The area around then was only slightly lit by the fire. Alyssa remained on her back, on the ground with the gun pointed at Lucian. The girls chest moved as she let heavy breaths escape her. She had wanted to kill him so fucking bad, this was her chance. Alyssa's eyes squinted, her finger remained on the trigger as Lucian gave his speech. The things that he had done to her were much worse than murder. Death would have been the easy way out of all of this for her. But instead she lived with rape, torture, slavery, and humiliation.<br/><br/>For some reason though, she couldn't let herself pull the trigger. The girl wasn't a weapons professional, she preferred melee, so she didn't even know that the gun wasn't loaded. Alyssa glared up at Lucian, the gun still pointed at his head. Frustrated, the girl let out a growl, throwing the gun to the side and letting it hit the ground roughly. She lay there on the ground, in her vault suit, vulnerable, looking up at Lucian's figure which towered over the girl.<br/><br/>"What the fuck do you want with me, Lucian!?" Alyssa used her hands and arms to prop the upper half of her body up. She had the chance to fucking kill him and she didn't take the shot. What the fuck was wrong with her. "You want to ruin me?! Huh?!" She challenged him from her spot on the ground. "You've already fucking done that!" Bringing her hand up she wiped it across her face. This has been the first time that they had been alone without her being bound or restricted in some way.<br/><br/>She should have gotten up and hit him but instead she remained in the dirt. Blonde hair crazy around her face. "To be honest, I wish that you would have killed me back there, I wish that you would kill me now. Please?" Alyssa closed her eyes as she said it. "You've taken everything from me. I have nothing left to give you." Alyssa was no longer Rogue and she no longer knew who Alyssa was. "I'm useless now."