if nothing else was happening in the world it was all very well - and often very amusing - to sit in the queen of scots listening to the argument go round and round in circles before meeting itself coming back , but he had been seriously disturbed by the man in grey , and he was vaguely worried about amaryllis , although he kept reiterating to himself that she was well able to look after herself , and he was worried that caroline would have started drinking before he got home , and altogether he just wanted to get out of the elgin arms and get on with his life .