Alex was having some major issues right now as he thought about Hope in his lap and the reaction that he was getting.  He didn’t think about what he was doing as he was running his fingers against Hope’s ass.  He just was trying to give Hope a sense of comfort and that seemed the best way to give it given the way they were sitting.<br/><br/>Alec noticed that Hope was always trying to stop him from talking bad about himself and Alex found it was nice to have someone boost his ego a little since he always seems to shooting down his ego.  Alex almost had to laugh as he heard Hope talk about himself being damaged goods.  Here he was getting on Alex for cutting himself down, and here he does the same thing.<br/>Alex moved his off Hope’s ass and pulled his face up to look at his and gave a smile, “You realize that you degrade yourself as much as I do.”  Alex leaned in and gently kissed him again.  Alex had never kissed someone as much in his life as he had Hope since he met him, maybe it was the thought he was going to disappear and it was to let him know he was real.  “How about we make a deal?”  Alex asked, “I won’t say anything negative about myself and you will not say anything negative about yourself.”<br/><br/>Alex understood all too well what it was like to block out the memories of the bad things, because he was the best in the business at doing that.  He even tells his therapist daily that he is fine, even though they both know he is not.  Speaking of Dr. Flynn he needed to call him.  Alex almost laughed at Hope’s comment in his ear while he was telling Jamie what he wanted.  So Alex thought that turn about was fair play when he told him he was beautiful, and began to kiss his chest.<br/><br/>“All’s fair in love and war.”  Alex smirked, “Isn’t that what they say.”  Alex wondered what Hope was doing now once he complained about his pants; well Alex’s pants were a little tight at this point.  He wanted nothing to lay Hope down on the bed and show him some more kindness but he was holding back because he knew that neither one of them were ready for that, well at least Alex wasn’t but he imagined that if he offered to Hope he would jump right on the idea.<br/><br/>Once Hope was back and in his lap he could not help but sigh inwardly as he could feel Hope through the clothes he just put on.  Sitting here on his lap in nothing but a pair of silk pants.  Alex could not take it anymore one Hope kissed him once again and Alex got lost in the passion of the kiss and picked Hope up and carried him over to the bed and laid him down on it pressing his body into Hope’s  “You are not making it easy on me to protect your virtue here.”  Alex sighed and placed his forehead on Hope’s forehead.