Alyxander raised the blade again, hoping desperately that Kate would leave him to his plans. It would be better for him to be dead and gone than alive. When he heard the door open, he lowered the knife again, knowing that if he went though with this and Kate came in before he was completely dead, she would blame herself for not being able to stop him. And having her feel guilty for his sins and wrongs was the last thing he wanted.<span style="font-style: italic">"What have you done? No Alyx. You did not come to me first."</span>Alyx kept his gaze turned away, and didn't hug Kate back as she threw her arms around him.<span style="font-style: italic">"I am so sorry. Please don't take your life."</span>" 'Tis better for your safety and your family's... that I be gone. If I was ever to lose myself and kill or harm another innocent... I-I would be sinned, and n even worse monster than I have already become."