"It doesn't make it any less painful Nathan! My heart aches every moment and yet I feel no mercy from it! I have to see people die every second of each and everyday by my hand! And you gave me something that made me happy. For the first time in years I was happy, but you took that away! You'll never know what it's like Nathan! I know you can't love me, but why must I have to feel this suffering!" She snapped with tears starting to fall from her eyes as the ground around her darkened from her pain. "Everyday....I see people horrified, afraid of me. Some accept their fate and I welcome them, but it's rare I ever see a smile facing my direction."