Wyngs didn't feel anything right now. She couldn't, there was something that blocked her from caring. No matter how hard she fought it, this nameless thing, she couldn't win. It just kept shoving her back, saying the things she had thought, things she had thought of in a very different way...a sad depressed way, not this anger filled beast that kept shoving her back, blocking her true self. The one that River used to love.<br/>She covered her face with her hands, surprised to find wet drops on her fingertips. She was crying. It was a good start, crying meant sadness which meant less anger.<br/>Something popped into her head. Something one of her old doctors had said. When she had first gone into the hospital, the doctor had looked at her and asked if she had termites in her house?<br/>She had answered no, she didn't, but he had corrected her.<br/>"You have them. Why else are you tearing your house down to rebuild?" The memory flooded through her body and she sank to the ground.<br/>"I'm not proud of my scars. They came in a moment of weakness and I'm not proud of that." She didn't know what she was saying, she just knew what she had to say. "I never kissed Jed. He kissed me, and I froze. I choked up. I couldn't push him away, he was too strong." She pulled up the sleeve on her left arm, there four half moon pink scar on her forearm showed. "He wasn't who I thought he was." She said lamely.<br/>She walked on her knees over to where River lie on the ground. She grabbed him by the shoulders, hauled his torso into her lap and kissed his head. "Riv, why didn't you just ask me? Why did you have to go on thinking I didn't want you. I have never wanted anyone more. Your my River, and I'm your Wyngs. Remember all the promises we made? All the things we promised to do with each other? I still plan on doing them. Do you, my river? Do you plan on being by my side through everything? Come what may?"<br/>She stroked his hair off his face and kissed his forehead. "How do you get rid of termites? She asked, hoping he would know the answer.