Procrastination and the priority of short-term mood regulation
I can't break out of my pattern of (attempted) short term mood regulation anymore. I'm just trying to distract myself getting high and watching historical documentaries or netflix because I barely have motivation for anything more, yet something always triggers painful memories of my childhood and past years and I really can't cope. I hate being so alone but I couldn't stand acting like I'm okay anymore around people so I just end up not going to things and am even more alone. This has been going on for a few weeks now.