unlike many denizens of the suburbs , jude managed to escape most of the soft vices of a semi-pampered life and still had the capacity to have some grace and charity in him , and this was all due to his eyes , which were cast by god and nature to open one notch wider than a normal person 's and thus enabled to soak in the remnants of the awe and aura and mystery of the world , to see god or something like god or more accurately the space where god had been around even mundane things , the self-consciousness amidst the drinks and tits and nonsense that he himself was a mystery , made for love and wanting to be loved , and that the world did indeed have one more secret than hedonism and consumption alone could attest .