Britomart frowned and then she hopped up on the rock and shook her head as she sat down.<span style="color: #ff0000"> "if i hated you you would still be picking the shrapnel out... i came to ask if you wanted to go camping in Arathi with Jim and me."</span>she took a deep breath and then leaned back on her hands to look up at the sky.<span style="color: #ff0000">"i hate myself, not you... i... i am an utter failure as a wife, a mate, a woman and even as a person. the only things i am actually good at are killing things or inventing new and creative ways to kill things. i don't know why Jim or Whisperia put up with me, i cannot grasp why anyone would want to know me... i hurt them all the damned time... and you have suffered too much as is, you deserve better then me."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #ff0000">"that sounds like a pretty good plan, i will call her as soon as i am done eating... otherwise she will say she isn't hungry and then steal half my food."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>