<span style="color: #ffff00">"don't be sorry, that means less then nothing to me thanks to The'kal. stop attacking me for things that i had no control over."</span>Order took a deep breath as she was hugged and slowly shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "i shouldn't need a vacation... after everything we have all suffered why can't any of them treat me how i treat them? i open my arms, my heart and my soul to them without question, accusation or reservation and this is what i get. i... i can't understand why the people that are supposed to love me do this."</span>she looked at Machinist with a deep frown and sighed softly.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "how many of The'kal's children still live? i don't want to see you either, i don't need your blame or your hatred in my life and i am done apologizing for the things i did. every single horrible thing they made me do was by presenting an even more horrible thing that they would do if i did not comply. if they wanted me to kill an Eternal they threatened to torture two or three extras to death slowly if i did not comply. if they wanted a mortal world destroyed i could do it so swiftly they never felt a thing or those fucks would do something slow and terrible to that world and half a dozen more! that is why i was given a full pardon... i didn't have a choice, they wouldn't even let me kill myself and i did try. think about that next time you want to throw something in my face."</span>she looked at the screen and then shook her had and slid it back.<span style="color: #ffff00">"that means nothing to me, i am done with The'kal. when she has served her time and is released i will renounce her as my mate. lying to me about the fates of my children so that i will not seek them out is crossing a line that i will never forgive... she is dead to me the moment she is no longer a legal concern."</span>she shook her head and looked out the window.<span style="color: #ffff00">"if you want to apologize to me help me... i want to survey the entire universe and find every Eternal the Counsel locked away and rescue them. too many of our people are less then ten thousand years old, their resources are so limited that the current search efforts are far too slow. by no means do i mean for you to stress yourself, even my vast power has it's limits when dealing with black holes and other celestial bodies that can imprison our people." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>