The kiss was far too much, yet not nearly enough. Sirius yearned for Remus to stay closer to him and it took everything in him to not reach out for him and pull him right back in his arms. He didn’t want Remus to go but he knew that it was not his choice and that he had absolutely no say in it.<br/>The crack from Remus apparating was nauseatingly loud in the empty flat and Sirius felt like Remus had taken a part of him with him and now Sirius would have to do without. He wanted to cry, but he found that, while the tears welled up his eyes, he couldn’t get them to fall. He had a terrible ache in his chest and he absolutely felt like vomiting.