"Would it please you? Kate, I can never have a holiday. Not really and not truly." He moved back so that she could enter the room more. "What would they say if they saw me sitting there beside you? Like, actually sitting there beside you. Not slightly behind. Not lower on the floor. Direct even." He rubbed the back of his neck and look down at the ground. "I don't want anyone thinking badly of you. Especially cause of something I did. It is a bit selfish, but I still don't want it to happen."