she was now left a good deal to herself , to get acquainted with the house and grounds as she could , and spent her days very happily in so doing , while those who might otherwise have attended to her were shut up , or wholly occupied with each other ; edmund trying to bury his own feelings in exertions for the relief of his brother 's , and fanny devoted to her aunt bertram , and thinking she could never do enough for one who seemed so much to want her .