiliate me as they murdered the project.&nbsp; But what else did they have?&nbsp; Could I in good conscience resist their judgement?&nbsp; <br><br>The files were already on the internal network, even people sufficiently high up in the UN could tell what Ritsuko was thinking.&nbsp; Bitch.&nbsp; I raised a gloved hand and cautiously picked up the phone, rage quaking invisibly within me.&nbsp; The "scientist" had suggested horrible things, had burned a pit in my heart.&nbsp; Perhaps the entire "plan" was just a commentary on my relationship with Rei, if not by Ritsuko, although I wouldn't put it past her, then perhaps by greater forces.&nbsp; Yet, I couldn't bear the insult alone.&nbsp; My fingers dialed the phone, and I waited as it rang, my heart beating quickly but invisibly in my chest.&nbsp; <strong>"Rei?&nbsp; Do you mind coming down to my office?</strong>&nbsp; I asked simply, not knowing when I would be able to discuss recent events with her.&nbsp; <br><br>I slouched in my seat.&nbsp; This was all starting to become quite familiar indeed...
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>22-11-2008, 23:04:12</strong>
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				I sat alone in one of the small lounges that peppered the complex,&nbsp; a worn and weathered book rested in my hands.&nbsp; Across the spine of the leather clad tome, were the words <em>Thus Spoke Zarathustra</em> and <em>Friedrich Nietzche</em>.&nbsp; My crimson orbs scanned slowly over the pages,&nbsp; absorbing the both the tale and the thinly veiled hints of knowledge that it was offering me.&nbsp; Normally I would not see the point behind such whimsy,&nbsp; but I had seen the book was in The Commander’s collection.&nbsp; It would perhaps allow me to learn a little more about the man I so admired.<br><br>My mind began to wander as I thought about him yet,&nbsp; I was not given much of a chance to delve into the depths of my subconscious, as I heard his voice.&nbsp; The corners of my lips twitched ever so slightly into a smile.&nbsp; I could feel the little pitter-pat of my racing heart. <strong> “Yes Commander…”</strong>&nbsp; I said, my tone did not betray the emotions that rushed through me.&nbsp; I forced myself to take a deep breath calming myself.&nbsp; Then I stood, and gently shut the book taking it in the crook of my arm.<br><br>For a moment I allowed my eyes to scan downward over my body, making sure that my school uniform was presentable.&nbsp; I did my best to straighten out the few tiny wrinkles that had formed as I read.&nbsp; When I was sure I was looked as passable as I could be,&nbsp; I left the room and made my way towards The Commander’s office.<br><br>As I walked I seen many people, they all had names yet I did not know them.&nbsp; I was sure I had seen them all before,&nbsp; but I did not know who they were. Would it be worth it though, to learn their stories?&nbsp; They were all just little cogs in the machine of NERV just as I was,&nbsp; yet most of them didn’t seem to realize just how they were being used.&nbsp; They were all so much different then Him.&nbsp; Idle thoughts, I told myself, it was not time for idle thoughts the commander was calling,&nbsp; I was needed.<br><br>When I finally reached the door.&nbsp; I did not knock,&nbsp; or announce myself via the intercom.&nbsp; I had been called,&nbsp; he knew I was coming such formalities would simply delay the engagement.&nbsp; I walk into room, silent,&nbsp; wordless and took my place five steps away from his desk directly in the center of his field of vision.&nbsp; <strong>“I am here Commander.”</strong>
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 00:12:53</strong>
