there were dark brown circles under her eyes , and i was absurdly touched ; she had found it in her heart to cry for me in spite of all the twinkies and yodels i had hooked out of the breadbox after she went to bed , in spite of the time , when she was twelve , that i had given her a little bag of vigoro after she had spent about a week looking at herself sideways in the mirror with her tightest t-shirt on so she could see if her boobs were getting any bigger ( she had burst into tears and my mother had been super-pissed at me for almost two weeks ) , in spite of all the teasing and the shitty little i'm-one-up-on-you sibling games .