“She fed off my experience— Maybe our experience.  I got the feeling they don’t get to have those feelings as much anymore, so something about our connection and something about me, we were able to do just what you said.  We fed her our energy.  But it was vampiric, it was...The opposite.  My soul feels better, not worse.”  Yes, the whole thing had been overwhelming and very emotional, but Vara felt better for having it.  In a big way, she had thought of herself as broken for failing to connect with her fellow wolves, for denying Blackvayne.  Now it felt like there was a reason for it.<br/><br/>Vara stood as he asked, enjoying the feeling of his hands against her skin.  Even though they had just had that strange experience, his question caught her off guard.  They had only been together a couple of days and this was not something she had even thought was in the realm of possibilities.  “Do you want to watch other people fuck me?”  She arched a brow, curious about his feelings on the matter.<br/><br/>“That was, for lack of a better description, very arousing for me, but I don’t think it would have been if you weren’t there with me.  I’ve been with women before, but that was a different level.”  She tried to explain, but she realized her feelings were at war with each other.  Yes, she had deeply enjoyed Ren’s lips and her hands, but she somehow knew Ren was not about to lay claim to her in any sort of permanent way.  A living, breathing person might be different.  “I don’t think I would enjoy watching.  If we find ourselves in a situation where we want to try something like that again, I think I would be willing to try it again.”  She stepped toward him, pressing her body against his in a tender way.  Her hand lifted and she ran it through his hair.  “But I want us to belong to each other...I don’t want to share your heart with someone else...”