Britomart squeezed Jim's hand tight and exhaled slowly, obviously relaxing as she touched his cheek and then she grabbed him and pulled him onto the bed to squeeze him tight.<span style="color: #ff0000">"Jim I'm so sorry for what i said.... i... i don't know what has been happening to me but i didn't want you to know..."</span><span style="color: #ffff00">"your soul was never properly anchored in your body when Arlokk resurrected you, it came loose and you lost your emotions. it's all fixed now, including the botched job he did on your body. you will feel hunger and pain properly now so take it easy with the engineering mishaps. Jim, if your emergency monitor goes off over something that you should have already asked me to help with i will kick your ass so hard you end up on that green moon up there. Britomart, all of your senses and faculties will return over the next hour, it may be inconvenient but it is better for your health. feel free to call me again whenever you need."</span>she vanished before Britomart could even open her mouth but being blind she didn't know that.<span style="color: #ff0000">"thank you Order."</span><span style="color: #330066">"she is gone my dear."<span style="color: #ff0000"> "Whisperia? you came..."</span> "of course i did you blockhead, we are going to have a serious talk about you hiding your condition but for right now you just focus on feeling better."</span>Britomart nodded and squeezed Jim.<span style="color: #ff0000"> "I'm just happy i can feel again."</span><br/><br/>Order stopped her pacing to look at Arlokk, fury blazing in her eyes before it subsided.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i can understand why you would think that... she has been sick for a very long time. a parasite was devouring her from within and trying to take control of her mind."</span>she stared at him before she shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "then you are no better then the rest of your kind... i cannot stand by and allow it, i... i did too much to just enjoy my freedom and let this behavior go unchecked. actually i do think Jim cares since my entire operation with the world governments can be laid squarely at his feet, it was his advise that made me see that i cannot just help people without attacking the problems in government. he was the one who made it clear that i could help people until the sun burned out and that i would need to keep working that long if i let the corrupted governments keep creating the problems i was helping people with. i should also point out that things are going quite well on that front."</span>she nodded and then grimaced.<span style="color: #ffff00">"true and in a way she did do it, her instant healing has me in so much pain that i really don't have any patience for anything let alone tolerance for stupidity or insanity... Karrie is unconscious in her realm far from your reach and for the safety of your family i suggest you leave it alone, she is insane and there is no telling how she will react to anything. the last thing i need is Ras trying to kill Jim because Jim had to stop Karrie from murdering someone here."</span>she took a deep breath and resumed her pacing.<span style="color: #ffff00">"Karrie is insane. like Zelina her personality is fractured. there is the original Karrie, the holy priestess she was. then there is the warlock she became. on top of that she has a Succubus personality. all three of them love Rachel but the warlock keeps the other two mostly suppressed but she is the one who is terrified of anyone who isn't one of her demons... that fear combined with her constant struggle to keep the other two suppressed is why she keeps hurting her lover. the only time Karrie stopped hurting Rachel was when the Succubus became dominant and made Rachel her Mistress, you should remember the time when Karren became part Succubus, that was Karrie's Succubus personality staging a revolt against the warlock, it spilled over the link and transformed Karren as well. eventually the warlock regained control, broke the Mistress bond with Rachel the Succubus had made and went back to hurting the woman she loves because she is too afraid of her to ever actually live happily with any non demon."</span>she took a deep breath as her pacing increased speed again. "<span style="color: #ffff00">i don't know how much you know about Rachel but that living Death Knight is an apocalypse in a bottle, she has all the power she needs to become a Lich Queen and barring Eternal intervention she could succeed where Arthas failed because she has a much better military mind and has about half of the inhibitions Arthas started with... anyway, Rachel has reached the limit of her emotional endurance, Karrie has hurt her too many times and she felt her self control slipping away. in fact when she started praying for help she did it because the urge to kill Karrie and enslave her soul was becoming irresistible and once she starts down that road it's apocalypse time. she asked Karrie to go back to being her bound Succubus in a desperate bid to return to those three months of happiness she got when the Succubus became dominant, she wanted things they way they were then but of course the high and mighty warlock was disgusted by the very thought of surrender her freedom to someone who terrifies her. i cannot stress enough that the warlock is terrified of anyone who isn't one of her bound demons, she just acts tough to throw everyone off."</span>her pace increased back to the dizzying one she had earlier though her voice remained clear.<span style="color: #ffff00">"Ras was the one Rachel was praying to but he was too busy having sex to listen to the desperate pleas of the woman he wanted to marry his daughter... The'kal got involved but she did it The'kal style, she just does what she thinks is best and then has a fit when people aren't grateful... The'kal stormed off when they weren't happy with her and i stepped in."</span>her pace increased even more so she was just one blur of color moving back and forth.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "i removed the slavery collar The'kal had put on Karrie because that would have made the warlock into a spiteful cunt and ruined what little good will Rachel still held for her. then i tried patiently discussing the issues, Rachel was quite open, she allowed me complete access to her mind making everything very easy for me to figure out on her end. the warlock on the other hand went out of her way to be antagonistic because big surprise, she is terrified of me. i tried reading her mind and she violently resisted and managed to suppress the priestess and the Succubus so hard i didn't detect them but what i did find was all of their shared... thoughts, feelings, emotions..."</span>she stopped suddenly and took a breath.