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				My heart beat faster as the door to the office opened up, and I smiled as Rei came in.&nbsp; My Rei.&nbsp; <strong>"You're as beautiful as ever."</strong>&nbsp; I told her, my gloved hands sitting on the table.&nbsp; Rei had always had a calming effect on me.&nbsp; I couldn't help but feel happy when she was around.&nbsp; My eyes were drawn towards the book she held, and I smiled again.&nbsp; <strong>"That book is one of my favorites."</strong>&nbsp; I said.&nbsp; It was somewhat of a lie.&nbsp; It was actually one of Yui's favorites, but by extension, it was my favorite.&nbsp; I leaned back, simply enjoying Rei's company.&nbsp; Sometimes we would sit like this for an hour on end, simply giving each other attention.&nbsp; I was never certain if she enjoyed it the way I did.<br><br><strong>"I'd like you to accompany me back to my quarters for dinner." </strong>&nbsp; I said, quite casually.&nbsp; It wasn't unusual for us to engage in such behavior, even if it did make Ritsuko look strangely at me, suggest the things she had suggested.&nbsp; I still needed Rei, and perhaps she needed me.&nbsp; 
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				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 00:44:04</strong>
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				I remained at attention,&nbsp; allowing the Commander to look me over.&nbsp; My eyes locked with his,&nbsp; or at least with the reflective lenses of his glasses.&nbsp; I clasped my hands in front of me,&nbsp; as I wait for him to speak to me.&nbsp; <br><br>Beautiful?&nbsp; It was a word I had heard rarely from The Commander’s lips.&nbsp; It almost suggested that something was wrong,&nbsp; he must have been wool gathering…&nbsp; getting emotional about the past.&nbsp; Did he need comfort?&nbsp; I couldn’t help but allow the faintest hint of a smile to spread across my&nbsp; lips.&nbsp; Do I make him comfortable?&nbsp; I wondered.&nbsp; <strong>"Thank you."</strong>&nbsp; I managed to finally say.<br><br><strong>“Is it?” </strong> I said coolly, even as my heart began to beat a little faster then before.&nbsp; Those words were all that I required to hear.&nbsp; I would scour its pages for his secrets as soon as I had an opportunity.&nbsp; “<strong>I have found it pleasant.”&nbsp; </strong>I said, remembering that he was talking to me.<br><br>I took a slow step forward as he invited me to his quarters.&nbsp; <strong>“I would enjoy that Commander.”&nbsp; </strong>
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 01:28:34</strong>
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				I nodded and slowly walked out of the office, as Rei followed me at a distance of five paces.&nbsp; It looked less scandalous that way, or at least that's what Rei had thought when she was younger.&nbsp; It was strange, what kind of young woman she had become.&nbsp; Of course, she hadn't exactly had a normal childhood.&nbsp; <br><br>My apartment was sparse and immaculate, much like my office.&nbsp; It was well appointed, with state of the art appliances and fancy tables and furniture, bearing many of the same SEELE inscriptions that the ceiling of my office did.&nbsp; On my coffee table sat a half finished game of shogi, that I hadn't yet put away.&nbsp; <strong>"What would you like to eat?"</strong>&nbsp; I asked Rei, knowing on a certain level that the question was lost on her.&nbsp; <strong>"I'd like Salmon and rice."</strong>&nbsp; I told her, saving her the trouble of telling me she was happy with whatever I liked.&nbsp; <br><br>My eyes were drawn to my copy of <em>Also sprach Zarathustra</em>, wondering why she'd selected that book, of all of the books on my bookshelf.&nbsp; It would be little use asking her, of course.&nbsp; Not until she'd finished it.&nbsp; I took a deep breath, away from prying eyes, and wrapped my arm around Rei, squeezing her lightly in a hug.&nbsp; <br><br>She was the only person I could trust to actually mean such a gesture towards.
