she 's coming in under me and then over to the side with a screwdriver , and i 'm wondering what she 's going to do to a pipe with a screwdriver , and i ca n't help but laugh a little and feel ashamed of myself , and her turning that rotting-rabbit breath and skunk-armpits on me and then i see she also has a butcher knife , which i 've got to be afraid of in her hand , and i squeeze over in the corner , try not to feel her warm body , but she has it all over me .