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  Why would there not be suffering? Without suffering how would we know happiness?
context: What you are describing is called "existential dread". It is very common. Many people go through an existential crisis at one point in their life. 
  Ultimately you got the right answer already. You need mental health assistance. 
  What worked for me was getting married and having a child. Now that I have others to worry about I don't think that much about my own death. There may be a different solution for you. Usually there is a solution for everyone. It's an extremely common malady. >
  
  Thank you ..I hope I will find ways but worrying about my child and husband will be also stressful no ?:))) >
  
  It removes the existential dread though. It doesn't completely remove all worries. I still worry all the time about all sorts of things. I'm not sure anything can remove that. You just gotta learn how to manage it. >
  
  Hmmm... I would argue that since nothing matters, then you decide what is important to you. 
  Hear me out. Death comes to everyone. We don't know what lies beyond death. It literally could be nothing. It could be an afterlife. It could be us waking up as a slug or somewhere rich person. Or even more insane, you wake up to the matrix. 
  Regardless of what happens after death or if death is the final stop, at this time you decide what is important to you. 
  Society often dictates the important things. In America, it is the notion of the American dream. A wife with children and a good job. But is that important to you? 
  I'm assuming not. So at this point, you decide. Is it music? Poetry? Trolling people on the internet?!
  I don't know. What I know is that life will always be meaningless. All we can do is enjoy what we have here. The world is at our fingertips. Nothing is stopping you from going out and traveling. Trying new foods, listening to new music, or writing poetry that no one will read but you. Maybe you learn that you hate the pacific ocean but like the Atlantic. 
  So go out and explore. Find yourself. Find what you enjoy. You have this time. Go and live it to the fullest. Ask. Explore. Be a dangerous person in a world of trends. 
  Still be safe though. >
  
  thank you :) >
  
  A good movie I just watched about this is:
  Everything everywhere all at once.
  Exactly the same sense of existential dread where if nothing matters, then you decide to place value in what you want. >
  
  I will look it up .thanks :)) >
  
  There may be no objective, empirical 'purpose' to our lives, that's not something any of us can prove or disprove, and I'm inclined to agree that we don't have one. But I do think there's a sort of ontological assumption baked into the way you're framing life that suggests that through a divine (so to speak) purpose we derive meaning, and to be purposeless is to be meaningless. I contest that assumption about life
  I like to be kind and meet new people, learn as much as I can, and have conversations and do work that helps shape the world into what I want it to be. I will have made the people in my life happy, their lives better, and the world a brighter place no matter how temporary. 
  There's a book I'm very fond of called the road. I don't think you should read it until you're in a better way though. It's beautiful and heart breaking and both crushes and inspires me
  The world has ended in nuclear hellfire. Yet even still people remain and they live and they make choices. A boy and his dad are trying to survive. There are horrible horrible things that happen to them, but there's a few things that keep them going. 
  First and foremost, they have each other. They are both each other's world's entirety, the connection they have and that all of us have to the peoples in our lives is important. They love each other and that's important
  Second, they do so because they are carrying the flame. It's not literal, it's a metaphorical flame and I think it represents kindness, decency, vulnerability, and a faith in humanities ability to embody all of those things. It's a stoic assertion that despite the material conditions they exist in, they do in fact matter. One day they will die, but others will be there to carry the flame just as they had.
  And lastly, the alternative is just making that ending come sooner, to snuff the flame and to make the world a more dim place. It's painful and grim and it will hurt the ones that are left
  I guess to me, it's not the ending that matters, it's the doing. It's the connections we share, and the flames we carry >
  
  I have heard of that book  and know it is amazing :) Thank you >
  
  What does what happens "in the end" matter? We're not living "in the end", we're living in the here and now >
  
  I can explain it this way .,,when I read a really good book and it has sad end I feel like i wasted my time since the end was sad .I know people are different ... >
  
  Why do you continue to read books then? All books end whether they were happy or sad! >
  
  books with happpy end make me happy :)) >
  
  But you close that last page and it's still the end. So if you spend your final moments in life happy, you'll be content with that? >
  
  ofc .if I die old and happy I will be happy ..
  but i know the world is full of suffering and not all people die old and happy ...