i had likewise , you may be sure , selected the most good-looking gentleman , but he was not present at the time when i most required a distraction for my allies , and in any event i would not have been foolish enough to indicate to them that i had even the slightest hint of interest in a specific young man , even if it was only a very mild and indifferent sort of appreciation , which is the only kind that is left to anyone who has grown up in the vicinity of your brothers face .