<span style="font-size: 120%; line-height: 116%;">Caitlynn was unsure how to tell him, and she felt the old guilty feelings starting to well up inside her. But she vowed not to shrink back from this, not now. She took his hand and said,<br/><br/>"It is why I married Jack. He agreed to marry me when I was at such a low place. He didn't really love me, nor I him. But he felt some obligation I suppose."<br/><br/>There was no easy way to talk of this. Caiytlynn checked on Niniel, and seeing the calm gentle face, sat back and stared out toward the tree line. She started talking slowly, speaking as the memories came...<br/><br/>"Jack and I decided to do to a party one of his friends was having at a house off campus. It was a Star Trek themed party, so we went as  James T Kirk and Marlena Moreau of the Terran Empire. I had fun at first but as it got late, I started to get tired. I wanted to go but Jack insisted we stay. Jack a glass of wine to sip on until he was ready to go. But I faded into dream world soon after that. I remember Jack carrying me to a bed, and I went to sleep. When I awoke, my wrists were tied to the headboard and my legs were hooked up over some bar and my ankles were handcuffed together. I struggled a bit but my mouth was dry and someone gave me water. I am sure they were drugging me... GHB maybe. I went into a semi conscience dream state and was a "walk up fvck" for anyone who paid. I was fvcked and dumped in and on by countless strangers, and it was Jack collecting the money."<br/><br/>Caitlynn paused and swallowed, unable to look at Nathan. He went to hold her but she put her hand up stopping him. She had to get it all out before she broke. She went on,<br/><br/>"I don't know how long it went on. I was soaked inside and out when I remember there being no more. I was unbound and left there, and when I came to enough to realise what had all happened, Jack came and carried me out. It was daylight, and my innocence died that day"<br/><br/>Another shuddering breath was taken before going on.<br/><br/>"Jack said I wanted to do it hand he reluctantly agreed when I insisted. Unfortuantely after my wine was spiked, I don't remember. But some phone video showed me saying yes a lot. I couldn't report it. I just had to live with it. My relationship with Jack was in the toilet from then. It was weeks later when I got sick and found out I was pregnant after those multiple sperm donors juiced me. I know Jack said I was for doing it, but he somehow felt responsible. I think it was he who drugged my wine, and then he caved to peer pressure when I was in my agreeagle drugged state."<br/><br/>Caitlynn finally looekd at Nathan as she heard Niniel making noises and sitting up in the pram. Caitlynn said as she stood to get her,<br/><br/>"So when he found out I was pregnant, he became nicer to me, and he agreed to marry me. A month after we married, I had a miscarriage. I was silently relieved, and also silently upset that I was married to Jack."<br/><br/>Niniel plinked around as she was set on the ground. She held mommy's hand and leaned against her leg, looking shy and still sleepy. Caitlyn gave Niniel a small juice carton to drink and she sat on the blanket, happy for now. Caitlynn stood and watched her a bit before saying,<br/><br/>"It has always been a loveless marriage. How precious Niniel came to be was by pure chance. I was writing in an erotic role plat story. When I was done and came to bed, I felt in need, and Jack obliged. We've had sex maybe three times since that incident. He thinks me a slutty hosebag, which I was that night."<br/><br/>Caitlynn let a few tears run down her face now, the weight oif it all lifted , but with a new weight upon her. She looked at the time and said,<br/><br/>"I need to get Niniel to my mother's house so I can go to work."<br/><br/>She reached for Nathan's band and took it in hers, and said,<br/><br/>"Thank you for listening to me. Know that I cherish our friendship and would hate to see anything destroy it."<br/><br/>If he was not now disgusted with her, maybe she would arrange to find a time and place where they could be together... that is, if he wasn't disgusted even more being with a cheating wife.</span>