no matter how often i talked to him about it , he never even entertained the idea of moving anywhere else , not even when his work offered jobs in dc ( where i really wanted to live , it was beautiful , historical and exciting ) and seattle ( where i 'd been before and i thought it was great , so much so that was the first place i headed after i left my old life - but it did n't hit me like carnal did when i got there , too big , too wet , so i did n't stay ) .