all bound up in despair and fury hating her and hating yourself remember the arguing fighting screaming remember breaking glass you say why do you have to be like this what 's wrong with you naomi why wo n't you let me in and she shouting back you do n't care you do n't give a shit about my feelings you only care when it affects you you say that 's not true naomi you know it is n't i love you she says you do n't you 're selfish why do you treat me like this you say you do n't know what she 's talking about and she begins to cry furious tears she says that she wishes she were dead you tell her not to be dramatic she says she wishes everyone were dead you tell her to get a hold of herself she says fuck you vanessa just go away leave me alone and you do you slam the door behind you go down the stairs and out into the street and by the time you 've reached the corner the anger is gone and you 're afraid you think of the scars on her arm old scars i was confused once she says and now i have you i 'm all better i promise but you 're afraid and you walk back walk slow at first and then faster and then running running up the stairs and back through the door and she is standing there her face streaked with tears and her golden hair in a tangle and her eyes red and she cries why did you leave me and you take her in your arms i 'm sorry i 'm sorry and you ca n't even remember what you were ever fighting about in the first place and you shut the door behind and go in with her .