Jenny sat down next to Mark. She wasn't sure that she was ready for this discussion but here goes.<br/><br/>"If you want to know the truth, I am attracted to you in a very big way. Yet I am scared to commit myself to someone I barely know. I want my children to have a wonderful father. One who will be patient. I see that in you. I want to feel protected. I do feel protected when I am with you or if you leave me to do something for I know that you will be back. I want financial security and good schooling for the children. I can provide that with my career at the magazine and still be home with you and any children. I would only need to occasionally go to the States for a quarterly meeting or a few other events. But I doubt that you would go to the city for even a day. Because of that one thing, I am holding  back my feelings for you. " Jenny admitted quietly.<br/><br/>"Do you really think that it is necessarily to have that stuff around? What would happen if a child get hold of it? Poison is very dangerous thing to have with you. Men will take you as you are dying if they are desperate enough to want sex with you. Or even if you are dead. They would know that you wouldn't sue them for money or child support. Put it away, Blue. I don't want to think that you would end your life just because you are raped like Jenny was. yes it would be hard but what if you were pregnant by the man? You'd be committing two murders in one. Or possibly more if you were pregnant with twins or triplets." Tom turned away to hide his face. He couldn't look at Blue and think about her taking her own life. Nothing is too impossible to bear with time and someone who honestly cares about you.