###Human: I am not having any control on my mind and emotions. Why? ###Assistant: Hello. Based on your symptoms you seem to be suffering from a mood disorder, either bipolar or cyclothymia or depression. There is a need for detailed assessment and evaluation to confirm the diagnosis. It happens in acute phases of illness that disturbance is so high, one cannot concentrate properly hence meditation is very difficult. Once your Illness settles little, you would be able to do meditation. I would advise you to consult a psychiatrist, get your diagnosis confirmed and go-ahead with planned treatment. Do not delay in seeking the treatment, your condition and symptom severity seems high. If you find it hard to fight alone, involve your family members for support and care. You need them at the moment. Wish you get well soon.