Hearing that Mathias had not wanted him to leave had brought a huge sense of relief to Victor. He had been expecting the young man to tell him to leave, thatâ€™s what everyone else would have told him. Why should they keep around someone who was going to be stressed out like this, who could barely keep his composure around his enemies even if that was not the case? More or less, it had been the shock of it that was causing him to be like this. But he hadnâ€™t, and instead told him the opposite, and suddenly he felt maybe this trip would not be as bad as he thought. Strangely the relief he felt was enough to ease a lot of the stress he was feeling, needless to say, more than he had expected. Closing his eyes, he did his best not to cry, not wanting to get to a point where he was sobbing helplessly, but the emotion was just too much for him.<br/><br/>And then, after yet another moment of silence, he rolled over and buried his face in Mathiasâ€™s chest as he wrapped his arms around him. â€œIâ€™m sorryâ€¦ I donâ€™t mean to be so stressed.â€ He said quietly as he held back his emotions as much as he could so he didnâ€™t seem like even more of a mess than he already did. Maybe Mathias already thought he was pathetic for being so stressed, for crying, so he didnâ€™t mention that part at all. He wouldnâ€™t blame him if he did. It was not professional to let ones emotions get to them; he was supposed to be a bodyguard for crying out loud! Werenâ€™t bodyguards supposed to be those big guys who showed no emotions or attachment to the one they were supposed to protect? Well, he knew he didnâ€™t have the muscles that they did, but on the other hand The Bodyguard with Whitney Huston had been a good movie and they fell in love, he didnâ€™t have huge muscles in that movie either from what he remembered.<br/><br/>Oh what the hell was he thinking!? This was all sounding completely ridiculous. His friends were right in saying that he does tend to overreact and over think thinks from time to time. He really should calm down. Holding Mathias, for whatever reason, was really beginning to help him calm down.<br/><br/>Eventually the crying stopped and he forced himself to sit up. â€œI donâ€™t want to leaveâ€¦ angry father or no. I was given this assignment and I should see it through to the end.â€ Victor spoke matter-of-factly now. A small amount of confidence had returned to his expression and he took a deep breath, even if he still sounded a little shaky, letting it as one final attempt to get rid of the remaining stress. To the best of his ability, he even tried to flash Mathias a smile of reassurance through the tears that were still slowly building up. Whether it was pathetic or not, everyone needed a good cry to get rid of pent up emotions, no matter what that emotion was. Even a man needed to cry here and there, it wasnâ€™t just women who were emotional.<br/><br/>That was how he felt about it anyway. Hell, this whole trip has been somewhat emotional for both of them. He might as well let it all out.