SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: I [31M] think I'm just not interested in a relationship. But at the same time I feel alone.
POST: I've never had any real luck with dating. My only 'relationship' was a brief few dates with a girl who broke up with me after a month. All I kinda had the feeling afterwards that the whole thing was more frustrating then it was fun.

I wasn't too broken up when she broke up with me, but well, I was just kinda underwhelmed with the whole thing. 

Sorry if I'm rambling a bit. I'm trying but failing a little in getting my thoughts about this organized.

Whenever I've seen my friends being in love, or with some in a steady relationship I see that it's obviously great for them. They're happy, it gives them tons of energy. But I don't see that happening with me. 

I just don't see myself feeling that 'happy' or 'blissful' with anyone and I'm wondering if finding or having a SO is something for me.

But at the same time I feel alone in a way. I've got a few weeks vacation coming up but I'm not planning anything because I don't have anyone to well, go on vacation with or spend time with.
TL;DR: 
Don't know if I want to try dating again, but feeling alone at the same time. Not sure what to do.