This was not a conversation that Alan was interested in having, nor did there seem to be a quick and sure-fire way to have Caden drop the issue that the dom wasn't ready to dissect every little bit of that terrible evening. Alan didn't feel like it was the CEO's place to poke around and pass judgment. All the soft assurances about taking sides were not something Alan felt would hold up under scrutiny. Caden had an emotional investment, in Charles more than him but regardless he was compromised and sounded like he wanted to play 'Blues Clues' to solve the mystery of his life. Alan's emotion was one that read tension but he looked away and let a look of pain play across his face. He moved a hand over his face like he was overcome with emotions. He started to shorten his breath, "I don't know why you want to know about that now." His voice was shaky as he moved from behind the desk closer to the bookshelf there.<br/><br/>Turning away from the boy he let himself play out the sadness. "It's been hard enough to go at all of his alone. To have it all dragged out..." He added pulling on Caden's heartstrings when the other wanted to bond. "I wouldn't want to drive you to drink, I wouldn't want you to make poor choices because of it." He wiped at his eyes to make them water all the more since really the goal was to pull the attention away from the mess from his life and questions about the submissive. The sadness did start to feel itself seeping in even if he was trying to call upon the emotion at the drop of a hat. Not that the death hadn't been devastating, but it had been hard to feel anything when he shut his emotions down and focused on revenge.<br/><br/>There were still a lot of questions about what happened and it didn't seem that Alan now overwhelmed wasn't going to have them answered now. He wanted to connect and be vulnerable as he had this moment alone with the CEO who he hadn't been able to convince that Charles was a problem or dangerous. Despite the sub's protests he knew that the boy had been tempted by him and just how strong their connection had been in bed and how much he wanted to recreate it.