Order crossed her her arms and rolled her eyes before she shoved The'kal into her Trollish form.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "according to me! i should have fought and died not... not done what i did... why didnt i fight them? why didnt we fight them? dont you get it? i am suffering! im a monster and i hate myself... im no better then Corruptor... no better then the Legion..."</span><br/><br/>"no offense but as nasty as your world is its downright pleasant compared to others." she shook her head as she watched Order and the'kal. "normally we would be able to tell but The'kal is chaos, impossible to predict, diagnose or understand. and its only toxic up to a point, it wont kill one as old as Chaos, just make her sick, and i dont think its working on her, she still loves. im sorry but there is no room in my heart to feel sorry for the woman who got to keep her mate and child and who ran from the problem she made. The'kal started the Council and then escaped, she is the only one who ever did and im sorry but she doesnt get a pity card. now she thinks she gets to ignore the woman who saved her? i dont think so." she snorted and shook her head. "meet The'kal, stretched out becauses shes compressed herself into a mortal shell for so long that her natural form is about three times bigger then it should be. as for The'kal i got them talking, i knew my 'abuse' would get The'kal's attention and make her step up." she sat down and shook her head. "your talking about The'kal's pain. im sure she has some, but im sorry it just doesnt compare to what we have been through. The'kal started the Council, was a member and then she vanished... we thought she was dead for a good fifty thouand years, and when i say we i mean as a species because im not nearly that old. she got to hide her child and then hide herself on a world full of mortals that she loves... and now she has her mate and her child back, her child is happy and healthy but her mate bears the scars of these years but im supposed to feel sorry for The'kal? forgive me if i expect her to take care of the woman who bought her and their child fifty thousand years of peaceful lives at such and aweful price." she looked at Delithi with tears and anger in her eyes. "my mate is dead. my child is dead. i would give anything to have them back even if they didnt recognize me and i could barely recognize them... there is no room in my heart to pity the woman who has everything, her mate and her child, the love of mortals and a home. all i have is an empty throne that i hate. i dont want to be Empress but i lead the Rebellion so they made me their leader and now i have to take care of an entire species... im just a musician, im not qualified for this but im doing the best i can..."<div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>