I got dressed feeling completely dead inside. I was a worthless person and did not deserve Brooke at all. I was now the type of man that I hated the most and felt like dieing. Kim was watching me closely and her earlier look of happiness was completly gone. I couldn't even look at her... When I stood up I felt completely numb from the shock of my actions. Kim didn't need that tape now..... it was true. I felt tears prick at my eyes and heard Kim step closer, "Eric look I'm.." Just one look from me made her shut her mouth and honestly if she hadn't I would have hit her.<br/><br/>I left the motel and called a friend of mine who I knew was at a party. I felt miserable and didn't want to have to face Brooke after what I had done so I figured I might just go drink myself into a coma...<br/><br/>Kim felt completely horrbile after Eric had left her with such a harsh look on his face. She had hoped that maybe she could win him over but showing him how much she loved him but he had hated everything they had done together. She knew it and had seen the spark in his eyes fade as though he was going through hell. She haf to make this right or Eric might do something stupid. She ran out of the motel but saw Eric no where so she ran to his apartment and was out of breath as she banged on the door.<br/><br/>Soon Eric's mom opened the door and smiled knidly to her making her want to cry, "Hey Kim. How are you doing? Um, I'm sorry but if you are here to see Eric or Brooke they are both out." Her heart sank at that but she couldn't give up, "Do you have Brooke's number? I wanted to ask her something."<br/>"Um alright."<br/>A couple minutes later Kim was back outside and calling brooke's cell. When the girl answered Kim spoke quickly, "Don't hang up it's about Eric. I don't know where he went of to but I... I made a mistake okay. I'm sorry.... I didn't want you to have him and I pushed him into.. doing something with me... HE didn't want to but I doctured a tape that would make you hate him if you saw it...."