Kitori was holding her arms as she stepped around her puppies which were scattered around the yard either asleep or falling asleep from chasing Amber. She shook her head a little and didn't respond as she ran into the stables and hid between a wall and some hay bales.<span style="color: #a64dff">"I wasn't... I have to be better, I have to be good for father and Ka-Kalian. And..." </span>She suddenly vomited on herself as her stress and anxiety reached their peak.<br/><br/><span style="color: #8000ff">"Why would you? Nobody has ever cared about me or what I want... and they shouldn't because I only ever hurt people. I'm garbage, I've always been garbage and I'll die that way. Just a waste of life." </span>She shook her head and started to pull herself to her feet.<span style="color: #8000ff">"I still owe them both an apology. I should have been stronger, maybe then I'd still be a mother, maybe I wouldn't have hurt Ophidian... I could have fought Elerona's aura. If I was stronger I never would have hurt those I loved. I could have protected them like a sentinel is supposed to do."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>