She wasn't making it easy for him. This was a chance of a lifetime for him. It's the inevitable golden ticket everyone strives and dreams for. People would give their left arm to be in this position, to have a chosen audition with Terrance Porter, the oscar winning director of Calamity Dog. All his life he'd dreamed of this call, to be chosen for a big movie like this, ever since he acted in his home movies . It was his chance, and if he gave it up, his career would be over for good. His agent would surely drop him, and word of this opportunity dropped would spread like wildfire.<br/><br/>Still, he wanted to give it all up for this red haired girl, with freckles and green eyes. His heart was hers. If only it was as easy as that. As she started to cry he couldn't bear seeing her hurt, and he held her tight, kissing her, trying to calm her. He was wordless as she spoke and begged him to stay. What was he to do? He wanted to make it work. He was going to suggest he come back to see her from time to time, but it would be expensive, and long-term relationships were hard. They may grow distant, or she may find someone else. He couldn't bear the thought of either.<br/><br/>She started kissing him softly on the lips, like a delectable poison, it started to make him weak. He kissed her back, softly and carefully. "I love you," he told her, his heart racing a mile a minute. "I want to run away with you. Before this I was ready to give up everything to be with you. You are everything to me right now, know that. I want to jump, I really do, but I feel like there's a brick wall there. You have to understand, this call, it's everything I had ever dreamed for my entire life... everything has led me up to this."<br/><br/>Fuck- he was going crazy inside. If he was going to go, it was now or never. He wanted time to think about it, time to weight his options, but there weren't many. Go and lose Nadia, or stay and lose a dream job. He already gave it all up for her once, and it was hard, but he was ready to do it, for her. He'd told her many times to jump as he was so used to doing it himself. He was ready now to do it again.<br/><br/>Then he thought of the tumour left on his heart, August.<span style="font-style: italic">Not this again,</span>he thought to himself. What if? What if he gave up everything for Nadia- what if he gave up a dream job- an opportunity to launch his career to celebrity proportions? What if he was the next big thing and he was giving it all up for a woman who would eventually grow distant, and even hurt him? Nadia wasn't August, and looking into Nadia's eyes he was certain she could never hurt him. However there was a doubt, and it was growing with every kiss he planted on her lips.<br/><br/>He looked at her tears, and wiped them. "I'm sorry. I love you, and it hurts me beyond belief to say this... and I'll probably regret this moment... but I can't give up this chance for you-" he hesitated, "I can't give it up. I just- I don't know what to say right now-"<br/><br/>With his final words he got up, put on his pants and shirt, and took his ticket out of his bag. "I have to go now, or I'll miss my flight."