Sirius had thought that the lack of touch was what was going to hurt the most, but once Remus held his in his he quickly realised that that had not been the case. In fact, holding his hand like this felt even worse, because Sirius knew that Remus was going to leave and odds were that they were never going to see each other again. It made Sirius ache and want to never let Remus go again, knowing what it entailed to not be around him.<br/>“For now,” he said, biting his bottom lip and doing what he could to keep himself together. He loved Remus with everything he had and it pained him to have to let him go. “Don’t say things you don’t mean.”