Kalian shook his head with a frown.<span style="color: #bfbfbf">"i understand that, but i have no children to focus on and i will not give up on her. now, why don't you start telling me some of your recipes so i can fill in this book?"</span>he motioned to the already constructed tome and smiled.<span style="color: #bfbfbf">"i have made books before."</span><br/><br/>Order shook her head and wiped her face but it was rather futile.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i cannot kill her, even if i wanted to, no one can. i am the only one with the power but my power doesn't work on her and hers don't work on me... my only choice is to try to help her stop causing this kind of mess but she is so afraid of herself that she just keeps doing it." </span><br/><br/><span style="color: #ffff00">"the entire history of engineering on this planet, hell, every damned planet argues with that assessment... i watched his one man, he was trying to produce unlimited energy and he was on the right track but he made one little mistake and the resulting explosion set the air on fire and killed two billion people in less then five seconds... it was horrible but it was just an accident."</span>she shook her head and sobbed again.<span style="color: #ffff00">"if i abandon her she will just get worse and it will be my fault and i still love her... Melody is hurt, she can't help anyone right now. yes, Delithia but how do i look her in the eye after what i just did? how can anyone look at me after that? i want to gouge my eyes out so i don't have to look at myself. that other one just needs to leave me alone, she was supposed to leave... she had seven million chances to go find some other Order who didn't already have a Chaos but she decided to stay here... she has no desire to make my life easier."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>