I am alone. I live in a farmhouse in the wilds of western Massachusetts. Loneliness is a condition that I have experienced for most of my life. And it is a condition I do not expect to change before my life comes to an end. But this was not always the case. There was a brief duration when I was not alone. It was during this time that my life changed forever. It was then that I learned my true nature. For I am cursed with a singular affliction, a disease like no other.
Every day I visit the centuried foundation of a house in the wood. I stand inside the ruin and drink in the oldness of the stones, the history of the place. Next to the foundation is a well, whose ancientness fills me with bliss. I stand near the well, but never too near, lest I am tempted to climb down into it. I am wary of that after what has happened. But I am getting ahead of myself.
But merely visiting the old places was not enough. I began furtively stealing pieces of the past for myself–a chip of slate from a gravestone, a hand-forged iron nail from a church. And then I would sleep with these objects under my pillow and dream of times when my great-great-great-great-great-great-grandparents walked the earth.
By morning, however, the antiquity would somehow be drained from the stolen object. It would feel as ordinary as something that had been manufactured yesterday, and have no power to inspire the dreams I craved.
I took to stealing larger and larger things. In the dead of night, I removed entire gravestones, and, crazed with delight, curled up with them in my bed like cold lovers. But even these prizes would lose their potency after a few days, and I would discard them like empty husks of corn.
Then, on my third-and-twentieth birthday, I received a letter from a cousin of mine named William, who lived in Shutesbury, near our family seat. The letter was brief, and, after a few opening pleasantries, he invited me to come stay with him at his house.
The invitation was well-timed, for I was beginning to feel a sense of desperation at my nightly thefts, that I should be caught soon, and yet was unable to stop. Perhaps a visit to the country was just what I needed to get a hold of myself. Though as a rule I am loath to use such a modern instrument as a telephone, I made a hurried exception to call William and finalise the arrangements.
The next obstacle was travelling from Boston to western Massachusetts. I was forced to purchase a ticket on a frighteningly contemporary omnibus, and forebear an excruciating two-hour journey surrounded by nothing but painful modernity and the vulgar stares of my fellow passengers due to my anachronistic attire. At last, the ride came to a merciful end in Amherst, and I found myself waiting in the November chill for William to arrive. It was not long before his automobile appeared, and, with an awkward nod, he took my suitcase and spirited me to his home in Shutesbury. Thankfully, William's tastes also ran towards the antiquated, and the farmhouse where he lived dated to the mid-1800s, an early enough vintage to keep me comfortable.
That night, however, my longings vexed me. I tried to resist the temptations of antiquity, but the craving overpowered me. I stole from my bed and crept outside into the moonlight, drawn inexorably to the ruined barn behind my cousin's farmhouse. The barn was nigh upon two hundred years old, and wonderfully decayed.
I pried loose a pair of hand-forged nails from the doorframe, intent on smuggling them to my bedroom. But I was surprised in my furtive labours, and futilely attempted to secrete the stolen nails in my pocket.
"You do?" I cried, scarcely able to believe my ears.
So there was a name for my affliction. Time-eater.
I followed him back into the warmth of the farmhouse. Settling into my bed, I put the cold iron nails under my pillow. Their antiquity was just enough to dull my craving, and I fell into a shallow, dreamless sleep.
The next morning, I accompanied William on a walk through the wood behind his house. The trees were barren, their denuded branches grasping towards heaven like supplicating hands. We spoke little, and the silence was broken only by the sound of our feet crunching the dry, dead leaves.
At last we reached the destination to which William had been guiding me. Deep in the wood, we came upon the stone foundation of a house. It was very old, doubtless from Colonial times, and the antiquity reverberated in this place like the echoes of a beautiful symphony.
My eyes lighted upon a stray scrap of lumber, a surviving fragment of the original house. Three exquisite nails jutted from the jagged wood, and my fingers involuntarily moved to pry them loose. But William grasped my wrist and stared at me with those blue eyes of his.
He let go of my wrist. Instead of taking the nails, I resisted, and held my open palm above them. I could feel the waves of oldness flood into me like the flush of warmth one feels after imbibing an excellent wine.
I stood that way for a number of minutes, and then a most extraordinary thing happened. I could see the faint traces of the house shimmering around the foundation, as it must have appeared when it was still standing.
The ghost-image became more distinct, and I could see a man and a woman inside the house. The man wore a brown frock coat with silver buttons and knee breeches. He sat at a table drinking ale from a brass tankard and reading a leather-bound edition of Plutarch's Lives. The woman wore a bonnet and hoop-skirt, and sat at a spinning wheel, gently coaxing a thread from spindle to distaff as she spun her husband a new waistcoat.
William and I stood there entranced, watching the lingering images of this long-dead man and his wife for the rest of the day. I am certain he saw the same thing as I, although we never spoke of it. Finally, the sun sank low in the sky, and the bare-branched trees cast grotesque shadows over the forest. William nudged my shoulder and broke my trance. The house vanished like a morning mist, leaving behind nothing but a stone foundation once again.
