The woman sighed heavily as she kept walking toward the lake. She vaguely remembered the last time she had been here and honestly she wished she could forget. There was no point in remembering anything from this spot. Really was there? Of course there was! Yet she found herself walking toward the body of water with her gaze down at the path in front of her and arms wrapped around herself. The woman did not care to remember what had happened here.  The night was still young and so far the moon was giving her just enough light to see - well see better.  Saeran could already see in the dark.<br/><br/>Really? She had to go through with this again? She just felt alone, had she not been through enough with Sanyu?  Sighing she dug her nails into her arms to prevent herself from tearing up and sat on the grass near the waters edge. Honestly she should just...whatever.  She could not drown herself.  No.  It was rather hard to kill her without sunlight and, and - well she did not know what other material could kill her.  A stake through the heart did not work and neither did garlic.  The vampire was not sure why some people thought that but there was nothing she could change about that.<br/><br/>Taking a hard breath she reached into her bag and took out something wrapped in the clothe.  It was her husbands cell phone.  Well, one of them anyway.  This was not the exact one he had been carrying when he had been gone, but it smelled like him.  It was so silly to carry around a dead persons cell phone and..smell it.<br/><br/>Needless to say she did not care - or was trying not to care.  She felt lost without some sort of leader. It was strange. She was very hurt. It was as if he just disappeared.  Dropped off the face of the earth.  Had he found another person? One that made him happier? Was it even possible to make Benjimen happier than she had? Shivering she wrapped the small device back in the clothe then chucked it out into the lake.  This had to be over.  She had to just get over it.  Why did she feel as if the theme for that Titanic movie should be playing?  Growling she took out her own cell phone and texted the baby sitter.  Checking on Kaiya was main priority and to make sure Sanyu did not try kidnapping her...again.<span style="font-weight: bold">"I should have just left him dead."</span>she muttered to herself, placing the phone back in her pocket.<br/><br/>Looking up at the sky she scooted back a bit from the water and laid back.  Really she did not care right now what happened to her.  No one was here that she knew of and it was always nice to look at the stars and what she could see of the milky way.  The moon was too bright and thus she could barely see it, if at all.  Not that it mattered.  She had chosen to wear just a simple purple dress with no shoes.  It was what? Summer after all.  Early fall?  She did not want it to start snowing again.   So the vampire laid in the grass and looked at the stars.  It was the most normal thing she had done all year.