Havoc heard his nickname be said faintly, it sounded like Auxana, but he looked at her, she was sleeping, soundly in fact. That was a relief to him, he closed his eyes starting to relax.<span style="color: #FF4000">Then his father spoke up, "Look at that, she's fine, no thanks to you. I think I already said this but she doesn't need you, and I highly doubt she wants a pathetic thing like you."</span>Havoc believed what he was saying, at least partly. He didn't bother trying to keep the tears from falling, after all Auxana was asleep. "It doesn't matter, I'm taking her to Lubinnia, she can't get there alone."<span style="color: #FF4000">His father laughed. "I see, and you think she's safe with you do you? You could go mad and kill her at any second. Actually, you know what, I'll do it myself, after you know some personal pleasure like I used to do with Mallory. That's why having a useless daughter was so nice. You could stop me, if you really think you can go against me." A small red knife was now in his father's hand, and he stood over Auxana's sleeping body. </span>He didn't pose any threat to her of course, but Havoc was delusional and thought he actually could.<br/><br/>Havoc's eyes didn't go black, they went pure white, white energy also surrounded him. He didn't feel like he like he was all powerful, he felt like he was just a pathetic man, but that he was a pathetic man with strength to do something that would give him a little worth. This was an even mixed episode, rare for him but it was equally depression and mania, his energy fueled his need to do something of worth, which meant protecting Auxana. His father brought this out of him, he felt pathetic and depressed for not being able to help Mallory before, but the need and ability to protect Auxana made him feel strong and energized. "Face me father! You will do nothing to she that I hold most dear! I might have failed Mallory, but Auxana will be safe with me now and forever!" Havoc had never actually known whether or not his father molested his sister, he only suspected and Mallory assured him he didn't, that's why he never did anything about it, because his sister didn't want him to and he never caught him doing it.<br/><br/>His father's knife turned to a blade, red and black armor formed around him. While Havoc became covered in white and gold armor, similar to celestial armor from a temple of Prolyne’s he had seen. The sound of battle music came from the white energy, he thought it was appropriate since the closet he felt to Auxana was with song. The then gauntlets shot out two large blades as he lunged and took a swipe at his father who blocked it. They parried each other’s blows one after another, then Havoc landed a hit with his armored elbow to his father’s helmet after a block. Who responded with a kick to the side, Havoc grunted, he actually felt it. Havoc and his father traded a few more blows, then Havoc fainted a strike with his right hand and then stuck at his father’s wrist with his blade at the armor’s weak spot. His father dropped his sword, Havoc then had white energy coil around his father, lifting him into the air, he spoke simply to him. “Don’t come back.” He then had the white energy crush him, his father dissipated in red energy. The white armor then faded, he sighed and smiled, he then went to lie down next to Auxana, humming her song as he did. He felt good, he protected Auxana and he faced that inner demon.<br/><br/>___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/>When vampires feel intense fear they give off this warning wave that makes those around them want to protect them. Every eye in the caravan looked at the two of them, Norah herself would have felt like Kryban was in danger and needed help. Kryban was terrified about the thought that he did what he did for himself, as that would make his ex-wife right about him. He did believe there was good and evil in the world, he believed that either an action was good, and maybe had bad consequences, or the action was bad, and maybe had good consequences. He couldn't stand the idea that he did something bad with the good consequences of being in control and being a hero in his own eyes, that was part of his ex-wife's argument, that he just did it so he could feel strong again.<br/><br/>As he was thinking, Torusk barked from the drivers seat back to the carriage. "Everything alright back there? Do we need to stop?" Kryban took a deep breath to steady himself, trying to keep his voice calm and level, only somewhat succeeding. "No, uh, everything's fine, nothing to worry about, I promise." He tried to clear his head, I did what I did, not to feel some gain by saving my children, but so they would be able to live well, to grow up strong and good for their own sake. I was ready to never see my children again as long as they would be fine. Being selfish would have been using my power to take my children from my wife. Even when she hated me I did not do something to hurt her. I live my life to help others, not hurt them. My ex-wife wasn't hurt by what I did, she let herself hate me for being a monster, I did what I did for her and our children, you don't get hurt over something good happening to you. She saw him as evil for being a vampire, not for anything wrong he did, she made that very clear the last time they talked. I'm not a monster, I didn't become a monster when I made that choice, I did what I always did, what was needed to help others period.<br/><br/>That line of thought put him at ease, he looked up at Norah, he smiled lightly at her. He didn't want her to think she hurt him in some way, even if she did in a way. He saw it important she didn't second guess her own actions just then, as he did his own. "You're fine, I think you should always strive to be better, it's not about invalidation. You do what you can when you can, learn from your past but don't let it define you. Be the person you want to be today, or work on growing into what you want to be. It's hard not to get consumed by the past, because it hurts, especially if you are trying to come to terms with all that's happened. I would do what I did again, my children still needed support so did my ex-wife. There was no other way they would have survived, it had to be done. I went into the land of the pentagram thinking I might have to live with never being with my family again, it was that or watch them starve. When I heard I was wrong and I would not only keep my sapience but would just work with them while still being able to be with my family, I was thrilled. So I haven't really changed my way of thinking, I do what I need to in order to help others, especially those I care about. And thank you, I think you and I will be good friends, as long as that's something you don't mind." Kryban still battled with being angry with his ex-wife, a lot, but he mostly he tried his best not to think about her at all, it hurt to much to. Which is why he hoped that this part of the conversation was at an end.