even with mom and carrie 's great cooking , family and friends all around ( because practically everyone in carnal trooped through our house the last few days ) and almost constant christmas music being played ( because i might give into tate and jonas not liking it much but mom was a christmas music freak and she knew i loved it too and i 'd been abducted , beaten and stabbed so she was going to play my beloved christmas music even if tate was a badass ) things had n't been good .