Eivind didn't really mind that Blue had packed the chocolate. It hadn't hindered them in any way, and he'd been ready to leave just as Eivind had been. If anything, the extra calories would be good for Blue, and it was something he could snack on to give him some energy throughout their travels. They would still need to find more food, but Eivind wasn't too worried about that. He just didn't want to find anything big until they got where they were going, otherwise they were going to end up wasting a lot of the meat because they wouldn't be able to carry it.<br/><br/>"It was probably a good idea," Eivind admitted, regardless of Blue's own reasoning. So far, the young man seemed capable, not prone to complaints like Eivind half expected, even tired, wet, and likely still hurting.<br/><br/>"I don't mind using my hands," Eivind told him with a shrug. It had never bothered him before, and it was easier with things like this is his opinion. Even if they'd been home, he doubted he would have used a fork to eat meat. Blue leaned into him and stretched out his legs as they waited for the meat to settle some. It was then that the conversation took a route that have Eivind freezing up. It had started harmless enough, with Blue admitting that he didn't believe he would enjoy sweets again. Eivind was about to ask why that was when he mentioned Lofgren's pack, and Alden specifically. The idea that Alden had used a reward system for Blue when he was a 'good boy' made him furious all over again. The way he talked it was starting to become obvious Alden had left more of a lasting impression with Blue than any of the others. The only consolation now was that he was no longer breathing, but the damage wouldn't leave Blue as easily as it had been to rid Alden of this world.<br/><br/>"My only regret is that I didn't make his death more painful," Eivind spoke with a growl. He wasn't going to pry further, but he would always listen when Blue spoke of his time with Lofgren's pack, no matter how difficult it was for him to hear. No doubt it was harder for Blue to speak about it, but maybe that was his way of coping, and coming to terms with what had been done to him.<br/><br/>"None of them are a good example of what we're really like, I want you to know. I would never do that sort of thing to you," Eivind vowed. Blue wasn't his dog to train to be a good boy.<br/><br/>Blue seemed ready for a change of topic after that, pulling the meat forward between them, even though they both most likely had been put off from the meal a little bit.<br/><br/>"Ahh, yeah. I'm sorry. I picked the big bull because I wanted a fight," Eivind admitted, knowing the meat would taste a little better if he had chosen a cow, or something younger. "I was a little frustrated that day," he admitted, remembering what had gone on between them in the kitchen. Frustrated was an understatement. His balls had been aching, and short of sex, killing something was the next best thing. Blue offered him his share, and he took a piece.<br/><br/>"Oh, I don't really care how it's prepared. Generally, if I'm feeding raw, I'm in my other form, mostly for convenience. My taste is enhanced as man though, so this is fine." Really, he wasn't picky at all, and he'd eat what was put in front of him. This was more about survival and combating the calories they'd expended throughout the day anyway, and less about taste.<br/><br/>"Next kill I'll try to find something a little tastier," Eivind decided, though that would be up to what decided to cross their paths.<br/><br/>"You should try to limit the painkillers. They make you sleep like the dead, and I'd prefer us to have our wits about us. At least as much as possible until we find a place to establish ourselves," Eivind told Blue. "If you're not too uncomfortable, anyway." Eivind would make due it Blue proved to be in too much pain, but ideally they would be ready to move on if Eivind decided that they needed to. They finished eating and Eivind scooted until his back was against the tree. It was smooth where they'd stripped it mostly of he bark, and he closer in the less wet they were getting.<br/><br/>"It's nice, being out here with you, even given the circumstances." Usually he'd consider most an annoyance, or even a burden, and perhaps Blue was in some instances but that idea was soothed knowing Blue was his. He found he liked catering to him and figuring out his needs, even if he was a human.<br/><br/>"I've always gone off from the pack on my own. I wonder what we might have done if we'd met differently. I think I would have still struggled with the desire to carry you home to my cabin. I can only imagine the words you would have had for me," Eivind spoke fondly. He could imagine it, Eivind coming on too strong, and Blue ripping into him for it.<br/><br/>"I would never have stolen you away against your will, but I would have been persistent."