Hope couldn't believe how different he was with Alex, too different. He had been on the streets most of his life and usually didn't give anyone a second look. Hope was anything like what he was now. He had a lot of traumatic damage he had to work through and then maybe he could find his median. That and the drugs and his health didn't quite frankly help. One thing was certain, he loved Alex and hoped that they could eventually be together. Hope knew that it probably wouldn't be anytime soon with his condition but he had hope. "Well then I guess we could consider ourselves lucky. We both had guardian angels looking out for us."<br/><br/>Hope laid back down as Alex got up and took the tray away from him as he was finished and full. Hope smiled once Alex got back in bed with him and he could feel a drowsiness wash over him once more. "Ugh when am I going to stop feeling so tired all the time." He groaned out. Hope smiled softly only to let out a sigh as he heard Alex claim that he couldn't promise him that he could love him back. Hope closed his eyes at the soft embrace that was him pushing his hair away from his face. "Well perhaps one day I can be the guy that makes you want to love someone."<br/><br/>Hope felt Alex's warmth as he was pulled into his body and he couldn't help but wrap his arms around him tightly and melt into his form. "But Alex I am broken. For things I couldn't control. They just were." Hope sighed, shaking his head as Alex said it was just like looking at him as someone to love. Hope knew that he was able to love, it was inhumanly impossible not to love. "Love is what gets us through the days. Its like the air you can't see it but its always there." He yawned out as he tried forcing himself to stay up. He knew that it would probably be impossible with him being so close to Alex like this but part of him wanted to stay up and figure out why it was so hard for him to love, when he found it so easy to.<br/><br/>But that was a lie, Hope actually only openly admitted to loving two people and that his mother and Alex. Strange enough it just came over him but love was the only explanation he could give for how he felt about Alex. Hope whispered out as sleep became him "I hope one day you'll love me." Hope fell asleep for what seemed like ages but once again woke up the next morning and as he wished Alex was next to him he unfortunately wasn't. Which Hope just thought that he was busy with work or out and about. Hope groaned as he felt nauseated.<br/><br/>He got up and out of the bed just to go to the bathroom that was connected to Alex's bedroom. Hope got on his knees as he tried forcing back what was inevitable and vomited loudly. Hope wiped away his mouth as he flushed the toilet making sure he didn't leave a mess anywhere. He slowly got up and before he knew it he saw Alex standing in the doorway of the bathroom. "Oh hey." He said in a tone unlike any he had ever heard him in before.<br/><br/>Hope was feeling somewhat like his old self and assumed it was because he was getting used to the drugs he would have to take for the rest of his life. "Sorry about that." He said bluntly as he closed the toilet and sat on it running his fingers through his hair pushing it away from his face. He had so many things running through his mind and couldn't tell left from right. "Look I am sorry about the last couple of nights I haven't been myself. Just been having a lot of memories come back at once with the hospital and everything."