After what Jenn had said to me, I felt so happy; so relieved that she hadn't judged me for killing a man. I half expected her to ask what it felt like to kill someone, I had been asked that before and somehow it was one question that I could not answer, yes, I know inside what it felt like, it felt good, is that a bad thing? I had killed the man that had taken my parent's lives from them, but after; after that the dreams; nightmares start, I could see that day over and over again, I could see the shock in the man's eyes as he could feel the life ebb away from him; the blood from the wound pumping out and that is something that I couldn't forget, it sprayed over me and the wall behind me, unless you have actually seen how much blood a body looses, you have no idea, no wonder the police forensics team search every nook and cranny for clues to a murder.<br/><br/>I held Jenn's hand as we walked towards where the food was being prepared, Olivia was there inspecting everything that went on, I wondered about where she got the inclination to do what she does; one minute she she showed love to everyone around her; the next she showed a hard side, she was one lady that demanded respect from all those around her, someone said something to her as we approached and she turned, the smile that went across her face when she saw us, it could have lit up the world, she walked over to us, "I am so glad you two have sorted your problems out, now maybe Max, you will start enjoying your stay with us."<br/><br/>I wanted to ask so much about '<span style="font-style: italic">exploring your sensuality,</span>' and '<span style="font-style: italic">finding your inner god or goddess</span>'  this sounded so strange to me, but to these people that surrounded me, it seemed normal.<br/><br/>We sat as the days meal was served, it was fantastic, there was so much to eat, then something hit me, Jenn had told me it was her 17th birthday tomorrow, what was I going to do?