seemed strange to these people , people who were watching and talking and thinking , that the only person at school who wasnt afraid of death would just coast through life on cruise control like he had seen it all and was only hanging around because he was too rotten for heaven and too green for hell , and was just buying time until his inheritance came and he could spend it on sins like your average rich dude , and would probably never share what hed seen with anyone , as if it had never happened .