<span style="color: #404040">"that explains the first six months and the last six months, what is his excuse for the two years in between? the difference is that he has always been a prick to me, the curse just made him more open and honest about it."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: #b35900">"really? so my sister's didn't vote to overrule my desire to live free of these accursed emotions? Ras abandoned me long before i exiled him which i did when his visits became so painful that i wanted to shoot myself every time i saw him. i thought Animus was my friend but she decided to steal the letters that would have given me one last sliver of hope. if that isn't betrayal what is? oh no, i beat Nalo, i had her captive, defeated and caged. Elune ripped that victory away from me but since there is no possible way for me to fight an Eternal i don't consider that a failure. i mean nothing to the city, without my powers i am just a figurehead for Animus and that no longer interests me. i don't want to rebuild and i will never allow myself to trust anyone ever again... there is no future for me."</span>Sylavandra glanced up and shook her head.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"i have been having this conversation with her weekly and I'm not making any progress either."</span>she leaned back in her chair and reset the game board with a wave of her hand.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"the Priestesses wont do it, there are too many conflicting emotions."</span>she waved her hand and the pawns from the red side vanished.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"the city is a fantasy made real but the dream is complete and the appeal is gone, tainted by all the scars she has suffered here."</span>the rooks vanished.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"the other Ras and Vyre both betrayed her beyond any hope of reconciliation."</span>the knights vanished.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"the children were both taken from her and the pain is so great she won't trust it even if they were honestly returned."</span>the bishops vanished.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"that leaves us with only vengeance, which even if Ibara's enemies weren't all gods Order wouldn't allow it."</span>she physically removed the king and then she placed one finger on the queen and tipped it side to side.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"the way i see it the only external force left that might save her is a true love... and i mean love at true sight, no chance to resist or run away love because she will not allow any kind of normal love to form."</span>she tipped the queen over and shook her head.<span style="color: #ff4d4d">"beyond that all we can do is hope that time will heal these wounds enough for her to decide life is worth living. unfortunately there is a lot of damage and time takes time... progress is inevitable but these outbursts of hers are normal and even healthy because she is expressing her pain. if you can't handle that i understand, you've been through an emotional grinder of your own, but this is progress. she's not screaming, smashing things or trying to shoot herself."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>