"i hope for your sake you learn to trust someone. if no one else you should trust Order, read her mind if you must, im sure she would let you. i can accept that you will never trust me but i would appreciate it if you could stop lobbing mistrusting barbs at me, they are starting to sting a little. i cant honestly say im doing it just to be kind... helping others with their problems distracts me from my pain, so in a way i am being greedy, but if anyone begrudges me a moment of peace while im helping them then fuck them."<div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>