<span style="color: #FFFFBF">The white being was very glad at Auxana's words, she spoke back in parting. "I think Havoc would be glad that you have plans to beat him, I think he is scared of himself too. I think you guys worry too much, but I don't know." She smiled and then disappeared.</span><br/><br/>Havoc didn't see Auxana's face become flushed, if he had he probably would have decided against lying next to her afraid it might be something most people would know not to do. So he lay down next to her, facing her and smiling, he enjoyed being close to Auxana, it felt right to him. His body was very warm and oddly comforting. He then spoke about what he was feeling, his desire to protect her as well his fears of the dangers to come. "I care about you a lot, I'd face anything to protect you. Even if Dorgrin himself came down and demanded your soul I would fight him to the last of myself. Nothing is more important to me than your safety. So when we reach the upcoming village tomorrow, stay with me, I don't know what village this is but I've seen some pretty bad ones. Oh and I have something for you."<br/><br/>He took off a ring he was wearing and went to put it on her hand. It looked to be made of bone like most of his creations. He also had another one of it on his other hand. He had made one of them earlier and modified the one he had already a little bit. "If I'm not around and you need help, just whisper Seb to the ring, okay? I will hear you, and in the mean time the ring will protect you. I hope it doesn't come to that but just in case. And um, I made it so that if you have to fight me... The ring will still help protect you even against myself. I thought about how before when you were in the armor I made, I still had control of it and... I could have crushed you inside it if I had the desire to. I pray to every god that it never becomes an issue, but this is the stuff I worry about. With the ring that won't be a problem it works on it's own without my control. I want you to be safe, from everything, especially me."<br/><br/>He buried his head in her shoulder trying to hide his tears, he hated how he was, that he couldn't even trust himself. He was in a fair amount of depression but tried to think of good thoughts. He thought about how he was just glad to have someone like Auxana, for whatever crazy reason she didn't take one look at him and go the other direction in a sprint. He was glad he was able to keep her safe because he felt she was the most precious thing on the earth. Every good thing in his life right now was from Auxana, she made him happy. So eventually he looked back up to her face that was right in front of his and smiled. "Thanks for sticking with me Auxana, you don't know how much that means to me." Feeling better he slowly started getting sleepy and would eventually fall asleep.<br/><br/>___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/>He lightly placed his hand on one of hers, hoping that was okay. He wanted to help her not feel pitiful, to be someone to draw strength from. "You are basing your future on your past, if I did that then I would just expect to be hated and abandoned by everyone I grow to care about. Which would make me push people away as to not get hurt and then I really would be alone. Even if I believed you weren't good for someone for even part of the time, I would still say you deserve to be happy. The only people who don't deserve happiness are the people too obsessed with hate to pursue happiness."<br/><br/>He sighed and smiled lightly at her. "So don't hate my wife, dislike her, sure, I do, but I try not to hate not even just what she's done. But more importantly, don't hate yourself, that's the worst thing to do, that just sets you back from getting anything good accomplished. You've got to forget what you've done the best you can. If you don't stand by it now then it doesn't matter, you're a new person with every step. Norah, tou aren't doomed to cause misfortune, if it happened before, that's awful, but it doesn't define anything. We can change things, move on, move forward, reach where we want to be. But I tell you, even if you cause me misfortune, I'll try to be happy anyways. Can you really do worse than what my wife did? I think we'd have to have two kids together for that and then take them away from me. But even if I can't be happy around you for some reason, that would mean you wouldn't be happy either right? What kind of person would I be to force you to be unhappy alone? I don't make people deal with things alone, whatever it is, I rush to help, it's who I am, would you deny me that?"<br/><br/>He meant that, he didn't care how hard something was, he would never abandon someone with it. Not just because his wife abandon him, not just because of his own father's actions when he was little, but because it's what he saw as truly right and he would do nothing less. There was passion in his eyes, he didn't care if he knew someone for two seconds, if he judged them to be of good character, he vowed to help them however he could. For a very long time he wanted to be a kind of heroic person, he always saw Kor'bin's sacrifice for the monsters as inspirational. His first instinct to a problem or dangerous situation is to protect others, sacrificing himself if he needed to. His views of being able to help everyone in some way were unrealistic and overly optimistic. But he wanted to help people so bad that he had to believe he could.<br/><br/>He smiled kindly at her and looked into her eyes and saw someone he liked, it had little basis in anything, he just liked her, it was the same feeling he got with his kids. It wasn't off of anything they could do for him he just wanted the best for them, more than just anybody. Why he had this feeling for Norah, he wasn't sure, maybe it was because she reminded him of his childhood crush that he didn't pursue and went for his ex-wife instead for what now seemed like stupid reasons. He never let himself regret that decision, because his children were byproducts of his choice. He didn't even like the idea that he liked Norah just in similarity to that girl. He decided that though her personality was similar, Norah was her own person and he liked her for what he saw of her. The fact that he liked them both did make sense since both their personalities were ones he appreciated. The main difference was he liked one with wistful nostalgia and the other with a gladness of her being around, at least for now. He tried to put his thoughts of the past to the back of his mind and stay in the present.