Blue was pointedly ignoring him, Lex realized after a fashion. He could hear her rustling around from somewhere to his right, and it was even quiet enough to hear her breathe. It almost felt like a sin to disturb such a complete silence, but Lex did it anyway. “I’m not sorry,” he told her, scooting down on the bed to lay back. “If you’re sticking around, and I wouldn’t blame you if you left, then I need you to understand that.” Marcus would understand that, in his own time, but Lex didn’t have to worry about<span style="font-style: italic">him</span>running off on his own. If there was one thing Lex knew, it was that neither of them could fuck up enough to separate them. He doubted if they’d survive without each other.<br/><br/>She ignored that, too. At least she was consistent. “The things I did, the things I helped to achieve… they were miracles. I know it doesn’t seem that way, but you didn’t see them. You didn’t watch them grow up, or work with them.” A small smile pulled at the corners of his lips as he remembered fondly watching Dicen grow up and eventually become one of his best friends. He shook the memory off before he gave himself a chance to get too content. “I don’t regret it, is I guess what I’m saying.”