Quite often one can hear you complain about not knowing which voice to listen to. There is no "right" or "wrong", but you, among other signs, are often fooled into thinking so. This is really the main issue for you: accepting the uncertainty in life. To help you acquire security in this insecure world, it is important to ground yourself in a consistent exercise regimen. The benefit is psychological as well as physical. Consistency and discipline will set you free!