"yes, it can be. there are things i love enough to keep going and keep hoping for more things to enjoy and love."<br/><br/><span style="color: #00b300">"i wasnt in a shell, i was hiding on a world no one but me cared about, far from anyone or anything else."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #ffff00">"one can be beyond hope and still do things while spiraling down to inevitable death..."</span>Order glanced at The'kal before shaking her head slightly.<span style="color: #ffff00">"your right, i dont... all i know is that everytime i considered rebelling, everytime i wanted to fight back, this inescapable fear would take hold of me and made me undure to protect something, i never knew what or why, but i did it to protect something. our people do not fear you, they fear for you. ancients such as you... as us, are very rare, the younger ones seek the knowledge and wisdom we have. especially now with the Counsel destroyed and the vast stores of knowledge they held gone, the elders that they killed. the Empress does not fear you, she also fears for you, she has given you this world as your sanctuary because it helps alleviate your fears. they do not fear you because i and others like me, who are powerful wnough to fight you exist. they do fear that you are insane but many of the things you have done do look that way from the outside, they would seek to heal your mind, as they did with the Creator. if i am to stay here what will i do? i do not seek anything, i lost even that capacity... i only want to know our daughter because it is what is done, a parent should know their child."</span>she looked at Jemma and shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"how can the broken fix the empty?"</span>she nodded a little and went back to her work, her eyes closed.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i wish i could remember what happiness was..."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>