`` that gretchen tillbury is one hard sugarbun , '' helen was saying , `` just before she left she told me it was all right for me to love ed'it has to be all right , '' she said , 'because love does n't come out of a faucet you can turn on and off whenever you want to'-but that i had to remember my love could n't fix him , that not even ed 's love for natalie could fix him , and that no amount of love changed my responsibility to take care of my child .