He missed her. She hadn't lost him. Not in the sense she was thinking. He had lost himself and as such she lost him. He headed home. The look alike was not in school. His family kept telling him the girl from school was Renae but he wouldn't believe them. When he finally did he was angry and hurting. He hadn't spoken to anyone. Hadn't done anything but die inside again. He was angry and hurting. He withdrew. Barely doing his school work. Barely caring that he was falling behind in his classes. The weeks passed and still she didn't show up. She vanished yet again. He was beginning to feel hatred towards the world. Hatred that he wanted to destroy his own self with. He went to the beach and saw her there. "If you wanted to die you should have done it right the first time. Once your a vampire death is not so easy. I know...I know this for a fact." He was angry and the words came out like acid. He wasn't trying to. The anger and hurt was there.<br/><br/>"I loved you! I still love you! I am just not worth loving anymore. I died with you. When the ocean seemingly stole you from me. Do you know how long I have hated myself for not being strong to keep you safe?!" he demands. "If you are going to lay here and die fine. Just do it without me. I couldn't stand to live with you dying yet again. If you are so stupid to waste the life and worth you have then whatever. Maybe you really did die and are just a figment of my imagination. My family seems to think you still care. I don't believe them. What am I supposed to think? Seeing you brought back home which you so quickly dashed and shredded to pieces." he turns his back to her. "I am dying all over again inside. I missed you every second I had to live and go on without you. I am a mountain of ice now...I am not even sure I remember how to feel. Minus the anger and hurt and self hatred."<br/><br/>He walked away from her some. "Why did you play me? Why?" he demanded. Not looking at her. His fists balled at his sides. He shook from his anger. "I am more angry at myself than I am at you. I just want to know why. Why you betrayed me like you did. I am inside, deep down, happy you are alive. I got your message...you are giving up on me. I don't blame you. I gave up on me too." He shakes his head. The tears falling. "Do you hate me or something. I still love you and are hurting because of losing you. I am dying inside Renae. I am not sure I can come back to life. You gave me life and then with you it went away. Why did you go away. I want to know the truth this time."