Dimitreaus was about to disappear. It was true. Hearing that Ryan and his father weren't close was befuddling, but it just went to show how little he knew about Kane. So he sat and did what Ryan said. Lowering his head into his hand, his skin wouldn't stop being tight. "I...hurt an angel. Very badly. M-" he choked on the name. Unless he popped out to hell in a split second even speaking an angel's name would have the potential to be a deadly encounter. If it weren't for the fact that Kane had done something to make him immortal he could very easily die. So he cleared his throat. "An arch angel punished me for it. Divine justice and all that. I Fell, naturally, went to the wonderful purgatory, and Eden made me a demon. But being here...Fuck my back is killing me." He gnawed on his lip once more and looked at Ryan. "It's like that angel is here now..." Which was entirely possible. Asmodeus had lost Samuel.<br/><br/>He shook his head. "But that's not why I'm here. I was cursed. For nearly two hundred years I couldn't feel anything nice. No pleasure, no joy, no happiness. There was no kindness in my life. I was, well still am in most senses of the term, a heartless bastard. I fucked with your...Kane and he decided to insert himself into my life." He raised his hands. "And in the midst of all this clusterfuckery I feel warm around him. It's like I can't catch my breath and I feel calm and relaxed around him. And the physical attraction is insane." He didn't go into details to save Ryan's precious ears. "So yeah...I guess I just want to understand. Even when I was an arch angel I didn't feel things to this degree. I was always so fucking selfish."