Elune frowned at him and shook her head.<span style="color: #5900b3">"excuse me? you cant begin to fathom how it feels like to be a woman with an unwanted child growing inside them. it should make me happy but all it does is fill me with a sense of dread and i hate it! i hate that i cant just be happy and love the child growing inside me... i hate that i want to kill my children now instead of watching them die thousands of years from now after i grow to love them so very much. i hate that i love you mortals so much knowing i will lose you and that pain will make me cry forever and ever."</span>she looked into his eyes and shook her head.<span style="color: #5900b3"> "you cant begin to understand how i feel because i dont understand how i feel or why i feel that way... all i know is that i feel like a trapped monster."</span><br/><br/>Order rolled her eyes and shook head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"you have known Ashia for little over a year so dont hand me that shit. this planet has kept you alive, not any one individual, they all flare to life, bright and new and then fade away in the blink of an Eternal eye..."</span>she looked at The'kal and shook her head again.<span style="color: #ffff00">"im trying, doesnt that count for anything? im trying to be better... im trying so much but its so hard to feel anything when your making me worry so much."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>