Ego and Math [video]
"Utility had a strange backseat for me"I kinda took that to the extreme when I was young. Used to loathe anything practical - experiments, programming, applied math etc cuz you know they weren't "pure" and engaging enough. I would also have a hardtime processing/registering something if I'm not able to derive it analytically from first principles. It felt like cheating if I have to use a formula without fully understanding how it was derived haha.