He wasn't so much worried about suicide as general self-harm. Kane looked so confused and pained as Abbaddon explained things to him looking as weak and miserable as he had seen his lover. "THIS? This is what the call acceptable punishment? You looked famished and your back is infected and bleeding? I thought Hell was cruel but this..." He looked taken aback as he shook his head, "To do this to one of their best fighters is just sick and twisted." Taking a sharp breath in he had the realization that in part well... "And this is my fault." He added after a bit like he couldn't quite believe it.<br/><br/>A part of him wished he that didn't feel the guilt but really he shouldn't have been up in heaven. His desire to hurt those that hurt Ryan had drove him and while he couldn't lament that there must have been a smarter way to go about it. "I should have just told him what happened. He should be the one repenting not you." The fact that abbaddon had lied to him on top of all that and hidden it from him hadn't even hit the demon yet. Maybe it's something he should be all too used to by now. After all Hell wasn't honest most of the time and he got used to Eden or other lovers bending the truth but he had never expected it from Ab. Who had been honest and almost innocent to a fault.