<span class="fixed-color" style="color:#99ffcc">Alexi smiled softly, curling closer to Lucian. He was more than content to let the matter of his sister and her problems fall by the wayside for now. It wasn’t her fault, but he wanted to be able to spend some time with Lucian un interrupted. He couldn't keep himself wondering if Lucian understood how he felt about him, and then laughed softly. He lifted his head up and kissed Lucian’s neck, resting his head on his shoulder.</span><span class="fixed-color" style="color:#4dffa6"> “I want to… show you something…”</span><span class="fixed-color" style="color:#99ffcc"> he said, after a while. Show wasn’t the right word, but it was the best that he had. He closed his eyes, thinking of Lucian, finding the threads that connected them together, pale and faint, but enough. Holding those in his mind, he thought about how he was feeling. <br/>
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He was filled with love and affection for the man, attracted to him in a way he’d never been drawn to someone before. He’d never considered himself to be gay, or even really interested in men, but Lucian was different… he was Lucian. So there was confusion there as well, and also a bit of trepidation. Not quite fear of the unknown, but a nervousness and uncertainty about how exactly this was supposed to work. Sure he understood the basic mechanics of it, but this was all uncharted waters for him. And he didn’t want to do something wrong, and wasn’t sure if he was ready to take their relationship further, or even how that worked. He was also ashamed, because Lucian clearly wanted to be with him, but he was waiting for Alexi to make a move, a man who didn’t make a move unless he was certain of what he was doing and what he wanted.  </span>