suffice it to say that , even though it was probably mindy , maybelline , wanda , one of my other friends becca , jenna , nina , or possibly arlene , cotton , or anyone else in gnaw bone seeing as i lived there all my life , everyone in town knew what had happened to me so everyone was watching over me , i still kept the chain on when i opened the door because my shitty apartment did n't have a peephole .