Izzy would have been less shocked if she had woken up with her hair on fire the next morning.<span style="color: olive"> "You...you what?"</span>She swallows. O god how could she have been SO off base!?  She confides in the girl only to find out....ogod.<span style="color: olive">" I ..erm..I don't feel so ...great."</span>Izzy stammers looking over to Camelia.<br/><span style="color: olive">"I um..Um...ummm."</span>she looks around, for anything..desperate to find some sort of reprieve. She wouldn't get one however. " I ..I'm .." she looks at the girl, stammering still<span style="color: olive">, "I'm SO sorry Serina..I had..-no- idea!"  </span>I mean sure maybe Izzy planned to do a little flirting with Serina - flirting didn't hurt anyone.<br/><br/>But now..o god, did she look foolish. she finally gets her wits about her,<span style="color: olive"> "I..wouldn't have ever told you about um..."</span>she looks around seeing the eyes of their friends all around them . Not necessarily watching, but certainly within ear shot. She looks to Adrain, as he walks off.<br/><br/>Izzy wished at that moment she could curl into a ball and crawl into a hole someplace- She was an idiot.<br/><br/><span style="color: olive">"Serina.."</span>she starts quietly, looking down to the ground as the girls name pours over her lips with far deeper implications. She restates her original point<span style="color: olive">," I um..I didn't know. Had i known i wouldn't..have said anything a few hours back. I'm sorry..um. If that ...bothers you.I'm sorry if that um..hurt you." </span>She starts to blush now,<span style="color: olive"> "But now that you ..know that...and um. I know..this. " </span>she tries to pull together a coherent thought as her life has just become exceedingly more complicated<span style="color: olive">. " It doesn't change how I feel about Camelia.."</span>She knows the girls going to frown and it kills her . She pipes up quickly,<span style="color: olive">"BUT! That...also doesn't mean..i'm not interested. I'd be a fool not to be." </span><br/><br/>She finally looks up and offers Serina a sweet smile, her  ciggy dangling from her lips.<span style="color: olive">" An I sure as shit ain't no fool. "</span>She clears her throat and finishes,<span style="color: olive"> "I um..I don't know whats right, or what's best and I can't pretend to. But I do know how I feel about..her." </span>she nods in Camelias direction,<span style="color: olive"> "An i'm..pretty sure that ain't reciprocated, nor will it ever , and im not quite sure it SHOULD ever be reciprocated, but ..I love er'. " </span>she whispers choking back tears and trying to stay as quiet as possible.<span style="color: olive"> "I'ma always love her...an..if i gotta do that as just friends with er' then so be it. I just gotta get my head straight b'fore i could ever...um. " </span>she shrugs,<span style="color: olive"> "You know..er...I care about you too ya kno?"</span>She admits,<span style="color: olive">"I'd die if I hurt ya. SO..I'm not quiet sure what ta make o' all of this. But..Um.." </span>she swallows hard and feels her stomach churning.<span style="color: olive">"I guess I got alot of thinkin ta do." </span><br/><br/>She bravely reaches a hand out , and places it atop the snake charmers knee, her thumb gently brushing against the fabric gently.<span style="color: olive"> "Let's um....would it be alright if we spent some more time' ta' gether gettin in to mischief an...we see what happens?"</span><br/><br/>She knows that isn't the answer the girl wants.  She knows if Camelia gave her that answer, she'd be over joyed....and hopeful. She didn't know -what- she wanted...but the cards were played..and she had to find out.<div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>