Aries felt disgusting, he felt like his body wasn't his... Or rather he wished it wasn't. He was panting for air even as he wanted nothing more than to be unable to breathe...<i>Monster, Monster, Monster... </i>The single word was like a curse in his mind. He'd drank blood, he'd become the very thing he never wanted to become... Why? Why? He didn't have an answer, and that made his mind begin crumbling, for all his ability to hold it together until now he finally felt a sharp crack. And there was little that probably would have stopped the vampire, gouging out his throat would only render him unconscious at best, he knew it wouldn't kill him... But he wanted to pay for his sins, all of them... So why couldn't he?<br/><br/>He didn't notice Luca at first, even when the male had grabbed him he was only met with unseeing grey eyes as all Aries seemed to see before him was agony, but this was the emotional kind, and he had never been able to process it well. He had always worked hard to bury it away, to move onto the next hope for death that was presented to him... No matter the pain he'd have to endure. But now... Now he felt truly as though he had tried everything. He'd never die and now... Now he had the taste for blood that he had tried so long to ignore.<br/><br/>But finally his eyes did focus on the human, but not for the reason that Luca would have hoped. Rather, the other's blood was so close now, the scent so strong, and the thirst had merely been enhanced by the taunting taste he'd been given. Aries pushed the human down to the ground, fingers digging into the male's shoulders as he straddled his stomach, lips parted to bare fangs as his small form trembled. Just a little bite, just a little more... The pain would go away, the thirst would go away...<br/><br/>Another sob ripped from the vampire's throat as his fingers gripped tighter, but his eyes finally seemed to show the panic he felt down to his core. "Why can't I die?" He finally wailed as though the human would know the answer. "I want it now... I want to bite you... I'm sorry, sorry... But I..." His words dissolved into manic apologies, it took everything he had not to sink his teeth into Luca, but still, he couldn't pry himself off the human either. He didn't think he could stop himself, he was terrified that he couldn't. "Get away from me... Please..." He begged, his expression pleading. He hoped the human had enough strength left to push him off and run, to get somewhere far away.