this bothered me over a wider range of my mind than i liked to admit , and at last i decided it was because if it had been me , i would n't have been waiting for the next thing , like a groom who has put on his morning coat and finally has his tie right and is only sitting there on a bed in the upstairs of his house and looking first at himself in the mirror and then at the clock on the mantel and waiting for it to be eleven o'clock so he can get married .