<span style="color: #ff8000">"how could you mean much to me? we barely know each other. your efforts are kind but they are hardly enough to outweigh all the pain and hatred in my heart. even if i enjoy each meal for an hour there are another twenty-one hours of each day all filled with pain, loneliness and seething hatred."</span>she shook her head and growled.<span style="color: #ff8000"> "i told you i can't eat right now. Elune will not help me and i will not speak to her. i can understand you not wanting to take my word about what happened but that also means you should just leave the subject alone. i want to be dead and in the ground but since you won't let me kill myself i have no where else to go. oh, that's just what i need, an infinite supply of wine to try to drown my sorrows in, i am sure that will work out wonderfully. i will not have my health put before that of an innocent child and if you force the issue i will have all the reason i need to hate you just as much as the other Ras." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>