Mika shrugged and took another, legitimately longer drink before she answered the question. "Telling the family and friends of someone who died that it happened, on my watch," she said, setting the bottle down on the table with an audible thunk.<br/>She shook her head and bowed her chin to her chest, "it never gets any easier," she looked at Tahlia, "having to tell someone's girlfriend or husband or sibling or parent their loved one is never coming back and it happened because you sent them to their death."<br/><br/>She ook another drink, sighed again and feigned a smile, feeling as if the wind had been knocked from her. "And as for if something's too personal, it's okay," she moved to place a hand in Tahlia's, "I chose this life, all of us here did," she said, looking into Tahlia's eyes.