the bench would take on half the weight , and resting there , you might amuse yourself for a moment by looking through the cracks in the seat of the bench at the ground ( maybe mud down there or grass growing or bugs or something ) and when you were ready to go again , youd just kneel beside the bench , keening the weight of the box back onto your shoulders and then slowly stand up ) but i was pretty sure i could manage to lug it out the door ( automatic door , sliding apart in front of me ) and out of the parking lot ( devoid of an incriminating car ) and to the corner and down the block where -- lo and behold ! -- there would be the dead guys family ( the woman , the two kids ) hanging around the locked car , the woman , perhaps , wondering what to do ( having found the car on her own , should she call the police ?