### Comment:
Dude, this all sounds like a classic example of gambling addiction. First, you need to take a break for at least a month. Then research the concept of bankroll management. Basically you need to have 2 accounts, your bank and your gambling. For your gambling account you only risk a certain % of the entire account per trade, and this scales up and down with the size of your account. This way you should never have to dip into your bank account again.

### REPLY:
I agree with you 100%. Desperation is where I'm at. I'm actually going to close my positions and take a long break, close my accounts and ask my dad to help me out not falling back into it.

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