Ask HN: How do you deal with getting old and feeling lost?
This might be helpful.
https://alantabor.medium.com/reverse-engineering-my-life-e06...I did this on retirement around age 55 so I had a bigger database of experience in my starting sample but with a widely varied work experience you should be able to systematically dig what drives engagement.Note, this isn't great for a 'and now for something completely different' crisis where some excluded aspect of your self wants center stage and is fading the usual things to gray.