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  A good movie I just watched about this is:
  Everything everywhere all at once.
  Exactly the same sense of existential dread where if nothing matters, then you decide to place value in what you want.
context: What you are describing is called "existential dread". It is very common. Many people go through an existential crisis at one point in their life. 
  Ultimately you got the right answer already. You need mental health assistance. 
  What worked for me was getting married and having a child. Now that I have others to worry about I don't think that much about my own death. There may be a different solution for you. Usually there is a solution for everyone. It's an extremely common malady. >
  
  Thank you ..I hope I will find ways but worrying about my child and husband will be also stressful no ?:))) >
  
  It removes the existential dread though. It doesn't completely remove all worries. I still worry all the time about all sorts of things. I'm not sure anything can remove that. You just gotta learn how to manage it. >
  
  Hmmm... I would argue that since nothing matters, then you decide what is important to you. 
  Hear me out. Death comes to everyone. We don't know what lies beyond death. It literally could be nothing. It could be an afterlife. It could be us waking up as a slug or somewhere rich person. Or even more insane, you wake up to the matrix. 
  Regardless of what happens after death or if death is the final stop, at this time you decide what is important to you. 
  Society often dictates the important things. In America, it is the notion of the American dream. A wife with children and a good job. But is that important to you? 
  I'm assuming not. So at this point, you decide. Is it music? Poetry? Trolling people on the internet?!
  I don't know. What I know is that life will always be meaningless. All we can do is enjoy what we have here. The world is at our fingertips. Nothing is stopping you from going out and traveling. Trying new foods, listening to new music, or writing poetry that no one will read but you. Maybe you learn that you hate the pacific ocean but like the Atlantic. 
  So go out and explore. Find yourself. Find what you enjoy. You have this time. Go and live it to the fullest. Ask. Explore. Be a dangerous person in a world of trends. 
  Still be safe though. >
  
  thank you :)