but today i decided , well , why , if i was busy self-examining myself thinking these things , then why couldnt i just put all these thoughts into him and watch him go through it himself and i watch him , step by step : first the french dip , then the liquid beef , the meatflowers , breaking out of the egg , zooming off into space , so many thousands of years in the future that we , us two , myself and frank and you , and everyone we know and their generations times ten , would be forgotten dust in the hooves of the cows rendered into liquid for the benefit of space travelers .