What difference between you and pre-Islamic polytheists (idolaters) of Makkah?
Some polytheists worship near physical idols and seek Lord Almighty Alone in their heart. They don't want anything to be filled in their heart except their Lord-the Creator and Preserver.
They are better than you who does not worship a physical idol, but asking the God Almighty for idols (temporary non-beneficial to soul,desires of this world)t want to fill your hearts with idols of desires,sinful thoughts, self worship and seeking worldly honor!.
People who does self study are misguided, because the idols that is in their hearts make interpretation of the things they are studying, which cause them to deviate from the truth and straight path!, but the purified souls are in the heart of the believer. And the friends of Allah, from whose heart divine light manifest as a guidance to the people. Only the Light of Allah, Noor Muhammad (alaihiswalathu wa salam) can guide people to the truth, and only heart that filled with the Light of God grasp the Message of Islam.
WHO CAN GRASP THE BLESSINGS OF QURAN:?
Quran 56:79 None can grasp it Quran) except the sincere.
So, sincere people are those who love and are sincere to Allah, His Angels, Prophets and Imams of Muslims. Not those who say 'only Quran and Hadith'. Those who say, only Quran and Hadith, and reject Imams and the creed of main body, is fooling you to misguidance and hell fire!
Quran 17:82 We send down in the Quran healing and mercy for the believers. At the same time, it only increases the wickedness of the transgressors.
So, the People who follow the Imams of Tazkiya (Shaykhs of Tasawwuf) with full submission are the guided and the Book of Allah Heals them and bring Mercy upon them. For others though they read Quran, it does not benefit them. Rather, it increase their heart with hatred , enmity,misguidance and error!. This is how the Sufis become merciful and healers of humanity , while others become dissenters, hateful , corrupter ,and self worshipers!
In the exalted Naqshbandi Sufi Way, the Shaykhs of this path, train the Murids (disciples) to eliminate the false idols, by the Spiritual guidance (Tarbiyya) and Spiritual exercise.