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</div><b>Name:</b>Victor Lundquist<br/><b>Age:</b>30<br/><b>Sexuality:</b>Heterosexual<br/><b>Hometown:</b>Stockholm, Sweden<br/><b>Date/Time:</b>Sunday, July 4th<br/><b>Location:</b>Terrace --> Kitchen<br/><b>Wearing:</b>Men's devil's costume<br/><br/><b>Coupled With:</b>Olivia Williams<br/><br/><b>Tagging:</b><a class="username" data-user-id="3317" data-username="Mehlia" data-xf-init="member-tooltip" href="https://blackdahliaroleplaying.com/members/3317/">Mehlia</a><br/><b>Mentioning:</b>Rebeckah<br/><br/><hr class="bbc-hr"/><br/>Victor had no idea whether Olivia would even want to speak to him or not, so he was grateful and relieved when she came with him without any objections. He lead the way downstairs and to the kitchen, where the two of them could talk privately since the terrace was was too small and they'd basically share their conversation with everyone up there. He put his pitch fork away on the counter and leaned back against it, crossing his arms over his chest in a defensive stance and let out a deep sigh before he spoke. He had decided to just break open his skull and try to share his reasonings with her, hoping that understanding his reasoning would help. He'd pause whenever she'd signal she wanted to wedge something in. If she wouldn't, he'd just go on. He was the one who should speak and explain himself, anyway. He had practiced parts of his speech since last night since he knew that moment was coming, and he had a pretty clear idea of what he wanted to say.<br/><br/>-"So first off I just wanted to say sorry for the incident in the living room yesterday.." he began, working through the time line chronologically, assuming that she knew what he meant.<br/><br/>-".. I guess I wasn't as ready for this as I thought I'd be and I got overwhelmed and made stupid decisions, thinking that showing affecion openly would somehow signal to the others how close we were and that you'd feel more secure with me as your partner, but obviously I overdid it and it was just...<i>stupid</i>." he admitted, putting emphasis on "stupid" and grimacing a little insightfully and let his eyes trail off for a moment, realising that very moment might very well have been what started this whole mess. His eyes then found hers again before he kept talking.<br/><br/>-"After you left.. Me and Rebeckah started talking a bit. She gave me a piece of her mind regarding the incident and I had planned to come find you and apologise but.. I don't know, we kept talking and we just clicked, the way I had hoped you and I would." he explained, pausing for a brief moment and looked into her eyes.<br/><br/>-"But-uh.. " his eyes trailed off as if he was trying to focus hard on putting his thoughts into words. -"I don't know, I guess I sort of felt that you were more interested in talking to other people than getting to know me, especially when you started talking to others when we had a chance to talk for a bit." he explained, referring to the moment in the living room where she had turned to Brook and Danny when they had a chance to talk alone.<br/><br/>-"And then when you just walked past me and Rebeckah when we spoke, it felt like you didn't care and suddenly I didn't know where I had you at all.. And I guess a part of me panicked a bit, I had this plan in my head that I'd be tight with my partner on day 1 since I thought that would be very important, but when that didn't seem to work out I guess I panicked and wanted to make sure there'd be other options for me.. I don't know.." he tried to explain his reasoning, but also shrugged a little in frustration and shook his head and looked up at her, as if to signal he had a hard time understanding himself and putting a finger on it, but still wanted to try to explain it.<br/><br/>-"Obviously I'm not trying to blame you for anything or justify my actions.." he continued, looking to make that specific detail perfectly clear now that it may seem that he wanted to make it sound like she had something to do with it. -"..I'm the jerk here and I should have done things differently, there's no debating that. But I just wanted you to know that there was some reasoning behind my decisions regardless of how questionable they were and not just the reptile brain at work. Anyway..." he paused, signaling there was more and lowered his eyes a bit, since he had arrived at the confession about their kiss. Or rather their make out session.<br/><br/>-"..We made out a bit, but nothing else happened." he confessed, and had his eyes find hers again, hoping that the fact that he could look her in the eyes following his confession would make it more believable.<br/><br/>-"Obviously I should have come find you and let you know what was going on, but we were sort of in our own bubble and when the lights went out it all got very real, and I was reminded about where I was and that I had fucked up really bad and potentially hurt someone. And I just couldn't deal with it at the time and so I chickened out and took the easy way out and postponed it. So.. here I am, many hours later but I just wanted to give you an explanation and say that I'm sorry." he finished off his speech, trying to sound as sincere as he could. He paused there, long enough to signal to Olivia that he was done, leaving her free to react however she wanted while looking into her eyes. He had no idea what she'd say, but regardless he had owed her that explanation and it felt good to have gotten it off his chest.