in memory of her angry im so angry at the world because i couldnt save her from being taken like a child swallowed by a twister my lovely , little sister and i guess im just angry at my self and this memory for me truly is a taste of the real eternal hell because there was a moment she was leaning towards the light yes , i took the time tried to say it right all those arguments why she should live , lord , i did say it well and this memory for me truly is a taste of the real eternal hell but it was all bullshit everything i said thats not why she should of stayed she was the fucking light in this place i should of closed my mouth and put my arms around her ( like jesus ) to show her what i mean instead as i said girl , youre heading for a fall she fell she fell the words were still on my lips and this memory for me truly is a taste of the real eternal hell they say it wouldnt of made a difference they say it wouldnt of made a difference they say i couldnt of made the difference anyway , of course theyre right nobodys to blame at all lve sol theres a touch that defies the wisdom that youve learned yes , there 's a touch that defies the wisdom that youve learned a pang that seizes in the night , and it burns o how it burns theres a map in your hand and a direction you cant speak yeah , theres a map in your hand and a direction you cant speak and when you try to tell her of it , you know it makes you weak then i spotted tanto , tanto said , no im not he !