prologue they grieve for they lost his living he grieves for he lost his life but dead he lost more than the living in them he is still alive while he lost life and memory both : : chapter one : : he knew by the cry of locked wheels on tarmac , by the sting of rubber smoke in his nostrils , by the core of silence in which he found himself despite the noiseand perhaps mostly by this stillnessthat he was not going to make it .