Elune looked at Ras and shook her head but she did give him a pained smile.<span style="color: rgb(128, 0, 255)"> "you dont know how much i wish it worked that way... but if it did do you think The'kal would be so miserable? each time i made a new body for you it would change your brain structure and chemistry and therefore your personality. why do you think your temper is so much worse then the average Trolls? The'kal has done that to you too many times already. i can extend your life several thousand times over what it should be but the mortal brain is so delicate... i could never get it perfect because im not perfect. your soul, the core of who you are is unchangable but all it takes is me crossing one wrong wire and suddenly your xenophobic, or a homocidal maniac or incapable of love... and the thought of you looking at me without love in your eyes is even more painful then the thought of losing you. when that day comes i will put you in my realm where you can live with all of our family forever but i cant live there with you."</span>she nodded and kissed him gently.<span style="color: rgb(128, 0, 255)">"i love you too, and it does help. i just wish i hadnt pissed Order off, these memories suck."</span><br/><br/><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0)">"reasonable or not its still not your fault. and i am a paladin, im not supposed to put my needs or desires first but i did."</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 51, 102)">"Shauna, if you ever trust me about something trust me on this. never putting yourself first will turn you into a monster because the light inside you will go dark." "i<span style="color: #ffff00"> am a paladin, my Light can never go dark."</span> "im not talking about your magic. im talking about the light inside your soul that makes you a force for good in this world, if you dont nurture that it will die. your welcome Saerwynn. i am working on teaching hm to be reasonable... he has gotten this far by being kind, loving, honorable, generous, charming, devilishly good looking and great in bed but he is rarely reasonable. his temper is legendary, he is so stubborn he could wear down a mountain and he tends to go overboard to the extreme."<span style="color: #808080"> she smiled a little and returned to the table.</span> "but i have to say his best quality is his capacity to improve on his flaws. when Amere first met him he was cold, prone to rash behavior, had little if any regard for the lives of others, sarcastic to the point of being rude and he could be downright mean." </span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>