<span style="color: #ff8000">"you just don't fucking get it do you? i don't care anymore! i have no empathy, no sympathy, no compassion for anyone. all i have is my pain and my misery and i don't want your sympathy, compassion or anything else from you!"</span>she shook her head and walked over to the window.<span style="color: #ff8000">"despite how terrible she was... sometimes... if i was crying hard enough... my tears would melt her icy heart for just a few hours and she would hold me... i was so distraught that all i wanted was my mommy... i thought my achievements would buy me one last time of crawling into her arms and being held. my Ras was half the problem, Vyre had shattered me... not one of my Priestesses would just hold me and let me cry... it was all vengeance or help or i told you so... i had no one left to turn you so i wrote to my mother and begged her to come take care of me one last time. i got that letter and then Eldryn showed up and he... he took the pain away and left nothing but anger."</span>she scoffed and shook her head.<span style="color: #ff8000"> "and the truth comes out... you don't give a damn about my pain, you just need to keep me alive in this misery so you have someone to take care of. your probably right, if i die now i will probably make myself miserable until the end of time... but if my life has taught me anything its that i should quit now before it can get any worse. if i let you have the time you demand chances are i might give in and try again only to be beaten down even further and i just cant... i can't take it anymore."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>