she needed his presence and the feel of his arms around her ; she wanted her love to come back and be with her ; she wanted to go with him right now following in another plane , following after him to madison , to be with him , to not be separated , to love him , to feel his breathe on her cheek , to know him , not to have to cry because already she was lonely and wretched and wanted her love to never go away , to always be with her , to love and to love and to love always .