<u>Me:</u><br/><br/>Sampson stood completely still, as if afraid he'd frighten him off. His heart was thudding in his chest. Then Ryan stepped closer to him. They were almost the same height, so he could see his pretty Hazel eyes. His own softened and he closed them. The kiss was soft and chaste, and he didn't want him to stop.<br/><br/>When Ryan uttered the words he blew out a breath. It was an ultimatum he wasn't expecting. However, he'd asked him to be selfish. Had he expected anything less? "Then we stay exclusive. I won't see him anymore. I won't sleep with him anymore." He stepped closer and gently clasped the nape of Ryan's neck. "I still want to remember, because they're my memories and no one else's. But I can swear to you that as long as we're together, dating and what have you, I will remain monogamous." He didn't feel like he needed to ask Ryan that when Sam was probably his first boyfriend ever.<br/><br/>"So do you want to go still, watch a movie, or do something else?"<br/><br/><u>You:</u><br/><br/>He hadn't realized how scared of rejection he would be when Sam finally agreed with his request. He didn't want to come off an unreasonable, he didn't like the idea that someone was doing something just because he EXPECTED it of them but that was the lesson in thinking about himself right? It was true he hadn't even considered himself part of the equation to worry about since he only had eyes for Sam as far as he could tell. This brought on the next question of what they should do and Ryan found himself biting his lip nervously. A cute habit and not well worn enough that the skin was chewed to bits.<br/><br/>"I... want to kiss you some more." he admitted, "This might sound strange I... I have no problem when I'm setting the pace but I will get anxious if you... touch me." he admitted flushing once more a bright display of blush all across his features. "Would it be ok? If you don't just for now?" it was an interesting prospect of self restrain and not too unreasonable for someone with Ryan's trauma but again he didn't know how much could be asked of the people he was with. All this was very very new even though Ryan was not a child and not even that naive.<br/><br/><u>Me:</u><br/><br/>It was a lot to ask him. He didn't know if he could keep his promise, but he would do his damndest, even if that meant changing the locks on his doors. When ch he would the next day. But right now he wanted to go at Ryan's pace. He blew out a breath and grunted. "I want to bite that lip you keep worrying," he growled, eyes lit with a sudden heat. Yet he kept very still and made no sudden moves.<br/><br/>"Can I at least do that? It's going to be hard enough not to touch you." He walked backwards, then turned and went to his bedroom. "Just a minute minute." He pulled his shirt off, but kept on his pants and underwear. However, he grabbed his box of sex toys and brought it out. He set it on the table and opened it up.<br/><br/>"I am not getting anything out of this box. But there are cuffs and...other things." He cleared his throat and blushed. "You set the pace. We do as little or as much as you want with me." He sat down, his palms sweating. He didn't like not touching but he'd try.<br/><br/><u>You:</u><br/><br/>The mention of his lip had Ryan looking confused not even sure what he was talking about, "You can... I don't mind you responding." he admitted after a bit of consideration. He liked the idea of Sam being into the kiss and into him enough to want to... mark him. That appealed to him in some sense but he flushed even brighter red as Sam removed his shirt. Sure shirtless guys were pretty common and it wasn't like he hadn't seen that as the hospital but it had his head spinning and his eyes trying to drink in every detail. He did note the scars on Sam's back recalling the story he told but he didn't think much of them, they were a part of Sampson like everything else and didn't make him any less attractive.<br/><br/>What was to come had him almost chock on his spit because he could see holy shit the box... his eyes widened and he shook his head not even wanting to look inside of it finding the prospect far too intimidating at this stage he had just wanted to kiss, right? "I don't know if any of that is a good idea." Ryan admitted feeling even more out of his depths now as he was sure he was going to embarrass himself not even knowing what half those things were. "Can you just... sit on the couch please?" he asked in a tone that was pleading but with a slight edge to it like he wasn't going to compromise now that he was getting his way. He chose not to even look at the box for the moment just wanting to focus on Sam.