Kalian sighed softly and looked at his father and then shook his head with a frown while the children stared at Ras in confusion.<span style="color: #ff4dff">"let's not have unpleasant discussions at dinner, please. Sharindia and i need to eat, not get upset."</span><br/><br/>Order shook her head and made herself another bottle, not that it seemed to be helping her.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "that may be quite some time... when Melody recovers i will be sending The'kal away to resume her education."</span>she looked at Vyre and grimaced.<span style="color: #ffff00">"let's ignore the dozen or so reasons that you could never actually carry out that threat... your not asking me to choose between lovers. your asking me to choose between the woman i love and the other half of my soul... there is no way for a mortal to understand what it is for an Eternal to have their other half."</span>she frowned and shook her head.<span style="color: #ffff00">"no, i think you could understand but you have no words for it because it's just not how your made."</span><br/><br/>Order nodded and sighed softly.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "i am aware of the condition... i am not broken, i am incapable of any manner of psychological break. it is antithetical to my entire being. if i had or could break i would cease to be Order on a fundamental level and we wouldn't be having this conversation because i would be dead or i would have joined the Counsel. that is still asking me to choose between one Broken Chaos and another. one is terrified of her own powers to the point that they are lashing out of control causing her more fear in a self feeding loop... and the other may have some unknown condition that is still beyond my power to help... and just what i need right now is another Chaos punching holes in my heart, oh, wait... i have just that."</span>she downed more ale and then switched to the whiskey.<span style="color: #ffff00">"your not upsetting me with this... its all thoughts that i already had in a fraction of a second when there were three of her... one of whom nearly destroyed our entire reality and had to be executed." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>