<span style="color: #5900b3">"i have been so stressed that i didn't care and i can't say i have relaxed... Sahra is being a model parent defying all of my fears but i can't stop being afraid that i am going to watch another child die. i can't relax, i can't sleep, i can't even focus on my garden which used to calm me so much. don't get me started on their jealous bickering, its driving me clear up the fucking walls which is why i have barely spoken to either of them in three days because i just can't handle it on top of everything else. as wonderful as that sounds i don't think i could get in the mood or enjoy it, i am terrified and i can't think of anything else. Sharindia was supposed to be teaching Shauna but since you had that fight with her she doesn't even come down for supper, she spends some time with Kalian every day and then returns to her room."</span>she returned the kiss but pulled away before he could really deepen it.<span style="color: #5900b3"> "of course not but she doesn't need to kneel, she just needs to not punch Order in the heart. for all we know Vyre is being her usual acerbic self and Order doesn't understand it and just takes it as another social aspect that she doesn't understand."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>