<span style="color: #404040">"i cant say i am either, i have so many emotions i dont think i was ever built to handle so its very hard... or is something like this always this hard? i dont know. part of me doesnt want to trust Order, she is so damaged herself but on the other hand she is almost insane in her devotion to you, i cant see anything standing between her and what she wants and needs and i need the same thing, you happy and healthy."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>