<blockquote><div><cite>Zenith- wrote:</cite>The following is OOC:<br/><br/>This has been on my mind for a long time now and it's gnawing away at my conscience. I haven't been totally honest with any of you, in fact I have deceived you all. It is something I am not proud of and I regret having done it. I'm sure some of you already had suspicions or maybe knew all along, but I think it's best if I come clean. I once said that I was Zenith, Ricochet, and Altair. That was all true, but it was also half true. I am also Glaive, Enkai, and Suriel. I have lied to you, and manipulated you, and have been unfair to you all. I guess I just got sick of it all and decided to tell you now. I am sorry for the things I did though that doesn't excuse my behavior and I apologize for betraying the feelings of mostly elitadraconia and Shadow_Walker who were both kind and friendly to me. Why I made so many avatars is simple yet complex at the same time. I don't know whether it's my dual nature or maybe me being sadistic, but I've never been able to stick to one thing in my life. Maybe it's the Gemini inside of me. The fact remains that in the beginning I did it to hide my true self, to mask my identity with a facade of masks. All six avatars had their own personality to them and that is why I liked them, but it also made the RP's interesting if everyone thought that the avatar was someone different. I thought it was more magical if their were several avatars with their own unique story than having one avatar pulling the strings of all of them. It didn't have that "magic" about it if I just Rp'ed six characters under one name. I wanted to keep it a secret because it felt like was tricking you into believing there was an entity that wasn't actually there. Like with Enkai. I still remember that touching and compassionate PM you wrote to him elitadraconia and that's why it makes it harder to tell this. I tricked you into believing that he was someone other than me and for that I'm ashamed of myself. In fact now I sound selfish because it sounds like I'm doing this to get rid of my guilty conscience while in the meantime others are being hurt by my deception and I didn't do it for them. I can understand if people hate me for what I've done and I can understand where they're are coming from because no one likes that feeling of being betrayed or tricked. Why then do I do this? Your answer is as good as mine because I've searching for that answer as well. Is it because I was too afraid to show people my true self that I used these personas, was it to get knowledge of one of my characters by switching to another, or is it that burning inside my heart that yearns to act upon selfish impulses just because it can. Whatever it is I don't know, but I do know that what I did was wrong and this wasn't the first time that I did such a thing. My actions are inexcusable and well that's all I have to say. Now I don't think it would be right for me to continue on in this RP so perhaps I'll just say goodbye and leave it at that. Thank you for the wonderful times, all of you. <br/>Farewell.<br/><br/>Sincerely,<br/>Me (you can PM this 'mask' if you want, but I don't know if I'll respond to all of them(if any) or not)</div></blockquote><br/><br/>((*sighs*  I don't know what to say really...I kinda figured out you were Suriel and Glaive due to the similarities in art style of Ric and Altair both of whom I already knew were the same person, but then you mentioned once that you were also Zenith and I thought that was okay.  As for Enkai, you had me completely fooled...even made me cry, I thought that something bad had happened to Enkai...I knew the message was read and felt satisfied, but why didn't you let me know it was you sooner?  I don't mind that you tricked me, hell I don't mind if you don't want to talk to me, but please be safe.  I forgive you because that is what my heart wishes...I don't want you to leave, but neither can I stop you.  It's a shame, I really do like your characters...I don't mind if you have MPD or some other problem, hell...I think I have a slight case of MPD so I can sympathise with you.  In any case, despite all else the dragon goddess of healing and protection will always watch over you.  *warm smiles and huggles*))