and altogether the fear that hovered about me was such an unknown and immense kind of fear , so unlike anything i had ever felt before , that it woke a sense of awe and wonder in me that did much to counteract its worst effects ; and when i reached a high point in the middle of the island from which i could see the wide stretch of river , crimson in the sunrise , the whole magical beauty of it all was so overpowering that a sort of wild yearning woke in me and almost brought a cry up into the throat .