My startup failed, and this is what it feels like
Well written.  One thing I always find funny about the startup world is the idea that hardship is good.  Hardship isn't good.  Hardship sucks.  Sometimes hardship is something you need to survive to accomplish your goals, but not always.  While there are a lot of successful startups that went through a lot of hardship, there are a lot of them that didn't.  It seems that based on a lot of factors that were outside of your control you were playing the startup game on "hard mode" and you gave it a pretty good run anyways.Also a pretty good lesson that having a good job and comfortable life maybe isn't so bad after all (a very un-silicon valley lesson).