Blue tilted his head in surprise as Eivind gently rejected him, shocked by the wolf's decision although he realized it might have been insulting to Eivind if Blue admitted such a thing. He kept quiet as the wolf reassured him that they weren't going to fuck just because Sieger ordered them to do so. He was relieved, as he didn't want their time together tainted, but there was still a lingering feeling of concern scratching at the back of his head. The longer it took them to mate, the more irate Sieger was going to be come, Blue was sure of it. The alpha didn't seem like the type of man who would be tolerant of others dismissing his orders, and with the bad blood he and Eivind seemed to share, the potential for trouble was multiplied.<br/><br/>He followed Eivind into the shower and the tense muscles in his body loosened as the warm water cascaded over his skin. The wolf pulled him close, and Blue wrapped his arms around Eivind's shoulders, once again tangling his fingers in the older male's dark hair. "I have to be fucking honest, I have no idea what to do," Blue said, pressing his face into the side of Eivind's head. "I know you don't either, but this, all of this is insane. It's like no matter where I go, I'm being held hostage. Sieger says we can't leave. Well, that<i>I</i>can't leave. But if we don't do this, I don't know how long we're going to be able to stay. There isn't anywhere else for us to go, is there?" He sighed, not expecting a real answer to his question, and slowly pulled away from Eivind. He shifted his body to the side so Eivind could receive the majority of the water for himself and retrieved some soap and a washcloth.<br/><br/>"You're so disgusting," Blue mumbled, soaping up the cloth as he took in Eivind's filthy form. Sieger had done a number to Eivind's handsome face, but his body appeared relatively unscathed, just covered in dried blood and grime. "I suppose I should be grateful that my sense of smell isn't as good as yours," the boy laughed, trying to find some tiny bit of humor in the shit show they were currently trapped in. He soaped up the cloth and began scrubbing Eivind's chest, watching as the soap lathered up into a dirty brownish pink foam. "Maybe we can go somewhere," Blue mused lightly, biting his lower lip as he ran the cloth down Eivind's abdomen, rubbing hard against his flat stomach to rid the wolf of the caked on muck. "Not far enough to make Sieger angry, but out in the woods somewhere, still in the pack's territory? I feel like everyone around us has their noses to the air and is just waiting to smell you come in me so they can mark it off some arbitrary checklist." A frown took hold of Blue's face at the thought, but it was fleeting, and the boy's visage returned to a pleasant, neutral expression as he dragged the cloth down each of Eivind's arms.<br/><br/>"That's much better," Blue whispered, watching as the water washed away the filthy foam and left nothing but Eivind's clean, tanned skin. Despite his reservations, their conversation, and the wolf's firm rejection of anything happening between them, Blue could feel a small pulse in his groin as he moved down Eivind's body. His cock twitched as he bent down in the shower and began rubbing at Eivind's thighs, the wolf's cock close to his face. He looked away and tried to focus on his task, forcing his eyes to remain glued to splashes of pink and brown that swirled together on the shower floor and flowed into the drain at his feet.<br/><br/>"Maybe you have somewhere that you like?" Blue said, returning to his previous line of thought. "Someplace you like to go to be alone, or think, or whatever. Is there a river or stream somewhere near by? I'd like to go there, if you know a place like that. I've always loved water."