Which also makes me feel like a big dumb-ass, to go through 95% of the effort, and not be able to focus enough to come up with the other measly 5% needed.  Today I’m going to read the beginning of my journal, and try to recapture whatever emotions or thoughts that enabled me to start this program.  All of a sudden those 12-Step programs are making sense to me, I finally understand that one-day-a-time philosophy.  Not only that you have to deal with your life in manageable, bite-sized chunks, but that each day requires its own commitment, its own re-evaluation and re-dedication to your cause. 