Ibara sighed irritably and pulled away.<span style="color: #ff8000">"great, thank you, instead of taking the metaphor for what it was just throw a joke at it. you can't fix me, there is nothing left of who and what i was... this fucking world finally broke me and i do not have the pride, stubbornness or anything else you care to bring up to fight anymore. i can't do it anymore... i cant. i can't ... i can't keep fighting with nothing."</span>she looked at him after a moment and nodded.<span style="color: #ff8000">"i know i will get hurt again, over and over and i can't fight anymore... i think for every decent Timelost like you there are at least four, possibly six monsters like Karren and Karrie. The'kal doesn't reproduce like Elerona does and Order doesn't reproduce at all. so, I'm sorry but your presence doesn't exactly inspire hope. things never get better for me Ras, my whole fucking life was an endless shit show and back then i had the Loa and Elune watching over me and giving me powers. now i am just a useless, broken, abandoned, powerless, half breed child of rape. yes, the rage fueled vengeance bitch me defended Animus from an arrogant little twit of an Eternal and yes, i did consider Animus my friend. but Animus is logical, she knows it was only a matter of time until i had to be replaced because my outbursts were growing more violent. she knows that the city has to come before my broken soul."</span>she shook her head and closed her eyes.<span style="color: #ff8000">"no. he is safer where he is. i am even more unfit to be near him then i was before Order undid Eldryn's work... she was a raging bitch, i am just a broken, pathetic waste of space."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>