'Mercy' The tone Asa used to repeat the word sent a shiver down Carter's spine. Why was his guardian doing this? He didn't understand. Two wrongs didn't make a right. "Asa, please" he begged as he was forced to meet the other boys gaze. How did his guardian know what the poor soul was planning to do with him that night? Nothing had been done except from the pill. "But he didn't do any of those things. It was a mistake. My mistake. You can't punish him for something I did. I left the house" he cried. But it was clear he didn't have much fight left. He could feel his lungs starting to struggle. Every inhale was starting to hurt as they became larger against his ribs. But he pushed through and walked in front of the boy. A boy he didn't know the name of. He knew nothing about this kid. What life had he lived up until this point? Their ages couldn't be that far off each other, yet here they were. How could Carter justify this. He knew the medication was the only thing keeping him alive, yet here he was slicing up a perfectly healthy human. What he wouldn't give to be as healthy as this boy.<br/><br/>The only thing he could give the stranger was a failed attempt to comfort him. To give him some way of coping. This was something he wouldn't wish on anyone, but the plea that came again made more tears spill down his cheeks. Wrong, this was so wrong. He couldn't hold back his breakfast and before he knew it he was wretching it back up again after he sliced the equipment into the boys skin.<br/><br/>He could hear Asa stepping closer and hoped he'd given in. But to his horror his guardian didn't appear to be finished yet. "No, no please. Asa please" he begged trying to fight against the hand that was forcing his own up to the gents throat. He tried to elbow Asa, to push, pull against his grasp in a failed attempted to escape from seeing what was about to happen. But he couldn't turn away. Witnessing the light leaving someone's eyes was one Carter never thought he'd need to witness and the sight made him break down into hysterics as he was made to witness the body struggling against their restraints until the light slowly deminished from the boys eyes. He couldn't breath and his legs turned to jelly. The warm blood spilled over his hand, and there was so much of it. The red liquid and the sight of it made him feel weak and his legs gave way from under him. If it wasn't for Asa's hold, he would have fall to the floor. All his energy seemed to leave his limbs. His whole body was shaking. "Fuck... fuck" he didn't know what he was feeling. He felt numb, overwhelmed and pained. "Get out... Just go. I'm finished. I can't do this. He was alive. Healthy" and now he was gone. Because of something he'd done. A stupid one off thing had caused this poor soul his life. They'd both commited a crime. Murdered a human life. "You're a monster... You're not who I remember" he cried in a whisper without any attempt to wipe or dry them. He felt paralyzed.