in the silence of waiting she had nothing to do but think and , though she tried to prepare herself for what was to come , her thoughts were centred on what had passed : her parents had run to bradford ; when she met carlos in her pre-university gap year in spain she had been relieved to run to andelucia ; when carlos had been killed by the eta car bomb she had run again , leaving her daughter behind in seville to be brought up by carlos 's parents .