but then she would be somewhere-at the supermarket , maybe-and she would hear sudden tittering laughter from the next aisle and her back would prickle , her nipples would go hard and hurtful , her hands would tighten on the bar of the shopping cart or just on each other , and she would think : someone just told someone else that i 'm jewish , that i 'm nothing but a bignose mockie kike , that stanley 's nothing but a bignose mockie kike , he 's an accountant , sure , jews are good with numbers , we let them into the country club , we had to , back in 1981 when that bignose mockie gynecologist won his suit , but we laugh at them , we laugh and laugh and laugh .