she sees herself standing before a jury - a jury of two : mom and dad ... but she knows , a jury celestial , here and on other planets - she does not have to lie down to dream this , for she sees it in front of her : here as she has frozen her stroke , knowing that this stroke : to sign her name , knowing that this first stroke , this `` p '' once formed was the mark , itself a seal - that she was condemning herself : what verdict could the jury bring in but ... . ?