richard stopped holding back , damian stopped being afraid , jean-claude stopped being so careful , the blond woman let go of some deep anger , the dark-haired one let go of love searching for love , there was n't enough left of travis to give up anything else , nathaniel gave up the last of his fear that i 'd grow tired of him , micah gave up that hard , deep rage that i 'd never even known was there , and i gave up my control .