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				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 02:10:31</strong>
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				I followed behind The Commander as I always did,&nbsp; eyes never once moving from his back.&nbsp; There was no lust in my gaze but there was admiration, devotion.&nbsp; To some it may have seemed muted but,&nbsp; to me it was an emotional downpour,&nbsp; it was actually a bit overwhelming.<br><br>I looked about the room,&nbsp; I may have seen it more then any other member of the staff except perhaps the Doctor who seemed to have some sort of relationship with the commander.&nbsp; I didn’t know its dynamics nor did I care,&nbsp; he did not save her,&nbsp; he did not look at her like he looked at me.&nbsp; <br><br>Salmon?&nbsp; I feel not quite right about eating the flesh of a once living being,&nbsp; I feel a slight twinge in my stomach, yet… it is what The Commander wants and he would never make the wrong choice.&nbsp; I yielded to him,&nbsp; but I made sure that my demeanor did not waiver.&nbsp; <strong>“That sounds delicious.”</strong>&nbsp; <br><br>The sudden hug left me a little startled,&nbsp; but it was enjoyable.&nbsp; I wrapped my arms around him,&nbsp; resting my head on his chest.&nbsp; It was a confused gesture,&nbsp; the two aspects within her seemingly at odds.&nbsp; It was an affectionate hug, caught somewhere between the a daughter and a wife.&nbsp; I smelled and felt to him, the same as the long lost companion that I clearly resembled.&nbsp; <br>
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 02:27:42</strong>
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				I pulled away and set to work making the meal, pulling the salmon out of the refrigerator.&nbsp; <strong>"Go ahead and take a look at the Shogi game, if you like."</strong>&nbsp; I said, pulling off my gloves to reveal the scars on my hands.&nbsp; The scars I'd gotten because of how much I cared about Rei.&nbsp; I can't bear to see her die again, no matter what.&nbsp; Even if I do have to engage in Ritsuko's insane plan.&nbsp; She would go along with it, of course.&nbsp; That's what she did.&nbsp; But I wasn't certain if I could go along with it.<br><br>It didn't bother me that my son was involved in such a perverted project.&nbsp; But Rei... she was different.&nbsp; My thoughts returned to the game, which I'd left uncompleted with a representative from SEELE.&nbsp; Not that Rei would have any trouble picking up on my opponent's strategy.&nbsp; It was what made her so perfect for the dummy plug project.&nbsp; I soon had the meal cooking, and I walked to the sitting room, where Rei was examining the game.&nbsp; <strong>"Is it worth finishing?" </strong>&nbsp; I asked her, realizing that I'd come to her with my hands uncovered.&nbsp; Not that she'd react much.
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				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 05:15:20</strong>
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				I gazed down at the board for a moment as The Commander disappeared into the kitchen.&nbsp; I took a seat on the side opposite to the one The Commander favored.&nbsp; I moved to my knees sliding down to rest my rump on my feet.&nbsp; My fingers moved over the pieces,&nbsp; imagining the moves that had been made to further the game to this particular location.&nbsp; The other player was aggressive,&nbsp; a tactic that wasn’t very affective against someone who thought as far ahead as The Commander.&nbsp; Still, I had recently seen what berserk fury could accomplish.&nbsp; I thought it may be salvageable.<br><br><strong>“I believe you will win,&nbsp; but that does not negate the purpose of the activity correct?”</strong>&nbsp; I said as I looked up at my savior’s hands.&nbsp; I feel my own hand’s shook slightly as I allowed my red eyes to wander over them.&nbsp; He had marred himself for me,&nbsp; diminished his perfection…&nbsp; why?&nbsp; I wondered this briefly before I pushed the thoughts to the back of my head once again.&nbsp; <strong>“Do you wish to continue?”</strong>
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 06:09:48</strong>
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				I sat down next to the table, nodding at Rei.&nbsp; "The table position is clear enough, but I think there's some greater plan at work here."&nbsp; I told her, looking into those eyes of hers.&nbsp; They were the same eyes Yui had, just red instead of green.&nbsp; I would never recreate my own wife.&nbsp; But...&nbsp; I'm weak, I needed someone to talk to, someone to trust.&nbsp; Someone to use.<br><br>Not that using people was unfamiliar to me.&nbsp; "If I'm going to win, then there's no point in playing."&nbsp; I said simply, looking into her beautiful face.&nbsp; "If, however, there is a possibility of victory, then the experience may be quite valuable.&nbsp; Please, make your move."&nbsp; I said, walking to the kitchen as Rei began to concentrate on the board.&nbsp; I walked back into the living room carrying two plates of fish and rice, and laid them to one side of the Shogi board.&nbsp; "What would you like to drink?"&nbsp; I asked her, noting from the board position that she was still thinking.&nbsp; It was as comfortable as it could possibly be, given what I would have to discuss with her.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 06:44:53</strong>
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				As the Commander talked,&nbsp; I never allowed my gaze to shift from the board.&nbsp; Was his victory assured?&nbsp; I questioned it,&nbsp; was I allowing my own high thoughts of him to get the better of me,&nbsp; to flavor my perspective of the match?&nbsp; I didn’t even seem to notice as he left the room, until he returned bringing the plates of food, the smell alone was enough to break my concentration.&nbsp; I looked upward as the commander asked his question.<br><br>“Water, thank you.” I said.&nbsp; I had brought my cheek to rest against the palm of my hand,&nbsp; my mind flashed with the possibilities,&nbsp; and the possibilities of my opponent’s action.&nbsp; When he returned to the kitchen,&nbsp; I allowed myself to make my next move moving into position.&nbsp; I looked up when the commander returned,&nbsp; and waited,&nbsp; I was wondering why he brought me to his quarters.
