Kate noticed he had tried very hard to explain and she hugged him, "Patience my love. You are talking about feelings. Jasper, of course, your lost inside. You are no different than anyone. My reason for living is to be my father's daughter and keep my father's name unblemished. I am to keep my brother course and be the best sister by supporting him and letting him know he can talk to me about anything unconditionally. Right now you and I are to protect each other and alarm Matt and Abby if there is any danger. I told you, you are on holiday. This was supposed to be a few weeks of fun. I will teach you games, what fun is, and how to live without pain. I can begin your book learning if you want. Your well enough to practice. I promised you would never be made to fight. I meant it. You have skills that would keep you alive should you have to fight. I know you are able to best most any man and my father would give you a real challenge. Test me after we eat. Will that make you feel better? We have a great room that is empty. Papa uses the room as a hall for his officers and guest.  I will not use magic and we use live steel or practice swords. I want to know if I am any good. I have been using a wooden sword since I could walk. Papa has taught me how to swordfight. Would you test me, Jasper?"