<span style="color: #ff8000">"everything i ever wanted to do and everything i ever believed in has been destroyed... i don't look at the city and see hope for the future, i recognized it for the botched, disaster waiting to happen that it is. i don't look at my Priestesses and see strength, unity or support. all i see is a bunch of women who abandoned me and each other when we needed unity the most. this world and the people on it only want to destroy each other and i don't think even Order's might will keep them from self destruction. i have nothing but one stubborn Troll forcing me to stay alive while he desperately tries to make me find hope again. which is ironic since you don't seem to have any hope of your own. i have no friends, no family and nothing to live for."</span>she looked back at him with a scowl and then shook her head.<span style="color: #ff8000">"maybe if i had been given these letters i wouldn't have come to the conclusion that the boy had abandoned me in favor of his father? maybe then i would have had something to look forward to. but alas, i was deemed unfit even by my last friend and they were withheld which only made me worse. oh, I'm sorry that the prick Ras showing me a fake ghost made me feel worse, who could have possibly guessed that i would see right through the lies of a man who does nothing but lie to me for fun? he must enjoy making me scream in pain, its the only explanation for why he is so good at it, i hope he enjoyed the show. no, i cannot fathom why you won't just let me die. i can't go insane and turn against you if i am dead. i can't be hurt anymore if i am dead."</span><br/><br/>a small window opened in the door and the man looked out at Ras. "the last time you showed up you hurt my lady, i will not allow you into this home no matter what lies you try to tell me."<div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>