and for over a decade , due to the diagnosis of a doctor at a local clinic which was never given a second opinion , i was declared an epileptic and given an overdose of cheap sedatives that allowed me to be even more docile to the captors , not that medication of dilantin and phenobarbital , prescribed widely at the time would have been much better ( caesar , presumably an adult at the time , gaining control of his rather intense epileptic fits by reclaiming his own mind105 ) .