Order shook her head and frowned a little before she raised one hand and a image of a brain floated out of Ras's head with all the lights of the neurons firing.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "this is your mind, these lights represent your thoughts, feelings, memories and the sensory input your currently processing. this is a live representation of your brain at this very moment."</span>a much larger orb appears that was just one pulsing ball of lights.<span style="color: #ffff00"> "my mind works more or less the same but twenty millions times more active. neither alcohol nor meditation can help me because they both have physical effects that cant help me... no matter how intricately i connect myself to this body i am still not a physical being and so my mind remains clear and perfectly active. i could drink every drop of alcohol on the planet and it wont affect my actual mind... there are only two ways for me to get even a moment's peace. erasing it all or when The'kal and i mate the Eternal way because that pleasure is real for me, not remotely felt through a fleshy puppet."</span>she shook her head again and squeezed The'kal.<span style="color: #ffff00">"i think its the sheer magnitude of our past and future that you cant comprehend. its not your fault, you just have no way to understand the scale of our suffering and the concept of it never, ever ending. your mind isnt made to understand forever because you wont live that long."</span><div class="messageTextEndMarker"> </div>