"RGH! I bet I just completely screwed up right there!" Noel nearly shouted as Sam began to leave. He smashed  his fist down onto a boulder nearby, shattering it with a thunderclap that echoed across the camp, and then he sat with his face in his hands. "I'm such an idiot. How could I expect anyone to really understand how I feel; they haven't experienced what I have, they don't know what it's like to watch your friend die in your arms. And now when I think I feel something similar to what I almost had before, I go and screw it up!"<br/><br/>Noel sat there, next to the pieces of the boulder, his body still wet from the hot tub. His eyes he was fairly sure must have been golden right before Sam got up and left, because he truly felt happiness at that moment, but now they were a dull grey, as sadness overcame him.