she wanted to lose herself in them , to immerse her soul in them , to emerge from behind their liquid curtain to discover that she had been dreaming all all this that her legs were useless that she lay in a hospital bed thousands of miles from her home in japan that that her parents were were ... were dead the tears trembled in her vision ... izumi ... hes ... hes gone just beyond this liquid shroudthere he is streaks of sunlight , released and split a million ways , and now gone , just as they are ... . goneall of them , gone .