"Everyday I think about it, and everyday I wonder how the hell I can live with myself. Ever since then I have been fighting a war with suicide. This is the first time I ever talked about it. Heh, look at me, bothering a complete stranger with my pathetic life. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wreck your day or anything..." Elyk then got up and walked away, trying not to let Vanessa see him wipe away some tears.