Ashia smiled and nodded. "<span style="color: #404040">from what i have learned from both Frank and Sharindia fear is a perfectly natural reaction for you soft skins so that is okay my dear." </span><br/><br/><span style="color: #b35900">"are you even hearing yourself? if i allowed it he would be here right now listening to me rant about wanting to die and you don't see how that is a problem?"</span>she rolled her eyes and shook her head.<span style="color: #b35900">"why your frustrated doesn't change the fact that you are frustrated and i don't blame you for it. there is no 'just Ibara' and there never was. my whole life i was Ibara, the future Loa of peace and harmony, blessed by Elune to serve and protect the abused and persecuted... now there is just Ibara, the broken and abandoned, doomed to wallow in the ashes of her shattered hopes and dreams. you want me to become a completely new person while living with the scars collected by a being far more powerful then i am now."</span>she nodded a little and glanced back at him and shrugged.<span style="color: #b35900">"it's your life and you can be anyone or anything you want... I'm just telling you why i freak out every time you hug me."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>