images beginning to slide downhill through his mind while felix cavaliere sang , i was feelin ' so bad : arvn soldiers , many no bigger than american sixth-graders , pulling dead buttocks apart , looking for hidden treasure , a nasty scavenger hunt in a nasty war , can tah in can tak ; coming back to terry with a dose in his crotch and a monkey on his back , wanting to score so bad he was half out of his mind , slapping her in an airport concourse when she said something smart about the war ( his war , she had called it , as if he had invented the fucking thing ) , slapping her so hard that her mouth and nose bled , and although the marriage had limped along for another year or so , it had really ended right there in concourse b of the united terminal at laguardia , with the sound of that slap ; entragian kicking him as he lay writhing on highway 50 , not .