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 07:10:28</strong>
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				I nodded to Rei and poured her a cup of water, getting myself a glass of milk.&nbsp; I came back in, noticing she'd already made her move, and pondered it as I set down the drinks.&nbsp; She'd made exactly the move I expected her to, and it made me happy.&nbsp; I made my next move less than a minute later, after checking a few factors.&nbsp; I ate in silence, enjoying Rei's company.&nbsp; She certainly wasn't Yui, but she helped me understand what Yui would think.&nbsp; <br><br>I pondered whether I should have assigned Rei to pilot the Evangelion.&nbsp; Shinji had pulled his weight, of course, after some initial glitches, but it didn't seem right that the instrumentality would be completed by someone who hated me so much.&nbsp; <strong>"Ritsuko started up a new EVA pilot training program today." </strong>&nbsp; I said cautiously, knowing that Rei would sense something wrong, even if she didn't want to say it.&nbsp; <strong>"She intends to increase the synch ratios of the pilots by having them experiment with sexuality."</strong>&nbsp; I said, my offense evident in my voice.&nbsp; Like mother, like daughter.&nbsp; I wondered if Ritsuko would end up throwing herself into the dummy plug core.&nbsp; Not that it mattered.&nbsp; I've already restricted access to majors and above.&nbsp; 
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 07:38:03</strong>
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				I ate slowly, taking dainty little bites.&nbsp; I had done my best to ignore the taste of the fish.&nbsp; I could still taste a faint hint of blood, and the texture wasn’t as pleasant as fruits, vegetables, and grains. If anyone else had cooked the meal, I would have refused outright but this was my Commander, my Savior.&nbsp; <br><br>I watched his move,&nbsp; and this time I made my move with a bit less deliberation allowing my mind to simply slip into the pattern, that the last player had developed.&nbsp; I looked upward at him,&nbsp; wondering for a moment how he saw me.<br><br>I listened to The Commander,&nbsp; I was not shocked or disturbed by his words I believe most would call it apathetic.&nbsp; My mind had never wandered often to sexuality,&nbsp; I had learned the mechanics and purpose behind it in health classes, and quickly filed it under useless data.&nbsp; <strong>“I see…”</strong>&nbsp; I said looking to the Commander.&nbsp; <strong>“Has her theory shown promise?</strong>”
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 08:14:37</strong>
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				Her behavior at the board was fascinating; it was just as if she was the man from SEELE.&nbsp; &nbsp;I carefully selected my next move, starting to find the game quite relaxing, even if the conversation wasn't.&nbsp; His aggressive tactics often forced my hand, yet in the long term, I was winning the war of attrition.&nbsp; While my opponent had made sacrifices to get ahead, I had only lost a single pawn, which I replaced from my opponent's captured pieces.<br><br>Still, my opponent had acquired a formidable force of promoted pieces, all capable of striking me.&nbsp; What sacrifices could I make?&nbsp; There was a grand plan, of course, but my opponent had his plan as well.&nbsp; I drank the last of my milk and answered Rei's question.&nbsp; <strong>"Her data does seem to support her theory, but I believe it all to be statistical noise." </strong>&nbsp; I said frankly, dropping a captured enemy piece back on the board.&nbsp; <strong>"Her theory in effect equates sex with a controlled instrumentality."</strong>&nbsp; I said, the disdain in my voice quite obvious.&nbsp; <br><br>I had discussed controlled instrumentality with Rei many times, and constantly made it&nbsp; clear how much I hated it.&nbsp; And yet, as suspicious as it was, I did not think that Ritsuko was working with SEELE.&nbsp; <strong>"You will have to participate."</strong>&nbsp; I said, unable to conceal the pain in my voice.&nbsp; <strong>"...But not with me."</strong>&nbsp; I concluded, carefully scrutinizing her reaction.
