Pain bloomed in Eivind's ribs, and that at least got his attention. Blue was pushing more determined against him. The first thing he noticed was his anger, and then his unease. Eivind started to listen. Blue scooted away from him, looking furious, voicing his discontent. He wasn't as panicked as he'd been in the shower, probably taken by surprise then, but he certainly wasn't happy. It took a bit for Eivind to process the reactions, and for him to understand where he'd gone wrong.<br/><br/>Blue had been asked him to slow down. He hadn't been asking him to stop, and his body had been responding enthusiastically, but instead of listening to what Blue was actually saying, Eivind was only focusing on himself, and his own needs. Now Blue was damanding a halt to everything. Eivind had been acting presumptuous again, out of control even. Blue showed a weariness to him but it wasn't the palpable fear it was before. They were getting used to each other, to some degree. He'd admitted that he wanted him, just not how he was presenting himself. It was too much again. All Eivind needed to do now was learn a little self control.<br/><br/>“I got.. a little ahead of myself again,” Eivind admitted. “I've been trying to give you distance, but I could.. I heard you. I could smell you. I couldn't think. I just wanted to be touching you.” And so Eivind had, and it had been okay up to a certain point, but not apparently when he was ignoring what Blue was saying.<br/><br/>“I usually have better control of myself. I didn't think it would be this bad.. with you living here,” he admitted. “I've been so aware of you the past few days.” He didn't think something would occur that would make him snap, but he hadn't taken into account Blue's own arousal. How did he make sure something like this didn't occur all over again? Blue made it clear he wasn't okay with it. Eivind was learning, but he needed to do so more quickly. He sat back on the couch for a moment, looking a little reproachful with himself once more.<br/><br/>“I wasn't going to fuck you.” Probably not anyway.. “I think I was just trying to make up for the distance we've put between us the past few days.” It had been easier when he first brought Blue home, to use the excuse of his injuries to keep his hands on him. Blue was becoming more self reliant as he healed, and he needed Eivind there less. Now though, there was not an excuse for it, and he wasn't sure what Blue wanted anymore. He tugged his boxers back up, but his erection wasn't fading so easily this time.<br/><br/>Eivind reached for Blue again, this times his movements more deliberate and less jarring. He urged Blue back to him rather than yanking him, settling him over his stomach where he was slouched, above his erection without trying to bring their bodies into contact. He kissed Blue along his collar bone, willing the sense of urgency to fade.<br/><br/>“I'm sorry. I don't want to keep doing this to you,” he apologized, letting out a great huff of air and resting his forehead just beneath Blue's chin.<br/><br/>“You..” Eivind swallowed hard, unsure if he should explain the rest of it or not. So far, keeping things from Blue had gone poorly. “You still smell like the other pack. It seems.. wrong to me. My instincts are telling me that you should smell like no one else besides me. It.. makes me a little angry, but I don't mean to direct that at you.”<br/><br/>Blue wasn't going to make anything easy for him. He was coming to realize he was going to make Eivind voice himself, and that communication was going to be an important aspect if they were going to get anywhere. For Eivind, it was going to be difficult, but at the very least he needed to start by listening.<br/><br/>“I don't.. want to push you. We need to find a better balance though. I can't be in the same house and not sharing some contact with you. If it's too soon for that, I can't share a space with you. If you want time to yourself, to think this through, I can give you space here. I can stay somewhere else, and the need for me won't be so pressing. I don't want this to happen all over again. I don't want to fuck this up.” He could still protect the home and give Blue a little bit of space, if that is what he wanted.<br/><br/>“You're getting better, and you don't need someone to hover over you all the time.” He was trying to understand what it was Blue might need, and trying to understand the human perspective. “It might give us more of a chance to start over, rather than me being so tempted all the time. You'll still be safe, but maybe all this will be happening at a pace that suits you better.”