"I don't care about the cigarettes. Why would I?" she shrugged with a confused face.<span style="font-style: italic">My boyfriend dealt drugs do you seriously think that cigarettes are gonna set me off.</span>Though she had to admit that he had smoked for years with out her knowing, and that both impressed and annoyed her. "And... Thanks it feels lonely to not see another persons things along side mine." She scratched her cheek and smiled back at him as he got up. She immediately noticed his embarrassing state. Her eyes only flickered to it before staring at his face. She felt a bit drawn to it but couldn't in good conscious look at it. That in it of itself irked her, she was far too horny for this.<span style="font-style: italic">Seriously what the actual fuck is wrong with me.</span>She sighed "Judging by... that." She gave an obvious look down at his crotch before her gaze landed back on his eyes "Judging by that... I don't think she's just a friend." She felt hurt, even if she had no right to be. An odd part of her was jealous.<span style="font-style: italic">Did... Did he feel this way when i had a boyfriend too?</span>She wondered. She then shook that thought off. Its not like it truly mattered to her. But as soon as she tried to think about something else that bubbling feeling of jealousy came back and flashed on her face for but a brief moment before she looked away from him and rubbed her temples. "I need a shower and stress relief..." She mumbled with a very suggestive edge to it. It was clear that this was supposed to only be a thought but accidentally came out.<br/><br/>There had been a time early on in her life when she was about twelve that her young brain more than idolized her brother. If she were to go all the way back to early puberty, he was probably the first thing she successfully masturbated to. A detail her life that she had tried multiple times to forget. Beyond that she had only two sexual partners, and neither of them were as attractive as her brother. Another thought that she had had before but always shoved away. Maybe there was a time in which she was openly flirtatious with Gerard. In fact she remembered being like that early in her high school years. But it was pointed out that her behavior was weird by a friend and she slowly stopped doing it. Maybe it was at that point that she got estranged from him. Seeing as for the majority of her early life she followed him around like a puppy. And now living with him again after all of that... Maybe that mixed with a bit of heart break was responsible for her conflicted feelings.