When Remus smiled at him, Sirius found himself smiling as well, some of his nerves slightly alleviated by the sense of normalcy there was in the smile.<br/>“Yeah,” he parroted, unsure exactly how he was going to start his conversation, but at least Remus was acting normal around him and that caused some of his nerves to ease up. That didn’t stop his hands from tugging at his sleeve, needing something to keep himself calm.<br/>“I guess I just wanted to explain myself,” he stated, knowing that Remus likely wasn’t expecting him to explain anything, but Sirius definitely felt the need to tell Remus that<span style="font-style: italic">he</span>hadn’t been the problem, rather the people that Sirius had been with in the past.<br/>“I just haven’t had the best experiences in the past with…” he trailed off, wanting to be able to say the word but his cheeks were heating up while his throat knotted up as well, feeling embarrassed by even having to talk about it, but he wanted it to be out in the open, feeling that Remus deserved it.<br/>“You know,” he ended up adding, glancing up at Remus while trying not to die from embarrassment.