and when confronted , again , with the knowledge that my boys got a mom like the mom they got , in other words , she 's the kind of woman who would walk into my house , see another woman in my kitchen and lose her mind when she sees someone playin ' with what she considers her toy and scheme in preparation for makin ' a play in my mother 's motherfuckin ' front yard on motherfuckin ' thanksgiving , that is gon na make me conflicted .