and the bored man felt at that time the many blessings of impotence in active homosexuals and decided he could not simply release the browncoat for there had been enough trampling on his the bored mans dignity by strings of men united under horse costumes and he decided to employ the abysses of recessed psychology to worm a confession out of his interlocutor or perhaps he didnt perhaps he simply was curious and had nothing better to do and the bored man asked the brownback what his the brownbacks absolutest most recurring phantasm was , the most obsessive mytheme of his ever so irascible consciousness , and the browncoat said that he would write it down for him and that it was a story of his dying away without any natural cause and being reborn with his former , adult cerebral self , complete with knowledge and americana speech patterns and emotional self-withering , intact and safely lodged within the newborn monster and that he the babe of browncoat instantaneously after maculation should think and talk and will and speak french and idealist german and read dostoevskii and write horrorpictureshow shortstories and grotesque novels of surrealist blood and get into harvard at the age of three months and bully and alienate his parents and make them hate him and slip brandy in his milk and as soon as his hands could slap he would draw an intellectual beard on his flawless fat face with a permanent marker or perhaps scratch it on using the sharper thin end of his rattler for his parents would have bought the new browncoat a rattler before he would even bore on this new earth and then of course he should age and age and his writing would gradually come to be described as adolescent and self-indulging and unpolished and far too generous to himself but indifferent of others and his intellectual prowess should not grow and he should loathe the mere phrasal proximity of the words 'child ' and 'star ' or prodigy and should become an alcoholic and/or a junkie by age three or four and cultivate wrinkles [ through some artificial method yet to be determined , preferably and ironically to be given moderate scientific plausibility ] and his biological family should avoid him around the house and he has not determined whether he should be reborn into his old family his present family immediately after the death of his twenty eight year old self , into a new family , or into the old one as himself , in 1840 , with his 1868 intellect and the ending of course if any he had left to be written later , save a chapter for blacker days whats right was only right .