The news of the journal had him frowning, "I only sleep in two states after being well fucked or when I am fucked up. That's the only time and that because I don't have dreams then. If you really want to hear about my nightmares you're going to have to work harder to pry them out of me. I don't have 'dreams' and they are never nice. They are only ever terrible things." He figured he scribble a few things to make Reake happy. The angel was quick to move on from there though and the mention of keeping his story going. If he really wanted the sob story than so be it. Gabe would get a front row seat to why he wasn't marriage material and they would have to just stick to their sex games for the future.<br/><br/>He let out a sigh at the reminder if foster care, "the first home had a lot of kids. I have to be around 6 or maybe a little older when I went to live there and I learned the rules very quick. They were a couple with a woman in a mission to save children and a man who was disabled and stayed at home while she did all the work. I suppose the harsh structure helped but being the kid with no family didn't win me friends at school. It was in a rough neighborhood and I often ended up getting beat up. Sometimes I would even stand up for my siblings because it didn't matter at that point was going to get my ass beat anyways. The husband was quick with his belt too and it was only later I learned he would sample the merchandise so to speak..." He said with a scowl as he shook his head.<br/><br/>"But in a way it was the best thing that happened because I learned quick that a simple quick blowjob meant he wasn't going to paw at the others and he would fuck off for the rest of the night and the skill came in real handy to help lessen the amount of beatings I took. It was a simple solution and worked just fine till his wife found us and lost her shit. That when I was labelled a problem child and moved onto the next home... Once you get that label you don't get the good homes anymore." He shook his head at the memory. "you get the homes that keep you in cages or make you sleep outside in the cold. The system is fucked like that but that doesn't mean you can't get your way."