SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: I [21 F] am having trouble dealing with the fact that my boyfriend [21 M] [9+months, 3 LDR] has a better internship this summer and I can't take it any longer.
POST: This summer, the summer between our junior and senior years of college my boyfriend is working at a pretty large tech company as an intern and I am stuck in our college town making a shitty hourly rate at a job that isn't doing much for my career. 

As much as I love him its getting to the point where i don't even want to talk to him anymore because I can't muster the energy to be excited and proud of his relationship anymore because I am so insanely and stupidly jealous. 

I feel like an awful girlfriend for saying all this but it jsut eats me away because I had an interview at that same company and he got it and I didn't and so it just makes everything worse knowing that I could have had this amazing fun exotic summer, when instead I am just sitting like dry shit in the sun. 

I can't even take it, and worse, I am flying out to visit him at some point and so now I have to see the city where he spent 4 months and it just so happens to be my favorite city on earth and like I just can't take it. 

How do you handle jealousy in relationships? Did you have to break up? I just feel so hurt all the time but I want to be be a good girlfriend. Its like something just snapped in me today and I can't even listen to him talk about his day anymore I just silently cry while we are on the phone.
TL;DR: 
boyfriend has fancy internship that we both went for and he got. Feelings of jealousy are making it hard for me to be a good girlfriend and also makes me want to punch the both of us in the face.