Dustin suddenly felt even further drained. For some reason when those shackles went on he got a really bad headache. This headache went away and then he whimpered. He didn't feel so good and he didn't know why. He had felt weak but okay until those handcuffs went on. "I don't feel so good...." He said in a voice that was quite slurred. The power draining handcuffs worked on him because he had powers even if he didn't know or realize it. "I...hate...you..." he managed to get out before Antony stuffed a ball in his mouth. Whimpering as tears trailed down his cheeks. The man made no sense...if he didn't fight he was mad. If he did fight...he was mad. He didn't know what the man really wanted from him. He cried out but he was too weak to make the cry come out.<br/><br/>He saw his beautiful and precious Reni Ren hurled onto the floor before the closet. Trembling as he watched in horror as she started getting beaten. Tears slowly started trickling down his cheeks. He was not understanding why Antony cared whether or not Reni listened to him. His mind was thinking he was sorry over and over and over again. His mind reverting back to when his father would beat him. It was just far more worse to see his love and lover being beaten then having himself be. He trembled and was so confused when she had been ordered to open her legs and her core faced him. She was wet...from being abuse? He didn't understand. It didn't make any sense. He didn't hate her. He could never hate her. She could break him by breaking his heart and his spirit by leaving him. By not loving him...it would destroy him.<br/><br/>It was killing him watching her enjoying the abuse but he loved her too much to hate her for it. It confused the hell out of him but never made him hate her. His eyes going wide as she seemed to be breaking down. As he heard and saw her orgasm so hard from being abused. It seemed harder then when he had brought her to orgasm. His tears grew harder as he saw her resolve to fight for him go away. It hurt...it felt like she was giving him away to Antony. <No...no...Reni. Reni please...please don't give me away. Please Reni I love you. Please don't give me away...no...> His thoughts were strongly thought and would reach her. At first that had been begging and hopeful but as he saw her features change they began to get less and less so. And more afraid and confused and then hurt. He loved her...did she just give him away?<br/><br/>Tears trickled down his cheeks hard when he heard her say the most horrible words to him ever...that he was Antony's mate and not hers. His heart still held hope but at the same time it was breaking. Antony's words made him feel even worse. <Reni....I'm sorry......> His thoughts trailed off with sobs that he didn't give. He as close to passing out. So much blood loss, between his cutting and Antony stabbing then feeding off him, to these shackling hancuffs then Reni giving in and...giving him away. He thought he was worth fighting for in her eyes. Any will to fight fled with her giving him away. He had strangely heard her words of I love you and forgive me but...it didn't help. He had seen her submit and just give him away because the man was an ass.<br/><br/>He began to feel even more like he had failed her. That because he had failed her and was terrified of touch he wasn't worth fighting for. He was breaking because he was so confused that it made him hurt. Antony's mind games along with hearing her say he was Antony's but then hearing I love you forgive me confused him. All this confusion had his mind going numb. He just wanted to die. This made his mind snap and this time....he didn't really have the will...to stop it. He began to do an old trick he had taught himself to make his father cease his beatings and being gentle. Make him throw him in his room knowing he'd revive. He began to shut himself down. Normally he did this to avoid pain. This time he was trying to kill himself even knowing it would fail. His internal organs began to shut down. His heart began slowing. His brain was ceasing to function.<br/><br/>Oh he heard Antony but he was already almost through shutting himself down. His body began to slump forward limply. It was obvious he had learned some strange trick and was attempting to kill himself. He was so confused and hurting and wanting to forgive Reni yet at the same time he sorta felt like it was all his fault she had given him away. He didn't understand what he had seen. He didn't understand why she gave in and said he was Antony's. It was all too much and Antony's thrawting of his calming mechinism just made it worse. He used cutting to calm himself. To take away the pain and make sense of it. Then Antony turned it on him and made him feel pain from a brutal two part stabbing. He managed to get out two words before his voice ceased to work. "Hate.......you......" His breathing was slowing rapidly. He just wanted to shut it all down. He just wanted to kill himself.<br/><br/>Then suddenly he felt it all starting up again. Fucking guardian angel. Why couldn't she just let him die? His breathing was shallow and he was really weak. "Reni....love you...." He weakly got out in a whimper. His voice told of his inner turmoil and his confusion to why she just said he was Antony. Did she...give him away? Had he failed her that much...that she...didn't want him? He was confused because then in his head he had heard her say she loved him. To forgive her. Why? He sobbed as he tried to form though. "You get mad if....I don't fight. You get mad if...I do fight. What the fuck you want me to do?" He weakly timidly spat out. Shock sending him into Kid Dustin mode.<br/><br/>The noticable change happened when he went from Reni....to Reni Ren. "You took my Reni Ren away. I hate you. I hate you. You don't deserve a mate because you don't know how to love them. Just property to you. Why you be so mean to Reni Ren? Why you make her scream in that way that isn't bad?" He asked in a confused and somewhat hostile way but it fled. "Why...did she agree with you? Why she...give him away?" Him refering to big Dustin. "No more hurting Reni Ren. Just tell me what you want. Why you gotta say fight one minute then obey me the next? I don't know what you want from me." He said. Crying noticably now. "Reni Ren....I love you Reni Ren. I am so confused. You gave me...away....." He said softly as he whimpered softly. He looked out at his Reni Ren and his love for her showed. He had heard her say she loved him and to forgive her. He forgave her yet at the same time he couldn't forgive her all the way. His mind and feelings withdrew from her but the love was still there strong. Just...he was forgetting how to smile. She had taught him to smile but he was forgetting because being her mate and her was all he had had to smile about.<br/><br/>He was so confused. He wanted his Reni Ren. She had started to fight for him but then she just gave him away. What was going on between his belove Reni Ren and Antony? Why...wouldn't she fight him? She had told him over and over again he needed to fight for what he believed in or wanted. So...did that mean she didn't believe in him or want him because she didn't fight for him? Nothing made sense right now and he ended up blacking out with a final strong thought to Reni. <Reni Ren.......did I do something...to make you give me away? I love you my beautiful Reni Ren. Please forgive me....> His thoughts then drifted off as he blacked out. His body had sympathy bruises from how close he had been to Reni while she was abused. They had connected that deeply that he had literally gone through what she had minus the orgrasm.