He could feel the other looking at him, and seeing as he answered the question anyway Aries assumed he'd done a poor job deflecting the conversation away from it. Still, he did listen, simply nodding along as though he really had just been curious rather than intent on doing something like that. And honestly... He wasn't even sure that he wanted to... What would it change?<br/><br/>He could tell the other meant it when he said he hoped he would grow out of his current state. He was definitely relieved when told that he shouldn't wind up the same way since he wans't already. "You seem fine to me. You can go into town and everything." He murmured, to him the other clearly did need to drink more than was probably easy to mask, but he could be around humans. Aries was fairly sure he couldn't be, not right now anyway.<br/><br/>He watched him go to the kitchen and so he sat and mulled things over alone again. Did he want to find the vampire that turned him? It wouldn't change what he was, it wouldn't even make him feel good to kill another person, even a crazy one, but... Did he want to do it anyway? There was the chance the guy was already dead, hunted down, but there was also the chance he was doing this to other people.<br/><br/>Aries was quiet when the other eventually returned from the kitchen, not saying anything. His eyes simply watched the tv and he nearly acted as though the other wasn't there... But he was focused on imprinting those memories into his mind just in case... The vampire's general appearance, the scent that lingered on him, the way he had smiled... He repeated those things in his mind again and again until he felt exhausted... And eventually, as the sun began creeping up he felt his resolve wavering as each revision of his memories included more and more of what happened after, of having his current companion forcing him to drink his blood... It made him shudder, but as that became the focus he grimaced, his eyes becoming pained, but the agony in his throat and the ache in his stomach was worse than the current pain in his mind, though only a little.<br/><br/>He buried his face then for a long time against his legs, green eyes closed tightly as he made sure to recite a few more key things... His name was Aries, he was a human, he was now a vampire... But he wasn't a monster. He wouldn't allow himself to hurt people. He repeated these things as though forgetting them would be worse than anything he could otherwise suffer before finally he sighed softly and reached over to the other and gently gripped the hem of the man's shirt, offering a weak, defeated tug. Already his mind was altering one of those precious mantras.<i>I'm going to be a monster. </i>