but somehow in the late stages of my enlightenment , i tucked those worldly tidbits into a dusty and disused corner of my brain along with trivialities : various interesting dirges involving ghostly fandangos at desert forts , the lists of enchanting names for the string of donkeys that i thought i joined clip-clopping through the grand canyon with me , and the rituals i hoped to initiate for clubs which i createdthe secret eye club was onewhich no one ever joined .