i know the way his mind works c it would be funny if i did n't , would n't it , after living with him for twenty-five years , watching him sit on the bench and make real-estate deals and drink and make real-estate deals and chase other men 's wives and make real-estate deals and ... oh , shit , i sit here and wonder what i would say at his funeral if someone gave me a dose of pentothal an hour before the services .