A bitter cold breeze swept across the Pendergast Manor's lush grounds as Ash made his way down to the edge of a lake that sat on the Pendergast estate. He had just finished his chores for the evening and now he seriously needed to calm his nerves. Chores, what a load of crap. The boy thought to himself as he sat down, leaning his back against a rock on the Lake shore. Ash reached into his coat pocket and took out a small tin cigarette case, it had become a terrible habbit for him, but for some reason it settled him, made him more calm. He pulled one of the cigarettes out of the small emerald colored tin and placed it between his lips, he lit it and inhaled softly then exhaled, as he put the tin back in his coat pocket. Ash had been forced t odo more chores after he started a fight with a kid at school, he won the fight and wound up bloodying the other kid up. The other boy had told Ash that he was Bastard (like he didn't know that already?) He also told him that he would never have anyone to call his own, he would always be a miserable piece of... well you get the idea. And of course Ash snapped and punched the boy in the nose, which started a brawl... Ash won of course but it resulted in him getting grounded and forced to do quite alot of chores, which he really didn't mind all that much he was so used to getting punished. But was the boy right? Ash was able to charm and flirt with any girl he wanted and they never refused him, but it was never true love, he wondered if he would ever find it, if he could ever feel that overwhelming happiness? Ash could not help but laugh at this. He, the great and totaly bad ass Ashley Pendergast was thinking about crap like this? No he wouldn't allow it...<br/><br/>Ash layed his head against the rock he was sitting against and stared up and the cloudy evening sky, this was his favorite kind of weather, cold and gray, it relaxed him. He could not stand warm clear weather, when everything was in bloom... No this was perfect for him. He breathed in more of the nerve numbing nicotine and exhaled. "You don't need anyone but yourself Ash, you can survive on your own, you have done it for almost two years. And if anyone has a problem with the way you are they better keep it to themselves." He told himself. he finished his cigarette and put it out and threw the butte to the ground. As he sat there he noticed someone walking along the lake shore getting closer to him, he could not make out who it was and really could care less, no one ever talked to him... Ash closed his eyes and sighed.