Cal stared at Fexiryn before he lashed out with his fist, missing her head by scant inches and leaving cracks in the wall. He kept hitting the wall until the cracks reached the roof before he stepped back.<br/><br/>"I would welcome a true death but...I'm...sorry." He said quietly, again a first for Cal. "I could have stopped. I could have spared her life. Things could have been different but...I...for that one second...I wasn't strong enough." He looked like he was on the verge of tears. "I was always strong enough to save myself, to keep surviving. I was never able to save anyone else." He reached into one of his pockets and pulled out a small necklace with a musical locket attached.<br/><br/>"But she's gone now and nothing will ever change that. You will never truly understand but...thankyou...for hearing my story." He grabbed Fexiryn's hand and dropped the necklace into it. "Give this to Lunacy. An eternity of lonelyness....but I need to be alone for a while. If anyone wants me, though no one ever has, ask Valarinth. She likely knows where my secret room is."<br/><br/>And he left, not bothering with any fancy teleportation magic but dragging his feet, briefly stopping by the dorms to pick up his spell book before opening a portal to a grey, featureless room where he sat in the centre. Not moving, his boook opened oon the ground in front of him.<br/><br/>Lunacy stirred slightly inside Fexiryn but did not wake. Subconciously, she reached out to her lover through their spirit link but it was not Lunacy who spoke. The voice was different, more ethereal.<br/>"That's all I needed. Tell him...I forgive him." There was a great release in the office, like the first rays of the sun peeking through the clouds.<br/><br/>"W...what happened?" Luncay said, finally waking.