<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold"><span style="font-size: 150%; line-height: 116%;"><span style="color: #80FF80">Carlos Delgado</span></span></span></div><br/><br/><div style="text-align: center;"><a class="postlink" href="http://i1343.photobucket.com/albums/o793/Galvin_Fugazi/75418b36-82bd-4b2f-bdff-d44eb7e2deaf_zpsb78abdde.jpg">[ img ]</a></div><br/><br/><br/><div style="text-align: justify;">Carlos had not expected that Lea would react on his speech, but that she did was a big improvement. He had already figured out that she would need time. Time to trust in his love, time to normalize her life and time to deal with the loss and mess her life had become. He wasn't hurrying her, he knew that it was hard for her, way harder than it was for him. He was more angry on himself for not having seen what Lea had needed in the past. But Lea had lost every hope in a normal life and while the slide down always was quick the way back out of the hole was long and painfully slow. There wouldn't be kids soon, there would be no house soon, all this would come one day and it would come by Lea's own decision. <br/><br/>Carlos wasn't so pessimistic as Lea, about her ability to be a good mother. She had all it needed to it, even if it was deep buried right now. But once the kids would be there she would naturally adopt into that role. But he still had no idea what had really happened to her family and it was crucial for him to understand what he had to avoid. He was trying to step around the worst memories until she was ready for them. But for that he had to know what to avoid. When Lea said that she couldn't understand how he could still love her, he chuckled slightly. <br/><br/><span style="color: #FF8000">"Lea, you don't have to understand why I love you or how I could still love you. Just take it as a gift and accept it. I know that you need time to understand it all and even more time to be back to somewhat normal, but time is the only thing we have enough. I know that my presence will help you and make it easier to deal with it all, but even my presence may sometimes be not enough. It is a hard way back and I know it. And you will call the timetable and you will make the steps. I won't force you in anything else than in keeping you clean." </span><br/><br/>He pulled on the parking lot of the hardware store and killed the engine.</div>