Caden had made a promise to behave himself and he had been doing his best to keep away from Alan and remain in control on the situation, but the moment Alan managed to pull him close and wrapped his arms around his frame, his control wavered.<br/><i><br/>
'I just need a moment'</i><br/><br/>Shit. Caden gently lifted his arms and set them around Alan's waist with a gentle sigh of defeat. "Both of you need to sort this out Alan. I believe both of you. But it was an accident and I don't believe Charles could kill someone. He's too sensitive for that. Can't you work something out?" he asked holding Alan a little tighter.<br/><br/>"I'm allowed to worry. I worry about both of you, but either of you are making this easy for me. It's like you're both making me choose. Charles and I still have our training wheels on and it isn't fair on either of us" he said holding Alan a little tighter.<br/><br/>Being held always felt nice. Any form of contact was nice, but it was something Caden had rarely got from anyone. It gave him a warm internal feeling and sometimes goosebumps formed along his skin. A certain touch could arouse him, but mostly it gave him confidence and a sense of comfort. Alan's hugs were tight, warm and welcoming. He loved being this close "It is" he agreed "But we can't keep doing this. I can't.  You must see what damage this is doing to all of us. I don't want anyone getting hurt. But I don't know how to fix all this either. So you'll get need to sit down, listen and hear each other out," and he had a faint idea how that would go... "Charles isn't capable of killing. I know you think the same. Maybe it won't be so bad. I can't keep doing this" the sound of defeat was clear in his vocals. He did want this, but he couldn't. Both of them needed to stop messing around. The first time had only been because he'd been unsure if Charles was coming back to him, a second time would be like suicide in his head. He couldn't do that to him again.