<span style="color: #FF80FF"> <span style="font-weight: bold"><span style="font-size: 150%; line-height: 116%;"><div style="text-align: center;">Lea Stevens</div></span></span> </span><br/><div style="text-align: center;"><a class="postlink" href="http://i300.photobucket.com/albums/nn24/SociallyToxicBeauty/036e0d3a-b28c-47ec-b858-0eaea6c67e4d.jpg">[ img ]</a></div><br/><span style="font-weight: bold"><span style="font-size: 150%; line-height: 116%;"><span style="color: #FF80FF"><div style="text-align: center;">"Jazz"</div></span></span></span><br/><br/>Carlos had drawn her back to his chest, one hand going to her hair and the other resting in the small of her back. He began to explain what was on his mind and she was surprised by his honesty, though she wasn't sure why.<br/><br/>It seemed to her it was natural they had not talked about their pasts to one another. She had purposefully ever avoided bringing up such topics, knowing that if Carlos told about his life that she would have felt some sort of obligation to tell about hers and she had not wanted to. It was a selfish move, but she didn't want anyone to ever know about her past. She could hardly look at it herself without getting upset--to tell anyone else was impossible for her when she was still on the force.<br/><br/>She wasn't surprised at the guilt and worry that Carlos held for the girl, Sabrina, from so long ago. He may have done some shitty things, but he wasn't a bad person. He had been an emotional kid with some problems no one had realized. Sabrina, too, clearly had her own issues to have even antagonized Carlos as she had. That didn't excuse Carlos of his actions, but it wasn't as if Sabrina was an innocent angel. She certainly did not deserve what Carlos had done, but was it even worth Carlos finding out what happened to Sabrina?<br/><br/>Lea knew, though, if Carlos didn't find out what happened to her, he would come up with a million things that could have happened--things that were probably worse than what had actually happened and Lea debated on what to say. After a few moments, she spoke,<span style="color: #FF80FF">"You could find out. If you don't find out, you'll come up with fantasies about what happened to her. If you do find out, you can apologize. You might not like what you find, but at least you will know. If her life is destroyed, it wasn't your fault. From what it sounds like she was going to fall off at some point by herself. With or without you..." </span><br/><br/>Lea certainly hoped not though. She hoped Sabrina was happy and well, if only so Carlos would not be destroyed by the knowledge he may have played a part in her rock bottom life. She could hardly take care of herself, much less Carlos--though she would definitely try if she needed to.