Is it permissible to wish for death for fear of losing one's faith
Question

                I used to be a religiously committed girl who was seeking knowledge, but I drifted away from righteous friends without meaning to, then I started neglecting to seek knowledge because of weak faith, and my marriage was delayed so I started to watch foreign movies and the matter is getting worse. In the past I suffered from a psychological illness and I have nearly been cured, but my current situation makes me anxious and I relax by watching movies. I do not have the responsibility of a husband or children or studies; I have finished my studies and have no opportunity to work in the place where I live. To be honest I hope I will die soon; by Allaah, this is not in order to run away from the decree of Allaah, but because I am afraid that my negligence will increase and that when I die I will have wandered from the path that leads to Paradise. Please advise me, may Allaah bless you.
Praise be to Allah.Although you have drifted away from righteous 
    friends without meaning to, but you could have avoided neglecting to seek knowledge and being careless in watching and listening to haraam things. 
    What happened to you after that may be because of the effect of those sins. We have mentioned some of those effects in our answer to question no.
    23425, which we hope you will look at. 
There are many women like you who have 
    delayed marriage, but they have not done what you did. Rather they make use of their time to memorize Qur’aan, seek knowledge and call people to 
    Allaah. This is the way in which Allaah opens hearts and puts minds at rest, and this is the way in which Allaah makes worldly matters easy for 
    those who follow it. 
Your wishing for death because you fear 
    becoming more careless and committing more sins is a great mistake. Rather you should only wish for death when you are in a better situation than 
    you are at present. It is up to you: you can take charge of yourself and go back to the way you were, and do better than that, in sha Allaah. But 
    you have to be honest with yourself and hasten to go back to the way that Allaah likes and is pleased with. 
Not everyone who wishes for death will get 
    what he wants; hence we are afraid that your situation may become even worse, which is what makes the Shaytaan happy and angers the Most Merciful. 
    You have to realize that. Your wish for death is not the solution to your problem. Rather the solution is to repent sincerely and to do that which 
    pleases Allaah, and to make up for what you have missed of actions that are pleasing to Allaah. 
Perhaps you know that what has happened to 
    you and what Allaah has decreed for you may be better for you, if you come back to Allaah, because you will regret what has happened and you will 
    do more acts of obedience and worship, and Allaah will turn the bad deeds that have been recorded against you into good deeds. This is the bounty 
    of Allaah towards His slaves. 
Shaykh al-Islam Ibn Taymiyah said: 
Whoever thinks that a person who has 
    committed sin and then repents will be lacking is making a great mistake, for the condemnation and punishment that may befall the sinner do not 
    affect the one who repents from sin at all. If he hastens to repent from sin then nothing will affect him, but if he delays repentance then he may 
    be affected by some condemnation and punishment during the period between committing sin and repenting. 
Majmoo’ al-Fataawa, 
    10/309. 
And he said: 
But a person may do something haraam and then repent, and that is good for him if he repents 
    from it, and by repenting he may become humble and soft-hearted, and more devoted to Allaah. Sins may serve an interest if one repents from them, 
    because if a person does not commit sin he may become arrogant, filled with self-admiration and hard-hearted, but if he commits sin, that humbles 
    him and softens his heart because of his repentance. 
Majmoo’ al-Fataawa, 
    14/474 
See also the answer to question no.
    21677, which describes how to treat anxiety and depression. 
And Allaah is the Guide to the straight path.