"We should head back," he said.
Dumbly, I nodded my affirmation. We turned to head back to the warmth of William's farmhouse, and I realised that my hands and feet were numb from standing in the late-autumn chill for so many hours. Then I noticed something I had not seen before and stopped.
The low stone ring of an old well poked up from the ground next to the foundation of the house. I stared down into the hole and the darkness stared back up at me. Powerful waves of antiquity were drifting up from the well like fragrant smoke from an incense burner. I was transfixed, and stood staring down the well until William took my arm and gently pulled me away.
Reluctantly, I followed my cousin away from the well and out of the wood, where we retired to the sanctuary of his farmhouse for a modest meal of bread and butter and boiled potatoes.
Twice more we visited that house in the wood, and other secret places that William showed me. Each night I found it easier to fall asleep than the last, sated after a day's immersion in old things. But on the third night, I was awoken by disturbing dreams. In the dead of night I heard a voice calling to me from outside.
Hastily donning my clothes, I stole from my cousin's farmhouse, quietly shutting the door behind me. The voice was coming from the forest. Of course it was. And I knew just where it was leading me.
I found myself standing before the well. My legs had brought me there of their own accord. Just as they now stepped over the lip of the well and carried me down a long vertical tunnel of absolute darkness. My fingers and feet found protruding blocks of stone that served as a ladder, helping me to climb downwards into the unknown.
At last the narrow well opened up into a large underground chamber with ceiling, walls and floor made of stone. The protruding steps continued along the wall of the chamber, guiding me downwards until I found myself at the bottom. It should have been pitch-dark here, but somehow there was a dim green glow whose source I could not ascertain.
And then I saw her. Standing before me was a woman dressed in the sombre clothing of another era: a black bonnet and black hoop-skirted dress that was tattered almost to shreds. The woman's skin was pale and greenish, though I couldn't tell if the verdant hue was her skin's natural tint or merely an effect of the weird light in the chamber.
She beckoned me towards her, and I stepped closer, enchanted by her. She was beautiful. And old. Antiquity wreathed her body like a subtle perfume.
The enchantment was broken my cousin's urgent voice, which echoed around the chamber harshly. He scrambled down the steps and rushed to stand between me and the black-clothed woman. William was holding a silver ankh engraved with symbols I didn't recognise. The woman skittered away from the ankh, holding her hands in front of her, as if the sight of it caused her pain.
William turned toward me. "Go back, Richard!" he shouted. "She wants to make you as she is…" Taking his eyes off the woman was a mistake. She struck William's hand, causing him to drop the ankh, which clattered to the floor with a metallic ring.
Not waiting to see if my cousin was following me, I flew up the steps, climbing back up into the darkness of the well. I heard William's screams behind me, and I knew then that he would not escape. I hauled myself out of the well and lay on the ground panting, my breath misting in the cold night air.
I waited until morning, but William never emerged. His screams had stopped suddenly while I was climbing, and since then I had heard nothing but silence from the darkness of the well.
Fifty years have passed since that terrible night, and still I live in my cousin's farmhouse by the wood. I never seek the company of others, only venturing to town long enough to purchase the necessities of life, and then returning immediately to the life of a hermit.
Every day, I enter the wood and visit the foundation of the vanished house. And I stand before the well that sits beside it. The antiquity that bubbles up from the well refreshes me like a fountain of cool water in the desert.
One day I may climb down it again and join my cousin and that beautiful woman. One day I shall become as they are. But not yet. Not just yet. Back I go to the farmhouse at the end of another day.
Adam Bolivar is an expatriate Bostonian who has lived in New Orleans and Berkeley, and currently resides in Portland, Oregon. His short story "Down and Out in Mythos City" will appear in the Amazing Stories of the Flying Spaghetti Monster anthology, scheduled for publication by Eraserhead Press in November of 2011. His short story "Drake" will be printed in the debut issue of Grave Demand magazine, also due out in November. Several of his stories, including his "Weird Jack Tales" series, have been featured in the Freezine of Fantasy and Science Fiction.
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While reading this I was able to smell out actual Lovecraftian tales, such as: "The Tomb", "The Hound", and a couple more. Kind of saw it going in another direction, but turns out good all the same.
I enjoyed this one a lot, Adam, it has great mood and some cool and unique ideas, and the writing is fresh too. Look forward to reading more of your work!
A.J., I'm glad you liked it–that means a lot. I saw your comment about recommending this story to Mike. Wow–thanks! I certainly have plenty more stories where "The Time Eater" came from.
I just watched The Colour From Dark on indiemoviesonline.com which was based on Lovecraft's The Colour From Outer Space. In this film there was a well and an ancient evil came out of it in the form of a blue haze.
Anyways, great story Adam, look forward to reading other works by you.