i find them unbecoming ) by informing them right now that i am the main character and the endodiegetic narrator , that i begin this book as an ultra- ratiocinating overeducated loser eking out a sad pathetic living in a sad pathetic chain store in a sad pathetic suburb of sad pathetic london , that i end it in much the same state and that i proceed to detach myself across this book 's expanse from the few personal and societal connections left me ( these connections too are sad and pathetic ) .