i put this inevitability off as long as possible and continued to occupy my time with a whole lot of nothing - days jam-packed with nothing - long , exhausting days : joints at the harbour , on the beach , at cattle point near cadboro bay , drinks at darcys and the beagle and garricks head , coffees at the moka house , long lazy walks in the vale with julien , steven , harry , and julia , but never with ray .