pretending she was n't married , ignoring all he 'd done for her and the sacrifices he 'd made and that he had toscrape the blood from his shoes and that coffey and ramirez were always gossiping about him and there wereflies buzzing on the burgers because she 'd run away and he 'd had to go to the barbecue alone and she couldn'ttell bill the captain that he was n't just one of the guys .