But it wasn't the pill that was keeping him alive was it. No, it was Asa... All these years, it had always been Asa. Sure it was strange knowing his guardians blood was floating within his system, mending what it could to keep him alive. But the thought also gave him a sense of calm. You couldn't get much closer to someone. But it also angered him in a way he couldn't explain... How weak did he need to be to use someone else's source to survive.<br/><br/>"I found out quite a bit. So yeah..." he said looking down at his feet for a few seconds. "Like, why you go away so much. Why you can't spend so much time with me. It all makes sense now. I know it all isn't to do with work, but it can't be helped" he said shrugging his shoulders and looking back at Asa. "If I knew back when I was younger, maybe I wouldn't have kicked off so much..." Maybe his reactions would've been different.<br/><br/>He was sure work had a little part to play with Asa's disappearance, but it wasn't everything. However -<br/><br/><i>'Did it ever occur to you, I may have a legitimate reason for telling you nothing?' </i><br/><br/>No. Not once had that thought ever crossed his mind. Would the recent finding get Asa into trouble? "I... It won't matter. You didn't show me the work, I seaked it out by myself. How many are there anyway?" he asked curiously with a small sigh. Finally he stepped forward and walked a few steps in front of Asa and gently extended his right hand to run his fingers through Asa's hair with a apologetic look setting on his expression. "Asa... It changes everything. I can't lose you. You won't die, age or catch a sickness. You're alive and always will be. I won't need to watch you go through anything crippling like a normal person. You'll forever be youthful and strong. That means everything to me. You mean the world to me and I don't think you fully understand that. You... I can't apologise for reading your work" he said shifting again to sit beside him. He knew Asa was angry with him, but he didn't care. He knew the truth and that was that.<br/><br/>"Please don't stay mad with me. I don't keep secrets... So I wasn't expecting you too. You know everything about me. The finding just made you feel like more of a stranger that I'm meeting for the first time. Can't I know you? All of you? It can't be worse than the body down the stairs right?".