He hadn't made the other cry, he didn't want to burden the other with these emotions considering he was already feeling terrible about all previous event. That was all in the past and he had hoped that it would stay there but it seemed that Alan was going to hound him for the rest of his days. He felt his own eyes glaze over from the strength of his feelings as well as watching the way that Caden was affected by them. "It was a mistake not to ask him if he was involved... and I'm sure I made other mistakes in my blindness but it's part of the reason I don't let myself get carried away like that." He didn't mean to be so open and raw with this new sub but his own fear that was tugging just right under his skin was getting to him. The request to be forgiven left him in a strange place because he knew what the other had been up to right before he arrived.<br/><br/>"I was hoping you would have had a little more trust in me. It hurts me that you didn't but I suppose I made some of my own mistakes. This is not a subject I wanted to talk about in person and I had asked for a day or two. I know that these days have been hard on you and I'm proud you were able to make it through and yet...I know it might take me a little bit to let it go." He suspected that Caden was expecting some sort of punishment and he would have to consider what exactly it would be or if that was the nature of the relationship they wanted. After all it wasn't like he had to be his dom to help the company, right? Charles was plagued with the hesitations playing in his head as he considered the CEO's offer.<br/><br/>He moved to start undoing his tie, feeling like his body weighed a million pounds at that moment. "I will wake you in the morning, I'm sure there are plenty of important tasks to catch up on." He paused again in thought, "Do you... need any help cleaning up?" The giant had to guard his heart a little more but he couldn't change what had taken place just like he couldn't have changed the death, all he could do was move forward the best he could.