Alex could tell that Hope was feeling much better and Alex was glad that he could have a part of how he was feeling.  Without even realizing it Hope was bringing things out in Alex he never thought was possible.  Alex was finally seeing that he could be happy with this young man.  He knew that this young man would love him through anything that the world put them through.  This incident in the cemetery just proved the fact.<br/><br/>Alex had to admit to himself out of any man he had ever been with that actually made him feel like someone could actually care for him that was not a relative.  No matter how bad Alex was trying to fight it he was going to receive Hope’s love and affection so he might as well enjoy it while he can.  He was sure sooner or later that Hope would realize that he was not worth it, but until then Alex would relish it.<br/><br/>Alex had know that Hope was making him smile more than he ever had before and he was glad, “I actually don’t mind smiling, but I am sure one day you might get tired of it.  Or miss it on the days that I don’t have one.”  As usual leave it up to Alex to find something negative about something positive, but hell he was trying.<br/><br/>Alex had hoped that Hope would want to go to Seattle and he did seem pretty excited, but he did seem a little nervous about working for Alex because he said that he didn't have any experience.  “Well I look at it this way.”  Alex started still rubbing his hands against Hope’s ass.  “While you work on getting your G.E.D. I can be teaching you to be my assistant.  At first you can just sit there and listen to what is going on and then when you start feeling a little more comfortable you can start taking notes.”  Alex smiled when Hope went to brush the hair out of his face.<br/><br/>Alex could feel himself start to grow the more the Hope wiggled in his lap.  The problem was Alex could feel Hope getting excited too and Alex was afraid to take that step in their relationship just yet. The kissing was wonderful and he wanted more, he was just afraid of that.  “Well if you don’t stop wiggling you are going to discover that hunger sooner than the both of us are ready for.”  Alex stated as sweetly as he could.<br/><br/>Alex could not believe how bad he was getting lost in kissing Hope and Hope was right when he said that he could never get tired of kissing.  “I haven’t been with someone like this in a very long time, so don’t be surprised if I screw something up.”<br/><br/>Alex was glad the subject was changed for the moment when the food was starting to be discussed.  Alex was very happy to see the excitement he could see in Hope’s eyes when he discovered that he could order whatever he wanted to eat.  “I happen to love Chinese and I have a store on speed dial that makes the best egg rolls.”  Alex stated as he reached over to push the speaker on the box to call Jamie Hope complained of being warm and removed his shirt causing Alex to gasp.<br/><br/>It wasn't that Alex had not seen Hope without a shirt on, it was he had not seen him this up close before.  Alex noticed all the imperfections that Hope had on his chest, only making him think of all the scars that riddled his own body.  In fact he noticed the small circle ones that Hope had and knew all too well what they were because if a person looked close enough they would discover them on his body, including a couple on his penis.  Alex shook his head and wanted to get his mind off of his thoughts before he got lost in the scary place he never wanted to be again.<br/><br/>“You see I will just move this one hand and push this button.”  Alex smirked as he hit the button to page Jamie.  “Jamie we need some Chinese take out if you don’t mind.  I want my usual and Hope can order what he wants.”  Alex smiled and let Hope order what he wanted and then turned his mind back to the naked chest in front of him.  “I must admit you are rather beautiful.”  Alex said and applied a few gentle kisses across Hope’s chest knowing he shouldn't be doing this knowing where it would lead if he wasn't careful.