whether or not prostitutes were at times made up , donned , and shod to look like the prime minister so as to be gang raped in these sessions , as rumors propound , one can not escape the fact that the vicissitudes of precarious life and its violent nature are acted out in play with fantasy fueling violence , violence fueling fantasy , and pleasures on this decadent plane of existence , in an environment not of ones own choice , are made to a large degree by whatever reality one is living in .