and your face is hot because you know that you were doing a dumb-ass thing standing twenty feet from a running helo without a cranial helmet or a lifevest or the experience that kept the flight deck guys from being blown over the side or eating a blade and you say oh fuck , im a dick and the airdale says you are a dick standing on the deck like a boot you know better than that and you nod and he says watch yourself dont do dumb shit like that we like you .