Britomart finished cooking her food and sat the pan down on a pot holder and set to eating right out of it.<span style="color: #ff0000">"because i am a failure as a wife i am a failure as a person and this is just another injury i have inflicted on those i love... i could have told them something was wrong, instead i lied to them, first for a week, then two, then a month and finally for three months straight. my emotions are more powerful then they ever were before but..."</span>she looked down into her food and shook her head.<span style="color: #ff0000">"at first all i felt was the inferno of rage that has been my life, then relief and since then my guilt has been eating me alive... i don't know that i love either of them anymore, i can't get past this guilt to feel anything else."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #0080ff">"i doubt your The'kal is that different from ours."</span>she smiled and took Athena by the hand.<span style="color: #0080ff">"of course you can, come with me."</span>she lead Athena to her bedroom where a tall mirror stood in one corner.<br/><br/><span style="color: #ffff00">"i didn't mess up her mind... i threw her emotions into a meat grinder but i didn't touch her mental structuring or her memory. Ras, i will admit that i set Karrie off prematurely and with more force then she might have otherwise exploded but i will not be blamed for all of her problems. Rachel was already ready to murder Karrie to stop Karrie from hurting her further when i got there. Karrie was already a paranoid, obstinate and spiteful woman when i arrived on this planet. Karrie is three separate people, one of which hates the other two and they hate her, the other two have an unhealthy relationship with each other and she has been that way since the pirates and no on can blame me for that, i was busy suffering far worse when that happened."</span>she looked over at him and then back out over the plains.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "Karren will be fine, her recovery should be complete any day now and she will never remember the incident that caused her mental collapse or anything that happened after it... i have considered doing the same with Karrie but the time gap would be a huge issue."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>