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Had a bad experience with a guy and continues to devastate me. Normal?
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I'm 37 yrs old single never married no children. For the past 20yrs i have been dealing with numerous bad experiences w/men and dating.  my first intimate exper. w/a guy at age 17 was horrible and continues to devastate me till today.  don't know how to handle it.  i go through months w/out dating and engaging in intimacy.  lately when i think i'm excited and wanting to act on it i think of the past exper. and i'm instantly turned off.   i have seen several therapists but did not find it helpful it just re-hashed the trauma is it normal to feel this way after so long? lots of night i think about what i have exper. and just burst into tears.
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Hi,Thanks for using healthcare magic.I have gone through your available history.I think the past trauma has been transformed into traumatic stress disorder. You should consult psychiatrist for detailed evaluation and to rule out other causes like depression.Doctor may advise you to have some drug treatment in addition to psychotherapy.You may also get benefit by yoga or relaxation techniques like breathing exercise.Thanks.