and in the stillness , raju couldnt help but give weight to his momentary suspicion that after many years of having pushed his eardrums to their limits of tolerance with respect to the volume of his wifes screams and rants , he had finally transcended the physical form to achieve a state of release that brought both equilibrium to the chaos of his personality and a pang of welcomed relief to his already well-worn patiencewhich is to say , that hed entered a kind of nirvana impenetrable to sound .