Adira looked up from her place with a start. She was surprised to see Claire awake, but then again why should she be surprised? To her, Claire was always on her toes. She'd never seen her up this early like she'd been, but she was almost certain that her mind never slept. Her verdant, yet weary eyes looked to Claire and brightened a bit to her smile. She smiled a bit back, unable to hide her bit of happiness she'd gained from seeing Claire try to brighten up. If she really thought about it, Claire had been the one that she was most comfortable around. She couldn't exactly explain why, but for certain she somehow felt at ease.<br/><br/>Adira straightened up a bit, trying to be as presentable as she possibly could while knowing it could be impossible when you've got bed hair and morning breath. She had to agree with Claire though, these past few nights had been hell, but last night had to have been the most nightmarish one yet. She nodded her head in a agreement. "Last night was pretty bad. It was the first time I've ever gotten a good look at those things. And that new one....it was the most disturbing of them all." Adira bit her lip and pushed her glasses up on the bridge of her nose.<br/>Just thinking about last night/earlier this morning made her feel nervous. If those monsters could turn into something like that, then who knew what else they could continue to morph into. She closed her eyes, trying to shake the thought from her mind as quickly as it came. Right now wasn't the time to dwell on the past and that was for certain. She wouldn't want it to rub off on anyone else. People had habits and when bad things happened they always seemed to fall apart when fear got a hold of them. It was definitely something she didn't want happening to the group that they were in. They were all such good people with great attributes. It would be a shame if something like fear broke them up, especially not with their plan under wraps.<br/><br/>Adira looked over at Claire for a few moments. Her emerald hues narrowed just a bit so that her eyes would clear up. For some odd reason her vision was blurring again, even with her spectacles on. She wondered why this was the case. Taking them off, she cleaned them off before placing them on her eyes again. It was then when her vision finally cleared that Claire said something to her that surprised her. She needed her help? She opened her mouth and then closed it. The girl wasn't sure what she should say. Of course she knew what she should say. She should've said that she couldn't do it. Or something along the lines that she wasn't capable of taking on such a task. She cleared her throat and thought it over again.<br/><br/>How much help could she be of Claire? She just doodled on the map for chrissake! Exhaling, she nodded agreeing with her again, but reluctantly this time. She hated being in the middle of the stuff. She always felt like she was just getting in the way. She was a liability. Anyone in the group would say it. Adira never understood as to why Claire pushed her so much.<br/><br/>The wisteria haired girl began to feel as though her old friend anxiety was creeping up on her. Adira inhaled, then exhaled a few times as to calm herself and steady her voice. She didn't want to shout and she didn't want to sound afraid, even though she at least felt it... "I would love to help you....I would love to help you all..." She looked away from Claire. "But I don't know if I should be going out there. I don't know if that's such a great idea. I mean....I don't have any abilities Claire. I only draw on the map. I make suggestions and you take the lead. I've never...." She swallowed, gathering her thoughts. "I've never gone out there with you guys. Enough of you come back hurt or something and you all have the stamina and the weaponry. I'll just get in the way. What exactly is wrong with me just staying here?" She inquired. Her hands began to tremble and when they had she tried to hide it by clasping them together and holding still.<br/><br/>Going out there had not been her cup of tea. She was afraid of those things. Earlier when they'd encountered those two, all she had done was freeze up in fear. She hadn't gathered any type of courage to fire at them or anyting. She was just frozen. And when her legs had decided to move she ran away. It was in that moment had she realized that this was the reason why she didn't feel as though she was liked by the group and exactly why she truly wanted to get this whole shennanigan over with.<br/><br/>Well, yes of course she wanted to figure out herself and yes of course she felt like this benefitted everyone, but the reality of it all was even after this year she felt like she couldn't live this life. If it weren't for any of them she wouldn't even be alive, let alone be able to fool with a map. "I mean...I just...I'm sorry Claire. I didn't mean to...I didn't mean to pop off like that." She couldn't face her at this point. She was ashamed of her cowardice, but who wouldn't be? Leaving the house or not, she still had an unsettling anxiety built within her and she just couldn't help it. Soon, she would be bursting at the seams and unable to hide in the background of everything and everyone.<br/><br/>Perhaps it wasn't just this world she was afraid of, but her own life. Or maybe even her own past that she could barely recall, almost as if they were planted into her life. It was one of those things that was really hard to explain aloud to anyone else. Then again, she half expected for Claire to give her some kind of talk. The kind of talk that would put her out of these ideas that she was this useless person.<br/><br/>And Everyday, regardless of what she told her,  she felt like she was still a budding flower never being able to blossom.