The moment Benjamin had finished speaking, silence fell over the both of them, only the sound of the crackling fire filled the room. He was afraid that what he had said was the final straw for Roxie, that she would just get up and walk out of the cabin. Ever since the day of the fight, Benjamin had become a cold, angry man. Even his pack looked at him differently after they heard what he had done to a weaker wolf. In werewolf society, Omega’s were at the bottom of the hierarchy, but to knowing fight one knowing full well you were much stronger? Well, it frankly made you look like an asshole. That’s how everyone in his pack viwed him at least, though they understood why he did it. But Ben didn’t want to live his life like that, it was lonely and full of stress, but it seemed it was to late, he was stuck on that path. Roxie being his mate was just another issue life would throw at him. He did care for her, but he still felt betrayed by her. He needed her to stand by him, yet that’s not what happened. Ben felt like he couldn’t trust anyone in the world.<br/><br/>Yet things changed the moment Roxie was straddling his waist. Benjamin was a little surprised, but his wolf was ecstatic. This was actually happening, and his insides were a mess of emotions, but the moment Roxie’s hands held his face, forcing him to look up into her eyes, things just clicked. He got lost in hers, her beautiful blue eyes. Her words seemed like sweet nectar to his ears, and Ben realized how perfect she truly was, or that’s what his wolf felt at least. But the question came, and before a single word was spoken, her lips were against his. It felt like all the stress he had felt before had washed away.  His eyes closed, and he leaned in to the kiss naturally, though it was over quickly. This wasn’t the first time they kissed, they’d done it before as teenagers just to see what it was like. But that was nothing serious, this was. Yet it was all over to quickly for Benjamin’s liking, and he was put on the spot once again. He’d actually forgotten she’d even asked him a question. “I...” he paused, his eyes closed for a moment as a sigh passed his lips. His hand came up and rested on top of one of her own, his attempt at showing some passion toward his mate, though it wouldn’t be the last thing he did. “Roxie, I care about you, I’ve never stopped caring about you. But it will take time for me to trust you again.” He sits up, carefully pressing his lips to hers. It was his turn to be aggressive.<br/><br/>After a moment, he barely pulls his lips away from her as he says “Were mates... were meant for each other... I have to try. We have to try.” With that, he went after her lips again as his hands slipped under her legs. Standing up, Benjamin carried her over to one of the wooden wall, carefully pressing her against it, all the while his lips refused to leaver hers. He didn’t know how long they were like this, but it was his turn to ask a question, and it was one he’d had in his mind for years. His lips pulled away from hers, only to move to her neck as he planted gentle kisses in a trail upwards, stopping at her ear. Once there, he whispers “Can you ever forgive me?” before again planting a trail of kisses against her skin. His hands, now free from the responsibility of holding Roxie up, moved to her ass only to give one of her cheeks a firm squeeze. She was his, no other man would have her, and regardless of how he felt about her, they belonged to each other. Sure, they still had a long road ahead, but maybe they could work things out. But not if their packs went to war. To save any chance they had together, they had to  find whoever killed Alpha Morris. It was going to be dangerous, who ever killed the Alpha would kill again, and Benjamin was afraid for Roxie. He couldn’t bare to see her get hurt, and would sooner die then allow another to lay a finger on her.<br/><br/>Ben was excited, there was not doubt about that. Yet he wanted there first time to be good, so without a word he was carrying Roxie off to the small bedroom, they’d both used it when they just needed to get away from both their packs and their parents. They’d slot in the bed togeather at times, but it wouldn’t be anything like this. He finally let Roxie down, setting her on the edge of the bed as he looked down at her, asking “Are you sure you want this?” He needed to be sure. He’d force his wolf to be silent if she didn’t want him.