not a thing : not a sperm : not a zygote : not a child : not a presence : just a way of remembering her : of being memory of herself : this one self : this singular self : this only self : without which there is not other : into this otherlessness is lilith/priscilla/lily/prissy : all of which is zav/xer/march/mark : all otherless the thunder is unleashed : the clitoris is rubbed thats the rub !