looking for a name he could control ; a name he had power over ; a name that would give him a new rush , the thrill again of becoming the most important man in this womans life ; the name of someone who would let him overtake her days and nights , so that she thought of nothing but him , did nothing but worry about him , changed her life because of him ; the name of someone he could lie in his prison bunk and happily know : shes locking her door because of me .