of course she had driven him to the final stroke , worrying at him constantly about selling the house on leighton street ( he did n't want to ; she was determined that he would ; the final monster stroke , which occurred after three smaller ones at two-year intervals , came three days after the house was put up for sale ) , but she would no more admit that she knew this than she would admit the fact that , although she had attended st bart 's in utica ever since earliest childhood and was one of the leading lay-women in that fine church , she believed the concept of god was a crock of shit .