chapter 29 emotions , sentience , the fallacy of words , and the war within for all this time of deliberation , now ending , set free from all tasks of professional drudgery , as fettered and burdensome as that freedom has been , i have only succeeded in getting lost in the vast labyrinth of myself , these natural caverns of perception and sentience and unnatural catacombs of language and existence in society blended together intricately and indistinguishably .