Rinzin cracked his neck after the slap. Fuck, fix this Rinzin, he thought to himself, he put one hand up to his temple, sighing. "If you knew... no, forget it." He moved a little closer to Janaff and gave him a hug, no matter how it made him feel, he did it for Janaff. "I obviously said too much without thinking. And by the way, society can go fuck itself, we all respect and care about Seth, his flaws aren't damning. Hell if Seth thought I was the worst piece of shit known to existence, I wouldn't be upset, whatever his reasoning for that, are his and I'd understand that and just not let it phase me. That's how I was raised to be, other people's thoughts and emotions aren't supposed to affect me, that goes for the whole group.”<br/><br/>He hugged Janaff tighter. “Everyone except you, you tear me up Janaff, I can't just tell you everything about me, it would wreck me for you to see me as I am. You are a good person, I am a bad person, we aren't meant to be compatible. You know what makes someone bad? They do bad things, and don't care, I've done a lot of bad and didn't care about any of it. The only reason I even recognise them as bad is because of you guys, I’ve seen how you guys react to stuff, shows me that there is something I’m missing that normal people have. And being upset at consequences, like you distrusting me for something I’ve done, and being remorseful for the actual act are two very different things. Maybe not being happy is my penance, but I can't stand you being upset, so stop worrying about me."<br/><br/>He sighed again. “Look, maybe we will figure something out, maybe I can become a better person. Perhaps even find something that makes me happy, I’ve got an idea of what, but it’s just not possible, but maybe there’s something, I don’t know. But you have to understand, it’s hard when I really am willing to do anything I have before again to keep all of you safe. You’re the only thing that matters to me, and all my brain can think is: do whatever it takes for Janaff’s well being, and if it’s something he wouldn’t approve of, just don’t let him know about it. That’s how it would go down on a mission where the goal was to protect someone, but they weren’t the ones hiring assassins for protection.” Rinzin was specifically thinking of a time where he tortured a man’s enemy to find out the location of their leaders. The man would have raised hell if he knew an enemy of his was tortured for his sake, especially one who hadn’t done anything, because he was a good man. The assassins were hired by his adviser to do what he wouldn’t, and they definitely did.<br/><br/>Micha smiled at Seth, “Of course, I can lie next to you if you like.” She eased him down after he swayed then lied down next to him, just touching him ever so gently. She had to make sure not to fall asleep due to her condition, but she didn’t feel tired so she was sure it would be fine. Pascha and Micha always slept together, ever since the trip away where she died.<br/><br/>Pascha gasped as Selia touched her. “Mmm, S-selia don’t s-stop...” She moaned as she went and kissed Selia deeply. Pascha was having a hard time concentrating, all she could focus on was the immense pleasure she was in. The kiss didn’t last long as she too broke it to cry out in ecstasy.