Brian lifted his head slowly to look at Kat, "Well, when I was little, my mother always told me to not hate. To love others no matter who or what they were. I always took that to heart, even if I got beaten up for it. I was never a fighter to begin with, which is hard to believe that the cops would think I'd be the murder suspect.." he was quiet for a moment. "If she hadn't passed away with that illness. If she had gotten through it and lived, maybe everything would have been different. My life, would have been different, don't you think?" He wondered what kind of life it would be. "Though, if it did change, I probably would have never met you... You'd probably still be trying to kill yourself.. And me, well I don't know..."<br/><br/>What would his life be like then? Well, he'd have his mother, and the fact that he would also still have his brothers. But then he would never have met Katherine. Decisions were always the toughest things for him, if it came down between friends and family, who knows what he would choose. "I guess I just keep all those hopes and dreams with me.. I try to not think about the bad very much... Even though, it keeps flocking to me." He looked down for a moment, breaking eye contact.