she woke to find naomi packing rushing in some frenzy her clothing askew and her blond hair wild a ribbon tied about her ankle which she seems not to notice and her things are disappearing one by one into heavy suitcases by the door all of their life together being erased moment by moment vanessa begged her pleaded through the grimy caul of sleep please do n't go not like this stay with me please where are you going but naomi would not speak she did not have to speak vanessa had felt it coming on for weeks like a rising dread them both hating each other more and more disgust injected into love until love itself is reviled and then naomi is out of vanessa 's tearing clutching fingers out the door out onto the street and gone .