''I don't wanna talk about it, Ziva.'' He dragged her name across his lips and made eye contact with her, but it was short-lived. He knew she was worried, but he, in all honesty, couldn't discuss with her what really troubled him. That letter. That damn letter. It was so complicated, and remembering the whole thing made him angry. He was filled with rage. Not because he was in love with Jeanne, but because he had to hurt her. To look into her eyes and lie and say that he loved her. He lifted his head up and glanced over at an obviously pissed off Gibbs. The man wasn't in his good graces lately.<br/><br/>Mainly, because Tony knew first hand, how much damage Gibbs has inflicted, and he wasn't even aware of it. He watched as Ziva retreated back to her desk, and debated whether to go to her and apologize for being dismissive or to let it be. Apologies were, after all, against the rules of saint Gibbs. He glanced back at Gibbs again, and then followed his boss's gaze up to Jenny and glanced at her. He felt sorry for her if he was being honest. They had become friends somewhat, over the months Gibbs spent in Mexico. Which meant that he had far more insight into the complicated relationship than he would ever wish for.<br/><br/>________________<br/><br/>Jenny turned her gaze away from Gibbs and redirected it at Tony. She looked like she had a debate of her own going on. She turned towards MTAC, and then it seemed, changed her mind and instead, made her way to her office. ''Cynthia...'' The Director said and called for her assistant. ''Call agent Gibbs's team into MTAC in 10." She ordered and her faithful assistant picked up the phone to make what she assumed was a very uncomfortable phone call.<br/><br/>She thought a lot about the past. It's not like she wasn't remorseful, but she refused to feel remorse for the things he, Gibbs, wanted her to. It was complicated. Her feelings were very carefully hidden. Jenny imagined how frustrated Gibbs was going to be when he was informed of yet another undercover op. But, that wasn't her fault, and she refused with every atom of her existence, to give him the right to be frustrated. It was her job, and if he expected her to explain everything and to justify every single little thing she did, he was a fool.<br/><br/>But, this time, Jenny was going to follow SecNav's orders and if Gibbs had a problem with it, he could take it straight to the 'big guy'. She picked up the files on her desk and put them under her arm, and then made her way to the MTAC.