Shawn couldn't believe that just by simply leaning in, Akihiko had gone and made him blush again. He'd even gone entirely tense, waiting for something to happen, expecting something to happen. When the older boy leaned away, he let out a breath he'd been unaware he'd been holding in, and blushed at the thought that went through his head. 'I thought he was going to kiss me.' He shook the thought away and pouted at him, sure he was supposed to come up with something to say, but his courage was leaving him fast.<br/><br/>"I... No." He took a deep breath, closing his eyes to summon up what was left of his bravado, to perhaps, turn it to some steel and have it stay, cause all mighty be willing, this other boy was starting a change in him. "No one ever buys me anything. No one is ever nice to me. I'm not the one someone picks to just, do things for. If I give, its take. If I don't want to give, its still take." Shawn had to stop himself from saying because Leo said so, Leo did it all first, because Dad said so. He didn't think the older boy would stick around, or even care if he knew.<br/><br/>"Its just, how things are around here..." He told him, shrugging his shoulders. Another nervous hand ran through his hair, making it even more of a mess. "I'm sorry I interrupted whatever talk you had going with Alice. I'm s-sure she's getting u-upset with m-me." Shawn closed his eyes against the sound of his own voice, against the sound of the stutter returning. "Excuse me." He said very softly, so it wouldn't come out a stutter, and than he was rushing past Akihiko, trying to get back into the cafeteria to grab his tray so he could disappear into his hidden, dark back corner.