Alex listened to Hope talk about his part of the deal and Alex knew that he would have just as much trouble keeping up with his part.  His parents were always telling him how special he was and how hard he worked and that he just didn’t want to see how special he was.  This was all true, along with his mother telling him that somewhere out there was somebody.  He swore that the Reba song was his mother’s favorite when it came to him because she played it for him all the time to remind him to never give up.  “Well I can promise you that it will be just as hard for me too.”<br/><br/>Alex could not understand why he kept kissing this man either.  He knows he has thought about this a lot in the last 12 hours, but he could not help it.  It was almost a form of comfort for the both of them and Alex was not going to change that for the world.  He could not help but laugh a little when Hope pouted at him for not being fair when he was talking in his ear, “Please all I said were you were beautiful and it was the truth.”<br/><br/>When Alex laid Hope on the bed he did not do it with the intention of doing anything right now even though it was tempting.  Alex smiled and moved some hair out of Hope’s face, “I will not do anything until you are ready.”  Alex said as he kissed Hope’s nose.  “I am so nervous right now I would mess it up anyway.”  Alex laughed his comment off and then sat up.  “Besides the food will be here in about 15 minutes and we need to calm ourselves down before we do something neither of us are ready for.”  Alex said and got off the bed and went into the bathroom to relax.