Ryan had time to think about Sam as well in between bouts of pain as his wings shed feathers and it was like being stabbed with the ends of them as they grew out. It wasn't always this brutal of a process there were times the molting was almost unnoticeable but since he had been tainted it was like he was being punished with the worst of it. He stayed in the apartment and keeping food down was hard as all he wanted to do was sleep and lay about. He also avoided mirrors knowing he didn't look great like he was sick the flu and had very little energy and try and pick up all the feathers laying about. That and he didn't want to see what effect his actions had on his wings. They had never been pure white, he had never been that innocent but the white feathers had mixed with gray and now he could see even some black ones coming in and it made him feel ill just remembering why they were there. Yet he could do nothing but wait....<br/><br/>He had given up on crying and knew he couldn't reach out to Sam as it might send the man rushing over here and he couldn't bear to have him see Ryan like that with his wings and the like. He knew Sam was sick of the supernatural and he didn't want the man to see him as such nor as helpless and pathetic as he felt with his wings currently half crippled.<br/><br/>---<br/><br/>"That's fine if you think you don't. I still want one." he said simply without much thought about it he was going to be reckless just because the incubus was a total masochist. Then again could he be called one if it was all pleasure to him? Kane leaned down and brushed his lips along Rai's it was almost tender but he didn't quite kiss him, the smell of drink was still on him but Kane wasn't wavering or shaking and his focus felt clear. Rai had given him all control to do anything he liked and he expected the other to let him know if there was something he didn't want. They both knew the rules and Kane was shifting the mindset of rough and brutal. The rage that had brimmed since what happened to Ryan finally spilling over.<br/><br/>He shoved Rai hard forward to make sure he toppled on the bed with the force of the push. Kane's demonic features coming out as only the horns and tail for now were visible his features sharper and his muscles more defined. "Bend over and hold still you need slut." he growled no longer quite feeling himself but needing that release as the waves of energy started to roll off of him in a pleasurable pulse. He didn't hesitate to remove his belt, his hand moving to roughly rip down Rai's pants. Round one wasn't going to be slow and easy, he wanted to go hard and then see what else he could tease out of the willing body. He didn't care if any of the cloth ripped as he got Rai's pants down trapping his legs together but just enough to expose his ass and upper thighs before his hand came down in a spank still fascinated that it was pleasure of the man. He was going to belt him there was no doubt about it as Kane tightened the grip on the thick leather belt he was holding.