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				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 09:04:01</strong>
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				I could tell that he would be victorious,&nbsp; now,&nbsp; I was losing pieces quickly and his tactics were refined and controlled,&nbsp; so unlike the brute force attack that I was relying on.&nbsp; I was leaving myself to open,&nbsp; I had known it, yet I found myself unable to change styles as if the pattern had become programmed into my mind.&nbsp; Why could I not adapt,&nbsp; was I missing something?&nbsp; Something essential, that the commander possessed?&nbsp; <br><br>I allowed my mind to wander for a time,&nbsp; pondering the experiment I was about to become a test subject in. Would it be necessary for me to actually focus my thoughts on the coupling?&nbsp; Or would I be able to use the time to ponder something more essential like battle tactics.&nbsp; Unlikely,&nbsp; if what The Commander was suggesting was correct…&nbsp; I would be required to focus directly on dissembling myself,&nbsp; allowing the I to slip into the We.<br><br><strong>“If that is your orders Commander then I will do what is required.” </strong>I looked back to the board,&nbsp; the course of action was decided.&nbsp; “That is for the Best.”&nbsp; I had heard the rumors that the other cogs whispered,&nbsp; the Commander and I?&nbsp; It partially seemed correct, a little sliver in my subconscious actually seemed to want to mingle with The Commander…&nbsp; but I was his adopted daughter, and those rumors if they became true could be used to destroy the greatest man I’ve ever encountered.&nbsp; <br><br><strong>“Whom will it be then?”</strong>
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				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 09:34:57</strong>
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				I sighed and looked at the board.&nbsp; Rei had faithfully replicated the strategy of the SEELE man, but there was still something I felt was missing, something only he could possibly have seen.&nbsp; It was disappointing, but it was also time with Rei, even if it had gained me nothing.&nbsp; <strong>"You make me proud, Rei Ayaname."</strong>&nbsp; I said simply, moving my bishop into position.&nbsp; <strong>"Checkmate."</strong>&nbsp; I told her, picking up her plate.&nbsp; She had taken care to eat all of the fish.&nbsp; She usually seemed to do that when we ate meat.&nbsp; I made a mental note to ask her about it some time.<br><br>I took the dishes to the kitchen and put my gloves back on before returning to discuss the matter of who she would be pairing with.&nbsp; <strong>"Ritsuko will request that you engage in intercourse with both of the other children, perhaps at the same time." </strong>&nbsp; I said, feeling dirty just for discussing it.&nbsp; <strong>"I suggest you focus your efforts on Asuka.&nbsp; She shows the most promise."</strong>&nbsp; I lied, knowing that I couldn't tell the truth, not even to Rei.&nbsp; Evangelion was just a bluff, my son a dupe.&nbsp; Rei and terminal dogma represented the whole of the human instrumentality project.<br><br>Still, it didn't hurt to have a backup plan around.&nbsp; So long as it was kept in such bad condition it could never be used.&nbsp; <br><br><strong>"Don't worry about gaining anything out of the project."</strong>&nbsp; I said to her, the glare from my glasses hiding my eyes.&nbsp; <strong>"I've got my own plans to increase your synch ratio."</strong>&nbsp; I said simply, folding my hands underneath my chin.&nbsp; 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 10:12:52</strong>
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				<strong>Thank you Sir.” </strong> I said once more the little smile spreading across my lips.&nbsp; It quickly faded away,&nbsp; but,&nbsp; my heart was fluttering thanks to the Commander’s approval. I was a bit disappointed at my loss,&nbsp; though,&nbsp; I wonder how he would have reacted if I had managed to actually achieve victory over him.&nbsp; I ceremoniously knocked my king over with a gentle clack.&nbsp; <strong>“Well played.”&nbsp; </strong><br><br><strong>“I see…” </strong> I said.&nbsp; <strong><strong>“I will do as you ask.” </strong></strong> If that was what The Commander asked of me,&nbsp; I would focus on the Second Child.