Shauna shook her head and sighed irritably, looking over at her.<span style="color: #ffff00">"now your just saying what you think i want to hear because your afraid of me. you have spent the last hour making it very clear that you fear me, that you will never trust me, that you dont want to be here and that continueing to be in my presence is going to make you miserable. and dont split hairs, i am my power, my power is me, its no more a seperate thing then my fucking head is. im not a mage, i wasnt trained to bend the arcane power around me, i woke up from a coma with this power inside me and i can do things with it that other paladins cant even grasp. i can heal demons, i can cast my shield onto others... and i can focus so much power into a single blow that my enemies flesh is seared off their bones."</span>she stopped Saerwynn and shook her head again and rolled of the bed and turned away from her.<span style="color: #ffff00">"dont. you dont need to calm me down. i know you dont believe me but i would never harm you... but i fucked it up, i showed you who i am... i just wanted..."</span>she shook her head and reached up to wipe the tears from her eyes as she crammed down her emotions.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i wanted something i will never have and never should have wanted in the first place... i am a shield... a tool of protection... i dont get to have the things i am meant to protect."</span><br/><br/>Anna returned the kiss but she frowned.<span style="color: #4da6ff">"i d-dont think it w-works that w-way no matter how m-much we may w-want it."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>