Dustin was fighting that internal teeter tottering inside of him. It would not take much to make him snap. To send him over the edge. It had been building up little by little. Extremely slow compared to how it used to be before he met Reni. Reni is why the snapping had been kept at bay. She was why it was so slow to come compared to how it once was. If he hadn't had Reni the events that had happened to him...would have made him snap. The depression would have him trying to kill himself. The torment he would feel deep inside would make him try to end all the pain and suffering. He just cried and rocked a tiny bit. He was so close. This thing about the daggers...the misconception he had about what she was saying...had him fighting it. He wanted to fight it for Reni.<br/><br/>Of course his angel would never allow him to die. His angel would continue to deny him eternal peace. He heard Reni sit on the ground in front of him. He just shook and stared off vacantly. "mine...my treasures. My source to know...I am not an utter failure." he whispered as if talking to himself or a ghost or even her. It was hard to tell. He trembled more. "Mother...she said those exact same words. She said it exactly that way. Then she would take it. She would destroy it or get rid of it. She would take my treasures and destroy or be rid of them to punish me. I...my treasures. My only true possession...." He said in a whisper. The dangerous imbalance he was feeling could be heard in his voice. Could almost literally be seen in his eyes. One thing... One thing even if it was little... Would make him snap.<br/><br/>Reni would probably recognize this look. Seeing as they had been together for months and he had tried to kill himself one time about two and a half months before summer came. He lifted his gaze to her. "mine...my treasure." He said in a broken and struggling voice. His eyes focusing and then not focusing on Reni. He cried more at his request. "Teeter....totter....teeter...totter..." He whispered a few times. Maybe she would get the meaning maybe she wouldn't. Who knows. Knowing Reni and how well she seemed to have come to know him she would get it. Instantly or within a couple of minutes.<br/><br/>She was so close. Tears were in his eyes. He broke down sobbing. Crying tears he had held back. That were pent up. For a moment...he wasn't the young adult. When he looked at Reni it was not a young adult Dustin she would see. She would see the eyes of a child. As if child Dustin...that inner part of him...had taken over. Reni would notice that his inner child had come out in this moment. Especially when he threw himself into her and clung to her like a child. A bit of a breakdown he was having. It was that or he fell over the edge of the cliff. "Make a kid to stop the end." he said in a childlike way. Hoping that would help her understand that he had forced his mind to revert to when he had not been so afraid of touch. Hoping she would understand that to avoid trying to kill himself he forced his mind in a state of regression.<br/><br/>He clung to her and buried his face right at the top of her chest. "Bad people... Bad people..." He whispered again and again in a child like way. "Big me...scared of touch." he whispered. He clung to her in a child like way. Showing her now his love. He held her close. "Big me...is afraid but...wants to hold you like this. Wants to let you hold him. Fear...keeps him from doing so. Yet...he works hard and tries to get less like that. So you can know your importance." He was talking about himself in a third person sort of way. Exactly as a child does as a coping mechanism. He held her and let him hold him. Tears trailing down his cheeks more. Whimpering some. "H-hold me....until...I revert back. Please?" he begged her.