(yes thank you (: )<br/><br/>Koda didn't want to know but he did. He needed to know but he didn't. He was in internal chaos caused by the fact of what could be. Of what he did or did not remember. He listened to her speak and lifted his gaze from where he had zoned out at. Sexual abuse? Images flashed through his mind and he paled. He looked away again. He felt the deepest thread of ashamedness. He felt ashamed and he couldn't recall why. Just that it had to do with the sexual abuse. He flinched when she took his other hand. He listened to her speaking. "I ran away from those. I ran away and they called me crazy. I didn't need fixing...I needed family." He said softly. "I needed acceptance and to be loved despite what I could do. I needed the living to see me as kindly as the dead did. Until momma Christine such a thing never happened. There was no such thing as unconditional love. The conditional was always I had to be normal or I was not their child. I was a monster which they had put on this earth." He said in a shakey voice.<br/><br/>He flinched as he felt the movements on his hand. Such comforts were foreign. Even with Christine showing him the positiveness to touch...touch still represented bad from what he remembered of touch. He listened as Serenity continued on. "I don't really want to know. I don't want to relive the torment of being a monster to the people who were supposed to love me." He said in a sad voice. Shaking his head. "Momma Christine is and was the only family I needed." He said in a serious voice but a soft smile was on his lips. Looking at Serenity as if he just truly noticed she was there. She was holding his hand? He had just flinched at the contact he hadn't realized she had taken a hold of his hand. He looked at her. "That sounds like a good idea. Either option would be better than being stuck in the same room with the people who never accepted or loved me. Who did things to me that no kid should have to go through." He heard her breathing in and out deeply. His pointed style ears twitching as he looked at her. "So...when does this all go down?"