Ask HN: I'm So Lonely
Modern Western sociology has been an experiment in the deconstruction of community since the industrial revolution, and significantly moreso since the 2nd WW. The 'tribe' has been considered an evil to be eradicated (rather than seeing othering outsiders as a thing to be fixed). The village has been deconstructed with folk pushed into isolated family islands, and in the last 30 years those family islands have been actively broken down by our quest for individualism and personal identity.This is NOT how most of the world functions outside of the west, strong community bonds have underpinned the fabric of society and what you're experiencing having been shunted off your family island is the missing safety net provided by robust community.The advice you're going to receive here will be proffered by folk in the same deconstructed system of individualism focusing on you as an individual.. but what you're experiencing is a need to belong to something greater than yourself that cares for your emotional and social needs, AKA: community. There are groups within the west who are fundamentally aware of these problems and strive to create community, communes, religious groups, eco villages.. find groups that are focused on community (and supporting each-other, being a 'tribe') and get involved in whatever they are doing.Ps: 'untrusting of women' is an alarm bell that makes me think you see women as a class rather than humans, this should be an alarm bell for you too to realise that generalisations about groups of people are always a bad idea.Wishing you well in your adventure friend.