Nexo had heard her screams. It almost registered. He heard them echoing in his mind. He didn't care if he hadn't done anything. He wanted to kill him and had intentions of doing so. Therefore he was a threat that must be exterminated. He didn't want her. Not after he had been betrayed. She was just like Gabrieal He didn't want her and yes. It was her fault. So he was going to punish them and then...he was killing Lucifer. It made sense at least to the voice in his mind. The Abyss she was talking to him. And he was letting her guide him. He watches Braedon leave. "Yeah. But not for me." he says darkly. Pushing Braeden in faster than he'd intended to go with the shadows of the abyss. Or was going to instead...he sealed that rift permanently.<br/><br/>He listens to her. Looked down at her. He had been almost innocent. He was still there. Buried deep inside. The Nexo she knew him as. For a second he seemed to show in his own eyes then ite was gone. He didn't listen. He wasn't polluted not in his opinion. He could do like he had done in Russia...break it apart and snap those links. Yeah...he'd done it before. It hurt like hell. Yet why should he do it again? He got used when he was...that Nexo. Hurt and betrayed. He didn't want to be hurt and betrayed. She was talking and he almost didn't listen.<br/><br/>He looks at him. "I was there when you opened that scroll letter thing Dez. I read it with my own eyes. Lucifer sent your boyfriend to kill me. I am not stupid. So do not treat me like I am." he says. His voice slipping in and out of being the guy he normally was and the guy he currently was. "No...Lucifer sent him...because I am a danger to him. I could kill him. Him and God both. But I have no interest in doing so. In fact I merely wanted to live in a semi-happy state of existance. Find someone who would be a friend. A true friend." he says simply. No pain yet the words held it nonetheless. "Well then...Lucifer shouldn't assume things. I walked off...to try and cool off. Then while I was watching you to make sure those Abyss Creatures lurking around here didn't harm you...you got that note. The orders that I am to be killed. That you are to lead the killer to me. And then you are to stand back and do nothing. And you were more than willing to do so." he says sharply.<br/><br/>He looks at her. "Yeah. Apparently. And Braeden is also the only person you aren't willing to betray. That you wouldn't stab in the back or throw under a bus to further your own gains." he says venomously. He looks down at her. "You did mean to. You didn't care. You wanted your power and position back or something else trivial like that. And I saw your expression when we first met. You were willing to do anything and everything to make sure you got it. I should have been smart. Followed that instinct that told me that. Instead...I tried trusting again. And you see what it brought me." he says.<br/><br/>He looks at her. Blinking for a second. "Dez..." he says. The voice wavering in and out of being without soul or emotion. He listens to her. "I did. I did like you. I even trusted you. Was having fun just hanging out with you. Had even been about to go to Hell with you so you could get you precise power and position back. Then...you threw a knife in my face and stabbed me with it over and over again. Gave me a warning that was nothing more than a vieled threat." he says. He looks at her. His eyes narrowing. "I know your beautiful. Dez...that isn't what made me want to be around you. To be near you and to want you." he says. "I saw the real you. The personality among other things that you kept so well hidden. Let it blind me to the truth. That I was just a means to an end. A tool you were using and would dispose of when it became useless." he bites his lip.<br/><br/>He loosens his grip. Pulling the knife away. His eyes slowly returning to the Nexo she knew. "I'm going back to me Dez...I'm breaking those connections. Snapping the links connecting me to the other me. To the me that destroyed nearly all of Russia." he says softly. Life and soul returning to his eyes. He makes the knife poof into black smoke. "I did like you Dez...but I knew even then I would never have a chance in Hell, Heaven, or Earth...of ever being with you." he says. His eyes back to normal.<br/><br/>"I trusted you. Gabrieal did the same thing. Befriended me...just to try and betray me to gain more power from God. I trusted him...and he...tried to kill me in my sleep. Do you know what it is like Dez...to know...you will never have love? To know that no matter what you do...you will be hated? To know that should you fall for a human...you will cause their life to end in a blink of an eye?" he backs up. "I do. I know those things Dez...I don't like it. I try to forget it. I will never come to terms with the fact...I am doomed and destined...to be alone. For now and always."<br/><br/>Tears trailed down his face like crimson flames. "I knew you would never love me back. Or care about me like I did you. I knew that you already had someone. Yet...I liked not being reminded of...it. To just live in the moment and enjoy my time with you while it lasted." he looks at her. "You say emotions are meaningless. Yet they have meaning and purpose to you when your around Braeden." he points out. "You have someone Dez. You have friends whether it is due to fear or respect or whatever...you have them. You have people who care about you. You have people who love you unconditionally." he looks at her again. "I just wanted...to pretend...for a bit...that I too had that. That...I mattered. For me not for the power I contain. It is stupid to want I know. I am only 19 in human years Dez. Yet...there is so much I don't know...I feel more like I am 13 in human years."<br/><br/>He looks at her. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was going to hurt your soulmate. I'm sorry...for everything." he says softly. He looks at her. "What is my purpose Dez? Why was I spit out into the world?" he looks at her. Letting himself just sink to the ground. "Dez...I'm sorry. I...snapped. Weird term isn't it? Considering normally when someone snaps...things break and fall out of place. When I snapped...it was things fixing and falling into place." he sighs. "I messed things up for you Dez. That wasn't what I wanted at all. I would take on anything and anyone...to keep you smiling. To keep you safe and happy. Truly happy." he lowers his gaze. "Dez...you know what the worst part is? I'm alone...for eternity. I just tried to kill myself. I healed up to damn fast. Shadows sealed it up." he shows her the bloody knife. "Damned if you do...damned if you don't." he says. Looking at her. "I am sincerely sorry Dez." he sighs. Just sits there.