living so long on this dry edge of the earth had been a little much for her ; and i wonder now what anguish she felt every time her relatives went back to the old farm without her and her little pride with her place in the strange west must have been weak compensation for the loss of friendships and established course of her life , pots of jam at the county fair and known plants and animals , that she felt every time she was left in this strange place called arizona by them , by the folks .