for a moment , he thought hed best attempt to recall what aspect , in particular , this had been so that he might gain an insight otherwise unattainable to him in his daily distractions , when , suddenly , the faint gleam of this memory miraculously cast itself upon him as with the light of a guiding starthis must be it , he thought , this light shall unquestionably lead me to that quality on the outside which begat this burdensome dreadbut then , at the sight of it , it dawned upon him that over the course of his interminable voyage , he should , in pursuit of this elusive memory , ultimately run the risk of losing sight of , if not forgetting altogether , those developments , and surely , that initial web-spun treachery for which he will have originally departed .