the emptiness is deep inside her a gaping growing emptiness which drinks in all the light of the world which drinks in every good thought she has never known life without his presence david 's presence which was such an enormous weight had always filled the emptiness not healed her not repaired her only filled the space like taping wax paper over a broken windowpane it just makes the hurt a little dimmer and now that too has been stripped away so that she feels it always and entire .