Ewan longed to see the outside world again. He wanted to smell the fresh air, hear the birds sing, go for a long drive until his car ran out of gas and watch the sun set of Pragueâ€™s skyline. As he looked out the barred window of his typical white walled room that only had a bed and a sink he was bound to all he wished for was to go outside and never have to come back here again. He has been here for a long time, the doctors and nurses knew him well, and they do often give him a little more freedom when that vile monster hiding inside of him was not lurking around, but he knew he was stuck here for the rest of his life. The very thought of dying here saddened him, but it could not be helped. He knew he was a danger to society, he has known it since that monster first showed itself.<br/><br/>A sigh escaped him as he wondered how much society has changed since the day he chose to lock himself away. He has seen the technology that the staff uses and the television commercials whenever they allow him to watch television and play games in the main room. It all baffled him, and he wanted to see it all for himself someday. But how would he cope? Ewan was comfortable here knowing that monster, that vile monster, would not bring harm to anyone else ever again. And perhaps he would be safe from himself as well. These people were nice to him, and he respected their efforts to slay the beast within him, but he knew he was capable of being dangerous despite said efforts. If only he could see the world again.<br/><br/>Quite frankly, Ewan was sick of this building. He wanted to rewind time so he could be free again, without worrying about the demon inside of him. That was impossible. Freedom was impossible; the longer he stayed here the more he realized that.<br/><br/>â€œItâ€™s time for your medication, Ewan.â€ The womanâ€™s voice said to him softly. It was Nurse Olga. She was always taking care of him, even when that monster threatens to kill her. Oh yes, he was aware of the darkness the monster hides. He knew it very well; however it is only for a brief moment that, and during that moment he could hear his thoughts. They did share one body after all, even if the mind was separated. But because of that, the memories and thoughts he had access to were very limited. Flashbacks were common, nightmares, blackouts. Times where the monster smirked at him and tried to be the boss so to speak, and they were not pleasant.<br/><br/>Ewan did what he was told, taking his medication in such a perfunctory manner that he could probably do it in his sleep. The medicine didnâ€™t help much sadly, but at least they tried their best to keep the monster at bay. â€œAm I permitted to take a walk today, Olga?â€ He asked her.<br/><br/>Olga smiled, â€œOf course. Shall I escort you?â€ and then she held out her hand, which he gladly took. He could walk himself, but it was stated in his notes that he had to have an escort just in case that monster emerged.