and then , minutesour hourslater , the morphine content in his blood now on a down-swing , he didnt feel so good again , and then , minutes later , he suddenly , and for just a break in the morphine cloud remembered and remembered and remembered and he smelled again the acrid cloud of alwyn burning in the guestroom , for although he could not see from where he lay , he knew , knew with all of his failed heart that this is what the smell was , what the dark cloud of scream was ; they had found her , and they had come , and he had failed to protect the one person he , the one person he .