Spending time with Eric was quite relaxing, this tour was pretty enjoyable and admittedly there was a part of him didnâ€™t want it to end. It was nice to relax knowing that he had a stressful day ahead of him tomorrow that he would rather not have to face. As Eric explained various things to Ryan and showed him some of his favorite placed he simply listened quietly. He kept a soldier-like state of mind while he was shown around out of respect and always let Eric know he was listening to everything, throwing out some questions here and there and making an occasional comment. It really was bringing him back to his military days, which was beginning to feel more and more like forever ago, some of the memories returning to him were things he had forgotten and often wished he would forget for good, and he almost felt nostalgic.<br/><br/>It was a huge relief once they reached the â€˜gardenâ€™ area Eric had spoke of in peace. The hallway made him feel a little claustrophobic at first. Coming to the larger room, he felt a little more at ease, he immediately looked around to where Eric was pointing always listening intently.<br/><br/>When Eric mentioned seeing a side of Murdock he had never seen after explaining his little story he chuckled and said, â€œMurdock really is more than meets the eye, let me tell you, that man is always full of surprises. Even I donâ€™t know all of his little secrets and weâ€™ve been friends quite a long time.â€ He stared out at the endless sea of stars almost like it had been the first time he had seen space. Maybe it was because it had been far too long since he has seen space but it really was a magnificent sight, so relaxing. â€œThank you, dear Eric, not only for the tour but for bringing me here. This is quite a nice view and I do appreciate the peace and quiet.â€ He turned his attention back to Eric and gave a wink, â€œI am a man who likes his privacy, you know.â€<br/><br/>Already his little promise of behaving himself was slipping a little. He made sure to remain respectful at all times the more the soldier side of him took over but no matter what he would always be himself. At this point he was beginning to feel it couldnâ€™t be helped.<br/><br/>â€œMilitary history is quite fascinating, isnâ€™t it?â€ Another pause, â€œI grew up on military ship, my mother and father worked for the Gendahl fleet, though Iâ€™m sure the fact I was once a soldier is no secret by now,â€ he continued, deciding to tell Eric a little about himself. It was hard for him since he really doesnâ€™t like talking about his past, especially about his history with the military. Some people could ramble on for hours about their past, not Ryan, he normally kept his past to himself, Eric was lucky to even get that much out of him. Only a few people, mostly military personnel and close friends within the gangs, knew about Ryanâ€™s past and he liked to keep it that way. The past wasnâ€™t all that important to him and he didnâ€™t look at his own much unless he needed to; he was one of those people who looked at the present and future more.<br/><br/>Ryan smiled a bit, â€œI donâ€™t want to bore you with my past, take my word that itâ€™s not particularly interesting. Maybe it wouldnâ€™t hurt to share some things about me if it gives us something to talk about. Do keep in mind there are certain things I would rather not bring up, though.â€ For a moment he leaned in a little closer to Eric to study him, looking into those gorgeous eyes of his, â€œOr, you could enlighten me with something about yourself, dear Eric.â€ While he didnâ€™t mind conversing, actually getting to know someone, like really know them, was not something he did often. Learning more about Eric, aside from what he already knew and what he had been shown in the file Murdock had allowed him to look through, would be interesting. A nice long conversation might help him find some kind of answer as to why he was so fond of him.<br/><br/>It was so strange. Did he even want to find an answer? It has been a long time since he has been this fond of someone to where he wanted to get to know them more. What if this was one of those unexplainable things that had no answer? He was starting to regret giving Eric the option to fire off a few questions of his ownâ€¦ what would he ask of him, what if the answers were not satisfactory? More importantly why the hell was he being self conscious, Ryan being self conscious was a rare sight. It seemed as though every attempt to calm his nerves was making things worse. He subtly took a deep breath and waited for a response.