i also told her about something that was very difficult for me to share with anyone , especially with dr. horvt and her psychiatric team ; i relayed to her the details of the fierce argument that had broken out on the day of the funeral between juliska 's father and me before the eyes of their most immediate family circle he had blamed me for his daughters ill fate , saying that had she not met a bum like me , she would never have been driving her new lexus through that run-down industrial quarter in the dead of the night .