he suddenly grew a pair and started taking this host father thing seriously ; told me i couldnt see him , and that was it , and all types of other bullshit ; and he said that in this house what he says goes , etc ; and i ended up crying in his arms , and he cried with me , but then again i was only crying because of him getting a hard on over this stuff in the first place ; duuuuude these people were okay with it , because they had no reason not to be okay with it until mom obsessively specified that the program says no boyfriends , and emphasyzed that she forbids it as well fuuuuuuuuuck honestly i hope i just never see her again ; my only releif is that im away from her now ; although , if this happened back in the old country , i would have left home by now and not gave a fuck once and for all ; believe me allie : once and for fucking all .