Reality happened, and Alannah spoke the truth. Despite that she offered for him to stay with her, he still felt this feeling. The feeling of his ignorant bliss fading away. The perfection that he'd just had with this woman, despite all the factors going against them, was working its way in the opposite direction. That's when the negative thoughts let themselves in. Suddenly there was a lot more in the world than him and Alannah.<br/><br/>Was it okay to feel like this so quickly? What if this ended in a similar way to him and his father? He certainly couldn't live with knowing that! What if she didn't even care for him the way he did? How was he even so sure that he cared? The flurry of questions in his mind were quickly accompanied by this sick twisted feeling in his chest. He felt sick and suddenly so discouraged. What had even come over him? A piece of him wanted to cling to her, being so close was so nice, he'd never felt anything better. But he gave it up anyway as he let go of her hand and took his hand from her hip and he took a couple steps back from her. He'd never felt more regret than at that one moment. He didn't have to step back, he just did it anyway. He missed holding her hand and being close to her. But what was he supposed to do? Just grab it again?<br/><br/>"I gotta go out there." Dimitri said, out of context at first, and the negative feelings being clear in his voice. "Not right now, I mean. But, I can only stay here for so long. After that I need to go. I gotta, y'know, talk to the ocean and all that weird crap my kind does." Dimitri said, he hated the way he was feeling. How did it turn into this, was he really this willing to turn into a monster? At that thought, his eyes softened from the hardened they'd became for a moment. "Alannah, no, I'm so sorry." He apologized, much more softly than his comments about leaving. "It's not you Alannah. And it's not your fault either. That was just a silly question of me to ask you." He said. "I understand. I just met you, and I didn't expect you to be able to come with me. I'm just so angry at what I am and that I have to please someone who doesn't care for me even a little." Dimitri said, still speaking softly. He attempted to step towards her and peck her on the lips.<br/><br/>But if she stepped back or resisted, he wouldn't push it.