`` i have seen good weather and bad , and if there were times when i wondered what it might be like to actually be in the sears store instead of ordering from the catalogue , or to go into one of those shaw 's markets i see on tv instead of buying at the store here or sending alden across for something special like a christmas capon or an easter ham ... or if i ever wanted , just once , to stand on congress street in portland and watch all the people in their cars and on the sidewalks , more people in a single look than then there are on the whole island these days ... if i ever wanted these things , then i wanted this more .