Wyngs thought about Jed, how when she never had the words to say, her hands found a way. River had helped her out of the bench, but she had pulled her hand away and even though he didnt understand, she signed everything in her head. She signed that she was hurting so much from the pain of him leaving without saying goodbye, how much she had missed him. How she had wanted to see him every day when she woke up and how she had to be admitted to a hospital before she could sleep again. How her mother is going to die soon and she couldn't stop it, how much she cries every night worried for her mother, worried for herself.<br/>How much she missed him, how missing him had drove her crazy and that's where she had meet Jed, in the cocko's nest. He had tried to committ suicide and had failed, resulting in his hearing loss.<br/>How she needed his love more than anything in the world and how she had missed his heartbeat soothing her to sleep. How even though Jed had been there with her, she still wished she had him with her as well. How Jed's heart had a murmur so she couldn't sleep on his chest.<br/>she signed until her hands ached and they reached the car. Then she looked him in the face and did one final sign. A sign everyone knows, even if their not signers. With her index, pinky and thumb up and the rest down, she reached over toward him her hand above the car as he climbed into the car. She didn't know if he saw, but she listened as he started speaking. Listened to what happened with his cousin and the kids mom.<br/>Anger boiled up inside her as she thought of her own mother, showing up from work with bruises on her body. her hands balled into fists and she almost shut out what Riv was saying. She calmed herself and listened to him.<br/>Her expression changed when she heard something about a message saying she had moved on and she was with Jed. She had never left any messages, except for a couple that told him she missed him, but never about moving on or being with Jed, because she wasn't. She continued to listen and held her comments to herself. She heard the letters and knew she would one day get a hold of them. She waited until he talked himself out, and waited until he stopped the car.<br/>"River. I never left a voicemail about me moving on and being with Jed, cause I never was. I would never be with anyone. I couldn't. He understood, we had our own little world, just like you and I did. I would never date anyone. How could I when someone else had my heart the whole time?" She said more to herself then him. She didn't move when the car stopped, kept still just like River.<br/>Her other half.<br/>The other part of her that had left but had finally returned.<br/>"River." She said, running her hand through his hair, resting her hand on the back of his neck and lightly rubbing his neck. "I'm sorry. I know what its like to see someone you love bruised and broken. I've seen it more than once. There is only one person other than my mom that I have loved." She thought for a quick second before saying what she wanted to. "And I'm looking at him." She practically whispered, she was so scared that he wouldn't say anything, or worse, he would turn her down.