tate watched me while i spoke , his eyes riveted to mine in a strange way that made it seem like the words i spoke etched themselves on his soul the instant i said them and when i was done he asked , `` so you forgive him for bein ' a cheatin ' asshole and a liar and a dickhead who 's so f**kin ' dumb he throws away a good thing but you ca n't forgive me for sayin ' somethin ' stupid ? ''