&nbsp; I had heard there was a taboo around homosexuality.&nbsp; &nbsp;I found myself&nbsp; unbothered by it,&nbsp; though I briefly attempted to imagine her nude form.&nbsp; It was pleasant to picture,&nbsp; artistic perhaps,&nbsp; yet she felt no increase in body temperature or any other sign of arousal.&nbsp; So,&nbsp; I stopped my own thought experiment and returned to focusing my attention on the commander.<br><br><strong>“As you wish.” </strong> I said,&nbsp; I did not question that matter.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 11:04:54</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I stood up and placed a hand on Rei's shoulder.&nbsp; <strong>"You were born with a fallow womb, stripped of the ability to create, so that you could participate in the instrumentality of man." </strong>&nbsp; I told her, withdrawing my hand.&nbsp; In reality, she was infertile because Ritsuko considered sex a distraction.&nbsp; Or at least she had, once.&nbsp; That poor girl had almost no sex drive, and she passed the flaw on to Rei.&nbsp; <strong>"Do not fear having any seed planted within you." </strong>&nbsp; I said, knowing that she could work out the part about having a poisonous body that ruined everything that entered it for herself.<br><br>An idle thought occurred to me, and my blood chilled in my veins.&nbsp; If Ritsuko could remove Rei's sex drive, could she also increase it?&nbsp; The idea made me angry.&nbsp; Would it damage her usefulness?&nbsp; Was Ritsuko already applying such modifications to the next batch of clones?&nbsp; <strong>"If this project requires you to undergo permanent changes, modifications to the way you feel and act, would you accept such a thing?"</strong>&nbsp; I asked, my voice subtly suggesting that I disapproved.&nbsp; 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>23-11-2008, 19:10:15</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I suppose it should have hurt when he informed me I was barren,&nbsp; unable to bring new life into the world.&nbsp; There was a subtle twinge of regret,&nbsp; but,&nbsp; it was just another attribute of normal humanity that was denied to me.&nbsp; I simply would never think about it again,&nbsp; it would be useless for me to worry about something that was already set in stone. <br><br>The commander asked me his question,&nbsp; I heard the subtle disapproval in his voice.&nbsp; Yet, there was always a difference between orders and personal opinion.&nbsp; I looked at him for a long while I drew in a deep breath feeling it fill my chest, and relax me ever so slightly.&nbsp; “<strong>The choice is up to you Sir,&nbsp; my opinions are of little consequence.” </strong> I looked down at the empty board and almost compulsively I began to set it up again. <br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 02:58:57</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I watched her set the tiles back up, feeling strangely comforted by her behavior.&nbsp; <strong>"Do you sometimes feel... incomplete?"</strong>&nbsp; I asked her in a low voice, setting the shogi tiles back up on my own side.&nbsp; I folded my hands under my chin and began to think about her, about what she could possibly care about.&nbsp; The girl had no ego, that much was certain.&nbsp; It was what made me so comfortable around her.<br><br>I'm pathetic, but I also deserve everything.&nbsp; She didn't love me.&nbsp; Nobody could.&nbsp; Even as my own despair and loneliness wrapped around me, I sat passively, looking in her general direction.&nbsp; <strong>"You were created for the purpose of instrumentality, to be the key that opens the way to humanity's future." </strong>&nbsp; I told her, finishing up my setup of the shogi board.&nbsp; <strong>"The day will come soon when you will be completed."</strong>&nbsp; I whispered to her, feeling shocked that I was actually speaking sincerely for once.&nbsp; <br><br>The game was set up, and I looked into Rei's eyes, feeling a terrible sort of sympathy.&nbsp; Asuka would be leaving school now, and Rei should go to meet her, to start the implementation of Ritsuko's plan.&nbsp; Yet, the entire idea of throwing Rei out to be Askua's sex toy revolted me.&nbsp; <strong>"Asuka will be leaving school right now."</strong>&nbsp; I commented, looking down at the shogi board.&nbsp; <strong>"Would you like to play another game?"</strong>&nbsp; I asked her, hoping that she would ignore the hint.&nbsp; 
