Hope didn't know where this flirtatious side of him was coming from but he couldn't seem to help it. Alex was a very attractive man and he had done everything in his power to make sure Hope was safe and taken care. That in Hope's eyes gave off the image that Alex cared about him. Hope didn't know what he wanted, all he knew was Alex brought on this sense of calm. As if it was the sea on a high tide, washing over him. Crashing into him, even submerging him in it. It was so overwhelming because he had never felt such a thing before in his entire life. He was so new to the idea of love, lust, or even growing feelings for someone.<br/><br/>Hope was hardly never the shy, wounded, innocent child he was while he was going through the hospital process. Getting off the streets. He always kept everyone at an arm's length away. Never allowing anyone to ever come close enough to where they could hurt him again. Hope wanted to tell Alex the truth, about how sweet and kind he had been to him. How he brightened up Hope's world just by walking into the room. Hope didn't just have these feelings and emotions because Alex was helping him out. He felt a connection indescribable by any human words, a gravitational pull as if it were destiny pushing the two together.<br/><br/>Hope was getting lost in Alex and knew that this was probably too surreal to be true, that perhaps he was laying in some alleyway. Peacefully slumbering to himself, scum and trash at the world's feet. Yet to himself, so deep in this dream it surpassed all the bad. As if all he needed was the illusion to make him the happiest, wealthiest man on the planet. Hope blinked several times as he heard Alex claim all he was doing was trying to get him better that they needed to take it one day at a time. "Oh yeah." He said in a very off tone. It snapped him out of his thoughts and wonders.<br/><br/>But it wasn't until he felt Alex move away from him is when he felt a sting, but this time not in his arm. Somewhere he was very used to a sting, it was like reality snapped back into him. What he thought he was feeling, the safe security Alex gave him was now faulty. Alex could indeed hurt him as well. He thought that no matter what he did he would always have him under that mystical spell. "I understand." Hope stood up and wrapped his fingers around the shiny, metallic IV stand. He listened closely to Alex, he had an attraction to him but he was afraid. "Well you shouldn't be. But I get it. Take it down. Gotcha."<br/><br/>Hope went hollow in his facial expression and was crawling back into his shell. Why was it that he believed that someone could love or care for such a screw up like him? Hope looked down at the ground and sighed as he slowly made his way to the door with the IV bag by his side. "I will be around.." He softly spoke as he made his way out of the office door in somewhat of a rush. Hope knew that Alex was probably going to follow him or claim he didn't mean to push him away by stating what he did.<br/><br/>But it was all he knew how to, when it came to protecting himself or his emotions he always ran off. Closing himself off from the world. Hope rushed into his old room and sat on the floor, closing his eyes. How could he been so stupid? He thought this notion over and over. He needed to put up his wall again before this got dangerous and ruined the only good thing he had in his life since his mother.