she frowned before yelping quietly.<span style="color: darkred"> "hey! there is no reasn for that."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: green">"she would have to be sane to make that connection which she isnt."</span>the second Ras stepped though that portal he would regret it as he was suddenly falling toward Mulgore, no sign of the floating island that Amere had opened the portal to. before he could his however he slowed down dramatically but not enough to keep him from thumping into the grass.<span style="color: purple">"if your here to give me a speech go inside your house and keep it to yourself. i dont need another speech about responsability or being young or childish or any of it, trust me its been covered. if Amere isnt up to the task of raising Relene take her to Ysera, she raised Cenarius she will be fine. i gave Sahra a chance to come with me, in fact i begged her but do you know what she told me? that im incompetant and i guess she is right, i mean i cant even blow the world up right let alone protect it... i only got half of it the first time..."</span>she turned on him for a moment and even though there was no face he knew he was being glared at and she slapped him.<span style="color: purple"> "its not that i dont care what you want Ras but i cant stand myself anymore... the lonelyness...  so much lonelyness... the guilt... the pain... i need something to make the last fifteen thousand years bearable for me. im so tired of hurting everyone when i try to have a connection to them and i cant stand to keep watching with nothing for myself."</span>her voice somehow managed to be furious and choked with tears at the same time and she turned away.<span style="color: purple"> "do you think i dont hate myself? but what can i do? i just keep hurting people and then i hate myself more and it never ends..." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>