Ask HN: Are you depressed?
What I would suggest is reading a book that have helped me a lot and may help you as well. "Man's Search For Meaning" from Viktor Frankl.The author is an austrian therapist that founded the "logotherapy" (healing through meaning) after surviving WW2 concentration camps.Is a very small book, and very easy reading, and at the time that I've read it, it helped me find the inner tools within myself to go on and achieve happiness.The best thing about being at the very end of a big, long, dark whole in the ground, is that you can only go up.I know that it's not easy to be you right now. But sometimes the worst things that happens to us, turn out to be blessings in disguise.The bad news is that the healing needs to come from within you, nobody can help you from outside. Not therapists, not family or friends. They can only support you and help you reach your inner voice again to move forward.Reading a book in itself is not going to help you either, but the thought process that come from it may help you start a different, happier path.Think of this time as a turning point: There's the old you, and the new one, that needs to start over and reboot himself into something different and better.