Hearing the weighted sigh come from Asa made Carter's posture deflate a little. Why couldn't he be granted a day out with Asa as he worked? He was sure there would be a few things he could do around the work place. But he couldn't bring himself to ask.<br/><br/>Why couldn't Asa just be honest with him. Carter knew there was more to all this than his guardian was telling him. He wasn't stupid, but there wasn't anything around the house that had provided him with any clues. The only place he hadn't checked was Asa's chambers. Normally he wasn't allowed in the room, which was probably why it felt so Alien to him. But the doors were always locked apart from when the cleaners ventured in to clean.<br/><br/>"It all sees like a bad dream..." he said looking at Asa's wrist with a confused expression on his face, gently brushing his fingers over the area he was sure was wounded a few seconds ago. Had he been hallucinating? Had he thought up the whole thing? His head was ticking over all the possibilities until Asa made a rage build up inside him again.<br/><br/><i>'A friend, that's what you need' </i><br/><br/>"A friend?" The comment came out a little harder than it was meant too, but he didn't want a friend. He wanted Asa to stay in the house without the need of going to work. Nobody worked every day, and he was tired of the staff members keeping an eye on him. "I don't want or need a friend" he managed wiping his left eye with the sleeve from his shirt with a quiet sniff. "You know what I need. Nobody can replace that. Why don't you get it? If you dare bring someone else into this house I'll bring hell upon them" he said still allowing Asa to hear the heated tone in his voice. Asa didn't have enough time for him, let alone someone else. He couldn't bear to think about another little demon running around and stealing all of Asa's attention away from him. No way. He leaned back against Asa's chest a little and tried to relax, but his body was still dealing with whatever trauma it was still trying to shift and now he had the worry of Asa bringing someone home the next time he vanished during the day. At least his guardian seemed a little calmer now. Carter was enjoying the close contact too, he just wished they could do this more often. He couldn't remember the last time they had sat like this. It seemed like months.<br/><br/><i>'Carter'</i>He looked up at Asa and reminded silent as his tears were gently brushed away, managing a small smile as a way of saying thanks. "Everything? I can't remember much of it. There isn't really much to tell" he said quietly, bringing his knees-up towards his chest, so he was as close to Asa as their bodies would allow. "I went to the bar" he started, tightening his arms around Asa's as his guardian nuzzled against his hair. Did Asa know how he felt about him? Could he feel how his heart skipped every time he nuzzled him like this? The action made his eyes close and a relaxed breath escaped him before he continued. "I didn't want to sit at the tables inside the bar with strangers, so I sat at the bar stools so I could speak to the owner instead. Two drinks down, a couple of guys came over and started ordering their own drinks beside me. They started a casual conversation and everything seemed to be going fine. But soon enough two others arrived. The owner left to fill the beer tank and I had another round, but I started to feel funny. I only drank half the glass, but my head started spinning along with my vision and my body began to feel like rubber. It felt like my foot had gone to sleep, but it was effecting my whole body. The next thing I knew the boys had gone, I think they said something along the lines off - He only had half - or something along that line but the owner grabbed me before I toppled off the bar stool. She drove me home and made sure I made it through the door. Then - everything went dark until I came too on the bed"<span class="fixed-color" style="color:#ffff00">'Only had half' <span class="fixed-color" style="color:#bfbfbf">What did that mean? "Half of what? Do you think the guys did something?" He knew they weren't speaking about the volume of alcohol he'd been throwing down his throat, but three drinks didn't normally floor him. He was the type who could happily sit and drink a bottle of wine while reading a book before bed, so it didn't add up. </span></span><br/><br/><span class="fixed-color" style="color:#ffff00"><span class="fixed-color" style="color:#bfbfbf">He tilted his head slightly to the side and closed his eyes with a shaky sigh escaping him. "I won't leave the house again. You were right about the outside world being dangerous. I didn't enjoy it and I failed at my mission of causing a little worry. I just - I like having you here with me... Like this" he said tightening his arms around Asa's for a second. He still felt like he was floating, but this was the kind he enjoyed. He could never get fed up with this feeling. It was almost addictive. </span></span>