Dustin just blinked and looked at her. â€œNo...this I did not know. I can not help it. I still have to do it.â€ He said. â€œMy grandmother is some big shot of this country. Royalty or something. I dunno. I havenâ€™t ever met her. Its because of her I am even here.â€ He said softly. He rubbed his arm. Listening to her talk. â€œI didnâ€™t. I didnâ€™t know anyone here wasnâ€™t human. Iâ€™ll go outside next time. Next time I need to do it.â€ He spoke softly. He rubbed the non cut arm. Looking at her. Pain flashed through his eyes. He looked down. â€œYou are right I donâ€™t know you. I canâ€™t let you close for fear of getting hurt. People close is dangerous. I have learned this.â€ He started out. â€œYet you wouldnâ€™t understand why I do what I do. You would try to make me stop I bet. Someone I told before tried. It wonâ€™t work. I need to do it. I have to do it.â€ He said softly.<br/><br/>â€œIt is how I survived until eighteen. It is how I feel true pain. It is how the pain make sense. It is how I know and understand the pain. The true pain. I need that true pain to stay sane. You donâ€™t understand the teeter totter I have going on inside.â€ He said as he didnâ€™t look at her. â€œThey drove me to it...my parents I mean. They drove me to it. You couldnâ€™t know what I have been through personally. You know why I know this? I know this because you are sweet. You are positive. You wanted to help me with my cuts even though you were mad at me because of them. It makes sense why you yelled at me now. The blood. Iâ€™ll go outside next time. Have you ever been on the cruel blades edge of venomous and viperish words Reni? Have you ever been the recipient to pain in which you did nothing to deserve it? Have you ever grown up knowing if you even so much as breathed wrong you were in for hell? Hell on earth. Do you know what hell is Reni? I know what it is. Iâ€™ve lived seventeen years of hell.â€<br/><br/>He didnâ€™t go into details. He lowered the hand from his one arm. The bandaging on his one hand was going red. â€œThen there is that guardian angel of mine. Fucker wonâ€™t just let me die. No escape. I have no escape from it Reni. The guy just wonâ€™t let me die. Iâ€™m certain by now Death is like what the hell? Are you going to let me do my job?â€ He said. Lifting his gaze and looked at her. â€œI bet even if you had tried to kill me somehow that asshole would make me live. Nearly dead but Iâ€™d be alive.â€ He looked saddened. â€œWhy are you nice to me Reni? I am a nobody. I mean I have this wealthy grandmother who I knew nothing about until those monsters were dead. Iâ€™m not scared of demons and vampires Reni...Iâ€™m scared of the monsterâ€™s who gave me life. Death doesnâ€™t even scare me.â€<br/><br/>he lowered his hand and showed it to her palm up. â€œThese cuts...I canâ€™t explain it to you. The pain they cause me...makes sense. That is the only way I can explain it. I am really sorry I caused you agony. Iâ€™ll take it ouside. Iâ€™ll go outside so you wonâ€™t have to smell it.â€ He smiled a bit. â€œReni...for a vampire you have awesome restraint. Which is why...I canâ€™t let you check them. Iâ€™ve tested your resolve and restraint enough already. No reason to tempt you.â€ He sat down and played with the guitar strings.