Ashia shook her head and turned to look out over the landscape.<span style="color: rgb(64, 64, 64)">"thats the thing, if we could leave your past burried i would let you but you cant... Order is your past and your future and every time you see her it opens those wounds and the pain you... suppressed festers out of those wounds and into our lives."</span>she took a deep breath and shook her head but she was obviously struggling to find the proper words.<span style="color: rgb(64, 64, 64)">"it doesnt matter if your ready or not, Order is opening those wounds and you are going to have to face that pain or it will poison our lives.... its already happening, your growing cold and... and mean... you wanted to keep Melody from her dead child's things... you keep lashing out at your people... a year ago you would have walked through fire to help any mother in pain, today you had to be convinced to help one even though it took no effort at all... im... im afraid im going to lose you if you try to run from your past again."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>