exactly , he is that strong , thatd shed be dead , for she has been murdered within his embracefinds ancient sarah glaring at her in fright as jared embraces as if she were the lamb of sacrificeand she knows that he knows and that he trembles knowing that it is he who has the dagger always as part of him , his body being the dagger and the bludgeon and the axe , fully the warriors instrument of murder , so does he find but they are finding it together through this ritual and their shared quest , this insight , this harrowing feeling that mingles dread , desire and delight at the instant moment before entry of each into the other .