There was nothing that could make him feel better at the moment. Toshi attempted to take a deep breath and calm down, but it wasn't working. His vision was blurred by the tears, spontaneously gathering in his eyes all of a sudden. Ren's attempted joke came by completely unnoticed, but the statement that came after struck him like a lightning. He raised his head, looking up, and nodded slightly. His dark eyes were like bottomless wells of black, so deep and full of terror it was almost scary. It didn't matter that the girl may not have wanted to find him, she was going to drag him with tooth and claw... Unless he'd fight, that was.<br/><br/>He didn't wanna get caught and brought back. He wanted to live. It was a deeply-rooted primal fear of death and pain that was in him, even though a child of science, stuck maybe even more than in many. He faced the horrific pain and emptiness of death twice before, and escaped only narrowly.<br/><br/>And he grew afraid of it. Who knows what would await him if he'd be found and brought back?<br/><br/>One of his shaking hands went towards Ren, and clenched around his forearm. "Ren, you... Help me... You must help me... Please..." he whispered.