Drake was once more caught off guard as he didn’t feel like he had said anything terribly shocking or surprising. That and not that long ago he was sure Ryah might agree that he as a vampire was better off not living and yet here he was being lectured by the hunter. He almost could laugh at how much the tables had turned but it gave him pause. He long ago realized that Ryah was not good at talking things through and that was fine by Drake since he hadn’t been interested in much talking. Once upon a time he was known for his silver tongue and ability to get information out of a person but that had been in a previous life he had no interest in re-creating.<br/><br/>The notion that he had given up wasn’t good far off the mark in some ways as he hadn’t realized the low key depressed he had been simmering in so long he couldn’t remember what it was like not to have it as a constant companion. “Yes... just like that. I deserve it for everything I have done.” He admitted even as he had worked hard to repent for his actions he knew he was by no means innocent and would never be able to amass enough ‘credit’ to not be considered a malice on society. “I killed people for a living, that was what I was good at.” He finally said pleading with the other to see it, “Didn’t matter that some of it was sanctioned by the government and other times just rich assholes I have done far more damage than healing this world and I should in fact be dead. I mean... I technically am if you consider me undead but I can’t outrun fate forever.”<br/><br/>He knew that Ryah was younger than him and maybe more optimistic, that and he had a support network and a community in a way that Drake had failed to do and burned all his bridges. Outside of Kane there were few people he could turn to and trust and he knew he had done that himself, sometimes out of fear and other times out of stupidity or paranoia. He couldn’t re-do his past and if he was honest with himself he had been a product of his circumstance and everything had been about survival. “I really do appreciate that you care about me though.... it’s very sweet.” He wasn’t going to say it was a mistake because he was sure even Ryah knew that, “I’m not going to try to go anywhere but I’m also under no illusion about my situation.”