Life was never meant to be easy, he knew that had lived it long enough to know this and even expect it. However, when it came to this moment, when it came to the woman he loved before him hurting and hating herself. Life became almost like a ravenous beast that was only ever satisfied when those who were forced to scrape by were on their knees wishing for it to all just end. No matter how much he had tried, how much he had forced himself to be patient and wait for her, this still happened. This awkward moment where she bared even more of her soul to him and he was left there standing before her.<br/><br/>Did he want her to go? Did he want her to leave his life forever? It would be easier on him if that was the case, easier because he would not have to look at her, would not have to feel like a piece of his soul was ripped from him. To constantly want someone, to yearn for them and yet not be able to have them was worse than any wound or pain he had suffered.<br/><br/>It would have been easier, to just have her leave, but was that what he really wanted?<br/><br/>“Maria,” again her name was but a whisper on his lips, though it was one that held all of the emotion he had refrained from speaking this evening. “Please, do not apologize. I know this is hard, that this is going to be hard, but the last thing that I want in this whole world…is you…gone...,” he raised his hand and before he lost his resolve he reached for her. Careful, gently with the utmost care he brushed the back of his fingers along her cheek.<br/><br/>“No matter what happens, I want you and will always want you…” tears welled in his eyes though he refused to allow them to fall. Instead there they stayed while, his eyes sought her own. “For whatever it is worth, I want to spend the rest of the night with you. Here, with no one else, just you and I. That is all I want…”