I'm gaining weight. I'm a bit overweight but that's not what worries me.
For a while i'm stealing food from my roomates. It's like an urge i can't control, i don't kow why.
I was certainly capable of stealing or lying during my addiction to alcohol. The fact that you are seeing the problem is a great step. I'm glad you plan to talk to your psychiatrist.
I also want to welcome you to Trans Pulse.
Welcome to the forum! I am newish so I can't say much on where to look first, but I can say everyone is super nice here!
@michelle_kitten Thank you very much for the warm welcome and being so open about your history. I very much appreciate the thoughtful response. I am glad you are finding your way now, and hope to follow in your footsteps, where ever that leads me, too or away from gender related topics. Not sure where I land yet, but your story does feel somewhat familiar.
I just finished listening to "Live from Here". Actually I also watched a piece of it while I was eating as they live stream the show. I wasn't particularly enamored with the previous iteration "A Praire Home Companion" but I look forward to this show when I can listen. The host, Chris Thile is an amazing performer and while his genre is Americana there is a wide variety of acts on his show. I've been exposed to lots of music I never experienced before. Music is life!
This is why it is recommended to wait and see what HRT will do before making plans! I can read that you are happy. That's what matters!
@DeeDee I'm weirdly conscious about my own stammer on a personal level, enough for me to assume it's an annoyance even when I know better. Which is incidentally something I'm going to be bringing up with a counsellor, once they get around to me. Because I know it would be fun, and the obstacles between me and it are entirely of my own engineering. Rowing might be pretty good for me health-wise though: I was one of those 'weird people' who actually enjoyed the rowing machine at the gym when I used to go😜 Might start going again when I eventually get over changing room anxiety (and lose the beard permanently). @Jani Can't say I've heard of geocaching, though looking more closely, there is probably a lot of overlap between travelling. If the geocache website is accurate, there are over 6000 caches in my area alone! Am a little turned off by the need to travel regularly to keep hitting that sweet spot of discovery (I'm fairly limited to where I can get to either by public transport or by my own 2 feet). Got rid of my bike a few months ago; thing made me strangely anxious (weird considering I rode bikes loads as a child). Funnily enough I did think about orienteering at work today, not sure if I'll pursue it or not at this stage. Could be an intriguing work-group activity (we're a small, intimate group). Most of us went up Snowden for my boss's birthday last year, so orienteering wouldn't be THAT big of a leap? @tracy_j Is it a sort of friendly turn up & paint/craft with a small group of friends sort of situation? Learning to draw in a relaxed environment with the occasional nibbles doesn't sound so bad to be honest. Apparently there is also quite a few different martial arts studios in my area too that I never noticed. Like the IDEA of something that works cardio, gives me a slightly-greater-than-0% chance to defend myself if caught in a dangerous position where I cannot simply leave quickly, as well as forms social bonds, but need to sit on it for a couple months to see if it's just my own mind running amok with unrealistic fantasies. HRT and months of relatively sedentary life (bar walking to work all the time) has taken a fair bit of strength from me, and at 5'3 (160cm) tall, I'd need maximum passion in order to keep up with my peers in that kind of environment. What you're all doing is working by the way❤️ There is also professional counselling on the cards in order to properly uproot the cause/s of what ails me, but getting me intrigued in life again is part of the healing process, and to hold onto that flame once it gets going again.