There were two people on this boat Foran that in his own opinion thought of him as more than a monster. Verita and The Ashen elf, one as far as he knew was still in a coma as he hadn't seen her yet. Verita was now standing before him with the clear tone and making it very clear she would rather he was not around.<br/><br/>Not to mention the elf that was standing above him on a higher deck shouting down at him. “Corpse” “Zombie “Monster” all names he was used to by now. He had come up here to help Verita but now he was just to depressed to really do anything. He felt anger welling up inside of him but looking down at the small girl in front of him he saw the face of the little bird he saved and felt like he used to before any of this happened. Back in a cage, alone while people shouted thing at him.<br/><br/>The cage was gone but replaced with shackles, he was still alone, he still had people shouting at him. His face looked older, more torn apart, sleepless, but he hunched over, held his broken arm and the look on his face that from the angle they were at made him look like the old foran. The one who fell into a pond, was generally scared to talk to people and just wanted a hug.<br/><br/>Sneering the illusion of him reverting was gone and he stood tall towering over the girl. “You were trained to heal, that's what you do” He spoke in a darkly calm tone. “How would your teacher look upon you now?” He had no idea her teacher was family but that would only enforce what he was saying. Turning around he pointed at his back<br/><br/>His voice had been calm, and depressed. Not even giving the elf the satisfaction of looking at her or giving hint he had even heard her, he walked back down towards the ship, taking the stairs down. He stopped though, looking into the eyes of the man who had been watching him, remembering slightly telling him he was going to be raped. Just looking at him and not saying a word he has a “I will kill you” Look on his face. Though his face softened if only a little. “Want to get a drink?” was all he asked before he went back down to the lowest deck of the ship.<br/><br/>Taking the box of Rum from Verita's room and took it down to the place he had once had a hunting fight with Lilith not checking to see if the other man had been following him. He took out his own bottle and didn't take a breath while he empties it into his gullet. Smashing the bottle against the support beam of the ship. “Damn bitch wants to drink herself to death” He growled and took another bottle. Starting to curse and show off his large vocabulary on the subject he kept on cursing people out and blaming everyone else for his problems. Dorian was the reason everyone hated him, he was monster because of Verita, Lilith was more of a monster than him. In slurred speech he expressed all his hate and anger, even If no one had bothered listening.<br/><br/>On the fifth bottle now he could hardly make out words and was just growling in slurred half words grumbling putting names in every few minutes. Breaking another empty bottle he just looked at the box and tried to grab another missing twice before getting a hold of the neck before bringing it to his lips. Not taking a drop of it. “And she's dead because of that bitch too!” it was the first thing he had said even somewhat clearly. His mind had been moving faster than the alcohol was letting his mouth move. “She's dead” and repeated it two more times. “They're all dead...” Pausing  and taking a mouthful of the rum, the burning sensation of it going down had already been numbed and he was far to gone to tell how many he has had. “Everyone, we're all dead...” Trying to lean back he fell backwards and hitting hard onto the floor he coughed and groaned. “I'm going to kill them both, with my bare hands... with my bare hands.” He started to mumble and if anyone was around him they might have noticed the back of his head was starting to bleed black blood from the broken skin. He wasn't going to die from it but he was bleeding. “Why... why did this happen to me?”<div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>