a whiff of something floral and spicy fills the air between us and then i 'm in her warm embrace , crying so hard i will probably leave a salt lick on her shoulder , and i get to fade away for a few precious minutes and stop being shannon , stop being the stupid woman who blew it with the best guy ever , stop being the feminist career woman who ca n't believe declan is such an ass , and- i can just cry and be held by my mommy .