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  Thank you :))))
context: What you are describing is called "existential dread". It is very common. Many people go through an existential crisis at one point in their life. 
  Ultimately you got the right answer already. You need mental health assistance. 
  What worked for me was getting married and having a child. Now that I have others to worry about I don't think that much about my own death. There may be a different solution for you. Usually there is a solution for everyone. It's an extremely common malady. >
  
  Thank you ..I hope I will find ways but worrying about my child and husband will be also stressful no ?:))) >
  
  It removes the existential dread though. It doesn't completely remove all worries. I still worry all the time about all sorts of things. I'm not sure anything can remove that. You just gotta learn how to manage it. >
  
  Hmmm... I would argue that since nothing matters, then you decide what is important to you. 
  Hear me out. Death comes to everyone. We don't know what lies beyond death. It literally could be nothing. It could be an afterlife. It could be us waking up as a slug or somewhere rich person. Or even more insane, you wake up to the matrix. 
  Regardless of what happens after death or if death is the final stop, at this time you decide what is important to you. 
  Society often dictates the important things. In America, it is the notion of the American dream. A wife with children and a good job. But is that important to you? 
  I'm assuming not. So at this point, you decide. Is it music? Poetry? Trolling people on the internet?!
  I don't know. What I know is that life will always be meaningless. All we can do is enjoy what we have here. The world is at our fingertips. Nothing is stopping you from going out and traveling. Trying new foods, listening to new music, or writing poetry that no one will read but you. Maybe you learn that you hate the pacific ocean but like the Atlantic. 
  So go out and explore. Find yourself. Find what you enjoy. You have this time. Go and live it to the fullest. Ask. Explore. Be a dangerous person in a world of trends. 
  Still be safe though. >
  
  thank you :) >
  
  A good movie I just watched about this is:
  Everything everywhere all at once.
  Exactly the same sense of existential dread where if nothing matters, then you decide to place value in what you want. >
  
  I will look it up .thanks :)) >
  
  There may be no objective, empirical 'purpose' to our lives, that's not something any of us can prove or disprove, and I'm inclined to agree that we don't have one. But I do think there's a sort of ontological assumption baked into the way you're framing life that suggests that through a divine (so to speak) purpose we derive meaning, and to be purposeless is to be meaningless. I contest that assumption about life
  I like to be kind and meet new people, learn as much as I can, and have conversations and do work that helps shape the world into what I want it to be. I will have made the people in my life happy, their lives better, and the world a brighter place no matter how temporary. 
  There's a book I'm very fond of called the road. I don't think you should read it until you're in a better way though. It's beautiful and heart breaking and both crushes and inspires me
  The world has ended in nuclear hellfire. Yet even still people remain and they live and they make choices. A boy and his dad are trying to survive. There are horrible horrible things that happen to them, but there's a few things that keep them going. 
  First and foremost, they have each other. They are both each other's world's entirety, the connection they have and that all of us have to the peoples in our lives is important. They love each other and that's important
  Second, they do so because they are carrying the flame. It's not literal, it's a metaphorical flame and I think it represents kindness, decency, vulnerability, and a faith in humanities ability to embody all of those things. It's a stoic assertion that despite the material conditions they exist in, they do in fact matter. One day they will die, but others will be there to carry the flame just as they had.
  And lastly, the alternative is just making that ending come sooner, to snuff the flame and to make the world a more dim place. It's painful and grim and it will hurt the ones that are left
  I guess to me, it's not the ending that matters, it's the doing. It's the connections we share, and the flames we carry >
  
  I have heard of that book  and know it is amazing :) Thank you >
  
  What does what happens "in the end" matter? We're not living "in the end", we're living in the here and now >
  
  I can explain it this way .,,when I read a really good book and it has sad end I feel like i wasted my time since the end was sad .I know people are different ... >
  
  Why do you continue to read books then? All books end whether they were happy or sad! >
  
  books with happpy end make me happy :)) >
  
  But you close that last page and it's still the end. So if you spend your final moments in life happy, you'll be content with that? >
  
  ofc .if I die old and happy I will be happy ..
  but i know the world is full of suffering and not all people die old and happy ... >
  
  Why would there not be suffering? Without suffering how would we know happiness? >
  
  I've been struggling with the same thoughts for the past few years, so I certainly understand the feeling! 
  For me, it's been helpful to reframe what it means for something to "matter". Something does not need to be permanent to having meaning: experiencing a delicious meal, feeling moved by a beautiful song, sharing a moment with a loved one, feeling a sharp stab of pain... all moments are temporary, but they're still meaningful. 
  I hope that there is something after death. But if there isn't, and my candle is extinguished forever, the fact that I've lived means everything to me while I'm alive. And if I live my life well, I hope to positively impact the people around me, who will impact the people around them, carrying a ripple of my life far beyond my time on earth. >
  
  Thank you 
  for sharing your experiences >
  
  Full disclosure: I agree that things are meaningless, as in things don't have inherent meaning; we give them meaning. 
  
  I was christian as long as i remember myself ,I lost my faith in religion and god several years ago and since then I deal with depressing thoughts time after time .I deal with existential crisis and nihilism time after time 
  
  I can imagine that's rough. 
  Christianity comes with a lot of perks pre-installed: meaning, purpose, value. 
  Giving that up is not easy. Such things form part of our identity. 
  But I can assure you this is just a phase. And you didn't lose "everything". 
  Obviously you still care: you're emotional, you reach out by making this post. You're looking for solutions. That's very admirable. 
  It's important to remember that nihilism doesn't mean "nothing matters at all". It just means that meaning isn't handed to you with a bowtie on it. 
  If nothing we do matters, then the only thing that matters is what we do. 
  
  I am reminded often that ,,in the end everyone dies and nothing matters . no matter how successful and happy you are death is final stop
  
  Well, everyone does die. No reason to lie about that. Death is the most certain thing in life. 
  It's not fair, of course. Also no reason to lie about that.
  "fair" has nothing to do with death. You live your life, no matter what life, and at some point you die, regardless of anything. Many people who deserve to live, die, and vice versa. You don't know when. You don't know how, or why. You don't know what happens after, or whether anything happens. 
  It's true, but it's certainly not fair. And that's a hard pill to swallow. 
  It's easy to think things don't matter if you focus on how they end. Because in between then and now, they exist for a rather long time. 
  Plus, the fact that our existence is finite, makes every moment valuable. 
  
  It is my goal to change my negative thinking pattern and would love to get your different ideas 
  
  Personally I'm into existentialism and absurdism. 
  Existentialism is pretty straightforward: you have a self, you exist. Everything beyond that, is open to interpretation. How your self relates to the your body, the world, other people, etc. (Edit: some existentialists believe the self is like the immortal soul in christian theology, some believe it's a product of the brain, some believe all kinds of different things.)
  Absurdism helps me deal with the absurdities in life. Like death. Makes absolutely no sense. I could spend years breaking my head apart over it. But I can also recognize it is absurd, and move on to better things. 
  Hope this helps :) best of luck on your journey, fellow traveler