###Human: Why am I not happy no matter what the situation is? ###Assistant: Hello. I can understand your concerns. You should be able to distinguish between disappointment and depression. Disappointment also brings on symptoms identical to depression but they are short lived. You had multiple disappointing episodes and some of them were so deep. You feel depressed because you feel so. Many people feel depressed when their near and dear one expire. But they come back unscathed mainly because there is no other alternative. You also did the same. You came back without any problem, but you feel you are depressed. You are having antidepressants and anti-anxiety drugs. Clinical depression and anxiety are usually treated with a combination of psychiatric medicines, psychotherapy, lifestyle changes, meditation and exercise. I suggest you to get a cognitive behavior therapy. Please consult a psychologist for the same. Also kindly continue the present psychiatrist treatment.