i smiled at them genuinely this time because really , if i got down to it , spending time with them , shopping at great shops , eating delicious buffalo burgers , snowmobiling , gazing at beautiful vistas , meeting cotton and having him take my photo with max , getting my head sorted about niles which was a relief even if it was a sad one , my colorado adventure might have started out terrible and was trundling along the road of deeply confusing but still , it was n't turning out half bad .