yes , yes , yes , the drug is fading , patience , i can and will begin again , the effort now is rallying , clocking on from hidden cells , congregating into action , soon , soon , not yet , not now , now i lie with you again my love , lie in your anaesthetic clutch , like mother , soothing my fever , cooling my sweat with your sense , scents , your almond eyes , hazel , the kernel of my memory , as you evaporate in this too bright light too hot , cold morning light .