while we approached and i tried not to hyperventilate , my eyes went from his cafetiere to his face to see he was still looking out his set of opened doors , in profile , his strong jaw stronger in real life than in pictures or on tv , his high cheekbones higher and more defined , his straight nose straighter and more attractive , his thick , black hair clipped short to his head had a healthy sheen to it that was healthier in real life and the appealing dark tone to his skin he got from being half white , a quarter black and a quarter hispanic was far more appealing in person .