Shula looked back towards the window, the sounds of chopping still going on like a constant drone. She couldn't help but think of Amelia- not knowing what was going on and frightened. Burned alive from behind barred inside...she had seen the humans do it as she was drug out of her home. Shula could feel more resentment for Faelan grow. He was a part of that in some way even if he hadn't directly helped with the raid. The wound was still fresh for her.<br/><br/>"It's ironic...when we left the cult she was badly burnt because of the fire and then had to go and die in one." She said, putting her hand up to her mouth. She could feel a lump in her throat now and the sting of tears burnt her eyes. "A-And you were just wandering and came to help us and I thought everything was going to be okay- that I was done. That we were safe and fine a-a-and-"<br/><br/>She sucked in a breath, her voice cracking the more she continued until she let out a painful sob. She covered her mouth in an attempt to muffle her own cry, not sure what to do with herself anymore. It hurt so much for her to think about- she felt like she couldn't breath. The woman seemed to curl in on herself as the dam she had been holding up broke all at once, flowing out of her.<br/><br/>"I-I never even got to say good bye! Its all my fault- I-I never wanted to hurt anyone and I just ruin everything no matter where I go Thomas!" She cried, her shoulders shaking. Her frustration with herself was clear as she glared at the table, her face a concoction of pain and hurt. "And I kept going! I kept fighting and now I'm here and I don't know what to do because I'm bonded with a god forsaken hunter and I don't know what to do because Amelia's gone! It's just been useless this entire time!"<br/><br/>She looked back up at Thomas, her face dropping again as she fluctuated between grief and anger.<br/><br/>"I just wish I didn't exist..."