i thought of the class that had been here twenty minutes ago , wesley and hiyam and the rest of them sitting ten feet from where we stood now , not knowing mr. wilke and i f**ked the shit out of each other almost every day , not knowing he was going to f**k me right here while their chairs were still warm , that i was going to come in the same place he 'd stood and lectured , that i was going to come all over that big , gentle hand inside of me .