<span style="color: #ffff00">"that does not replace the satisfaction i got from helping her... and I'm still not convinced that i can just let them go."</span><br/><br/>Ashia watched the children and scoffed softly.<span style="color: #404040">"and Emily calls you bullies..."</span>she looked up at Vyre and slowly nodded.<span style="color: #404040">"yes, it sounds as insane as your continued demand that i get along with him despite everything he has done to me. it sounds as insane as my infant daughter calling me a liar and trying to run away from me for telling her the truth about why i hate him. Emily threw a fit and protested him even admitting that he had wronged me... more and more of the people in my life are taking his side against me but i am the victim, not him. i forgave him over and over again but i can't do it anymore and that does not make me the villain, that burden still rests with the person not being forgiven. you wouldn't ask Anna to forgive her ex for the abuse he inflicted on her and you certainly wouldn't mistreat her for refusing to forgive him. why am i the one expected to forgive my abuser and persecuted for not giving him a fiftieth chance? and even if i could overlook everything that happened with the curses he came after me again. he sat at a table and dictated the decisions that were to be made regarding my children regardless of how i felt about it. Ras is a monster and i would rather be dead then ever have any further contact with him. Order killed me, i will not speak to her again. Trinity violated my body with unwanted enchantments, i will not speak to her again. three people and three separate reasons for severing contact and i am not asking you not to contact the Eternals, just Ras. if someone i loved treated you worse then an animal i would have killed them before Order came and i would cut them off completely since she wouldn't let me kill them for it. you've witnessed Ras' abuses first hand so you know I'm not making it all up... i am painfully aware of everything i may lose, but i will be free to live my life without being threatened, bullied and dehumanized by a monster."</span>she shook her head and took a deep breath.<span style="color: #404040">"when Trinity brought Ras and i back she locked us in a small room and threatened to kill us again if we so much as insulted each other. if i had given up or wanted to die i would be dead and i would have taken Ras with me for driving me to this point. i chose to come home to you. am strangling my emotions to talk to you calmly and as clearly as i can. i don't know what else i can possibly do to prove that i have chosen you above everything else in the universe but here i am." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>