look there goes the artist that sad fragile creature which does not know which can not know why it exists after all that 's what we really want in this world is to know what we are made for and to know that what we create has meaning and value and the only way you can be sure it to make it for the audience for the critics it 's fucking cowardice joanna thinks she finds it revolting the echo chamber the circle-jerk the buddy-buddy back-scratching incestuous blindness of it all .