The comfort was nice, it really was, but it was wrong. He didn't deserve to be comforted. He didn't deserve to have Iyano go easy on him, or make it an enjoyable experience... not when Shaidon had to suffer. Not that he wanted pain! If anything, it was the one thing that really frightened him. But he had already let Shay down, and so he wouldn't be doing it again!<br/><br/>"I... I trust  you," he murmured, unable to draw his eyes away from Azar's distended stomach, even though he wanted nothing more than to look away and not have to see. "I know you're right, but... that wouldn't be fair. If Shaidon suffered, then I should too." He nodded slowly, as he convinced himself that was the right thing to do. He had to pay for what he'd let happen to his beloved friend. How would he get to meet him in the next life otherwise? Of course even if that happened, Shaidon would most likely never speak to him again. Not that Jamie could blame him if he didn't.