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 04:33:05</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I listened to The Commander’s question,&nbsp; &nbsp;I considered it for a moment.&nbsp; It was something I would ponder on occasion,&nbsp; yet,&nbsp; I did not feel as if a part of myself had been missing.&nbsp; <strong>“I am not sure to be truthful Commander,&nbsp; if something was missing would I know?”</strong>&nbsp; I said truthfully.&nbsp; <br>&nbsp;<br>The commanders words chilled me to the bone,&nbsp; I was such an important piece of equipment in instrumentality project.&nbsp; In some ways,&nbsp; it actually made me nervous.&nbsp; Yet,&nbsp; The Commander was putting his faith in me.&nbsp; I would complete what I was created for,&nbsp; If not I was nothing more then a broken machine without purpose.&nbsp; <strong>“I know Sir.” </strong> Was all I could manage to say.<br><br>I looked down at the board.&nbsp; <strong>“I am not sure the Second Child will be compliant,&nbsp; she seems to have negative emotions towards both The Third Child and I.”</strong>&nbsp; Though,&nbsp; the Commander’s words seemed like a subtle clue.&nbsp; He was a busy man,&nbsp; perhaps he needed his time alone, and the offering of the game was merely a polite gesture towards me. <strong> “Perhaps I should return home…I have heard it is possible to stimulate oneself I may experiment.” </strong> I said without feeling.&nbsp; <strong>“Unless you want me to begin focusing on the second child immediately.”<br></strong>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 05:18:08</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I couldn't help but smile at Rei's innocence.&nbsp; It was disturbing, perhaps, how little curiosity she had.&nbsp; But she also preserved the memory of Yui, kept her soul alive.&nbsp; "If you feel you are complete, then nothing is missing."&nbsp; I told her, placing my hand on her head and rubbing her hair.&nbsp; It was somewhat rough, a consequence of the cheap shampoos she mechanically placed into her hair during the times in which she showered.&nbsp; I'd watched the surveillance feed several times, seeking to understand how she behaved when she had privacy.&nbsp; But she wasn't any different.&nbsp; The only times she even seemed to come alive were when she was with me, and even then she was closed off.<br><br>My hand slid down Rei's arm, and I took her hand, leading her towards the door of the apartment.&nbsp; "The second child is incomplete."&nbsp; I said simply, pausing near the door and holding Rei's hand, my palm pressing against hers.&nbsp; "She has a vital role to complete in the instrumentality."&nbsp; <em>As a decoy.</em>&nbsp; I said, squeezing the first child's hand.&nbsp; "Not nearly as important as your role, but she must still be kept functioning."&nbsp; I told her, opening up a cabinet next to the door, and withdrawing a folder with a picture of Asuka clipped to the front.&nbsp; "These files contain details of Asuka's incompleteness.&nbsp; You should be able to force her compliance with the knowledge contained in them."&nbsp; I said, slipping the folder into Rei's school bag.&nbsp; "Keep it safe."&nbsp; I whispered into her ear, knowing that I'd be in serious danger at NERV if it became known that I'd given those files to Rei.<br><br>"Study Asuka on your way to Misato's apartment, then approach her once she has been informed of the project."&nbsp; I ordered Rei, knowing that the entire focus of her existence would soon become Asuka Langley.&nbsp; The second child was troublesome, but she also deflected attention from my true efforts, even from SEELE.&nbsp; If only she knew how valuable she was.&nbsp; She'd likely follow in her weak mother's footsteps.<br><br>Like mother, like daughter.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 06:03:59</strong>
