"It just goes to show how unpredictable and dangerous I am when my control slips." Alyxander murmured, though managing to keep a bit of a smile. "I hadn't meant to harm John, more to knock him away and continue to do so until he decided to let me tell him my side of the story. I have no desire for violence or bloodshed, against the beliefs towards my kind; I never drink human blood, only animal. I had gone so vicious because I didn't want Kate hurt; I can't stand letting anyone else dear to me be hurt anymore." He listened to the rest of what had been said to him, letting his small, weary smile remain. A light wince overcame him, though he tried to hide it, when his past with Lady Malora was mentioned. He hated having to think back to his life before here, before this safety and tranquility.. this happiness. "I was a servant." He answered honestly. "And a slave... perhaps an experiment, if you must consider it. Always the first to be punished , and harshly at that, for even the slightest of mistakes. Used as a lab rat for experiments, though most to spite in my rebellion. Tormented even when I had done nothing wrong, just because I happened to be at convenience. It was horrible, absolutely horrible." Alyx's expression seemed a bit pained, as if it hurt to think of the torture he'd endured many times over throughout his past.