he recognized the fact that he was anything but romantic , but somehow this seemed to work to his benefit , for , in her lovely optimism , that was what pinky seemed to find most romantic about him : his inability to make a spectacle of it all , and his discomfort at the prospect of orchestrating anything grand for the sake of impressing her ( she no longer required any affirmations from him that she was special , and frankly , if he had gone through the motions of seeking to impress her now , she would have been more annoyed than impressed , for after days and weeks and months of rehearsing and performing and beholding on stage the same grand orchestrations again and againwhich to its audience were supposed to seem spontaneous , but to its players were most certainly the very antithesisshe had become tired of the need for pomp and melodrama in real life and now sought refuge in the unplanned and the inconsequential ) .