but it wasnt impossible to infer his existence ( and thats what im apologizing for , inferring his existence ) because he was carrying a full length mirrorcertainly the mirror couldnt have just floated in all by itselfand when the door cracked open admitting a stunning and razor sharp triangle of light , myface was reflected in every detail on the surface of that mirror and at that moment it became crystal clear to me that i was , in fact , ned . )