in retrospect , this nondescript outing seems hardly worth mentioning and yet a life is smelted in such triviality ; and a being in society , so constrained in the yoke of labor , relishes these times wistfully , and reminisces about past occurrences , irreverent as they may seem , when he was a natural and free entityman forever ambivalent whether to come to a quick brutish death in a time of absolute freedom in nature , or indentured to society as a pampered servant , and so often mixing the two in promiscuity and high risk thrills whenever they can be obtained .