<span style="color: #006600">"that's not good enough. there was a time when we laughed together, drank together, treated each other warmly and with respect and care. there was a time when either one of us would have killed or died from the other and i don't know what i did wrong and he won't fucking tell me. its not about time, he has mates and children as you pointed out and i accept and even support and respect the fact that they should get priority. but when he is here i expect the warmth of a brothers visit, he acts like its an unpleasant chore to visit me. i have tried to make plans, a family get together, to lets the kids meet each other and share a meal as a family, he evades and puts it off. i know from Amere that they have trouble getting him to even stay home and no one knows where he spends all his time."</span>he moved to slowly hug Karrie but if she wanted to it would be easy to evade.<span style="color: #006600">"do you want to know how much power i use on a daily basis? none. i have used more power today then i have in the last three weeks summoning first my axe and then my medical bag and returning the axe. i grow my medicinal herbs, i make my bandages and i see to my patience all without a drop of power. she did go by Bayne back at the mansion but her proper name is Elerona and her Eternal name is Balance. Karrie, i can't say i know all the things that happened between you and Rachel and i have never even met her, but i would imagine that she just needs time. even a Troll doesn't heal from deep wounds very quickly and from what little i do know those two bitches were taking turns smashing her heart to pieces... and you need time too, you said yourself that you need to vent, to release all the rage and pain and hurt inside you. you are the good part of you, but even the best people can be beaten down so hard that they need to heal before they can be good again. when Rayne broke me down i was a right bastard, i treated everyone like shit, i had no hope or love. you still have your love for Rachel and that should give you all the purpose you need. be worthy of her."</span>he frowned and shook his head.<span style="color: #006600">"i can't promise you she will take you back, i wish i could but i do not know her. but i can promise you one thing, she will never take you back until you make yourself better. i don't mean power or even skills, i mean you being better, mentally and emotionally. i have big shoulders to cry on, i have strong arms to hold you when you need it, hell i have a big fucking chest for you to pound on if you really need to hit someone and i can listen to all of your pain and i will never think less of you. Karren may have given me a house, but you are the only one in our whole family who ever cared enough to come and visit, to make sure i was okay, to take an interest in my life. i tried to take an interest in yours but those cunts made you run away the moment i tried and that was okay too, you were still welcome back every time and your still welcome here now."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>