she reached the handle with her right hand , still managing to hold the tray evenly upon her left hand and forearm , turned the knob and slowly pushed the door open , and at the same slow pace the room revealed itself to her : and there , on the floor , by the keyboard , sat elsieno , not elsie , not her darling daughter at all , but something smaller , something which was crazy and wicked and did not belong in the world and which had left her house for good and was in the hospital now and could not be sitting here on this floor for he wasnt even in the house .