"I don't know." Milo answered honestly. He lived out here alone because he was afraid. He couldn't handle the noise of the city or the bright lights or the people in it. People were accident prone and with his lack of self control Milo knew he'd only be a danger to himself and others. He'd already made mistakes in the past he didn't want to repeat and if that meant isolating himself he would do it.<br/><br/>"Maybe I'm lonely." He said, shrugging. he continued rubbing Aries' back. It felt like a tiny victory and Milo couldn't remember the last time he'd had any meaningful contact with anyone. "I guess I just know what it's like too. I don't...I just don't want anyone to go through what I did. Or at least as little as possible- god, I don't make any sense!" He scolded himself.<br/><br/>"I guess I just- I want to help, yeah, but maybe I also just want to be around someone who understands." He felt selfish as he said it. Milo finally pulled his hand back. Like he'd lost an internal battle in himself and it didn't feel right to touch Aries anymore. Alex was his friend, sure, but he also wasn't there as often. The man had other responsibilities, Milo couldn't expect him to be there as often as he would have liked.<br/><br/>"Even a little bit- even if it's temporary." Milo, stared at the T.V, feeling a rock settle in his stomach. His expression hardened and for the tenth time that day all he wanted was a fucking cigarette. If he didn't live twenty minutes away form the nearest Gas station he'd probably hop into his car to go get a pack.<br/><br/>"Sorry. It's selfish of me to expect anything like that from you- you don't owe me anything." Milo started to get up, a headache starting to form behind his eyes. He was rambling due to lack of sleep. He thought about going to bed even if it meant braving his night terrors again.