<span style="color: #5900b3">"sometimes i am. the are times when Ras just spends time with me, no emergencies, no problems... designing our home was the happiest i have ever been with him. Relene, i liked her better when she was a baby. she wasnt so sullen and irritable... and Sahra, before all this craziness with her Muse made me very happy, all she wanted was me, not my power and not my help. i think if i could understand mortals just a little better i would be alot happier."</span>she frowned and shook her head but The'kal would see some of the blankness caused by the block.<span style="color: #5900b3">"Ibara... she doesnt love Ras anymore, she doesnt love her mother anymore but she still hates them both. loving and hating them at the same time was driving her insane and so someone made her not love them anymore. i cant make the Elves forget all that they have learned, abandon their cities and go back to simple villages, i dont have that right."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #ff0000">"its not all i think about, you think i could enjoy sex and think of Sylvanas? its just that whenever im not doing something... anything... sex, tinkering, hell, chopping wood keeps me distracted. but when im idle i see her face. when i sleep i dream of the Scourge. they haunt me like a curse."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #ffff00">"im hoping that mortals can help me... im hoping that if i do something good, that if i help those who need it... that it will help heal my ravaged soul. if i save enough children from starvation wont it make me feel good? if a thousand women dont get raped or sold as slaves maybe i wont hate myself so much... maybe being good can make me not a cold, hateful monster anymore."</span>she smirked at him and shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"your welcome, my first Justicar made a good point when he said maybe you mortals fight so much because you cant talk to eachother so i taught all of you every spoken and written language."</span>she looked at him and rolled her eyes.<span style="color: #ffff00">"and would you have me pick a side by looking like one of them? you mortals cant help but trust those that look like you more then you do others and distrusting those who are different."</span>she nodded and shrugged.<span style="color: #ffff00">"im an immortal, rediculously powerful being of pure energy, of course im strange to you."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>