Kate held his hands, "I want you to be useful too. You will be. Papa will need your special skill to train his elite. You have the skills. You need the education to work with the king's guard. I can get you ready. I want you with me always. Right now try to enjoy our moments together. We will not have these times again. I love holding you. When you have duties we will not have as much time together. Dinner is almost ready and soon it will be time to call Abby and Matt. Your past will haunt you a long time. I want to replace them with happy memories. You were around Lords and Ladies did you have any wants of your own? Is there anything you would like to try for yourself? I am willing to make that happen."