'we eventually got most of this story from clawson himself , ' liz went on , 'but his perspective was naturally a little skewed thad likes to say all of us are the heroes of our own lives , and according to clawson he was more of a boswell than a creepazoid ... but we were able to put together a more balanced version by adding stuff we got from the people at darwin press , which published the novels thad wrote under stark 's name , and the stuff rick cowley passed along . '