she remembers wandering arm in arm falling all over each other in the tatterdemalion depths of new love in new context in new possibility they fell together into bed fell into each other thumb hooked into waistband into strap into buckle into belt-loop tugging pulling it all off undressing each other in the dusky light laughing softly smiling touching their lips together touching their fingers tip to tip unable to contain the deeper need the seriousness running beneath the need overwhelming leaving their bodies in shakes and trembles and shivers as they cling together their need wordless and immense she pushes you down and reaches her hand into your underthings her hand curves around the swell of your pubis just holding you shuffling touch a hot wet desire she puts her finger inside you you 're so smooth and slick inside the pillow surrounds you a cloud to bury your head inside your body tight and arched she kisses your cheek kisses your ear whispers to you impossible words she tells you to shut your eyes she touches you you are all light all pleasure all desire you feel tears squeezing out at the corners of your eyes she brushes them away are you alright baby you look up at her look full into her eyes and you tell her that you love her you love her so much and she touches your lips and says shush baby your body is filling with light you cling to her and the world shrinks around you until there is only she .