Lucan watched as she began to enjoy the meal arrayed before her, and a small smile came to his face. If he thought about it long enough this one scene could be more romantic then Kamillah would ever want it to be. But he allowed himself to have this one moment, it made his heart feel alive again. Yet that soon came to an end when she asked her question, and this was when he realized allowing her to ask any question was indeed a mistake. Still, he had given her his word and he was duty bound to answer her. “Well... I’m afraid it’s not to terribly exciting. After the Rebellion was ended I went off to explore the world for some time. I suppose I was trying to find some purpose to my life, and there’s only one thing I’m good at. Killing. I took small time jobs, mercenary work mostly.” He paused for a moment, letting out a short sigh. “I did things I wasn’t proud of, even during the Rebellion. They will be with me forever, but time will take my memory away soon enough. Even with the work I was getting I wasn’t satisfied, not one bit. I didn’t have a cause, and I’m afraid greed just isn’t a good enough excuse to kill people.”<br/><br/>He shifted on the bench to look down at his sword, laying carefully against the side of the carriage. How he wished he never had to wear it again, but it was the only way he could ever protect Kamillah, not to mention it was his key to being close to her. “Thought about joining the Nights Watch, but in the end I came home. I came back to you, and here I am.” With that he added a smile, she probably didn’t realize it but she made Lucan a better person. He wasn’t like how he use to be on his own. Violent. Reckless. No, now he was a man filled with duty, and a love that would go unfulfilled. But he was content with there current situation at the time. “I’ve seen enough of the Seven Kingdoms, beisdes the environment it’s all really the same. The same political game that always ends with someone getting killed. I would have gone to Essos but I doubt it would have gotten any better.” With that he leans back into his seat, allowing her to take it all in. He was curious of how she would react to what he had said, Lucan hadn’t really explained where he had been upon his return, and he was certainly careful not to include details of what he had done. He didn’t want the woman he loved viewing hims as anymore of a monster then he already was.<br/><br/>“Is there anything else you wish to know, I am an open book, though I doubt I’m worth reading.” He chukled lightly, but not for very long. Hopefully she wouldn’t pry to much into the dark spots of his past.