we all felt a little guilty , like we hadnt done anythin ta deserve what hed done fer us , an we all felt like it shouldve been one a us who died in that place , cause he was a really good mani call him a man now cause thats what he wasan we all knew that he was one a the finest wed ever met , even before we left on that mission , but that didnt keep us from givin him the cold shoulder while we were at the base an going out a our way ta make him feel unwelcome .