charged , this woman , with everything a man could desire , electric in her instance , bilingual in her charm , floating dovelike on ones arm , the apostle of love laid bare , shaved and manicured , a dizzying waveform given substance through the medium intervening , in this manifestation , air , the ghost of wet-dreams and solitary afternoons , of too much drinking and insufficientrealitystubborn and life-threatening , the rain hammering on his head , the focus of his desire a fixed structure of painted steel lethal in its work and fastened , by bolts large enough to be clothes poles , to the earth .