Wyngs tensed for a quick second when he said he'd missed her too and that she knew he did, because she didn't, she didn't know that. He'd just left, no contact, even though she had tried to call him many times.<br/>She knew his voice mail by heart, she tried to call him when she found out about her mom but no one answered. He never did answer, that had made her feel like she was left to fend for herself.<br/>Wyngs felt him kiss her head and forced herself not to turn her head to catch his lips. She knew she would fall for him again and then there was always the threat of him leaving again. She couldn't do it. No matter what he thought, he would always be her River. She could never be with anyone else, at least not completely.<br/>She realized now when they say not to build your life around someone. "I don't understand what was going wrong. Why did you leave? What did I do?" She was learning slowly that everything happened cause of her, or something she did before. She braced her elbows on the table and rested her head in her hands. "Why, River? Why did you leave without saying bye? Do you know how many nights I stayed up afraid to go to sleep, least someone else I love disappear when I got up again?" She ground the heels of her hands onto her eyes, trying to push the tears back. "What did I do?" The sob that escaped her throat wasn't meant to come out. But it had and she couldn't hold it back anymore. She broke into tears, but quiet tears, the kind that you can hide of you try.<br/>She went on eating as if nothing had changed and kept eating til she was down to her last piece. She slowly ate that one and wiped her face of the dried tears. "Ready to go?" She asked without looking at him.