: :151 : : harman-karman tried to , but could not find sleep , for there was a large hole in his head where memory should be , where memory should climb out of ; out of which he constantly expected memory to emerge , holding his breath , bracing himself , but no memory-like fingers would grasp the rim of the well to heave the remainder of itself out of it , no head of remembrance would poke up and spill its beans .