Whisperia smirked a little and looked at him. "two reasons. one, the loading platform was built to support about a third of this, it would have broken under me if i tried that. for two, i wanted to watch you working. if your afraid your going to hurt yourself maybe you shouldn't carry so much at once?"<br/><br/>Ashia held Vyre tighter and shook her head.<span style="color: #404040">"and you think i do? I'm making this up as i go along and doing the best i can and honestly, i think everyone on the planet does the same thing. my instincts say i should get pounced, beaten into submission, raped for about six hours and then left injured, knocked up and sore as fuck inside and not see the male again until he decides he is horny enough to fight me into submission again. sexual pleasure, love and happiness are concepts that are as alien to me what my body has been turned into."</span>she kissed Vyre's forehead softly and shook her head again.<span style="color: #404040">"i think you need to start doing what i do. whenever i instinctively reject something i force myself to stop and really think about what that instinct tells me to do. i know it makes me look slow and stupid, but the results have been worth it. i hurt people less and my relationships have greatly improved. take this whole disaster. my first instinct to you suddenly rejecting me like that was to rape you into accepting me as a mate no matter how violent i had to get to force you into submission... you may never silence that voice, i know my instincts will plague me for the rest of my life, but if you just learn to stop and think instead of reacting according to that voice you will hurt people less and you will be happier for it."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>