<span style="color: #ffff00">"now, i cannot stress enough that by hiding the priestess and the Succubus the warlock obliterated any chance i had of actually helping them... how do i put this in a way you will understand..."</span>she thought for a moment before she she created a table in front of Arlokk with three hallways with many doors on either side.<span style="color: #ffff00">"this is how i try to explain the mortal mind to people. behind each door is your memories, your fantasies, your fears, your doubts... everything that is in your mind is behind one of these doors."</span>a letter appeared on the floor on each hallway, one marked with a P, one with an S and the last with a W.<span style="color: #ffff00">"if the warlock wasn't suppressing the other two i would have found it like this, but she suppressed them and so i got this."</span>she squished them together and the rooms merged and became bigger.<span style="color: #ffff00">"now i was dealing with the thoughts, fears, fantasies, desires, all of it, for three completely separate personalities all jammed together, mixed up and contradicting each other. now, usually when i deal with someone like Karrie, combative and fearful but secretly wanting my help i have learned that picking one thing they desperately want and focusing on that makes them cooperate to get it... not knowing i was dealing with three fucking people in one mind i picked one of the priestess' fantasies that she desperately wants and that absolutely requires Rachel. the priestess is the weakest personality and this particular fantasy disgusts the warlock so much she would rather be dead then ever let the priestess indulge it."</span>she looked out the window but Arlokk would practically smell Order's shame and regret.<span style="color: #ffff00">"Karrie called me a liar so i upped the confrontation and dragged her into her own mind to show her i was telling the truth. i still had no idea what i was dealing with, she had the others that completely suppressed... i confronted the warlock with the priestess' fantasy and just how badly she wanted it. from that point on, having been forced to watch her body go through the priestess' fantasy the warlock only attacked me. i don't know how Karrie learned about Delithia, my mortal lover but she attacked my priestess with all the power at her disposal, Infernals rained down on my mate's home, Legion skyships bombarded the place. all useless because i take absolute precautions with everything i do, the sun could explode and Delithia would be safe in her home... but it... i lost my temper, i left Karrie's mind anything but gently, i stripped her of her powers so completely that her demonic sanctuary imploded and killed all of her pet demons. i created the items Rachel wanted with no regard to how Karrie would feel should those items be used and told her that i had taken Karrie's powers away. i left items the priestess would appreciate but i still didn't know about the three personalities and i left Karrie powerless and left their home."</span>she shook her head and crossed her arms.<span style="color: #ffff00">"the warlock, being too terrified to live powerlessly went to the kitchen and slashed her wrists but she didn't cut deeply enough to actually die. i had long since knocked Rachel out to discuss Karrie's deepest desires without divulging them against her will... Rachel woke up to find the woman she loves in a pool of blood in the kitchen and she lost it, but like all things an icy Death Knight does she did it coldly. she carefully bandaged Karrie's wrists, she carried her lover outside, tied her to a chair and then went to gather all the things she has acquired to fulfill the one desire all three Karrie's shared. they wanted to have a child... Rachel had been working in secret for six months to gather baby clothes, blankets, bottles, toys... you name something a baby needs she had it. she had also hand crafted a beautiful crib for their baby to sleep in, it really was a work of loving art. she threw all of the baby stuff into a pile and waited for Karrie to wake up, she was going to set it all on fire, make Karrie watch it burn and then throw her on the pyre."</span>she took a deep breath and shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"The'kal intervened, again... she is the one who either knew about or discovered Karrie's separate personalities. she even gave them all separate bodies but Rachel hated that. she had very fair objections to each shard of Karrie, she only wanted her as one whole person. The'kal agreed to put them back together if Rachel would give Karrie one more chance and Rachel agreed on the condition that Karrie promise her the obedience she asked for in the first place. Karrie agreed and things might have worked out if not for my blunder... my attack caused all three shards of Karrie to fixate on the contested fantasy and they told Rachel about it, each from their own perspective on the fantasy.</span>" tears were slowly sliding down Order's face but she was still staring out the window.<span style="color: #ffff00">"once Karrie was recombined the warlock took control again and fixated on the fantasy i had traumatized her with... Rachel just wanted to relax but the warlock kept pushing so Rachel decided to test the promise of obedience this last chance was based on. the warlock failed the test, but Rachel decided to enact a second test, this one to see if Karrie trusted her. she even told Karrie she was testing her but the warlock is too fearful to ever actually trust Rachel so she failed the second test as well. Rachel went through some motions just to shut Karrie up until she could get in touch with Ras and have Karrie removed from her life without having to murder the woman she still loves."</span>she grimaced and shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"Ras, tried to fix things but it was far too late, Rachel told him to either remove Karrie or she would murder Karrie and force his hand one way or another. Ras even had the balls to ask me to strip Rachel of her powers because we can fix the problem by blaming and crippling the victim... i cannot remove the Scourge brand from Rachel's soul without obliterating it so i refused on those grounds. so, in a fit of theatrics or maybe as a last bid to make Rachel reconsider he faked Karrie's death and left Rachel to cry alone in her house where she then rotted out the nursery she had made for the baby she wanted to have with Karrie."</span>she shook her head yet again and sobbed quietly.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i destroyed my granddaughter's life because i am not a god... i am not all knowing or all powerful... if... if i had just known about her other personalities... i... would have handled everything so differently... and you keep calling me a god... i have been fighting not to punch you since you said it the first time."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>