SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: I [21M] really want to send this email to my ex [21F]
POST: > Hi Julia, I know I shouldn't be contacting you, but this is for my own sake. Read back all those notes I wrote you long ago, those feelings I had for you were not fake. I know I said I'm moving on but it's so hard when I've lost the most precious thing in my life. I wish I was more attentive to your emotions and your needs when we were in our relationship. I was stupid for not seeing them more clearly. I never meant to hurt you when I talked about your anxiety, in fact it was my own stress speaking. That last time we talked outside of Eickhoff there was something I didn't mention to you going on in my life but I'm not making excuses anymore. I was not in touch with my emotions or yours and didn't know how to handle criticism. I love you beyond words and this feels like a huge mistake. I would do anything for another chance to prove to you I'm not the same guy that I was.

I feel like I'm taking all the blame here though and I know it wasn't all my fault that she never communicated her problems to me but I can't help but want her back so much. We really did have an awesome relationship for a year and a half. We broke it off mutually in the end. I tried getting her back twice however. She said no the first time and the second time she said she wanted to see me change before she decided whether I could take her on a date. I was so hurt by her hesitation and reluctance to even give me a chance, even though I took all the blame of the relationship ending. I was also hurt that she started talking to another guy (her housemate) a few weeks after our breakup that I basically told her I was moving on but a part of me really regrets it.
TL;DR: 
I want to reconcile and get back with my ex, but I don't know what to say or even if I should say anything.