<i>'Yes, I have no doubt that you will try'</i><br/><br/>So there was something after all... Why couldn't Asa just come out with it? Why was he keeping it hidden? Surly it couldn't be worse than what he'd experienced tonight... "We'll see how good my detective work is at least..." He had plenty of time during the day to hunt and problem solve. Despite Asa keeping some doors hidden view, Carter had managed to find a few of them to hide from the staff. It made getting around the place a lot easier too. But he knew there were more awaiting to be found.<br/><br/>He worked the sponge over Asa's torso and let out a small sigh. Pale skin, no scars or faults. It was enough to make Carter feel envious. He used to hate the parties Asa used to throw when he was little. Everyone seemed able to walk, dance and sing to their hearts content... Watching them had made Carter fill with anger towards them. But he'd slowly mellowed and accepted his problems. His hand paused when Asa stopped the sponge and his gaze shifted to meet the miss matched eyes of his guardian. A small smile set on his face<i>'All is forgiven, forgiven. But we'd do well never to forget' </i>How could Carter forget? "That boy will haunt my dreams. I won't forget. I'm just glad we're okay. That's all I care about" he said honestly. The world could crash and burn around them. But he was still a little on edge with everything that had happened.<br/><br/>Carter continued to wash Asa's body until he was satisfied enough to set the sponge back on the side of the tub. "Home, does that finally mean I have a day with you?" he asked surprised. "Hey, I can study... History just isn't in my interests. Why do I need to learn about people who have already passed?" he asked closing the gap between them to hide a forming problem that he feared wasn't going to die down anytime soon.<br/><br/>Shit. Had Asa noticed? No -<i> 'Tell me what you're thinking' </i><br/>How could he admit to the fantasies that were circling around in his head?<br/>He slipped his arms loosely around Asa's waist and hugged him with a quiet sigh. "You gave me permission to speak, so don't get mad" he said with a small pause before continuing. Could he use the images circling in his head to his advantage? He knew Asa felt something, but he had no idea how strong that feeling was...<br/>"It involves two guys... one older than the other. It's complicated. But they enjoy experimenting. Silks are soft, rope burns and tugs and cuffs are too harsh. They have a number of rooms within the house to choose from. But they always choose the same one with the soft mattress and goose pillows" There was no way he was going into more detail than that.<br/><br/>Carter had tried to go with someone else before. He wasn't sure if Asa knew, but when he was around the age of eighteen he sneaked a boy back to his during a party. Both of them were keen to get started, but nothing came of it. When the kissing stopped and things started to get serious, things quickly ended. Luckily the poor guy wasn't angry or too upset. They'd just landed up cuddling on the mattress instead. But after that incident, Carter hadn't tried to go with another person again. He didn't want to feel like he'd failed or let someone else down.<br/><br/>"I can't say any more than that..." His gaze had dropped slightly, but he knew his blush had probably intensified tenfold with just that little clip of what he was thinking about.