i had lenny 's pistol that i almost killed charles with , papa 's black pistol that he would have killed charles with if i 'd let him , my little twenty-two that i shot the back of lenny 's car with , and papa 's shotgun that he killed himself with , and i took them all with me to the far side of mama 's farm , back to the junkyard where lenny and i used to hunt rabbits and where helen first told me that she and lenny had been married .