after he had been reading several of the pages for a few minutes , he looked up at them ya know , ive been thinking about this , and im not sure if i want to say anything after all id like to go on living if you know what i mean im not saying i know anything but if i did , then i would probably be worried about what could happen to me if i talked to the cops there could be some people with a lot of connections that wouldnt be happy the kind that can get to you and make sure you never say anything again if you get my drift .