Rinzin felt nauseous as the light bomb went off, just the lack of shadows made him feel incomplete. As Janaff flew up next to him, he couldn't help but feel this was wrong, having Janaff know where they were going. His assassin part of him didn't want anyone to know compromising information who didn't have to. He knew it was stupid though, the only way it would get compromised is if Janaff was captured and tortured, if that was the case then Rinzin would go get him back, alone if need be, either way they wouldn't be heading to where they would have been. Janaff wasn't expendable, and yet it still felt off and he didn't like it, he should be able to trust Janaff with things. He really didn't want to hide things from him, it just felt like it was better to, only Janaff made him doubt himself like this.<br/><br/>He sighed, Janaff said earlier that he wanted to know everything about him, this doubt was included in that. "I... I can't help but want to just do this all alone and have everyone, including you, take a back seat and just wait. I know there is nothing to be gained from being alone, but it feels safer, maybe because it's what I'm used to. You know I care about you, and yet it feels like your mere presence will make my plans obsolete. I wasn't going to say any of this, just bury it and move on, but you said you wanted to know everything about me, so I guess feeling like things will fail because I'm not dealing with it by myself is a part of that. I care about you, a lot, and I'm not saying I don't like you around, I definitely do. It's just when it comes to the mission, I feel like I should tackle it as I always do, alone."<br/><br/>Micha smiled and then leaned close and kissed him passionately, normally she would have hesitated because her mind would have simply refused to just accept what he said. Being called beautiful and loved normally felt like they were wrong, that she couldn't be beautiful only said as such for her benefit and saying she was loved was out of not knowing everything about her. As if there was something hidden that would have made him not love her. But that wasn't the case this time, she felt the same way about herself because of how close she felt to him, she saw it that way because he did, actually feeling worthy of love was an amazing feeling to her, and she knew it was all thanks to Seth. She also knew what he wanted and acted in kind.<br/><br/>Pascha frowned. "Janaff sure, but Rinzin? He said that my sister was dead, for some selfish ass backwards reason. I don't know what goes through his head, and what I'm just supposed to assume he has a good reason to destroy one of my constructs? Rinzin's a loose cannon, he breaks the dynamic of the group and I'm not even sure he cares about any of us half the time. When we were younger, he was always off doing who knows what, he has never been here for any of us. Okay yes, I'm pissed he said my sister was dead, but if it was one mistake in many times of helping even one of us, then I'd over look it. Rinzin cares about himself and that's it, I'm all about being there when someone is in need, Rinzin hasn't done that once for anyone." She didn't know about him and Janaff, she knew that Janaff was better friends with them, but she just saw that as Janaff being the good likable guy he was.<br/><br/>Pascha then shook her head, at Selia's second thought line, she wanted to say, 'I'm not important, as long as you or Micha are in need, it doesn't matter what I feel.' But she knew that probably wouldn't go well. "That was different Selia, you needed me so I was there for you, I wasn't going to just watch you battle depression alone. That's my reason to live Selia, to help those I care about when they hit a rough spot. There are better tomorrows, and I'll drag you to it if I have to. Micha has been in a rough spot her whole life, maybe it's seeing her die, but I don't see an end to it for her. So I can't stop dragging her to tomorrow, but look, I've got two hands, I'm here for both of you. I know your worried about me, but as long as I've got someone to drag to tomorrow, I wont stop getting there myself. And I'm sorry for breaking down earlier, I forgot for a little bit that my falling down myself can drag you with me."<br/><br/>Thanks to Micha's constant need for help either physically or emotionally, Pascha never got a break to worry about herself, it took a while, but it's really started to toll on her. She really needed to have time to deal with her own feelings, but she wouldn't give herself that until she didn't feel neither Micha nor Selia need her time more. She would also have been there if anyone else in the group hit a rough spot, other than Rinzin. She might worry about Selia and Micha more, but she did care about them, but luckily for her Seth had Micha, Janaff helped with the others and didn't typically need help himself, and Micha and Selia had her, everyone was covered. Rinzin technically had Janaff, but really she thought Rinzin was a lost cause. As for herself, Selia would want to be there for her, Micha too, but she didn't see that they could do that, especially not Micha, so she couldn't need their help, had to be strong because she didn't think they could afford to be strong for her. Pascha then smiled at Selia. "Oh, and so you know, I didn't drag Micha to you back then, I told her I was going to visit you and she wanted to come each time. She cares about you too, everyone likes you, if Rinzin did like any of us, it should probably be you. You're the best of us, maybe that's just because of how much I care about you, but I really believe that." She meant that too, she liked Selia's personality over everyone else's. She didn't just care about Micha and Selia out of a sense of needing to, she liked them both a lot for who they are.