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Why do i hate small children considering my son committed suicide?
human
hello!I have a secret more than 35 years. I had a very abusive partner, I had a son who commited suiciede 19 years ago, she was 20 tat time. I am living in a good 2. marriage more than 30 years ago, but I am a very confused person. I was treated by psychiatriac for 13 years and I am still on medication.My secret is really shemfull because the normal woman likes kids. I am not. I love animals I fostered so many and rescued them. I fell love emotion patient with them, but if I see a small child I hate them. I fell anger when they laughing I hate their vulnable , I feel I can hit them . The smaller the child the hatred is worst. I never ever b abysit any child in my life because I feel I can not control my hatred with them.I wanted to stop these feeling but I don't know how. I will see doctor again  soon , but I really scared tell him this. I never ever told this anyone. Can you help me?
gpt
Thanks for query.hatred for children is called misopedia.most of the psychiatric illness have treatment .so go a head and speak to your psychiatrist. don't be afraid of telling him.privacy will be assured.regards