My heart was in my mouth as he was speaking. I'd got this man here to live with me so I'd be safe and instead he's telling me that, despite his presence, he thinks I'm still being watched. And he wants me to leave home without him watching over me. He wants to stake me out like a wild animal as prey.<br/><br/>I want to refuse. I want to stay here, lock the doors, bolt the windows, hide away and never come out. But that would be admitting defeat, which is something I would never do.<br/><br/>I take a deep breath and make my decision.<br/><br/>'OK, Dave, if that's what you recommend. I'm not happy about being exposed like that, but I see your point. Just make sure he spot him tomorrow. I don't think I could go through this again.'<br/><br/>I toss and turn throughout the night, wondering whether I have made the right decision.