She nodded her understanding about the cloning of Dathian DNA and committed it to memory for future reference of knowledge of all peoples. She thought to herself and sighed inwardly without him knowing she was still upset at all.<br/><br/>She walked along with him, his arms around her and the doors opening. She stepped in and looked around. She saw regular stalls, urinals and a large pool with hot water. She saw the showers and shivered at the thought. She remembered one of her nurse maids never let her take soaking baths. She claimed that they would make her sick and too much water in certain areas would make her unclean and no longer pure. So, she forced her to take showers. The memory started flooding back and tears filled her eyes.<br/><br/>She remembered how nearly every night until she was about sixteen the same maid would come in and disrobe her and take her to the showers. She remembered mostly when she was little maybe between the ages of five and nine how she'd disrobe herself as well and she would get down on her knees and wash her body for her. She remembered how she'd start by telling her that no one else should ever touch her the way she was because that would make her no longer pure. She made her think that some of the things she was doing to her were normal but, sometimes they hurt, or made her feel weird or uncomfortable. Then when she finished what she doing to her, she scrubbed her sensitive skin so hard she was red or had scratches on her from the sponges or clothes she used.<br/><br/>She remembered when she found out what she was doing was wrong and heinous. She told Hana about them, and Hana lost her head she was so angry. Sure, Kage's woman hood was never broken, that was proof from a few hours before, but she still had done things that was wrong to her. After realizing what had happened to her and what that maid done, the night she came in to give her her evening shower; she told her to leave and never come back that she could bathe herself and she was disgusted with her presence.<br/><br/>The maid had then gotten angry and tried to force her to do as she had always done. They fought around in her room and then just as she had tried to pin Kage down and choke the life out of her, Kage managed to grab the dagger she kept velcroed to just under her headboard and she was the first life that Kage had taken. She felt the maid's warm blood flow from her body and onto her hand. She remembered watching her eyes dim and feeling the last breath leave her body and never blinked. She remembered how she never once felt remorse nor did did she feel scared. She had seen how people would shake, tremble or scream when they took any life, be it human or animal for the first time; but she never felt that way.<br/><br/>"<span style="color: #BF0000">Xinyi...I- I need to tell you something...i mean, you are going to be my husband soon. I feel this is something you should know about me.</span>" She said and slowly she lowered herself into the hot water before turning to look at him. She had tears running down her face. Her eyes, held a deep pain in them and anyone who listened to her voice and saw her eyes they way they were now, would know that what it was, was horrible.  She looked at him and trembled, though she knew he could see it and feel it, then proceeded to tell him the story of it all. She left nothing to the imagination and told him everything, in detail, never leaing out one thing. It was graphic and it was upsetting, but she never looked at him.<br/><br/>She feared he would not look at her the same, see her as disgraceful or disgusting, as she once felt. But she had to tell him. And she told him of the other lives she had taken before her twenty-first birthday. "<span style="color: #BF0000">I'm sorry, Xinyi...but if we are truly to be husband and wife, I had to tell you of it all. I- I also, wish that you would only commit yourself to me...for a time...</span>" she added in her shaky, tear filled voice. "<span style="color: #BF0000">I will make you a deal. When the time comes I am to bear you a child...during the end of my pregnancy and the recovery, I won't say a word about any others, so long as it isn't Hana. And if you so deem it permissible, though against how I feel, I too will do the same with others, but only during times we are separated. I will try to adjust and participate in all of your customs as I am becoming wholly into your world, and kingdom.</span>" She stated and still without looking at him, and bowed respectfully to him.