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</div><b>Name:</b>Marcus Heidrich<br/><b>Age:</b>28<br/><b>Sexuality:</b>Heterosexual<br/><b>Hometown:</b>München, Germany<br/><b>Date/Time:</b>Tuesday, 6th of July, 2021.<br/><b>Location:</b>Villa pool<br/><b>Wearing:</b>Black swimming trunks<br/><b>Coupled With:</b>Grace<br/><b>Tagging:</b>Hans (<a class="username" data-user-id="6928" data-username="insidioustorment" data-xf-init="member-tooltip" href="https://blackdahliaroleplaying.com/members/6928/">insidioustorment</a>), mentioned Claire and Dom.<br/><hr class="bbc-hr"/><div style="text-align: justify"><br/>
The moment of silence prolonged when Hans asked how Markus felt about it. Perhaps it was engraved in man's mind to find the whole relationship between two girls as something genuinely interesting... and he would lie if he said had no thoughts about it. But these thoughts were when he was younger and never about a girl that he was with at a time. <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Ich weiß nicht..."</span> he mumbled and soon after cleared his throat, becoming aware that his speech so quickly jumps back and forth. And so, he corrected himself <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"I don't know... It's all new to me and--"</span> he paused again and took a deep breath.<br/>
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<span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Here's the thing. Claire is a lovely woman. It all happened so fast and... maybe I am just infatuated or perhaps I genuinely like her. And I do, but... it still feels as if I am more of a backup, you know."</span> he took the towel, draped over his shoulder, and wiped his neck from the pool water that was dripping <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"It is the game."</span> he looked toward Hans, his expression largely neutral, though it was not hard to see a few 'glitches' here and there in form of ticks as his thoughts raced <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"It is all about couples... Mann und Frau... And let's be honest, yesterday, I think there were one, or two available guys, myself included. Maybe it was just 'take what is available to stay in the game'."</span> he chuckled, moving his right hand through his own hair and scratching the back of the head.<br/>
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<span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Claire said she'll give us a chance. For that, I am grateful... but I cannot help but think that... if it wasn't for the game or if the game did not have strict rules about coupling... I do not think I would be in the picture. She would go and explore that connection with Dom and probably end up in some form of a threesome with you two."</span> he chuckled again.<br/>
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<span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"You ask about my values..." </span>he pondered for a moment, placing his elbows onto his knees. Fingers interlocked and his lips pressed against his hands <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Homophobia is... very strong in Germany, still. At least in the community I grew up in. Man and man, woman and woman... it's tolerated at best, frowned upon if you are lucky, and shunned at worst with words I will not repeat out loud. We were all led to believe that it is not natural, that only man and woman can form any sort of sexual union. But then I went to college, met people who came from other countries, had different values and I learned from them. I became more open to that concept. Granted, probably not as much as you..."</span> he laughed <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Okay, definitely not as much as you. But I do not mind it. Who am I to tell whom you can love, right? Who am I to say if something is unnatural... and even if it was, why would that matter? There's just one life... why chain ourselves to the beliefs that are placed us by people we never met, for the values we do not agree upon, dictating lives that they could never understand?"<br/>
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"No, I do not have any intention of placing barriers around Claire. If she is happy, I will be happy too. But here is what frightens me the most."</span> he looked at Hans, locking their eyes... and the man's visage painted a serious picture <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"Will it be just Dom? What if someone else comes along? There will be I, devoting all of my affection to her while holding an arbitrary percentage in hers. And if someone new comes along, that percentage will drop and I may become a backup... a failsafe. Someone to whom she can return to if nothing else works. I mean, Claire and Dom will spend a lot of time together, most of that time I probably won't be around because I want to set my life by my mid-thirties... I will sacrifice my time now so that I can have a good business and then have all the time I will need later. So it's likely that she will come to me at the end of the day, right? Or maybe not come at all... if last night was any indication... And again, this is a game with rules. Those rules do not apply outside. Maybe two of them will have some sort of meaningful relationship outside of it... maybe not. And the question is... where do I stand in that story?"<br/>
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"I am not insecure."</span> he said, trying his absolute best to change the mood and bring back his smile up <span class="fixed-color" style="color:rgb(84, 172, 210)">"But it is difficult for me not to overthink this. I was never used to just... going with the flow. For me, it is a constant attempt to think things through, to predict outcomes, to prepare for anything. And these questions are currently taking the majority of my thoughts today."</span>​</div>