"Don't be sorry..." Abi didn't know what else to say. She was tempted to make some comment about how it really didn't matter and that it was all her fault. But she didn't. "I... I love you Xavier," she said as their bodies began to disengage. She sensed the he was upset, maybe even angry. But she felt only sadness. The two of them really weren't compatible and they had never really been sexually compatible. That Abi thought she could make it work or that she maintained the fantasy that she could encourage him to be more open and willing to experiment was exceptionally naive on her part. And that was her fault. He was who he was, and people don't change. Her dreams of him maybe even her love for him was focused on a fantasy she had invented and imposed upon him. She was to blame for that.<br/><br/>She kissed him again, disengaged herself and got out of bed, going into the bathroom to clean up. As soon as she had closed the door she started to cry. She did not want him to hear her so she turned on the water in the sink, sat on the toilet and began to sob, softly. Even though there had been some awkwardness at first the evening had gone well. They had nice time together for the first time in a long time, but then their sexual incompatibility manifested itself and they both fell back into old patterns of behavior. He had tried to do something a little new, but it was strange.<br/><br/>After allowing herself to cry for about 15 minutes she flushed the toilet, washed her face and turned off the water in the sink. She discarded the pink teddy into the laundry basket and changed into a long simple nightgown and then slipped back into bed. She ran her hand gently over Xavier's back and lay down facing away from him. And there she lay, wide awake. Numb, disappointed and confused. She was well aware that Xavier watched porn and might have just assumed that he was trying out things he had seen in those films. But it didn't feel like acting out a porn scene - it felt like Robin! She couldn't ask him, well, not without giving herself away. What exactly transpired between Xavier and Robin? Surely nothing more than talking. But why would her husband ask one of her students for advice on how to give her oral sex? And why... or how did Robin provide that information. It made her feel as though she had been betrayed... but by whom? And how?<br/><br/>Her iPhone was on the bed table next to her and after a couple hours of laying awake she picked up the phone and considered sending Robin a text, but instead opened up the clock app and set her alarm for 6:00 AM. Laying the phone back on the table she hoped she could fall asleep so the morning could come and she could go back up to her office and just be by herself.