Ibara shook her head and took a deep breath.<span style="color: #b35900">"i don't care how much he regrets it, he can live with the pain of his regret just like i have to live with the pain of what he did to me."</span>she shook her head stood up, took him by the hand and lead him to a side table with a beautiful scale standing on it with all sorts of weights stacked on the table.<span style="color: #b35900"> "i drink to balance these scales..."</span>she picked up a tiny weight.<span style="color: #b35900"> "this is like one hundred people of my city."</span>she set it on one side of the scale and then took another tiny weight.<span style="color: #b35900">"this is one drink to help me relax."</span>she set it on the scale and of course it balanced.<span style="color: #b35900">"and that is a good day. however."</span>she picked up the biggest weight and replaced the first tiny weight with it.<span style="color: #b35900">"that, is Ras visiting me and making me so angry that i literally scream at him... now try to balance it with the tiny weights."</span>she watched him do it and it took all the tiny weights to bring the scales back to balance.<span style="color: #b35900"> "it took twenty of them, but after seven i will get a headache the next day and every extra makes my headache worse then the one before it."</span>she cleared all the weights and picked up the second smallest.<span style="color: #b35900">"say this was you, being good or being bad and don't say you won't, no one is perfect and people are bound to disagree eventually or you might even upset me by accident. that is all okay, its a part of life and doesn't make you a bad boy. you could just get sick and i would be worried"</span>she set it on the scale and then balanced it with two tiny weights.<span style="color: #b35900">"you might make it okay that two hundred people upset me or you might make it so i have to have two more drinks but there are so many things that happen every day here."</span>she used the scales to show him several examples of things that happened on a regular basis in her city. good and bad trade deals, crime waves, a High Priestess getting sick or injured so she had to take on extra work, a building collapsing during construction and so many other things but he would easily spot a trend, there was a lot more bad things then good but she never picked up the really big weights.<span style="color: #b35900">"every day i have to find a balance otherwise things from the day before spill over into the next day." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>