You need to have a lot of room in which to express your desire for balance in your life. Start by getting rid of the clutter in your life. Clean out your closet, your kitchen cupboards, your bathroom cabinet. Get rid of all the excess baggage you're carrying around. This applies to your mental and physical selves, as well. You need to feel "free" - whatever that means to you. Focus on letting go of dead weight - wherever you find it.