Waking up to a strange tender and wishful sound he could hear things like,<span style="font-style: italic">"Please don't ever leave me Paul, I need you." "Don't go back ever go back, I want you for myself." "Paul why do you have to be so great, why you have to be so perfect."</span>Sitting up he would see Jayee eyes full of tears as she prayed to seemingly invisible God about all this, her face haggard and obviously, tired, walking over to her, still dressed in her underwear he wrapped his arms around her, being careful to avoid the stitches and whispering, "I'm not going anywhere, not now or not ever, you won't have to worry." pecking her on top the head.<br/><br/>He would then walk around and dry her tears smiling warmly and with such love in his eyes, "I am dead, but never have I felt more alive Jay, never."