the blob of red wax with which his brother had sealed the letter came together at the edges like a wound that had never healed , and try as he might to avoid seeing them , his gaze caught the words that someone , probably billingshurst , had written on the back ... . found on the desk of captain lord charles adair de montforte on the 19th of april 1775 , the day on which his lordship was killed in the fighting at concord .