i , who was neither truly christian , moslem nor jew , nor follower of the nordic wotan , god of wisdom and learning and disability , but possibly an adherent of the earth 's mother at that , being that as my direction , desired deeply to meet and converse with this frankish god of men 's fortunes , that others claimed they owned , in their reckoning , to be as male , and who legally punished the ignorant , through sundry wretched human medium , all who did not know properly how to address him .