`` while i generally do n't like to use the word 'heart ' unless i 'm referring to the blood-pumping , beat-beat-beating organ , there 's no question that katherine xviii broke my heart , because i loved her immensely from the very moment i saw her at a concert hassan made me attend during spring break , and she was this short fiery woman who hated being called a girl , and she liked me and at first it seemed she shared my massive sense of insecurity , and so i just built up my hopes ridiculously and found myself writing her these extravagantly long and painfully philosophical e-mails , and then she dumped me over e-mail after only two actual dates and four actual kisses , whereupon i found myself writing her these extravagantly long and painfully pathetic e-mails .