in some way expose , betray their nakedness wielding an instrument of violence : word , fist , bite , yell , slap , scream , frantic gasping for air - he liked that best : himself as a choke , peine forte et dure : every ounce , every drop of sweat of his two-hundred-fifty-five pounds pressing them - special holds for each size : the tiny ones hed cover like suffocation , sweeping their arms and legs inside his , his chest flattening their faces ; others hed adjust : wrapping like a constrictor , fingers gripping and shutting and mangling , toes digging in , nails gouging relics of these with whom - he laughs at the moment and ever at the moments of memory - `` with whom death does us part ! ''