I know the secret to the quiet mind but wish I’d never learned it
A few years ago I got some kind of brain illness. Doctors were unable to come up with a strong diagnosis, which is apparently quite common for such cases.One of the effects of the illness was that I essentially became stupid. I couldn’t focus on anything (even trivial activities like watching television), I couldn’t compose emails, I would get disoriented easily. It was absolutely terrifying not knowing whether or not my mind would come back. At the time, I would have preferred having a disease like cancer because at least I would know what I’m dealing with. Eventually I did start to get better. Like the author, I think I’m probably not quite back to who I was before getting sick.A couple things I learned from my interaction with the medical system - 1. Like any other industry, 90% of medical “experts” are totally incompetent. 2. The state of diagnostics is pretty abysmal. So much of medicine is completely nonscientific guesswork. Most doctors aren’t even aware of the latest diagnostic developments in their own fields. Think about the people you know who learned Java in college and then never learned another programming language; chances are, your doctor is that kind of person.