<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold"><span style="font-size: 150%; line-height: 116%;"><span style="color: #80FF80">Carlos Delgado</span></span></span></div><br/><br/><div style="text-align: center;"><a class="postlink" href="http://i1343.photobucket.com/albums/o793/Galvin_Fugazi/75418b36-82bd-4b2f-bdff-d44eb7e2deaf_zpsb78abdde.jpg">[ img ]</a></div><br/><br/><br/><div style="text-align: justify;">Carlos sighed and then he rolled her tenderly around to make her face him.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"No, it is not your doing. It is my own frustration. I was angry on you, angry for taking drugs, angry for throwing your life away, angry for not taking my help, angry for sinking so low....but most of all I was angry on myself, for not having seen that you lied to me when you pushed me away, for not seeing that you would have needed me at that time more than ever, for allowing you to go down that road. I was angry that I had never got the chance to show you how much I loved you. And I was angry for lying all those time to myself, by telling me that you never meant anything to me. I saw you, the wreck you had become, the hollow shell of your former self and I knew that I would never be able to forgive myself for not saving you. When you hit me, when you fought me, when you tried to escape me again, I...I..."</span><br/><br/>A tear was appearing in his eye and he wiped it away angrily.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"I didn't wanted to rape you. I love you, Lea, I didn't want it to end like that. But when I saw how low you had sunk, how caught in your own misery you were, I wasn't sure that I would be able to save you, I still am not, even if I will try all to save you. But I didn't want you to give yourself to me, to be like another whore. I wanted to remember you as the Lea you had been. And to hate me forever for raping you. It was my punishment to my own failure to rescue you, after you killed that kid. If you would have sold yourself like a whore, I would have always felt like I took advantage of my own failure. By raping you it would make it as worse as my failure was. It would double my pain in my memories..."</span></div>