suddenly he thought he understood : it meant to thrust him through some wall at the end of the universe and into some other place ( what that old turtle called the macroverse ) where it really lived ; where it existed as a titanic , glowing core which might be no more than the smallest mote in that other 's mind ; he would see it naked , a thing of unshaped destroying light , and there he would either be mercifully annihilated or live forever , insane and yet conscious inside its homicidal endless formless hungry being .