Auxana's senses felt like they were being assaulted. She closed her eyes and visualized the mass of white being a little girl. It had distinct features from Havoc's face but her flowing hair. She smiled and sensed that she could actually communicate with this being. "Yay." She expressed "I'm glad that i can at least talk to you!" Her smile got even fuller "Well talk really isn't correct, but whatever... I know that the way i am imagining you is wrong, theres no way that you would have my hair, but a girl can dream." She didn't quite know how to say it but after a thoughtful second "I would love to be your mother, everyone deserves a mama." Auxana then took a look at Havoc "His magic is wonderful, the most powerful partner i have been with, though... due to my personality i've already thought of hundred of plans to beat him in a battle... My paranoia is the worst thing about me i think."  She reached out her hand trying to visualize the magic and pat the demaculous's head. She knew it was probably foolish but she tried to use her natural magic. If it failed she would bring her hand back slightly disappointed. "I hope... I hope to be able to see you again." Then she felt the ground as she was set down."<br/><br/>Her face flushed when Seb wanted to lie next to her, but after a second of looking away she nodded at him "I-I'd like..." she couldn't finish the sentence but she had hoped that he got the meaning. She wasn't really tired, but  she was actually extremely cold. She laid down on her side and stared off in the distance hoping that he'd lay behind her and cuddle up with her, even if he didn't she was going to force him to. She had felt so alone for the past couple days, so she wanted to feel someone else's warmth. She hated the feeling of being alone, but she was also used to it because every companion she had ever had died, and most of the deaths she blamed herself for. Was it selfish to feel happy and safe? She didn't like that thought so she shoved it to the corner of her mind and decided only to think of how to make Seb happy and how his happiness will make her happy as well.<br/><br/>___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/>She fidgeted slightly "I-its... not like i am completely adverse to touch... its just i'm really sensitive." She looked away from him and put her hands in her lap. "But... Thanks for being considerate, it makes me like you and hate your wife more..." She felt weirdly vulnerable and her next words would never have been spoken in any other circumstance "You may find happiness, but... I won't and as long as you are with me you won't. I don't deserve happiness, i only cause others misfortune." Her body language changed she looked pitiful, and her tenseness melted away. She thought about his smile... did he really mean anything he said? She didn't think he was lying to her, but why would anyone think that she deserved to be happy. Maybe that hug would be nice now?