The lies that Asa fed Carter through his childhood and teen years were never questioned or thought on. But Carter wasn't a child, or a teenager any more. He wasn't stupid and could tell when Asa was lying to him. What was he hiding? Was his job to find people and torture them under the house? Was that what all this was about? No... There was more too it than that or Asa would have said something further.<br/><br/>'You know it isn't that simple'<br/><br/>Why couldn't it be that simple. What was more important than their love for one another? The comment made Carter sigh, but he kept his hand against Asa's cheek a little longer before he withdrew it. "Everything is simple, if it isn't, simply look at it from a different angle. Everything has a connection Asa... You taught me that. You're just making excuses and I'm eventually going to figure out why"<br/><br/>Carter had never had a childhood crush. His eyes had always been on Asa, and he couldn't see that changing anytime in the near future. He knew people would deem it strange or unnatural, but let's be honest - who would know apart from the staff? He never got outside the castle walls so it wasn't like they were going to have a swarm of people hunting them down. Carter was also old enough to do what he wanted too out of the 'foster' side of things, so he was struggling to find another reason Asa was keeping him at an arms' length.<br/><br/>'My mind was preoccupied with more pressing matters'<br/><br/>Was he being serious? Carter arched a brow and gave his eyes a small roll when his guardian met his gaze. "Focused on what? Shutting down my organs? Because that was almost the outcome. My lungs were doing fine today until you decided to become that villein from Sherlock Holmes" he said reaching for the soap and the sponge. He lathered it up until there was a good amount of bubbles and closed the little gap between them a little, so he could work. Setting the sponge to Asa's chest, he moved it around in circles "I am sorry... you know that right? I didn't intend for things to get out of hand" and despite everything, he was still amazed Asa hadn't lashed out at him. He couldn't even remember a time when his guardian had even raised a hand to him as a bluff. An ex staff member had threatened him with a ruler before, but Nancy soon put her straight, and he was sure Asa had found out about it soon after too, because the woman didn't show face again after that...<br/><br/>"Are you going to be gone tomorrow?" he asked moving onto Asa's arms and shoulders. His eyes took in every piece of detail they could as his hands worked the soapy sponge over his guardians pale skin. "I might do some studying... I've been slacking off a little" it wasn't a surprise. His mind has a tendency to wonder... even now. It was infuriating having someone you loved this close to you without being able to act upon it. Did Asa know he was his fix when he needed a release? The castle walls were thick, but he still had a feeling his guardian had caught him once or twice. Nothing was a secret... He could feel his cheeks heating as the thought circled in his mind. At least his guardian hadn't brought anything up... What would he even say?