Auxana did agree that this place was appealing but it lacked a lot of what she wanted. Well it lacked one specific thing, in which to her meant a lot. It lacked Havoc. Not that it lacked his presence, she was very happy to hear that he would give everything up for her. Though, that was something she could never let happen. It lacked letting Havoc achieve his dreams. Auxana really had no dreams, she had only really one everything up to meeting havoc to survive, so for now she was just going to enjoy being with him and helping him. She tugged on Havoc's hand and pulled his ear down to her mouth and whispered something small "Lu... Lubin... go." She had way to much trouble saying that, but she had hoped her got the message that they would in fact be leaving.<br/><br/>She was sad that she couldn't really talk to the nice people of the town, and that was weird she usually hated having to interact with people, maybe worshiping Meena was right for her. When he asked her if she wanted to change she nodded and began to pull off her robe right then and there. There was an opening for Havoc to stop her, if he so desired to. As she was taking her robes off she did have a thought about why she didn't want to stay. It was a rather embarrassing thought, but she still had it. She wanted Havoc to be male, she wanted him to have a sort of attraction to her that in his current state he did not have. She also felt that her relationship with him could not fully be as she wanted it until he was who he wanted to be. She smiled at him "I... Want to be with the true you."<br/><br/>___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/><br/>"If i saw you as an enemy then i would have to see myself as such, we are all monster's look where we came from." She cradles his face in her hands "You look awful, what did they do to you?" She seemed very concerned. then she put her forehead to his warmly "Just stop thinking like this is somehow your fault, like you are somehow unforgivable, its stupid." She gave a dry laugh "did you ever realize how amazing your eyes are? Seriously though, it would be a travesty if i were never to see them again." she pulled away and took a very embarrassed pose looking away and bending down with a small smile.<br/><br/>She wanted him to at least not run from her. Everything else was up to him, he had to believe that he wasn't at fault and she couldn't make him do anything. Help was all she could offer, but its only the help that  he would accept. She brushed her hair from her neck and exposed it to him. "C'mon, Carmichael told me everything, i know that this will help." She said gently.