â€œYour brother was my everythingâ€¦ I was born to serve himâ€¦and to obey him without question. I went to a special school where I learned how to use my spells and how to fight effectively with him. He joined the same school when I was tenâ€¦he was very handsomeâ€¦â€ Hiya took a slow shakey breath his heart was aching as wellâ€¦ but he reached over and gently wiped away tears from Ryoâ€™s cheeks, â€œHe was my best friend and lover. We lived together in an apartment when he was not going home to you and your mother. While he stayed with me he only spoke about you. He told me your likes and your dislikes, he explained your father and motherâ€¦ I was informed on as much stuff about you that he knew about youâ€¦ and  I remembered if all because you were someone he loved, and that meant you were someone I lovedâ€¦â€ he cleared his throat some.<br/><br/>"Where were you when I needed help and before I started cutting?" hearing this Hiya sighed heavily and his cheeks flushed with shame. â€œWhen His first passed I was lost in depression. I wasnâ€™t suppose to live without himâ€¦ I should have died too beside himâ€¦with himâ€¦ but he had given me a command and since we were comepletely bondedâ€¦â€ he rubbed his head again softly â€œI could not disobey. So I lived, I lived with the regret that I was alive and he was notâ€¦ I lived knowing that I was not strong enough to protect himâ€¦I lived knowing I was not strong enough to protect youâ€¦ plus I needed something at that time you could not give meâ€¦â€ he blushed a little. â€œSo I watched you from a far and fell in love with you. I hurt when you hurt, I cried when you cried, and I rubbed your back while you sleptâ€¦ I worked hard and became strong, smart, and talented in my artâ€¦ I worked till I became undefeatableâ€¦ so thatâ€¦so that I would not have to live againâ€¦ without my sacrificeâ€¦â€ he downed the last of his vodka and poured more watching as Ryo ate. The hand holding the napkin gently reached over an rubbed at the corner of Ryoâ€™s lips ridding it of crums.<br/><br/>Hiya listened as the flood of wuestions flew at him. They were hard to hear because he couldnâ€™t give a good reason other then â€œThatâ€™s just how it is..â€ under his breath as he stood and walked into his bedroom. Once there he went to the closet and removed a large duffle bag he checked through it and smiled. It was full of clothes and things that Ryo would need. He walked back to the kitchen and dropped it on the floor beside Ryo, â€œI already bough clothes for you for when you stay here. I do not want you going back to that woman unless I am with youâ€¦ I can protect you now that we have had this conversation and I have delt with my turmoilâ€¦â€ he watched Ryo with careful eyes unsure of what the reaction would be. â€œYou can sleep in my bed I will sleep on the couch unless you would prefer something else..â€ he stretched â€œYou also need a bath.. I have your shampoo and such and bubbles if you want a bubble bathâ€¦â€ he commented downing the last of the vodka a small frown crossed his lips. â€œIt sucks, no matter how much I drink no effects befall it..â€ he chuckled softly grabbing a new bottle