I silently climbed the stairs so as not to wake my grandmother and father but although my footsteps were quited, my mind was racing with enhanced speed. Ears buzzing, I closed the door of my room and leaned against it as shadows caused by the light pouring in weakly through the shutters, danced around me. Instead of a hectic delighted feeling that should have carried me over the moon, I was confused and feeling abnormally ashamed of myself.