Some Practical Thoughts on Suicide
It should be a liberating thought - that you've got nothing to lose, go try something exciting like  white water kayaking, 
  hike the Pacific Crest Trail, 
  sail across the ocean, 
  challenge yourself at a sport, biking, swimming, climbing?
  take a safe amount of MDMA and go to a music festival?
  listen to some alan watts [1]
  try fresh cannabis [ideally from Washington/Colorado/California], and music 

[1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vtQf5kSHKhE