you left the house at the end of the drive with the cornfields all around it whispering in the summer wind in the morning after your mom made a huge breakfast with eggs and sausage , and she burnt the cinnamon rolls and then you put down your fork and wiped your mouth and got up and grabbed your gym bag with your shaving gear and a change of underwear , standing at the edge of the table with the egg yolks drying , and then grandma came downstairs and she was crying without making a sound and she pushed this medal on a silver chain into your hands , and then went into the front room and sat down on the sofa with her head in her hands because she thought that shed never see you again and she was right .