it was n't until his wife left him and cindy had started to develop and looked like her mother , that long raven hair like her mother 's that had n't been cut since the sixties and the same eyes and the same mouth and he thought she was suzanne when he was drunk enough and he came to her at night and took her into his arms and cried , and loving and needing his wife , he held his daughter and pushed into her and made desperate , tender , little boy needing his momma love to her .