The soft shaking and the other calling his name merged with the dream at first and when grey eyes fluttered open they were panicked and frightened. Though when he felt the warmth of the human and heard his voice again he sat upright and gently gripped the other's arm while his eyes hurriedly scanned the other's face and body while his free hand went to his own throat as he continued panting softly. It took a long, tense moment before he seemed to wake fully and calm, but a few tears leaked out as he collapsed back beside Luca and hugged him tightly. "Sorry..." He said softly.<br/><br/>"I'm sorry for being sad, for being jealous, for hurting you... Sorry... Don't... I don't want Luca to hate me. I didn't want to hurt you, I don't... I don't want to see that. That's not what I want." He rambled, but he had managed to stop himself from breaking down completely and rubbed away the couple tears that had slipped through. He was terrified that the self he saw in his dreams, that haunted him since the beginning, was how he truly felt. He was scared that it was what he was, that Luca would someday see him as<i>that</i>. He wanted things to stay this way, to stay with Luca coddling him... He was so selfish and felt so guilty for it... It was an endless loop that he didn't know how to fix. "Please don't let me kill you... Please..." He said, voice whisper soft. Luca surely let him get too close, even now... But Aries couldn't bring himself to put distance between them. He was so tired of being all alone, but he wasn't supposed to be happy.