The fact was that John needed time to think about if he was doing the right thing. Because he would die for her and bleed for her. But.... would she do the same thing? Probably not, she'd probably just think he was stupid enough to get caught and go on without him. Even if he was the only one that was looking after her, he had a feeling that she didn't care. So after dodging road blocks and military checkpoints, he came to a stop and let her into the car and looked into her eyes and questioned if he wanted to do this. His hand came in the form of reaching over and taking her hand as he started to drive. He had to do this because she thought that everyone would hate her, he needed to prove that he was different." I'm here for you commander, as a soldier or whatever you want. I got my feelings out there. Now I will let you command me in anyway you wish." As they drove he just looked out front as he held her hand, wondering what the future had in mind. He wanted her, but he wouldn't make her do anything that she didn't want to." Could you do me one favor though commander. I..... I saved myself for you. C.... could you please.... take my first time from me even if that's the only thing you do." He blushed a little and looked over at her with an innocent look. He really just wanted this one favor from her if she was going to never catch the woman that haunted his dreams." After that..... we will be whatever you want us to be. But I want to give you the soul thing that is yours."