now i have to sit here and think how stupid one persons obsession can be this hasnt changed anything ill still see sterne [ forbidden boyfriend ] this only brought us closer ; but the disapointment , this sensation of ramming my head against the wall , makes me think fuck em all every last one and fuck their fucking protection , makes me wan na tear my clothes off one day and just take sterne fucking take him , make him a boyfriend like it says in the fucking definition ; like fucking enough already , you know ; the moment is approaching ; yeah , like in donnie darko , when youre sick of all the shit and you just simply fucking do it , just absolutely shitting on all the rules and norms and programs and moms and rules normally , i wouldnt have even thought of doing it but now , i even know the day its happening : wednesday come wednesday , i probably wont be a virgin anymore ; thats just a fait divers ; because the rest are idiots , and if im the only thing that can hurt them then so fucking be it ; poshli vy vse nahui , suki limits suck , but ive reached the limit yours , the rebel child inside you the browncoat found this letter in his mailbox one day and imagined it must have been dropped there by mistake .