again , everything wentwhite flannery o'connor 's offspring `` every once in awhile '' she said with a smile `` i meet someone i can stand but other than that it 's just me and the cat and it 's not easy to understand this desire i feel to reach out and touch someone who really cares but like i said i sleep alone in this bed with these beads and my teddy bear '' sweet , sweet despair sweet , sweet despair meanwhile he laughed taking a nap `` thank god for the grim reaper '' but then he awoke an everyday bloke `` i was better off as a sleeper and if i should pass where the grass meets the tracks or where starboard meets the stairs would i still be dead and stuck in my head or will i find him over there ? ''