the last item in the drawer is a heavy binder thick and crowded with material the pages loose and numerous and densely scribbled upon some of them even typed final product she turns it over in her hands tucks the pages back inside without opening it she feels the weight of it which is a considerable weight and there is a rising joy in her a desire pulsing through her she is sure quite sure that this is it this is what they have been searching for she holds it ready to open but hesitates .