im not i began lamely , and wondered with a great deal of fear shooting through me if i was going to be able to rid myself of this married librarian without angering him , for any man brave enough to begin his opening gambit to a young woman by casually discussing her skin conditions and describing the state of her hair as greasy was not likely to be an easy man to deal with , there being an unmistakable level of confidence which he had in his own impressions and ability to overcome the offense that he would generate on the part of the female .