<span style="font-family: 'Georgia'">Carter's wide eyed surprise at Asa's admission of how old he was drew a light chuckle from the vampire, "Not that old, though it does sometimes feel that I am." Those moments when time seemed to stand still and it felt as if he'd walked the earth for an eternity. A feeling he hadn't felt in almost two decades. Ever since Carter had come into his life, time had only accelerated and there were days where he wished it would slow once again. <br/>
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Carter calling him beautiful warmed something deep inside of him and he wanted nothing more than to kiss the smile that softened the younger male's expression. Instead he returned that smile with small one of his own, his free hand reaching to softly tug on a lock of Carter's hair, "Of course you would think so, but your opinion is sorely biased. And no, not all, but most vampires would likely be considered beautiful to the human eye. Predatory charm. Nothing more than a trap."<br/>
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Asa's expression sobered considerably at the mention of whether he'd created others. Selena and Otto were a sore topic. One that he preferred not to dwell on. <br/>
</span><br/><i><span style="font-family: 'Georgia'">'I see... I'm sorry that things didn't work out.' </span></i><br/><span style="font-family: 'Georgia'"><br/>
Asa just shook his head, "Nothing to be done for it, people grow apart all the time...it was only a matter of time." Carter's mention of life being lonely felt as if someone had twisted a knife in his gut, the pain made so much worse that Carter could not only understand, but relate to that loneliness. Guilt sat heavy in Asa's chest and a thousand apologies swarmed, wanting to be voiced. He swallowed them all. It was his fault that Carter was familiar with how deep and aching loneliness and the craving for connection could be. Asa may claim to have hidden the truth of what he was for Carter's sake, but at what cost? <br/>
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Maybe now things could change. Now that Carter knew, there was no reason to hide. To hide himself by staying away. Only, a soft voice in the back of his mind reasoned that now that Carter knew, it was all the more reason to stay away. One day at a time. He would get through this day first. And go from there. Cross that bridge when he arrived at it. No sooner. <br/>
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The mention of the boy and blood was a welcome subject change, one that Asa was more than happy to answer. "Of course you've seen nothing. I've been careful to keep that away from you." Though he now wondered how well he'd done, given what Carter had discovered with just a little digging. He never brought people back home that he planned to feed from, and he never came home without having first sated his thirst. "I haven't been around this long without learning to control the constant craving for blood. I'm not a fledgling anymore...Where would we be if I had no control over blood and it's effect on me." While voiced as question, he didn't expect an answer as he went on, "And yes, I feed from people. Animals are not only revolting, their blood does nothing for that constant need for blood, which at it's worst is..." he trailed off, expression somewhere between dread and disgust, "I never want you to see me in that state." <br/>
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He sighed then, "I'm sorry you had to discover me this way. I always expected to tell you eventually." Only, his eventually had been a long way off.</span>