You're afraid if you look for your passion and don't find it, you'll feel like you're an idiot, so then you make excuses about why you're not going to look for your passion.
자신의 열정을 찾고자 했는데 그걸 찾지 못할까봐 겁이 나는건가요. 바보같이 느껴지겠죠. 그리고는 왜 열정을 찾으려 하지 않는지 변명을 합니다.