and then he speeds his fingers inside me and nips sharply at my breast with his teeth and brings me to the furious edge of orgasm , and this time he keeps going , sliding a little deeper with each circle of his fingers , and then i 'm bursting apart and gasping and moaning , and dawson 's eyes lock onto me , silently pleading with me to watch his eyes , hold the gaze , so i do , and he thrusts once , hard , and there 's an instant of blinding pain , but it 's buried under a tsunami of starbursts , pleasure laced with pain .