Eivind watched Blue's face as he spoke, talking once again of Alden, and how he used to act with him. How he associated Eivind's actions with one of the others, and it made sense. He was coming to realize he had a long road ahead of him teaching Blue he wasn't Alden, Lofgren, or whoever else had touched him. It wouldn't come easy. It probably wouldn't come at all, not at the rate things were going.<br/><br/>“You didn't need to ask. He was dead the second I saw him put a hand on you,” Eivind told him calmly, his eyes containing that glint of madness as he replayed the incident again in his mind. Eivind knew less of what to make of Blue's confession that he calmed him. He'd remembered the way Blue had clung to him, and he wasn't sure if that was simply because he'd imprinted himself as a savior in Blue's mind. It could have been anyone, most likely. Alaric, if he'd walked in and been the first face that promised him something other than pain. A human mind didn't think like they did, yet it was something to hold onto.<i>Something</i>. Right then though, it wasn't enough to stop Eivind from mourning something he felt he'd lost.<br/><br/>The next thing the young man did was entirely unexpected, and Eivind would have guessed he was going for blood rather than what he actually did. Far from it though, Blue was pulling him in and kissing him and Eivind could do little more than wrap his arms around his waist and open to him. It didn't last long before Blue was snatching himself away, and Eivind let him go, rigid as a board, trying to process all the confusing emotions. He wanted to jerk Blue back to him, but he knew that was likely to go over poorly. He could hardly figure himself out on a good day, much less the young man that was throwing himself at one minute, and scrambling away from him the next.<br/><br/>Blue gave no rational explanation, and Eivind didn't know either. Before he could do anything about it, Blue had downed two of the pain killers and dropped the other part of them. Eivind made an irritated noise and got up to gather them back up, to put back in the container where they belonged.<br/><br/>“I don't want you going anywhere. Did you hear a word I just told you?” Eivind grumbled. He wasn't sure how to calm Blue down. He was acting erratically, tears staining his cheeks. He'd made him upset all over again, and that hadn't been his intention. He couldn't figure out why he was even crying. Eivind took a seat on the bed again and a few calming breaths before looking to Blue again.<br/><br/>“Come here,” he said, holding his hand out to Blue. He was still, his expression that of a man who had just been wrestling a bear, when it had only been him dealing with his, and Blue's emotions. “I'm not going to do anything inappropriate, and you're not going to throw yourself at me again. Not like that. Not until you understand the reasons why, because you clearly have no fucking idea why you just did what you did.” It had been a lot for Eivind to process himself, he realized. It had taken days for him to face it. Maybe Blue didn't want to face it yet, or maybe he just needed a little more time. It was easy to be angry, and to be down on himself, but he was still trying to be the person Blue needed him to be.<br/><br/>It took a few long passing moments, and Eivind didn't think Blue was going to come anywhere near him again for the rest of the night, but he closed the space between them and put his hand into Eivind's larger one. The wolf gave him a gentle tug, encouraging him onto the bed beside him.<br/><br/>“Lay down. You've got to stop panicking,” he told him. The young man had worked himself up into a sweat with all his fussing, and for the moment Eivind just wanted it to stop. With an arm around around Blue's shoulder, he brought him down so that his head was resting in his thigh, fingers resting in the crook of Blue's elbow. Eivind was staring off ahead of himself, frowning like he was often prone to doing when he was in his own head.<br/><br/>“I wanted to know more about you before I told you. It was another reason I was putting it off,” Eivind finally said. “I didn't want you to feel like I brought you here, to force you to be something to me you have no understanding of. I think I fucked up. I think maybe I should have trusted my gut and just waited.” It would have been easier to deal with Blue's anger and frustration than this.