"The beach?" Kat suddenly looked up at Donta, it had been years since she had gone to the beach, and even longer since she had actually swum in public. Her mind went over all the things she didn't have, a towel, although she didn't need one, a bathing suit, again, no real need, she didn't have many of the things people wished to cover, and her tentacles hid her modesty below her waist. "Sounds fun, it'll be nice to not have to wear my hyrdolizer for a while."<br/><br/>While she laughed and made her jokes, her mind raced, she doubted any of them had seen her without her scarf. She would have been sweating, but instead her skin formed tiny bumps, similar to goosebumps. Maybe this is why she was sent to the academy, to get some level of self esteem... but why now? She had friends, for the first time in her life she had people who liked her, who called her their friend. Her jaw tightened, and she sighed slightly, She forced a smile, however unseen it was, it made her feel normal. "Sounds good to me, maybe we can pick up something to eat on the way." Her stomach, while empty was hardly ready for food. The attack still boiled in her mind, a disgusting stew of fear, jealousy and hatred. It left a horrid taste steeping in her mouth.<br/><br/>Her smile still present, almost too hard to let go of, she glanced back to her console, nothing. Oddly ominous, she sighed, 'if they don't like you for you, they aren't real friends.' Her parent's voices sang melodically in her head, a sad attempt to reassure her that the fact that she had no friends wasn't her fault. The smile still forced on her face, held there in an attempt to comfort herself made her nauseas. But she would go, and eat, and swim, and smile, and pray.