maybe she deserves it maybe she is that awful but there is more to the world you know than who is good and who is not there is a community a culture a sisterhood all this is in your mind but the fury buries it pushes the knot down into your stomach where it will remain always you will always remember it and regret it that you said that but there is nothing to be done you have only fallen a little further in your own estimation and it eats you away piece by piece .