-i kept playing / eventually i went back to it / music scholarship all that but i never wrote again it was too much it was too hard / i had n't the blood left for it / i think sometimes that i would have been better off if they 'd left me to die up there / nothing afterward was worth anything / nothing but you / us / but i still have this song always have it in me / something i made something for me something that will always be mine / i have this and i have its pale shadow .