SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: I [22/F] feel like I've had sex/been intimate with too many people and now I feel like no one will want me if they know.
POST: All I want to do is to be able to take it back and start again. I'm a Christian so most of my unmarried friends are virgins and waiting for a serious relationship at the very least. People aren't judgemental at all but I feel like I'm not meeting the standard everyone else has maintained, and I can't do anything about it. It's destroying my self esteem, I feel like I'm worthless and no one will want me like this. Not all my experiences were consensual but plenty of them were, including when I lost my virginity, so it's not like I didn't have a choice about the situation I'm in. I haven't had sex for over a year - sometimes I want to keep it this way and wait for someone who is 'worth it' but at other times I think I'm so used that there's no point, and sex is enjoyable enough so I might as well just go out and get some. If I hadn't put on weight and felt so ugly right now, I would have done the latter a while ago. We are offered mentoring at my church but I feel like compared to everyone else I'm so screwed I couldn't bear to tell anyone about it.
TL;DR: 
I guess I don't know how to get over the regret and get to a place where I have some actual feeling of self-worth rather than just false confidence.