That's crazy. That's what I have to. I literally. I have to get back to it. I really gotta get back to it, because that fear of those positions that you just don't want to ever get in, it's the suffocation. It's this and that. And even every time I start up again, I hate the warm ups. That warm ups. I'm, like, dizzy, like, you know, I'm doing these, like, crab walks and stuff. Like, I'm, like, already out, like, you know, but it's like, I have a guy that Weidman hooked me up with. You know, I was gonna go to Sarah because Sarah's out there. It's great jiu jitsu. But for some reason, wideman goes, go to this guy. He's. He'll be great with you. His name is Derek Mangi. He does monster jiu jitsu out, but it was like an hour away from me. But he's the greatest guy. And he comes to my house and he trains me and stuff, and he's just a beast. But it's like I've got to get past, literally out of my head and go get in these positions. But when I train with him, he's so big. I get on his back or whatever it is, and he just gets up. It's LiKe an apartment building just Coming up. Like, I can't even hold, you know, and it's so frustrating to me. And he's flexible and big, and he can move around, and it's like, this is where I don't finish. I quit. I'm like, I get frustrated, and I.