And I've been powerful. He writes how it kind of goes from, like, more like cocaine, which is kind of a quick hit and wears off really quickly. So you need a lot of it, and then it becomes more like, you know, kind of like heroin, where it's something that almost soothes you. Actually, I called the love of mine who I was with, and we got divorced. It was almost like a pacifier. Like it was that thing that I just needed. Not because we were in love anymore, but because of the comfort and. Cause my brain said, oh, this feels better. This is comforting. But actually knowing that I was giving in to an addiction made me feel way worse. I had the hangover. Next day, Kay, we sleep together. Next day we wake up. I'm totally hungover. You know, it felt like a relapse every time I go back.