Samuel blinked away the tears. He was tired of crying. In truth he was still bone tired, but he wanted to heal before he got anymore rest. When Milo let him touch his face, Sam smiled. It was small, and it was the first time he'd smiled. "Thank you," he murmured. His fingers were gentle, but thorough, shaping Milo's mouth, jawline, nose and eyes. He traced his ears, felt his hair. He didn't notice the tightness, and he obviously couldn't see it. It was the best he could do to try to get an image, but since he'd been born blind all he had was an outline.<br/><br/>His compliment had Samuel's hands trembling. His mouth quivered, and he wanted to be held so badly. But would Milo be disgusted by his state? He didn't know that Milo had cleaned him up somewhat, but Sam still felt disgusting both inside and outside. "I...They forced me to drink so much blood. I just clung to my soul and prayed." When Milo asked about what happened, Samuel grimaced and put his hands in his lap. After everything he'd gone through, he still didn't hate Isael. It just hurt his heart so much.<br/><br/>"Michael was training me to be a guardian angel. I heard whispers about something else, but I can't remember." He gently straightened out his legs, hissing at the pain of his bones. They would heal improperly if he wasn't careful. "Isael wasn't happy about that. Michael cared very deeply for Isael and myself, but Isael was in love with Michael. As I started to learn more, Michael started to spend more time with me than Isael." He scooted closer to Milo, wanting to be near him and his presence. He nearly felt a panic attack coming on. "Isael was jealous. I've always been blind, so I see the world differently. I don't see the suffering, or the ugly in the world, and in some respects it helps me not judge so heavily."<br/><br/>Deciding to go with it, Samuel pressed his side against Milo's, then cautiously wrapped his arms around him. Milo could push him away, and it would hurt him immeasurably, but talking about what happened was absolutely heart-wrenching. There was a long pause before he continued. "I didn't really know until the end how much Isael envied me. We try our best not to commit sins, though to me love is just love." He was rambling, and he closed his eyes to try to gather his thoughts. "One day, Isael brought me to the surface world. I love earth, and I love being around nature, so he took me to this wonderful garden. However, it was an illusion. Asmodeus was waiting for me, and he trapped me before I could even call for help. It was so fast, and all I could hear was Isael's bitterness and Asmodeus's cruel worlds before I lost consciousness."