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				The only outward reaction I had when the commander rested his hand on my shoulder was allowing my eyes to close.&nbsp; My inward reaction was different I felt my heart rate increase the slightest bit.&nbsp; I knew that he approved of me in those moments.&nbsp; I did not stir,&nbsp; simply allowed him to remain in contact with me.&nbsp; I didn’t jump in surprise as his hand shifted sliding down my form coming to rest on one of my arms.&nbsp; I could feel the warmth of his body beneath his glove,&nbsp; and wonder briefly how much different the world would be without touch.&nbsp; <br><strong><br>“Of course Commander.”</strong>&nbsp; I was not jealous of the other girl,&nbsp; though the commander adding the statement about her not being as important as me said he feared I would.&nbsp; It would be foolish of me,&nbsp; we were all cogs in the machine…&nbsp; No, perhaps the representation was incorrect.&nbsp; Performers perhaps,&nbsp; all playing different tunes that only The Commander was capable of directing into controlled harmony.&nbsp; <br><br>I was to force her into compliance?&nbsp; I was not used to the idea,&nbsp; I took orders. I allowed myself to be manipulated.&nbsp; To attempt to control another was a foreign concept to me,&nbsp; yet…&nbsp; it was The Commander’s orders.&nbsp; I was compelled to carry them out,&nbsp; was it a paradox to be ordered to be less complacent.&nbsp; Even if it was,&nbsp; it would not matter as long as I could complete the task that was assigned to me The Commander would be happy. When he handed me the files I nodded,&nbsp; slipping them into my school bag.<br><br><strong>“I will do as you command Sir.”</strong>&nbsp; I said bowing my head ever so slightly.&nbsp; <br>
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>The Great Triangle</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 21:38:47</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I kept holding onto Rei's hand for as long as I dared, opening up the door and walking out into the corridors of the NERV pyramid. &nbsp;I let go of her hand and pulled away from her, feeling as if I was denying a part of myself. &nbsp;Nobody understood my relationship with Rei. &nbsp;I'm not certain that Rei did. &nbsp;<strong>"Make me proud." </strong> &nbsp;I said to her, as she began to walk away. &nbsp;<strong>"Come back to my office whenever you like."</strong> &nbsp;I said to her carefully, unsure if she would really hear. &nbsp;<br><br>I stopped, and stared at her as she passed off into the distance, looking so much like Yui. &nbsp;I could even imagine that she was still here, though perhaps a bit shorter. &nbsp;I closed my eyes and shook my head. &nbsp;I don't have time for such foolishness. &nbsp;The sooner the instrumentality project gets completed, the sooner I can see Yui again. &nbsp;That's my only wish, the only thing I live for.<br><br>I <strong>will </strong> see her dream come to fruition. &nbsp;No cost is too great. &nbsp;No sacrifice too terrible.
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			<dt class="postheader">
				Title: <strong>Re: Evangelion: Kaji's Other Job [Gendo's Office &amp; Quarters] </strong><br>
				Post by: <strong>Elohim</strong> on <strong>24-11-2008, 22:07:24</strong>
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			<dd class="postbody">
				I took note of the way The Commander took my hand in his,&nbsp; for a moment I allowed him to simply cradle it.&nbsp; I did not understand the gesture, but,&nbsp; the contact was pleasant.&nbsp; I remembered vaguely seeing two other people holding hands once. I noticed that my hand had not moved around the Commander’s so,&nbsp; I wrapped my slender digits gently around his own.&nbsp; It must have been what he wanted,&nbsp; and I hoped the little act brought him a hint of comfort.&nbsp; He needed it more then anyone else,&nbsp; the fate of the world rested upon his shoulders…&nbsp; A modern day Atlus.&nbsp; “<br><br>Make him proud?&nbsp; I wonder if he knew what those words meant to me,&nbsp; or if it was simply a platitude.&nbsp; Yet,&nbsp; I was not sure the Commander ever said anything he did not mean,&nbsp; unless deceit was necessary.&nbsp; Either way,&nbsp; he expected me to take it as genuine. <strong> “I will Commander.” </strong>I promised him.<br><br>I did not say Goodbye,&nbsp; I had recently learned that people found that word to be Just too sad,&nbsp; or that was how Ikari put it.&nbsp; I then took my leave,&nbsp; and soon found myself in the Outside world,&nbsp; once more I can smell a combination of nature and progress,&nbsp; hints of pollutants mixed with air that was filtered and treated by purifiers.&nbsp; <br><br>I soon was on a&nbsp; bus,&nbsp; at the back carefully reading over the Second Child’s files.<br><br>Too Misato's Apartment
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