however , this third account is just as much subject to doubt as the first and the second , so what you choose to believe is something that you both must decide for yourselves ; we must judge each account by its own merits , but in saying so , i realize that the responsibility falls upon me to give each account its own accurate and thorough telling , for the words that i use and the manner in which i express myself should inalterably have an influence upon your perceptions .