Order shook her head and frowned.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i do not feel loved. i feel used, abused and rejected and i am done trying to change them. is that excuse supposed to matter to me? her fear of hurting me has caused me a great many injuries and her pushing me away has left me feeling depressed and rejected. i don't care what she says behind my back, i care that after busting my ass all day to do what she asked me to do she still made me feel worthless and unloved. i am in no mood for jokes or sarcasm. i am no longer interested in trying to have a relationship with Elerona, she is stupid and irrational and i am completely out of patience. i was patient with them, i have been here six months and i feel worse now then the day i arrived... you yourself reject The'kal at every turn, why is it wrong for me to do so?"</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>