<span style="color: #a64dff">"I don't know how that is different. I just want to be good and not..."</span>She sighed softly and shook her head.<span style="color: #a64dff">"I think I'll go back to the stables. I'm hungry." </span>She motioned for her mate but he seemed content to lay beside Kalian, and even when she growled at him he ignored her. With a heavy sigh she pat Amber's head softly and headed back to the stables by herself.<br/><br/><span style="color: #8000ff">"Because, like I told Ophidian, I don't want to die alone and hated. I have to apologize to my Zelina and Ophidian... if I apologize then maybe the guilt will become bearable. Maybe I can find someone to like me then. And even if I can't maybe I'll be able to die with a clear conscious... I don't want to be right, I want to listen to you and have things be better but I just..." </span>She grunted as she was shoved but stayed where she lay.<span style="color: #8000ff">"I wanted to be a mother, I was... so happy to hold her in my arms. I counted the days that Ras would return and we would be a family. She was my world, my everything, I would have given everything for her. I won't die until I see her, until I can apologize to her too. She and Ras the ones I hurt the most... they are the ones I need to see."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>