straining beyond all conceivable limits , i reached upwards to obliterate the sign , but as i touched it , it began to burn , rushing into my hands and face ; and so i desperately grasped it , and all its meanings , screaming with a ripped-opened and dying bloody torn throat , the unwithstandable pain taking me completely out of human consciousness but leaving me there with no possible human relief , and at last in undying gratitude i was cast down to my death , screaming and screaming in all parts of me , through billowing oceanic rivers of pure whooshing air and bottomless reeking nothingness , for a suspended infinitude of catastrophic time , before their limitless , unyielding cruel rock that was the coldly remorseless flattened plate of impossible solid ground rushed up , slamming my entire soul hard against it , breaking me , mercilessly smashing me bodily oblivious , or making me grotesquely forever broken in unamendable shrieking pieces , only in order to be placed trapped for always on the most remote bottom of one of the two sides of the unholy , blessed , trandsgressably immortal wall ?