that final image of bhakti for that fraction of a second just before he was out of sight and insulated once again in his frigid , but dimly-lit flat would repeat again and again in bunnus mind for years to come : that seeming sigh of reliefthat moist cloud of breath which puffed out of bhaktis mouth by the glow of the oil lamp and into the frozen winter air of the room , hanging for moments and then evaporating ; a billowing vapor inside of which swirled something bhakti wished no-one-else-to-see .