she moved into his arms , on his pillow , and he kissed the top of her head and held her close and told her it had n't been his jackass uncle dom who 'd caused him to drink too much at his mother 's house this cold thanksgiving day , but instead it was the dead old guy hanging from a bathroom hook and danny gimp getting shot in that pizzeria and the girl stabbed uptown in fat ollie ' s precinct that made him feel so goddamn worthless .