my living and working conditions at home were unbearable we used  to live in a three room flat together with two more families the  discords caused a change  one of the families moved out the  other family stayed with us but i drifted away from my fianct in  fact we were two families in the flat then i found myself alone  in the struggle for this life because my fianct did not stay next  to me my grief and sorrow took on large proportions i wanted to  commit suicide but instead i threw myself against the cause of  the irritation