Some terrible personal news
I lost my wife suddenly in 2009, she was 34.Losing your significant other is something that you never get over - you live with the emptiness and the hurt, and you learn to move on and hope that the "fog" eventually lifts. It's something that only someone else who has been through the same experience will understand.  I was lucky to meet a friend who had lost her husband a couple years before, and she helped me through the hardest times.Matt, if you ever read these comments, all my thoughts and condolences for you.  I know "thoughts and prayers" does nothing, but a lot more people care than you realize.Hang in there.