Wyngs was about to correct River, but decided she would keep her mouth shut. "I want trying to guilt you into being with me." She mumbled as she held onto him in his sleep. "I was just saying..." a sigh escaped her. "I don't even know why I'm talking anymore. Your not even awake to hear me." She knew he couldn't hear her, but the word wouldn't stop coming out of her mouth. "I was alone, Riv. I had just lost you and my mom was so sick she could hardly move. For weeks at a time she would just lie in her bed, wishing she could die, it hurt so bad." She paused and stroked Rivers hair. "Do you know how hard it was to hear your own mother say she didn't want to live because she hurt so badly? It was like she was saying I wasn't enough to keep her going. I was never enough for anybody. Everybody ended up leaving me. None had come back till now. I guess I am weak in the way that I let other people opinion of me affect how I saw myself." She yawned and snuggled into Rivers warm body, glad for another heart beat to lull her to sleep. She opened her eyes, looked at his sleeping face, kissed his cheek and whispered, "I love you River. I always have and I always will." Before drifting off into blissful, much needed REM sleep.