At the time I was at first just dazed then frightened then relieved then finally both angry at you for letting me fall and afraid of what Mother would say You called down asking if I was all right I opened my mouth to shout and then you called again a note of rising panic in your voice and with those words stopped mine in my throat I lay still eyelids cracked enough to watch you through the foliage of lashes You disappeared calling out for help I waited a moment then quickly hauled and pushed my way to the top then pulled myself over the edge and landed on the courtyard cobbles