Mathias didn't really let himself think as he changed, preferring to avert his eyes from his reflection in the mirror and pull his clothes off, then pull his swimming trunks on. He pulled the t-shirt on as a precaution, wanting to draw the least amount of attention to himself as possible. His body shivered from the cold slightly as he fought to keep control over his paranoia, his nerves. He hated people seeing his scars, knew he was judged when people saw them, looked at them, even if they never admitted to judging, everyone really did. It was an inevitable fact, that someone would see them, and would rudely ask about them.<br/><br/>Victor had already seen them, since Mathias had wanted to prove, show just what Victor was getting himself into. Even if it wasn't the most tactical way to go about it.<br/><br/>He didn't really care.<br/><br/>Heading out was fine, talking about watching tv instead of going to the hot tub, was fine, but the sight of the couple of people in the hot tub when they got there made him annoyed, as well as ready to just bolt back upstairs and bury himself in his blankets and hide out from the rest of the world.<br/><br/>Instead, answering Victor's question, he shrugged. "I'll swim for a bit, until they leave..." Using the keycard he had, he slipped it into the card reader on the door and walked inside, glancing at the other hotel guests in a 'oh look at you, were you having a peaceful time? Good, now scram' sense. Then he was pulling his shirt off along with the slippers, having followed Victor's example of wearing them. Then he was running his hands through his hair and slipping into the cool pool water without another thought, ignoring the other two people now. He looked up at Victor, giving him a look of 'come on in, I feel retarded being in here by myself.'<br/><br/>Scars ran along his arms and his legs, more noticeable when he moved to float on his back and let his body lay on top of the water slightly, his eyes focusing on the ceiling for a few moments before looking at Victor. He smiled at him gently, then closed his eyes, feeling his body relax.