i just keep going back to last night , feeling charles mouth on me , hearing that hog die , seeing inside that roof i shot , see this little baby dark boy , and i do n't want to call him a nigger , and he 's lying up in that attic and has this bullet hole in his body somewhere and he ca n't figure out why he woke up and hurts so bad and he does n't know that he did n't wet his bed but that that 's his blood he 's laying in so he 's crying and thinking that it 's pee that 's stinging him so bad and his daddy 's trying to get to him but he ca n't find him in the dark .