SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: Has anyone else ever had a crush on someone for eternity and forever? Me [19 F] him [20 M]
POST: Gosh, I feel like I just need to talk about this, okay so I'm a female and there was this one guy I met at a party a few years ago (I was in high school at the time) and he was absolutely beautiful and I felt like the earth was gravitating towards me or some sort of cosmic force just wanted me to go to him and just touch him or something haha.

It's like I adore and idolize this image of him I created in my mind, every cell of me wants to go and touch him and just feel him, it's even been like 2-3 years since I've met him and we've probably only shared like 5 sentences this whole time, but it's like when I see him around I feel this connection and get so nervous. It's absolutely the most alien feeling ever. Now I think I'm pretty normal, like don't think I'm a creep, I'm good looking and do well in the relationship area and date casually, go out, go to school, lead a steady life. I just want to clear that up haha.

But this is so strange because I know he's not my type, i.e. drinks and smokes excessively and just doesn't seem like someone who I would want to actually pursue a LTR with, but it's like when I see him and he looks at me he just completely blows me away. I've heard he has a crush on me so I know he likes me at least to some degree. But gosh, when he looks at me I get so tense. It's crazy. I just need to know, has this happened to anyone else!? I feel totally psycho for this fixated crush but I just need some stories from others to read or reassurance that I'm not just some crazy person. Also side-note, even with hearing about his less than favorable reputation, I still like him after everything! So there's that haha.
TL;DR: 
have had a huge crush on someone for the past couple years even though I know I would never want to pursue a life with some like him. Has anyone had an experience like this!? Stories encouraged!