every night he left her he told himself he 'd never go back and then every night he fought going back until he could n't fight it anymore and he had to taste her , touch her , hear her soft , sweet voice whisper `` baby '' , feel her limbs hold him tight after he made her come , feel her eyes on him while he dressed and struggled with climbing right back into her bed and holding her close until he could see the sun shine on her beautiful face .