<span style="color: #404040">"the fuck i can't! none of this is my fault. i would have cut all contact with him when the cult was imprisoned, you made making peace with him a condition of courting you. i spent five years begging and pleading for peace because you asked it of me but your friend maintained this feud. all i ever wanted was to make you happy, he chose to be a jealous prick and he finally got a reaction out of me. me losing my temper for ten fucking seconds after everything that has happened to me does not in any fucking way absolve Ras of anything he has done and it doesn't even begin to compare. every time Chiren calls Ras poppa it impacts my life and makes me want to puke. every time you say he is kind i have to relive all of the abuse and humiliation he has put me through."</span>she laughed bitterly and shook her head.<span style="color: #404040">"are you fucking joking? no, i will not be reduced to a drooling, catatonic idiot at the mention of his name for... for..."</span>she looked over at Vyre before shaking her head.<span style="color: #404040">"people who don't love me enough to have my back against abuse that they have seen with their own eyes."</span>she looked at Trinity and shook her head.<span style="color: #404040">"i died for her, i won't become a vegetable for her. she has a choice to make and if i hear one more argument from anyone i will take it as them choosing him." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>