Ziva's words spoke the truth, and she wasn't sure whether she could handle the truth at this particular moment. She will apologise to Tony, no doubt. She did have a lot of respect for the man, and she did consider him a very good agent. She always saw a bright future for him, and it had surprised her when Gibbs told her Tony wasn't ready for his own team. But, now, she had a job to do. She was being serious of reevaluating her actions, but that will have to wait until she could be alone with herself.<br/><br/>She strode back to her office, sitting behind her desk and grabbing the files to evaluate how dangerous this mission will be. SecNav wasn't joking when he said they were dealing with quite a nasty piece of work, and her stomach twisted at the idea that she would have to send Ziva undercover. That now, her boss is making her do it. She was sick of undercover work and secret ops, the last one she was on, was horrific. She'd been tortured and almost killed if not for Ziva. The one before that, she came out with the broken heart. And, there is this one. With Tony. The one where she became so obsessive that she had hurt a person for her personal agenda. She didn't mean to, she got caught up, made a mess. She was broken many years before, and it seemed like it all came to surface when Gibbs left to Mexico. But, it wasn't his fault, she could never blame her. She still loved him. And she might be the only person in the universe that understood him. It was complicated.<br/><br/>Her door swung open, and she was not surprised to see Gibbs standing in front of her desk. But, she was surprised at the number of words he had said. Jenny thought that all the time she knew him, he never said so many words at once. Gibbs was, as Tony liked to say, a functional mute, so his outburst shocked her at first. Nevertheless, she carefully listened to his words, drinking them in. He didn't leave her much space to respond, and she wasn't sure what she would say to him. He was right. It was between them. It had broken her hear that he thought she was angry because of Shannon and Kelly. She wasn't. It broke her heart when she heard about them because she could understand how hurtful it must have been for him. He lost his child and his spouse in the most horrific way imaginable. And no one should ever go through that.<br/><br/>He left the office and she couldn't stop thinking about his words. She couldn't stop thinking how wrong he was about her. It was a vicious circle between them. They just kept hurting each other, and neither one of them would step out--it was like they wanted to get hurt. But, as Ziva said earlier, they had to deal with it, they have to clear things up. She knew, though, it will be a long journey to repair the friendship with Ziva and Tony, even longer to repair whatever she has with Gibbs.<br/><br/>When Gibbs strode upstairs, Tony glanced back at Ziva, hesitating to ask his next question. ''Is he going to kill her?'' he asked jokingly, but somewhere deep down he did wonder how far could those two go. He looked at Ziva again, noticing her wavy, thick, dark hair framing her face. He shook himself from thinking about her hair, he was supposed to be heartbroken, right?<br/><br/>He looked at Tim and smiled mischievously ''What ya' think probie?'' he asked and then turned his attention back to Ziva, deciding to use the time Gibbs is away and ask her what he wanted all along. ''Is everything ok with you and Jenny?'' he looked at her ''I mean, director Shepard'' she corrected himself. It has been Jenny when Gibbs was gone because they have become friends, but getting that head slap when he called her that in front of Gibbs, was something to rethink whole name calling thing.<br/><br/>''You alright Ziva?'' he asked, now worrying that his family might be falling apart.