On keeping sketchbooks
Helps to reign in the inner dialogue. At some point, a soft, friendly voice was discovered. She'd tell me to be nicer to myself. Seemingly we're 3-4, maybe 5 ppl inside this skull. Lately she changed into a nice granny and I found that it would be nice if she became my dominant self.The current dominant self is all about herself, addicted to gaming, distracted, annyoing and anxious, and yearns for the end of life when frustrated. I'd never noticed these things if I hadn't given them a voice.goes like this:I'm dumb, I'm worthless, everyone would be better w/o meher voice: What happened?current me: I can't do this, this should be easy, I want to be deadher voice: That so? What's your fear with this?current me: I could be seen as lazy, I'd rather be dead than be seen as lazyher voice, ironic tone: seems rationalThen the voices just stop and I can refocus... it's really weird. Anyways. Journaling really helps!