ralph ignored that , ignored his throbbing side , and ignored the voice telling him he ought to stop this , he really ought to , because he was dreaming awake , just as the hall book said many insomniacs eventually did , and although those little fellows across the street did n't really exist , he could really be standing here on this slowly sliding chair , and he , could really break his hip when it went out from under him , and just how the hell was he going to explain what had happened when some smartass doctor in the emergency room of derry home asked him ?