<span style="color: #ffff00">"it doesnt feel like emotions... emotions mess with the mind, but my thoughts are still in perfect order." </span>she shook her head with a frown.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i dont deserve to be forgiven and i certainly dont have the right to forgive myself. i didnt want to do any of it, i never wanted to do what they said but i did and i didnt even know why. there was, they made me kill him a long, long time ago."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>