<span style="color: darkred">"she always was a big bully, be sure you tie her down extra tight next time you get her in bed, her ass is nicer for spanking."</span>she returned the kiss and smirked a little.<br/><br/>Elune looked at Ras before she turned away.<span style="color: purple">"what do you think im doing? im cleaning up my presence on this world, there are only a few things left to get rid of... talk to me in a few thousand years, we will see how thinly youve worn, how tired of everything you are. i dont want your pity or your saving Ras, i didnt come looking for you, you came after me. you came here to stop me from leaving but what was your plan? to yell and accuse and insult me? i know im a failure, as a goddess, as a person and as a mother does that sum things up for you? but there was one thing i was good at, floating around out there where i didnt hurt anyone and dont have to hear speeches. i was thrown out to float in the void and thats where im going, back where i belong... im tired Ras, and as much as i love you and Relene i dont understand this world and im tired of being alone and when im not alone im afraid. i didnt even think i could be hurt and i was afraid of everything. do you want to know what i need? i need one solid reason that has nothing to do with anyone else why i should stay. not for you, Relene, Sahra or anyone else. i need one reason why i should keep living here in fear and dread and sadness or maybe something to take all of those feelings away. ive seen this world long enough to know its doomed and it gives me nightmares... im just so lonely and afraid... at least you have a job Ras, what am i? im the child that was thrown away. i have no purpose, no meaning, nothing to believe in, no one like me to lean on or even hate."</span>she looked around them before she shook her head.<span style="color: purple">"i did try, i tried to find a way to balance my fear of this place against my hope but i lost that hope, i watched people i care about tear eachother apart because of my presence. i watched the woman i chose to live with hate my child while her own walked around oozing hatred for everything. and ive watched you scramble about, breaking every promise to everyone you love because you never lose hope or accept defeat, its beautiful to watch, its why i love you. i just wish i had an ounce of the hope you have." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>