Hearing that the moments they had like this would not be happening again was like a shock to Jasper's system. His ears lay flat as his shoulders tensed. What if he slipped back into his old ways? What if he just needed to get away from everything?<br/><br/>Jasper heard what Kate was saying, but it felt like he couldn't focus on the words. His mind jumping to conclusions, all of them worst case.<br/><br/>"What if I can't do it?" He asked. He had never had a proper education before, but the way he had heard it being spoken of, it sounded like a difficult thing, something completely different from what he had been taught. Sinking into these thoughts, Jasper almost missed what Kate had asked. He thought about his times around the Lords and Ladies, trying to think of something he had wanted to do that he had been forbidden to do. Most of his memories were fighting, being dragged to various social events like balls and festivals, and being used against his will. Most of the things he had done had bad connections to them now.<br/><br/>Pondering the question, Jasper thought even further back to when he had been with his parents, listening to them talk about their lives before being forced into slavery. He could remember one story of when a travelling circus had passed near the village, and his father had taken his mother to see it without either of their own parents' knowledge. He had described fire eaters, great ferocious beasts being tamed by men and women, and many other things that Jasper had spent many night's imagining as a child. He had pushed away any ideas of ever seeing something like this when his training had begun, sentencing himself to a life in the pits. But now, the memories were returning to him and his old amazement with them.<br/><br/>"Are travelling circuses still a thing?" He asked Kate hesitantly. For all he knew they had been shut down, forbidden from travelling the land with their shows.