visions , dreams , and prophecies took the place of thoughts , only to be forgotten in the moments following their psychic flashpoints , and then the void became the orgasm , the orgasm became the void , and he was floating , floating upwards through a grave , the grave of the astral plane , back to the universe he must rape , back to the races he must slay , back to the smoke-filled , sperm-splattered meditation chamber of the living spaceship , and back to the body he must escape , ascending to the ultimate state of consciousness and freeing the tortured soul of mother chaos , his soulmate and guardian angel .