How he wished things were different... How he wished that right now he was human, a normal human... And yet he was so far from that. Yet Luca hugged him tightly, assured him kindly, treated him as though there wasn't anything different about them. He realized there was no way he'd ever be able to repay Luca, not even with a life as long as he'd had, not if he used every single day forward... But he really wished he could. It was such a simple thing, to be comforted, to comfort someone, but to Aries, it meant more than he could articulate. It was the first time he could remember someone assuring him that his dreams were only dreams, that he wasn't the monster that he feared lurked inside him.<br/><br/>He nodded meekly against Luca's chest, he didn't want Luca to ever let him kill him, no matter what. Aries was sure that if he ever did then he truly would be beyond redemption of any kind... And he wouldn't deserve it anyway. He clung to Luca that way a bit longer until his breathing truly calmed and his throat stopped feeling like it was swollen shut with nerves. The soft touch on his back helped and he pulled back enough as he released Luca to look up at the human's face. "Sorry... I'm okay now." He assured him, though his grey eyes still glimmered with the pain he felt, but his voice was calmer as he sat up and soon slipped from the bed.<br/><br/>"I'll get dressed quick. You want to go back to the library today, right?" He asked, plodding to the bathroom where he left the door open so he could hear Luca's reply as he tossed the towel into the hamper and began pulling on his discarded clothing. He caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror before pulling his hood up and touched the mark that rested just below his shirt collar... The scar was fading and he felt the guilt creep up... He shouldn't be going to have breakfast, he shouldn't be sleeping in soft beds or taking hot showers... He should be finding a way to die even if it meant repeating the same act again and again, littering his body with scars. But Luca didn't like that, and Aries didn't want to leave the human's side too often when he might get hurt.<br/><br/>He pulled his hood on and his shoes before returning to the room and offering Luca a grin. "All ready when you are." He hummed cheerily. Today he would work hard to find something to help Luca. Maybe they could find a way to cure Luca of his curse, and maybe they'd find a way for Aries to die too. The young looking vampire hoped for both, he didn't want to die without helping Luca... After spending so long trying he had instead found a reason to temporarily put it on hold. Just a little while, just enough to finally be of use to someone. He wanted Luca to praise him, to tell him he'd done something that really helped him be happy. Luca had a future, he could fall in love again... Aries wanted to make sure he had that option. So he wanted to smile and chat with Luca a bit more if he could... Before it became someone else's place to do so.