i believe what you are saying is that somewhere along the line rensillere convinced her that by using lsd as a catalyst to psychotic events she might be more able to determine the psychological side effects of violence on the subjects psyche reflecting their involuntary responses to external stimuli and berry looked over at dave and realized by the glazed look in daves eyes that he had gone way too far into the details put simply , under rensilleres influence she came to you for a source of lsd to use in her research and you helped supply the drug to her rensillere used her organization to further his own cause and may have implicated her for the use of lsd and maybe even murder by having several students killed with evidence of the drug in their system that in some way could be linked back to her so you took out the link you had arranged for to protect her .