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			“No, no, you’re wrong.  Why would I want any of this?!”  Keri replies in what she expects to be her normal, icy tone, but her voice is cracking, barely an audible whisper.  Deep down she can feel it, that heat that Gwen somehow found out about, managed to unlock back at the restaurant.  That desire she is so ashamed of, that she worked so hard to bury deep down inside, her burden to endure when the night comes.<br/>
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This cannot be happening.  Keri can feel her internal struggle, trying to come to grips with the new reality that is facing here with these accusations.  Placing her hand on the wall to brace herself as her fierce posture begins to falter.  This isn’t happening, there is no way she can know these things.  How could she?  No one knew about any of this, not even her therapist.  Keri never spoke to anyone about her desires, about Melissa, certainly not about Rebecca.<br/>
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Rebecca was an attorney she had found online, and the relationship had been nothing but professional.  But Keri’s interest in her became so much more than that although she was never able to admit it, even to herself.  What started out as a standard background check turned into an obsession.  Needing to know more, to see more of this beautiful, powerful woman.  And somehow, Gwen knew about all of it.<br/>
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"Please, Gwen, it doesn’t have to be like this.“  Glancing back at her daughter, young Maddie standing in the doorway watching the two women, watching her typically stoic mother being dismantled before her eyes.  "Maddie can stay with you."  She says quietly, sounding defeated.  "I just want my life back and I promise not to say anything about the two of you, not to anyone.  You’ll never have to see me again.”<br/>
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Keri's blue eyes widen, her body frozen, heat rising from within, recognizing the pointing gesture from the younger woman.  She watches Maddie, almost in slow motion, smiling and eagerly moving over to Gwen to where she points.<br/>
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What in the world is happening to me?
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</blockquote>Standing in the corner terrified. These two Lionesses sizing each other up. This was all suppose to be so easy. Gwen would explain what was going to happen and keri would leave our life's forever. Gwen who now has total control of my body, mind, and soul sends me to my knees next to her just by pointing. Unable to stop it if i wanted to. Looking at my mother as i kneel. Seeing the disbelief in her eyes. Seeing a look in her eyes i could have never imagined. Fear and Defeat! Her world crumbling around her in moments. Could i actually be feeling sorry for her? She looks so pathetic. This powerful woman i thought could never be hurt in any way because she had no morals. Countless nights alone crying in my bed at yet another boarding school. Each one seemingly farther and farther away. Going weeks on end with out a word. Alone and scared always. Seeing the other girls visiting with family on the weekends and holidays. Keri would just send me to the Island and then come up with some excuse that she could not make it. Knowing that everything i needed could be charged to the resort her villa is part of.<br/><br/>Trembling, kneeling there next to Gwen. Gwen controlling everything. Every time keri tries to fight back her submissiveness is so obvious. Gwen pounces. Telling keri what will happen next and only she will decide that. Seeing my mother break down before my eyes. The way she looks at Gwen it as if Gwen has already taken control of her. And Gwen seemingly enjoying it so much as well. Now beginning to question what is all going on myself.