The convict grins<span style="color: blue">, "I've seen worse, I assure you."</span>She waggles her brow only slightly suggestively. She wishes she could make a few more jokes regarding a nude ghoul, however the time for tactfully avoiding this topic was over.  Since it seemed as if they were going to be spending a decent amount of time together, Emma felt that perhaps it was in her best interest to come out about the truth, before Loretta heard it from someone else.  No sense in harboring..whatever it was for a self righteous ghoul who was going to hate her if and when the truth ever saw the light of day.<br/><br/><span style="color: blue">"Look, since I'm sticking around with you sorts, there's some ... sensitive information I <i>may</i> have lied to you about.."</span>She unties her tie and tosses it aside before pacing the room. She looks any place but towards Loretta.<span style="color: blue">"The story I told way back some hours ago about me uh..headed to NCR correctional..it wasn't true.  Well..."</span>she holds her hands up, in a defensive manner.<span style="color: blue"> " It happened..I just didn't go to jail ..for that." </span>She swallows hard, squinting her eyes as she looks up at the ceiling lights, -she suddenly finds them fascinating.<span style="color: blue">  " I figure if I'm stickin around with you fucks it would be better if ya hear it from me, then maybe..some paper work we stumble upon. "  </span>She isn't ashamed, and shit..she hasn't talked about this in<i>years </i>to anyone.<br/><br/><span style="color: blue">"I know you hate Raiders...well I was one. Fr' all of a month er' two.  After my family was killed I took off, hated NCR.  Met up with some cute little thing, Minya. She was a Raider  A Viper.  Wantin' to impress I joined up.  She wasn't as bad as you'd think. She wouldn't take slaves...none of us would. We'd loot an pillage, I never really hurt no one. </span>" she swallows hard and continues to pace,<span style="color: blue">"Stupid shit you do when yr' a kid in love right? </span>" She laughs quietly, even though it isn't funny.<span style="color: blue"> "Anyhow, long story short, we were settin' some landmines up outside of an NCR camp, had taken a break to erm...have an intimate moment out in an old car...Rangers found us -mid coitus.  That was fun." anyone could hear the disdane in her voice. </span><br/><br/><span style="color: blue">"We were brought back to NCR  facility.  Locked up in a tiny guarded tent. After a few days of yr' standard torture, they took Minya away."</span>Emmas voice becomes a bit shaky,<span style="color: blue"> "Tossed er' in a vat of Rads..." </span>She snorts.<span style="color: blue"> "Well we both know what that does ta' a girl."</span>She eyes Loretta up and down.<span style="color: blue">"Still loved er' tried to take care of er'. Ta' hell with whatever secondary Radiation i'd pick up.. " </span>She shakes her head,<span style="color: blue">"They left us alone for a month. Then came for her again....this time she came back unconscious...skin peeling..eyelids totally gone, nose - missing."  She shakes her head again, fighting back tears, "I still loved er'...i still tried to save her. Another month...We were both alive, and they left us to our own devices.  I knew she wouldn't live through a third time. I managed to scrounge up enough Apraxo and terpentine ta' make a Nuka-grenade. Stupid fucks haha. "</span>She laughs now, sniffing as she turns away,<span style="color: blue"> " Took the first wave o' guards out. 5 of em.  BOOM! Little pieces of NCR fuckers all over the tent.  "  </span>She seems truly amused by this- but her voice turns dark again,<span style="color: blue"> "As 'punishment'they ...drop their experiment with Minya,said 'it was 'worth' it to them ta get at me fr' taking out their boys. So..they  beat the holy fuck out of us both.  An make me watch... em...have a real good time with Minya. Screaming..bleeding..."</span>she shakes her head.<br/><br/><span style="color: blue">"I survived the beatings and..things." </span>She closes her eyes tight,<span style="color: blue">"Minya didn't.  I was transferred to NCR Correctional. Wasn't till we broke free with the gangers and i got a look at my permanent file was ta' why i figured out why.  I guess they'd been slippin us some ..chem in our food. Make ya resilient to physical harm...come ta' think of it..maybe that was why i lived through that whole...explosion ordeal. " </span>She laughs a bit, well...that made sense.<span style="color: blue">" I dunno. But accordin' to my file they were 'saving' me till they had better perfected this technology. Special treatment fr' being a royal pain in the ass."</span>She finally looks at Loretta<span style="color: blue">. "S'why I can't go back there.  Its  just guaranteed torture. But if we're dealin' with this shadow organization..who the fuck knows how deep this shit runs.  IT coulda been tied to that whole..project 19 bullshit. I dunno.  I .um." </span>she blushes now, pacing frantically.<br/><br/>Its clear as day shes uncomfortable talking about all this.<span style="color: blue">"I just felt out of 'em all..I couldn't give two shits what they thought' o me.  For some fuckin' ridiculous reason I don't even understand ,  I care about what you think. You said you loathed Raiders....well.  That changes shit between us don't it?"" </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>