So many questions began to plague his mind just then and he started to feel even more compelled to submerge himself. Had he said the right thing? No, maybe not, he probably sounded so stupid or he didnâ€™t make any sense at all. Even he was starting to wonder if he had made sense and began to think more about what he had said just then.<br/><br/>To be perfectly honest Victor really was not sure what kind of response he would get from Mathias. If there was one thing that was certain, however, it was that he had never expected the other to say he was jealous of him. For the longest time he just stared at him dumbfounded and let the words slowly sink in. His brow furrowed a bit while he thought. Why was he jealous of someone like him? Did he really seem like he was so put together, if he did it was only because this business persona was really all he knew. It was something that they had in common with each other: the way they were, was all they knew. Perhaps the reason he had not gotten angry was because he wanted something different. He was around someone his age for once so he didnâ€™t need to be so uptight, right?<br/><br/>He shook his head, â€œI wouldnâ€™t be jealous of meâ€¦ I only know how to be this man of business my father is so intent on making me.â€ Looking down at the water again he put his hands together and started to fidget a little. It wasnâ€™t too noticeable under the water, thanks to the bubbles, but that didnâ€™t prevent him from making sure it went unnoticed to the best of his ability. â€œIf he finds out that I had let you come onto me like that, I know for sure heâ€™ll tan my hideâ€¦ Maybe thatâ€™s one reason I let you do it, why I didnâ€™t get angry. It was a way of getting back at my father.â€ When he finally mustered the courage again, he looked at Mathias with a partial sideways glance, â€œHonestly, Iâ€™m jealous that you seem to live carefree and are able to do so much. Iâ€™m bound by the job until I can find some way to free myself from my fatherâ€™s chains.â€<br/><br/>It was more than what he had wanted to say but he went with it. This was starting to make him a little emotional.<br/><br/>â€œLook,â€ said Victor suddenly. â€œCan we not worry about this? I mean, I donâ€™t think Iâ€™ll be get it out of my mind, I think we should talk about something else.â€ He hoped that Mathias would agree to change the subject, this really was beginning to get to him, the last thing he wanted was to lose control of his emotions and do something stupid, but what they should change the subject to eluded him. It was frustrating. No matter what he did, no matter how hard he tried, his thoughts insisted on going back to the times he and Mathias had kissed, it was driving him up a wall. Not that he was angry, he was justâ€¦ confused. Never in his life has he kissed another man, never had he expected it would be on the job. It was so strange. Why couldnâ€™t het get it out of his head?