she grabbed everything she could from the counter and threw them at me one by one as i let them fly by without moving until the counter was empty and there was nothing left to throw and nothing left for her to do except take two steps forward and slap me in the face as hard as she could as i stood stunned until she did it again and i felt the sting of anger and drew back my arm ... ... and five minutes before that , arguing in the bedroom about money and sex and no relationship because i was never home and i did n't need her or sex anyway since i was out all night doing god knew what with god knew who ... ... and five minutes before , coming into the bedroom and seeing her sitting in bed reading a book about english gardens , feeling the tender warmth of love which still existed between us after so long , until she looked up with an expression that changed from annoyance to anger to the cold hatred which still existed between us after so long ... ... and five minutes before , tucking tyler into his bed , feeling those chubby arms around my neck after waking him by walking clumsily down the dark hall .