River felt like the first thing she said was as though she'd stabbed a knife right through him, and everything else she added was another twist until he just couldn't take anymore. When she showed him her scar he felt sick. She was right it was all his fault. He fell to his knees and cried. He knew it was all his fault, and yet nothing he could ever say or do  would be enough for her to forgive him. It wouldn't matter what he did or said now, she wouldn't believe him. Or even forgive him for leaving. He hadn't wanted to leave, he'd tried everything to be able to stay. He wanted to tell her, how he didn't know she was in hospital until she was home, his mother hadn't told him, until she'd gotten the call to say she was alright. That's when he'd come back. He'd wanted to come and see her, make sure she was okay, and that was when he had seen her kissing Jed. It had broken him in two seeing that. He wanted to tell her all this, but he knew she would never listen.<br/><br/>"Just listen" he managed to get out inbetween sobs. River felt weak and pathetic, but she'd completely broken him. Beaten him down so much that he had been reduced to tears. He managed to take a breath and couldn't stand to look up at her. Tears still dripped from his eyes. "I didn't leave you to die. I didn't want to go. I had no choice. I tried everything to be able to stay. I tried to call you, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it... I was scared that if I called and you were happy enough without me, it would have broken me even more. My mom never told me, until you were okay, that was the day before I drove out here... you kissed him! How can you say that? You were the one I saw kissing another guy, when I'd come out to see if you were okay, and you seemed happy enough Wyngs!" He ended up shouting back at her, taking a breath and then continuing with what he had to stay "A girl? What girl, oh you mean my cousins girlfriend... who was helping me catch up with all the school work I'd missed because I hadn't been there for very long? Oh yeah totally screwing her." He added coldly and rolled his eyes. Then continued " I didn't go on as though life was normal and nothing happened, I felt so alone, so broken... but all you will ever see is the scars you've put on yourself... never the ones that other people have. Because Wyngs, you'll only ever see what you want to see... and listen to what you want to hear." He finished. River knew some of the things he'd said were completely out of line, but she needed to hear the truth, he had scars of his own, but he wasn't going to parade them around. Those were his reminders of what a horrid thing he'd done by leaving her behind. He would suffer forever, and it didn't seem like she was going to let it go either.