<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 150%; line-height: 116%;"><span style="color: #FF0000">Major Tom ‘TT’ Theophilus Peters</span></span></div><br/><br/><div style="text-align: center;"><a class="postlink" href="http://i1343.photobucket.com/albums/o793/Galvin_Fugazi/0b1c5703-1ec6-4951-9974-ee41ec21aa28_zps54ccd4dc.jpg">[ img ]</a></div><br/><br/><div style="text-align: justify;">Tom sighed loudly when their second kiss broke. Karra was such an idiot and he was one too for not forcing her to tell him, what had been wrong all those years. But the truth was, he had not been able to ask her. Because it would have ended all. Tom had been torn all those years and it had been hell for him.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"Do you know that the last two years had been hell for me? That everytime you slept on the couch in my apartment I couldnt sleep for hours and hours? That I had fought with myself a thousand times to get up from my bed and walk over to you and declare you my love and ask you to marry me? That I started to think if there is no job outside the Air Force for us?" </span><br/><br/>Tom remembered those nights of worrying, fighting, crying in anger in frustration and it made him slump even more.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"I think I fell for this absolutely stunning beautiful but entirely complicated woman at my side after two weeks of shared duty. There was nothing in this world I wanted more than you, Karra. Having to watch you everyday gave me pleasures and pain. When I realised how crazy cunning you are in that wish to show everybody that you aren't weak, I knew that I had to protect you from yourself, from getting killed by accident. It turned practically into my second mission, protect Karra, don't allow her to die. Because I knew if you would have died when I had looked away, I would have never been able to forgive me that. It would have destroyed me. Ultimately. And at the same time I started to desire you, I wanted to put my hands on your body, remove these clothes that were hiding your perfect body from my eyes, I wanted to make love with you, disappear in the realm of endless sex drunken of love. <br/>Do you remember the three days off we had on the west coast one year ago? When we had decided to go to the beach and you got so totally crazy with me that I had insisted to remain there laying on my belly in the sand and reading a book, when you wanted to have fun on the beach? Karra, when you had taken off your top and put on that bikini top and I had seen your naked breast for a few seconds - I was so rock hard that it hurt. I could only roll on my belly to hide it from you. And I had to pretend to read a book and not to look at you, because everytime I did, I remembered this breast I wanted to kiss and I was digging some foxhole down there in the sand." </span><br/><br/>Tom smiled sadly at this memory. They had hoped for three days of fun together and after three hours on the beach Karra had been so upset of him, that they were happy when they got back on duty. It was one of the worst times he had to spend with Karra. And he had not been able to tell her, why he had acted so strange.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"Karra, I have told myself a million times, forget the Air Force and make her love you. I wanted nothing more in my life. I nearly blurted it out one time, when you had such a lusty look in your eyes, laying down on my couch and wishing me sweet dreams. But as much as I wanted it, I couldn't do it. I knew that they would have assigned you to another pilot and that would have meant I wasn't able to protect you. And I had to protect you. I didn't want to return from a flight, being greeted by the air force caplan to hear that you had a fatal accident. I..." </span><br/><br/>Tom's eyes watered and the whole stress of the day was in his next words.<br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"When Tania faded and I finally realised why she faded, that we were caught in another world, my first thought wasn't shit or we are fucked up. My first thought was, there is no Air Force anymore, now you can tell her you love her and we can finally start to fuck our brains out. I was so relieved about this prospect that it made the mission to keep this people alive so damn important to me. I didn't wanted to have the death of one of those folks always on our minds. And then you gave me nothing than hell today and I really started to wonder, if this is the real Karra and I had loved a wishful thinking all these years. That the real Karra would never be able to love me..." </span></div>