Matthew nodded. "Cool. Can you surprise me with one?" He asked softly.  "That would be so awesome. It be special because you are my best friend." He said honestly. He couldn't look at her after he said the part about dying. Lifting his gaze when her fingers rested on his cheeks as she made him look at her. "Before I had you I both wished for it and fought it. I wanted to live yet I wanted to die. I can't tell you why but I just did." He said softly. Listening to her as she continued. He hugged her to him. Nuzzling her hair a bit. "I know. I am glad I know. I feel actual happiness. Usually...I just fake it. Pretend it. Nobody ever noticed so it wasn't important to be happy. Nothing made me happy because nothing was good in my life. Then you came along and walked up to me. Brought a spark of life to the darkness that surrounded me." He smiled at her then watched her grab his hand. Stopping him from clawing at his arm. He intertwined their fingers as she held his hand. Looking at his friend and nodded. "Thats...thats good right?" He said softly. He held her to him. Closing his eyes as she spoke. Tensing at the male hand touched him and his eyes shot open. Drugged by he tensed as if expecting a blow. Relaxing as he realized he was okay. He blinked. "You have ears...and...a tail..." he said in a slightly drugged slur. The painkiller having been added a second dose.<br/><br/><span style="font-style: italic">The ghost doctor Vonnie walked over to Matthew and checked his vitals. Taking blood then looked at Tecca. "I need to speak to you outside the room." She said in a soft voice. Guiding him outside and shut the door. Looking in the crack. "He cuts himself. I found cuts on his arm in several places. A few days old. I don't know why he does but I'm willing to bet it has something to do with how he ended up here in youth intensive care." She said softly. "Just thought I'd let you know because you brought them in and might be able to look into it more."</span>