chapter seventeen so two days later , the boat pulls out of toulon and you are back on the bridge doing the log , and theres this weird feeling because no one ever mentioned the first lieutenants little dive and how you jumped in after him , and how you are restricted to the ship , its like theres the usual conversation going on the bridge and theres this little bubble around you , even when you are down in supply although the senior chief said when no one was around that it was a ballsy thing to do but you still feel bad about dropping the gun belt because it was your duty and your responsibility [ 140 ] and the right thing to do would have been to call away the rescue detail and stand there and watch the first lieutenant drown but anyways you only missed a day of liberty and you were broke any how so who cares .